honestav ft. MOD SUN - I'd Rather Overdose (Remix) (Official Video)

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  • @casswilliamson6224
    @casswilliamson6224 5 місяців тому +1320

    "I finally love myself the way I loved getting high." That line just hits so hard. Love y'all, this is amazing. ❤

  • @DedricRosè
    @DedricRosè Місяць тому +100

    I'm literally detoxing right now off fentanyl at home 6 days sober, I will update in a month. Your music has helped me mentally get through this even tho it makes me cry every time, I've already lost everything once and I'm almost losing everything again, my wife has stuck with me through everything and it's just time. Pray for me.

    • @ryanhulslander521
      @ryanhulslander521 Місяць тому +10

      Don't ever give up m8, you've got this more than you know!

    • @DianeEvans-hp6ui
      @DianeEvans-hp6ui Місяць тому +4

      Praying for you to get thru and be happy... If no one has said it I'm proud of you even tho we don't know each other

    • @alishadaniels360
      @alishadaniels360 Місяць тому +4

      Prayers that you stay on the path 🙏 ❤

    • @theodorejenkins6066
      @theodorejenkins6066 Місяць тому +4

      Well you got through the worst part by far.

    • @fallenn420ttv
      @fallenn420ttv Місяць тому +4

      You got this man your important and we are greatful your here ❤

  • @AmberXXRiot
    @AmberXXRiot 5 місяців тому +778

    “I finally love myself the way I loved getting high”
    We can recover!

    • @michellejessup6618
      @michellejessup6618 5 місяців тому +21

      Yes we all can! I am 14 yrs sober from meth pills and I am Happy I'm not gonna lie it was a long hard fight and journey but I fought like hell for my sobriety If I can do so can anybody can!
      "IF GOD BROUGHT YOU TO IT
      GOD WILL GET YOU THOUGH IT"

    • @crazycatlady4391
      @crazycatlady4391 5 місяців тому +13

      4 years 10 months sober here 🖤🤍 September 29th makes 5 years 🎉
      #WeDoRecover

    • @Diamond420x
      @Diamond420x 5 місяців тому +8

      2 years clean and expecting my first baby so excited for this new journey in life! Just waiting on my parents too get clean and praying everyday 😢

    • @michellejessup6618
      @michellejessup6618 5 місяців тому

      @@crazycatlady4391 congrats to you!👏👏🎊🎉

    • @michellejessup6618
      @michellejessup6618 5 місяців тому +4

      @Diamond420x Way to go, just remember stay in your lane. Take care of yourself. God will take care of your parents and in their time. You can only do what you can do congrats on the baby best wishes 🤗✌️

  • @MODSUN
    @MODSUN 5 місяців тому +448

    Love

    • @sierraaaaa6945
      @sierraaaaa6945 5 місяців тому +1

      ❤❤❤

    • @MattWebz
      @MattWebz 5 місяців тому +1

      Hell yeah

    • @intibaked8614
      @intibaked8614 5 місяців тому +1

      Thanks❤

    • @GHANDIBONEZWORLD
      @GHANDIBONEZWORLD 5 місяців тому +1

      Incredible song amazing message and the Mod Sun feature?! Pure 🔥🔥🔥🔥

    • @BraidenMajor
      @BraidenMajor 5 місяців тому +1

      This song gets me through the day

  • @CMJourneys
    @CMJourneys 3 місяці тому +79

    I'm 72 days into sobriety from fentanyl and I have been listening to this song since day 13 it just hits so hard with all the people I've lost. Thanks for this it inspires me on the daily!

    • @zachbrewer2985
      @zachbrewer2985 2 місяці тому +2

      Stay strong big dog

    • @wallacebenfield8229
      @wallacebenfield8229 2 місяці тому +2

      Congrats shit is really hard

    • @johnbaker2067
      @johnbaker2067 2 місяці тому +3

      Keep going bro. It’s worth it. I’m just over 2 years clean from H

    • @courtneymarie1895
      @courtneymarie1895 2 місяці тому +3

      🙌🏽 I’m so proud of you 🫶🏼 you got this , I have 7 years of sobriety and my sister just came home from treatment 🙌🏽🥹 #WEDORECOVER Sending lots of hugs 🫂 and positive vibes your way! ❤️

    • @naturelovestretch
      @naturelovestretch Місяць тому +1

      I hold out hope for my older brother to be able to say this some day. Nevertheless, from one stranger to another, I'm proud of you!

  • @gena4638
    @gena4638 3 місяці тому +119

    This is one of the best comments sections I've ever come across. Love seeing strangers connecting and inspiring one another. ❤

  • @mattduda
    @mattduda 5 місяців тому +215

    THIS GUY NEEDS TO GO WORLDWIDE! AV you’re a lyrical genius dude. Cheers from Canada!

    • @GEORGIABOY23
      @GEORGIABOY23 5 місяців тому +4

      No let’s stay out of mainstream bs

    • @Koawla
      @Koawla 5 місяців тому

      I agree! This guy.. Keep it up!

    • @krazykuz13cmc
      @krazykuz13cmc 5 місяців тому +4

      He a good singer but he no lyrical genius lmfao.

    • @gavinventer489
      @gavinventer489 4 місяці тому +1

      Its not his song. Its Phix who is the artist

    • @gavinventer489
      @gavinventer489 4 місяці тому +2

      But he sings well.

