Life after heroin - 48 days clean

Поділитися
Вставка
  • Опубліковано 4 січ 2025

КОМЕНТАРІ • 230

  • @braveheart576
    @braveheart576 Рік тому +11

    we need a live bro really really hope and pray you are still hanging in with us..

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому +1

      Yea man I’m here, still alive n still clean. Missed u brave. I’ll be back doing lives soon. Maybe even later tonight. Much love ❤️

  • @kareemseoudy
    @kareemseoudy Рік тому +5

    Thank you for your videos AK, I’m a psychiatrist in Virginia and your videos helped me understand a lot of what they don’t teach us in medschool and training, the severity of the withdrawal symptoms and how it plays a huge rule if not the major one in relapse. Wishing you all the best in the journey of sobriety.

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Glad I could help any way I can brother

  • @Kujo19
    @Kujo19 2 роки тому +10

    Saulute AK from Memphis TN Brotha I told ya it was possible bro!! Congratulations homie you are a beast my brotha and I am so happy for u and your family! Don’t forget these withdrawals u deal with even when U get so bored u start to think about it just remember the days u had to get up on a off day in the morning just to go get a fix while your daughter is home waiting on her Daddy! My hats off to you and any one else getting better! Remember the higher u fly the harder u fall!

  • @scratchyboy_gaming
    @scratchyboy_gaming Рік тому +2

    Finally someone that speaks my language. I feel like everything you say is me looking in a mirror. I love pills, I love feeling and I never wanna quit but it’s killing me. It’s crazy how time flies when ur high also and when your sober it’s just a slow crawl and so FUCKING BORING

  • @karenwilson9528
    @karenwilson9528 Рік тому +1

    I miss your videos. Whether you are up or down. In or out. I'd love to see another video because you always testify facts. You are real with it. Real as to why we don't want to quit, why it's hard and why we should stay clean. I'd love to see another video.
    All the love, bro.

  • @jasontomkinson2409
    @jasontomkinson2409 2 роки тому +1

    Jason from England 15 yrs clean but still in my head bro so proud of you keep it up love ur UA-cam videos can u make more ur fantasic u remind me of me when u was there

  • @derblaueengel
    @derblaueengel 2 роки тому +5

    hi i hope youre still doing well

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +5

      I’m so deeply saddened by the story of your loss. I know those brave good people who struggled through life are in a much better place now. In the hands of their maker. Thank you so much for sharing Blue angel. This channel this space is where you will always be welcome. If you ever feel like u wanna talk or vent about this or about anything else plz don’t ever hesitate. This is the main reason I created this channel, so that no one out there is alone or feels alone.

    • @derblaueengel
      @derblaueengel 2 роки тому +1

      @@toohardz thank you so much❤️ i appreciate your kindness

  • @captainedward8425
    @captainedward8425 2 роки тому +9

    Man. U alright? Even if you relapsed, nobody is gonna judge and if they will they are not good hearted people. Pls upload smth

    • @ssjess2504
      @ssjess2504 Рік тому

      He's ok. He can't access his YT right now but he's good

  • @skunkbreath6031
    @skunkbreath6031 2 роки тому +1

    Spot on man. I love your message. Feeling is soo much better than being numb to life. Hope you are doing well!!! Thanks for being you!

  • @sidepocket7
    @sidepocket7 2 роки тому +4

    Great video bro. I came here right after the live cutout. I’m proud of you bro, and it was great to have someone go go through this with, even if they are across the world. It’s all the same. We will prevail! Cheers to boring nights, but better mornings. Not waking up sick! Peace bro. I’ll catch you on the lives.

    • @hankowitz
      @hankowitz Рік тому +1

      Sidepocket7 hope you are well my friend

    • @sidepocket7
      @sidepocket7 Рік тому +1

      @@hankowitz sup hank. Doing good my man. How are you doing? You have any idea how Kadi is doing?

  • @braveheart576
    @braveheart576 2 роки тому +3

    come on man where you at brther

  • @jaymemwilliams
    @jaymemwilliams 2 роки тому +2

    Hey where are you? Haven't heard from you in a couple of months

  • @braveheart576
    @braveheart576 2 роки тому +3

    hey bro hope your ok missed you going live earlier on would be good to see you live again bro have a catch up ...hang in there kadi..

