I'm so sorry, Daniel... I know how vivid and intense these experiences can feel and how they live with you forever like a haunting memory, "real" or not. It is the burden of this illness; we can experience and convey the most beautiful scenes, feel the most tender feelings, but also experience the most haunting and disturbing of them, as well. Visions and sensations that, as you so aptly put it, ought to stay in Hell where they belong. I hope they subside soon, and allow you to rest and mend your heart. I'm glad you have your animal friends and the support of so many on here to keep you company through all of this. The brightness in your soul still shines through, and I will pray for you that it will continue to do so as you fight this darkness. I believe that I am a bit younger than you, but I have the same diagnosis (schizoaffective w/ BPD) and have been starting to experience the constant ins and outs of long hospital visits and unending fear and anxiety. I wanted to thank you for giving a voice to people like us, as it is often a lonely road without much recourse. Your videos have helped my family to understand as well, and I'd like to think we're all thankful for that. I'll be rooting for you and following your journey for as long as you continue to share it. Thank you for existing and fighting as hard as you do. Again- that light within you still deserves to shine, in spite of the demons within that try to smother it.
I just have BPD but with other coexisting psychiatric conditions. I cannot fully understand you guys but there's one thing, that we all feel in a depth that our minds sometimes cannot handle. I have had few and really mild hallucinations or/dissociative episodes, I can't picture how taxing can be to deal with any psychotic symptoms in the way you do. Your words are beautiful and encouraging, it made me cry a bit the compassion and tenderness of your message. I hope you are also doing better, despite the unstable moments we can go through.
I can appreciate how you turn something so dark into such a powerful piece of art Daniel. I love how real you are with your thoughts, I would be interested to hear more of your poetry. 🤍
Sending lots of love, Daniel, I am always impressed and fascinated by the way you are able to turn your experiences into poetry like this. I'm hoping this hallucination will be gone soon, it sounds absolutely dreadful. 😥
That was an intense poem, Daniel. Having the gift of writing poetry to put it in perspective for you is amazing. I'm always amazed by how well you write, and I'm glad you were able to put this into written form and know it wasn't real. I used to have sleep paralysis, and the nightmares that went with them were ominous and frightening. Trying to wake myself up was so difficult; I couldn't move at all, let alone scream for help. Somehow I always managed to wake up and I still remember them. I hope as you write them down that they fade away and remain only on paper. I wish you nothing but peace and love ❤
Lisa as I read your comment I saw that you have suffered with Sleep Paralysis. I understand the horror of being unable to move at all, as it just gets scarier and scarier. Have you experienced that nano second where it's going to happen and you tell yourself STOP IT NOW. All of that happening in a fraction of a half second. But too late your paralyzed. I once had it almost every night. My bed was a torture chamber. I am so very sorry this beast has desendedon you.
You are gifted, your ability to turn your demons into this unique form of art is admirable and leaves me speechless. You are such an inspiration on so many levels. In videos from your channel and Chris's we have seen glimpses of your personality, you're intelligent, sensitive, smart, empathetic, your heart is so big and you're such a genuine person - the combination of all these is SO rare. I look up to you so much, you're brave for being who you are, even braver for doing it under special circumstances. Thank you for sharing your poetry and for being with us. You are so loved, Daniel. You are truly admired by a lot of us who keep up with your story and updates on life. Sending you much love 💕
Oh my gosh😥 my darling Daniel, just feel how much people love you, grab it and hang on tight. Because we are not going anywhere. Lots and lots of love and a great big hug. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Oh Daniel, I can't even imagine the mental pain you go through in such moments and knowing that this mental torture can come again. You have my deepest respect for your struggle and I think it's very, very brave that you share your life with us. you are such a fighter I think you help a lot of people who are perhaps not doing well in a similar way or in another way. I am sending you greetings from Germany again and always remember. Never give up, never surrender. Andrea❤
Thank you for sharing yourself with us, Daniel. It is always difficult to hear that you are in pain, but your art is a pleasure. I very much enjoyed the sample of your song, the harmonica is beautifully played. Wishing you well always and looking forward to more. 💙
I guess the tortured artist saying is true, because knowing all that you go through Daniel, you are the epitome of a tortured artist. Edit: i know the saying is starving artists, but usually its the beautiful souls that are tortured (by their own minds) that make the most amazing art. I love you friend, I hope you have a good summer Daniel.