  • @jary_mane
    @jary_mane 4 місяці тому +291

    Heroin consumed me as a teenager. Homeless, jail, rehabs, that whole cycle. It was brutal man. I just turned 30 and have been clean for 10 years. Now I’m a Respiratory Therapist and put all my addictive tendencies into my health and the medical field. It’s a beautiful life out here away from all that garbage.

    • @andreanickerson4249
      @andreanickerson4249 4 місяці тому +7

      😂😂😂 so you got clean at 20? Sounds like you’re wise beyond your years.

    • @annabella9039
      @annabella9039 4 місяці тому +2

      I love this. ❤️

    • @Justin-bl1qo
      @Justin-bl1qo 4 місяці тому

      ​@@andreanickerson4249some things make a person grow, some things prevent them from growing.

    • @inkmonster0u812
      @inkmonster0u812 3 місяці тому +2

      Thats great sir. Hope you have happiness..

    • @Kaymaheu
      @Kaymaheu 3 місяці тому +4

      Same but mine was fentynal.
      2 years sober ❤

  • @playxdeadxbabyy
    @playxdeadxbabyy 5 місяців тому +373

    WE DO RECOVER! ❤ made it out 6-2-19. Still going strong. R.I.P. to the ones lost along the way ❤

    • @Matt-fe2ti
      @Matt-fe2ti 5 місяців тому +1

      Congrats

    • @SINNERSAVEDBYGODSGRACE88
      @SINNERSAVEDBYGODSGRACE88 5 місяців тому +2

      16 months still strong god bless

    • @sandramoore2576
      @sandramoore2576 5 місяців тому +3

      8/5/17.. I do it for my friends that couldnt get out and my kids. Never forget them. Fly high my angels 😇

    • @TessaMANE
      @TessaMANE 5 місяців тому +1

      It's a feeling most of us never experience

    • @mistyg715
      @mistyg715 5 місяців тому +1

      ❤ YES WE DO 11-03-2019❤

  • @CourtneyDull-wl4gc
    @CourtneyDull-wl4gc 5 місяців тому +195

    My husband has been clean and sober for 5 years, and we have a beautiful life. For anyone struggling, you CAN recover ❤️ I thank God everyday that he has one more day sober. ❤

    • @PositivelyPessimistic42
      @PositivelyPessimistic42 5 місяців тому +4

      I was grateful that my wife stayed with me during a rough recovery.
      A woman can really change a man.
      Happy for you two!

    • @LilRedDog
      @LilRedDog 5 місяців тому +2

      What makes a woman beautiful?
      Everything, when you love her.
      Men need women...
      Thank them all for saving our souls.

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

    • @meganwenner8335
      @meganwenner8335 3 місяці тому +1

      Praying I can make this comment one day! So proud of your husband! ❤

    • @Aaliyah_6613
      @Aaliyah_6613 2 місяці тому

      @@LilRedDog women need men to sometimes ( not to be mean just saying )

  • @rudydiaz7473
    @rudydiaz7473 4 місяці тому +108

    As an ex addict myself I’m not to man to admit this brought me to tears 2 years sober now with a 2 year old son he saves me because I finally love someone more than I love being high!

  • @vanessajohnson2150
    @vanessajohnson2150 5 місяців тому +88

    Finally music that doesn’t push getting drunk and high. We need more of this. This is such a light for people . This song fills my heart and makes me feel so much when I listen. We do recover . 8/12/2002 🖤🖤🖤🖤

  • @TravsCallis
    @TravsCallis 5 місяців тому +40

    Sober 3.5 years. I’ve been the child and the parent, victim and perpetrator. Living with that I’ve done feels impossible some days. But we must soldier on. Thanks for this gift gentlemen

    • @stressedworried8615
      @stressedworried8615 4 місяці тому +1

      @@TravsCallis whatever you done….it can’t be that bad brother. Every day a new start. Go easy on yourself son…much love

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

  • @stevengregg3914
    @stevengregg3914 4 місяці тому +37

    “Finally loved myself the way I loved getting high”
    That one line brought instant tears to my eyes. There is absolutely no way to better word that feeling!

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

    • @jpXO28
      @jpXO28 4 місяці тому +1

      Seriously hit me like a ton of bricks had me all choked up instantly!

    • @georgemartinez3871
      @georgemartinez3871 2 місяці тому +1

      Same instant tears 😭 that line is the realest lyric I have ever heard!!!!!!!

  • @billymartin6646
    @billymartin6646 11 днів тому +5

    Im 14 years out.... to those fighting, you got this....its beautiful on this side.❤❤❤❤

  • @LouieC
    @LouieC 4 місяці тому +72

    "I know that you hate me and I hate me too" reminds me of my first born. I'm so sorry son. I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I love you so much. You helped me get sober.

    • @michelemcdonald1896
      @michelemcdonald1896 4 місяці тому +3

      Same.. my oldest hasnt talked to me in 6 yrs. He has 2 daughters i haven't met, i love u
      Lil Raymond

    • @JamesAlverson-ih3tv
      @JamesAlverson-ih3tv 4 місяці тому +5

      Your not alone brother. Still battling my worst enemy, myself.

    • @nathanshifflett8839
      @nathanshifflett8839 4 місяці тому +3

      Damn I'm proud of you man wish my dad could say this

    • @bobbiboo122
      @bobbiboo122 2 місяці тому

      Tell him not us homie!