    • @braveheart576
      @braveheart576 2 роки тому +1

      Hey buddy hope your well can't believe it I've been clean for months relapsed Sunday body back was in so much pain was only way to get some relief now there's no pain well at least for now I've got to get off again by end of this week really hope your hanging 8n there bro it's so tough to do..

  • @krystenmills3240
    @krystenmills3240 2 роки тому +4

    Congrats on your sobriety. Best wishes for your health and your families well being from Ohio ✌️👏

  • @nickcharles6530
    @nickcharles6530 2 роки тому +4

    Glad you’re doing good, brother 👍Keep up the good work. You’re doing much better than I could. I hope you can keep doing what you gotta do. Listen to some Deftones for me and take care of yourself!!! Peace,
    -Nick

  • @freddiemiller9464
    @freddiemiller9464 2 роки тому +3

    What a journey dude, something sure to happen for you soon bro top guy

  • @cvgodd1432
    @cvgodd1432 2 роки тому +2

    Hey how are you? Hope you’re still clean and if you relapsed it’s ok bro. Just come back on and talk about it. Get back to us.

  • @missvida6251
    @missvida6251 2 роки тому +1

    You look and sound healthier. Keep up the good work and keep your head up buddy

  • @lanastan8896
    @lanastan8896 2 роки тому +2

    Just stumbled upon your page. Hope your doing well!

  • @jackhunt8416
    @jackhunt8416 2 роки тому +1

    Well done keep up ,,I've got to day four only getting better now 👊

  • @Imtired170
    @Imtired170 2 роки тому +2

    Thank you AK

  • @tombrady4603
    @tombrady4603 2 роки тому +3

    The cravings suck for about 8 months man… but once I got over a year off H I stopped thinking about it completely, no dreams, not even cravings around tin foil. It’ll get better, justify stick with it man.

  • @sparklypinkleopard26
    @sparklypinkleopard26 2 роки тому

    so proud of you!! i’ll be continuing following.

  • @cvgodd1432
    @cvgodd1432 Рік тому +1

    How’s it going man? Haven’t heard from you in a while, give us a update! If your not clean it’s ok bro. I’m on the same page but much more positive now.

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому +1

      I’m clean bro, 11 months now

    • @cvgodd1432
      @cvgodd1432 Рік тому

      @@toohardz make a video!

  • @ryanDevski
    @ryanDevski 2 роки тому +2

    Buzzing for ya mate!
    I'm on day 90!
    We got this!

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      Wow Ryan! That is quite the achievement right there! Congrats man on 3 months of that crap. I hope you’re still going strong

  • @terryfoard3631
    @terryfoard3631 2 роки тому +1

    Bro this channel really helps some of us bro please do a live stream or post something please man

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      I’ll be back I promise u terry. And I’m sooo sorry I’ve been gone, but I’ve been dealing with a lot of family, work and financial problems.

  • @krystenmills3240
    @krystenmills3240 2 роки тому +2

    Me and my significant other have been wanting to quit for too many. We now have several subs to make it happen. This weekend hopefully we succeed this time.

  • @james5553
    @james5553 2 роки тому +2

    how you doing? I am coming off subs and am still sick 12 days after my last dose. What a joke. I am going to push through. Thanks for the video.

    • @ianmangham4570
      @ianmangham4570 Рік тому

      Did you make it ,hope you're OK 👌

    • @james5553
      @james5553 Рік тому +1

      @@ianmangham4570 I am good thanks. I did 5 months with nothing and my brain just did not recover. Not on methadone at a low dose and much happier. I spent 5 months in bed/housebound.

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому +1

      How u doing now?

    • @james5553
      @james5553 Рік тому

      @@toohardz I am now on methadone (50ml) after being ill for 5 months with PAWS. I just dropped to 45ml and plan to go down 5ml a week to 35 and then 1ml a week to the end. So much better than subs for me.

  • @haggis5736
    @haggis5736 2 роки тому

    hey brother hope your doing well im free and clean now after a hell of an ordeal hostage situation etc but alls good in my world hope your hanging in there bro....

