I use to lay with my brother in his crib 4years apart thts my earliest memory. I have always had accidents too and just recently started to be comfortable with diapers. However I remember my grandma would not mind buying me bottles at about 6 or 7. The 1st time I stole a paci was 13 and used it in a movie theater. 16 my bro found it and told my aunt who was living with us.we had bunk beds with railings and when separated I made it look like a crib. I'm now 32 an embracing it now more than ever ish. I'd say little age 3. I think ur so cool for being so open about these subjects.
Thank you for this episode, that was a good thing to hear and it's necessary as others are saying, to break the stigma. When there are people incurring in risky behaviour (drink, drugs etc) a a way to spend the time, this is not judged as much as spending time 'being' a baby, which is totally innocuous and harmless, and the general public needs to be able to understand this, even if they might not want to share it. In order to add a bit of balance to the fetish side of it, I would add that there is the non fetish side of it, the amount of people who regularly want to spend time in that headspace without any fetish or sexual connotation, and I know this well because this is what I have done for years. Anyway, congratulations for the episode and thanks for the contribution to normalization.
I really enjoyed this information. I've been working on breaking the stigma within myself too say its ok to wear diapers. We only have this one shot at life why not live your best one and love who you are 100% of the time its not illegal or cause harm to anybody. We need a healthy balance in the community knowledge is key to open doors!!!
Thank you so much for your work in the DEstigmatizing the ABDL community. People really need to understand us instead of judging us. So-oooooooooooo many people are So-oooooooooooo freaken' negative that it's pathetic. Being an AB or a DL ISN'T wrong unless WE make it wrong by committing an actual crime. We DESPERATELY NEED more positive people out there who actually take the time to explain it in a calm educational way that people will actually accept and listen to even IF they DON'T want to partake in the ABDL lifestyle at least if they better understand that we're NORMAL people who just do different things in our lives. ALL I as from the vanillas as I have heard it called is be open to hear us out before labeling or judging us. Give us a chance and if we F that up, well then we earned the judgment, if not, then we still have an opportunity to maybe, who knows possibly be your friend or mate. Who knows. Hugs to everyone. :-)
i have always been slightly against hiring a mommy i do not want to pay money for someone to play with me i want a daddy or mommy who will love me in a equal relationship and i as a baby want to be there emotionally for them.
I agree, I want it on a more friendly level. I felt like $300 per hour was obsessive. Maybe a more fair price would be ok to pay, but yeah. Honestly you're paying for a service and sometimes larger cost IS worth it, but at my distance I CAN'T actually see the value of the service. As expensive as life IS just to survive, it's hard to justify spending $900 for three hours of play, hell that's gone in a flash and you really have NOTHING to show for the $900 . In my world that's hard earned money and hard to spare. NO, I DON'T mean any disrespect to the professional MOMMY. She's in an expensive part of the world and the people are willing and able to justify paying $900 for a 3 hour playdate well so be it. Glad that they can.
@@carlself1485 yes I agree with you I feel the same way and it’s not right about it and it’s hurting people like me and it’s not right I like how I am and it makes me feel sad pay that kind of money is not right
it was the same here i seen my mom puting a cloth Diaper and rubber pant's on my 3 year old sistor for wetting the bed the night befor i was so jealous becouse i wanted a Diaper back on at age 5 i think some kid's out there that are wishing to be back in them like i was now age 59 and being an ABDL my life has been little more happyer then most people out there in life
Well my name is Charles. I am 45 years old and still feel deeply compelled to wear Diapers. I first remember my need to wear diapers when I was 4 yrs old. My parents went on a short vacation for 4 days. And they left my little sister and I in the care of my grandparents. I was afraid and didn't want my parents to leave. But my begging didn't help and reluctantly came to accept it. My grandparents were actually very loving and tried to help make us feel at home. On the first night, my grandma helped get us ready for bed. I remember her first changing my 2 yr old sister's diaper and putting her in a crib. Then my grandma asked me if I still had accidents at night. I remember feeling embarrassed and at the same time I kind of wanted to say yes. I was to scared to say and my grandmother said " Maybe I should put a diaper on you just in case". I remember the how special I felt. It was like I was a baby again and I really liked it. I pretended like I didn't really want to wear the diaper, and even felt a little ashamed because I let her think I still wet the bed. That night I wet my diaper and my