You are not „starving“ your feelings away any more, so it’s completely normal (but painful) that your emotions are coming back with a vengeance. You are being so brave and strong, I am sure you will push through it and come out of that season even stronger 💪
never apologise for you feelings, darling girl. we all feel them - you're not alone. i want to reach through the screen, and give you a big big hug. this is the hardest part of recovery, i find. all those of things you've been numbing come up - and it hits you like an avalanche. it's so hard and unfair, but you are brave and we will get through this together. reach out whenever you need. you don't have to keep it inside. that's how it bottles up, and can get all too much. hang in there. this will pass. all things do. 💛🌻 sending all my love, strength and light to you.
aww rain!!! your never alone. im exactly where u r now and gone through it too so completely understand. we r all here for u and supporting u and we all love u. u r allowed to show your emotions and be honest cos we all feel it and we r all human. its normal to struggle at times and talking about it will help and make u stronger. i promise u will get through this. u have helped me so much in my recovery and are so inspiring. u give the best adviise and really get me to feel like i can do this. seeing u struggle literally makes me cry and makes me so sad cos u dont deserve it and i know from experience its so difficult and doesnt feel like theres better days coming. ive been there, feeling depressed and thinking of SH and just want to stay in bed and cry but u can do this, it will get better i promise. u r so beautiful and amazing and u r so loved by many people and making so many people proud. like i said before, we r here for u and im here if u wanna talk XXXXX
Thank you for sharing the negative feelings along with the positive. I think it's important for people to be honest about their mental health so others don't feel so alone when they're struggling through something difficult. We all have good and bad days, eating disorder or not. The most important part is understanding the bad days will pass and hopefully we come out stronger having been through them. I hope you have a great weekend ❤️
The beginning bit where you get your emotions back is incredibly tough and you never need to appologise for finding things tough, you wouldn't have got so poorly with an ED if there wasn't stuff to deal with ( I know that not everyone feels that way but that has been my experience). You are amazing and I just want to send you love. I believe in you. Mega congratulations on your results, you are a star!
Please don’t be ashamed of your feelings! I don’t expect you to be „fixed“, actually I was really amazed how quickly and energetically you pushed through recovery. You did it right though. Getting to a healthy weight as quickly as possible is absolutely crucial. You didn’t waste time and energy with quasi recovery and now there’s enough energy left to sort out the mental stuff which is the underlying driving force of any eating disorder. I’ve seen so many people wasting their energy with all the struggles that come with quasi recovery so that, in the end, the real issues were not addressed. Keep going, you are getting there❣️
It's so brave of you to make this video. Much easier sometimes to put on a happy face than show your vulnerable side so I admire you for being strong and brave. So many people, myself included should be doing that more. We're all here for you and I'm sending you a hug, amazing Rain ♥
I’m so sorry to hear your struggling with those things, never feel like you have to apologise for how your feeling! I know how difficult this is for you I really wish you the best x
Never ever EVER think that u shouldn’t be on this earth bc u VERY much are!! U have helped me so so much and I love watching ur videos! U are loved by so many ppl. Never forgot that
I’m so so sorry that you’re struggling this much, and I really do feel for you. Just know that we are all here for you, and never want you to feel any pressure to put on a mask and pretend to be alright when you aren’t. It was really brave of you to be honest about your feelings and put it out there as that is something I struggle with a lot. And let’s not forget how far you’ve come in anorexia recovery, to the point that you yourself said that food isn’t one of the main things you’re struggling with anymore, which is a huge achievement. Well done!
Made me sad to watch the beginning of your video darling, you know we are always here for you, never judging so please don't feel that you can't share your worries and feelings...love you and so proud of you.....Grandma 💕
You have a wonderful grand-daughter there. I've only watched Rain's videos but it comes across so much how warm, kind, caring, brave and strong she is. Sending love to all the family - for raising such a wonderful girl! ❤
you are so brave and I admire your openness and honesty and you inspire me to keep fighting my disorder. I wish I had your bravery to make my own videos.