Hey man, I just want to say I happened upon your story today for the first time and I'm really glad I did. As an attempted poet myself, your poetry is surprisingly good! Very impressive. I also just wanted to say that you are a huge inspiration to me. I live in Houston most of the year for school, so I recognized some of the places you've mentioned in past videos. Keep up the good fight! You're worth it and I'm so happy you're still here. ❤
I hope you continue Daniel, you are amazing in more ways than you will ever know. True, genuine, caring, brave. Just some of the traits you show us each day with your posts. And now I am going to take a note from your book, and try to be brave as well. I loved watching you, I did all the time... I am so happy to see you are still alive, still posting. I would watch your videos as much as I could. Sometimes with my fiance. She was 3 weeks away from graduating with her PhD in clinical psychology... She would have been one of the best therapists to ever grace the field, had her PhD not been stolen from her. I can't type what happened again, i've done it so much. But she took her life 2 months ago when she lost her PhD position. We would be getting ready to start her post doc right now... had everyhing gone to plan as it should have. But... best laid plans I suppose... I will link a post here which I made lastnight which explains my suffering, and a little bit of what happened to her position. It isnt everything, there was a full year and a half of major trauamas her and I went through, almost every 2-3 weeks. A big one was a burglary where she lost half her dissertation when they stole her laptop... That was devastating, but we continued, she continued. Until her program said she was being terminated due to performance issues. She had a type 3 heart block and pace maker... but yeah, here is the post. www.reddit.com/r/OpiatesRecovery/comments/16ad8j7/starting_my_wd_from_heroinfent_on_wednesday/
You just gave me the biggest compliment and smile you could possibly imagine. Edgar and Stephen King are my two favorite authors in the world. Thank you friend. 💖🙂💚🫂💜👍
Sorry this hallucination keeps bothering you! I’m Prayin it leaves you alone eventually. And that you don’t have any new ones to replace it anytime soon!
I came again after watching your 2 videos On SBSK CHANNEL FOR THE 3 TIME 😂 I cried a lot because I understand you so deeply, or rather i know you understand me. You are worthy and so loveable, i love your big heart and courage to share everything. Lord knows how much i wish i could be your friend and give you a hug. I'm happy to see you are still fighting as the strong warrior you always been. You know, I always ask God why he permit so much suffering and struggle and it's always the same answer, the cross save us and our beloveds, and he loves watching us fight with him. So hold on, soon we'll be all together, and eternally deeply happy!
You’re a very talented writer. I’m sorry for how hard things are or can be, and want to let you know you’re not alone. You seem like a really upstanding person and I wish you the best in your ongoing healing journey. Your videos with Mr Chris are very touching. Much solidarity to you. 💐
I'm so happy that you still here in the world you are strong , I watched a video for you with Mr.chris and I was afraid about you and searched about your channel and become so glad that you are still standing . Also, I'm so impressed by your talent in writing poems and you voice is so nice ♥ I wish I could be near to you but I'm from Egypt (so far). Have a nice time 🙆♥ Allah bless you Daniel 🙆
Hello darling child! Ah, this is very Poe! He is my favorite poet. PoeEt. Thanks for bringing us along with your poetry. I hope you are steadily improving. Love you muchly!
I don’t know what gets you through your days. I Pray that your illness disappears and you live a Peaceful rest of your life. You are Truly an Artist. Much Love and Peace to you Daniel..💜
Thank you for sharing. Pulling for you brother. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. You have a lot yet to give to the world. You are making a real difference, and touching others like me each step of the way. You are a tremendous writer, and a great gift to all of us.
Thank you, so damn much, for the Beautiful and Supportive words right there Dear Friend! I cannot adequately describe to you how powerfully your comment hit my heart....I just don't have the words right now. Things have been a lil' bit f***ed up of late and they took a scarily hard toll of both my body AND heart; so please know....your words have meant more than you'll ever know and genuinely made me a bit emotional just now. So yeah, lol, with every single damn inch of my battered, beaten, and broken heart.....💔....I say THANK YOU dear friend. Thank you so f***ing much. You are Awesome-Sauce 💜🫂💚🫂💖.
I think the word amazing has been used a thousand times, but you truly are amazing. Through good times, bad times, and worse times, we are all here for you. Hold on to that.
Wow, that's an incredible poem. Is so raw but at the same time I can perceive the uncertainty from reality. Very interesting. You keep sharing with us your complex and beautiful mind, I just feel grateful for knowing your art. The song, sounds pretty good, maybe we need another spoon to taste it more haha. I hope that this nightmare can be washed from your mind and diluted from your heart. I couldn't imagine how it must've felt to be in such state. Much hugs and support Daniel, you are a blessing. God bless you for what you do.
