In a similar (but more healthy) way, I use this technique when I know that my anxiety is generally high, and looking for any source to thrive on. And so I read fantasy books in order to aim my "fighting" energy at a clearly imaginary source, so that it's all used up when/if I have to deal with any social situations.
The references to "building a house upon the sand" and "a firmer foundation" (how firm a foundation) are so ironic!! That is one of the things that I noticed as I deconstructed my LDS beliefs: the things the church always preaches to hate, are often the things that they themselves are. Like the pride cycle in the Book of Mormon. They claimed it happened every couple hundred years, with Lamanites and Nephites oscillating between who was bad and who was good. (Also black and white thinking.) I began to think, huh, its been a couple hundred years since the church was founded. And look where we are now. Granted, that was a little before I learned more about the awful background of its founders, and realized it wasn't a purely benevolent organization to begin with, but still. Also in the endowment ceremony, they talk about how Jesus abolished the Law of Moses, and we no longer have to perform literal animal sacrifices because he was the ultimate sacrifice. It essentially always meant to me that it was about the spirit of the law, rather than the letter of the law. That the symbolism and the intentions of a person were the higher law (Melchizedek) than performing rote routines just for the sake of the action (Aaronic, in terms of the progression of the symbolism in the ceremony itself). Yet, the opposite was true when it came to actually practicing the religion. Things had to be followed exactly, regardless of the actual nuances of the situations, and the individual needs of the people involved. If Jesus truly experienced everything about me and my life in the Garden of Gethsemane, then he would understand exactly who I am. That I had sensory issues with garments, and that wearing clothing that wasn't always "modest" by LDS standards did wonders to make me feel beautiful and boost my mental health. Supposedly God understood all that about me, as a perfect, all-knowing and all-loving deity. MY all-loving and all-knowing deity. The dissonance that developed between my beliefs and the church that taught them to me grew too loud, too obvious to ignore. Thank you guys for sharing such thoughtful, insightful videos. They've helped me see the world in a more nuanced way, having compassion for both myself and for my loved ones who are still active Mormons. Seeing it as an institutional problem, rather than an individual problem, and how most of us really do have kindness within us that just gets drowned out by us vs them mentalities and black and white thinking. Yall are amazing 💛
@Indi_Waffle_Girl And, remember this, all the undulating earth beneath the sand is the constant INCONSTANCY of the perverse "teaching" and manipulated indoctrination MEANT to keep us off-balance as a means of control. Then the PERFECTION - PERFORMANCE- PERFUNCTORY syndrome succeeds in hanging itself like a black velvet VEIL, blocking connection of our REASON to modulate emotions into a roan horse we could ride the hell out of our entrapment! A certain GUILE is needed in this predicament (and having been taught to FEEL guilty for that WORTHY GIFT of survival drive and the PRIMAL AUTHORITY of it, we get stalemated over and over). THIS is the work of the enemy, that devil who means to subvert our life and usurp the work of our Creator. That forced Him to our rescue by His Redemption. That cannot be cosmically undone; only in the temporal portion of our existence. But the WORK of the true Holy Spirit is to INFORM us with a positive nature we can neither see nor have any part in directing. It concurrently CONforms us to the divine nature of "obedience" for which that very word is a defilement of the holy principle. We suffer as with a most violent illness (which it is!) this necessary gestation into the New Being He is making us. 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯. Love you, little sisters! And old ones like myself, too. It makes sense suddenly. 🌈 "Let there be LIGHT!" 🌈
@AliBreee It may be that some of us can only build castles. What would be wrong with that? Our Creator KNOWS OUR FRAME, that we are but dust. He doesn't NEED us to build anything! He wants us to be still and KNOW THAT HE is God and lean completely into His hand while He - alert and active, keeping watch over His Word to PERFORM it IN OUR BEHALF - for His own Name's sake - He has promised that, "I HAVE SPOKEN IT AND I WILL PERFORM IT! "AND WHO WILL HINDER ME?! " I will PERFECT that which concerns you! "Fear not, little flock! It is The Father's good pleasure TO. GIVE. YOU. THE. KINGDOM!" 😻😻😻😻😻
@@AliBreee I, too, am in the spectrum. I, too, suffer CPTSD. We may not be "friends", but no need to be enemies. Nor kick at one another's house, whatever its form.
@@sheliabryant3997 😻😈 again, You do you. No imaginary enemies here. You watched this video with #exvangelical #exmormon #cult. You related to my comment and felt compelled to share what helps you. I appreciate your attempt at compassion. Maybe just “read the room” or hashtags or watch more of Zelphs videos?
Thank you so much for articulating things that as ex mos we are now working our way out of
In a similar (but more healthy) way, I use this technique when I know that my anxiety is generally high, and looking for any source to thrive on. And so I read fantasy books in order to aim my "fighting" energy at a clearly imaginary source, so that it's all used up when/if I have to deal with any social situations.
