Why does it feel like it getting free therapy based on my music taste. I'm here for it, and I need it. You've told me more about me than I think I knew.
Seriously you got me in AWE with how fast you were on the ball with this song lyrics and video. It's amazing and a real gift how quickly you read those things. Of course, also gotta say I agree thoroughly about those being the issues they were talking 'bout in this song.
Question! is my favourite song from SOAD. It's so Jazzy in the instrumental, which is how Numetal should be, It needs that jazz vibe, the chaos. It's so good.
Thank you for this. I really needed this today. You nailed it. I have been Suffering from mental illness for most of my life and your words have touched me so much on this one that I am in tears. I just really wanted to say thank you because you helped me today.
this video actually sgroke a chord for me ... the therapist is so on point about the idealizationn of the idea of suicide... this past few days i had the idea of ending it all, im thankful that the way im wired does not allow me to follow that impulse, but for other might be so hard to npt to.... plzz keep at it, i belive that u people are in the right path with this videos.
She got me crying, I've been diagnosed with mild depression & anxiety, a few times I have thought WHAT IF I were to die? And that thought alone scared the shit outta me because never in my life I would do that because of the harm it would cause to my loved ones. Now this random girl on youtube has finally answered my question, I've never wanted to die per se, but maybe experience some kind of instant feel of relief and eternal peace. Jesus Christ this so f....ed up
I am so happy I am not suicidal. The world is such a dark place when you understand the dynamics of the evolution of humanity, it takes grim humor to live happy ;-) , but after that realization life is mostly really nice and easy - especially compared to any other time to live - past or future. Music like SOAD is a good example why we live in a great time!
So, when I was in high school shortly after this came out, the prevailing theory was that this song was about a soldier preparing to leave for war and saying goodbye to his loved ones. There’s also a rumor that the band lost a friend to suicide early in their career. “Chop Suey!” was originally titled “Suicide,” but the label didn’t like that, hence the change. Somebody else in the comments already mentioned “Soil,” and people on old school music discussion threads back in the day cite this as the first song mentioning their friend’s passing, and the lyrics definitely check out. “Streamline” is the closer on Steal This Album and is arguably one of their most heartfelt songs, and the lyrics of that one seem to all but confirm the theory. It’s also worth mentioning that Steal This Album is a collection of leaked B sides that were written during the Toxicity sessions and released as a full album after the fact, so “Chop Suey!” and “Streamline” sharing thematic DNA isn’t a far stretch. I think given the political climate at the time and given the political leanings of the band, “Question!” could be an anti-war song, but I think it also fits as a subtle nod to their friend. As a final note, 3 things: 1. Love your reactions and analysis on System songs. I firmly believe they never wrote a bad track, and it’s great seeing somebody experiencing these for the first time. 2. I also recommend “Soil” and I’ll throw in my hat for “Streamline,” but “Streamline” really benefits from the flow of the album building up to the finale and I think you should treat yourself to the full thing. “Roulette” is the preceding track and it’s one of the most beautiful songs System Of A Down ever wrote and likely the closest thing to a love ballad we’ll ever get from them. 3. Sorry for the word vomit, it’s 12:45 PM my time and I’m still a lil’ drunk from last night.
hey YT just recommended me your chanel by the rammstein reactions and I just adore your energy ! gonna be around ! not sure if you'd read this or be interested but I've never seen therapist react to hispanic music like "Amor eterno", by Juan gabriel or "Rene", "Latinoamerica" even "this is not america" by Residente, "hasta la raiz" by Natalia la Fourcade, Althou they're in spanish the lyric and messages are incredibly deep and they have english captions, (and is very difficult to get issues with copyright lol just letting the recommendation, I'm mexican so is always nice to see ppl reacting to those. still I love your reactions! thanks or your hard work!
From I-Am-Reclaimer: @MarcRosenkranz-s6j Hey my Friend, Depression is a constant battle. It's been something I've struggled with for years. I found HeartSupport a long time ago and it's helped me through so much of that depression. I'm glad you're here. Know that you aren't alone. We're here for ya.
From Hotmessespresso: @MarcRosenkranz-s6j Hi friend depression is a heavy battle, and I’m so sorry. It may not feel like there’s an end, but there always is. I’m glad you’re here, you’re not alone in this
From rhapzdy: @MarcRosenkranz-s6j I feel what you’re saying. Depression is a deep hole that it’s often hard to climb out of. You are so valued here, I hope you know that. Don’t let that depression tell you otherwise. We are all glad you’re here and hope you stay with us!
From okaynicole: @MarcRosenkranz-s6j I'm so glad you're here Ive been battling major depression for sixteen years. There are periods of ups and downs, but every day is a victory.
I would love to see you react to Citizen Soldier, the singer is actually a therapist. The songs that they come out with feel so relateable. I listen to their songs to help me get out of my depression, sadness, hatred.
loving the SOAD journey. Hoping you get back into Tool. Some stuff from their recent album is so good and if you compare it to their first album they've gone on huge journey in what they sing about. musically improving throughout the years makes it a real treat. I think you'll love the themes. 7empest, Invincible, Descending. Pneuma. Please.