Sending lots of love & light to you, my Sweet Friend! 🕯️💞🩵🕯️ You may not see it or feel it at times, but YOU, my dear, are so VERY, VERY F*CK¡NG STRONG DANIEL!! 💙💪💙 Your ability to translate your terrifying trauma into such an incredibly beautiful and eloquent piece of literary Art is Phenomenal!! 🩶🕯️🩵🕯️🩶🕯️🩵🕯️ 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Thank you so d*** much for those beautiful and supportive words dear friend. I still get extremely nervous sharing these personal poems and it makes a world of a difference to me to know that people can truly feel them. Thank you again. 💜🫂💚
Dear Daniel, I am halfway through the interview you did with Mr. Chris on SBSK 2 years ago. I am getting emotional and the comments are turned off on that video so I wanted to come to your channel while I still had the energy to tell you: thank you for your honesty in that interview. I am feeling a lot that I can’t put into words but I can say Thank You. When I am feeling better I will come back here and listen to your poem ❤️
Sending you metta (loving-kindness) and light. You have such a brilliant mind, a true creative! I'm wishing you peace and happiness, and wishing you a life without these sufferings and tortures as soon as possible. 🙏 From your new UA-cam friend on the other side of the world who will always be wishing well for you 🧸
so I've been thinking for a day by now on how to respond to this video not because Im avoiding it but because I want to also express strongly my love or appreciation for your content and self expression!( mainly because Im a over-thinker lol)You know how you go through day to day life as if you're on autopilot and then this sudden realization hits that you are alive and that you exists ?And its almost this weird out of body experience that you have and it takes awhile to snap out of it..(im not sure how to explain it forgive me if this sounds redundant) so I like to think this poem can kinda emulates that feeling. I know this poem is originally meant to portray what your hallucinations or comatose state is like but I try to take what clicks to me in order to gain a better understanding of your experiences. Idk hopefully that makes sense. lol Your poems make life more bearable and worth living .♥♥♥ Cant wait to hear what else you write dude. Much Love ♥♥♥♥ PS: Don't forget to take care of yourself ya big goof!
Love to you, Daniel. This is an unusually vivid narrative. Is it real? If you experienced the emotion of it, and tamed it into both text and the spoken word, then it's real.
Yes friend, when I was in that several weeks long coma I experienced a 6-month narrative that I thought was completely real where I lived through a small handful of pleasant hallucinations, but mainly just countless unspeakable Horrors and terrors; THIS particular one was horrible and is as I saw, felt, and experienced in every detail I could fit in. Thank you for listening and understanding how REAL these things can be. It took me a week of post-ICU delirium to finally understand that those 6 months I lived weren't real, that it actually been around 23 days in the hospital at that point.
@@danielnepveux97E Just reading this and *imagining* what you went through, is already worse than what my mind could even comprehend so far. You are so strong, and to turn all of this into these vivid and emotional poems as well is unlike anything Ive come across before! However I see so many people turn their own struggles with mental illness into art, and it truly makes their (and your) experiences visible, and gives a voice to those suffering in silence. THANK YOU Daniel.
Hey, just came across this Australian junior psychiatrist discussing your Special Books video. A lot of people expressed support, and I was rather moved too. I also came away with a firm conviction that there's a sound mind and an integrated personality (albeit in great distress) behind the illness. I mean, no one would think of calling someone "crazy" who's running a high fever and hallucinating. The fever will pass, the person will return to normal. So, on a much more pragmatic note, as someone who's done a ton of research on the subject and is aware of the scandalously low standards of mental health care in the US, I am compelled to ask, are you receiving adequate treatment? Are organic causes being addressed? - undoubtedly, you're getting antipsychotics. Are side effects addressed in any way? - you've mentioned brain injuries. A former NFL player, after a lifetime of brain trauma would get hyperbaric oxygen chamber treatments, massive doses of nootropics (piracetam and newer versions of related drugs) plus whatever else has been developed lately. Are you getting any of those? I mean, I can't put this any more bluntly than this: for mental health you need a healthy brain, period. The organic causes must be adequately addressed. - evidence is pouring from all sides that dopamine disregularion can be responsible for a wide spectrum of mental health issues, ranging from OCD to anhedonia (it's not called "dopamine reward system" for nothing), to full blown psychosis. Is this being addressed? Have doctors tried upregulating dopamine levels , with drugs that are normally used in treating Parkinson's and prolactinomas? Have they tried downregulating, with anticonvulsives like Oxcarbazepine (which also normalize mood and help with intractable depression)? - you have creative output that is worthwhile, rewarding, that provides meaning to a life that's taken a tragic turn. Can this give you a foundation to build a life apart from your mental illness? An oasis, an impregnable fortress, free from anguish and suffering, where YOU, the transcendental witness of your experience can dwell unassailable by psychotic outbreaks? A life of creativity apart from a life of mental illness? In resume: no one will do due diligence on your treatment if you won't do it. And doubly so within American medical system, where doctors are under pressure to dope you up just enough so you're not causing trouble and be rid of you ASAP. Take full responsibility for your treatment, reclaim your life. It may not seem worth the effort from within your present state, but to anyone watching from the outside, it's clear that you are a human being fully deserving of happiness and a good life. Sincerely wishing you well!
