I just wanna say thank you again, the time and effort you put in to help us out means the world to me. For some reason knowing a person I've never met, well, that they care is monumental. Merry Christmas to all ya'll.
Thank you❤ had an "awakening" felt bliss for months, now feeling pretty sad/ depressed and confused, like I don't have desires or goals to reach anymore...kinda lost honestly I try as much as I can to see thoughts as thoughts, to just be, feeling the emotion... I don't know, just wanna cry, with the fear Im gonna be stuck in these state
Try this... ua-cam.com/video/TZPR1ZaaLLI/v-deo.html Remember awakening will have up's and downs too but we can better manage the downs. Keep your head up 🙏❤️
I've been suffering all my life. Most of it is self-inflicted. I can't stop self-sabotaging. From my understanding it's my early programming. I don't know how to escape it. I keep making the same mistakes over and over I can't stop myself. I've tried everything, read books, seminars, therapy, yoga, self inquiry and of course meditation. They all provided some temporarily relief which I'm thankful for but no real solution. It's like I was sent to run a race with two broken legs. At some point it doesn't make sense to continue suffering for no apparent reason. Like you said i tried to be still go with in and ask what the purpose/lesson is. I've gotten no answers, no direction, no hints. I'm at the point of giving up and ending this misery. I think I'm justified because I sincerely tried everything and nothing has worked
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Your pain is real, and the fact that you're reaching out shows just how much you're fighting even if it doesn't feel like it. Please know you're not alone in this, and there’s still hope, even if it’s hard to see right now. First, I want to honor your effort. The fact that you've tried so many different paths books, therapy, meditation proves your strength and deep desire for healing. That’s not the sign of someone who’s weak; it’s the sign of someone who cares deeply about their life and wants to make it better, even if the road feels impossible right now. The early programming you're talking about? It’s powerful. It can feel like a trap because those patterns were formed at a time when you didn’t have control. But here’s the thing: you are not your programming. That’s not who you really are. The part of you that keeps searching, keeps hoping, keeps asking for answers-that’s your true self. That’s the part of you worth holding onto, even in this darkness. Sometimes, when we're searching for a solution, we overlook one essential truth: there may not be one big, dramatic answer. Healing isn’t always about fixing everything at once it’s about learning how to be with the pain, even when it feels unbearable. It’s in those small moments-taking one breath, making one choice, reaching out like you just did that shifts begin to happen. Your analogy about running a race with two broken legs hit me deeply. I've been there and felt like hounds were chasing me with those broken legs. But it’s okay to stop running. It’s okay to sit with yourself in the middle of that race and just let yourself be. Life isn’t a competition, and you’re not failing because you’re struggling. Sometimes, the lesson is simply learning how to love and accept yourself right where you are-broken legs and all. When you say you’ve gotten no answers from being still, I hear your frustration. But let me ask you this: what if the answer is hidden in the stillness itself? What if it’s not about hearing something but just allowing yourself to rest in the silence? It might not make sense now, but sometimes the most profound answers come not as words, but as a shift deep within us a moment when we suddenly realize that we’re not alone, that we’re being held by something greater than ourselves. I want to share something that’s helped me: the idea that our struggles, as unbearable as they feel, aren’t punishments they’re part of the human experience. They don’t define us, even though they might feel like all we are. When we surrender not by giving up, but by letting go of the fight against ourselves we create space for grace to step in. Please, if nothing else, keep going long enough to see what’s on the other side of this darkness. There are people, maybe even strangers like me, who care deeply about you and want you to find peace. If it feels too heavy to carry this alone, reach out to someone you trust, a hotline, or even this community. You don’t have to face this battle by yourself. You are worthy of love, of hope, and of healing not because of what you do, but simply because you are. Please hold on. You matter, more than you know.
