In This Schizophrenia Episode… *real audio
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- Опубліковано 13 жов 2024
- Hi I’m Michelle and I have Schizophrenia. I record schizophrenia psychosis episodes on a security camera that I have set up in my apartment. I do this to show people that schizophrenia episodes are often non-violent. I am seriously on my couch talking to myself. Not hurting anyone and not being dangerous. I might make angry faces….but I am still only sitting on my couch.
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I’m happy I found you my 29 y/o son has this terrible disease. For now he’s still my sweet baby boy and I keep him close to me. He’s allowed to hangout with his cousins, uncles and whoever he chooses to but right now he doesn’t want friends ❤
What do you mean he's "allowed" to? He's 29 years old.
@@QuantumTelephoneI think they were saying that in order to specify, that while they don’t prevent him from having friends, he just chooses not to. That’s why they say he can hang out with whoever he chooses to. I don’t think we need to look purposefully to find fault in a parent that’s happy they found a supportive channel for their son.
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A parent of a schizophrenic patient needs all the love and understanding.... they go through so much pain only they understand...so we must not judge them on how they manage the suffering child...
@@geetanjalichoudhury7426 thank you ishy & you for understanding these people trying to provoke a debate are ignorant! I don’t want my son getting into or hanging around someone who will take advantage of him. If they don’t understand that then they should leave this channel! I’m still learning more about this disease everyday.
I am so happy you are sharing. Thank you for your willingness to be so open.
It’s kind of crazy how not every hallucination is scary. I’ve got two schizophrenic friends, one of them often sees shapes moving, objects shifting, or full blown disembodied voices. My other friend has full blown conversations with people that aren’t there. His most recent one is a man calling him profound slurs.
I’m telling you it’s demonic. Did y’all know that fallen angels and demons can and do Shapeshifter into literally anything because everything is energy and they’re basically energy. It’s really crazy. They could even shift into a tampon if they wanted imagine. They can also sound exactly like anyone who has ever existed dead loved ones Michael Jackson Abraham Lincoln Tupac
I’m schizophrenic and have vivid hallucinations that deeply comfort me- lost loved ones especially. And then at the same time over the other shoulder is just as solid hallucinations of gore and mutilation. It’s wild.
I'm on a mission every day or I sleep with dogs 😊
My ex was bipolar about what his schizophrenia was and mostly depended on the street drug he was using because he believed that the street drugs were better than what his team of doctors prescribed him.
@@ivamccann5112 i kind of understand where he is coming from i to kinda noticed
I pray you receive the love you deserve and it never goes away. God bless you !
A friend of mine her son has schizophrenia. Recently, he had an episode and walked in and killed her ex husband. He walked in and asked him how he was doing and he said oh you know. It was a bit of a long day etc he said , "well, let me help you with that. I'm going to shoot you in the head." And shot and killed him. We saw and talked today. She is a complete mess. It's such a scary disease.
That is a real story.
I would never allow my sons to have anything with someone with schizophrenia. Ok, I'm sorry for them, I understand...etc.
But, that is family heritage, schizophrenia can't be managed.
@@rokoprcThat is absolutely not true. It can be managed. Please don't not stigmatize and fear, learn instead!
Genuine question can it be managed my friends sister had it real bad..cat from Cia spy must kill typ bad she ended self teenager ish .I guess different levels
@melithegamer well said! Each person's journey is their own.
@@rokoprc It's not healthy, constructive, or even true to make sweeping statements about a person or even a behavior. We are all unique and while there will be others with the same diagnoses as us, that doesn't mean that we will share the same symptoms or experiences.
I literally gave up helping my brother, because the medical system in Denmark doesn’t allow me to force him to medication, he refused to accept his illness but think what he sees is real .his doctor refused to force him into a treatment unless his is dangerous to himself or others.. I see him fading a way from his job and his surroundings.
Same here, my bro left school and i am losing my mind. I don't know how to help him. Such a bright boy wasted staying home
Keep praying for God to be with him and help him out of it❤ things will get better by God's hand anything can happen
I do this in my head typically
However on a few random occasions my kids caught me talking to myself...