@@danielnepveux97Eno need to apologize, your art is unique and it’s meant to ease you. dark to some but to others who can resonate with your writing it’s so helpful to read/hear.
He's not a dark gloomy person, a character that goes around inducing negative feelings for the sake of it. Daniel is a person that like you and me, has a heart and mind. His health conditions bring really dark moments, pain and tears, but he is brave and kind to share his life with others, so we can have another perspective in our lives, from a person that is hopeful and sees the beauty of life even in the middle of his despair. Life ain't pretty all the time, yet he embraces it. Life can be very dark also, and we walk through that darkness in different ways. I believe that you don't mean to offend anyone, nonetheless your words portray a person completely opposite as what the author of this poem is.
🫂👍 What state do you reside? Wish I could sit and munch with you. Hey, if I took a Greyhound for 3 days(NJ) to go see Prophet Rob Sanchez and his wife Juanita(who I honor) in Cali, I can do it. Lol. 😊😎 Stay up, WARRIOR. We all love you!
Daniel Jesus sent me to tell u he loves you. Say Jesus Christ is Lord over my life he will rescue you. I know there’re many demons to face but trust the process. It will not be over night keep at it.
Trust in the Lord Jesus Christ for he said he is the prince of peace and can deliver you from any pain you may be experiencing, read the bible starting at Matthew and know that he is the only way to eternal life. Repent of your sins before him and believe the Gospel truth that he died for you, and loves you more than you could ever imagine. Trust in him Daniel, for he will never leave you nor forsake you. Every time you get these nightmares and hallucinations, just cry out: In Jesus' name, I rebuke you.
I'm so sorry, Daniel... I know how vivid and intense these experiences can feel and how they live with you forever like a haunting memory, "real" or not. It is the burden of this illness; we can experience and convey the most beautiful scenes, feel the most tender feelings, but also experience the most haunting and disturbing of them, as well. Visions and sensations that, as you so aptly put it, ought to stay in Hell where they belong. I hope they subside soon, and allow you to rest and mend your heart. I'm glad you have your animal friends and the support of so many on here to keep you company through all of this. The brightness in your soul still shines through, and I will pray for you that it will continue to do so as you fight this darkness.
I believe that I am a bit younger than you, but I have the same diagnosis (schizoaffective w/ BPD) and have been starting to experience the constant ins and outs of long hospital visits and unending fear and anxiety. I wanted to thank you for giving a voice to people like us, as it is often a lonely road without much recourse. Your videos have helped my family to understand as well, and I'd like to think we're all thankful for that. I'll be rooting for you and following your journey for as long as you continue to share it. Thank you for existing and fighting as hard as you do. Again- that light within you still deserves to shine, in spite of the demons within that try to smother it.
I just have BPD but with other coexisting psychiatric conditions. I cannot fully understand you guys but there's one thing, that we all feel in a depth that our minds sometimes cannot handle. I have had few and really mild hallucinations or/dissociative episodes, I can't picture how taxing can be to deal with any psychotic symptoms in the way you do.
Your words are beautiful and encouraging, it made me cry a bit the compassion and tenderness of your message. I hope you are also doing better, despite the unstable moments we can go through.
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I can appreciate how you turn something so dark into such a powerful piece of art Daniel. I love how real you are with your thoughts, I would be interested to hear more of your poetry. 🤍
Sending lots of love, Daniel, I am always impressed and fascinated by the way you are able to turn your experiences into poetry like this.
