Thank you for your videos AK, I’m a psychiatrist in Virginia and your videos helped me understand a lot of what they don’t teach us in medschool and training, the severity of the withdrawal symptoms and how it plays a huge rule if not the major one in relapse. Wishing you all the best in the journey of sobriety.
Saulute AK from Memphis TN Brotha I told ya it was possible bro!! Congratulations homie you are a beast my brotha and I am so happy for u and your family! Don’t forget these withdrawals u deal with even when U get so bored u start to think about it just remember the days u had to get up on a off day in the morning just to go get a fix while your daughter is home waiting on her Daddy! My hats off to you and any one else getting better! Remember the higher u fly the harder u fall!
Finally someone that speaks my language. I feel like everything you say is me looking in a mirror. I love pills, I love feeling and I never wanna quit but it’s killing me. It’s crazy how time flies when ur high also and when your sober it’s just a slow crawl and so FUCKING BORING
I miss your videos. Whether you are up or down. In or out. I'd love to see another video because you always testify facts. You are real with it. Real as to why we don't want to quit, why it's hard and why we should stay clean. I'd love to see another video. All the love, bro.
Jason from England 15 yrs clean but still in my head bro so proud of you keep it up love ur UA-cam videos can u make more ur fantasic u remind me of me when u was there
I’m so deeply saddened by the story of your loss. I know those brave good people who struggled through life are in a much better place now. In the hands of their maker. Thank you so much for sharing Blue angel. This channel this space is where you will always be welcome. If you ever feel like u wanna talk or vent about this or about anything else plz don’t ever hesitate. This is the main reason I created this channel, so that no one out there is alone or feels alone.
Great video bro. I came here right after the live cutout. I’m proud of you bro, and it was great to have someone go go through this with, even if they are across the world. It’s all the same. We will prevail! Cheers to boring nights, but better mornings. Not waking up sick! Peace bro. I’ll catch you on the lives.
Hey buddy hope your well can't believe it I've been clean for months relapsed Sunday body back was in so much pain was only way to get some relief now there's no pain well at least for now I've got to get off again by end of this week really hope your hanging 8n there bro it's so tough to do..
Glad you’re doing good, brother 👍Keep up the good work. You’re doing much better than I could. I hope you can keep doing what you gotta do. Listen to some Deftones for me and take care of yourself!!! Peace, -Nick
The cravings suck for about 8 months man… but once I got over a year off H I stopped thinking about it completely, no dreams, not even cravings around tin foil. It’ll get better, justify stick with it man.
How’s it going man? Haven’t heard from you in a while, give us a update! If your not clean it’s ok bro. I’m on the same page but much more positive now.
Me and my significant other have been wanting to quit for too many. We now have several subs to make it happen. This weekend hopefully we succeed this time.
@@ianmangham4570 I am good thanks. I did 5 months with nothing and my brain just did not recover. Not on methadone at a low dose and much happier. I spent 5 months in bed/housebound.
@@toohardz I am now on methadone (50ml) after being ill for 5 months with PAWS. I just dropped to 45ml and plan to go down 5ml a week to 35 and then 1ml a week to the end. So much better than subs for me.
hey brother hope your doing well im free and clean now after a hell of an ordeal hostage situation etc but alls good in my world hope your hanging in there bro....
8 days clean and trying hard to keep going. I have been following you for quite sometime and your videos have helped me big time. Hope and pray I don't relapse ever again. Cheers bro. Sending you love and hugs from India 🇮🇳
@@toohardz hey man I'm doing great and good to hear from you. I've been staying clean since last 7 months and really hoping and praying that I'll continue to keep going the same. How have you been and how's your family?
I hope you aer hanging in there, man. I got on suboxone and have been clean for almost 8 months now off of dope/fent. I kept relapsing until I finally get put on subs. Hope you are doing OK out there man.
Was thinking the same thing. We got clean together a year ago, and both relapsed around the same time over the summer. I was talking to him in September, cause we were starting again, and after 2 days, I couldn’t get a hold of him. He hasn’t responded since.
@@sidepocket7 Shit. I hope he's OK. I found him just as I was starting to sober up.. Got on suboxone and have been clean ever since aside from 2 small relapses. Maybe he got better and is distancing himself from YT.