  • @frankie6380
    @frankie6380 2 роки тому

    8 days clean and trying hard to keep going. I have been following you for quite sometime and your videos have helped me big time. Hope and pray I don't relapse ever again. Cheers bro. Sending you love and hugs from India 🇮🇳

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Yo frankieeee! How you been? Did u do it that time? Lemme know what’s up… hope you’re doing well either way.

    • @frankie6380
      @frankie6380 Рік тому

      @@toohardz hey man I'm doing great and good to hear from you. I've been staying clean since last 7 months and really hoping and praying that I'll continue to keep going the same. How have you been and how's your family?

  • @gingerroot8802
    @gingerroot8802 2 роки тому

    I hope you aer hanging in there, man. I got on suboxone and have been clean for almost 8 months now off of dope/fent. I kept relapsing until I finally get put on subs. Hope you are doing OK out there man.

  • @braveheart576
    @braveheart576 2 роки тому +2

    where are you bro..

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому +1

      Right here brother 👊🏻❤️

  • @jaymemwilliams
    @jaymemwilliams Рік тому +2

    So worried about you. If someone knows where he is, plz respond.

    • @sidepocket7
      @sidepocket7 Рік тому +3

      Was thinking the same thing. We got clean together a year ago, and both relapsed around the same time over the summer. I was talking to him in September, cause we were starting again, and after 2 days, I couldn’t get a hold of him. He hasn’t responded since.

    • @gingerroot8802
      @gingerroot8802 Рік тому +2

      @@sidepocket7 Shit. I hope he's OK. I found him just as I was starting to sober up.. Got on suboxone and have been clean ever since aside from 2 small relapses. Maybe he got better and is distancing himself from YT.

    • @derblaueengel
      @derblaueengel Рік тому +2

      Someone on a different video of his says they haven't heard from him since late September & that his phone appears to be disconnected. Before he disappeared he had been clean for two days and was really struggling. I really hope he's just locked up or something and he's not dead. I'm so worried & just want him to get better.

    • @jaymemwilliams
      @jaymemwilliams Рік тому +1

      ​@@sidepocket7same... last time I spoke to him on snap. Still nothing?

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Hey Jay, missed u like hell girl. I’m sorry I worried u, but I went to rehab. I’ll tell u all about it later for sure. But I’m back now I’m clean n all. Let me know how you’ve been. I can’t access my old snap so I made a new one varg_vikernes6

  • @Crush0819
    @Crush0819 2 роки тому

    Blessings man my day one today and I’ve done this 3 times already in 3 yrs after severe back surgery no warning or heads up from my doctor after telling me he can’t fill my prescription a year in from the surgery and here I am fighting to get my life back

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      You’re strong Jason you can do it. I promise u. If I can do it so can u. Tell me what happened? How is it going now? Did U manage to get clean?

  • @sidepocket7
    @sidepocket7 2 роки тому +1

    Kadi, my bro what’s up man. Haven’t caught you on a live since last Friday man. Been thinking about you. Hope all is well. Lemme know

  • @msshaffer5
    @msshaffer5 2 роки тому +1

    Hey love praying for you. You got this. ❤️

  • @kristieG812
    @kristieG812 2 роки тому +1

    Congratulations! I ❤️ your videos. So, real & humble. You're awesome & u got this! 🙏

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      Thank u so much for your awesome words. Much love to u 😘

  • @derblaueengel
    @derblaueengel Рік тому

    You responded to a previous comment I made on this video about six months ago, and it meant so much to me. You're such a kind & wonderful person & I really do hope you're ok, I've been worried & wondering when or if you will come back. If you relapsed it's ok. No one's going to be mad at or disappointed in you, and we will always support you. ❤

    • @ssjess2504
      @ssjess2504 Рік тому

      He's ok. He can't access his channel

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      I appreciate your kind words. I put a smile on my face. I’m okay I came back a month ago just couldn’t access my UA-cam account but I’m back now. Hope you’re doing okay

  • @blackrai5802
    @blackrai5802 Рік тому +1

    I'm quitting from today with the help of burprenorphine.. Your videos helped me through a lot. I have relapse once and im willing to stay clean from today and i hope your doing good 👍

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      How u doing now? Still clean or still trying? Either way check in let me know ur okay. Appreciate the kind words glad I could help any way I can

    • @Kelly-qv3wg
      @Kelly-qv3wg Рік тому

      Don't stay on burp for to long withdrawal are longer and worse then dope

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      @@Kelly-qv3wg burp? What’s that?

