I appreciate all the love. Y'all are the best! ❤️ Here's an update video of life after Ayahuasca along with tips for integration! ua-cam.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/v-deo.html For those interested in embarking on their own Ayahuasca Journey, I offer private virtual 1:1 Ayahuasca Coaching to help prepare for your first ceremony. This also includes Post Ceremony Integration Coaching to help you integrate your experience more deeply and continue the momentum of your spiritual development. Click this link below to book a consultation: www.momentswithz.com/spiritual-integration Much love 💛
You are not a crybaby; you are in touch with very real, very healthy, and very normal emotions. Thank you for telling your experience. This was a profound experience, even if it was terrifying at the time. Congratulations on your freedom ❤
I had an Ayahuasca experience three weeks ago that took me literally into hell and back. Ten years or so ago I’d had several and they were all good experiences. This time, I asked for enlightenment and boy did I get it. But, just when I thought I couldn’t take anymore I called out, God help me, and I was out. I was God, breathing out the Universe. What an experience. I was enlightened all right. One day, soon I hope, I’ll make a video on my experience. By the way, it’s never too late, I’m 72 and you don’t have to go all the way to Peru either. Mine were all in the UK.
That is so great to hear. I am in the UK too and have managed to attend ten different retreats here. I have thankfully so far not been to hell but have had extremely difficult and intense experiences but guess the full on terror is yet to come. May I ask whereabouts you drank? Was it in Ireland?
That was a very powerful story, and I hope you don't feel bad about needing to be restrained, it seems you required special processing to make it all better!
@@chaimbrownbasketball4730 I appreciate the concern 🙂 I don't feel bad about the restrain. It saved me from severely hurting myself. The facilitators knew exactly what they were doing thankfully 🙂❤️
Thank you all so much for taking the time to listen to me share this experience. The support and responses I've gotten so far has been incredible. Thank you so much for the support. You guys are the ones that give me continual affirmation that I am on the right path and to continue to share myself. I hope this has aided you on your own journey towards healing in some way. I'm looking forward to producing more content as we embark on this journey together
This is hands down one of the BEST Ayahuasca stories I've ever heard. Jesus Christ, you've been through so much. From going to one of the most hellish experiences to one that transcends the cosmos. God bless you man, you have a purpose and definitely deserve a lot of love and light!:) ♥️
You just described my EXACT second night ceremony I just finished last night. I’ve been laying here absolutely traumatized looking for answers, and your mirrored experience just offered that for me. And the encouragement to reach out and the help will be there. Thank you, brother.
I'm so glad you found the answer you were looking for. Take it one moment at a time. This is not an easy journey but it's very much worth it. Your clarity and peace is coming. It's going to be ok my dear sister 🫂 Feel free to email me at hello@momentswithz.com if you have any questions or need some support, you are not alone in this 💛
You are such a beautiful soul! This is an incredible presentation and I learned even more about what happened that night in the jungle. We were all rooting you on and I’m so glad it became a positive experience in the end. Thank you for acknowledging me, hugging you the next morning was healing for me, too. I am lucky to call you “friend” and I look forward to the day that I can hug you again in person. Love and light, Donna ❤️
I laughed, cried, and felt incredibly happy while watching this video. Thank you for sharing your experience Zhi and for being so raw and honest! Sending you love and wishing us all a bit of healing from our own demons❤️
Past weekend was my first experience with this intelligent medicine… 2 days of Aya.. The human vocabulary does no justice to this profound life changing experience… Thank you for this video and I completely understand and are so proud of you brother 🙏🏼 Corazon Medecina ❤️
I’m glad you made this channel Zhi, you’re such an articulate storyteller and I’m glad you’re sharing your journey and experience. As someone who also lost their mind in the jungle sometimes I fear I didn’t dive deep enough, like Shantanu said - There’s always more. Love you man.
I miss you a ton Andrew :) Thanks for your kind words! No need to fear not diving deep enough. Everyone heals in different ways and at a different pace. You dove as deep as you needed to that week in the jungle. You will continue to heal at a rate perfectly suitable for you. I promise
As they say in AA, everyone's rock bottom is different. Some people have a very high bottom and others' bottom is much deeper. Also, trust yourself and look at it as a feedback that you don't need to beat yourself up for not going deeper ie. falling short in some way (incorrect core belief). You actually learned an important lesson that you have agency and your body/mind is allowed to choose how far to go and how comfortable it needs to be for the moment. Trauma has taught us overwhelm outside of our control. This is a pattern/vasana/neural pathway of trauma. If there is indeed any more depth to come, then there will be another time when you have integrated that depth level and can go deeper. Or maybe the depth was an illusion and you are self-gaslighting as you have learned/been conditioned to do. Another learned trauma thought/behavior pattern/vasana. Usually we feel this way (incomplete) until we learn to trust ourselves and we develop unconditional self acceptance that we are ok as is, accept self with flaws and all and this is where release/freedom lies (a bit counter-intuitive and no straight logic to it).