Someone on a different video of his says they haven't heard from him since late September & that his phone appears to be disconnected. Before he disappeared he had been clean for two days and was really struggling. I really hope he's just locked up or something and he's not dead. I'm so worried & just want him to get better.
Hey Jay, missed u like hell girl. I’m sorry I worried u, but I went to rehab. I’ll tell u all about it later for sure. But I’m back now I’m clean n all. Let me know how you’ve been. I can’t access my old snap so I made a new one varg_vikernes6
Blessings man my day one today and I’ve done this 3 times already in 3 yrs after severe back surgery no warning or heads up from my doctor after telling me he can’t fill my prescription a year in from the surgery and here I am fighting to get my life back
You responded to a previous comment I made on this video about six months ago, and it meant so much to me. You're such a kind & wonderful person & I really do hope you're ok, I've been worried & wondering when or if you will come back. If you relapsed it's ok. No one's going to be mad at or disappointed in you, and we will always support you. ❤
I appreciate your kind words. I put a smile on my face. I’m okay I came back a month ago just couldn’t access my UA-cam account but I’m back now. Hope you’re doing okay
I'm quitting from today with the help of burprenorphine.. Your videos helped me through a lot. I have relapse once and im willing to stay clean from today and i hope your doing good 👍
Hey bro how you been long time no talk, I’m on day 220 clean without percocets. 7 months and 8 days to be exact, I hope you’re going good man reach out to me or post a update video! Even if you relapsed again its okay we just wanna hear from ya
@@ShawnTylerMusic hey man that’s great hang in there you will just regret it again if you relapse and have to go through those withdrawals again the mental game is the toughest prove to yourself that you are strong and you can be sober
Hey my man I’m about to quit🥲🥲🥲🤮 I did my last hit earlier and plan on taking a subutex after 24 hrs but only for the first 3 days then complete cold turkey. Do you have an opinion and or what do you think about the Subutex for 3 days? I do not want and will not let myself become attached to that after. Thanks man and yeah I am one one who doesn’t have a person their to talk to while I battle this out. Also what day do you think was the worst? Thanks brother!
Yess those meds worked. Mostly by putting me to sleep for long hours until ur out of the woods. Just a pill of each in the morning and a pill of each at night. But gabapentin and painkillers are taken 3 times a day or as needed
@@toohardz thanks for replying. Do you have this list of OTCs posted somewhere, if you please. I would greatly appreciate it!!! Have a badass day. Hope you're still kicking ass
@@chainsawbarbarian yess sure thing. in one of my videos I have shared the meds and a pic of the actual prescription as well as names I think in the comments Or the description
@@toohardz thanks, Dude. I'll seek UT out. I Am really getting this feeling lately that the only ay out of this predicament is having to die. That's very odd for me to think like this. Take it easy man
Good for you .I found your video asking about the chills . But I don't have restless leg . I can still eat . The only way I think I've been able to move around alot is a bunch of over the counter and a 200 mg caffeine pills . It's not comfortable but doable
Keep up the good work, keep that will strong❤️Continue to love yourself and give yourself good things ~ You deserve it. Thank you for sharing your struggle.
I'm starting today, homie. I'm fucking scared. But I want it this time....genuinely want it...I've got xanax and some weed arriving in the mail today to weather the storm. I'm so fucking proud of you, bro I remember following you back when you started and you've always inspired me. I'll be coming back to your channel to re-watch some stuff in my low points this week and I'll listen good and try my fucking hardest. Much love
I just turned 16 I’m on fentanyl I hate these withdrawals so bad I feel so bad I wanna die and it’s so scary I don’t know what to do I try’s suboxone I tryd so hard to stay clean but I feel I’m so close to kicking it
@@didwmbasumatary5012 don’t say that, you haven’t lost, you were just beaten for 1 round. And you still have a ton of other rounds to turn this fight around and come out on top. As long as deep down the fight is in you and u sincerely want to quit and you’re finding ways to try n get clean, you haven’t lost! You’re just temporarily down on 1 knee that’s all. Chin up my brother, I have faith in you. You can get this done.
I’m genuinely glad I did. If u need to talk or need any advice about anything I’m always here for ya. And for anyone who sincerely wants out n want to get n stay clean. You know how to reach me yea?
