Ayahuasca StoryTime | Most Terrifying/Transformative Experience Of My Life
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- Опубліковано 4 чер 2024
- This is a story of how I felt trapped
I traveled to the Amazon Jungle in search of freedom.
In this video, I share with you all how I've found this freedom through experiencing a very personal hell.
My wish is to plant a seed of healing in your hearts through this story so that you may also attain freedom.
We are all siblings in a universal family and I envision a world where we are all free.
Special thanks to every single one of my Arkana Soul Family members; You've all played a vital role in my healing.
Special thanks to all my family and friends who accepted the old Zhi and are sticking around to experience the transformed Zhi.
Love,
Zhi
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- TIMESTAMPS -
0:00 1. Intro
2:36 2. Setting The Scene
4:17 3. Drinking Ayahuasca
6:39 4. Contact with Spirits
8:39 5. Healing Begins
11:26 6. My Personal Hell
16:56 7. It Gets Worse
21:35 8. Universal Peace
25:18 9. Aftermath
29:49 10. Thoughts On Vulnerability
31:52 11. Disclaimer
33:15 12. Closing
34:04 13. Bloopers
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I appreciate all the love. Y'all are the best! ❤️
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Much love 💛
This has to be the best Ayahuasca story I’ve ever listened to absolutely amazing!
Thank you, I'm happy to share ❤️
@@MomentsWithZhi Thank you for sharing my friend, I'm so grateful for you sharing this story!
@@SkateboardingMotivator Thank you for listening my friend 😊
Always happy to share 🙏❤️
That was a very powerful story, and I hope you don't feel bad about needing to be restrained, it seems you required special processing to make it all better!
@@chaimbrownbasketball4730 I appreciate the concern 🙂
I don't feel bad about the restrain. It saved me from severely hurting myself. The facilitators knew exactly what they were doing thankfully 🙂❤️
You are not a crybaby; you are in touch with very real, very healthy, and very normal emotions. Thank you for telling your experience. This was a profound experience, even if it was terrifying at the time. Congratulations on your freedom ❤
I had an Ayahuasca experience three weeks ago that took me literally into hell and back. Ten years or so ago I’d had several and they were all good experiences. This time, I asked for enlightenment and boy did I get it. But, just when I thought I couldn’t take anymore I called out, God help me, and I was out. I was God, breathing out the Universe. What an experience. I was enlightened all right. One day, soon I hope, I’ll make a video on my experience. By the way, it’s never too late, I’m 72 and you don’t have to go all the way to Peru either. Mine were all in the UK.
I would love to hear about your experience. Please send me a link once you have your experience posted
That is so great to hear. I am in the UK too and have managed to attend ten different retreats here. I have thankfully so far not been to hell but have had extremely difficult and intense experiences but guess the full on terror is yet to come. May I ask whereabouts you drank? Was it in Ireland?
I’m from the uk , where about in uk
I hope you make that video!
Hi I am interested! Can I possibly send you a message? I am looking for retreats
This is hands down one of the BEST Ayahuasca stories I've ever heard. Jesus Christ, you've been through so much. From going to one of the most hellish experiences to one that transcends the cosmos. God bless you man, you have a purpose and definitely deserve a lot of love and light!:) ♥️
Thank you, I genuinely appreciate that ❤️🙏🏻
@@MomentsWithZhi anytime!:)
Past weekend was my first experience with this intelligent medicine…
2 days of Aya..
The human vocabulary does no justice to this profound life changing experience…
Thank you for this video and I completely understand and are so proud of you brother 🙏🏼
Corazon Medecina ❤️
I'll refer you to where you can get your psychedelic
On Instagram
Ayahuascahenry
That’s what you call Ego death/Ego dissolution buddy!! Such a beautiful story brother, thank you for this testimony 🙌🏼💙
Thank you all so much for taking the time to listen to me share this experience.
The support and responses I've gotten so far has been incredible.
Thank you so much for the support.
You guys are the ones that give me continual affirmation that I am on the right path and to continue to share myself.