Yeah wow. I always thought this track was simply about what happens when we go, but system is digging deeper than that and obviously so many people have been that deep but some people feel so desperate to escape, they don't even realise that their mind is crossing every line, fence and wall between what is real and what is fantasy... and system is giving us a peak over that last wall... and how deep it actually gets for some people
I would like to recommend a track for your reaction by Bent Knee called Counsellor about a patient becoming obsessed with her therapist. It's delivered perfectly by vocalist Courtney Swain. They also do a gloriously psychotic and disturbed version of the standard (You Are My) Sunshine, which taps into the underlying darkness in the lyrics.
When they first hit it big, SoaD were labeled 'heavy mental' (the single Sugar was the breakout, it wasn't a stretch they were called that) Serj Tankian's solo work is also spectacular. I particularly love his Elect the Dead Symphony performances he debuted with the Auckland Philharmonic Orchestra, it was an incredible, unforgettable show. Gate 21 was probably my favourite of the night Also, apropos of nothing, I'd be interested in your take on The Bed Song by Amanda Palmer
The whole Album ist one of my Alltime Favorit Albums. If you like you could listen one of these Songs? These are some Songs they are importent for me: The Mars Volta-Eriatarka / Monster Magnet-Spine Of God/Alice in Chains-Dirt/The Cult-Edie/Stone Temple Pilots-Dead and Bloated All the best !
There a song by Bad Flower called Ghost about suicide. Also by Bad Flower is Family where he taking about a Family falling apart. Give them a listen when you have time you wont regret it.
Please do Johnny from System of a Down! Its a song that not many people know and o think that it has a lyric that can be very efficiently extracted meaning
From JBrach: @thecraftmasque Sometimes being strong all the time takes all our energy and a quick repreive from that strength can help us to hold on for longer. The truth is that we all need to be weak sometimes. Everyone will have an end to their life's journey. Whatever pain is leading you to want to end yours, I am sorry you are experiencing that. I hope you can hold on and find your own reasons for living. You are here for a reason! You got this! <3
From Micro: @thecraftmasque Thank you so much for being here, friend. It is indeed incredibly painful to feel like the only thing getting you through some days is the thought that you don’t have to. It’s like there’s this constant shadow hanging over you, making everything feel so much more difficult than it should. The idea that the thought of not having to keep going is what helps you survive, and it makes that it's there. Somehow, it shows how exhausting it is to deal with the pain on a daily basis, and the perspective of having some kind of exit door brings peace to your mind when it needs it the most. It’s about being so overwhelmed and tired that even the simplest things feel impossible. Overall, feeling like you’re surviving on the edge of not wanting to be here is a very painful place to be in, and I'm sorry this has been a part of your own life journey. The mental and emotional weight of that probably feels impossible to explain to others who haven’t been through it, but rest assured that there's people here at Heartsupport who hear you and understand what you're going through. Pushing through each day with that kind of pain hanging over you is isolating, and that's why I'm so very proud of you for talking about it here. There is something special in the very act of sharing our pain, our vulnerability, and being reminded that even if we feel alone in it, we are still seen, heard, and loved. It’s okay to acknowledge how hard it is. You matter friend. Your experiences and you feelings matter too. It’s okay to feel what you’re feeling, and it’s okay to talk about it. I hope that, especially on the darkest days, you will keep hanging in there and seeking support as you need. You don’t have to carry this alone. :heart:
As a therapist you must listen to the song Last Cell by Convictions. One of the most heartbraking song, and maybe you can help people dealing with the same problem.😄🥰
3:50 "Accidentally" hit 95mph on a one lane dirt road at midnight to this part during high school 2006. Do not recommend, too amazing. Make safer choices than I did.
Song is called question not suicide. Where we go after. Is a question,not suicide. You need to tap into a happy place instead of that dark place. Gl with that 100k
4:57 nah, sometimes you just want to simply di3. Music really helps, went on a slipknot binge last week and felt zero depresso in the days that I did that
Wanting only leads to suffering. You have to find peace in each moment with the way it is. The saying "what you resist, persists" is a good one to keep in mind. If you can be at peace with being alone then you will never be lonely. Try meditation, it works wonders to train your brain. In no time you will be more attuned to when the unhealthy thoughts are creeping in and you can refocus faster on not paying attention to them.
I think you should look at the old school Alice n chains with lane Stanley as the lead singer. ( extra dark and scary) and definitely therapist worthy. angry chair. and them Bones. are my favorite.
I always viewed this song as a take on dreams. I see the lovers as meeting in their dreams only and wondering what happens to them when they wake. Does that version of themselves die when they go from the dreamspace
I really like your reaction to this as a SOAD fan and someone who's dealt with suicidal ideation for most of my life. I do think your perspective is idealistic, though. I'm 34 now. I was probably around 10-12 when I first noticed the desire to kill myself. I'm still here. A lot of the time I tell people that every day I'm still here is a win. I wish it were true, but it often isn't. I'm severely morbidly obese. Been trying to change since my 20s, and I've never gotten back below 350 lbs. I've tried counseling; the utility is limited and its not even close to affordable. I live every day trying to distract myself from chronic physical and psychic pain. I self medicate with food. Every day that I fail to change, I know I'm doing damage to my body that will make it even harder to recover. The non-poisonous berries never lead to peace. They only lead to more suffering. They lead you to pull yourself 10, 20% of the way out of hell, only to fall right back down into it again. The climb never ends. Sometimes you're just too deep for the way out to be realistic. Every day I'm still here is a win over my suicidal ideation. Every day I'm still here is a loss for my soul.