@@toohardz How do we reach you AK ? I'm trying to quit after hitting a devastating rock bottom I'm so ashamed at what situation had to happen for me to realise I needed to quit doing what I was doing, I hope I can stick to weed. I am glad you like In Flames and metal, and even more glad to see you in the comments recently means you're still around. Take care. As
@@suzannaheike2302 just reach out to me on snapchat if you can. Varg_vikernes I hope youre okay. I'll help or support you any way i can. you are not alone in this
I’m not addicted to heroin homie… I was gone on benzos. I just wanted to say what’s up. There’s millions of us. I’m 59 days today, I’m still going through it. Keep it up bro
Way to go Tino! I saw people withdrawing from benzos and it aint a walk on the park either. So 59 days is a heck of a milestone. Hope you’re still clean n still fighting.
What is it like when you wake up in the morning? is it like a different life? I forgot what its like to be normal i dont even know if it's worth it, how do you feel?
sorry i made this comment before i finished the video, thankyou for all the words, i have nobody who understands and am just seeking people who have done it i suppose. well done man..
@@toohardz I've been constantly relapsing every single day since I initiallt relapsed 2 weeks ago. It went so fast and it completely has me in it's grips again. Good thing is I've been reconnecting with some buddies and explaining them the problems that I created for myself, they are coaxing me into coming to the gym everyday and really raising that pressure to quit. Tomorrow I dont wanna wake up and re-up.
If you're on Suboxone or methadone, you're not clean. That stuff is ok to get life a little more stable, esp finances.... but you're not sober on that stuff. You're just not high. The physical agony of withdrawals... that bill still must be paid. And there's no way around it. It's every opioid addicts biggest fear. If you're truly truly clean, then congrats! That's the hard way, and why it's got the best reward.
Heads off to you bro.. cravings will last forever but u need to b strong until it looses n says AK u won n i(cravings) loose...n abt d job ..don't worry ur on GOD'S path now..it's a test fr u now bro..GOD didn't quit on u or u wudnt hve woke up anymore in the morning....ders a GOD'S plan fr u .trust me..u wil do hve a best life best job den u had b4..just hve patience..m sure GOD'S have plan sumtin best fr u..but plßssssßssss bro dnt go back to dat stuff...plsssssß bro m begging u..ur lukin very gud now..ur recovering very fast...again m sayin no matter how crave u have plssß dnt touch it again by just thinking m clean fr all dese days let's just take it last fr today it won't matter if I do it only once..Cuz dats wat is heroin abt..once u go back only once u'll get stuck again n u will regret everyday of ur life..n all ur sacrifices will b waste for nothing..so plssss bro don't just dnt think abt it try to get busy on sumtin like be wit ur wife kids family good environment etcetc..trust me u r reaching ur goal...c he different it is now comparing to heroin days life...so plssss bro..if u touch it again m never gonna talk reply or chat with you ever again...
You need to surround yourself with people that are clean.. early on .. some kind of outside help NAA Church whatever it takes. AA.. your odds of stain cleaner slim to none without it.. find my own personal experience I wish you the best..
@@Cymduu hey, I’m coming up on 3 months clean and looking for job rn. Been eating healthier and exercising. My parents been helping but I jus feel bad . But staying positive
Sure thing. That would really be a life saver right about now. I’m working 2 jobs, 16 hours a day n still can’t make ends meet. Seriously some days I just think about ending it all. Can’t cTch a break no matter what I do or how hard I try
]Cis ofC[ notice the sky turns a darker shade of blue!look in to it! that is eternal energy!for us!the life! ]Cis ofC[ Creator created all,and free doesn't matter the color!the God decived the whole world!
we need a live bro really really hope and pray you are still hanging in with us..
Yea man I’m here, still alive n still clean. Missed u brave. I’ll be back doing lives soon. Maybe even later tonight. Much love ❤️
Thank you for your videos AK, I’m a psychiatrist in Virginia and your videos helped me understand a lot of what they don’t teach us in medschool and training, the severity of the withdrawal symptoms and how it plays a huge rule if not the major one in relapse. Wishing you all the best in the journey of sobriety.