  • @derekrobinson8955
    @derekrobinson8955 5 місяців тому +113

    Jfc
    "I finally love myself like i loved getting high"
    Hit me like a ton of bricks, I'm on my road to recovery, and all i want is to love myself, but its so hard. Thanks for the tune.

    • @michellejessup6618
      @michellejessup6618 5 місяців тому +4

      Hang in there keep fighting I am 14 years sober it was a long hard fight for me but I did it you can too
      "If God brought you to it
      God will get you thur it"✌️

    • @tylerhays2174
      @tylerhays2174 5 місяців тому

      @@derekrobinson8955 it gets easier bro keep it going I have 18 months and it gets easier!!! We’re all one bad decision away from loosing everything again…..remember that you have a choice today!!!!

    • @OwnBestFriend
      @OwnBestFriend 5 місяців тому +3

      I love you!! and im so proud of you. one day at a time

    • @c-daddy3129
      @c-daddy3129 5 місяців тому +4

      I feel you brother. This seems like a lonely road, just remember, though were all at different points on it, there's many of us walking the same road with you. You're not alone🤙

    • @ThomasAtiya
      @ThomasAtiya 4 місяці тому +1

      Don’t pick up no matter what! You got this!

  • @beckhenry8712
    @beckhenry8712 4 місяці тому +7

    "my dad's dead, my mom's proud". Hit hard. My dad's dead, has been since 2022 and my mom's over the moon about me surviving my addiction and getting clean off meth. My 30s, so far, have been trying to kill me, but I'm still here.
    If I, of all people, CAN get sober, YOU can get sober. It's not easy, it's painful, it's traumatizing, but it's WORTH it. I am worth, YOU are worth it, WE are worthy of living a life without drugs.

  • @elizabethgehringer194
    @elizabethgehringer194 5 місяців тому +42

    Mods verse got me like it seems it did a lot of us!! Been clean for over 4 years now and it literally takes you hitting your rock bottom!! Everyone’s is different so glad I said babe we gotta stop or we are dying!! We are both still here and so much better than we were!! I’m not as good as I’m going to get but I’m way better than I used to be!

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

    • @Janellabelle
      @Janellabelle 4 місяці тому

      Does it? Does "rock bottom" even exist? If it does, I never found it. As long as you're alive, things can ALWAYS get worse. I'm going on almost 5 years sober from oc, heroin, and fentanyl now. I thank my parents all the time for standing by me through it all. They tell me how "proud" they are of me, and I tell them be proud of themselves because I never could've done it without their help. Even when I relapsed over and over they still kept hope that Id get better eventually. They're the reason I never went homeless, never had to sell my body, never got kidnapped, or lured into a human trafficking ring, or murdered by some random person in the streets. It took their unconditional love and my dream of one day being a wife and mother, the opposite of rock bottom, to get sober after many years. (If we didnt hurry up and get sober, my husband and I would never be able to have a family.) Plus, telling ppl that it takes hitting rock bottom to get sober is very dangerous. It makes their support network, their sober family and sober friends, the most important thing in their life when they're sick, believe that they have to abandon their loved ones under a bridge or never speak to them again unless they get sober. Which is terrible. Tough "love" is not real love. Real love is unconditional and never, ever gives up. Which is something an addict desperately needs. And you and I both know taking your heroin addicted kid and dropping them off on the corner and leaving won't be enough to get anyone sober. It'll just make them resent you and any offers of future help. It's just a more dangerous environment/situation to be an addict in. People prey on society's most vulnerable individuals and a homeless drug addict without a family that cares just sets their loved one up to more likely die, and them eventually standing at their grave with massive regrets about their decision to put them in even more harm's way. I'd never push someone to "rock bottom" and expect them to get better. You have to lift them up. Keep encouraging them, not putting a wall of resentment between you and them. They're already suffering immensely which is probably what sparked their addiction in the first place. Everyones path to sobriety is different, but it rarely is through rock bottom. If you've ever been to Portland you'd see "rock bottom" don't mean anything good for an opiate addict. They just nod off in their tent and the dope man lives 3 tents over, and if he's out, the dope man 5 tents over is good to go.

    • @elizabethgehringer194
      @elizabethgehringer194 4 місяці тому

      @@Janellabelle what I refer to when I mean rock bottom which is what I call it.. is the day that you are sitting there and say this is it and something makes you get up and ask for help!
      Everyone’s story is different!! Glad you got clean to.
      I was just commenting on how a verse hit me.. it is a great day when you “finally love yourself like you loved getting high”.
      Even though after the beginning it’s not a love it’s a requirement to get through the day, just glad I don’t wake up like that anymore, and hope and pray someone reading this struggling decides todays the day I choose me, and want to change my life!