From DyllonKG: @davidm6329 Good Afternoon my friend. I appreciate you posting on this and sharing your story. I know that it must not be easy, especially if what you have to say maybe goes against the grain. You mention in your post that you've struggled for a few decades now with suicidal ideation, specifically in relation to your weight and the toll that takes on your life, self efficacy, and mental health. You mentioned self medicating with food and dealing with chronic pain and stress - the sort of looming cloud that every day you don't get better is a day where you do more damage. A sort of pressure chamber that stresses you out more, sending you back to your only sources of comfort. And Im sorry friend. I really am. I dont feel pity - I want to make that explicitly clear. But I am sorry. I, in a much different way, know what it's like to be caught in a cycle that perpetuates itself in never ending agony. And how suffocating that can be. And Im sorry. I cannot relate to the core of your struggle regarding weight. My only relation is with my own cycle, which I can spare the details of for brevity. But the long story short - I used a lot of people to feel good about myself. Validation was a crutch. I couldn't validate myself very well, i couldnt love myself. But other people would. But eventually, they wouldnt. They wouldnt be able to jump when I needed. And it would wreck me. Without a way to self soothe, without a way to face myself, I would do it all over again. That happened for friendships. Relationships. Everything. My cycle only broke when I demanded it did. When I identified what I needed to change, and stopped going back to it. When I stopped seeking happiness in others, and instead sought it in my existence. Which is a tall order. Years later, I still struggle. Sometimes I relapse into old habits and have to catch myself. Ill likely work on it until im in a grave. But ill always work on it. Our situations aren't the same. I wont pretend they are. I also wont pretend that you dont try. Or that you dont put effort in. But I also wont pretend that you're not someone deserving of a healthy way out. Because I think you do. I think you deserve to live. To enjoy life. Idealistic? Perhaps. But as a once proud cynic, I've learned that my way was equally as destructive as pure positivity. The truth was somewhere in the middle. In the jagged line that juts up and down the graph paper as it scans across the X axis. I'd like to think we're capable of more than we think. Maybe that's because I never thought I'd live this long. Im sorry you're hurting my friend. I'm sorry that you're stuck in this cycle. And I hope in my heart that you can shatter that cycle. We'll be here. I'll be in your corner. Hold fast.
I got an interesting question... so I grew up in my teens being bullied and beated up and such as I may have said on HeartSupport forum and such and that I used to feel suicidal back in the day... but question is ... is it possible to feeling / being suicidal without realizing it or "expressing symptoms" of it when struggling to explain you may feel on certain things .. my past 10 years or so I been feeling lost and I sometimes have survivor's guilt I guess from staying strong and keep on fighting but honestly I kinda feel tired at times
From JBrach: @TrymUA-camMainChannel Hi! Thanks for your question and I am so sad to hear that you have had those feelings of being lost the last 10 years. What you are describing sounds like passive suicidal ideation. I am not a mental health professional, just a psychology undergrad student. If you can relate with passive feelings of hopelessness, of not minding if you just didn't wake up in the morning, but don't have active plans to end your life-- passive suicidal ideation may be the title you're looking for. Both active and passive ideations stem from feelings of helplessness and hopelessness without the internal locus of control (confidence that you can change your own life for the better) to breath hope into your situation or perspective. And feeling tired from fighting to stay alive is so normal. You are exhausting tons and tons of willpower and mental energy to dissuade those thoughts. That's a workout! Of course you would feel tired of fighting it. [www.healthcentral.com/condition/depression/passive-suicidal-ideation](www.healthcentral.com/condition/depression/passive-suicidal-ideation) I am glad you have found a space on our forum to voice your experiences and trauma. I hope you found support through there! Whether active or passive suicidal ideation, both are dangerous. The energy to keep these things at bay is exhausting. Whatever the main stressor is for you--- this survivor's guilt, your past, or a current situation, or a engrained mindset from years of these thoughts, I hope you can find it and uproot it. This is a place for your to share and explore what those triggers and causes may be. Please share with us if you would like, we are here to listen and help however we can, within the confines of our volunteer non-mental-health-counselor status :) I appreciate you sharing your question and I hope to hear from you soon <3