Glad I could help any way I can brother
Saulute AK from Memphis TN Brotha I told ya it was possible bro!! Congratulations homie you are a beast my brotha and I am so happy for u and your family! Don’t forget these withdrawals u deal with even when U get so bored u start to think about it just remember the days u had to get up on a off day in the morning just to go get a fix while your daughter is home waiting on her Daddy! My hats off to you and any one else getting better! Remember the higher u fly the harder u fall!
Finally someone that speaks my language. I feel like everything you say is me looking in a mirror. I love pills, I love feeling and I never wanna quit but it’s killing me. It’s crazy how time flies when ur high also and when your sober it’s just a slow crawl and so FUCKING BORING
This‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ My exact sentiments!!
I miss your videos. Whether you are up or down. In or out. I'd love to see another video because you always testify facts. You are real with it. Real as to why we don't want to quit, why it's hard and why we should stay clean. I'd love to see another video.
All the love, bro.
Jason from England 15 yrs clean but still in my head bro so proud of you keep it up love ur UA-cam videos can u make more ur fantasic u remind me of me when u was there
hi i hope youre still doing well
I’m so deeply saddened by the story of your loss. I know those brave good people who struggled through life are in a much better place now. In the hands of their maker. Thank you so much for sharing Blue angel. This channel this space is where you will always be welcome. If you ever feel like u wanna talk or vent about this or about anything else plz don’t ever hesitate. This is the main reason I created this channel, so that no one out there is alone or feels alone.
@@toohardz thank you so much❤️ i appreciate your kindness
Man. U alright? Even if you relapsed, nobody is gonna judge and if they will they are not good hearted people. Pls upload smth
He's ok. He can't access his YT right now but he's good
Spot on man. I love your message. Feeling is soo much better than being numb to life. Hope you are doing well!!! Thanks for being you!
Great video bro. I came here right after the live cutout. I’m proud of you bro, and it was great to have someone go go through this with, even if they are across the world. It’s all the same. We will prevail! Cheers to boring nights, but better mornings. Not waking up sick! Peace bro. I’ll catch you on the lives.
Sidepocket7 hope you are well my friend
@@hankowitz sup hank. Doing good my man. How are you doing? You have any idea how Kadi is doing?
come on man where you at brther
Hey where are you? Haven't heard from you in a couple of months
hey bro hope your ok missed you going live earlier on would be good to see you live again bro have a catch up ...hang in there kadi..
Hey buddy hope your well can't believe it I've been clean for months relapsed Sunday body back was in so much pain was only way to get some relief now there's no pain well at least for now I've got to get off again by end of this week really hope your hanging 8n there bro it's so tough to do..
Congrats on your sobriety. Best wishes for your health and your families well being from Ohio ✌️👏
Glad you’re doing good, brother 👍Keep up the good work. You’re doing much better than I could. I hope you can keep doing what you gotta do. Listen to some Deftones for me and take care of yourself!!! Peace,
-Nick
What a journey dude, something sure to happen for you soon bro top guy
Hey how are you? Hope you’re still clean and if you relapsed it’s ok bro. Just come back on and talk about it. Get back to us.
You look and sound healthier. Keep up the good work and keep your head up buddy
Just stumbled upon your page. Hope your doing well!
Well done keep up ,,I've got to day four only getting better now 👊
Thank you AK
The cravings suck for about 8 months man… but once I got over a year off H I stopped thinking about it completely, no dreams, not even cravings around tin foil. It’ll get better, justify stick with it man.
so proud of you!! i’ll be continuing following.
How’s it going man? Haven’t heard from you in a while, give us a update! If your not clean it’s ok bro. I’m on the same page but much more positive now.
I’m clean bro, 11 months now
@@toohardz make a video!
Buzzing for ya mate!
I'm on day 90!
We got this!
Wow Ryan! That is quite the achievement right there! Congrats man on 3 months of that crap. I hope you’re still going strong
Bro this channel really helps some of us bro please do a live stream or post something please man
I’ll be back I promise u terry. And I’m sooo sorry I’ve been gone, but I’ve been dealing with a lot of family, work and financial problems.
Me and my significant other have been wanting to quit for too many. We now have several subs to make it happen. This weekend hopefully we succeed this time.
how you doing? I am coming off subs and am still sick 12 days after my last dose. What a joke. I am going to push through. Thanks for the video.