I love that you hold power to being vulnerable instead of seeing it as a weakness. You speak for those who aren’t ready to use their voices yet, thank you for creating a safe space on your channel for people to share their thoughts. 🙏🏼
Thank you for taking the time to listen to my experience Lan :) You've always been a relentless supporter and it serves as a constant reminder for me to believe in myself. Love you so much Lan
Thank you so much for sharing your experience, I have suffered for over 50 years with my own inner voice keeping me in a state of pain and suffering similar to yours. I am due to travel from the UK to Peru in December for a 14 day retreat and I hope and pray that I can finally wake up and live my life before it’s gone. Cry all the time like you 🙏🌻
I love your vulnerability, i so appreciate your sharings and your transparency . Yes , I also had 5 ayahuasca ceremonies and received exactly what i needed. Trust the integrating process, you are Pure Consciousness. Ayahuasca told me ''YOU ARE A SPARKLE OF THE ALL MIGHTY''- those words became a mantra for me. I hope it arrives to your heart too, brother. Blessings 🙏🪬
I can relate to the 'ugly' self-talk. Allow me to say, from one brother to another, you're a handsome fella....outwardly and inwardly. Thank you for being vulnerable.
Wow, thankyou for being so candid and open. The part about feeling like a rat that no one loves, had me laughing so hard, brother I've been there! I had to laugh because I know that feeling too well. And the part about Donna that gave you a hug from a mother had me in tears 💙
I have listened to a few of these stories but this is the first one where I felt like I was EXPERIENCING it WITH him...and indeed, his blockages are similar to mine. It was personal yes, but somehow listening to his story transformed ME to a degree. Amazing and powerful stuff, to share our stories. And this unusual sense of feeling connected to you now. Wow. Thank you for sharing yours Zhi!
This video deserves more recognition. I don't often catch feelings watching or listening to trip reports but I did during yours. Thank you for sharing, brother. Glad you are doing good now!
Thank you so much for your kind words and support brother. It means a great deal to me that you took the time to listen to my experience. I'm wishing you all the love ❤️
My girlfriend sadly passed away at the end of September, a little over a month ago. I had a dream a couple of weeks ago where I did ayahausca with her, even though at the time I barely knew what it was and have never done it in real life. To me, this was a sign that the answers and healing I’m looking for are going to be found by doing it for real. That’s why I’ve been obsessing and watching all the videos I can find about it. How do I find a place like where you went? Thank you 🙏
I'm sorry to hear about your girlfriend's passing 😔 The place I went to is called Arkana Spiritual Center You can research other locations through ayaadvisors.org/ You will find user reviews for multiple locations along with their pricing. I found this to be a great resource when finding a legitimate place to engage with Aya.
Donna: the power of a hug is incredible. Stop with the 2 second hug and actually give a 1 minute hug. During that minute, you go through many emotions and want to let go but towards the last 15 seconds, you don’t want to let go anymore. You’re filled with peace
Wow !! that is the best ayahuasca video ever !!! The way you explain it so clear, so genuine !! 🌹❤ an extraordinary experience you went through !!! Thank you for sharing !! you are so kind and gentle and your message is so beautiful !!!! Bless you !! ❤🙏😇
That was such a beautiful story! I've done ayahuasca once before and I definitely went trough my version of hell. I literally stopped being Bipolar II after that, no symptoms since 3 years. I still have some stuckness inside me, I feel like generational trauma is deeply coded in me. I actually was shown it the last time I did that. I was taken to my DNA which was also at the same time the akashic records. But I was just shown that, I was yet not ready to go trough that though. I am now going again in the next few days, I feel I'm being called back as I've gotten strong enough to purge and to do healing work on my lineage. I know already that this time is going to be very hard. But I'm so ready and your video boosted this feeling!
Thank you for sharing. Healing takes a lot of work but I know you're strong. On the other side of healing, is true freedom. I believe in you. Sending you much love and support as you continue your journey ❤
That was an amazing story and beautifully told. Thanks for being super transparent and honest, and sharing as much as you can. It's a good reminder to the rest of us in our daily life. Going with the flow of the river. Living in the moment. Wow when spirit said "you are my child" ... Dang I felt tingles.
Amazing story. This video really resonated with me. Very similar to my ayuhuasca experience in so many ways. I’m happy the medicine helped you so much. I see this video was posted two years ago. Looking forward to watching more of your videos and following your journey. I did two ceremonies almost a year ago now, and I am still processing it. The first ceremony was amazing. Second one was the most terrifying experience of my life. But exactly what I needed. I also receive downloads regularly. I also routinely get messages from mother Aya in my dreams. I’m planning to go back to the jungle soon.
Thank you for sharing your experience! You are a true warrior. Only the ones that been through a rough medicine trip will understand. I too had a horrible experience. But today I feel so care free
You're very welcome. Deep healing requires a lot of work but on the other side of that work is a life full of joy and freedom. I'm so happy to hear you're feeling carefree today ❤️
Wow, what an intense experience you had, your courage to move through it and heal is empowering. I was there at Arkana July, 2021 and of the 4 ceremonies we did, the 3rd night I met my darkness, as difficult as it was, it was a deeply transforming life experience and I am so grateful to Mother Aya, the Shamans the facilitators (and the Jungle) for such an incredible experience. Thank you for sharing your story of transformation.
