I WAS DYING AND DIDN’T KNOW IT

A year ago, arouund this time last year, I was at my worst - emotionally, mentally, physically. It was the darkest time of my life. Ever. That picture down there marked “before”…that is me…just a little over a year ago…dying. I was so stressed. I was unhappy. I was unhealthy. I’ve never in my life needed medication to function but in this time I had a drawer full of pills to pull me through what I was dealing with. This was supposed to be the happiest time of my life but what I was enduring was literally killing me. I was truly, truly sad and so heartbroken during the time I took that photo. I was in a very unhappy and unhealthy marriage and trying to make it work was literally killing me. On this particular day I had chosen to leave, get a place of my own and begin healing. I remember this day. I sat up in bed and saw myself in the mirror and I looked awful. I didn’t recognize myself and I didn’t feel like myself. I snapped the picture with my camera phone because I wanted a closer look at myself and I saw exactly what you see…sadness and a woman who wasn’t happy at all. My face and body was puffy and swollen from levels of cortisol rising in my body due to stress, my skin was dark and ruddy, I was dehydrated and suffering from chest pain, I’d seen several Drs for constant random infections in my body, for nearly a year my voice was hoarse, strained or at times completely gone. I had a drawer full of pills with names I couldn’t pronounce, my hair was brittle and breaking…I could go on and on. That was just the physical and spiritual attacks I endured, not to mention the financial burdens, loss, and the damage my already fragile state of relationship was with my children and family. We had already endured many years of hardship from homelessness, abuse, suicide attempts, sexual assault, mental illness and life threatening close encounters from every angle. I’ll share my full story and testimony soon enough. This is just a piece of my life, but, what I clearly recall thinking was “if I can just get through this year…this time next year I’ll be out of this.”
See, because I’ve endured a lot of things in my life but the fact remains that nothing stays the same for “always”. Change is inevitable but we do have a choice in the direction that change will take, better or worse.
I’ve always been able to overcome every situation life has thrown at me, and I knew that if I could survive this past years mess I would be the better for it.
By the grace of God and a simple act to visit a friend in a whole other state, God led me to the answer He needed me to find, in Dr. Pete Sulak, a wellness practioner and Chiroractor amongst so much more.
“Be Resileint” is not only a phrase, but a command, an affirmation and a testament to what our bodies have been gifted the amazing ability to do…no matter the depth of the damage we think has been done.
I survived and the light I kept seeing at the end of the tunnel was just that…knowing there was going to be an end and I’d come out on the other side.
Many days I still battle the after affects of what I went through last year but as I reflect on the fact that I held on to my faith that “this too shall pass”…it did, and It does.
Last year was a “moment” and I focused on what I wanted the next one to look like while I was walking through the one I was in.
And here I am.
Moving in my next moment and looking back on the memory of the last where I looked forward to the one I am now in.
Keep going. See your “moment” through and know that Gods truly got you. “Be Resilient”…
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“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.””
‭‭Joshua‬ ‭1‬:‭9‬ NIV