I just thought i was caught up in my "hypothetical world" or discussing life with myself... This actually makes me think i might be... 😢
…Same, minus the kids part this is the exact same for me
Na guys it happens when you are alone or when something is stressing you . Sometimes some people don't have friends or people to talk to some people when they wash dishes 😂
Todos hablamos solos la diferencia es que si distingues que eres tú el que te habla
Talking out loud to yourself is different than a schizophrenic episode. Unless you are under the impression that you are actually talking with another person that is not physically there, or there’s a voice/vision that will not go away, it’s nothing to be concerned about. If you can still distinguish the difference between reality and your hypothetical world, then you’re just doing a very normal thing when you talk to yourself.
@@finpin2622 I think this lady would disagree. Sydney proves that terrorists are able of abuse of science to promote their radical ideas- where CCTV in prison prove- a lone prisoner is Schizophrenic- and there for free of responsibility for a bloodbath he/she made. Think about it. This is all RADICAL PROMOTION not genuine mental health.I would like to see this lady free pass
You looked so scared, I'm really glad this hallucination wasn't scary for you 💚
Wandering if you are glassy eyed when you are looking at your hallucinations or if it is just like looking at any other real person...
I know it's scary and overwhelming but I think it's kind of relatable... I don't know how to explain but I talk to myself a lot and it's somehow similar to what you portray...
I think they actually hear and see people... Whereas talking to oneself you just be imagining scenarios
I talk to myself all the time! I often wonder what my neighbors must be thinking, when they know I live alone and yet I'll carry full on conversations with myself. It helps me think and I also think I am quite entertaining 😅
Please don’t feel like there is something atypical about your experience. We live in a society that feels the need to diagnose or self diagnose anything that doesn’t seem “normal” to others. Countless people talk to themselves or even respond and have conversation. If it’s distressing to you, talk to your doctor, if it is not, perhaps try accepting that there are others like you and it’s part of your human experience. ❤
Talking to yourself is fine. What is alarming is talking to someone who don't exist, and you don't know they don't
Haha! Okay, this was a funny one! Made me giggle. 🤭 You're adorable and i love your videos. I've been in love for four years now, with someone who was diagnosed with schizophrenia. He's the most intelligent beautiful soul I've ever known. I personally don't 100% believe it's an illness. I think it's very possible it's an enlightenment; the ability to connect with the spirit world in ways most don't know how to tap into. It's a super power of sorts, that perhaps simply needs proper understanding or training to use properly for the greater good. I'm not saying this is a fact. It's just a thought. Either way, you're pretty awesome. 🙂
Thank you
When you’re asleep dreaming 😴🛌 … … do you have hallucinations your dreams as well? 🤔
Interesting question! I know people who are paralyzed but in their dreams they are able to walk, so every night you sleep looking forward to a dream so you can be free, even if for only a short time. Dream escape is nice
Lmfao what a strange hallucination i wish i could experience this just once to see and hear what its like but man living woth it daily is tough prayers to u i kno its a mind fuck and a half
Trying to understand this disease after the bondi junction attack here in Sydney
Damn i think i have that because i would Rather, talk to myself.
Schizophrenia is not just talking to urself.. it's way different.
Do you ever get "triggered" by watching your self recordings, perhaps in an eerie déjà vu kind of way? Or that you know it's you that you're watching, but you don't recall the moment at all?
So I had a roomate that was like this. I didn't understand. She would flip on me like nothing. Call me names etc. Made it miserable.. she was mean ! So do you actually see things ? People etc?
Thank you for sharing.
So you see your hallucination when you sit on that couch but do you also see it when you are filmed like this - does it appear on camera for you as well?
No it don't work that way animals don't even respond to the hallucinations
@@knowtheunknown2.0og60 I asked the poster, not some stranger who does not know her
@@knowtheunknown2.0og60 that's not what they mean. They're asking if the woman sees the hallucination on the video that was recorded after obviously being able to see it irl on the couch.