  • @rodjohnson1725
    @rodjohnson1725 3 місяці тому +10

    When I listen to you I feel like my son is speaking to me. He's been gone for 6 months now and I just can't help but cry when you start pouring out your soul. It's tragically beautiful and harsh reality. ❤

    • @marleysgrandmacp
      @marleysgrandmacp 5 днів тому +1

      Sending you lots of love and support. Keep being strong and remember him in peace and love ☮️☮️☮️💟💟💟

    • @rodjohnson1725
      @rodjohnson1725 5 днів тому +1

      @marleysgrandmacp thankyou very much for your thoughts 🙏 as it turns out I was listening to "just like you"... prior to seeing this. 🙂❤️🤙

    • @marleysgrandmacp
      @marleysgrandmacp 5 днів тому +1

      @ all good 🙂🙂🙂

    • @rodjohnson1725
      @rodjohnson1725 5 днів тому

      I just want to give Mr AV a great big hug when I listen to his music.
      Like adopt him or something ..😂.
      Using hard life experiences to bring out the love we should really all have for each other.
      UTTERLY BRILLIANT. 👌

  • @LilRedDog
    @LilRedDog 5 місяців тому +72

    Yeah: "I finally loved myself the way I loved getting high" is profound.
    What hit me, harder, was "I knew I couldn't live life like this anymore".

    • @beckhenry8712
      @beckhenry8712 4 місяці тому +4

      For me it was "my dad's dead, my mom's proud" and "I took one last line until both my eyes closed, said one last goodbye and I overdosed", I lost way too many homies that way.

    • @AvitalR88
      @AvitalR88 4 місяці тому

      i didnt get why mom is proud?​@@beckhenry8712

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

  • @zoegriffith172
    @zoegriffith172 5 місяців тому +8

    My boyfriend has been sober for a year and half after overdosing and you don’t understand how thankful and how much I praise him❤️ anybody can RECOVER

  • @filipivan5125
    @filipivan5125 5 місяців тому +90

    I first saw Modsun’s youtube short before I discovered the full song. These two are amazing together

    • @Genre_sadgirl
      @Genre_sadgirl 5 місяців тому

      Same. I'm glad they got to do it together. I love Mod's verse.

    • @HarleaTyler
      @HarleaTyler 5 місяців тому +4

      I heard the OG version after hearing Mods verse and his verse in my opinion makes the song so much more

    • @frosty_759
      @frosty_759 5 місяців тому +1

      bro mod sun go crazy in the freestyle cyphers tooo

    • @richierich6732
      @richierich6732 5 місяців тому

      Mod sold out to me for his much needed career boost and his fake ass relationship with my wife avril. My wife has been faking public relationships for many years to keep fans out of our private life and because I worked for more than one of the three letter agencies. The hot mess with my wife's former and current fake ass public relationships is her revenge on some nosey fans that pissed her off. Grab your popcorn this shit show is just getting started.

    • @richardvenable1161
      @richardvenable1161 5 місяців тому

      @@HarleaTylerbro Honsetav is a dude they just started up in Springfield mo he’ll get there

  • @samduce
    @samduce 5 місяців тому +34

    The vulnerability is inspiring to be more human!

  • @Koawla
    @Koawla 5 місяців тому +34

    This song.. it's still on repeat. Love you guys!!

  • @angelanickens7695
    @angelanickens7695 4 місяці тому +10

    As someone who struggled for almost 20 years with drug and alcohol addiction, this version hits hard. 12-14-2022 saved myself from this disease. I'm luckier than so many of my friends and family members

    • @trevorwilliams5103
      @trevorwilliams5103 4 місяці тому

      I’m 39. been drinking and done every drug under the sun since I was 15. Wanted and have tried to get so er for the past couple years. fentanyl had a death grip on me and I lost a couple life long best friends on top of PTSD from deployments to Iraq early on in the war in the early 2000’s. I finally have been sober Since Jan 22 of this year(‘24). I’ve been scrolling through all these messages and just wanted to tell you, You are amazing and I am proud of you, have a good day today…. one day at a Time!🙂

  • @xxLOSERxBABYxx
    @xxLOSERxBABYxx 5 місяців тому +34

    When I heard Mods verse I was hoping for a full version! I’m loving this and it will for sure remain on repeat

    • @ciaruhhh
      @ciaruhhh 5 місяців тому +3

      me too! i thought he’d at least sing along w him in this tho😢

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

  • @1110karin
    @1110karin 5 місяців тому +25

    I love this song, my dad died when I was 15 and been struggling my entire life with addiction, anxiety and depression. I have always been functioning at a decent level but I hope one day to break the Xanax habit but sometimes I don't see it happening. I love how many people get to collab with Mod Sun.

    • @nathanshulkin5012
      @nathanshulkin5012 5 місяців тому +2

      You got this, screw the drugs you don’t need em to find happiness and meaning in life, all they do is take away from what makes you unique and special, just know you are loved and I’ll keep you in my prayers ❤

    • @TheDalyShowSwag
      @TheDalyShowSwag 4 місяці тому +1

      I never thought I could live one day without Xanax. I kicked an 8mg a day habit and I’m one year clean. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I could live a life without substances but now I live a life beyond my wildest dreams. Don’t give up before the miracle happens. Your life matters and I believe in you. We do recover ❤

    • @1110karin
      @1110karin 4 місяці тому

      @@TheDalyShowSwag Congrats. How long to taper off?

    • @ThomasAtiya
      @ThomasAtiya 4 місяці тому +2

      Don’t give up! Do not fucking give up!

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

  • @zeemotionalsloth
    @zeemotionalsloth 5 місяців тому +25

    Mod and his music helped me get and stay sober 5 years earlier this month.