Brother! You are awesome and free! You are your success! Period. You did this. You win, you conquered. Don’t ever forget that. Love and blessings to you always!!❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
You are a beautiful human being! You are loved! You are worthy! You share your humanity through your vulnerability. I appreciate your story. I’m giving you a virtual mom hug just like Donna. ❤
I feel like I had a similar experience.. Wish I was in a controlled environment.. But this hits home and I've tried to deal with it by myself for years.. More and more I hear similar experience's..Giving up and surrendering was the relief button.. Thank you for sharing..
It's hard to imagine how you could see yourself in that way! You are beautiful and strong.. your kindness and ❤ shines through you!! Iam going to have my first ayahuasca experience in less than two weeks.. and beleive or not my intention is wery much like yours.. After watching you I know that I am ready for anything mother aya will give me:) Thank you for sharing. You are definitely someone I would cherish as a friend❤
Thank you for such a lovely comment. Sending you love and courage as you embark on your own Ayahuasca experience. Here's a video I made where you will find helpful tips to integrate your experience afterwards. ua-cam.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/v-deo.html I'm here if you have any questions 👍🏻💛
Proud of you for sharing your story with everyone and creating this channel, Zhi! Enjoyed hearing about your experience for the second time and glad you're finally able to live the life of freedom you wanted. Your story and insights were inspirational
Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. As a young man I drank the medicine at age 19 and proceeded to weep for 6 hours straight. It was so purifying and I felt the great spirit loving me, and showing how I am so hard on my self. And how I need to love myself. I have always been afraid of that second ceremony, since I only had the poor unity to sit with it one night… but this video has prepared me and helped remind me that I will experience what I need to heal myself and I will be able to handle what ever the medicine puts me through, as well as reminding me of the lessons I was given during my last experience.
What an inspiring story youve told. It really shows that we are not alone with our insecurities and that we can choose love in every moment if we really want to ❤💙 Bless your soul
This is like going to a psychologist but a bit more extreme and you know the knowledge was already in you.Thanks man keep being yourself and lots of love from Belgium.❤
Hi Zhi. Thank you for this video 🙏🥰 I cried with you. What an experience, I did Ayahuasca this May, and it was a great healing experienxe for me, I also "hear" her call, so i'm going back in to weeks. Thank's again for you, and your channel❤❤
This was amazing. Ty for your vulnerability. I cried for you to hear you suffering..i toosuffer mentally . Im so happy you found peace and freedom. I wish you a lifetime of all that you worked so hard for. ❤❤❤❤
Hi Zhi! I wanted to wholeheartedly thank you for this video! You truly have a gift with storytelling! I'm working with an intuition teacher and my homework was to look up someone's experience with Aya (it came up when I was pulling cards and I've always had a fear of it) - and I'm SO glad I found yours. i'm not sure if I'll ever sit with Aya myself but just hearing your story gives me a lot to reflect on - what my own hell would look like, what intention I would set, etc. I really admire your candidness and comfort with your emotions as you share this sacred experience. All the best to you!
You really treated yourself badly before Ayahuasca. You are handsome, warm, honest, articulate......how could you have ever thought otherwise?!!? Beautiful delivery of a beautiful story. I would be too afraid to hear that story and still do Ayahuasca, but the benefit of your transformation makes me wish I was forced to take it.
I really appreciate that. The thoughts in my head were so loud and debilitating that I couldn't see myself as I truly am. I will say that my experience is quite unique; most other people in the group had a much less scary experience (some were overwhelmingly positive). If you were to take it, it could be very different from my experience. Nonetheless, really appreciate you :)
@@MomentsWithZhi I remember taking Christmas Tree acid once. It was a little pill, no bigger than a baby aspirin. I broke off what looked like a third of it and popped it. I remember that "knowing" that I had taken too much, and there was nothing I could do about it. Scary as hell, not knowing what will become of you and having zero control of the situation. I am intrigued by the Ayahuasca spirit that spoke to you. Wouldn't that have to be God? Who else has that kind of power? My son, that I adored, was killed when he was 15 in a car accident. I was beside myself with grief. That's when God spoke to me. I didn't pay attention to where the voice emanated from except that I recall it as a voice that boomed across the universe. I wasn't afraid of the voice or the experience. It was accepted by me as the most natural thing. But to this day, I'm puzzled because the voice was monotone i.e. robotic. I expected God to sound human, so now I'm conflicted. Is God a machine? Is life a giant computer program? If God didn't speak to me, who did?
@@TheSkyhightribe The Ayahuasca spirit could be God, a part of God, or a gift from God. I honestly can't say for certain. What I do know was that it cared for my well being played a huge role in my healing. I'm sorry about your son 🙏🏼 As for the voice you heard, what did it say?
@@MomentsWithZhi I was laying in bed, heavy with grief. My thoughts said "give me a sign that you are alright". A voice that consumed the entire universe said "I sent you a sign. I sent your brother." I replied "when will I see him again"? The voice said "78". that was all. I understood the 78 to be that I would die when I was 78. That will be in 2029. As for the part about "I sent you a sign, I sent your brother", my brother had just come to my home 2 or 3 days earlier, so I racked my brain for what he had said. He had said, "I don't know if you believe in reincarnation..." then he proceeded to tell me about visions he had had of his own past lives, and recognizing his wife from the day he first saw her, knowing he had known her before. That was all confirmation for me. I believe in reincarnation, but we had been raised by a minister who did not believe in reincarnation, so I had no idea that my brother accepted it as well as me.