Did you make it ,hope you're OK 👌
@@ianmangham4570 I am good thanks. I did 5 months with nothing and my brain just did not recover. Not on methadone at a low dose and much happier. I spent 5 months in bed/housebound.
How u doing now?
@@toohardz I am now on methadone (50ml) after being ill for 5 months with PAWS. I just dropped to 45ml and plan to go down 5ml a week to 35 and then 1ml a week to the end. So much better than subs for me.
hey brother hope your doing well im free and clean now after a hell of an ordeal hostage situation etc but alls good in my world hope your hanging in there bro....
8 days clean and trying hard to keep going. I have been following you for quite sometime and your videos have helped me big time. Hope and pray I don't relapse ever again. Cheers bro. Sending you love and hugs from India 🇮🇳
Yo frankieeee! How you been? Did u do it that time? Lemme know what’s up… hope you’re doing well either way.
@@toohardz hey man I'm doing great and good to hear from you. I've been staying clean since last 7 months and really hoping and praying that I'll continue to keep going the same. How have you been and how's your family?
I hope you aer hanging in there, man. I got on suboxone and have been clean for almost 8 months now off of dope/fent. I kept relapsing until I finally get put on subs. Hope you are doing OK out there man.
where are you bro..
Right here brother 👊🏻❤️
So worried about you. If someone knows where he is, plz respond.
Was thinking the same thing. We got clean together a year ago, and both relapsed around the same time over the summer. I was talking to him in September, cause we were starting again, and after 2 days, I couldn’t get a hold of him. He hasn’t responded since.
@@sidepocket7 Shit. I hope he's OK. I found him just as I was starting to sober up.. Got on suboxone and have been clean ever since aside from 2 small relapses. Maybe he got better and is distancing himself from YT.
Someone on a different video of his says they haven't heard from him since late September & that his phone appears to be disconnected. Before he disappeared he had been clean for two days and was really struggling. I really hope he's just locked up or something and he's not dead. I'm so worried & just want him to get better.
@@sidepocket7same... last time I spoke to him on snap. Still nothing?
Hey Jay, missed u like hell girl. I’m sorry I worried u, but I went to rehab. I’ll tell u all about it later for sure. But I’m back now I’m clean n all. Let me know how you’ve been. I can’t access my old snap so I made a new one varg_vikernes6
Blessings man my day one today and I’ve done this 3 times already in 3 yrs after severe back surgery no warning or heads up from my doctor after telling me he can’t fill my prescription a year in from the surgery and here I am fighting to get my life back
You’re strong Jason you can do it. I promise u. If I can do it so can u. Tell me what happened? How is it going now? Did U manage to get clean?
Kadi, my bro what’s up man. Haven’t caught you on a live since last Friday man. Been thinking about you. Hope all is well. Lemme know
Hey love praying for you. You got this. ❤️
Congratulations! I ❤️ your videos. So, real & humble. You're awesome & u got this! 🙏
Thank u so much for your awesome words. Much love to u 😘
You responded to a previous comment I made on this video about six months ago, and it meant so much to me. You're such a kind & wonderful person & I really do hope you're ok, I've been worried & wondering when or if you will come back. If you relapsed it's ok. No one's going to be mad at or disappointed in you, and we will always support you. ❤
He's ok. He can't access his channel
I appreciate your kind words. I put a smile on my face. I’m okay I came back a month ago just couldn’t access my UA-cam account but I’m back now. Hope you’re doing okay
I'm quitting from today with the help of burprenorphine.. Your videos helped me through a lot. I have relapse once and im willing to stay clean from today and i hope your doing good 👍
How u doing now? Still clean or still trying? Either way check in let me know ur okay. Appreciate the kind words glad I could help any way I can
Don't stay on burp for to long withdrawal are longer and worse then dope
@@Kelly-qv3wg burp? What’s that?
Yo Bro so proud of you man, 😉✌️😎I spoke to you before on live at the beginning very happy for ya Bro honest let God into ya heart now bro 😉
Well done man. I know you will be a fragile thing right about now, but you have achieved so much
Thank u brother
Proud of you bro, if you can do that you can conquer anything in life. Keep pushing, fuck heroin.