@@viberz like I said it doesn't work that way I have a brother who has this terrible disease I know what she ment no she can't see the hallucinations on the video when she experienced it irl their hallucinations their not actually happening lol
@@TarotTanja jeez sorry thought I was sheding light on this life changing mental affliction
Is ask my self that in my head and I answer my self the same way
Do they ever keep asking you are okay all day? Asking for a friend
Not mine
Reality is elusive, often deceiving us into false perceptions and connections. We may question the authenticity of our experiences, yet technology offers limited insight. Having existential pondering, finding happiness within our circumstances remains paramount, despite our inability to fully comprehend our existence.
I don't think this just happens just schizophrenics.
Nobody certainly knows absolutely truth. You have to be on a much higher set of conscience to realize more about why all the time?
I have bipolar depression. I do have bouts of delusions. Especially when I was undiagnosed because my thoughts were everywhere and I constantly having maniac (cycles up & down) I was 30 yrs younger & was flying free with my crazy.
well yes, people with schizophrenia aren't the only ones who have hallucinations, for example you can have hallucinations if you're sleep deprived, nobody's saying they only happen to those with schizophrenia, at least not in these videos
even without hallucinations brains like to mess with what's essentially themselves, like people believing someone they think is a bad person because they see them doing bad things isn't actually bad and they just dislike them because nobody around them seems to notice, when in reality that bad person may just be pretending to be good around everyone else to make them look crazy for thinking otherwise
Row row row your boat gentle down the stream.... 🙏👼🌟
a question, if you record your hallucinations, can you also see them in the video? i was thinking if not, maybe people can use this to know if they are hallucinating or not. thanks in advance
this is actually something some people use to reality check themselves, looking at things through a phone camera to see if they're real or not ^^ so if you're struggling with that I'd say definintely worth a shot.
It’s a reality anchor and no they don’t show up in a recording.
@@paradox13 Strange why can't you see it through the phone? 🤔
Sometimes mine do. It’s happening more now as compared to my nascent phase in teenage years, as my general ability to distinguish reality declines.
I have it im so run down at the moment due to bad loud violent neighbours from hell ,feel like killing myself tbh im so poorly cant sleep,i go 2 weeks solid sometimes,im drained, always at the doctor's poorly,ive had enough i don't have savings to move as i hax cancer and have not been right since,i cracked teo teeth today with gritting my teeth so much hard getting lockjaw to the point where its really hurting me ,feel like killing myself tbh.
Please call 999 if you are feeling suicidal.... Don't suffer in silence, I know it's easier said than done but you have to hang in there.... It doesn't rain forever
At least they asked mine woulda straight up told me ill never be as good as them 😅
YOU are Stunning ❤
Schizophrenia is constant. You don’t have “episodes”. It is with you all the time. Sometimes you are more aware of it than at other times. It doesn’t go away.
Maybe this young lady doesn’t have them as frequently or chooses to call it “episodes”. In comfortable with whichever she chooses. ❤
It's not constant for everybody. If you're well medicated it's more severe sometimes than other times. That's how it is for me. The audio isn't nearly as severe sometimes as it is other times
If she calls the times when she's having the hallucinations 'episodes' then they are episodes. She knows what she's experiencing because she's the one experiencing it, not you. Don't tell people what to call their own experiences you know nothing about. You aren't her.
she’s also heavily medicated, and schizophrenia is different for everyone with it.
This !
God bless you
Seems like if you had some close friends to hangout with... Im thinking of a church family where they all love each other and You're a part of the family... Being alone is not a good thing 😢
To be fair, this is me watching college gymnastics too
Hahahhhahha
I think you’re a true badass for sharing your experience with everyone. Thank you for being strong and vulnerable.
Thank you
❤Hi, I was in gymnastics when I was in Highschool, I almost went to college but I got pregnant😄.!💯.....What's your name? Do you ever get a break from your hallucinations? My mother had bipolar 2 and schizophrenia, she passed away a couple yrs. Ago I really miss her.!♥️😇💯
So when you say hallucination.... is it the same person all the time? How are you able to decipher if theyre real or hallucination? Im not being mean, I'm genuinely curious.
