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New subscriber. I am learning so much and I love how real you are.
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Thank you for sharing your story Peter. I love hearing your stories about sobriety and recovery. My brother is also in recovery, so these stories that I hear help add to my understanding of this process and understand my brother even more. He is coming up on 2 years of sobriety next month and he's changed so much for the better this time around now that he's been doing the work. I've told him about your channels and suggested he watch your videos. I hope he does, I think he will like hearing your stories just as much as I do, if not more. Thank you for always being open and honest. Love you!
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I hope you read your conversation section as many of us still do support you because you are willing to own your past and show how you are no longer the same person. When your actions match your words, that is real. You explain rather than justify your actions. As my best friend always says. You had reasons not excuses. All my love to you. 💗
Middle of August I started going through some health issues. I'm 31 and never been to the doctor unless I was pregnant. I'd ignore symptoms, say I'm fine, joke that I'm not 20 anymore. So along with being sick I blew my knee out. Now I had to go see a doctor. After some tests it wasn't so much about my knee any more but the other health issues I had been ignoring. The things you said really spoke to me and I'm in tears. I'm on leave from work for two months and I have been given an opportunity to start taking care of myself. God just had to cap me in the knee to get me to slow down and take a look at what I was doing to my body. Your videos have been really helping me. I stumbled upon your channel the same time I fell I'll. Since I cant work due to my knee, I'm cooped up and I can't tell you how much I look forward to your videos. 💙💙💙
Dear Peter, You're one of the most giving people I've never met... I love hearing you say you're never going to stop doing what you love, making videos. When you say 'I'm just a dude with a camera, thank you for letting me share my life with you guys,' I feel most all of us on the other side are thanking you right back, myself included. I don't comment often, but please know that most every video has impacted me in some way. I was (and am) addicted (for lack of a better phrase) to your Peter Monn drama channel, you mentioned Peterisms, so I subscribed there too, why wouldn't I, it's free ;) You've shared great resources and stories that have inspired me, motivated me and given me a wonderful perspective. Although I'm sober, my Mother is an alcoholic. Thank you for mentioning alanon periodically. After tonight's video, I finally looked up where I can find a meeting, I'm going to attend AND participate. Thanks for opening my mind, I was the person who thought they didn't need to go to meetings, but hearing your personal gains from the experience has me feeling inspired and hopeful for the positive relationships and experiences. I didn't want to get too deep, but maybe I'll send you something for storytellers one day ;) Thanks for being that guy in my life I never knew I needed 💙🐶
This was so powerful. Thank you so much. 🙏🏻💕
Love this story!!!! So powerful! 💕
I love you. 💙 I’m currently working through and letting go of anger and resentment towards my best friend. You are my meeting when i need it the most! I’m leaning in on my HP and your message today was my blessing of the day! Honestly- I am so GRATEFUL for you and the serenity you have leaks through my screen. 😂 I got better when I got busy! I work it and serve my group and my area because I’m worth it! God has granted me the serenity today and the wisdom to know and the courage to change. Your strength in sharing and hope keeps me smiling. I truly feel connected with you BC I understand you. I cherish every moment of your videos and your recovery story. You lift me up and support me through this amazing platform. Thank you Peter. God bless you. You humbled me today. And today I needed to hear your message! A Spiritual journey via UA-cam with a complete stranger that speaks my life! Goosebumps. 💙💙
The other day I got on video and lost my shit 🤭 Peter it's so hard to be vulnerable. You inspire so many of us with your stories of your recovery and your struggles. All I can say is even though I was a little uncomfortable with it...I also felt powerful because I took control of my pain and released it. You taught me that Peter 💙
Peter. I'm SO glad I stumbled across your channel, and that you have this channel. You are a brave, wise soul. Thanks for being open, and sharing with us. You inspire me.
Wowowow this is one of good ones right here 💙 your story of an enemy turned friend is seriously one of the most simple and beautiful metaphors that can be pertained to many instances in life. It's truly selfless how you both chose to make amends to one another. I'm not a person in recovering but I have learned A LOT from you and life using the 12 steps. When we step away from even our ego to reflect on our past mistakes and learn from them, that is when true change happens.