grandma changed it I the morning. She asked me if I wanted to wear underwear or another diaper, and I didn't know how to say I wanted a diaper. But my grandma seemed to know what I wanted and she put another diaper on me. After that, I wore them until my parents returned. I remember my Dad asking my Mom why I had a diaper on. I don't remember what she said, but it was not a big deal to her. When we got back home my Dad took me to The bathroom and took off my diaper. He asked me why I was wet. I just said "I don't know." He then told me I was a big boy and didn't need a diaper. And that was the beginning of my desire to wear diapers. The next time I wore a diaper was when my Mom had put one on me when I was 7 as a punishment for teasing my sister. She said if I acted like a baby then she was going to treat me like one. I was extremely embarrassed and scared to be seen by my Dad and sister. My sister was delighted when she found out. And when my Dad got home, she ran to tell him. My Dad just laughed and asked my Mom why I was wearing a diaper. She said I was being punished for being a brat to my sister. My Dad said it probably wasn't a good way to punish me. Shortly after that, my Mom let me off the hook. I was humiliated and at the same time I secretly wished I could wear a diaper all the time. When I was a few years older I started to steal diapers from my little brothers room to wear in secret in a storage shed in our backyard. I would pretend that I was being forced to wear them and I started to tie myself up with rope. I never understood why I wanted to be tied up, or why I wanted to be put back in diapers. I just knew it felt so exciting and made me feel good. But I had a deep sense of guilt and knew I shouldn't like diapers. I was afraid that I was turning into a freak, and was careful to hide my evidence well. I continued playing with diapers off and on until my mom finally found some of my homemade diapers (which I made from towels and garbage bags for plastic pants. I was around 12 yrs old and my mom really freaked out. She spanked me with a belt, and hard. I was rolling around on the floor and trying to avoid being hit. She was furious and hit me everywhere she could. I was terrified, ashamed and I thought my life was over. My Mom was screaming she was going to put me in foster care because I was sick. That day I decided to run away, I was so confused, full of despair and I felt like nobody loved me anymore. I took some food and my sleeping bag and I snuck out of the house, intending to never return. I only made it about a half-mile from home. We lived on a huge farm and I had a spot on the hill behind our house were I played in the dirt. It was a little bowl-shaped depression that was out of sight from the house. After dark my parents went out looking for me driving by slowly and yelling my name. After about a half-hour I began to feel guilty for letting them look when I was just out of sight. After they went home I slowly walked back. I was scared to go inside but eventually I did. My Mom seemed happy to see me and she lectured me about my "habit" as she called it. I just wanted to forget about it and agreed to not play with diapers again. I really had meant it when I said I wouldn't do it again. But soon I found I couldn't stop. The craving I felt was so strong, it made me feel like I was so messed up in the head. I thought I had to be the only one in the world who would want to wear diapers. I believe that my shame and fear really affected my self-esteem as a teenager. I had no clue what was going on until I was around 17. I was trying desperately to find any reference to my condition in the behavioral Heath section of our public library. And then I found a book by John Money called "Lovemaps". In it there was a paragraph about paraphilias and it had a case sample with a guy who had a diaper fetish. I cannot remember verbatim the details. But I felt a huge relief that at least one other person had the same affliction. After that day I redoubled my efforts to understand myself. Fast forward to the present and I still continue my research, and have found much more on the internet than I ever could have hoped to find. I now understand that I may never fully understand why I love diapers. I just wish I could talk to someone about it and know that I am ok. I want to thank you for your videos, it helps to alleviate some of the shame and guilt of being an ABDL. You have my sincerest gratitude for your efforts! I Thank you, Charles Q.
oooh my, your story is fantistic and tuched me in my heart. I´m sorry to hear how mean your mother were to you and wanted to send you to foster home. I´m also an ABDL. I remember when it started when I around 4 . I didn´t know what it was, it just made me feel good. For long I thought I was the only one in the whole world who felt like this, and became very shy for this. For long time I was thinking to kill myself thinking I was sick.
blojansson Thank you for the comments and kid words. I am ok now, I am just so tired of worrying about people finding out about my ABDL side. Why should we have to be so ashamed of something that harms no one and gives us so much comfort. And it’s not like I chose to like diapers, but it seems like some people just don’t believe that. Anyway, have a great day.