@@TheSkyhightribe such a powerful experience, thank you for sharing. Even if the voice is monotone or robotic, it seems like the message itself was true and I hope it gives you the peace you were looking for.
This was so courageously honest and raw. I could really identify with your experience, and I'm sure many people could. It has really helped me, in so far as I could live the experience vicariously. Obviously, that is so insultingly,, underestimating the level of torment and torture you endured. A depth of which I couldn't even begin to understand. But the total and complete ego death you experienced; was frighteningly insightful and resonated.
Das ist wirklich interessant. Das diese schlechten Erfahrungen mit Ayahuasca oder Psychedelika oftmals damit zusammenhängen, dass Leute nicht loslassen können oder das ganze kontrollieren wollen und dagegen ankämpfen. Der Moment wo man aufgibt und das akzeptiert bzw. hinnimmt, führt dazu das die Erfahrung sich ins Gegenteil umkehrt. Das habe ich jetzt schon öfter gelesen oder gehört. Wirklich faszinierend. Finde es toll das du deine Erfahrung damit so offen teilen kannst und das ganze so sehen kannst, dass das "schlechte" der Erfahrung seinen Sinn gehabt hatte, welcher ja dann zu diesen Gefühl der Einheit und Frieden geführt hatte. Wundervoll❤
I appreciate you bringing this up and telling your story. I had a very similar experience. I felt like I was going crazy, It showed me how my mind was taking over, and it was this web of overthinking thoughts that were taking over me. And then my mind separated, and I could see it and hear it as a third person. I finally understood what Eckhart toll was saying. and then it just told me to feel it and that i was scared to feel and i started crying for many things that I didn't even know I was feeling. It didn't get as scary as yours, but it was also when I surrendered to it that it started showing me. But my mind keeps taking over, it didn't heal completely. It's like it showed me what my mind is doing but I keep doing it. I want to do another retreat. I am glad it really healed you and you are feeling good now.
I appreciate all the love. Y'all are the best! ❤️
Here's an update video of life after Ayahuasca along with tips for integration!
ua-cam.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/v-deo.html
For those interested in embarking on their own Ayahuasca Journey, I offer private virtual 1:1 Ayahuasca Coaching to help prepare for your first ceremony.
This also includes Post Ceremony Integration Coaching to help you integrate your experience more deeply and continue the momentum of your spiritual development.
Click this link below to book a consultation:
www.momentswithz.com/spiritual-integration
Much love 💛
You are not a crybaby; you are in touch with very real, very healthy, and very normal emotions. Thank you for telling your experience. This was a profound experience, even if it was terrifying at the time. Congratulations on your freedom ❤
I had an Ayahuasca experience three weeks ago that took me literally into hell and back. Ten years or so ago I’d had several and they were all good experiences. This time, I asked for enlightenment and boy did I get it. But, just when I thought I couldn’t take anymore I called out, God help me, and I was out. I was God, breathing out the Universe. What an experience. I was enlightened all right. One day, soon I hope, I’ll make a video on my experience. By the way, it’s never too late, I’m 72 and you don’t have to go all the way to Peru either. Mine were all in the UK.
I would love to hear about your experience. Please send me a link once you have your experience posted
That is so great to hear. I am in the UK too and have managed to attend ten different retreats here. I have thankfully so far not been to hell but have had extremely difficult and intense experiences but guess the full on terror is yet to come. May I ask whereabouts you drank? Was it in Ireland?
I’m from the uk , where about in uk
I hope you make that video!
Hi I am interested! Can I possibly send you a message? I am looking for retreats
This has to be the best Ayahuasca story I’ve ever listened to absolutely amazing!
Thank you, I'm happy to share ❤️
@@MomentsWithZhi Thank you for sharing my friend, I'm so grateful for you sharing this story!
@@SkateboardingMotivator Thank you for listening my friend 😊
Always happy to share 🙏❤️
That was a very powerful story, and I hope you don't feel bad about needing to be restrained, it seems you required special processing to make it all better!
@@chaimbrownbasketball4730 I appreciate the concern 🙂
I don't feel bad about the restrain. It saved me from severely hurting myself. The facilitators knew exactly what they were doing thankfully 🙂❤️
Deep and vulnerable account of your experience. Much appreciated. You received exactly what you requested: Freedom from your mind. Lost and found.
Omg the shaman’s opinion is so amazing. My mom and I are both going to use it as the plant medicine has been calling us for years
Thank you all so much for taking the time to listen to me share this experience.
The support and responses I've gotten so far has been incredible.
Thank you so much for the support.
You guys are the ones that give me continual affirmation that I am on the right path and to continue to share myself.
I hope this has aided you on your own journey towards healing in some way. I'm looking forward to producing more content as we embark on this journey together
What a beautiful Spirit you are💓💓💓💓👍
@@AzzekaTheRealOne Thank you ❤️
Sending you much love! ❤️
This is hands down one of the BEST Ayahuasca stories I've ever heard. Jesus Christ, you've been through so much. From going to one of the most hellish experiences to one that transcends the cosmos. God bless you man, you have a purpose and definitely deserve a lot of love and light!:) ♥️
Thank you, I genuinely appreciate that ❤️🙏🏻
@@MomentsWithZhi anytime!:)
Dude I can’t remember the last time I cried I’m 62 and your story was beautiful and made me cry
that's beautiful, I'm glad my story touched your heart :)
You just described my EXACT second night ceremony I just finished last night. I’ve been laying here absolutely traumatized looking for answers, and your mirrored experience just offered that for me. And the encouragement to reach out and the help will be there. Thank you, brother.