  • @kekaharris6618
    @kekaharris6618 2 роки тому

    Yo Bro so proud of you man, 😉✌️😎I spoke to you before on live at the beginning very happy for ya Bro honest let God into ya heart now bro 😉

  • @keithyp8427
    @keithyp8427 2 роки тому +1

    Well done man. I know you will be a fragile thing right about now, but you have achieved so much

  • @pradabahamon007
    @pradabahamon007 Рік тому

    Proud of you bro, if you can do that you can conquer anything in life. Keep pushing, fuck heroin.

  • @hfelio86ify
    @hfelio86ify 2 роки тому +1

    Congratulations! Is there anyway to reach you?

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      Sure thing. Just add me on Snapchat or Instagram if u got it and we can talk on there.

  • @sadmirmurtic7748
    @sadmirmurtic7748 Рік тому +1

    Hey bro how you been long time no talk, I’m on day 220 clean without percocets. 7 months and 8 days to be exact, I hope you’re going good man reach out to me or post a update video! Even if you relapsed again its okay we just wanna hear from ya

    • @ShawnTylerMusic
      @ShawnTylerMusic Рік тому +1

      I’m on day 4. It’s brutal. The anxiety and insomnia are killing me. Glad you’re doing well!

    • @sadmirmurtic7748
      @sadmirmurtic7748 Рік тому

      @@ShawnTylerMusic hey man that’s great hang in there you will just regret it again if you relapse and have to go through those withdrawals again the mental game is the toughest prove to yourself that you are strong and you can be sober

    • @ShawnTylerMusic
      @ShawnTylerMusic Рік тому +1

      @@sadmirmurtic7748 absolutely. The insomnia is probably the worst. Hoping that changes soon. I appreciate you responding man.

    • @sadmirmurtic7748
      @sadmirmurtic7748 Рік тому

      @@ShawnTylerMusic I recommend taking NyQuil to help sleep until your body gets back to normal, and no problem man I’m always here to help

    • @hankowitz
      @hankowitz Рік тому

      Sadmir congrats my friend. That’s fkn great! Haven’t heard from Kadi for a while, but hope you are still crushing it. 👊🏼

  • @Leonidas80366
    @Leonidas80366 2 роки тому

    Hey my man I’m about to quit🥲🥲🥲🤮 I did my last hit earlier and plan on taking a subutex after 24 hrs but only for the first 3 days then complete cold turkey. Do you have an opinion and or what do you think about the Subutex for 3 days? I do not want and will not let myself become attached to that after. Thanks man and yeah I am one one who doesn’t have a person their to talk to while I battle this out. Also what day do you think was the worst? Thanks brother!

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      How did it go? Did u manage to stay clean? Check in lemme know how ur doing?

  • @noturaveragejo2048
    @noturaveragejo2048 2 роки тому

    Just relapsed after 2 days off homeless ina tent this shit is rough I wanna stop so bad but sitting here throwing up can't sit still etc I need help

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Are u okay? Check in please if u can

  • @terryfoard3631
    @terryfoard3631 2 роки тому +1

    Broooooooooooooo where have you gone

    • @cvgodd1432
      @cvgodd1432 2 роки тому +2

      Think he relapsed? I know when he’s gone for a while it’s usually something bad. Let’s wait and see... I hope he’s still clean though

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      CV has been here for the whole entire thing. He’s part of what I call ‘first 9’. You know me all too well brother

    • @cvgodd1432
      @cvgodd1432 2 роки тому +2

      @@toohardz yessir I feel like I know you now lol. How’s it going though? Give us a update, good or bad we are here for you brother.

  • @Jawnjawn4949
    @Jawnjawn4949 2 роки тому

    70 days clean here, man. Though I'm on suboxone to help and going to NA/AA meetings. Glad you are ditching that dirt, keep it up!

  • @spen2698
    @spen2698 2 роки тому

    Any updates?? This was 2 months ago. Just started following u yesterday

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      Still fighting the good fight. Hbu?