I truly believed my foundation was rock solid and was willing to test it against anything and that’s how I learned it wasn’t.
Girl, your eyes are so much louder than your words. I always have to rewatch these... *swooning respectfully*
The references to "building a house upon the sand" and "a firmer foundation" (how firm a foundation) are so ironic!! That is one of the things that I noticed as I deconstructed my LDS beliefs: the things the church always preaches to hate, are often the things that they themselves are. Like the pride cycle in the Book of Mormon. They claimed it happened every couple hundred years, with Lamanites and Nephites oscillating between who was bad and who was good. (Also black and white thinking.) I began to think, huh, its been a couple hundred years since the church was founded. And look where we are now. Granted, that was a little before I learned more about the awful background of its founders, and realized it wasn't a purely benevolent organization to begin with, but still.
Also in the endowment ceremony, they talk about how Jesus abolished the Law of Moses, and we no longer have to perform literal animal sacrifices because he was the ultimate sacrifice. It essentially always meant to me that it was about the spirit of the law, rather than the letter of the law. That the symbolism and the intentions of a person were the higher law (Melchizedek) than performing rote routines just for the sake of the action (Aaronic, in terms of the progression of the symbolism in the ceremony itself).
Yet, the opposite was true when it came to actually practicing the religion. Things had to be followed exactly, regardless of the actual nuances of the situations, and the individual needs of the people involved. If Jesus truly experienced everything about me and my life in the Garden of Gethsemane, then he would understand exactly who I am. That I had sensory issues with garments, and that wearing clothing that wasn't always "modest" by LDS standards did wonders to make me feel beautiful and boost my mental health. Supposedly God understood all that about me, as a perfect, all-knowing and all-loving deity. MY all-loving and all-knowing deity. The dissonance that developed between my beliefs and the church that taught them to me grew too loud, too obvious to ignore.
Thank you guys for sharing such thoughtful, insightful videos. They've helped me see the world in a more nuanced way, having compassion for both myself and for my loved ones who are still active Mormons. Seeing it as an institutional problem, rather than an individual problem, and how most of us really do have kindness within us that just gets drowned out by us vs them mentalities and black and white thinking. Yall are amazing 💛
Such a great comment!! And thank you so much!! 💗💗💗
@Indi_Waffle_Girl
And, remember this, all the undulating earth beneath the sand is the constant INCONSTANCY of the perverse "teaching" and manipulated indoctrination MEANT to keep us off-balance as a means of control.
Then the PERFECTION -
PERFORMANCE-
PERFUNCTORY syndrome
succeeds
in hanging itself like a black velvet
VEIL, blocking connection of our REASON to modulate emotions into a roan horse we could ride the hell out of our entrapment!
A certain GUILE is needed in this
predicament (and having been taught to FEEL guilty for that WORTHY GIFT of survival drive and the PRIMAL AUTHORITY of it, we get stalemated over and over).
THIS is the work of the enemy, that devil who means to subvert our life and usurp the work of our Creator.
That forced Him to our rescue by His Redemption. That cannot be cosmically undone; only in the temporal portion of our existence.
But the WORK of the true Holy Spirit is to INFORM us with a positive nature we can neither see nor have any part in directing. It concurrently CONforms us to the divine nature of "obedience" for which that very word is a defilement of the holy principle.
We suffer as with a most violent illness (which it is!) this necessary
gestation into the New Being He is making us.
🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯. Love you, little sisters! And old ones like myself, too. It makes sense suddenly. 🌈
"Let there be LIGHT!" 🌈
Autism in a nutshell lol but seriously… my brain is traumatized sand… how can I build anything sustainable lol
@AliBreee
It may be that some of us can only build castles.
What would be wrong with that?
Our Creator KNOWS OUR FRAME,
that we are but dust.
He doesn't NEED us to build anything!
He wants us to be still and KNOW THAT HE is God and lean completely into His hand while He - alert and active, keeping watch over His Word to PERFORM it IN OUR BEHALF -
for His own Name's sake - He has promised that, "I HAVE SPOKEN IT AND I WILL PERFORM IT!
"AND WHO WILL HINDER ME?!
" I will PERFECT that which concerns you!
"Fear not, little flock! It is The Father's good pleasure
TO. GIVE. YOU. THE. KINGDOM!"
😻😻😻😻😻
@ 😻lol you do you 😈
@@AliBreee
I, too, am in the spectrum.
I, too, suffer CPTSD.
We may not be "friends", but no need to be enemies. Nor kick at one another's house, whatever its form.
@@sheliabryant3997 😻😈 again, You do you. No imaginary enemies here. You watched this video with #exvangelical #exmormon #cult. You related to my comment and felt compelled to share what helps you. I appreciate your attempt at compassion. Maybe just “read the room” or hashtags or watch more of Zelphs videos?