Congratulations! Is there anyway to reach you?
Sure thing. Just add me on Snapchat or Instagram if u got it and we can talk on there.
Hey bro how you been long time no talk, I’m on day 220 clean without percocets. 7 months and 8 days to be exact, I hope you’re going good man reach out to me or post a update video! Even if you relapsed again its okay we just wanna hear from ya
I’m on day 4. It’s brutal. The anxiety and insomnia are killing me. Glad you’re doing well!
@@ShawnTylerMusic hey man that’s great hang in there you will just regret it again if you relapse and have to go through those withdrawals again the mental game is the toughest prove to yourself that you are strong and you can be sober
@@sadmirmurtic7748 absolutely. The insomnia is probably the worst. Hoping that changes soon. I appreciate you responding man.
@@ShawnTylerMusic I recommend taking NyQuil to help sleep until your body gets back to normal, and no problem man I’m always here to help
Sadmir congrats my friend. That’s fkn great! Haven’t heard from Kadi for a while, but hope you are still crushing it. 👊🏼
Hey my man I’m about to quit🥲🥲🥲🤮 I did my last hit earlier and plan on taking a subutex after 24 hrs but only for the first 3 days then complete cold turkey. Do you have an opinion and or what do you think about the Subutex for 3 days? I do not want and will not let myself become attached to that after. Thanks man and yeah I am one one who doesn’t have a person their to talk to while I battle this out. Also what day do you think was the worst? Thanks brother!
How did it go? Did u manage to stay clean? Check in lemme know how ur doing?
Just relapsed after 2 days off homeless ina tent this shit is rough I wanna stop so bad but sitting here throwing up can't sit still etc I need help
Are u okay? Check in please if u can
Broooooooooooooo where have you gone
Think he relapsed? I know when he’s gone for a while it’s usually something bad. Let’s wait and see... I hope he’s still clean though
CV has been here for the whole entire thing. He’s part of what I call ‘first 9’. You know me all too well brother
@@toohardz yessir I feel like I know you now lol. How’s it going though? Give us a update, good or bad we are here for you brother.
70 days clean here, man. Though I'm on suboxone to help and going to NA/AA meetings. Glad you are ditching that dirt, keep it up!
Are you off Suboxone now?
Any updates?? This was 2 months ago. Just started following u yesterday
Still fighting the good fight. Hbu?
I need out of this now. You mentioned a list of prescriptions a Dr gave you to help. Did it help? What were those measurements please and thanks?
Yess those meds worked. Mostly by putting me to sleep for long hours until ur out of the woods. Just a pill of each in the morning and a pill of each at night. But gabapentin and painkillers are taken 3 times a day or as needed
@@toohardz thanks for replying. Do you have this list of OTCs posted somewhere, if you please. I would greatly appreciate it!!! Have a badass day. Hope you're still kicking ass
@@chainsawbarbarian yess sure thing. in one of my videos I have shared the meds and a pic of the actual prescription as well as names I think in the comments Or the description
@@toohardz thanks, Dude. I'll seek UT out. I Am really getting this feeling lately that the only ay out of this predicament is having to die. That's very odd for me to think like this.
Take it easy man
What meds to take..
I made a new video with what to take
Looking good bro! Stay strong 💪 praying for you.
Good for you .I found your video asking about the chills . But I don't have restless leg . I can still eat . The only way I think I've been able to move around alot is a bunch of over the counter and a 200 mg caffeine pills . It's not comfortable but doable
Calcium/Magnesium pills are supposed to help with chills, restless legs and muscle cramps. That's what alot of rehabs give. Best luck ❤️
Congrats! Keep going
Appreciate you 👊🏻❤️
You got this! 🌹
Thanks Jenny ❤️ I did it n got clean finally
Whats the best meds you use to get off? And stop the cravings.. if there's anything to help tht?
Gabapentin or pregabalin/ Xanax/ pain killers n sleep meds
What happened bro, u doing okay?
Yea man I’m alright. Not dead yet 😂 and I’m clean now.
@@toohardz brooo I’m so happy to see you comment back, I always wonder about u everyday! We need a new vid from you soon!
Please help me !!!!