  • @nicolasmartinez51
    @nicolasmartinez51 4 місяці тому +25

    Literally the best song out right now

  • @Weareroses
    @Weareroses 5 місяців тому +20

    I relapsed during the pandemic and have been struggling with being sober for the last three years, one day I will win the fight again. Love this song

  • @ItsXBoog
    @ItsXBoog 5 місяців тому +272

    Drinking almost killed me I was diagnosed with necrotizing pancreatitis hospitalized for 5 months in a coma for 1 month 293 days sober today ❤️🤞🏽
    (Edit) the comments passed the vibe check 🥺🤟🏽

    • @brandirice4975
      @brandirice4975 5 місяців тому +4

      I hope you are still going strong 5 days later. So proud!

    • @ItsXBoog
      @ItsXBoog 4 місяці тому

      @@brandirice4975 one more day to 300🥳🥳🥳❤️❤️❤️

    • @aalidog13
      @aalidog13 4 місяці тому +1

      😂😂😂😂😂

    • @Bisnus-Goose
      @Bisnus-Goose 4 місяці тому +4

      I'll drink to that 🍻

    • @heatseeker_
      @heatseeker_ 4 місяці тому +3

      Keep loving that sober feeling. Congrats!

  • @egrey2005
    @egrey2005 4 місяці тому +10

    I have been clean for 10 years now, and this song makes me feel proud knowing that I didn't die from the multiple times I overdosed. I lost so many of my friends from drugs, some of them from the drugs they did some from the drugs I did. I love and miss all of them so very much. Life is truly better being sober and sometimes you do have to take it one day at a time. Thanks for an incredible song that helps me be proud to be clean!!

  • @Requena50
    @Requena50 4 місяці тому +7

    I’m playing ur music non stop on TikTok, Spotify, and UA-cam. Your style is impeccable.

  • @kelsiemartinez4042
    @kelsiemartinez4042 3 місяці тому +3

    This is the most emotional song I have ever heard. It's amazing. He is blessed. We're all blessed to hear it. ❤

  • @klissaadams
    @klissaadams 5 місяців тому +9

    Omg yesss. Ive been watching modsuns short with his verse over and over just prayyyiiinnnggg they made it into this!!!

  • @Astrolab.insights
    @Astrolab.insights 5 місяців тому +37

    Seriously can't get enough of this dude

  • @ashleyhibbard914
    @ashleyhibbard914 4 місяці тому +2

    I literally bawled. I will have 5 years sober in October. "I finally love myself more than I loved getting high" so much that.

  • @cjharris6753
    @cjharris6753 5 місяців тому +11

    I am only seconds in and already appreciate the vibrations of the bike matching your rasp. Soooooo good!

  • @lizzymoncrief1515
    @lizzymoncrief1515 5 місяців тому +13

    That line Mod
    It's how a lot of us in recovery feels! This song was already amazing then Mod did his thing. Good job boys 👏 out here saving lives ❤❤

  • @HoloMinds
    @HoloMinds 5 місяців тому +8

    The tears that fall down my face, are the memories that can't be replaced.

  • @SevenFunctionGaming
    @SevenFunctionGaming 5 місяців тому +14

    "I finally love myself the way I loved getting high" wow.. just, wow.

  • @ambereyedbabygirl
    @ambereyedbabygirl Місяць тому +5

    I said 11, but i have 13 days clean now! I was crying this song to myself as i lost my child and knew it was time. F*** fent! Lets show it who we are guys.

    • @kayblinky
      @kayblinky Місяць тому

      You GOT this!!! I’m almost to 6 years. We do recover!

  • @JuanitaAfzal
    @JuanitaAfzal 3 місяці тому +3

    This song will always make me cry, but I feel it deep inside. I lost my baby brother. And he was so amazing. Thank you for sharing your pain, and awareness. We can recover. But it’s never easy. You gotta love yourself more than your love getting high. ❤

  • @JustJen509
    @JustJen509 5 місяців тому +12

    1/31/2018 clean off meth. 2/10/2023 sober from alcohol. Have had hiccups along the way and lost my gallbladder and the bloodwork now looking scary but I would rather fight to live than just say fuck it. We do recover!!! ❤

    • @MassageSamurai1
      @MassageSamurai1 4 місяці тому +1

      Praying for you right now as I read your comment. You got this. Please do fight to live.

  • @lesbimendez3789
    @lesbimendez3789 2 місяці тому +4

    I love this song going through depression and anxiety and shit rn sometimes this song makes me bawl my eyes out for not loving myself

  • @mims_i_am
    @mims_i_am 5 місяців тому +7

    Lost my little sister a year ago to an overdose and life will never be the same without her here. #getbetter #youareloved

  • @tannerdzula-w1q
    @tannerdzula-w1q 4 місяці тому +7

    “I know that you hate me and I hate me too”
    This line hurts so much, because I know I’m pushing them to hate me and I hate me too.

  • @Sarah8561
    @Sarah8561 5 місяців тому +14

    I love Av, I’m so happy to see him comin up.

  • @anarchylolo420
    @anarchylolo420 5 місяців тому +12

    NO WAY!!!! Never thought somebody from my lil shit town would be making a remix with the ONE AND ONLY modsun!!!! Congrats man!❤

  • @cameronshaffer1592
    @cameronshaffer1592 5 місяців тому +76

    Holy shit . Damn man i got one month clean from fent . This helps so much

    • @MattWebz
      @MattWebz 5 місяців тому +3

      Keep it up homie.