From Micro: @TrymUA-camMainChannel You can experience a desire to not live without it necessarily being manifested through suicidal thoughts. Could it be passive suicidal ideation or even just internally giving up on life, it is definitely possible to not expres ssymptoms while also not feeling like embracing life to the fullest. Depression is often a manifestation of that kind of "in-between" for example, where you are alive but also doesn't feel like fully living. It makes despair grow, and you might think about death as an escape rather than something you want to move towards. Through either passive or active ideation, what is present behind is actually a deep craving for LIFE rather than death. It's a way to say: I want a better life. To highlight the pain and struggles we're experiencing as being an obstacle. It expresses a need for peace overall, and being tired of struggling. Staying strong, especially for 10 years, feels exhausting. It makes sense to be tired of it, and to potentially feel alive but also not at the same time. When the emotional exhaustion takes over, it's hard to feel like there would be room to take care of ourselves and embrace our life. We feel stuck, there's inertia, and either way we're not moving towards death or life. We're just here, present, breathing, contemplating how we wish our life could be. We just want to rest and for a positive change to happen. If anything, you are deifnitely not weird or crazy for feeling the way you do. In reality, the fact that you are aware of it is also a strength because it gives you perspective over your own struggle. From there, you have the possibility to try to shift the narrative, seek support that you might not have received during these 10 years, so you could have the possibility to rest, be your authentic self, and have allies by your side as you navigate through life. Being strong all the time and having to put on a brave face is exhausting, but it is possible to unlearn this, to reconnect to yourself in ways that would be both nurturing and healing for you. :heart:
One of the producers had a nightmare. It was about a boy who picked berries for his beloved, but did not know that the berries were poisonous. It's a lot less about suicide than some of their other music
Old SOAD takes me back to mining on runescape. you go to lumbridge and lose your stuff when you die! I had a high school friend who used to be a deep wilderness rune miner and he knew all the tricks to avoid PK'ers. We used to craft nature runes through the abyss, and when we saw an abyss pker we'd head to the bank, grab the DDS and the entangle runes and pk him! Had to teach a coward not to PK people doing work!
Has anyone suggested watching Nightwish? 2 song in particular (in this order) - "Dead Boy's Poem" ua-cam.com/video/S8E3L7ggLMM/v-deo.html - "The Poet and the Pendulum" ua-cam.com/video/N4Vfy5yCy-c/v-deo.html Be sure to turn on captions Background info: The songs are written by Tuomas (on keys). The first one when he was 22(-ish), right after he all of a sudden became the most famous artist in the country. The second he wrote years later, after he fired his (female) singer by a nasty public letter, for witch everyone offered their opinions. (friend, the media, fans, even the prime minister)
In typical SOAD fashion the intro scares everyone listening for the first time
SOAD is undefeated with their jump scare intros 😂
And then again at the outro! :D
Why does it feel like it getting free therapy based on my music taste. I'm here for it, and I need it.
You've told me more about me than I think I knew.
She got me tearing up on some videos when she explaining shit 😂 dont tell nobody
@@KingEdwardMMVIII Damn. Your secret is safe here. A community based on pure art is everything. A common ground.
You got the s*icidal ideation part on point from someone who's suffered with that and many mental issues for years and years. You're right.
YES!!!!! Please do "Soil" by System of a Down next! Heavy, but perfect for this channel!
I WAS JUST ABOUT TO COMMENT THAT
SOOOOIIIILLLL 🔥🤘😬🤘🔥
I'd love her to review an Album...in complete form
Seriously you got me in AWE with how fast you were on the ball with this song lyrics and video. It's amazing and a real gift how quickly you read those things. Of course, also gotta say I agree thoroughly about those being the issues they were talking 'bout in this song.
SOAD legit saved my life at 13. When "Hypnotize" came out i was already ready to go and it felt so perfect ❤🤘
Thanks for taking the time to talk about it. Sub earned. Cheers from Canada!
Loved what you had to say after the song. I needed to hear that today.
Thanks for what you do!
Hey, I was just binging your videos because I love your understanding of the deeper meanings. Thank you for existing.
Question! is my favourite song from SOAD. It's so Jazzy in the instrumental, which is how Numetal should be, It needs that jazz vibe, the chaos. It's so good.
This song is so heavy. Not only in music.
I wish everyone thought like you and were as smart as you and empathetic
this is my fave SOAD song so thank you for reacting, i appreciate your interpretation and insights a lot ❤
I 100% forget about this song. I haven't listened to this song in like 15 years
Thank you for this. I really needed this today. You nailed it. I have been Suffering from mental illness for most of my life and your words have touched me so much on this one that I am in tears. I just really wanted to say thank you because you helped me today.
this video actually sgroke a chord for me ... the therapist is so on point about the idealizationn of the idea of suicide... this past few days i had the idea of ending it all, im thankful that the way im wired does not allow me to follow that impulse, but for other might be so hard to npt to.... plzz keep at it, i belive that u people are in the right path with this videos.
I LOVE SOAD!!! IVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU GUYS TO DO MORE SOAD!!
Thank you for this one!!! I absolutely love this song!! It's almost 2 a.m. here right now, I'm grilling, jamming, and loving what you're saying!!