If you ever need to talk raine, I’m nearly 50 but had lived with an eating disorder for a very long time, I’d love to connect with you 🥰 we connected previously when I’d said my sis felt she had to wait til she could be true to herself with her sexuality, sending lots of love to you, hope you see this ❤️ xx
Omg….I was just thinking you normally post on a Friday, and I hadn’t seen anything, and then I just looked on UA-cam, and there you were, I hope you’re ok ❤️ xx
The Ed has numbed your emotions for so long and as you begin to recover, unfortunately you do begin to feel intense emotions again and they're often very dydregulated and overwhelming. It's perfectly normal though so try to sit with the emotion. It will pass. I promise. Maybe also trying to get help with the PTSD / CPTSD and depress when you feel more confident that you are able to eat and reach, then maintain a healthy body weight. Trauma therapy is hard so you need to be as physically and mentally strong as possible. Thank you for your honesty in this video. Don't ever feel like you have to hide your emotions. It's actually helpful for others who may be feeling the same xxx sending you love and strength💪💜 P.s. nobody's life is cupcakes and rainbows 🧁🌈🚫
As a kid I LOVED lemon and scampi Niknaks. They stunk to high heaven but tasted great 😋 then they discontinued them sadly, however rumour has it that they are bringing them back in some of the smaller independent shops 🙌🙌🙌
People don't realize how hard it really is . Today I have made decision to recover from anorexia.I feel like I have lost my personality because of this illness.I had dreams and now I am too tired to do the things I used to love. You are a very very strong person. I wish you the best and I believe we deserve to live fully and be happy
@@snacktivisthii! Well it was hell recovering but gosh i finally want to live. I have so much fun , i discovered new passions i feel so free and happy. Back then I didn’t have a personality. I still sometimes have days when i struggle with guilt when i eat.But it takes time to heal. I learned that you cant expect people to fullfill your void by giving you attention. You need to take care of yourself…
I'm absolutely enlightened and thrilled to hear this@@Laura-ws7ow ! Recovery is truly Hell, but, praise God, He delivers us to the other side! Please continue to share your recovery story for those of us who are still fighting the demons. You and Rain and so many others are what keep us going every day, knowing that full recovery is possible! I look forward to living loving laughing again xoxo Keep up the great work
CONGRATULATIONS on getting such amazing GCSE results /Distinctions in all the subjects you studied at college 🎉 you're such a⭐ especially given how ill you've been! Really hope you can get to do performing arts at college 🙌🙏💪❤️ you'll be amazing at it. Well done for everything you achieve. You're honestly an inspiration ❤️🌈
Sweetie if youd like to reach out to me personally as I confident I am here for you. I'm recovering from ptsd, ocd, AN, and a number of other things so I come from a place of experiential understanding. You're not alone in this, he ones who love you are walking along side you and resting with you when you're too tired to walk. Please dont be so hard on yourself, life I so very hard on gentle souls like yours already. You're so very loved, you are so very cherished, you are so very appreciated. Not for what you have or haven't done but who you are on your best days AND your worst. Thank you for sharing with so much vulnerable and sincerity. You have nothing to be embarrassed about dear, you have everything to be proud of instead. You are a victor, a conqueror, a hero in my book. I pray that peace finds you dear. 💕💕💕💕
you are a beautiful person inside and out. I am so sorry you are struggling. Please research a therapy method called EMDR for your PTSD symptoms, by addressing the underlying trauma and resolving it, your ED symptoms will subside as well.
On a lighter note ... Sugar Puffs/Puffed Wheat,/Wheat Puffs make my pee smell funny. Anyone else?! ,Or am I just a weirdo?😅🤣🤦🏻♀️ Haha also Ollie gatecrashing your video at breakfast time, bless him 🐱❤️
Hi ! Remember me from Prezzo in Haverhill? I really like you ! You are so strong and beautiful woman ! 🌈 if u want to talk u can always text ! :) Woman in orange 🍊 ❤️
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You are not „starving“ your feelings away any more, so it’s completely normal (but painful) that your emotions are coming back with a vengeance. You are being so brave and strong, I am sure you will push through it and come out of that season even stronger 💪
Don't ever hold back from sharing! We're here for it! ALL OF IT! xoxo
never apologise for you feelings, darling girl. we all feel them - you're not alone. i want to reach through the screen, and give you a big big hug. this is the hardest part of recovery, i find. all those of things you've been numbing come up - and it hits you like an avalanche. it's so hard and unfair, but you are brave and we will get through this together. reach out whenever you need. you don't have to keep it inside. that's how it bottles up, and can get all too much. hang in there. this will pass. all things do. 💛🌻 sending all my love, strength and light to you.