I'm hoping this hallucination will be gone soon, it sounds absolutely dreadful. 😥
That was an intense poem, Daniel. Having the gift of writing poetry to put it in perspective for you is amazing. I'm always amazed by how well you write, and I'm glad you were able to put this into written form and know it wasn't real. I used to have sleep paralysis, and the nightmares that went with them were ominous and frightening. Trying to wake myself up was so difficult; I couldn't move at all, let alone scream for help. Somehow I always managed to wake up and I still remember them. I hope as you write them down that they fade away and remain only on paper. I wish you nothing but peace and love ❤
Lisa as I read your comment I saw that you have suffered with Sleep Paralysis. I understand the horror of being unable to move at all, as it just gets scarier and scarier. Have you experienced that nano second where it's going to happen and you tell yourself STOP IT NOW. All of that happening in a fraction of a half second. But too late your paralyzed. I once had it almost every night. My bed was a torture chamber. I am so very sorry this beast has desendedon you.
This is real art. Love to you, Daniel.
You are gifted, your ability to turn your demons into this unique form of art is admirable and leaves me speechless. You are such an inspiration on so many levels. In videos from your channel and Chris's we have seen glimpses of your personality, you're intelligent, sensitive, smart, empathetic, your heart is so big and you're such a genuine person - the combination of all these is SO rare.
I look up to you so much, you're brave for being who you are, even braver for doing it under special circumstances.
Thank you for sharing your poetry and for being with us. You are so loved, Daniel. You are truly admired by a lot of us who keep up with your story and updates on life. Sending you much love 💕
Oh my gosh😥 my darling Daniel, just feel how much people love you, grab it and hang on tight. Because we are not going anywhere. Lots and lots of love and a great big hug. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Oh Daniel, I can't even imagine the mental pain you go through in such moments and knowing that this mental torture can come again. You have my deepest respect for your struggle and I think it's very, very brave that you share your life with us. you are such a fighter I think you help a lot of people who are perhaps not doing well in a similar way or in another way. I am sending you greetings from Germany again and always remember. Never give up, never surrender. Andrea❤
Sweet, Daniel. Your writings are very vivid. You sir, have a tremendous talent. Peace and love to you.👍💕
Dude, this is heartbreaking but also beautiful in it's own way. May you find peace and rest and have healing energy surrounding you my friend.
You are a warrior Daniel and nothing not even sickness of the mind can dim your brilliant shine. ❤
Thank you, Daniel, for such an astonishing piece of art! It brought me to the verge of tears!
Wow, thank you dear friend 💚
Thank you for sharing yourself with us, Daniel. It is always difficult to hear that you are in pain, but your art is a pleasure. I very much enjoyed the sample of your song, the harmonica is beautifully played. Wishing you well always and looking forward to more. 💙
I guess the tortured artist saying is true, because knowing all that you go through Daniel, you are the epitome of a tortured artist.
Edit: i know the saying is starving artists, but usually its the beautiful souls that are tortured (by their own minds) that make the most amazing art.
I love you friend, I hope you have a good summer Daniel.
Love to you Daniel. Calming peace amd love. Your writing is haunting. I hope you find it as an outlet to find peace.
Im so greatful to experience what's it like to be you through your art. Stay strong dear strange friend of mine. I send you some strong hugs from Arg
Daniel, I admired your courage and persaverance.What a true hero you are. Love ya
Hey man, I just want to say I happened upon your story today for the first time and I'm really glad I did. As an attempted poet myself, your poetry is surprisingly good! Very impressive. I also just wanted to say that you are a huge inspiration to me. I live in Houston most of the year for school, so I recognized some of the places you've mentioned in past videos. Keep up the good fight! You're worth it and I'm so happy you're still here. ❤
I hope you continue Daniel, you are amazing in more ways than you will ever know. True, genuine, caring, brave. Just some of the traits you show us each day with your posts. And now I am going to take a note from your book, and try to be brave as well. I loved watching you, I did all the time... I am so happy to see you are still alive, still posting. I would watch your videos as much as I could. Sometimes with my fiance. She was 3 weeks away from graduating with her PhD in clinical psychology... She would have been one of the best therapists to ever grace the field, had her PhD not been stolen from her. I can't type what happened again, i've done it so much. But she took her life 2 months ago when she lost her PhD position. We would be getting ready to start her post doc right now... had everyhing gone to plan as it should have. But... best laid plans I suppose... I will link a post here which I made lastnight which explains my suffering, and a little bit of what happened to her position. It isnt everything, there was a full year and a half of major trauamas her and I went through, almost every 2-3 weeks. A big one was a burglary where she lost half her dissertation when they stole her laptop... That was devastating, but we continued, she continued. Until her program said she was being terminated due to performance issues. She had a type 3 heart block and pace maker... but yeah, here is the post. www.reddit.com/r/OpiatesRecovery/comments/16ad8j7/starting_my_wd_from_heroinfent_on_wednesday/
Thats some Edgar Allen Poe territory poetry. Stay cool my dude. Lots of love
You just gave me the biggest compliment and smile you could possibly imagine. Edgar and Stephen King are my two favorite authors in the world. Thank you friend.