Charles, sorry for my late response. I’m also tired of hiding this ”diaper part” of my personality. I am still ashamed of it. I am married now. Before my wife and I got married I thought that I had the responsibilty to tell her that I like to have diapers. I remember when I did. The second after I did I just wanted to disapear from the world, pressing my face against a pillow. I rember she said, What!!!??? It seemed that she didn’t really understod. Understod the importence of it. Neither did I. I didn’t understod how importent the diapers were and are to me. Over the years, after that I tried to reject to having diapers. But the wish for it just contiued to grow all the time. I started to have nervous and a ancous problems (sorry for my bad spelling, I’m from Sweden). I told my wife I felt like I was starting to falling apart. She said I was disgusting and didn’t wanted anything to do with it. We came to an agreement that I will handle the diapers by my own. Then it was ok with her if I used them. So, here we are today, I’m wearing my diapers from time to time, but we never talk about them. I feel rather lonly but I can almost wear my diaper when the ”need” for them are too strong. But at the same time I feel very ashamed. But it is just an underware....
blojansson I am sorry about your wife’s lack of understanding your fetish. That must be difficult to not be able to share such an important part of yourself without shame and guilt. I understand how that feels, I have had trouble with previous relationships because Of my diapers too. The first time I told anyone was a girlfriend whom I had been dating for about 3 months. She thought I needed to see a psychiatrist to fix me. I told her to just forget that I told her about it. I tried to explain that my fetish couldn’t be changed. And I had tried to quit wearing them many times since I was a teenager. She continued to make me regret telling her about it for months. One day she told her sister about it when we were having an argument. Her sister laughed at me and she would mock me whenever I did anything to irritate her. I was always worried about them telling my family or friends about it. What a nightmare it was. I broke up with her when I came home early from work one night and found a guy in bed with her. The guy was terrified and didn’t say anything. My girlfriend just said we’re leaving. I said that was a good idea. I packed her things after they left and put everything in the garage for her to pick-up later. I’ve never fell in love like that again. But I did have several short relationships since then. I told most of them when we first started dating and it wasn’t as dramatic as I had feared. None of them really understood why I just couldn’t get over my fetish. But they didn’t use t against me like the first girl. Most of the relationships just didn’t last for other reasons, and I am still good friends with a few of them. One ex girlfriend and I still hang out a lot and we’ve been friends for about 5 years now. I am supposed to come for dinner with her tomorrow. But we aren’t romantically involved at all. I just help her out a lot with fixing her car or other things. She is a good person and she never shamed me for my fetish. I just need someone a little more intellectual if I’m going to be in a serious relationship. She is a bit to religious for me as well as I’m an atheist. I kind of cringe whenever she starts talking about god. But it is not a big deal, she is a victim of indoctrination in my view. I really don’t say much about it as I don’t want to shame her for it as I know how that feels. Anyway, I got off track and I need to get groceries now so I’ll leave off there. Thanks for the message, I hope you find a way to fulfill your needs without feeling bad about it. I wish people had more understanding for people who are just different. Things are getting better, faster than ever before. So maybe someday our fetish with be seen as just a quirk instead of seen as disgusting. My Fingers are crossed.
Wonderful story my friend. If you want, feel free to PM me @Klimas_84 on telegram. I am a 48 year old male who has worn diapers off and on for well over 30 years and have been diapered 24/7 for 6 years this coming May.
I just listen to your program and I am very intrigued by it. My name is Merritt I have been in the AB DL community for about a year, and I love it. I am still searching for my AB DL partner it been exceedingly difficult to find a female in this lifestyle I am he’s 62 bureau man. I would like for you to give me some advice on what I can do to find someone for me. Any assistance that you can get me would be greatly appreciated. I will continue to listen to your program each week. Thank you for any help that you can give me.
Hey there and I hope that you will do a part 3 of this story pretty please and thank you so very much and thanks so very much for it okay 👌with that huh hmm well 👌🤔🤨😊😀☺??!!..
I was born where I almost died. I was in diapers for much longer than normal and today I am an adult baby. Unfortunately I was always to embarrassed to express my true self. Today I live in a platonic marriage and never did I feel love from any woman. This was because a couple of women found that I was a baby, they did not want anything to do with me. My current wife even said that she will never touch me because I am a baby. She loves my money and prosperous life so she said that she will never divorce me. I do want to say that you are very accurate on what an adult baby is like. I just wished I had a mommy here in Michigan. If you ever want to know more about babies like myself, feel free.
At birth, I almost died but because of my mother force feeding me. However I was a baby for several years. Because of my early life, today I am an adult baby. I was always embarrassed of being a baby and because of this I never found a love of a woman that would also be a mommy. Today I live in Farmington Hills Michigan very much alone when it comes to love. What you said about adult babies is very accurate. I am also in my early 70s but I am still very young like a 2 year old. I long to have someone that will treat me like one. My current marriage, my wife told me she would never touch me because I am just a baby. She will never divorce me because I am very successful professionally.