Hopefully the OP will answer your comment too, but in my experience It really depends on the person as to what hallucinations they're experiencing.Schizophrenia is weird, no two schizophrenics exhibit the same symptoms. My dad & sister are both schizophrenic . My dad gets auditory hallucinations. It's like there's a distinct random voice that he can hear in his head & sometimes it's whispers like people in another room or around the corner that he can't make out what they're saying. My sister gets visual hallucinations but not auditory ones. She'll be walking along & people's faces will look deformed & bizarre but to me their faces look normal. Some schizophrenics get hallucinations of smell & some have the terrifying feeling that they're not the author of their own thoughts & that any of their movements are caused by an outside force, not them
@@carpathiankenyes, paranoid schizophrenia has got to be eerie at times
@@StellaRaeVon Absolutely.Paranoia in itself is a bastard of a thing, let alone combined with schizophrenia .I know a counsellor that works with troubled young men that have been smoking potent hydro grown cannabis & it makes them so paranoid that they'll even act aggressively & attack close family members that only ever had their best interests at heart. That guy from Tasmania that murdered 35 people at Port Arthur was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia at the age of 12
I do same talking by myself
She is really pretty
Sorry I'm just curious. When u have episode u see it like real? Like a people a place and the voice?
Can anyone let me know whther the hallucination always the same person(s), same voice, or can be random?
We all have same similarities no one willing to admit it
Do you hear voices? Or is it like an inner voice, talking to yourself? Do you see things or people? I just ran into your channel and subscribed..
In one video she explains that she can see them but not completely . She can mainly hear them
@@lesriley2062 thanks. Still wondering if she actually hears inner voice, or outer? Thanks
@@CaliforniaBear619they are auditory hallucinations, so emanating from outside your own head. The voices can at times sound from anywhere to a room full of people, whispering amongst themselves, all indistinct. They are sometimes very distinctive voices that you recognize, as in someone you know, or that you become familiar with over time. Some times the voices talk to each other without you but very frequently they are talking about you. Then they might talk directly to you. One thing that seems to be very common, unfortunately, is that the voices tend to be very negative, from what I've heard. What is less common but nonetheless very disturbing, is when the voices tell you to do harm to yourself or to others. People suffering from schizophrenia are not to be feared however. They are much more often victims than victimizers.
@@StellaRaeVon Thank you for the information. Now I understand the difference.
@@StellaRaeVon whew ! That’s a lot
I’m curious what do you think of people (eg. Religious or spiritual) who suggest your Scizophrenia is you seeing into other dimensions, or you being able to see/hear other beings/spirits?
Do they ever make you laugh? What types of emotions do you feel when you’re experiencing a hallucination? Please let me know if this is inappropriate to ask x
exactly like what my mom does. he mind is somehwere else
Yeah me and my imaginary clown talk about the same things
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Iam schizophrenia too
So if this is real, means that you know that you are hallucinating since you are putting a camera to record u. And if u know that it is an halucination why don’t u stop responding?
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What are you seeing when you hallucinate? Is it like a friend or family member or just a random person?
Is this acting or a hidden camera from a real situation?
Its just a camera in the room. Probably to catch moments like this
Your videos are a real public service. I would like to hear what you are actually saying instead of music or voiceovers. I mean the voiceovers afterwards would be great, but after the original audio.
I understand that however I don’t speak outloud at hallucinations
@@SchizophrenicNYC After watching a few, that’s what I was going to guess. I just saw your appearance on a WbMD documentary. Did it bother you that they enhanced the vocals on it? My guess was that the producers only added it for effect. But when you hear things are they distorted in any way? Or very clear? Or any louder or softer than “typical” speaking voices? Do the voices have accents? Including NY accent?😁
CHOSE to be HAPPY, STRONG, ACTIVE, POSITIVE, HOPEFUL HELPFUL, FAITHFUL and PRAY EVERYDAY for GOD'S FORGIVENESS and STRENGTH EVERYDAY.
What if they in a dark room or the most silence room. Wan't to see it.