I'm so glad you found the answer you were looking for. Take it one moment at a time. This is not an easy journey but it's very much worth it. Your clarity and peace is coming. It's going to be ok my dear sister 🫂
Feel free to email me at hello@momentswithz.com if you have any questions or need some support, you are not alone in this 💛
You are such a beautiful soul! This is an incredible presentation and I learned even more about what happened that night in the jungle. We were all rooting you on and I’m so glad it became a positive experience in the end. Thank you for acknowledging me, hugging you the next morning was healing for me, too. I am lucky to call you “friend” and I look forward to the day that I can hug you again in person. Love and light, Donna ❤️
Hope you’re doing well Donna miss you ❤️
You're a beautiful soul.
I love you Donna
Literally crying here. Such a great aya story bro. So glad you found the freedom from your prison. We all need this. I'm finding it now too.
That’s what you call Ego death/Ego dissolution buddy!! Such a beautiful story brother, thank you for this testimony 🙌🏼💙
I laughed, cried, and felt incredibly happy while watching this video. Thank you for sharing your experience Zhi and for being so raw and honest! Sending you love and wishing us all a bit of healing from our own demons❤️
Thank you for taking the time to watch the video Nancy.
Love you a ton!
DEEEEEP video
Same here 🫶
Past weekend was my first experience with this intelligent medicine…
2 days of Aya..
The human vocabulary does no justice to this profound life changing experience…
Thank you for this video and I completely understand and are so proud of you brother 🙏🏼
Corazon Medecina ❤️
I’m glad you made this channel Zhi, you’re such an articulate storyteller and I’m glad you’re sharing your journey and experience. As someone who also lost their mind in the jungle sometimes I fear I didn’t dive deep enough, like Shantanu said - There’s always more. Love you man.
I miss you a ton Andrew :)
Thanks for your kind words!
No need to fear not diving deep enough. Everyone heals in different ways and at a different pace. You dove as deep as you needed to that week in the jungle.
You will continue to heal at a rate perfectly suitable for you. I promise
As they say in AA, everyone's rock bottom is different. Some people have a very high bottom and others' bottom is much deeper.
Also, trust yourself and look at it as a feedback that you don't need to beat yourself up for not going deeper ie. falling short in some way (incorrect core belief).
You actually learned an important lesson that you have agency and your body/mind is allowed to choose how far to go and how comfortable it needs to be for the moment. Trauma has taught us overwhelm outside of our control. This is a pattern/vasana/neural pathway of trauma.
If there is indeed any more depth to come, then there will be another time when you have integrated that depth level and can go deeper. Or maybe the depth was an illusion and you are self-gaslighting as you have learned/been conditioned to do. Another learned trauma thought/behavior pattern/vasana.
Usually we feel this way (incomplete) until we learn to trust ourselves and we develop unconditional self acceptance that we are ok as is, accept self with flaws and all and this is where release/freedom lies (a bit counter-intuitive and no straight logic to it).
I love that you hold power to being vulnerable instead of seeing it as a weakness. You speak for those who aren’t ready to use their voices yet, thank you for creating a safe space on your channel for people to share their thoughts. 🙏🏼
Thank you for taking the time to listen to my experience Lan :)
You've always been a relentless supporter and it serves as a constant reminder for me to believe in myself.
Love you so much Lan
This is once of the most beautiful ayahuasca experiences I have ever heard. Beautifully told.
Thank you 🙂
Happy to share ❤️🙏
Thank you so much for sharing your experience, I have suffered for over 50 years with my own inner voice keeping me in a state of pain and suffering similar to yours. I am due to travel from the UK to Peru in December for a 14 day retreat and I hope and pray that I can finally wake up and live my life before it’s gone. Cry all the time like you 🙏🌻
I love your vulnerability, i so appreciate your sharings and your transparency . Yes , I also had 5 ayahuasca ceremonies and received exactly what i needed. Trust the integrating process, you are Pure Consciousness. Ayahuasca told me ''YOU ARE A SPARKLE OF THE ALL MIGHTY''- those words became a mantra for me. I hope it arrives to your heart too, brother. Blessings 🙏🪬
I can relate to the 'ugly' self-talk. Allow me to say, from one brother to another, you're a handsome fella....outwardly and inwardly. Thank you for being vulnerable.
Thank you, I appreciate you brother 😊❤️
Oh wow, i just really feel God present in your story, thank you so so so much for sharing your story, its amazing and really inspiring 🙏🏼
Wow, thankyou for being so candid and open. The part about feeling like a rat that no one loves, had me laughing so hard, brother I've been there! I had to laugh because I know that feeling too well. And the part about Donna that gave you a hug from a mother had me in tears 💙
@@j.sony. 🤣🤣 thanks for watching 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
I have listened to a few of these stories but this is the first one where I felt like I was EXPERIENCING it WITH him...and indeed, his blockages are similar to mine. It was personal yes, but somehow listening to his story transformed ME to a degree. Amazing and powerful stuff, to share our stories. And this unusual sense of feeling connected to you now. Wow. Thank you for sharing yours Zhi!