aww rain!!! your never alone. im exactly where u r now and gone through it too so completely understand. we r all here for u and supporting u and we all love u. u r allowed to show your emotions and be honest cos we all feel it and we r all human. its normal to struggle at times and talking about it will help and make u stronger. i promise u will get through this. u have helped me so much in my recovery and are so inspiring. u give the best adviise and really get me to feel like i can do this. seeing u struggle literally makes me cry and makes me so sad cos u dont deserve it and i know from experience its so difficult and doesnt feel like theres better days coming. ive been there, feeling depressed and thinking of SH and just want to stay in bed and cry but u can do this, it will get better i promise. u r so beautiful and amazing and u r so loved by many people and making so many people proud. like i said before, we r here for u and im here if u wanna talk XXXXX
Thank you for sharing the negative feelings along with the positive. I think it's important for people to be honest about their mental health so others don't feel so alone when they're struggling through something difficult. We all have good and bad days, eating disorder or not. The most important part is understanding the bad days will pass and hopefully we come out stronger having been through them. I hope you have a great weekend ❤️
The beginning bit where you get your emotions back is incredibly tough and you never need to appologise for finding things tough, you wouldn't have got so poorly with an ED if there wasn't stuff to deal with ( I know that not everyone feels that way but that has been my experience). You are amazing and I just want to send you love. I believe in you. Mega congratulations on your results, you are a star!
Please don’t be ashamed of your feelings! I don’t expect you to be „fixed“, actually I was really amazed how quickly and energetically you pushed through recovery. You did it right though. Getting to a healthy weight as quickly as possible is absolutely crucial. You didn’t waste time and energy with quasi recovery and now there’s enough energy left to sort out the mental stuff which is the underlying driving force of any eating disorder. I’ve seen so many people wasting their energy with all the struggles that come with quasi recovery so that, in the end, the real issues were not addressed. Keep going, you are getting there❣️
The emotional part of recovery is just as hard! Stay strong! You are beautiful! You are genuinely a sweet person!
It's so brave of you to make this video. Much easier sometimes to put on a happy face than show your vulnerable side so I admire you for being strong and brave. So many people, myself included should be doing that more. We're all here for you and I'm sending you a hug, amazing Rain ♥
I’m so sorry to hear your struggling with those things, never feel like you have to apologise for how your feeling! I know how difficult this is for you I really wish you the best x
Never ever EVER think that u shouldn’t be on this earth bc u VERY much are!! U have helped me so so much and I love watching ur videos! U are loved by so many ppl. Never forgot that
Never be afraid to show the hard times, it comes with recovery etc, we are with you all the way xx
I’m so so sorry that you’re struggling this much, and I really do feel for you. Just know that we are all here for you, and never want you to feel any pressure to put on a mask and pretend to be alright when you aren’t. It was really brave of you to be honest about your feelings and put it out there as that is something I struggle with a lot. And let’s not forget how far you’ve come in anorexia recovery, to the point that you yourself said that food isn’t one of the main things you’re struggling with anymore, which is a huge achievement. Well done!
Made me sad to watch the beginning of your video darling, you know we are always here for you, never judging so please don't feel that you can't share your worries and feelings...love you and so proud of you.....Grandma 💕
You have a wonderful grand-daughter there. I've only watched Rain's videos but it comes across so much how warm, kind, caring, brave and strong she is. Sending love to all the family - for raising such a wonderful girl! ❤
Great job, Rain! We love you 💗
you are so brave and I admire your openness and honesty and you inspire me to keep fighting my disorder. I wish I had your bravery to make my own videos.
I am so proud of you ❤ xxxxxxxxxxxxx
I posted my first comment before I watched your video, sending huge love xx
Yaaaayyy you go, girl! ❤ Good job, you're awesome!