God bless you ❤
Same t shirt every time ???y?
Is she having a Schizophrenia episode about talking of a Schizophrenia episode?
Both
It's not an hallucination she has negative entity attachment!
Psychics removed that from me
Stay warm regards wishes 🙏🏼🤞🏼 sent from me
Do you get used to your hallucinations or are they terrifying every single time?
I know hallucinations can range from at times entertaining to other times frightful.
I have a question???
How come you don't include the volume so we can know what they sound like as well?
Hey thank you for opening up and helping others as well 👍
How do you know if your not talking to ghosts?
💔😭😭😭
How do you know it's not a ghost ?
I was thinking the same thing 😂 Like...maybe she has the ability to see/hear spirits.
Are you as good as those gymnastics sports competitors?
You're beautiful ❤️
Thank you!!
Do you see an actual person or is it just the voice?
I get both
I'm new to your channel. Trying to learn... I can't find the word to describe my respect for your honesty and vulnerability.
May i know what the person looks like?@SchizophrenicNYC
@@fionadona5771She has said in older shorts that they are all representations of people she knows and all female
Did you always have visual hallucinations?
Makes more sense than a trans
Don’t you wonder why I assume a stranger is in your house ?
You just always have a security camera facing you no matter where you are in the room? I am not sure what to think here…I grew up w a schizophrenic mother, and I am also a mental health advocate who has worked w many people w schizophrenia, and this is generally not what episodes look like. I could be wrong, and if I am I apologize…But I also noticed that in most of the videos you posted of different “episodes” you are wearing the same exact clothes
Everyone experiences schizophrenia differently
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Jesus will set you free from this demonic disease I pray you ask him to come into your life and save you 🙏
ربنا يشفيكى يا أُختي
Are u sure u dont have maladaptive daydreaming but schizoohrrnia ??
Do you ever think you’re gifted?
I feel like a lot of empaths and gifted people are misdiagnosed as schizophrenic because medical doctors and psychiatrists don’t have an explanation for people who see and hear spirits.
No creo que alucines. Usa mucha salvia y quema sus hojas, pide permiso al Creador y la esencia de las hojas y te las pasas por todo el cuerpo, las paredes, piso, todo el ambiente de su casa. Hay cosas muy reales, por algo existen exhorcistas
You have proof exorcisms work?
This is schizophrenia? Or intimidation of self esteem. Hmmm 🤔
Maybe you can see into other dimensions. There are 11.
I was thinking the same thing.
Try to hear the quran ♥️
You know it could be a demon
I have tried to explain it doesn't have to be like this but this lady is happy with the way her life turned out without God. It could be Heavenly instead of like Hell.
See, I mean look at those messages on your wall, right? Are they positive? Walk one day with me and I could have you so happy... I speak His and our truth . Ill pray for you ✝️ In Jesus's of Nazareth's name, Amen
@@EgorUglov-p9z Yes I have tried to explain the Holy Trinity 🙏👼🌟
@@EgorUglov-p9z I believe your spirit has been over taken and you can take control yourself also, and with the help of Jesus Christ ✝️
are you for real lady I dont believe you. com on.
Me either.
Believe in Jesus
Stay close to Jesus Christ. Is there anyway that you can ignore these voices by distracting yourself with something else?
Your dreaming program
Demonic possessions
Shut up.
UA-cam schizo.
That's a demon so stop talking to it & seek deliverance at 5 F Church in L.A.❤
Jesus baby. Stop making excuses.
Shes just showing people what schizophrenea is
People need to understand that mental disease, cognitive disability and personality disorders. Kind of sometimes are code diagnosis like it’s if you’re schizophrenic or mildly retarded or autistic or even have like BPD or narcissism. It’s a likely chance that you probably have a code diagnosis even if you haven’t been diagnosed yet, I really do believe that I’ve been a caregiver for 10 years carrying all types of people and and it usually happens that way, a disability will first bring down your body and then your mind and then a mental disability will bring down your mind and then your body so yes there is no cure for these things you know not yet at least and but you can manage them with love, compassion and understanding