My pleasure! Thank you for listening and I'm so happy to hear you got so much from it 😁💛
That’s awesome! Judging ourselves and criticizing ourselves so much for nothing!
This video deserves more recognition. I don't often catch feelings watching or listening to trip reports but I did during yours. Thank you for sharing, brother. Glad you are doing good now!
Thank you so much for your kind words and support brother. It means a great deal to me that you took the time to listen to my experience.
I'm wishing you all the love ❤️
My girlfriend sadly passed away at the end of September, a little over a month ago. I had a dream a couple of weeks ago where I did ayahausca with her, even though at the time I barely knew what it was and have never done it in real life. To me, this was a sign that the answers and healing I’m looking for are going to be found by doing it for real. That’s why I’ve been obsessing and watching all the videos I can find about it. How do I find a place like where you went? Thank you 🙏
I'm sorry to hear about your girlfriend's passing 😔
The place I went to is called Arkana Spiritual Center
You can research other locations through ayaadvisors.org/
You will find user reviews for multiple locations along with their pricing. I found this to be a great resource when finding a legitimate place to engage with Aya.
Man, this video made me tear up when you talked about hugging that mother. Wow. Incredible.
Donna: the power of a hug is incredible. Stop with the 2 second hug and actually give a 1 minute hug. During that minute, you go through many emotions and want to let go but towards the last 15 seconds, you don’t want to let go anymore. You’re filled with peace
Wow !! that is the best ayahuasca video ever !!! The way you explain it so clear, so genuine !! 🌹❤ an extraordinary experience you went through !!! Thank you for sharing !! you are so kind and gentle and your message is so beautiful !!!! Bless you !! ❤🙏😇
Thank you 😊 bless you 💛
That was such a beautiful story! I've done ayahuasca once before and I definitely went trough my version of hell. I literally stopped being Bipolar II after that, no symptoms since 3 years. I still have some stuckness inside me, I feel like generational trauma is deeply coded in me. I actually was shown it the last time I did that. I was taken to my DNA which was also at the same time the akashic records. But I was just shown that, I was yet not ready to go trough that though. I am now going again in the next few days, I feel I'm being called back as I've gotten strong enough to purge and to do healing work on my lineage. I know already that this time is going to be very hard. But I'm so ready and your video boosted this feeling!
Thank you for sharing. Healing takes a lot of work but I know you're strong. On the other side of healing, is true freedom.
I believe in you. Sending you much love and support as you continue your journey ❤
Awe you are incredible! Way to invest in yourself. You are so strong. ♥️✨
Thanks for sharing. I cried my eyes out listening. Much love and light to you and your soul 🦋
Thank you so much 🥲💛
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience Zhi! You are an incredible source of inspiration to me. Love you lotsss
Thank you for taking the time to watch the video Lisa. I hope it helped in some small way :)
Love you a ton
That was an amazing story and beautifully told. Thanks for being super transparent and honest, and sharing as much as you can. It's a good reminder to the rest of us in our daily life. Going with the flow of the river. Living in the moment. Wow when spirit said "you are my child" ... Dang I felt tingles.
I almost turned your story off when it went dark. I’m scheduled to go soon. I’m so glad I watched till the end. Very inspiring! Take care!
Thank you for watching it through. Sending you much love and strength on your journey ❤️
Beautiful story man, thank you. And you are a beautiful person. 😊
I have been wanting to try this kind of retreat I feel stuck in life
Amazing story. This video really resonated with me. Very similar to my ayuhuasca experience in so many ways. I’m happy the medicine helped you so much. I see this video was posted two years ago. Looking forward to watching more of your videos and following your journey. I did two ceremonies almost a year ago now, and I am still processing it. The first ceremony was amazing. Second one was the most terrifying experience of my life. But exactly what I needed. I also receive downloads regularly. I also routinely get messages from mother Aya in my dreams. I’m planning to go back to the jungle soon.
Am glad you exist and I had the chance to watch this. U touched my heart with your experience . ❤
Thank you for sharing your experience, Zhi. It's one of the most valuable I've heard in a long while. 🌿🌹🌿🌹
@@RajneshDomalpalli it’s my pleasure, thanks for receiving 💛
Thank u for sharing this with us
Thank you for sharing your experience! You are a true warrior. Only the ones that been through a rough medicine trip will understand. I too had a horrible experience. But today I feel so care free
You're very welcome. Deep healing requires a lot of work but on the other side of that work is a life full of joy and freedom.
I'm so happy to hear you're feeling carefree today ❤️
Wow, what an intense experience you had, your courage to move through it and heal is empowering.
I was there at Arkana July, 2021 and of the 4 ceremonies we did, the 3rd night I met my darkness, as difficult as it was, it was a deeply transforming life experience and I am so grateful to Mother Aya, the Shamans the facilitators (and the Jungle) for such an incredible experience. Thank you for sharing your story of transformation.