If you ever need to talk raine, I’m nearly 50 but had lived with an eating disorder for a very long time, I’d love to connect with you 🥰 we connected previously when I’d said my sis felt she had to wait til she could be true to herself with her sexuality, sending lots of love to you, hope you see this ❤️ xx
Omg….I was just thinking you normally post on a Friday, and I hadn’t seen anything, and then I just looked on UA-cam, and there you were, I hope you’re ok ❤️ xx
The Ed has numbed your emotions for so long and as you begin to recover, unfortunately you do begin to feel intense emotions again and they're often very dydregulated and overwhelming. It's perfectly normal though so try to sit with the emotion. It will pass. I promise. Maybe also trying to get help with the PTSD / CPTSD and depress when you feel more confident that you are able to eat and reach, then maintain a healthy body weight. Trauma therapy is hard so you need to be as physically and mentally strong as possible. Thank you for your honesty in this video. Don't ever feel like you have to hide your emotions. It's actually helpful for others who may be feeling the same xxx sending you love and strength💪💜
P.s. nobody's life is cupcakes and rainbows 🧁🌈🚫
Great video very real and helpful as always, also I’m looking for a good peanut butter what one do you normally use?
Whole earth
As a kid I LOVED lemon and scampi Niknaks. They stunk to high heaven but tasted great 😋 then they discontinued them sadly, however rumour has it that they are bringing them back in some of the smaller independent shops 🙌🙌🙌
People don't realize how hard it really is . Today I have made decision to recover from anorexia.I feel like I have lost my personality because of this illness.I had dreams and now I am too tired to do the things I used to love. You are a very very strong person. I wish you the best and I believe we deserve to live fully and be happy
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@@snacktivisthii! Well it was hell recovering but gosh i finally want to live. I have so much fun , i discovered new passions i feel so free and happy. Back then I didn’t have a personality. I still sometimes have days when i struggle with guilt when i eat.But it takes time to heal.
I learned that you cant expect people to fullfill your void by giving you attention. You need to take care of yourself…
I'm absolutely enlightened and thrilled to hear this@@Laura-ws7ow ! Recovery is truly Hell, but, praise God, He delivers us to the other side! Please continue to share your recovery story for those of us who are still fighting the demons. You and Rain and so many others are what keep us going every day, knowing that full recovery is possible! I look forward to living loving laughing again xoxo Keep up the great work
CONGRATULATIONS on getting such amazing GCSE results /Distinctions in all the subjects you studied at college 🎉 you're such a⭐ especially given how ill you've been! Really hope you can get to do performing arts at college 🙌🙏💪❤️ you'll be amazing at it. Well done for everything you achieve. You're honestly an inspiration ❤️🌈
Wanna hug u 🥺 I'm so proud of u 🥰
Sweetie if youd like to reach out to me personally as I confident I am here for you. I'm recovering from ptsd, ocd, AN, and a number of other things so I come from a place of experiential understanding. You're not alone in this, he ones who love you are walking along side you and resting with you when you're too tired to walk. Please dont be so hard on yourself, life I so very hard on gentle souls like yours already. You're so very loved, you are so very cherished, you are so very appreciated. Not for what you have or haven't done but who you are on your best days AND your worst. Thank you for sharing with so much vulnerable and sincerity. You have nothing to be embarrassed about dear, you have everything to be proud of instead. You are a victor, a conqueror, a hero in my book. I pray that peace finds you dear. 💕💕💕💕
you are a beautiful person inside and out. I am so sorry you are struggling. Please research a therapy method called EMDR for your PTSD symptoms, by addressing the underlying trauma and resolving it, your ED symptoms will subside as well.
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This is inspiring
On a lighter note ... Sugar Puffs/Puffed Wheat,/Wheat Puffs make my pee smell funny. Anyone else?! ,Or am I just a weirdo?😅🤣🤦🏻♀️
Haha also Ollie gatecrashing your video at breakfast time, bless him 🐱❤️
Hi ! Remember me from Prezzo in Haverhill?
I really like you ! You are so strong and beautiful woman ! 🌈 if u want to talk u can always text ! :)
Woman in orange 🍊 ❤️
OMG Hi, you are so lovely thankyou so much ahhh
Can you please show your food like you used to? Its not fun not seeing ur foods
Of course I can!