I hope this has aided you on your own journey towards healing in some way. I'm looking forward to producing more content as we embark on this journey together
What a beautiful Spirit you are💓💓💓💓👍
@@AzzekaTheRealOne Thank you ❤️
Sending you much love! ❤️
I laughed, cried, and felt incredibly happy while watching this video. Thank you for sharing your experience Zhi and for being so raw and honest! Sending you love and wishing us all a bit of healing from our own demons❤️
Thank you for taking the time to watch the video Nancy.
Love you a ton!
DEEEEEP video
Same here 🫶
Literally crying here. Such a great aya story bro. So glad you found the freedom from your prison. We all need this. I'm finding it now too.
Deep and vulnerable account of your experience. Much appreciated. You received exactly what you requested: Freedom from your mind. Lost and found.
I'll refer you to where you can get your psychedelic
On Instagram
You are such a beautiful soul! This is an incredible presentation and I learned even more about what happened that night in the jungle. We were all rooting you on and I’m so glad it became a positive experience in the end. Thank you for acknowledging me, hugging you the next morning was healing for me, too. I am lucky to call you “friend” and I look forward to the day that I can hug you again in person. Love and light, Donna ❤️
Hope you’re doing well Donna miss you ❤️
You're a beautiful soul.
I love you Donna
Dude I can’t remember the last time I cried I’m 62 and your story was beautiful and made me cry
that's beautiful, I'm glad my story touched your heart :)
You just described my EXACT second night ceremony I just finished last night. I’ve been laying here absolutely traumatized looking for answers, and your mirrored experience just offered that for me. And the encouragement to reach out and the help will be there. Thank you, brother.
I'm so glad you found the answer you were looking for. Take it one moment at a time. This is not an easy journey but it's very much worth it. Your clarity and peace is coming. It's going to be ok my dear sister 🫂
Feel free to email me at hello@momentswithz.com if you have any questions or need some support, you are not alone in this 💛
Omg the shaman’s opinion is so amazing. My mom and I are both going to use it as the plant medicine has been calling us for years
I’m glad you made this channel Zhi, you’re such an articulate storyteller and I’m glad you’re sharing your journey and experience. As someone who also lost their mind in the jungle sometimes I fear I didn’t dive deep enough, like Shantanu said - There’s always more. Love you man.
I miss you a ton Andrew :)
Thanks for your kind words!
No need to fear not diving deep enough. Everyone heals in different ways and at a different pace. You dove as deep as you needed to that week in the jungle.
You will continue to heal at a rate perfectly suitable for you. I promise
As they say in AA, everyone's rock bottom is different. Some people have a very high bottom and others' bottom is much deeper.
Also, trust yourself and look at it as a feedback that you don't need to beat yourself up for not going deeper ie. falling short in some way (incorrect core belief).
You actually learned an important lesson that you have agency and your body/mind is allowed to choose how far to go and how comfortable it needs to be for the moment. Trauma has taught us overwhelm outside of our control. This is a pattern/vasana/neural pathway of trauma.
If there is indeed any more depth to come, then there will be another time when you have integrated that depth level and can go deeper. Or maybe the depth was an illusion and you are self-gaslighting as you have learned/been conditioned to do. Another learned trauma thought/behavior pattern/vasana.
Usually we feel this way (incomplete) until we learn to trust ourselves and we develop unconditional self acceptance that we are ok as is, accept self with flaws and all and this is where release/freedom lies (a bit counter-intuitive and no straight logic to it).
This is once of the most beautiful ayahuasca experiences I have ever heard. Beautifully told.
Thank you 🙂
Happy to share ❤️🙏
It sheds light on your shadow
I love that you hold power to being vulnerable instead of seeing it as a weakness. You speak for those who aren’t ready to use their voices yet, thank you for creating a safe space on your channel for people to share their thoughts. 🙏🏼
Thank you for taking the time to listen to my experience Lan :)
You've always been a relentless supporter and it serves as a constant reminder for me to believe in myself.
Love you so much Lan
There’s a lot of potential in psychedelics, I can’t wait to try any of them mushrooms specifically but it’s just so hard to find a reliable source over here, I’ll be glad if anyone can be of help..
Psilocybin has been a game changer in my life! I prefer micro dosing a few times a week now that I got the dose just right! Seasonal depression is a thing and shrooms can most definitely help..
Psychedelic drugs should be used when you’re in the right state of mind, a lot of people abuse them.
