My Mental Health Story - World Mental Health Day
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- Опубліковано 5 жов 2024
- CONTENT WARNING / TRIGGER WARNING // CW / TW : TALK ABOUT SELF-HARM
I'm sorry, I still rambled even though I had some brief bullet points as notes.
This is a little personal and probably not content I'm comfortable making that often, but I feel like for World Mental Health Day (which I unfortunately missed), I wanted to share my own experience with my struggles with mental health.
If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or distressed, please reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255
If you take anything away from this one, please let it be this: your feelings are valid and you are worthy of love. Stay safe and take care.
This video will be public for now.
Thank you, Dom. I’m glad you shared your story. I’ve always suffered from social anxiety. I still have a hard time looking directly at people when I talk to them. Nothing bad happened in my life to make me this way, so it always just felt like a burden. There is one thing I did learn though is that you’re feelings are always valid, regardless if they are compared to other peoples situations. Learning to love yourself is the hardest feats in life.
Again, thank you for sharing. And for what’s it’s worth, you’re an amazing Lion player. I studied how you played him and incorporated it into my playstyle. I’m also SUPER jealous of the beard, it looks great on you 🙂
thank you, i have a hard time loving myself too. but I'm working on it and i hope you get there sooner rather than later.
i appreciate the kind words about my Lion, I've seen some of your matches and i was thinking "damn they're a really good player".
also with the beard, i just have those weird neck beard genes lmao. i just let it grow out and trim it if it gets messy
(Wrote an essay) Just now seeing this and from what I’m hearing, Dom, It sounds like a lot of that self-hate actually helped you do
what you needed to do. Think about all the people that sit atop a high horse and are legit just bad, and they’re full of shit.
You have nothing but innocence in your heart and a want to be graceful. You need to act like that and stop talking the bullshit to yourself because that’s exactly what it is, bro. If you do it enough, you might actually start liking it and become a masochist God forbid. I wish I had half the opportunities you have or the pure will power like you.
Yeah, that sounds insane, right? You’re voicing it out loud, and to be honest, a lot of us don’t have the cojenés to continue like you have and accomplish something. Be grateful that you’re here, be grateful that people who love you are still here and God forbid, if they’re no longer here at some point, that shouldn’t stop you from walking on like you have so far.
We’re all on this train, and some of us get shitty seats, there’s metal sticking out of the cushion, the service sucks, some get the best service but no one to truly talk to, they’re alone. In the end, we’re all going to the same destination. So enjoy the ride while you can and look out that window in awe and marvel at the travels we have made so far. You got this bro ✊🏼 I’m not the best with words and I’m not all up there myself. Just know, you’re not alone in your sentiments and I quite honestly caught some shiny eyes just now myself.
Us gemini ♊️ have two souls, I noticed you have one that talks to you too. One that loves everyone and one that get tired of the bullshit. This is natural, and our mindsets aren’t always going to be absolute. We’re constantly shifting and learning. It’s how you take those things that matter, so, we aren’t just skimming thru it and being extra sloppy, then we never get anything done.
On a serious note, and I hope it doesn’t come off weird or even mean, but you could try a MRI scan. I’ve been thinking about it myself actually. (Stress can quite literally be found) There might be unbalanced chemicals in the brain and when I was a kid, I was prescribed, by accident, a mix up at the pharmacy, when I was seven, 100MG of thorzin, this was for schizophrenics. My neck was turnt sideways and I had to get my stomach flushed iirc. Something changed in my psyche then, can’t explain it. There’s damage that has been done, that’s for certain. I feel like indecisiveness became an issue and sudden bursts of anger that I can’t really explain or control.
There’s also however, a growing need for connection to others. Platonic of course. I keep seeking attention from people or a light somewhere. I’m forever, wandering. Like, I really like our talks and there’s something that makes me connected to your presence, even if you’re not physically here. I think God wants me to see how you’ve done things and dealt with these things and is teaching me something I need to finally understand the meaning of my life.
I’ll echo the love already shown - hopefully it’ll still come across as sincere. Thank you for sharing, and I think this was one of the bravest videos I’ve ever seen. Honesty is not easy. Things that resonated: social anxiety, suicidal thought patterns, getting angry at getting angry at sucking at VF despite it being a game that’s supposed to be fun…all that. I’m so glad your fiancée is the voice of truth, validating that your story is worth telling and your feelings are exactly right, especially when the negative voice tells you someone else has more reasons to feel down (the suffering Olympics that isn’t really a helpful framework) or that you’re only as good as your achievements, etc.
Now I’m rambling 🤓 Honestly just want to say thanks and this was helpful to me. And I hope you hear your own words too - you are loved, Dom. ❤️🤜🏾
thank you svengeance, i do appreciate that
Thank you for sharing your story, Dom. I listened to the whole thing and I am glad I did. I know for sure that your story is helping others and helping you too!
You are definitely loved, you are definitely appreciated, I have seen your empathy and your sympathy and I’ve seen you care about others and I’ve seen others snd myself care about you.
You are also skilled in a variety of things including VF and content creation.
Also, you have always been worth the time, I’ve never regretted any time with you, man! Thank you for your time too!
thank you for the kind words Chanchai, i really do appreciate that