    • @cameronshaffer1592
      @cameronshaffer1592 5 місяців тому +3

      ​@@MattWebzthank you bro 💜

    • @MattWebz
      @MattWebz 5 місяців тому

      @@cameronshaffer1592 ✊🏻 sobriety is a helluva drug

    • @MRGN99
      @MRGN99 5 місяців тому +2

      Keep it up! You’re doing great!

    • @xoautambxo89
      @xoautambxo89 5 місяців тому +1

      Congratulations! My mother in law is 13 years sober. You can cont to do this.

  • @meganrose2172
    @meganrose2172 4 місяці тому +28

    Almost to 8 years sober from heroin. This song hits home. Thank you for something so relatable. ❤

    • @louisfernandez873
      @louisfernandez873 4 місяці тому +1

      I got 3 years from that (h) and everything else. This song hits so hard.

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 4 місяці тому

      💚👏🏾

    • @taylorangel902
      @taylorangel902 4 місяці тому

      Comin up on 7 from the same thing! I’m proud of y’all 🫶🏻

  • @Whooooodat691
    @Whooooodat691 3 місяці тому +3

    Damn. I love this song ❤ I loved it before but that verse with Mod just hits different.

  • @inkmonster0u812
    @inkmonster0u812 3 місяці тому +2

    Best song in years. Best band in years. Listen to you eveey day, all day. Cant wait to see you in concert..Your music talks to alot of people from all walks of life..Much love. Great songs..

  • @gailgrant3209
    @gailgrant3209 5 місяців тому +5

    Once upon a time I only would be with guys who use. If we had to choose which to give up it wouldn’t be the dope. Got 10yrs and am happy for the first time. I’m 71yo. I researched for 45yr. I’m done but I’ll never say never. ❤️🌟💙 God luck to everyone trying to live their life in light.

  • @AliviaGhormley
    @AliviaGhormley 5 місяців тому +5

    This is so good 😭 I was obsessed with the first, but this is even better. Congrats 💜 I’ve been off pills for 12 years now, I stopped the day after I watched my mom OD and die. This song hits so close to home for me. Thank you 🙏

  • @katkajac
    @katkajac 2 місяці тому +13

    Six months sober, I still don’t love myself as I loved getting high but hope one day I will. I I just gonna keep going..

    • @cyndeeh
      @cyndeeh 2 місяці тому +1

      You'll get there!

    • @DianeEvans-hp6ui
      @DianeEvans-hp6ui Місяць тому +1

      Please keep going❤

    • @SallitaBonita
      @SallitaBonita Місяць тому +1

      You do u just don't know it yet ❤

    • @kayblinky
      @kayblinky Місяць тому

      You WILL get there, and it’s so wonderful.

  • @deccentric1993
    @deccentric1993 5 місяців тому +24

    Been waiting for this! What a GEM! 💎

    • @papismom
      @papismom 5 місяців тому +1

      Me too!!! Since I heard the others guys verse! I was hoping he'd see it!!! I love it!

  • @kattbentley5810
    @kattbentley5810 3 місяці тому +2

    Love this song so much!!! I found Modsun in my heroin addiction but my sober date is 12/12/2018 and I'm so blessed to be alive I overdosed at least 11 times but I have to say Modsun you seem so much happier than when I found you when you were with Bella Thorne and I'm so happy how far you've come
    "I finally love myself, like I loved getting high!!" That line rips into my heart and makes it bleed. I'm almost there, almost!!

  • @CassiePatrona
    @CassiePatrona 5 місяців тому +4

    We are watching this man av go places in real time. He deserves it!

  • @meganwenner8335
    @meganwenner8335 3 місяці тому +3

    Thank you for this song! I can listen over and over and over.

  • @ImAmerasian
    @ImAmerasian 3 місяці тому +4

    This hits hard! 💜 I’ve been replaying this all day!

    • @Millaan84
      @Millaan84 6 днів тому

      Right ❣️ I've played it all day in a week 😍

  • @stevensmith396
    @stevensmith396 4 місяці тому +5

    😭😭😭 I'm so happy for Mod Sun!!!
    We do recover!! And when I heard his cover I ugly cried. I made it out May 11th 2022

  • @SerenityByJill
    @SerenityByJill 5 місяців тому +4

    I’m posting on behalf of someone who lost their battle! I will listen, share and sing from the rooftops this song so others can hear! You’re helping so many people with your story! Thank you both! 🫶🏼🤍

  • @AlyssaDedman
    @AlyssaDedman 3 місяці тому +2

    Am i only one that cries when this song plays. This hits so hard. 4 years sober. I'm fuckin trying.

  • @williammorris3387
    @williammorris3387 5 місяців тому +11

    I watched mod suns freestyle so many times and the line I finally love myself like I loved getting high hits me way to hard both my parents were addicts and they actually started giving me weed and alcohol when I was 9 and I got addicted to a lot of drugs before I was even 16 I’m about to turn 20 I’ve been to rehab twice I was able to get sober off many things but I’m still batting my addiction I moved out and have a beautiful girlfriend that pushes me to be better everyday I thank god for not losing sight of me and keeping me safe all through my years of addiction recovery is possible I pray for every struggling with addiction ❤

    • @laralight8229
      @laralight8229 5 місяців тому

      Keep. Going.
      You can do it.
      🫶🏻

    • @griffinroberts6925
      @griffinroberts6925 5 місяців тому

      Keep going kid. Make your life worth living

  • @christinetrombly9207
    @christinetrombly9207 5 місяців тому +1

    I literally can’t stop listening. My dad is an alcoholic and my older sister is an addict… this song… I don’t even have words. 🥺❤️

  • @honeyb331978
    @honeyb331978 5 місяців тому +4

    Sitting here, listening over and over again...crying...this song hits the spots...💚🎶💔

    • @honeyb331978
      @honeyb331978 3 місяці тому

      Still here 💔 don't know what or how to just make it all stop!!!!!!