Brother! You are awesome and free! You are your success! Period. You did this. You win, you conquered. Don’t ever forget that. Love and blessings to you always!!❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@@b.mccarthy1105 tysm brother, you lifted my spirit today 🙏🏻
Blessings to you 🫶
This was so powerful!
Thank you so much for being so open and honest.
You're beautiful ! Thanks for sharing
You made me cry. Happy for you.
Just met the medicine recently. It was brutal. Awesome experience, so happy for you!
You are a beautiful human being! You are loved! You are worthy! You share your humanity through your vulnerability. I appreciate your story. I’m giving you a virtual mom hug just like Donna. ❤
@@SilValGal tysm 😊 mom hug received :)
Thanks for sharing. I appreciate it.
Absolutely. Incredible.
Oh man that was a crazy story ❤
I feel like I had a similar experience.. Wish I was in a controlled environment.. But this hits home and I've tried to deal with it by myself for years.. More and more I hear similar experience's..Giving up and surrendering was the relief button.. Thank you for sharing..
well done
thanks for sharing brother, love.
Thx so much for sharing your highly personal experience ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏
Thanks for sharing
Beautiful. Thank uou for sharing.
Thanks for sharing your experience.
Well done
I had a very similar experience
It's hard to imagine how you could see yourself in that way!
You are beautiful and strong.. your kindness and ❤ shines through you!!
Iam going to have my first ayahuasca experience in less than two weeks.. and beleive or not my intention is wery much like yours..
After watching you I know that I am ready for anything mother aya will give me:)
Thank you for sharing. You are definitely someone I would cherish as a friend❤
Thank you for such a lovely comment. Sending you love and courage as you embark on your own Ayahuasca experience.
Here's a video I made where you will find helpful tips to integrate your experience afterwards.
ua-cam.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/v-deo.html
I'm here if you have any questions 👍🏻💛
Wow... strong resonance to your story 😊
Thank you for sharing!
Your amazing bro
Thank you! You are a beautiful human being 🙏🏽❤
This was really awesome to watch. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. wow. Go Z!
Wow Z !! Thanks for sharing 🙏🏻
You’re doing/being exactly what you’re meant to do/be… much love brother
You are and you will be fine! Thanks for sharing
Proud of you for sharing your story with everyone and creating this channel, Zhi! Enjoyed hearing about your experience for the second time and glad you're finally able to live the life of freedom you wanted. Your story and insights were inspirational
Thank you so much for the support Dan
Upvote brother, thanks for sharing!
Sending you a virtual hug. Glad you are with us storytelling this.. What an experience..
Thanks for sharing that was riveting. People who cry have a good heart. Be proud of it.
Thank you, I appreciate that. Genuinely :)
26:40 - KITTY!!!
Thank you for this video. It's come to me at the right time. You have such a magnetic energy.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience, this is so powerful. I am in tears. Even though you made this two years ago, it is so powerful. 🙏🏽
I am 18 years old. This story and experience from you made me want to take this opportunity 🙏 Thank you and seriously thank you
Scrolled thru 5,000 videos today. This was the only one that had substance.
beautiful share. thank you
Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. As a young man I drank the medicine at age 19 and proceeded to weep for 6 hours straight. It was so purifying and I felt the great spirit loving me, and showing how I am so hard on my self. And how I need to love myself.
I have always been afraid of that second ceremony, since I only had the poor unity to sit with it one night… but this video has prepared me and helped remind me that I will experience what I need to heal myself and I will be able to handle what ever the medicine puts me through, as well as reminding me of the lessons I was given during my last experience.
You have me in tears. Thank you for sharing your story.
What an inspiring story youve told. It really shows that we are not alone with our insecurities and that we can choose love in every moment if we really want to ❤💙 Bless your soul
support you in your experience and process Z. So brave
Thank you, I appreciate you 💛
Neveer eeveer commented on a youtube video. And never felt a video so much than this. Wow. Gooooosebumbs!!!!! Sending you love man
It sheds light on your shadow
This is like going to a psychologist but a bit more extreme and you know the knowledge was already in you.Thanks man keep being yourself and lots of love from Belgium.❤
For sure, it was quite the intense experience.
The facilitators there described it as going through major surgery without anesthesia.
Appreciate you 💛
Hi Zhi.
Thank you for this video 🙏🥰 I cried with you. What an experience, I did Ayahuasca this May, and it was a great healing experienxe for me, I also "hear" her call, so i'm going back in to weeks.
Thank's again for you, and your channel❤❤
Thank you for your comment, always a pleasure to meet another on this healing journey. I am wishing you love and joy 💛
Thank you so much for sharing 💚
This was amazing. Ty for your vulnerability. I cried for you to hear you suffering..i toosuffer mentally
. Im so happy you found peace and freedom. I wish you a lifetime of all that you worked so hard for. ❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much for such a lovely comment. May you find the peace you are searching for 💛💛💛
Hi Zhi! I wanted to wholeheartedly thank you for this video! You truly have a gift with storytelling! I'm working with an intuition teacher and my homework was to look up someone's experience with Aya (it came up when I was pulling cards and I've always had a fear of it) - and I'm SO glad I found yours. i'm not sure if I'll ever sit with Aya myself but just hearing your story gives me a lot to reflect on - what my own hell would look like, what intention I would set, etc. I really admire your candidness and comfort with your emotions as you share this sacred experience. All the best to you!