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This video made me realize what I have to work on. I'm so scared but I know I have to. Thank you
Ok this may so sappy, but it's how I feel from the bottom of my heart. Truly I think they are special people that walk the earth, some call them angels, others a kind soul, but whatever you want to call it, you are one of them. I agree, there are lessons to learn everyday and it's up to us how we accept them. You are showing us the way. Thank you 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
Peter, THANK YOU so much for sharing. I needed to hear this tonight. What a powerful God shot! Love to you.
Omg bring on the tears right before my daughters bday party lol thank you for this "real" video. The work is always hard. I'm currently working on getting out of an abusive relationship and working up the courage to go to meetings. Thanks for always sharing with us, makes me feel not so alone 💙
Thank you so much for sharing this experience. I’ve had my tough times stepping away from the program as well. It’s crazy how we walk away from the one thing that helps us.
Super proud of you. Not everyone gets it, but I can definitely relate to you
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Beautiful story I call them God moments or God winks....ahhhh change...the serenity prayer for me explains things so well God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (people places some situations) courage to change the things I can (myself my reactions my situations) and the wisdom to know the difference...I say this prayer often...I’m always changing I’m not the same person I was at 25 when I got sober nor am I the same person I was ten years ago or even two years ago I will be fifty this year...everyday I try the key word try to do the right thing and be a better version of myself then I was the day before I fall short I don’t beat myself up I pick myself up dust myself off and continue to move forward....change doesn’t happen overnight...it’s a process but it can be done...and we all have to remember we are human no one is perfect I have made many mistakes in my addiction and my sobriety just because I’m sober I don’t live my life perfectly everyday....I try to live my life to the fullest everyday and be grateful...your a good man Peter And a mistake doesn’t define who you are at your core keep talking and telling us your stories...I am listening xoxo
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I love this channel and appreciate all that you share. I watched your apology video on your main channel and have even more respect for you now. You are a good man who owns his sh*t. Thank you. I want to share about an experience I had recently. Ann Coulter's supporters came for me the other day on Twitter when I tried to intelligently debate the issue about paid protesters. I learned the hard way that many people on Twitter are not teachable. They'd rather drag others and be insulting. I don't see you as someone who used Twitter to try to hurt others. Peter, it's okay. No is upset with you right now, and if anyone claims to be... It's not about you.
Peter...I think I know a little of how you feel. Two events in my life triggered me to grow immensely. Sprouting wings hurts. I still have a block of frozen emotions that I can’t seem to release. I went to a therapist and still couldn’t let them go. I let a little bit of them out here, in your safe comment section. You are important.
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Love you so much & support you! 💙💙💙
Peter, no matter what others say you are a great person. You have a good heart and want to uplift others. You constantly inspire me and help me be a better person. That even if I did something terrible that day if I notice that it was terrible and use that lesson to be better person the very next day and to try and stay positive even when it’s not going right currently. Keep your head up peter, you are a different person today and understand what you did wrong and have done what we have asked very beauty guru to do and even more. You are a damaged person as honestly I am too you help me as a therapist sort of honestly. We can’t blame you for your mistake only judge you on how you choose to live your life today and treat others today. My mother passed away when I was 18 and I never processed it even to this day I took off one week of school then went right back and haven’t stopped since and I haven’t taken the time and listening to your videos really helps me understand it more and process it better. Currently I am very angry and always getting into arugumebts and I hate the person I currently am and am actively trying to be better because of you. Thank you peter monn
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You give us hope
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I felt like that after losing my wife Peter. She died of cancer in 2015 and I really struggled with God and the reasons why. Made some bad decisions during that time, but I've worked through them. Thank God I didn't pick up a drink either. It was only by the grace of God that I didn't. Had it happened years before, that's the first thing I would have done. One of the last conversations I had with my wife, she made me promise her I wouldn't turn back to the bottle. I made that promise with fingers crossed. Today I'm in a better place.
You mentioned going to bars... I can't do that at all. I'm a firm believer in if you want coke got to Mc'Donalds. I go to bars because I want to drink. So, I don't go. It's different for everyone. A year after losing my wife to stage 4 colon cancer, I lost my four-year-old granddaughter to an illness she'd had since birth. It was a rough, rough few years. I'm still grieving it all... Still taking things one day, one minute, one second at a time.
Thanks for speaking about your feelings Peter. I could relate to so much.