@free man
One of the most peaceful experience I've ever had..I really need to get my hands on some DMT
@Eminent Jackson
pls how do I find him?
Is it on IG?
@@JuicyLife3
I really think it's not advisable to start your first trip with DMT,it might scare you off
This video deserves more recognition. I don't often catch feelings watching or listening to trip reports but I did during yours. Thank you for sharing, brother. Glad you are doing good now!
Thank you so much for your kind words and support brother. It means a great deal to me that you took the time to listen to my experience.
I'm wishing you all the love ❤️
Your story gave me chills. My Aya experience was traumatic too so I know exactly what you mean by how scared you were to the point you wanted to kill yourself. I went crazy in the experience too. I LOST it all. I thought the same things you thought about going all the way to Peru to go nuts and that I'll be in that state forever and live out the rest of my life in the psych ward. I went through it 😪. I'm thankful for what Mother Aya has done for me but I'm deathly afraid to take it again. Still traumatized 4 years later 🤦🏽♀️
Wow it looks like there's a lot of parallels between our experiences. With such a scary experience, I'm curious, what were you able to take away from it?
@@MomentsWithZhi I learned alot from the experience with Mother Aya. I took it 4 times but the last day of it was the nightmarish one. I learned that I have alot of fears that I have to work through in order to grow and do what I came here to do. Going crazy in the experience gave me a sense of calmness and peace in this reality I'm living now where I don't seem so crazy. I learned to quiet my mind more. I worry less and try to live in the present more. I learned that there is so much I don't know and that's ok. I learned that it's ok to say "I don't know" where as before I would try to explain everything even if I wasn't sure of it. So may lessons learned during those few days and nights in the jungle.
I am still traumatized 7 years later.
May I ask what was positive out of the experience? And could you have got the same through meditation?
In what are you still traumatized?
I have listened to a few of these stories but this is the first one where I felt like I was EXPERIENCING it WITH him...and indeed, his blockages are similar to mine. It was personal yes, but somehow listening to his story transformed ME to a degree. Amazing and powerful stuff, to share our stories. And this unusual sense of feeling connected to you now. Wow. Thank you for sharing yours Zhi!
My pleasure! Thank you for listening and I'm so happy to hear you got so much from it 😁💛
That was such a beautiful story! I've done ayahuasca once before and I definitely went trough my version of hell. I literally stopped being Bipolar II after that, no symptoms since 3 years. I still have some stuckness inside me, I feel like generational trauma is deeply coded in me. I actually was shown it the last time I did that. I was taken to my DNA which was also at the same time the akashic records. But I was just shown that, I was yet not ready to go trough that though. I am now going again in the next few days, I feel I'm being called back as I've gotten strong enough to purge and to do healing work on my lineage. I know already that this time is going to be very hard. But I'm so ready and your video boosted this feeling!
Thank you for sharing. Healing takes a lot of work but I know you're strong. On the other side of healing, is true freedom.
I believe in you. Sending you much love and support as you continue your journey ❤
Awe you are incredible! Way to invest in yourself. You are so strong. ♥️✨
Thank you for your story !
Thank you for sharing
Love this!
Z, you’ve touched my soul today! Thank you!!!!
Thanks for sharing
This was beautiful ❤
Beautiful.
Absolutely. Incredible.
Upvote brother, thanks for sharing!
Beautiful. Thank uou for sharing.
Thank you so much for this, you are amazing!!!!
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience Zhi! You are an incredible source of inspiration to me. Love you lotsss
Thank you for taking the time to watch the video Lisa. I hope it helped in some small way :)
Love you a ton
Wow Z !! Thanks for sharing 🙏🏻
Thank you so much for sharing 💚
You made me cry. Happy for you.
Awesome story! Thank you for sharing!
This was so powerful!
Much respect, I needed to see this video, thank you.
Thank u for sharing this with us
Man, this video made me tear up when you talked about hugging that mother. Wow. Incredible.
Thankyouu for sharing❤
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story 🙏🏻🤍
Thank you so much for being so open and honest.
That was an amazing story and beautifully told. Thanks for being super transparent and honest, and sharing as much as you can. It's a good reminder to the rest of us in our daily life. Going with the flow of the river. Living in the moment. Wow when spirit said "you are my child" ... Dang I felt tingles.