Holy shit! If you’re very successful, what are you doing with someone who is so offended by you? Something’s not adding up here. I know that if I were you I would have dumped her long ago. Now, if she makes all the money, then you’re screwed.
Really odd that that woman feels sorry for a man who is explicitly happy and accepting of himself. Sounds like she has her own set of superficial beliefs and standards that her world needs to be built around and it is more painful for her to see others living outside of that, while those people are actually healthy and happy.
My name Bill Thompson I am a diaper lover I been wearing diapers for over 40 years an full time for over 20 years i was born in 1964 i wore cloth diapers an vinly or rubber pants until I was about 5 or i went in the hospital to have heart surgery to repair a hole in my heart I wore cloth diapers an vinly or rubber pants a while after I got home from the hospital i have a boy cousin he was born in 1963 he also wet his bed an pants to his mom my aunt keep him in cloth diapers an vinly or rubber pants to he wore cloth diapers an vinly pants untl he was about 10 or so the only time I was put back in diapers when me an my parents went to visit me aunt an uncle my mom asked her if she could borrow a diaper for me so when I wet the bed I wouldn't wake up the hold house i put my own self in adult disposable diapers at 19 when I got out of high school it was 1983 i now 60 years old i now wearing north shore maga max at night an there supreme disposable diapers during the day I will wear diapers for the rest of my life ❣️❣️❣️❤❤❤😊
i started as a bed wetter till age 12, for most of my life i just used diapers for traveling at concerts sporting events and places i knew restroom would be few and far between. Then a few years ago i got Fournier's gangrene from a diabetes medication i was on and now incontinent. and i am going to be wearing diapers the rest of my life and am good with that. i don't class my self as as ABDL though it feels good to wet my diaper and i now enjoy it.
Thanks for DEstigmatizing the ABDL community. I am a DL and I too felt a relief when I found the internet. Feel free to PM me @Klimas_84 on telegram if you want. I found both episodes quite informational and interesting very educational as well. I would love to share my story in private but found some similarities to the the stories by Eric and Kent Perry however I have So-oooooooooooo many vast differences from both. I have found it much easier to regress as a Furry vs just regression alone. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and the subject on both videos. Nice work and I very much appreciate and value the positive attitude from you the host. You have NO idea how much negativity I have seen/experienced in my life as a DL)CUB/LITTLE. Thanks again. Hugs
hello im babydan im finding this very interesting and also have either a mommy or babysiter to treat me as a toddler baby i prefer cloth diapers and either plastic or rubber pants
If you don’t have money to pay someone the money they ask for I don’t have it what I did have people taken what money did have now I don’t have any money to pay them so now I really want to trust anyone now
For me behind the fetish is sexually abused now I don’t won’t to have sex with a woman are a men are a kid because I just see myself as a baby as a kid I still not potty trained so I was treated like a baby and still slept in my crib and went to a nursery in the day time. I like tell you more about self as a kid and how I am still just a baby in my adult hold I just wish people would let us be are self I am tried of being by my self as a adult baby
I sitting here listening to this real she is someone who has hurt people like myself because they are what I see as really perverts and making me really mad yes being someone mommy it’s exhausting I am tried of these people calling them self a mommy because they are people how just get shit and people like me getting not a thing she is a sick person
Sexual apetites grow over time no one is born gay or inclined to fetishes its a decision over time people just trying to justify it i agree its a psychological bent but it is a choice
@@titusprecision everything is a choice no one is born with any sexual inclination just like puberty hits sexual attraction and inclination begin to evolve however folks who are abused or have certain inclination toward certain things can influence there choices however it's still a choice
@@shanemcguire6428 If everything is a choice then it is time you stopped pretending and start living like the horse you are. Was that rediculous for me to say? No more than you saying it is a choice to be gay or have fetishes. The actual science disagrees with you and your opinion on the subject is actually worthless.
I use to lay with my brother in his crib 4years apart thts my earliest memory. I have always had accidents too and just recently started to be comfortable with diapers. However I remember my grandma would not mind buying me bottles at about 6 or 7. The 1st time I stole a paci was 13 and used it in a movie theater. 16 my bro found it and told my aunt who was living with us.we had bunk beds with railings and when separated I made it look like a crib. I'm now 32 an embracing it now more than ever ish. I'd say little age 3. I think ur so cool for being so open about these subjects.