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Peter i spent years angry & depressed bc i lost someone so close to me leaving me questioning God, trying to understand how God can take good people from those who love them yet leave horrible people who hurt others(rapists, murderers, molesters etc) it took me over 4 years which im slowly coming out of & you have played a HUGE role in me finding myself again... I honestly love you, love your kindness, and your genuine sincerity!! Thank you.... Its crazy to think I've never met you but I feel like you're a "good judy" of mine!
I cried and I cried before you. Have you hit the spot in my life that's shit.
I have followed you for the last year and gone through the last few days which has been hell for you. You are so open in your castings unlike other people.
Why did you make me cry. I'm depressed with no back-up. I haven't cried in years even when you have welled up.
I will have to cry myself to sleep. Love you. You shouldn't need to lay your life on the table just for some people who want to get you back for what you have said. My gran died young. She was my mum. My mum is still alive and couldn't care too hoots about me. Yes my head's fucked up. Nothing has brought me to tears, big bawling tears. Thank you I think. I must have needed the virtual knife to let the blood out. Take care and stay safe 💖💖💖
Slience is truly golden. It is rare these days...we all want to post pics, scream, show, be heard, share our day, video every single second of our lives....when can we just be? Alone. Silent. Shhhhhh....
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Wow Peter, thank you for sharing. What a "God Moment"!
Every time you say the “picking up teeth w broken fingers” in videos I die laughing
Peter....I want to give you such a huge bear hug right now! You just don't even know. I have never style with alcohol or drug addiction but I do know what its like to be numb and to suppress ALL emotions. About 5 yrs ago, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, extreme depression, and insomnia with suicidal thoughts. I'm 44 and was married for 13 yrs with 1 child. During my marriage I was dealing with an abuser-mentally/emotionally/narcissistic/manipulative among other things. I got divorced and I realized I was abused but I was numb to it. Fast forward 3 yrs and i had a mental breakdown. Literally cried every day and night, all day all night with maybe 5 min between when I stopped crying. At that time some other things had happened and I just couldn't handle anymore. My mom have me A choice. She said you can either start seeing A therapist and get help or I'm checking you into the psych ward. Either way you can't continue this way! So I choose to do therapist cuz I still had my child to raise and though I felt whole heartedly that if I couldn't fix myself then how in the hell was sitting and talking to a strange going to fix me, I still went. I went in sat down and the first words out of her mouth were " if your willing to do the work, I can help you. If your not, then this is a waste of both our time." I was floored literally jaw on the floor thinking "excuse me?!" I guess she seen me coming a mile away lol so I gave her a chance. This woman has been A godsend for me!! I go every 2-3 wks on a regular basis and we talk, she encourages me, she points out things I don't see I'm doing or not doing. She calls me out on my shit and she accepts no excuses. I do the work and then some. She saved my life! I'm better now then I've ever been in my whole life! I'm sharing this with you for two reasons. 1) because if anyone else out their is reading this I want them to know it really does work, if you do the work. They aren't truly alone and they are loved. 2) because I wanted to tell you how much this video resonated with me and that I relate to everything you said. When you said "you have to do the work... really DO it to get better and stop living the way you were and that you were tired of being that way"...I totally broke down in tears! That phrase from the first day I stepped into therapy has stuck in my head and pushed me not to give up on myself. Every single day I thought I couldn't go on, I'd hear her saying it to me over and over again in my head. Its taken me 5 very LONG hard years in therapy to finally see my progress. I speak on my truth every chance I get because I know how it feels to "feel" like you don't matter and no one cares. I want others who sit in silence to know "me too"!! Thank you from the deepest bottom of my heart for sharing your story and your truth!! Thank you for opening up about your journey to others. I may not know where I'm headed, but I know I'll get there eventually! I'm definitely NOT who I use to be but that's OK because I like this new me so much better. Love you!❤❤❤❤❤❤
I was raised Roman Catholic and in fourth grade I had a catechism teacher who was a semi-recovering alcoholic. I think he re-discovered the Lord through Alcoholics Anonymous and it moved him to start teaching Sunday School part time to us public school kids on the weekends. It was SO AWFUL. Half the time we were supposed to meet for classes he'd show up drunk. He'd ramble on about random passages from the bible in ways that noone could understand. Well, my oarents went to Catholic school when they were children and had told me and my little brother about all the times they'd seen nuns hitting the other kids with rulers as a punishment for misbehaving. One weekend I decided to ask my Sunday School teacher about it and it made him REALLY MAD. The next day he got drunk, called my father on the telephone and let him have it. He said all kinds of awful things about him because he thought by having told me about his experiences with the nuns growing up my father was "leading me away from the Lord." My father is sort of Fighing Irish, IS the NRA and he votes. So he let my Sunday School teacher have it right back. And they just went on and on about it all and nothing over the phone for at least an hour. It could hardly have been mkre ridiculous. I found it to be completely mortifying to say the least...