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Sorry this hallucination keeps bothering you! I’m Prayin it leaves you alone eventually. And that you don’t have any new ones to replace it anytime soon!
DANIEL, THIS WAS AMAZING, YOU HAVE FOUND YOUR CALLING.
Holy shit, Daniel, this is powerful! You're a great poet. I hope you can have something published some day.
I came again after watching your 2 videos On SBSK CHANNEL FOR THE 3 TIME 😂
I cried a lot because I understand you so deeply, or rather i know you understand me.
You are worthy and so loveable, i love your big heart and courage to share everything.
Lord knows how much i wish i could be your friend and give you a hug.
I'm happy to see you are still fighting as the strong warrior you always been.
You know, I always ask God why he permit so much suffering and struggle and it's always the same answer, the cross save us and our beloveds, and he loves watching us fight with him. So hold on, soon we'll be all together, and eternally deeply happy!
You’re a very talented writer. I’m sorry for how hard things are or can be, and want to let you know you’re not alone. You seem like a really upstanding person and I wish you the best in your ongoing healing journey. Your videos with Mr Chris are very touching. Much solidarity to you. 💐
We love you Daniel. Judy and Peter from Hungary.❤
I'm so happy that you still here in the world you are strong , I watched a video for you with Mr.chris and I was afraid about you and searched about your channel and become so glad that you are still standing .
Also, I'm so impressed by your talent in writing poems and you voice is so nice ♥
I wish I could be near to you but I'm from Egypt (so far).
Have a nice time 🙆♥
Allah bless you Daniel 🙆
Hello darling child!
Ah, this is very Poe! He is my favorite poet. PoeEt. Thanks for bringing us along with your poetry.
I hope you are steadily improving.
Love you muchly!
I don’t know what gets you through your days. I Pray that your illness disappears and you live a Peaceful rest of your life. You are Truly an Artist. Much Love and Peace to you Daniel..💜
This was actually incredibly well written
Thank you for sharing. Pulling for you brother. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. You have a lot yet to give to the world. You are making a real difference, and touching others like me each step of the way. You are a tremendous writer, and a great gift to all of us.
Thank you, so damn much, for the Beautiful and Supportive words right there Dear Friend!
I cannot adequately describe to you how powerfully your comment hit my heart....I just don't have the words right now. Things have been a lil' bit f***ed up of late and they took a scarily hard toll of both my body AND heart; so please know....your words have meant more than you'll ever know and genuinely made me a bit emotional just now.
So yeah, lol, with every single damn inch of my battered, beaten, and broken heart.....💔....I say THANK YOU dear friend. Thank you so f***ing much.
You are Awesome-Sauce 💜🫂💚🫂💖.
Beautiful work. I stan you, Daniel
I can't imagine how horrific this is for you.
I think the word amazing has been used a thousand times, but you truly are amazing. Through good times, bad times, and worse times, we are all here for you. Hold on to that.
Dan the Man!
That was so beautiful Daniel i teared up a little. Lots of love to you ❤
Love ya buddy. Thank you for sharing with us.
I absolutely love poetry and you handsome sir have a true gift with words.Sending you big hugs and lots of love.
Wow, that's an incredible poem. Is so raw but at the same time I can perceive the uncertainty from reality. Very interesting. You keep sharing with us your complex and beautiful mind, I just feel grateful for knowing your art. The song, sounds pretty good, maybe we need another spoon to taste it more haha.
I hope that this nightmare can be washed from your mind and diluted from your heart. I couldn't imagine how it must've felt to be in such state.
Much hugs and support Daniel, you are a blessing. God bless you for what you do.
Prayers for you Daniel
Sending lots of love & light to you, my Sweet Friend! 🕯️💞🩵🕯️
You may not see it or feel it at times, but YOU, my dear, are so VERY, VERY F*CK¡NG STRONG DANIEL!! 💙💪💙
Your ability to translate your terrifying trauma into such an incredibly beautiful and eloquent piece of literary Art is Phenomenal!! 🩶🕯️🩵🕯️🩶🕯️🩵🕯️
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Love to hear you read your poems Daniel.