Thank you for this episode, that was a good thing to hear and it's necessary as others are saying, to break the stigma. When there are people incurring in risky behaviour (drink, drugs etc) a a way to spend the time, this is not judged as much as spending time 'being' a baby, which is totally innocuous and harmless, and the general public needs to be able to understand this, even if they might not want to share it. In order to add a bit of balance to the fetish side of it, I would add that there is the non fetish side of it, the amount of people who regularly want to spend time in that headspace without any fetish or sexual connotation, and I know this well because this is what I have done for years. Anyway, congratulations for the episode and thanks for the contribution to normalization.
I really enjoyed this information. I've been working on breaking the stigma within myself too say its ok to wear diapers. We only have this one shot at life why not live your best one and love who you are 100% of the time its not illegal or cause harm to anybody. We need a healthy balance in the community knowledge is key to open doors!!!
Thank you so much for your work in the DEstigmatizing the ABDL community. People really need to understand us instead of judging us. So-oooooooooooo many people are So-oooooooooooo freaken' negative that it's pathetic. Being an AB or a DL ISN'T wrong unless WE make it wrong by committing an actual crime. We DESPERATELY NEED more positive people out there who actually take the time to explain it in a calm educational way that people will actually accept and listen to even IF they DON'T want to partake in the ABDL lifestyle at least if they better understand that we're NORMAL people who just do different things in our lives. ALL I as from the vanillas as I have heard it called is be open to hear us out before labeling or judging us. Give us a chance and if we F that up, well then we earned the judgment, if not, then we still have an opportunity to maybe, who knows possibly be your friend or mate. Who knows. Hugs to everyone. :-)
Very insightful conversation 👏 👌
Excellent information
i have always been slightly against hiring a mommy i do not want to pay money for someone to play with me i want a daddy or mommy who will love me in a equal relationship and i as a baby want to be there emotionally for them.
I agree, I want it on a more friendly level. I felt like $300 per hour was obsessive. Maybe a more fair price would be ok to pay, but yeah. Honestly you're paying for a service and sometimes larger cost IS worth it, but at my distance I CAN'T actually see the value of the service. As expensive as life IS just to survive, it's hard to justify spending $900 for three hours of play, hell that's gone in a flash and you really have NOTHING to show for the $900 . In my world that's hard earned money and hard to spare. NO, I DON'T mean any disrespect to the professional MOMMY. She's in an expensive part of the world and the people are willing and able to justify paying $900 for a 3 hour playdate well so be it. Glad that they can.
@@carlself1485 yes I agree with you I feel the same way and it’s not right about it and it’s hurting people like me and it’s not right I like how I am and it makes me feel sad pay that kind of money is not right
I agree I think it's not really real if you are paying them to be a mommy. It's like paying your own mom to be your mother
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it was the same here i seen my mom puting a cloth Diaper and rubber pant's on my 3 year old sistor for wetting the bed the night befor i was so jealous becouse i wanted a Diaper back on at age 5 i think some kid's out there that are wishing to be back in them like i was now age 59 and being an ABDL my life has been little more happyer then most people out there in life
Thank you for your work. An abdl from Europe
You are so welcome! Thanks for listening!
Well my name is Charles. I am 45 years old and still feel deeply compelled to wear Diapers.
I first remember my need to wear diapers when I was 4 yrs old. My parents went on a short vacation for 4 days. And they left my little sister and I in the care of my grandparents. I was afraid and didn't want my parents to leave. But my begging didn't help and reluctantly came to accept it. My grandparents were actually very loving and tried to help make us feel at home. On the first night, my grandma helped get us ready for bed. I remember her first changing my 2 yr old sister's diaper and putting her in a crib. Then my grandma asked me if I still had accidents at night. I remember feeling embarrassed and at the same time I kind of wanted to say yes. I was to scared to say and my grandmother said " Maybe I should put a diaper on you just in case". I remember the how special I felt. It was like I was a baby again and I really liked it. I pretended like I didn't really want to wear the diaper, and even felt a little ashamed because I let her think I still wet the bed. That night I wet my diaper and my grandma changed it I the morning. She asked me if I wanted to wear underwear or another diaper, and I didn't know how to say I wanted a diaper. But my grandma seemed to know what I wanted and she put another diaper on me. After that, I wore them until my parents returned.
I remember my Dad asking my Mom why I had a diaper on. I don't remember what she said, but it was not a big deal to her. When we got back home my Dad took me to The bathroom and took off my diaper. He asked me why I was wet. I just said "I don't know." He then told me I was a big boy and didn't need a diaper. And that was the beginning of my desire to wear diapers.