She got me crying, I've been diagnosed with mild depression & anxiety, a few times I have thought WHAT IF I were to die? And that thought alone scared the shit outta me because never in my life I would do that because of the harm it would cause to my loved ones. Now this random girl on youtube has finally answered my question, I've never wanted to die per se, but maybe experience some kind of instant feel of relief and eternal peace. Jesus Christ this so f....ed up
Watching your videos is like being in class except recesses is first😅 or whenever,
than the lesson keep up the good work professor
I frequently watch a ton of Reaction videos and i can confidently say Miss Palmby makes the best lyrics analysis :D
Appreciate all these videos, keep it up!
With your energy, you should be doing Red Bull commercials!!🤣
Yas, btw😁
I am so happy I am not suicidal. The world is such a dark place when you understand the dynamics of the evolution of humanity, it takes grim humor to live happy ;-) , but after that realization life is mostly really nice and easy - especially compared to any other time to live - past or future.
Music like SOAD is a good example why we live in a great time!
Great energy as always and boy do the people need positive energy 🤘🏻😍😁
One of the couple reactors that has me listening.
So, when I was in high school shortly after this came out, the prevailing theory was that this song was about a soldier preparing to leave for war and saying goodbye to his loved ones. There’s also a rumor that the band lost a friend to suicide early in their career. “Chop Suey!” was originally titled “Suicide,” but the label didn’t like that, hence the change. Somebody else in the comments already mentioned “Soil,” and people on old school music discussion threads back in the day cite this as the first song mentioning their friend’s passing, and the lyrics definitely check out. “Streamline” is the closer on Steal This Album and is arguably one of their most heartfelt songs, and the lyrics of that one seem to all but confirm the theory. It’s also worth mentioning that Steal This Album is a collection of leaked B sides that were written during the Toxicity sessions and released as a full album after the fact, so “Chop Suey!” and “Streamline” sharing thematic DNA isn’t a far stretch. I think given the political climate at the time and given the political leanings of the band, “Question!” could be an anti-war song, but I think it also fits as a subtle nod to their friend.
As a final note, 3 things:
1. Love your reactions and analysis on System songs. I firmly believe they never wrote a bad track, and it’s great seeing somebody experiencing these for the first time.
2. I also recommend “Soil” and I’ll throw in my hat for “Streamline,” but “Streamline” really benefits from the flow of the album building up to the finale and I think you should treat yourself to the full thing. “Roulette” is the preceding track and it’s one of the most beautiful songs System Of A Down ever wrote and likely the closest thing to a love ballad we’ll ever get from them.
3. Sorry for the word vomit, it’s 12:45 PM my time and I’m still a lil’ drunk from last night.
Yeah 🤜🤛🎧🤘 more system of a down
Brilliant song.
Marvelous song ❤
Is a very beautifull metal song and video, thanks for ur thougts
Thanks for the video, great!
Soundgarden - black hole sun
Silverchair - freak
Best SOAD song imo
hey YT just recommended me your chanel by the rammstein reactions and I just adore your energy ! gonna be around !
not sure if you'd read this or be interested but I've never seen therapist react to hispanic music like "Amor eterno", by Juan gabriel or "Rene", "Latinoamerica" even "this is not america" by Residente, "hasta la raiz" by Natalia la Fourcade, Althou they're in spanish the lyric and messages are incredibly deep and they have english captions, (and is very difficult to get issues with copyright lol
just letting the recommendation, I'm mexican so is always nice to see ppl reacting to those. still I love your reactions! thanks or your hard work!
You are so right. I have deep depressions for years.... And wen there are suicide minds it's exatly like what you say...
From I-Am-Reclaimer: @MarcRosenkranz-s6j Hey my Friend,
Depression is a constant battle. It's been something I've struggled with for years. I found HeartSupport a long time ago and it's helped me through so much of that depression.
I'm glad you're here.
Know that you aren't alone. We're here for ya.
From Hotmessespresso: @MarcRosenkranz-s6j Hi friend depression is a heavy battle, and I’m so sorry. It may not feel like there’s an end, but there always is. I’m glad you’re here, you’re not alone in this
From rhapzdy: @MarcRosenkranz-s6j I feel what you’re saying. Depression is a deep hole that it’s often hard to climb out of. You are so valued here, I hope you know that. Don’t let that depression tell you otherwise. We are all glad you’re here and hope you stay with us!
From okaynicole: @MarcRosenkranz-s6j I'm so glad you're here Ive been battling major depression for sixteen years. There are periods of ups and downs, but every day is a victory.
Love the Dark Crystal clip
Your reaction at the beginning when it goes hard was funny 😂
0:57 I was waiting for that moment😂😂
I would love to see you react to Citizen Soldier, the singer is actually a therapist. The songs that they come out with feel so relateable. I listen to their songs to help me get out of my depression, sadness, hatred.
🔥🔥🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻🔥🔥
What a great song
loving the SOAD journey. Hoping you get back into Tool. Some stuff from their recent album is so good and if you compare it to their first album they've gone on huge journey in what they sing about. musically improving throughout the years makes it a real treat. I think you'll love the themes. 7empest, Invincible, Descending. Pneuma. Please.