@@_YourHigherSelf Thank you for your response. It really means a lot. There's no one I can open up to in my life. I always wear a mask to appear normal and don't let anyone get close enough to see how broken I am. It's getting harder and harder to keep the facade up. All the self sabotaging is affecting my work and my life in general. You said something about learning to love and accept yourself. Very hard to do when that same self constantly trips you over and stabs in the back. If someone else were to do that self-defense would be warranted. It's like being trapped in a cell with your worst enemy. Despite what you said, the only thing that makes logical sense to me is if this was some sort of punishment for a past life or something. I never did anything in this life that would warrant this much mental agony. In fact I have deep compassion for others and would help anyone anytime i can. I followed the rules, did what I was told, and was always the good kid. Yet I find myself trapped in a mental cell with my worst enemy. I'm going to keep trying for a little longer for the sake of my family. It hurts me to think of their pain. But there exists a point where my pain becomes intolerable. Thank you for indulging me. You have helped more than you think
Your openness touches us deeply, and I want you to know I see the immense strength it takes to express these feelings. Sharing something so raw, even with a stranger, is no small thing-it’s a testament to the courage you carry, even when it feels like your spirit is worn down. Thank you for trusting me with this part of your heart. First, I hear you. I have been there and was there a lonh time. Wearing a mask every day, keeping up the facade, was exhausting. I couldn't look myself in the mirror for 25+ years. Pretending to be okay when you're crumbling inside felt like carrying a mountain on my back. So, it's no wonder you're worn out; anyone would be. But please know, the version of you behind that mask-the one you’re afraid to let people see isn’t something to hide or be ashamed of. That part of you is just a human being who’s hurting, and it’s okay to let some of that weight down, even in small ways. I understand what you mean about feeling trapped with your worst enemy. I was locked in the lions den with that same enemy for quite some time. That kind of self-betrayal is brutal, and it’s hard to believe you could ever love or accept something that feels like it’s tearing you apart from the inside. But here’s the thing: the part of you that’s self-sabotaging isn’t your enemy. It’s a wounded part of you, acting out from fear, pain, or unmet needs. Imagine a wild animal caught in a trap it lashes out not because it’s evil, but because it’s scared and in pain. That’s what self-sabotage often is: a desperate attempt to protect you, even if it’s doing more harm than good. When you can start seeing that part of yourself not as an enemy but as a scared, hurting version of you, something shifts. It’s not about excusing the damage it’s caused, but about approaching it with curiosity and compassion. Instead of fighting that part of yourself, what if you could listen to it? Ask it why it’s doing what it’s doing, even if the answer doesn’t come right away. It might sound strange, but sometimes these parts of us just need to feel seen and heard before they can soften. As for the idea that this is punishment for a past life, I hear your frustration. But I have learned to move on from that way of thinking on "karma" and yes, it’s hard to reconcile the pain you’re experiencing with the life you’ve lived, especially when you’ve been kind and compassionate to others. But what if it’s not punishment? What if this pain isn’t about something you’ve done, but about something you’re here to learn, to transform, or even to help others with someday? Sometimes our deepest struggles become the very thing that allows us to connect with others on a profound level, to offer them a kind of understanding and support that only comes from having walked through the fire ourselves. This has been a gift to me by leaving the lions den because I get to use my past pain to help others do the same. We're here to learn and to help. Your compassion for your family speaks volumes about your heart. That love you feel for them-that’s real, and it’s something to hold onto when everything else feels like it’s falling apart. Let that love guide you, even when the pain feels unbearable. I want to leave you with this: you’re not broken beyond repair. You’re hurting, deeply, and that pain feels like a prison right now. But there is still a part of you-no matter how small it seems-that’s fighting for something better. You’re not alone in this, even if it feels that way. Please keep reaching out, whether it’s here, to a professional, or to a trusted support line. There are people who care and want to walk with you through this darkness. Your willingness to keep trying, even for a little while longer, is an act of love and bravery. And in those moments when you feel like you can’t hold on for yourself, let the love you have for your family hold you steady. You’ve helped me too, by reminding me of the strength it takes to keep going. Thank you for that.