  • @imbettingimnot
    @imbettingimnot 5 місяців тому +2

    SO HAPPY YOU GUYS DID THIS. MODS VERSE WORKED SO WELL AND MADE THIS SONG EVEN BETTER, LOOK AT THIS EPIC BROMANCE TOO

  • @KimTulipFinlay
    @KimTulipFinlay 3 місяці тому +3

    On repeat this week!!!!

  • @jamesangst1985
    @jamesangst1985 4 місяці тому +2

    This is definitely my favorite version. God, I love this song. It definitely cuts deep.

  • @kozykbaby
    @kozykbaby 3 місяці тому +3

    0:44 'if only you loved me like you loved getting high' - 2:22 'i knew i couldnt live life like this anymore'
    wow. been on repeat for weeks now, i finally had to comment because everytime i hear these words i cry. i relate to every part. i got sober and its been almost 3 years - this is an amazing depiction of love and addiction. im from Minnesota and just moved to LA last year to finally start living. just graduated music school, saw the ocean for my first time, so many things i never thought id be able to accomplish because of my addiction. i commend you both. this song is beautiful, sad, tragic, motivating, inspiring, but most of all a very important story that needed to be heard.
    thank you ❤

    • @glennstarnes3744
      @glennstarnes3744 3 місяці тому

      Congratulations on your sobriety! Keep it up💪

  • @sandranorum6125
    @sandranorum6125 5 місяців тому +1

    YES! I was hoping this collab would happen! You guys are amazing! Love Mod Sun’s addition to an already amazing song ❤

  • @jadeune8258
    @jadeune8258 5 місяців тому +6

    My addiction was food 😭
    Binge eating and depression. I’ve listened to your song since it was on TikTok and it made me realize I’m overdosing myself and since then lost 30lbs with dieting.
    You are going to go far with your lyrics buddy congrats!

    • @baejay798
      @baejay798 5 місяців тому +2

      This is so true and I have similar struggles. Congratulations on your weight loss, keep loving yourself and you’ll get there. Down 10lbs and I have a million more to go.

    • @jadeune8258
      @jadeune8258 5 місяців тому +1

      @@baejay798 thank you so much! Congratulations on yours too!
      Keep it up! We are doing it for ourselves! If you ever need to talk I’m here for everyone going through it too!
      Much Aloha!

    • @lucasgreyhavoc
      @lucasgreyhavoc 5 місяців тому

      @@baejay798the first ten is the hardest. You’re doing amazing

  • @mgsBicycleO9
    @mgsBicycleO9 4 місяці тому +1

    This is the potential of authentic music... healing instead of numbing. Good stuff man.

  • @aubmichelle69
    @aubmichelle69 2 місяці тому +3

    Laying here crying. This hit the feelies

  • @smokestacks1191
    @smokestacks1191 5 місяців тому +2

    Love this version . Mods part hits home hard! Been sober 5 years since I almost died! We can get clean.

  • @samaracovarrubias7297
    @samaracovarrubias7297 5 місяців тому +5

    I LOVE THE WAY IT SOUNDS WHEN YOU SING I FINALLY LOVE MYSELF THE WAY I LOVED GETTING HIGH MOD! Showed this to my Mom and she cried. You both are such wonderful artists, thank you for this movie 🤍 xx

  • @LilDirt12
    @LilDirt12 4 місяці тому +1

    Oh my God... Honestav... Your song is like therapy for me. In one year 18 people that I was close to overdosed. In one year. So when your song comes on I crank it up on the Bose and I sing out loud with you. Tears flow and I feel what your feeling. It makes me thankful I've been strong enough not to try that drug. Watching everybody around me nodding, never finished a sentence pissed me off more than thinking I could be a hero and get 'em to stop. It hurts deep that they loved a drug more than... everything else. Good people too. So here I am. Left behind. I said it on the kroq interview... I hope your hanging on tight because you are going to be shot out into our stratosphere man!!! Your beats are so good and your lyrics are so real I feel like I wrote them. You deserve all the success in the world. Enjoy it. Live it up. And be thankful for your experiences because they gave you a voice that millions relate to. Love you so much. ❤❤❤ I'm putting you on a repeat loop. Your that good. L&R

  • @SmEiF-
    @SmEiF- 5 місяців тому +3

    Saved to my dopamine list along with the OG. Play it on repeat anyhow lol. Good shit my boy. Hope life gives ya all ya deserve. Ya song has been a saving grace in a dark time for me. Struggling hard to stay sober and alive. Mainly alive the sober part I have. But fkn A it's a struggle to find a reason to wake up daily.

  • @jenfehr6873
    @jenfehr6873 Місяць тому

    I'm so happy for both of you! There are so many versions and they're beautiful.

  • @honestreviewer4679
    @honestreviewer4679 2 місяці тому +4

    Damnnnnn right in the feels 😢❤

  • @lady_savage4232
    @lady_savage4232 4 місяці тому +1

    I just cried so hard. This was my life. Thank you for this video. Almost overdosed about a year ago. I was no drug addict just depressed.. my partner realized and was there after the incident

  • @antiperspirant
    @antiperspirant 5 місяців тому +25

    Both of y'all killed it!