Speechless
Edit: found my voice
Sending love
Your one of my heros
Lol, thank you so very much ❤️
Daniel you always leave me speechless with your poetry. You have a way with words that I can’t express it’s just beautiful.
Thank you so d*** much for those beautiful and supportive words dear friend. I still get extremely nervous sharing these personal poems and it makes a world of a difference to me to know that people can truly feel them. Thank you again. 💜🫂💚
Great beauty in devastation. I love Emily Dickinson and your poetry reminds me of her.
😢 that was really deep. That was good poetry. But it was sad.
Just wow! Beautiful work. I hope you are well 🙏
A true genuine artist Daniel. Sending a lot peaceful vibes your way. 💕
Hope you do ok mate . All love ❤️ would like to see more of you're poetic stuff . Take care !
I love your artful expression. I hope there will be peace in the future.❤
Dear Daniel, I am halfway through the interview you did with Mr. Chris on SBSK 2 years ago. I am getting emotional and the comments are turned off on that video so I wanted to come to your channel while I still had the energy to tell you: thank you for your honesty in that interview. I am feeling a lot that I can’t put into words but I can say Thank You. When I am feeling better I will come back here and listen to your poem ❤️
UA-cam turned of their comments. They are fighting since over a year now. But UA-cam is so stubborn, it’s so annoying.
Sending you metta (loving-kindness) and light. You have such a brilliant mind, a true creative! I'm wishing you peace and happiness, and wishing you a life without these sufferings and tortures as soon as possible. 🙏 From your new UA-cam friend on the other side of the world who will always be wishing well for you 🧸
Not much to say after this powerful poem other than I wish you peace. One day, peace. Take care, Daniel.
amazing works mate!
Love you Daniel ❤
so I've been thinking for a day by now on how to respond to this video not because Im avoiding it but because I want to also express strongly my love or appreciation for your content and self expression!( mainly because Im a over-thinker lol)You know how you go through day to day life as if you're on autopilot and then this sudden realization hits that you are alive and that you exists ?And its almost this weird out of body experience that you have and it takes awhile to snap out of it..(im not sure how to explain it forgive me if this sounds redundant) so I like to think this poem can kinda emulates that feeling. I know this poem is originally meant to portray what your hallucinations or comatose state is like but I try to take what clicks to me in order to gain a better understanding of your experiences. Idk hopefully that makes sense. lol Your poems make life more bearable and worth living .♥♥♥
Cant wait to hear what else you write dude. Much Love ♥♥♥♥
PS: Don't forget to take care of yourself ya big goof!
Excellent work Daniel ❤
hi daniel, i really liked your poem.
God bless you Daniel
Love to you, Daniel. This is an unusually vivid narrative. Is it real? If you experienced the emotion of it, and tamed it into both text and the spoken word, then it's real.
Yes friend, when I was in that several weeks long coma I experienced a 6-month narrative that I thought was completely real where I lived through a small handful of pleasant hallucinations, but mainly just countless unspeakable Horrors and terrors; THIS particular one was horrible and is as I saw, felt, and experienced in every detail I could fit in. Thank you for listening and understanding how REAL these things can be. It took me a week of post-ICU delirium to finally understand that those 6 months I lived weren't real, that it actually been around 23 days in the hospital at that point.
@@danielnepveux97E I've been there. Sometimes, even though many medical people want to help, they just untether us from reality. Your work is lovely.
Thank you so very much. ❤
@@danielnepveux97E Just reading this and *imagining* what you went through, is already worse than what my mind could even comprehend so far.
You are so strong, and to turn all of this into these vivid and emotional poems as well is unlike anything Ive come across before! However I see so many people turn their own struggles with mental illness into art, and it truly makes their (and your) experiences visible, and gives a voice to those suffering in silence. THANK YOU Daniel.
You are everything David ✨💜
just popping in to see how you are doing bro. stay strong
😊 you have a brilliant speaking voice 😊
i love you Daniel 💙💜💙
Hey Buddy
I'm Sorry This Keeps Bugging You
Im Praying One Day It Leaves You Be
And Stays Away
Tons Of Sunshine 🌞
Big Bear Hugs 🐻 🫂
From Me To You
You're an incredible poet!
Your home is beautiful. Did you make the birdhouse?
Walking thru it.
Damn, that was epic.
loving it bro
Sending lots of hugs & love ✌️
You poor thing 😟
Wuv you, big guy.❤
Incredible ❤
Big Hug
You are so talented.