I've been trying to heal from a stroke for almost a year I still can't use my left arm or barely walk with a cane,I'm tired of crying and tired of being like this,thank you for this video, because I am just sitting around suffering, waiting to die,and I'm married to a amazing wife and have a awesome son ,I'm depressed as hell
We can see how a video like this may irk you a little bit considering what you've gone through but it's not really that type of suffering. It's more along the lines of the things that may be currently holding you back even in the situation that you now find yourself in. We can't stress through a comment on a social platform how much we feel for you but we can say we're thinking of you and if you ever need someone to talk to we're here.
Thank you that means a lot. It's like we always say if any of these videos only help one person it's all worth it. Keep your head up and remember you always have brothers and sisters here.
Good morning ya'll, I'm suffering in every way imaginable. I feel like i have suffered from things I've done in the past but man I've more than paid my dues. I don't know the reasons why I'm going thru this now but i hope it's revealed soon coz I'm tired. I'm stuck in a negativity loop, and i haven't found the way to break out. I've asked for help to get thru but nobody hears me....i don't even know if i hear myself.
But let me ask you this brother have you sat alone tv off no sound just you I'm not saying meditate necessarily but have you just sat there with your thoughts and I know that they will all be raging at the same time but have you just sat there with what is affecting you and tried confronting it? Not angrily not aggressive but just sat there and tried to front it would open arms and figure out a solution. I know that that sounds corny I know that it sounds too much like a self-help book but simple fact is it does help. We can listen to you here we can offer advice to you here but I can't give you the solution only you can do that. If you don't feel comfortable saying in public what the problem may be we completely understand but at the same time as well we can't really help or give any kind of advice or opinion unless we know kind of what's going on so if you're willing to share I'm willing to continue the conversation but remember what I always say you have to go within and no it's not easy but it is very much possible.
@_YourHigherSelf I haven't had any quiet at all, my major problem is back pain, got hurt at work and work comp said its degenerative and stopped all care, which was none and compensation. Been outta work for months. They fully admitted they've know i can't continue being a flag tech but called it degenerative. My dr referred me to s spine surgeon for treatment , short-term disability denied me and completely ignored my drs recommendation. I also am addicted to pain pills/narcotics. I haven't taken any in more than ten years. So right now I'm in a ton of pain, no job, no money at all and I'm so far behind i don't see a way out. I've asked for help to buy time to find another career but nobody has listened. I've tried to meditate but the pain, i can't stay still or focus at all,on anything . I'll take your advice for sure, got nothing to lose by doing so
@_YourHigherSelf my back pain is my problem, I was addicted to pain pills more than ten years ago and even how bad I'm hurt right now i still won't touch em. My back is blown out after an incident some driving at work in August. I can't be an auto tech anymore, not without getting my back fixed. Work comp did an mri. No treatment and deemed my injury degenerative so they stopped any compensation and no further diagnosis or care. Not one dr touched my back or even witnessed the popping and grinding I'm experiencing, after that stopped i was free to go to my dr who referred me to a spine surgeon for treatment and diag, short-term disability denied me coz they completely ignored my drs recommendation. So I got dropped on my head pretty much. Been outta work for months and I'm way way behind on everything plus I've had to get several high interest loans to keep our apartment. I don't see a way out of any part of this
In the words of Bugsy Seigal, lawyer. Believe it or not there are plenty of disability lawyers for workman comp that don't take upfront payments. A good friend just went through this saying his knee pain was family history and kept getting denied finally talked him into calling a lawyer and 6 months later he has full coverage, got a retroactive check for 38k and is having knee surgery paid by his ex employer in February. I can't say it will be the same but ALWAYS explore every option first. "They" don't want you to explore options in fact they rely on people not knowing the options. Meditation and such will work to get yourself in control but things like this also requires outer help. Don't give up and don't settle. Keep your head up and keep trying brother.
Thanks!
Suffering is where the growth is, you don't grow when things are going good ❤😊
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thank you brother ! I wish I had a brother like you !
I just wanna say thank you again, the time and effort you put in to help us out means the world to me. For some reason knowing a person I've never met, well, that they care is monumental. Merry Christmas to all ya'll.
Glad to help
Thank you❤
had an "awakening" felt bliss for months, now feeling pretty sad/ depressed and confused, like I don't have desires or goals to reach anymore...kinda lost honestly
I try as much as I can to see thoughts as thoughts, to just be, feeling the emotion...