Omg im drink out of a Harley davidson coffie mug right now
Keep up the good work, keep that will strong❤️Continue to love yourself and give yourself good things ~ You deserve it.
Thank you for sharing your struggle.
Thank u for being there and for the kind words of encouragement. I appreciate you
What helped you get through your withdrawal symptoms?
That time meds and Xanax. This time rehab tbh
You got this
I'm starting today, homie. I'm fucking scared. But I want it this time....genuinely want it...I've got xanax and some weed arriving in the mail today to weather the storm.
I'm so fucking proud of you, bro I remember following you back when you started and you've always inspired me. I'll be coming back to your channel to re-watch some stuff in my low points this week and I'll listen good and try my fucking hardest.
Much love
Hey Jamie, it’s been so long. How u doing now? Update me when u can
I just turned 16 I’m on fentanyl I hate these withdrawals so bad I feel so bad I wanna die and it’s so scary I don’t know what to do I try’s suboxone I tryd so hard to stay clean but I feel I’m so close to kicking it
Hope you’re doing okay
It's my day 1
Wish me luck
You are truly inspiring dude
I wish i could make it, i canonly wish
So how was it? What happened with your withdrawals? Did u get clean and stay clean?
@@toohardz I lost brother
@@didwmbasumatary5012 don’t say that, you haven’t lost, you were just beaten for 1 round. And you still have a ton of other rounds to turn this fight around and come out on top. As long as deep down the fight is in you and u sincerely want to quit and you’re finding ways to try n get clean, you haven’t lost! You’re just temporarily down on 1 knee that’s all. Chin up my brother, I have faith in you. You can get this done.
@@toohardz hope everything will be fine like before
Thank you for your words
hope your still free like an EAGLE!
Yesss! Free n clean almost 12 months now
NOTHING will.go south!! Everything is going NORTH from now on!! 48 days is HUGE!! HUGE!!
Thank you Roberta 🙏🏻 I’m now thankfully 1 year 21 days clean ❤️❤️
You look good brother ❤️ Hope your well currently.
I’m much better babes, thanks for caring to ask I swear. I’m all clean now. Much love to ya
Im in week three but my body is nroken and I am so tired I could die.
Week 3 quitting what?
A k you made me happy with this update I'm serious
Dang this shit hard as hell
I’m on day 3 now really inspired me bro 💯❤️
I’m genuinely glad I did. If u need to talk or need any advice about anything I’m always here for ya. And for anyone who sincerely wants out n want to get n stay clean. You know how to reach me yea?
@@toohardz How do we reach you AK ? I'm trying to quit after hitting a devastating rock bottom I'm so ashamed at what situation had to happen for me to realise I needed to quit doing what I was doing, I hope I can stick to weed. I am glad you like In Flames and metal, and even more glad to see you in the comments recently means you're still around. Take care. As
@@suzannaheike2302 just reach out to me on snapchat if you can. Varg_vikernes
I hope youre okay. I'll help or support you any way i can. you are not alone in this
Still sober?
Yup
Idk you but I’m So proud of you🖤
I appreciate you Karii 🤘🏻
I don’t have Instagram or Snapchat is there another way I could talk to you?
Telegram or WhatsApp
Hey today is Day 1 any advice for me
Sorry I wasn’t there when u needed advice but I’m here now. Did u manage to stay clean?
@@toohardz Nah brother I am planning to make it Day 1 today
And I messed up again. Somehow I managed from my friend for a fix and ended up breaking a streak of 15 hours heroin free.
@@naksalia06 so where u at now? Did u start again?
I’m not addicted to heroin homie… I was gone on benzos. I just wanted to say what’s up. There’s millions of us. I’m 59 days today, I’m still going through it. Keep it up bro
Way to go Tino! I saw people withdrawing from benzos and it aint a walk on the park either. So 59 days is a heck of a milestone. Hope you’re still clean n still fighting.
@@toohardz Hell yeah! I’m on day like 130 or some shit. I don’t count as much anymore 😁 hope all is well with you
What is it like when you wake up in the morning? is it like a different life? I forgot what its like to be normal i dont even know if it's worth it, how do you feel?
sorry i made this comment before i finished the video, thankyou for all the words, i have nobody who understands and am just seeking people who have done it i suppose.
well done man..