  • @chainsawbarbarian
    @chainsawbarbarian 2 роки тому +1

    I need out of this now. You mentioned a list of prescriptions a Dr gave you to help. Did it help? What were those measurements please and thanks?

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      Yess those meds worked. Mostly by putting me to sleep for long hours until ur out of the woods. Just a pill of each in the morning and a pill of each at night. But gabapentin and painkillers are taken 3 times a day or as needed

    • @chainsawbarbarian
      @chainsawbarbarian 2 роки тому

      @@toohardz thanks for replying. Do you have this list of OTCs posted somewhere, if you please. I would greatly appreciate it!!! Have a badass day. Hope you're still kicking ass

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      @@chainsawbarbarian yess sure thing. in one of my videos I have shared the meds and a pic of the actual prescription as well as names I think in the comments Or the description

    • @chainsawbarbarian
      @chainsawbarbarian 2 роки тому +1

      @@toohardz thanks, Dude. I'll seek UT out. I Am really getting this feeling lately that the only ay out of this predicament is having to die. That's very odd for me to think like this.
      Take it easy man

  • @jermainebrandononenitty615
    @jermainebrandononenitty615 Рік тому

    What meds to take..

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      I made a new video with what to take

  • @beautruex7012
    @beautruex7012 2 роки тому

    Looking good bro! Stay strong 💪 praying for you.

  • @NoBs48
    @NoBs48 2 роки тому +1

    Good for you .I found your video asking about the chills . But I don't have restless leg . I can still eat . The only way I think I've been able to move around alot is a bunch of over the counter and a 200 mg caffeine pills . It's not comfortable but doable

    • @DetroitFettyghost
      @DetroitFettyghost 2 роки тому +2

      Calcium/Magnesium pills are supposed to help with chills, restless legs and muscle cramps. That's what alot of rehabs give. Best luck ❤️

  • @ieatcrayons3322
    @ieatcrayons3322 Рік тому

    Congrats! Keep going

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Appreciate you 👊🏻❤️

  • @jennyrodewald7300
    @jennyrodewald7300 2 роки тому +1

    You got this! 🌹

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Thanks Jenny ❤️ I did it n got clean finally

  • @tylerdehart7177
    @tylerdehart7177 2 роки тому

    Whats the best meds you use to get off? And stop the cravings.. if there's anything to help tht?

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      Gabapentin or pregabalin/ Xanax/ pain killers n sleep meds

  • @Eddieramram
    @Eddieramram Рік тому +2

    What happened bro, u doing okay?

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Yea man I’m alright. Not dead yet 😂 and I’m clean now.

    • @Eddieramram
      @Eddieramram Рік тому

      @@toohardz brooo I’m so happy to see you comment back, I always wonder about u everyday! We need a new vid from you soon!

  • @riojohno273
    @riojohno273 2 роки тому +1

    Please help me !!!!

  • @GRUBB-MUDD
    @GRUBB-MUDD Рік тому

    Omg im drink out of a Harley davidson coffie mug right now

  • @bestsofar
    @bestsofar 2 роки тому

    Keep up the good work, keep that will strong❤️Continue to love yourself and give yourself good things ~ You deserve it.
    Thank you for sharing your struggle.

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      Thank u for being there and for the kind words of encouragement. I appreciate you

  • @elektra.n328
    @elektra.n328 2 роки тому

    What helped you get through your withdrawal symptoms?

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      That time meds and Xanax. This time rehab tbh

  • @marymitchem5338
    @marymitchem5338 2 роки тому +1

    You got this

  • @xLilJamie
    @xLilJamie Рік тому

    I'm starting today, homie. I'm fucking scared. But I want it this time....genuinely want it...I've got xanax and some weed arriving in the mail today to weather the storm.
    I'm so fucking proud of you, bro I remember following you back when you started and you've always inspired me. I'll be coming back to your channel to re-watch some stuff in my low points this week and I'll listen good and try my fucking hardest.
    Much love

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому +1

      Hey Jamie, it’s been so long. How u doing now? Update me when u can

  • @mr.spazzz7945
    @mr.spazzz7945 Рік тому

    I just turned 16 I’m on fentanyl I hate these withdrawals so bad I feel so bad I wanna die and it’s so scary I don’t know what to do I try’s suboxone I tryd so hard to stay clean but I feel I’m so close to kicking it

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Hope you’re doing okay

  • @didwmbasumatary5012
    @didwmbasumatary5012 2 роки тому +1

    It's my day 1
    Wish me luck
    You are truly inspiring dude
    I wish i could make it, i canonly wish

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      So how was it? What happened with your withdrawals? Did u get clean and stay clean?