Disturbed inside the fire. Great song to react to
Wow you look better with no makeup beyond beautiful
I've been told I've come back multiple times because I screwed up something each time but I think when it's over it's over
"Ghost are no different than you, are you dreaming?"💜
Oh you should listen Spiders, Dreaming, Soldier Side, Lost in Hollywood, Roulette and more from SoaD
I love how you use your clips. Seeing the Chamberlain made me laugh! Could you find a way to make Zelda from TerraHawks work?
Love your videos! I‘d love to see more skillet and linkin park
Yeah wow. I always thought this track was simply about what happens when we go, but system is digging deeper than that and obviously so many people have been that deep but some people feel so desperate to escape, they don't even realise that their mind is crossing every line, fence and wall between what is real and what is fantasy... and system is giving us a peak over that last wall... and how deep it actually gets for some people
I would like to recommend a track for your reaction by Bent Knee called Counsellor about a patient becoming obsessed with her therapist. It's delivered perfectly by vocalist Courtney Swain. They also do a gloriously psychotic and disturbed version of the standard (You Are My) Sunshine, which taps into the underlying darkness in the lyrics.
You are good 😊
When they first hit it big, SoaD were labeled 'heavy mental' (the single Sugar was the breakout, it wasn't a stretch they were called that)
Serj Tankian's solo work is also spectacular. I particularly love his Elect the Dead Symphony performances he debuted with the Auckland Philharmonic Orchestra, it was an incredible, unforgettable show. Gate 21 was probably my favourite of the night
Also, apropos of nothing, I'd be interested in your take on The Bed Song by Amanda Palmer
Anyone know if she's covered 10,000 Days/Wings for Marie?
The whole Album ist one of my Alltime Favorit Albums.
If you like you could listen one of these Songs? These are some Songs they are importent for me: The Mars Volta-Eriatarka / Monster Magnet-Spine Of God/Alice in Chains-Dirt/The Cult-Edie/Stone Temple Pilots-Dead and Bloated
All the best !
This song is about Shavo Odadjian (Bassist) dream.
"Struggle, endure, contend. For that alone is the sword of one who defies death." - Skull Knight, Berserk
Hypnotize lyrics are from the past, and sadly soon to be the future. History will repeat
Itself, sooner than I thought.
There a song by Bad Flower called Ghost about suicide. Also by Bad Flower is Family where he taking about a Family falling apart. Give them a listen when you have time you wont regret it.
Please do Johnny from System of a Down! Its a song that not many people know and o think that it has a lyric that can be very efficiently extracted meaning
I been thinking about what if since I clicked on the video ❤
Nice dark chrystal clips haven't seen that for a while .
some days the only thing that helps me survive is the thought that i don't have to.
From JBrach: @thecraftmasque Sometimes being strong all the time takes all our energy and a quick repreive from that strength can help us to hold on for longer. The truth is that we all need to be weak sometimes. Everyone will have an end to their life's journey. Whatever pain is leading you to want to end yours, I am sorry you are experiencing that. I hope you can hold on and find your own reasons for living. You are here for a reason! You got this! <3
From Micro: @thecraftmasque Thank you so much for being here, friend. It is indeed incredibly painful to feel like the only thing getting you through some days is the thought that you don’t have to. It’s like there’s this constant shadow hanging over you, making everything feel so much more difficult than it should. The idea that the thought of not having to keep going is what helps you survive, and it makes that it's there. Somehow, it shows how exhausting it is to deal with the pain on a daily basis, and the perspective of having some kind of exit door brings peace to your mind when it needs it the most. It’s about being so overwhelmed and tired that even the simplest things feel impossible. Overall, feeling like you’re surviving on the edge of not wanting to be here is a very painful place to be in, and I'm sorry this has been a part of your own life journey.
The mental and emotional weight of that probably feels impossible to explain to others who haven’t been through it, but rest assured that there's people here at Heartsupport who hear you and understand what you're going through. Pushing through each day with that kind of pain hanging over you is isolating, and that's why I'm so very proud of you for talking about it here. There is something special in the very act of sharing our pain, our vulnerability, and being reminded that even if we feel alone in it, we are still seen, heard, and loved. It’s okay to acknowledge how hard it is.
You matter friend. Your experiences and you feelings matter too. It’s okay to feel what you’re feeling, and it’s okay to talk about it. I hope that, especially on the darkest days, you will keep hanging in there and seeking support as you need. You don’t have to carry this alone. :heart:
I would love your input on SOADs „Holy Mountains“.
This song is FUCKING EPIC. No one reacts but you do... So thank you.
Sorry for my english
As a therapist you must listen to the song Last Cell by Convictions. One of the most heartbraking song, and maybe you can help people dealing with the same problem.😄🥰
3:50 "Accidentally" hit 95mph on a one lane dirt road at midnight to this part during high school 2006. Do not recommend, too amazing. Make safer choices than I did.
Song is called question not suicide.
Where we go after. Is a question,not suicide. You need to tap into a happy place instead of that dark place.