@@B455PL4Y3R It'll be the best choice in your life, good luck in your journey mate
Keep it up my man
You sound so much more masculine when you're clean!
Nice you make it.....
I’m so FUCKINGGGG proud of you
Thank u 🙏🏻 soo much for saying that bunny
Ahhh the withdrawals from cold turkey just makes it worse. U didn’t start with a 20 bag a day habit ur first day. It’s gradual. U come off gradual
Pretty hard sell. "Sobriety sucks. Do it."
How u doin brodi?
Hey Omar, how are u broski? How have u been?
@@toohardz I've been constantly relapsing every single day since I initiallt relapsed 2 weeks ago. It went so fast and it completely has me in it's grips again. Good thing is I've been reconnecting with some buddies and explaining them the problems that I created for myself, they are coaxing me into coming to the gym everyday and really raising that pressure to quit. Tomorrow I dont wanna wake up and re-up.
Dude hell yeah I’m coming up on 48 hours off 20mg methadone. Using benzos sometimes to help and weed. I got this I know it
An yea people do need meds like benzos and gabapentin and cannabis zopicloe. Your body needs it to balance out
How u doing now? Still clean?
Love the video 💕
I need help bro
I’m right here with you. What’s going on? What do u need help with bro?
@@toohardz bro I go 2-3 days and I relapse all the time it's so hard and am going to the extremes now to score bro
@@toohardz I have no meds to help what should I do
@user-ug9tb2xg2j well can u get some pregabalin300mg or gabapentin 400mg? Or tegretol 200mg?
Staying and from
good shit bro
SO PROUD MAN
Damn bro your a through cat homie
If you're on Suboxone or methadone, you're not clean. That stuff is ok to get life a little more stable, esp finances.... but you're not sober on that stuff. You're just not high. The physical agony of withdrawals... that bill still must be paid. And there's no way around it. It's every opioid addicts biggest fear.
If you're truly truly clean, then congrats! That's the hard way, and why it's got the best reward.
So what ? Who cares if he's on meds ?
@@ianmangham4570 Nobody cares. But it seems you do.
@@mickobrien3156 Donkey smell
It is I’m glad n thankful I got clean
Heads off to you bro.. cravings will last forever but u need to b strong until it looses n says AK u won n i(cravings) loose...n abt d job ..don't worry ur on GOD'S path now..it's a test fr u now bro..GOD didn't quit on u or u wudnt hve woke up anymore in the morning....ders a GOD'S plan fr u .trust me..u wil do hve a best life best job den u had b4..just hve patience..m sure GOD'S have plan sumtin best fr u..but plßssssßssss bro dnt go back to dat stuff...plsssssß bro m begging u..ur lukin very gud now..ur recovering very fast...again m sayin no matter how crave u have plssß dnt touch it again by just thinking m clean fr all dese days let's just take it last fr today it won't matter if I do it only once..Cuz dats wat is heroin abt..once u go back only once u'll get stuck again n u will regret everyday of ur life..n all ur sacrifices will b waste for nothing..so plssss bro don't just dnt think abt it try to get busy on sumtin like be wit ur wife kids family good environment etcetc..trust me u r reaching ur goal...c he different it is now comparing to heroin days life...so plssss bro..if u touch it again m never gonna talk reply or chat with you ever again...
Looking better, you could be saving a lot more life's from making the videos Thanks ❗
You need to surround yourself with people that are clean.. early on .. some kind of outside help NAA Church whatever it takes. AA.. your odds of stain cleaner slim to none without it.. find my own personal experience I wish you the best..
I will give you 3000 dollar But you must take medicine from that money
Ok brother?
That would be nice. I’m getting clean to and need help to
@@Cymduu hey, I’m coming up on 3 months clean and looking for job rn. Been eating healthier and exercising. My parents been helping but I jus feel bad . But staying positive
Sure thing. That would really be a life saver right about now. I’m working 2 jobs, 16 hours a day n still can’t make ends meet. Seriously some days I just think about ending it all. Can’t cTch a break no matter what I do or how hard I try
You look so cool, get sme weed wax. Man
Man pick up jiu jitsu or a martial art, will help you
I used to train mma religiously for years, but then that bitch gradually took over everything I loved and replaced it
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