Thank you for sharing your experience ❤
Love your candidness! Thank youuu 💓
Appreciate you ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing and being vulnerable, you are inspiring! ❤
Wow great video man ❤ 👏🏾
Amazing story cant wait to see more
This was a great listen thank you
I'm glad you enjoyed! Thanks for commenting ❤️
Here's a video I made recently on life after Ayahuasca along with some integration tips if you're interested. It's a nice way to relax 😉
ua-cam.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/v-deo.html
Beautiful soul!
Thank you! You're just as beautiful ❤️
Your experience is beautiful! Thank you for sharing.
Oh man that was a crazy story ❤
I appreciate your candor. Subscribed!
I appreciate your comment ❤️
Welcome to the tribe 😀
Thank you for sharing. Love you!
Happy to share! Love you too 🙂
Thank you for your story🙏🏽❤️
It's my pleasure ❤️😊🙏
❤❤❤❤❤ You're inspiring, thank you ❤❤❤❤❤
Appreciate you ❤️❤️❤️
Dude, this really touched my heart. I can really relate. Love and light to you brother.
So much love for you brudda! Thank you for your vulnerability and sharing this amazing story ❤
Thank you for sharing. You are amazing ❤
Thank you, I appreciate you 💛
Thank you! You are a beautiful human being 🙏🏽❤
Your amazing bro
Man before your healing you mind sounds like mines, always worrying. Thanks 🙏 for sharing your story
Thanks for Sharin breden. Brilliant story told clear. Wan lv
Beautiful story❤ thanks for sharing❤
Thanks for sharing your story! Wishing you the best
Thank you 🧡
Thanks for sharing. I appreciate it.
Thanks for sharing your experience.
Well done
sending you love brother. great story.
Love received! Thank you, I appreciate you :)
Thank you, beautiful brother, love You!
Thank you and love you too!
Awesome and beautiful story, thank you for sharing!
Keep up the amazing work and thank you for sharing your personal life with us ❤️
You’re doing/being exactly what you’re meant to do/be… much love brother
Very powerful and insightful. Thank you for sharing!
My pleasure! Thank you for watching!
Thanks for your honesty and sharing. Much love and peace ❤
Wow... strong resonance to your story 😊
Thank you for sharing!
Dude I fuckin love you! Thank you for sharing your experience, though you did more than that. You showed your spirit to us and it's beautiful. You are amazing 🥰🥰🥰
You’re the realist bro. 🙏. Much love
I appreciate that, much love :)
this made me cry. thank you so much for this. I've been judging myself for quite a long time
Am glad you exist and I had the chance to watch this. U touched my heart with your experience . ❤
Thank you for sharing your experience Z, it really touched me
I'm happy to share 😊❤️
Loved your testimony. Thank you for sharing this, it's been pretty useful to myself. Regards man.
Good trip report bro!
Thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed it!
Thanks for sharing your experience. You are amazing 🤩
Happy to share!
Thank you and right back at you 😉
Thanks so much for sharing your story. Your a great human 🙏🏽💜
I appreciate you ❤️
This was really awesome to watch. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. wow. Go Z!
Thank you for this beautiful video Zhi. You are A+ in my heart.
Thank you for your kind words.
Much to you 🙂❤️
You are and you will be fine! Thanks for sharing
support you in your experience and process Z. So brave
Thank you, I appreciate you 💛
What a beautiful story by a beautiful person. Thank you xx
Thank you ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much for sharing! ❤ you are amazing and so so strong 😊
Thank you 💛😊
What a beautiful soul you are...Thanks so much for sharing.
Thank you for the love and taking the time to listen 🙏❤️
Suuuuch a powerful video! I appreciate so much for making this with so much courage and openness! Huge testimony to your inner power 😌
I absolutely love the entirety of your video! you have a real gift with your words and expression. Was glued to your story.. I'm looking forward to seeing more from you :)
Scrolled thru 5,000 videos today. This was the only one that had substance.
Thank you for sharing your experience! I watched this before going to my first retreat 3 months ago, and it was helpful. Just uploaded a video of my experience as well.