I bet he used the small salary for teaching Sunday School for his beer money. At the time he was teaching Sunday school his wife was the only one working full time in their family. That meant she probably controlled the purse strings. I bet that Sunday School money came in awful handy when he felt like falling off the wagon and didn't want her to find out....
Peter, you have a lovely soul. Thank you for sharing this. 💖👼
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This is why you inpsire me to atleast want to do better... I'm angry in life right now... Hence why I play with makeup and play the bass and take classes. I am also about to start counseling to help myself grow... Thanks for always reminding us to remain teachable. I'll keep you in my thoughts. I'll try to do better.
Jennie's Time sending positive thoughts your way, i am also very angry and negative rn and am trying to be better. Here’s to good luck to both of us ❤️
I really need to get back in the 12 steps...I know I would benefit and grow more strong. I live in a small town now though and we have one meeting unless I drive 45 min and I don’t have my liscense st the moment.
See if your area has a number for the 12 step groups in your area. I'm sure someone ( a member) would come get you or maybe even lives close to you and could take you. If you want it, it will always be there for you. You just have to do whatever it takes. I know for me, 45 minutes wouldn't have kept me from a drink if I wanted it bad enough. I would have walked for it, called everybody under the sun to take me to it, or hitchhiked to get there. Whatever your drug of choice, you have to want it as bad as you wanted that drug or more. Best of luck to you friend!! It works if you work it.
Quick question, how do you get numb? I would love to feel nothing.
There are some shit that happens in life where there is no possible lesson to learn. None.
Thank you, Peter, for being unapologetically you, we need more people like you in the world today!
You're crying breaks my heart. 💔
I like to think of learning lessons as becoming equipped. If you feel like you have learned all the lessons, you're clearly equipped for something and you're ready to go on a journey of self-improvement and growth. Zero in on the things which you know you need to work on. Use the lessons you've learned so far, and life will always present you with more in the future. I think all of us, at one point or another, would love to be numb to the pain in our lives, and we all go through periods of it, but I don't think it's possible to be 100% numb all the time. If you feel yourself nearing that or wanting that, try to reach out for help. There are people out there who would be interested in helping and there are support groups for just about anything nowadays. I hope you get what you need. :) I agree with what you said about Peter being an inspiration also.
@@rachelmizer8740 normally I would agree and even advocate what you're saying. I've been in grief therapy and psychiatric care. I refuse to do support groups because most are rooted in religion and not a good fit for me.
I don't know what lesson is even worth learning in the death of my son, frankly, I'm not interested in learning it either. Nothing good has or will come out of it.
I will survive but not thrive. My husband helps a lot but nothing will ever be the same. Don't get me wrong, I have good days, but have yet to have a day I don't think about Steve. I don't want a day that I don't think of him either.
Tell me a possible lesson from this. I can't find one.
I am thankful he no longer suffers from his demons, he was miserable at the end and kept living just for me.
My son had BPD/MDD and a drug addict. After a few failed suicide attempts he completed it on 12/07/15.
I'm not better, I'm not bitter, I'm just sad. And angry. So damned angry.
Connie DeMetsenare Everyone's journey is different. I think the lesson you can learn is that there can still be life and happiness after you lose someone, and you are likely in the midst of learning how to be happy again. I'm not saying you "get over" it, quite the opposite. I know you will always miss him. I can understand why you're sad. What I wonder what you are angry about, or you are angry with. I don't know exactly what the situation is so that's why I say that. I'm not saying there is nothing to be angry about. I specifically am asking what you are angry at because I have never lost a son (and hope I never do) and I wonder where your anger comes into play in your case and who you are angry with.