The next time I wore a diaper was when my Mom had put one on me when I was 7 as a punishment for teasing my sister. She said if I acted like a baby then she was going to treat me like one. I was extremely embarrassed and scared to be seen by my Dad and sister. My sister was delighted when she found out. And when my Dad got home, she ran to tell him. My Dad just laughed and asked my Mom why I was wearing a diaper. She said I was being punished for being a brat to my sister. My Dad said it probably wasn't a good way to punish me. Shortly after that, my Mom let me off the hook. I was humiliated and at the same time I secretly wished I could wear a diaper all the time.
When I was a few years older I started to steal diapers from my little brothers room to wear in secret in a storage shed in our backyard. I would pretend that I was being forced to wear them and I started to tie myself up with rope. I never understood why I wanted to be tied up, or why I wanted to be put back in diapers. I just knew it felt so exciting and made me feel good. But I had a deep sense of guilt and knew I shouldn't like diapers. I was afraid that I was turning into a freak, and was careful to hide my evidence well. I continued playing with diapers off and on until my mom finally found some of my homemade diapers (which I made from towels and garbage bags for plastic pants. I was around 12 yrs old and my mom really freaked out. She spanked me with a belt, and hard. I was rolling around on the floor and trying to avoid being hit. She was furious and hit me everywhere she could. I was terrified, ashamed and I thought my life was over. My Mom was screaming she was going to put me in foster care because I was sick. That day I decided to run away, I was so confused, full of despair and I felt like nobody loved me anymore. I took some food and my sleeping bag and I snuck out of the house, intending to never return. I only made it about a half-mile from home. We lived on a huge farm and I had a spot on the hill behind our house were I played in the dirt. It was a little bowl-shaped depression that was out of sight from the house. After dark my parents went out looking for me driving by slowly and yelling my name. After about a half-hour I began to feel guilty for letting them look when I was just out of sight. After they went home I slowly walked back. I was scared to go inside but eventually I did. My Mom seemed happy to see me and she lectured me about my "habit" as she called it. I just wanted to forget about it and agreed to not play with diapers again.
I really had meant it when I said I wouldn't do it again. But soon I found I couldn't stop. The craving I felt was so strong, it made me feel like I was so messed up in the head. I thought I had to be the only one in the world who would want to wear diapers. I believe that my shame and fear really affected my self-esteem as a teenager. I had no clue what was going on until I was around 17. I was trying desperately to find any reference to my condition in the behavioral Heath section of our public library. And then I found a book by John Money called "Lovemaps". In it there was a paragraph about paraphilias and it had a case sample with a guy who had a diaper fetish. I cannot remember verbatim the details. But I felt a huge relief that at least one other person had the same affliction. After that day I redoubled my efforts to understand myself.
Fast forward to the present and I still continue my research, and have found much more on the internet than I ever could have hoped to find. I now understand that I may never fully understand why I love diapers. I just wish I could talk to someone about it and know that I am ok.
I want to thank you for your videos, it helps to alleviate some of the shame and guilt of being an ABDL.
You have my sincerest gratitude for your efforts! I
Thank you, Charles Q.
oooh my, your story is fantistic and tuched me in my heart.
I´m sorry to hear how mean your mother were to you and wanted to send you to foster home.
I´m also an ABDL. I remember when it started when I around 4 . I didn´t know what it was, it just made me feel good. For long I thought I was the only one in the whole world who felt like this, and became very shy for this. For long time I was thinking to kill myself thinking I was sick.
blojansson Thank you for the comments and kid words. I am ok now, I am just so tired of worrying about people finding out about my ABDL side. Why should we have to be so ashamed of something that harms no one and gives us so much comfort. And it’s not like I chose to like diapers, but it seems like some people just don’t believe that. Anyway, have a great day.
Charles, sorry for my late response.
I’m also tired of hiding this ”diaper part” of my personality. I am still ashamed of it.
I am married now. Before my wife and I got married I thought that I had the responsibilty to tell her that I like to have diapers. I remember when I did. The second after I did I just wanted to disapear from the world, pressing my face against a pillow. I rember she said, What!!!??? It seemed that she didn’t really understod. Understod the importence of it. Neither did I. I didn’t understod how importent the diapers were and are to me. Over the years, after that I tried to reject to having diapers. But the wish for it just contiued to grow all the time. I started to have nervous and a ancous problems (sorry for my bad spelling, I’m from Sweden).
I told my wife I felt like I was starting to falling apart. She said I was disgusting and didn’t wanted anything to do with it. We came to an agreement that I will handle the diapers by my own. Then it was ok with her if I used them.