Hey, just came across this Australian junior psychiatrist discussing your Special Books video. A lot of people expressed support, and I was rather moved too. I also came away with a firm conviction that there's a sound mind and an integrated personality (albeit in great distress) behind the illness. I mean, no one would think of calling someone "crazy" who's running a high fever and hallucinating. The fever will pass, the person will return to normal.
So, on a much more pragmatic note, as someone who's done a ton of research on the subject and is aware of the scandalously low standards of mental health care in the US, I am compelled to ask, are you receiving adequate treatment? Are organic causes being addressed?
- undoubtedly, you're getting antipsychotics. Are side effects addressed in any way?
- you've mentioned brain injuries. A former NFL player, after a lifetime of brain trauma would get hyperbaric oxygen chamber treatments, massive doses of nootropics (piracetam and newer versions of related drugs) plus whatever else has been developed lately. Are you getting any of those? I mean, I can't put this any more bluntly than this: for mental health you need a healthy brain, period. The organic causes must be adequately addressed.
- evidence is pouring from all sides that dopamine disregularion can be responsible for a wide spectrum of mental health issues, ranging from OCD to anhedonia (it's not called "dopamine reward system" for nothing), to full blown psychosis. Is this being addressed? Have doctors tried upregulating dopamine levels , with drugs that are normally used in treating Parkinson's and prolactinomas? Have they tried downregulating, with anticonvulsives like Oxcarbazepine (which also normalize mood and help with intractable depression)?
- you have creative output that is worthwhile, rewarding, that provides meaning to a life that's taken a tragic turn. Can this give you a foundation to build a life apart from your mental illness? An oasis, an impregnable fortress, free from anguish and suffering, where YOU, the transcendental witness of your experience can dwell unassailable by psychotic outbreaks? A life of creativity apart from a life of mental illness?
In resume: no one will do due diligence on your treatment if you won't do it. And doubly so within American medical system, where doctors are under pressure to dope you up just enough so you're not causing trouble and be rid of you ASAP. Take full responsibility for your treatment, reclaim your life. It may not seem worth the effort from within your present state, but to anyone watching from the outside, it's clear that you are a human being fully deserving of happiness and a good life.
Sincerely wishing you well!
❤️❤️
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Believe me I’m in the middle of my deliverance
BEARHUUUUUUUUUUG
Please …. Don’t let it be real… 🥺
This guy is very dark
💔 I know, I'm sorry, I tried to put a warning in the description. I truly hope I didn't cause discomfort.
@@danielnepveux97Eno need to apologize, your art is unique and it’s meant to ease you. dark to some but to others who can resonate with your writing it’s so helpful to read/hear.
@@jonny2468
THIS. 💗
He's not a dark gloomy person, a character that goes around inducing negative feelings for the sake of it.
Daniel is a person that like you and me, has a heart and mind. His health conditions bring really dark moments, pain and tears, but he is brave and kind to share his life with others, so we can have another perspective in our lives, from a person that is hopeful and sees the beauty of life even in the middle of his despair.
Life ain't pretty all the time, yet he embraces it.
Life can be very dark also, and we walk through that darkness in different ways. I believe that you don't mean to offend anyone, nonetheless your words portray a person completely opposite as what the author of this poem is.
@@danielnepveux97Ethere's no need to apologize, people can stop watching something or click somewhere else.
I love you daniel
I haven't seen you in awhile.
🫂👍
What state do you reside? Wish I could sit and munch with you.
Hey, if I took a Greyhound for 3 days(NJ) to go see Prophet Rob Sanchez and his wife Juanita(who I honor) in Cali, I can do it. Lol.
😊😎
Stay up, WARRIOR. We all love you!
Just interested. Do you have Jesus in your heart? ❤️🙏
Hi friend. I hope you are feeling well and having good company. You matter
Do you like music? I'd love to strum some tunes to befriend your writings, they are soul touching.
Daniel Jesus sent me to tell u he loves you. Say Jesus Christ is Lord over my life he will rescue you. I know there’re many demons to face but trust the process. It will not be over night keep at it.
Trust in the Lord Jesus Christ for he said he is the prince of peace and can deliver you from any pain you may be experiencing, read the bible starting at Matthew and know that he is the only way to eternal life. Repent of your sins before him and believe the Gospel truth that he died for you, and loves you more than you could ever imagine. Trust in him Daniel, for he will never leave you nor forsake you. Every time you get these nightmares and hallucinations, just cry out: In Jesus' name, I rebuke you.
It won't be real! 🫂
Daniel, you seem to live in a very dark world. I really do hope the best for you.