I'm not saying you're not looking hard enough or anything, but I have found lots of support groups recently that don't have a religious base, which I'm really grateful for. They do exist. And if they do not exist in your area, it might be good for you to start one. If you don't feel like you can lead that kind of thing, maybe you can find someone who can and you can help each other by just talking. It can be a good place to start from for those who can't afford therapy or don't like therapy.
I am so so sorry for your loss. One small consolation is knowing that your son is no longer suffering. Many spend their days suffering. I was there once, and I also attempted suicide. I found something to live for.
I think it's possible that you felt a part of yourself die with your son, and it was the part that made you feel optimistic and hopeful. I think journaling would be incredibly helpful for you. Write down causes and people you have that are worth living for. Do it as often as you think of them. Take pictures and add them. Observe the world and find the beautiful things. If your son can't experience them, you can experience them for him. Happiness and peace is incredibly hard work to obtain. It's not easy, and I'm sure you know that. It starts with looking at your life and seeing what does and doesn't work and struggling up out of the muck so you can work toward a better future. I know this is hard. I struggle daily with anxiety and depression and I still have these incredibly negative thoughts sometimes, but I'm trying. I hope that you try too. If you would like to talk to me privately, I'd be happy to just be an ear for you. I'm unbiased third party and I would be happy to help you work through issues if you would like.
@@rachelmizer8740 I'm angry at myself for not keeping my son alive. I'm angry at America's health care and the inability to get continuing care for mental health. Mainly angry at myself though.
Logically, I know I did everything I could to save him. I know the last words I spoke to him was filled with love and encouragement, however, convincing my heart otherwise is not happening.
Anger is an easier emotion to deal with. It gets me moving daily, instead of staying in bed. It fuels me, allowing me to make it another day. I'd rather feel nothing but anger is preferable to the crippling grief.
Thank you for taking time out of your day to talk to me, I really appreciate it. 💖
I imagine being angry at yourself is a way to feel powerful enough to fix it. If you're angry at someone else or something else you can't control that. I imagine you so badly want to control the situation that you'd rather be angry at yourself than throw the anger out into the universe where you can't do anything with it. I can understand that. I have been there. I have also been angry at America's healthcare system. I have had a HELL of a time getting help for my anxiety and depression. It's cost me time with family and work hours. And doctors are NOT helpful. It's really a shame there isn't better access to mental health services in this country.
I'm sorry you're angry at yourself. It's not your fault your son died. It's not his fault either, though, even though he ultimately was the instrument of his own passing. He was a victim of some very serious issues it sounds like. Some things are just pure chemistry and there's nothing anybody can do about it. I try to be there for my friends if I can. My best friend went through a really serious bout of depression and dealing with suicidal thoughts. He told me, but only after he had come out of his black-hole state. I've had two friends and an acquaintance commit suicide. It was and is awful. I still frequently think of those people. Two of them had terminal, inoperable cancer and the third had depression. It's such a disarming thing. You wonder if you did enough, or whether you could have helped, or wonder if you had just *been* there with them at the time maybe you could have prevented it. It's been so hard coming to terms with the guilt. I was at a stage of my life where the way I dealt with death was by detachment and so I wasn't as available to them as I could be. It's only in recent years that I've been able to feel powerful enough to put my own fear and anxiety about my own mortality aside and be there for my friends in crisis.
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Peter, check your Twitter DM I bought you a fun gift & want to know where to send it? I love you & your content & said so in my message! Write me a short note back! I know you can use what I bought on your channel! Xo @fancienanc nanc 🍒🍒 the Talent Agent Birkin gal
BaNTer His PO Box is in his description on his videos 💙
Karie Jo Loutensock I saw that just double checking
I'm curious as to why in one of your most recent livestreams you said that you don't delete tweets, when anyone can go on social blade and see that on September 4th you deleted 255 tweets? Why would you lie about something so easy for anyone to find out the truth? How can you expect people to trust you when you lie so easily?
You put people down in your drama videos and act like you're better than them when you're not. I think you do this to make you feel better about yourself. And you do it under the guise of pseudo-positivity and "remaining teachable" (which you don't even do yourself).
To me, you're a wolf in sheep's clothing. You use people and take advantage of them. I don't think you've changed much at all. You just figured out how to manipulate and hide your true intentions better.
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