  • @brittanypagliarulo7815
    @brittanypagliarulo7815 5 місяців тому +1

    I can’t wait to see what AV does with this talent he has. Music that speaks to the soul. Love this mix with Mod sun so much 🖤🙌🏻

  • @eloughman21785
    @eloughman21785 5 місяців тому +4

    I dedicate this to my brother in laws brother who accidentally od'd on Fentanyl. My bil was also using the same. Not even 1 year later my bil opted out of life. I love this song. Thank you

  • @Crazy_Beautiful01
    @Crazy_Beautiful01 2 місяці тому

    I met mod and honestav last night. We talked he signed the book he wrote. Told him bout the Jim Morrison room!! The impact that had. He hugged me and it was so sincere. He is the most beautiful human. We watched as he and this kid who had an issue with standing long and his dad was explaining some benefit. This beautiful man just listened and didn’t have his phone to take this kids dad’s number..so he gave a number out to be reached for this fund they had. We watched and just smiled at his beautiful soul. He is so down to earth. I had to be seated with my husband because I have MS and can’t stand long “ I didn’t tell him that. I wanted to be down rocking out. The venue was so well organized. He showed he seen us where we were seated next to stage. Showed his appreciation for Everyone.
    Lastly this guy has a voice and energy both my husband and I were blown away by. He was jumping and head banging and brought REAL energy and TALENT! The way he entertained the crowd!! I told him he should be selling out arenas. BEST concert we have been to! His voice with all that movement never seized to amaze me! He supported the bands he was with as he watched from above rocking out. REAL PLEASURE!! Can’t wait to see him with Huddy. I’d show pic but I’m embarrassed he’s too fine to be next too!!❤😂😊 DO NOT MISS AN OPPORTUNITY TO SEE MOD!! His sister is Beautiful soul!!

  • @indicamobster4111
    @indicamobster4111 4 місяці тому +6

    2:29 discipline shows me the way

  • @cblanchhiphop
    @cblanchhiphop 4 місяці тому +1

    Such a banger - mod sun killed it too. Glad you're both healthy and living life

  • @jesiharp
    @jesiharp 5 місяців тому +3

    Didn’t know I could live the song any more than I already did until you added Mod! 😍

  • @dannysnead3887
    @dannysnead3887 5 місяців тому +1

    Been watching you since the clips on tiktok of this. Makes me feel proud for you to get acknowledgment and this accomplishment. Keep goin Av, the sky is the limit. Great job. I love you guys. Inspirational and I just wanna say thank you. Mod I'm praying you find your peace again. Can't wait to see you in person again and on stage.

  • @thejournalsofawakening
    @thejournalsofawakening 4 місяці тому +4

    The hell YT. I loved this song.

  • @bobbiemarks6929
    @bobbiemarks6929 2 місяці тому

    I heard this song on my local radio in Jacksonville FL and I had to come and listen to your other music! This is by far one of my favorite songs. Your music has so much soul, I hope you start touring soon!!!

  • @TheDirtyKenzo
    @TheDirtyKenzo 4 місяці тому +5

    I can't let go.....of this fuckin song! My god gentlemen. 👏👏👏

  • @Talls321
    @Talls321 5 місяців тому +2

    Nothing is better than windows down, air guitar belting this song out with NO SHAME!!! Rejects rejoice our boys brought us a banger

  • @jimbob1496
    @jimbob1496 4 місяці тому +4

    This fentanyl powder is no joke. 2 days ago I overdosed. On barely enough to take a hit. If you have friends on this stuff save them even if you have to get uncomfortable. I luckily wasnt alone, thats not the reality for every addict. Life is too precious.

    • @scootchisme
      @scootchisme 3 місяці тому

      I really wasn't planning on commenting on this video, but your comment hit me. It's been a few weeks, hope you're still clean and doing ok...

  • @Menace2Society9
    @Menace2Society9 3 місяці тому +1

    Just found this channel and I'm digging the music. Has a great sound and talks about real life issues.

  • @kylemckinney6147
    @kylemckinney6147 5 місяців тому +4

    “It’s been 8 long months since you’ve been gone, I saw your kids at your funeral, it fucked me up and I thought: look what you left behind to chase a high, all those night I stayed up trying to save your life, I never thought you’d fucking die, so I wrote this song for you, I think you’d sing it loud if you were here, cause honest lyrics always made you proud, and I hope you get rest but I’m not dead yet, so while I’m still alive I gotta carry on”
    RIP Kayla Rose
    I might be bitter he chose mod sun, he did do a great song though.

  • @20block.Pologroundz
    @20block.Pologroundz 15 днів тому +1

    ’ve been diagnosed with acute leukemia, me and my wife were told I have 5 years too go, we went traveling for the weekend with my young daughter and the love of my life. we all sang this song while driving in the car..they both cried but since I’ve accepted my fate and hope that others who’s roads are coming to a end. lord has a plan, and I might have a higher calling or who knows I might have a testimony.

  • @patrickn8355
    @patrickn8355 4 місяці тому +12

    Went from 4+ years sober to 2+ years are hospital visits, police banging in my door and $700 ambulance rides, back to over a year sober ❤
    Congrats Mod, proud of you