@@anitapandabear hi Anita! tysm for leaving such a lovely comment. I’m honored my story was the one you connected with :)
Stay blessed 🌟
You really treated yourself badly before Ayahuasca. You are handsome, warm, honest, articulate......how could you have ever thought otherwise?!!? Beautiful delivery of a beautiful story. I would be too afraid to hear that story and still do Ayahuasca, but the benefit of your transformation makes me wish I was forced to take it.
I really appreciate that. The thoughts in my head were so loud and debilitating that I couldn't see myself as I truly am.
I will say that my experience is quite unique; most other people in the group had a much less scary experience (some were overwhelmingly positive). If you were to take it, it could be very different from my experience.
Nonetheless, really appreciate you :)
@@MomentsWithZhi I remember taking Christmas Tree acid once. It was a little pill, no bigger than a baby aspirin. I broke off what looked like a third of it and popped it. I remember that "knowing" that I had taken too much, and there was nothing I could do about it. Scary as hell, not knowing what will become of you and having zero control of the situation. I am intrigued by the Ayahuasca spirit that spoke to you. Wouldn't that have to be God? Who else has that kind of power?
My son, that I adored, was killed when he was 15 in a car accident. I was beside myself with grief. That's when God spoke to me. I didn't pay attention to where the voice emanated from except that I recall it as a voice that boomed across the universe. I wasn't afraid of the voice or the experience. It was accepted by me as the most natural thing. But to this day, I'm puzzled because the voice was monotone i.e. robotic. I expected God to sound human, so now I'm conflicted. Is God a machine? Is life a giant computer program? If God didn't speak to me, who did?
@@TheSkyhightribe The Ayahuasca spirit could be God, a part of God, or a gift from God. I honestly can't say for certain. What I do know was that it cared for my well being played a huge role in my healing.
I'm sorry about your son 🙏🏼
As for the voice you heard, what did it say?
@@MomentsWithZhi I was laying in bed, heavy with grief. My thoughts said "give me a sign that you are alright". A voice that consumed the entire universe said "I sent you a sign. I sent your brother." I replied "when will I see him again"? The voice said "78". that was all. I understood the 78 to be that I would die when I was 78. That will be in 2029. As for the part about "I sent you a sign, I sent your brother", my brother had just come to my home 2 or 3 days earlier, so I racked my brain for what he had said. He had said, "I don't know if you believe in reincarnation..." then he proceeded to tell me about visions he had had of his own past lives, and recognizing his wife from the day he first saw her, knowing he had known her before.
That was all confirmation for me. I believe in reincarnation, but we had been raised by a minister who did not believe in reincarnation, so I had no idea that my brother accepted it as well as me.
@@TheSkyhightribe such a powerful experience, thank you for sharing. Even if the voice is monotone or robotic, it seems like the message itself was true and I hope it gives you the peace you were looking for.
This was great ❤
This was so courageously honest and raw. I could really identify with your experience, and I'm sure many people could. It has really helped me, in so far as I could live the
experience vicariously. Obviously, that is so insultingly,, underestimating the level of torment and torture you endured. A depth of which I couldn't even begin to understand.
But the total and complete ego death you experienced; was frighteningly insightful and resonated.
Awesome and beautiful story, thank you for sharing!
Truly the BRAVEST are the most VULNERABLE! THANK YOU SO SO MUCH! YOU ARE INSPIRING AND EXQUISITE!
Thank you, I love and appreciate you 🙂💛
Thank you for sharing your experience ❤
Das ist wirklich interessant. Das diese schlechten Erfahrungen mit Ayahuasca oder Psychedelika oftmals damit zusammenhängen, dass Leute nicht loslassen können oder das ganze kontrollieren wollen und dagegen ankämpfen. Der Moment wo man aufgibt und das akzeptiert bzw. hinnimmt, führt dazu das die Erfahrung sich ins Gegenteil umkehrt. Das habe ich jetzt schon öfter gelesen oder gehört. Wirklich faszinierend.
Finde es toll das du deine Erfahrung damit so offen teilen kannst und das ganze so sehen kannst, dass das "schlechte" der Erfahrung seinen Sinn gehabt hatte, welcher ja dann zu diesen Gefühl der Einheit und Frieden geführt hatte. Wundervoll❤
Is a beautiful testimony Zhi. Thank you for sharing
I appreciate you bringing this up and telling your story. I had a very similar experience. I felt like I was going crazy, It showed me how my mind was taking over, and it was this web of overthinking thoughts that were taking over me. And then my mind separated, and I could see it and hear it as a third person. I finally understood what Eckhart toll was saying. and then it just told me to feel it and that i was scared to feel and i started crying for many things that I didn't even know I was feeling. It didn't get as scary as yours, but it was also when I surrendered to it that it started showing me. But my mind keeps taking over, it didn't heal completely. It's like it showed me what my mind is doing but I keep doing it. I want to do another retreat. I am glad it really healed you and you are feeling good now.
that would be great thank you@Mathew-wn9xy
Thank you for sharing this, Zhi! That sounds like quite the life changing experience
Thank you for taking the time to listen Renju :)
Wishing you all the best