Gl with that 100k
Bro she's a therapist of course she's gonna take a new perspective on it and not regurgitate the Genius annotations 😭🙏 bro is onto nothing
4:57 nah, sometimes you just want to simply di3. Music really helps, went on a slipknot binge last week and felt zero depresso in the days that I did that
4:55 You are damn right
Tbh I think about it pretty much every day. I'm thinking about it rn all while my phone never rings and my text messages never beeps
Wanting only leads to suffering. You have to find peace in each moment with the way it is. The saying "what you resist, persists" is a good one to keep in mind. If you can be at peace with being alone then you will never be lonely.
Try meditation, it works wonders to train your brain. In no time you will be more attuned to when the unhealthy thoughts are creeping in and you can refocus faster on not paying attention to them.
I recommend you sad statue or holy mountains
*Sad Statue* 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
I think you should look at the old school Alice n chains with lane Stanley as the lead singer. ( extra dark and scary) and definitely therapist worthy. angry chair. and them Bones. are my favorite.
Disturbed fire Inside has the strongest music video intro.
I always viewed this song as a take on dreams. I see the lovers as meeting in their dreams only and wondering what happens to them when they wake. Does that version of themselves die when they go from the dreamspace
I really like your reaction to this as a SOAD fan and someone who's dealt with suicidal ideation for most of my life.
I do think your perspective is idealistic, though.
I'm 34 now. I was probably around 10-12 when I first noticed the desire to kill myself. I'm still here. A lot of the time I tell people that every day I'm still here is a win. I wish it were true, but it often isn't.
I'm severely morbidly obese. Been trying to change since my 20s, and I've never gotten back below 350 lbs. I've tried counseling; the utility is limited and its not even close to affordable. I live every day trying to distract myself from chronic physical and psychic pain. I self medicate with food. Every day that I fail to change, I know I'm doing damage to my body that will make it even harder to recover.
The non-poisonous berries never lead to peace. They only lead to more suffering. They lead you to pull yourself 10, 20% of the way out of hell, only to fall right back down into it again. The climb never ends. Sometimes you're just too deep for the way out to be realistic.
Every day I'm still here is a win over my suicidal ideation. Every day I'm still here is a loss for my soul.
From DyllonKG: @davidm6329 Good Afternoon my friend.
I appreciate you posting on this and sharing your story. I know that it must not be easy, especially if what you have to say maybe goes against the grain.
You mention in your post that you've struggled for a few decades now with suicidal ideation, specifically in relation to your weight and the toll that takes on your life, self efficacy, and mental health. You mentioned self medicating with food and dealing with chronic pain and stress - the sort of looming cloud that every day you don't get better is a day where you do more damage.
A sort of pressure chamber that stresses you out more, sending you back to your only sources of comfort.
And Im sorry friend. I really am. I dont feel pity - I want to make that explicitly clear. But I am sorry. I, in a much different way, know what it's like to be caught in a cycle that perpetuates itself in never ending agony. And how suffocating that can be. And Im sorry.
I cannot relate to the core of your struggle regarding weight. My only relation is with my own cycle, which I can spare the details of for brevity. But the long story short - I used a lot of people to feel good about myself. Validation was a crutch. I couldn't validate myself very well, i couldnt love myself. But other people would. But eventually, they wouldnt. They wouldnt be able to jump when I needed. And it would wreck me. Without a way to self soothe, without a way to face myself, I would do it all over again. That happened for friendships. Relationships. Everything.
My cycle only broke when I demanded it did. When I identified what I needed to change, and stopped going back to it. When I stopped seeking happiness in others, and instead sought it in my existence.
Which is a tall order. Years later, I still struggle. Sometimes I relapse into old habits and have to catch myself. Ill likely work on it until im in a grave. But ill always work on it.
Our situations aren't the same. I wont pretend they are. I also wont pretend that you dont try. Or that you dont put effort in. But I also wont pretend that you're not someone deserving of a healthy way out. Because I think you do. I think you deserve to live. To enjoy life.
Idealistic? Perhaps. But as a once proud cynic, I've learned that my way was equally as destructive as pure positivity. The truth was somewhere in the middle. In the jagged line that juts up and down the graph paper as it scans across the X axis.
I'd like to think we're capable of more than we think. Maybe that's because I never thought I'd live this long.
Im sorry you're hurting my friend. I'm sorry that you're stuck in this cycle. And I hope in my heart that you can shatter that cycle.
We'll be here. I'll be in your corner.
Hold fast.
I got an interesting question...
so I grew up in my teens being bullied and beated up and such as I may have said on HeartSupport forum and such and that I used to feel suicidal back in the day... but question is ...