I don't know, just wanna cry, with the fear Im gonna be stuck in these state
Try this... ua-cam.com/video/TZPR1ZaaLLI/v-deo.html
Remember awakening will have up's and downs too but we can better manage the downs.
Keep your head up 🙏❤️
@_YourHigherSelf Thank you, I really appreciate your support ❤️
I've been suffering all my life. Most of it is self-inflicted. I can't stop self-sabotaging. From my understanding it's my early programming. I don't know how to escape it. I keep making the same mistakes over and over I can't stop myself. I've tried everything, read books, seminars, therapy, yoga, self inquiry and of course meditation. They all provided some temporarily relief which I'm thankful for but no real solution. It's like I was sent to run a race with two broken legs. At some point it doesn't make sense to continue suffering for no apparent reason. Like you said i tried to be still go with in and ask what the purpose/lesson is. I've gotten no answers, no direction, no hints. I'm at the point of giving up and ending this misery. I think I'm justified because I sincerely tried everything and nothing has worked
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Your pain is real, and the fact that you're reaching out shows just how much you're fighting even if it doesn't feel like it. Please know you're not alone in this, and there’s still hope, even if it’s hard to see right now.
First, I want to honor your effort. The fact that you've tried so many different paths books, therapy, meditation proves your strength and deep desire for healing. That’s not the sign of someone who’s weak; it’s the sign of someone who cares deeply about their life and wants to make it better, even if the road feels impossible right now.
The early programming you're talking about? It’s powerful. It can feel like a trap because those patterns were formed at a time when you didn’t have control. But here’s the thing: you are not your programming. That’s not who you really are. The part of you that keeps searching, keeps hoping, keeps asking for answers-that’s your true self. That’s the part of you worth holding onto, even in this darkness.
Sometimes, when we're searching for a solution, we overlook one essential truth: there may not be one big, dramatic answer. Healing isn’t always about fixing everything at once it’s about learning how to be with the pain, even when it feels unbearable. It’s in those small moments-taking one breath, making one choice, reaching out like you just did that shifts begin to happen.
Your analogy about running a race with two broken legs hit me deeply. I've been there and felt like hounds were chasing me with those broken legs. But it’s okay to stop running. It’s okay to sit with yourself in the middle of that race and just let yourself be. Life isn’t a competition, and you’re not failing because you’re struggling. Sometimes, the lesson is simply learning how to love and accept yourself right where you are-broken legs and all.
When you say you’ve gotten no answers from being still, I hear your frustration. But let me ask you this: what if the answer is hidden in the stillness itself? What if it’s not about hearing something but just allowing yourself to rest in the silence? It might not make sense now, but sometimes the most profound answers come not as words, but as a shift deep within us a moment when we suddenly realize that we’re not alone, that we’re being held by something greater than ourselves.
I want to share something that’s helped me: the idea that our struggles, as unbearable as they feel, aren’t punishments they’re part of the human experience. They don’t define us, even though they might feel like all we are. When we surrender not by giving up, but by letting go of the fight against ourselves we create space for grace to step in.
Please, if nothing else, keep going long enough to see what’s on the other side of this darkness. There are people, maybe even strangers like me, who care deeply about you and want you to find peace. If it feels too heavy to carry this alone, reach out to someone you trust, a hotline, or even this community. You don’t have to face this battle by yourself.
You are worthy of love, of hope, and of healing not because of what you do, but simply because you are. Please hold on.
You matter, more than you know.
@@_YourHigherSelf Thank you for your response. It really means a lot. There's no one I can open up to in my life. I always wear a mask to appear normal and don't let anyone get close enough to see how broken I am.
It's getting harder and harder to keep the facade up. All the self sabotaging is affecting my work and my life in general.
You said something about learning to love and accept yourself. Very hard to do when that same self constantly trips you over and stabs in the back. If someone else were to do that self-defense would be warranted. It's like being trapped in a cell with your worst enemy.