So, here we are today, I’m wearing my diapers from time to time, but we never talk about them.
I feel rather lonly but I can almost wear my diaper when the ”need” for them are too strong.
But at the same time I feel very ashamed.
But it is just an underware....
blojansson I am sorry about your wife’s lack of understanding your fetish. That must be difficult to not be able to share such an important part of yourself without shame and guilt. I understand how that feels, I have had trouble with previous relationships because Of my diapers too.
The first time I told anyone was a girlfriend whom I had been dating for about 3 months. She thought I needed to see a psychiatrist to fix me. I told her to just forget that I told her about it. I tried to explain that my fetish couldn’t be changed. And I had tried to quit wearing them many times since I was a teenager. She continued to make me regret telling her about it for months. One day she told her sister about it when we were having an argument. Her sister laughed at me and she would mock me whenever I did anything to irritate her. I was always worried about them telling my family or friends about it. What a nightmare it was.
I broke up with her when I came home early from work one night and found a guy in bed with her. The guy was terrified and didn’t say anything. My girlfriend just said we’re leaving. I said that was a good idea. I packed her things after they left and put everything in the garage for her to pick-up later.
I’ve never fell in love like that again. But I did have several short relationships since then. I told most of them when we first started dating and it wasn’t as dramatic as I had feared. None of them really understood why I just couldn’t get over my fetish. But they didn’t use t against me like the first girl. Most of the relationships just didn’t last for other reasons, and I am still good friends with a few of them. One ex girlfriend and I still hang out a lot and we’ve been friends for about 5 years now. I am supposed to come for dinner with her tomorrow. But we aren’t romantically involved at all. I just help her out a lot with fixing her car or other things. She is a good person and she never shamed me for my fetish. I just need someone a little more intellectual if I’m going to be in a serious relationship. She is a bit to religious for me as well as I’m an atheist. I kind of cringe whenever she starts talking about god. But it is not a big deal, she is a victim of indoctrination in my view. I really don’t say much about it as I don’t want to shame her for it as I know how that feels.
Anyway, I got off track and I need to get groceries now so I’ll leave off there.
Thanks for the message, I hope you find a way to fulfill your needs without feeling bad about it. I wish people had more understanding for people who are just different. Things are getting better, faster than ever before. So maybe someday our fetish with be seen as just a quirk instead of seen as disgusting. My Fingers are crossed.
Wonderful story my friend. If you want, feel free to PM me @Klimas_84 on telegram. I am a 48 year old male who has worn diapers off and on for well over 30 years and have been diapered 24/7 for 6 years this coming May.
I just listen to your program and I am very intrigued by it.
My name is Merritt I have been in the AB DL community for about a year, and I love it.
I am still searching for my AB DL partner it been exceedingly difficult to find a female in this lifestyle I am he’s 62 bureau man.
I would like for you to give me some advice on what I can do to find someone for me.
Any assistance that you can get me would be greatly appreciated.
I will continue to listen to your program each week.
Thank you for any help that you can give me.
Very interesting and informative video...I'm a dl and for me it's the changing that I enjoy the most! I have different woman change me all the time.
Hey there and I hope that you will do a part 3 of this story pretty please and thank you so very much and thanks so very much for it okay 👌with that huh hmm well 👌🤔🤨😊😀☺??!!..
I was born where I almost died. I was in diapers for much longer than normal and today I am an adult baby. Unfortunately I was always to embarrassed to express my true self. Today I live in a platonic marriage and never did I feel love from any woman. This was because a couple of women found that I was a baby, they did not want anything to do with me. My current wife even said that she will never touch me because I am a baby. She loves my money and prosperous life so she said that she will never divorce me.
I do want to say that you are very accurate on what an adult baby is like. I just wished I had a mommy here in Michigan. If you ever want to know more about babies like myself, feel free.
At birth, I almost died but because of my mother force feeding me. However I was a baby for several years. Because of my early life, today I am an adult baby. I was always embarrassed of being a baby and because of this I never found a love of a woman that would also be a mommy. Today I live in Farmington Hills Michigan very much alone when it comes to love. What you said about adult babies is very accurate. I am also in my early 70s but I am still very young like a 2 year old. I long to have someone that will treat me like one. My current marriage, my wife told me she would never touch me because I am just a baby. She will never divorce me because I am very successful professionally.
Holy shit! If you’re very successful, what are you doing with someone who is so offended by you? Something’s not adding up here. I know that if I were you I would have dumped her long ago. Now, if she makes all the money, then you’re screwed.