is it possible to feeling / being suicidal without realizing it or "expressing symptoms" of it when struggling to explain you may feel on certain things .. my past 10 years or so I been feeling lost and I sometimes have survivor's guilt I guess from staying strong and keep on fighting but honestly I kinda feel tired at times
From JBrach: @TrymUA-camMainChannel Hi! Thanks for your question and I am so sad to hear that you have had those feelings of being lost the last 10 years. What you are describing sounds like passive suicidal ideation. I am not a mental health professional, just a psychology undergrad student. If you can relate with passive feelings of hopelessness, of not minding if you just didn't wake up in the morning, but don't have active plans to end your life-- passive suicidal ideation may be the title you're looking for. Both active and passive ideations stem from feelings of helplessness and hopelessness without the internal locus of control (confidence that you can change your own life for the better) to breath hope into your situation or perspective. And feeling tired from fighting to stay alive is so normal. You are exhausting tons and tons of willpower and mental energy to dissuade those thoughts. That's a workout! Of course you would feel tired of fighting it. [www.healthcentral.com/condition/depression/passive-suicidal-ideation](www.healthcentral.com/condition/depression/passive-suicidal-ideation)
I am glad you have found a space on our forum to voice your experiences and trauma. I hope you found support through there! Whether active or passive suicidal ideation, both are dangerous. The energy to keep these things at bay is exhausting. Whatever the main stressor is for you--- this survivor's guilt, your past, or a current situation, or a engrained mindset from years of these thoughts, I hope you can find it and uproot it. This is a place for your to share and explore what those triggers and causes may be. Please share with us if you would like, we are here to listen and help however we can, within the confines of our volunteer non-mental-health-counselor status :) I appreciate you sharing your question and I hope to hear from you soon <3
From Micro: @TrymUA-camMainChannel You can experience a desire to not live without it necessarily being manifested through suicidal thoughts. Could it be passive suicidal ideation or even just internally giving up on life, it is definitely possible to not expres ssymptoms while also not feeling like embracing life to the fullest. Depression is often a manifestation of that kind of "in-between" for example, where you are alive but also doesn't feel like fully living. It makes despair grow, and you might think about death as an escape rather than something you want to move towards.
Through either passive or active ideation, what is present behind is actually a deep craving for LIFE rather than death. It's a way to say: I want a better life. To highlight the pain and struggles we're experiencing as being an obstacle. It expresses a need for peace overall, and being tired of struggling.
Staying strong, especially for 10 years, feels exhausting. It makes sense to be tired of it, and to potentially feel alive but also not at the same time. When the emotional exhaustion takes over, it's hard to feel like there would be room to take care of ourselves and embrace our life. We feel stuck, there's inertia, and either way we're not moving towards death or life. We're just here, present, breathing, contemplating how we wish our life could be. We just want to rest and for a positive change to happen.
If anything, you are deifnitely not weird or crazy for feeling the way you do. In reality, the fact that you are aware of it is also a strength because it gives you perspective over your own struggle. From there, you have the possibility to try to shift the narrative, seek support that you might not have received during these 10 years, so you could have the possibility to rest, be your authentic self, and have allies by your side as you navigate through life. Being strong all the time and having to put on a brave face is exhausting, but it is possible to unlearn this, to reconnect to yourself in ways that would be both nurturing and healing for you. :heart:
It's a dream that Serj had and this is the result.
There is a Korn song that deals with Romeo and Juillet idea like this song. The song is called hushabye. It isn't a single kinda lesser known
One of the producers had a nightmare. It was about a boy who picked berries for his beloved, but did not know that the berries were poisonous.
It's a lot less about suicide than some of their other music
Empty Walls reaction by Serj Tankian
You should react to Paranoid by Black Sabbath!
Can you please do work so cold by mudvayne?
Old SOAD takes me back to mining on runescape. you go to lumbridge and lose your stuff when you die! I had a high school friend who used to be a deep wilderness rune miner and he knew all the tricks to avoid PK'ers. We used to craft nature runes through the abyss, and when we saw an abyss pker we'd head to the bank, grab the DDS and the entangle runes and pk him! Had to teach a coward not to PK people doing work!
You should listen to some Alice In Chains, their song “Nutshell” is packed with raw emotion and the melody is sweet yet haunting all at the same time
Would love to see your reaction on Monsters by James Blunt.
You need to react to Blitz Union - Plastic song or Sabaton - Soldier of Heaven song, they're great songs.
Kai Straw - Chokin'
PLEASE CONSTANCE BY SPIRITBOX!!
I like the beethoven feel of it.
Need to react to "empty walls" by serj lead singer of system of a down must watch video with it
You need react to Famous Last Word - One in the Chamber or Pretty in Porcelain. Please
I had that pain and do suicide few time.i hope no one don't experience this😢
Love how YT decided to put the suicide prevention line on this one lol
Has anyone suggested watching Nightwish?
2 song in particular (in this order)
- "Dead Boy's Poem" ua-cam.com/video/S8E3L7ggLMM/v-deo.html
- "The Poet and the Pendulum" ua-cam.com/video/N4Vfy5yCy-c/v-deo.html
Be sure to turn on captions
Background info:
The songs are written by Tuomas (on keys).
The first one when he was 22(-ish), right after he all of a sudden became the most famous artist in the country.
The second he wrote years later, after he fired his (female) singer by a nasty public letter, for witch everyone offered their opinions. (friend, the media, fans, even the prime minister)
I also wanting not to struggle
Please do Lizard Skin by Gojira
Can you please do popular monster by falling in reverse :D
Please do Boom
This video is age restricted, that kinda funny.
It's the mentioning of suicide, algorithm's real sensitive about that.
Please check out “In my darkest hour” by megadeth
Can you react to Sana,Sana,Sana cura cura cura by Psychonaut 4?