Despite what you said, the only thing that makes logical sense to me is if this was some sort of punishment for a past life or something. I never did anything in this life that would warrant this much mental agony. In fact I have deep compassion for others and would help anyone anytime i can. I followed the rules, did what I was told, and was always the good kid. Yet I find myself trapped in a mental cell with my worst enemy.
I'm going to keep trying for a little longer for the sake of my family. It hurts me to think of their pain. But there exists a point where my pain becomes intolerable.
Thank you for indulging me. You have helped more than you think
Your openness touches us deeply, and I want you to know I see the immense strength it takes to express these feelings. Sharing something so raw, even with a stranger, is no small thing-it’s a testament to the courage you carry, even when it feels like your spirit is worn down. Thank you for trusting me with this part of your heart.
First, I hear you. I have been there and was there a lonh time. Wearing a mask every day, keeping up the facade, was exhausting. I couldn't look myself in the mirror for 25+ years. Pretending to be okay when you're crumbling inside felt like carrying a mountain on my back. So, it's no wonder you're worn out; anyone would be. But please know, the version of you behind that mask-the one you’re afraid to let people see isn’t something to hide or be ashamed of. That part of you is just a human being who’s hurting, and it’s okay to let some of that weight down, even in small ways.
I understand what you mean about feeling trapped with your worst enemy. I was locked in the lions den with that same enemy for quite some time. That kind of self-betrayal is brutal, and it’s hard to believe you could ever love or accept something that feels like it’s tearing you apart from the inside. But here’s the thing: the part of you that’s self-sabotaging isn’t your enemy. It’s a wounded part of you, acting out from fear, pain, or unmet needs. Imagine a wild animal caught in a trap it lashes out not because it’s evil, but because it’s scared and in pain. That’s what self-sabotage often is: a desperate attempt to protect you, even if it’s doing more harm than good.
When you can start seeing that part of yourself not as an enemy but as a scared, hurting version of you, something shifts. It’s not about excusing the damage it’s caused, but about approaching it with curiosity and compassion. Instead of fighting that part of yourself, what if you could listen to it? Ask it why it’s doing what it’s doing, even if the answer doesn’t come right away. It might sound strange, but sometimes these parts of us just need to feel seen and heard before they can soften.
As for the idea that this is punishment for a past life, I hear your frustration. But I have learned to move on from that way of thinking on "karma" and yes, it’s hard to reconcile the pain you’re experiencing with the life you’ve lived, especially when you’ve been kind and compassionate to others. But what if it’s not punishment? What if this pain isn’t about something you’ve done, but about something you’re here to learn, to transform, or even to help others with someday? Sometimes our deepest struggles become the very thing that allows us to connect with others on a profound level, to offer them a kind of understanding and support that only comes from having walked through the fire ourselves. This has been a gift to me by leaving the lions den because I get to use my past pain to help others do the same. We're here to learn and to help.
Your compassion for your family speaks volumes about your heart. That love you feel for them-that’s real, and it’s something to hold onto when everything else feels like it’s falling apart. Let that love guide you, even when the pain feels unbearable.
I want to leave you with this: you’re not broken beyond repair. You’re hurting, deeply, and that pain feels like a prison right now. But there is still a part of you-no matter how small it seems-that’s fighting for something better. You’re not alone in this, even if it feels that way. Please keep reaching out, whether it’s here, to a professional, or to a trusted support line. There are people who care and want to walk with you through this darkness.
Your willingness to keep trying, even for a little while longer, is an act of love and bravery. And in those moments when you feel like you can’t hold on for yourself, let the love you have for your family hold you steady.
You’ve helped me too, by reminding me of the strength it takes to keep going. Thank you for that.
Thank You brother 👍
Welcome!
suffering meains weakness leaving the body amazing❤❤🙏🏻👍
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I've been trying to heal from a stroke for almost a year I still can't use my left arm or barely walk with a cane,I'm tired of crying and tired of being like this,thank you for this video, because I am just sitting around suffering, waiting to die,and I'm married to a amazing wife and have a awesome son ,I'm depressed as hell
We can see how a video like this may irk you a little bit considering what you've gone through but it's not really that type of suffering. It's more along the lines of the things that may be currently holding you back even in the situation that you now find yourself in. We can't stress through a comment on a social platform how much we feel for you but we can say we're thinking of you and if you ever need someone to talk to we're here.