I am an ABDL and i am looking for ABDL friends and i am looking for a mommy or nanny to take care of me and baby me.
I will also be your friend as I'm a DL myself
Really odd that that woman feels sorry for a man who is explicitly happy and accepting of himself. Sounds like she has her own set of superficial beliefs and standards that her world needs to be built around and it is more painful for her to see others living outside of that, while those people are actually healthy and happy.
Thank You
How do I get to become one of your clients
I'm wearing diapers right now, I'm messy and wet, I have a paci gag in my mouth and I'm wearing a bib
My name Bill Thompson I am a diaper lover I been wearing diapers for over 40 years an full time for over 20 years i was born in 1964 i wore cloth diapers an vinly or rubber pants until I was about 5 or i went in the hospital to have heart surgery to repair a hole in my heart I wore cloth diapers an vinly or rubber pants a while after I got home from the hospital i have a boy cousin he was born in 1963 he also wet his bed an pants to his mom my aunt keep him in cloth diapers an vinly or rubber pants to he wore cloth diapers an vinly pants untl he was about 10 or so the only time I was put back in diapers when me an my parents went to visit me aunt an uncle my mom asked her if she could borrow a diaper for me so when I wet the bed I wouldn't wake up the hold house i put my own self in adult disposable diapers at 19 when I got out of high school it was 1983 i now 60 years old i now wearing north shore maga max at night an there supreme disposable diapers during the day I will wear diapers for the rest of my life ❣️❣️❣️❤❤❤😊
I like you girls talking about mommy’s I would like to meet a mommy
i started as a bed wetter till age 12, for most of my life i just used diapers for traveling at concerts sporting events and places i knew restroom would be few and far between. Then a few years ago i got Fournier's gangrene from a diabetes medication i was on and now incontinent. and i am going to be wearing diapers the rest of my life and am good with that.
i don't class my self as as ABDL though it feels good to wet my diaper and i now enjoy it.
Thanks for DEstigmatizing the ABDL community. I am a DL and I too felt a relief when I found the internet. Feel free to PM me @Klimas_84 on telegram if you want. I found both episodes quite informational and interesting very educational as well. I would love to share my story in private but found some similarities to the the stories by Eric and Kent Perry however I have So-oooooooooooo many vast differences from both. I have found it much easier to regress as a Furry vs just regression alone. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and the subject on both videos. Nice work and I very much appreciate and value the positive attitude from you the host. You have NO idea how much negativity I have seen/experienced in my life as a DL)CUB/LITTLE. Thanks again. Hugs
I wanna have a session
Please allow me to add my 2 cents worth
hello im babydan im finding this very interesting and also have either a mommy or babysiter to treat me as a toddler baby i prefer cloth diapers and either plastic or rubber pants
I love to wear diapers for fun. At 46 years old is okay.❤. Let me know what you think.
If you don’t have money to pay someone the money they ask for I don’t have it what I did have people taken what money did have now I don’t have any money to pay them so now I really want to trust anyone now
Diapers man
For me behind the fetish is sexually abused now I don’t won’t to have sex with a woman are a men are a kid because I just see myself as a baby as a kid I still not potty trained so I was treated like a baby and still slept in my crib and went to a nursery in the day time. I like tell you more about self as a kid and how I am still just a baby in my adult hold I just wish people would let us be are self I am tried of being by my self as a adult baby
I sitting here listening to this real she is someone who has hurt people like myself because they are what I see as really perverts and making me really mad yes being someone mommy it’s exhausting I am tried of these people calling them self a mommy because they are people how just get shit and people like me getting not a thing she is a sick person
Sexual apetites grow over time no one is born gay or inclined to fetishes its a decision over time people just trying to justify it i agree its a psychological bent but it is a choice
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Spoken like someone who has never dealt with it and has no clue what they are talking about.
@@titusprecision everything is a choice no one is born with any sexual inclination just like puberty hits sexual attraction and inclination begin to evolve however folks who are abused or have certain inclination toward certain things can influence there choices however it's still a choice
@@shanemcguire6428 If everything is a choice then it is time you stopped pretending and start living like the horse you are. Was that rediculous for me to say? No more than you saying it is a choice to be gay or have fetishes. The actual science disagrees with you and your opinion on the subject is actually worthless.
Total beschissen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Where r u located? I’d love to talk to you about it with you
I'm located in Los Angeles
Kimberly Anderson do you have anyone in the Boston area?
You can go to AASECT.org to try and find a provider in Boston. I offer web-based tele-therapy if you'd like to work with me.
Same here