The video didn't irk me brother I really liked it, found it very helpful, to be real ,I like all your videos brother
Thank you that means a lot. It's like we always say if any of these videos only help one person it's all worth it.
Keep your head up and remember you always have brothers and sisters here.
Good morning ya'll, I'm suffering in every way imaginable. I feel like i have suffered from things I've done in the past but man I've more than paid my dues. I don't know the reasons why I'm going thru this now but i hope it's revealed soon coz I'm tired. I'm stuck in a negativity loop, and i haven't found the way to break out. I've asked for help to get thru but nobody hears me....i don't even know if i hear myself.
But let me ask you this brother have you sat alone tv off no sound just you I'm not saying meditate necessarily but have you just sat there with your thoughts and I know that they will all be raging at the same time but have you just sat there with what is affecting you and tried confronting it? Not angrily not aggressive but just sat there and tried to front it would open arms and figure out a solution. I know that that sounds corny I know that it sounds too much like a self-help book but simple fact is it does help. We can listen to you here we can offer advice to you here but I can't give you the solution only you can do that.
If you don't feel comfortable saying in public what the problem may be we completely understand but at the same time as well we can't really help or give any kind of advice or opinion unless we know kind of what's going on so if you're willing to share I'm willing to continue the conversation but remember what I always say you have to go within and no it's not easy but it is very much possible.
@_YourHigherSelf I haven't had any quiet at all, my major problem is back pain, got hurt at work and work comp said its degenerative and stopped all care, which was none and compensation. Been outta work for months. They fully admitted they've know i can't continue being a flag tech but called it degenerative. My dr referred me to s spine surgeon for treatment , short-term disability denied me and completely ignored my drs recommendation. I also am addicted to pain pills/narcotics. I haven't taken any in more than ten years. So right now I'm in a ton of pain, no job, no money at all and I'm so far behind i don't see a way out. I've asked for help to buy time to find another career but nobody has listened. I've tried to meditate but the pain, i can't stay still or focus at all,on anything . I'll take your advice for sure, got nothing to lose by doing so
@@_YourHigherSelfI replied to your comment with what's going on but I don't see it
@_YourHigherSelf my back pain is my problem, I was addicted to pain pills more than ten years ago and even how bad I'm hurt right now i still won't touch em. My back is blown out after an incident some driving at work in August. I can't be an auto tech anymore, not without getting my back fixed. Work comp did an mri. No treatment and deemed my injury degenerative so they stopped any compensation and no further diagnosis or care. Not one dr touched my back or even witnessed the popping and grinding I'm experiencing, after that stopped i was free to go to my dr who referred me to a spine surgeon for treatment and diag, short-term disability denied me coz they completely ignored my drs recommendation. So I got dropped on my head pretty much. Been outta work for months and I'm way way behind on everything plus I've had to get several high interest loans to keep our apartment. I don't see a way out of any part of this
In the words of Bugsy Seigal, lawyer.
Believe it or not there are plenty of disability lawyers for workman comp that don't take upfront payments.
A good friend just went through this saying his knee pain was family history and kept getting denied finally talked him into calling a lawyer and 6 months later he has full coverage, got a retroactive check for 38k and is having knee surgery paid by his ex employer in February.
I can't say it will be the same but ALWAYS explore every option first. "They" don't want you to explore options in fact they rely on people not knowing the options.
Meditation and such will work to get yourself in control but things like this also requires outer help.
Don't give up and don't settle. Keep your head up and keep trying brother.
Last try..... see channel description...... thank ya'll for taking the time to care
listed it in the community brother. hopefully it helps :)
ua-cam.com/channels/T-wpjhlBFILjBQYPVO91XQ.htmlcommunity
@_YourHigherSelf forever grateful even if it's just for hope.
Thank you 🤝