    • @didwmbasumatary5012
      @didwmbasumatary5012 2 роки тому +1

      @@toohardz I lost brother

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +2

      @@didwmbasumatary5012 don’t say that, you haven’t lost, you were just beaten for 1 round. And you still have a ton of other rounds to turn this fight around and come out on top. As long as deep down the fight is in you and u sincerely want to quit and you’re finding ways to try n get clean, you haven’t lost! You’re just temporarily down on 1 knee that’s all. Chin up my brother, I have faith in you. You can get this done.

    • @didwmbasumatary5012
      @didwmbasumatary5012 2 роки тому +1

      @@toohardz hope everything will be fine like before
      Thank you for your words

  • @1AloneX2
    @1AloneX2 Рік тому +2

    hope your still free like an EAGLE!

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Yesss! Free n clean almost 12 months now

  • @robertafierro5592
    @robertafierro5592 Рік тому +1

    NOTHING will.go south!! Everything is going NORTH from now on!! 48 days is HUGE!! HUGE!!

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому +1

      Thank you Roberta 🙏🏻 I’m now thankfully 1 year 21 days clean ❤️❤️

  • @meccalatreece1107
    @meccalatreece1107 2 роки тому

    You look good brother ❤️ Hope your well currently.

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      I’m much better babes, thanks for caring to ask I swear. I’m all clean now. Much love to ya

  • @thepienaars9895
    @thepienaars9895 10 місяців тому

    Im in week three but my body is nroken and I am so tired I could die.

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  10 місяців тому

      Week 3 quitting what?

  • @chernobyl3030
    @chernobyl3030 2 роки тому

    A k you made me happy with this update I'm serious

  • @samuelhirshfield8062
    @samuelhirshfield8062 2 роки тому +1

    Dang this shit hard as hell

  • @solidhustlelifestyle5856
    @solidhustlelifestyle5856 2 роки тому

    I’m on day 3 now really inspired me bro 💯❤️

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      I’m genuinely glad I did. If u need to talk or need any advice about anything I’m always here for ya. And for anyone who sincerely wants out n want to get n stay clean. You know how to reach me yea?

    • @suzannaheike2302
      @suzannaheike2302 2 роки тому +1

      @@toohardz How do we reach you AK ? I'm trying to quit after hitting a devastating rock bottom I'm so ashamed at what situation had to happen for me to realise I needed to quit doing what I was doing, I hope I can stick to weed. I am glad you like In Flames and metal, and even more glad to see you in the comments recently means you're still around. Take care. As

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      @@suzannaheike2302 just reach out to me on snapchat if you can. Varg_vikernes
      I hope youre okay. I'll help or support you any way i can. you are not alone in this

  • @JT0007
    @JT0007 2 роки тому +1

    Still sober?

  • @Sukkubii
    @Sukkubii 2 роки тому

    Idk you but I’m So proud of you🖤

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      I appreciate you Karii 🤘🏻

  • @jameszarlnga4641
    @jameszarlnga4641 2 роки тому +1

    I don’t have Instagram or Snapchat is there another way I could talk to you?

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      Telegram or WhatsApp

  • @naksalia06
    @naksalia06 Рік тому

    Hey today is Day 1 any advice for me

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      Sorry I wasn’t there when u needed advice but I’m here now. Did u manage to stay clean?

    • @naksalia06
      @naksalia06 Рік тому

      @@toohardz Nah brother I am planning to make it Day 1 today

    • @naksalia06
      @naksalia06 Рік тому

      And I messed up again. Somehow I managed from my friend for a fix and ended up breaking a streak of 15 hours heroin free.

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      @@naksalia06 so where u at now? Did u start again?

  • @tinobrown4711
    @tinobrown4711 2 роки тому

    I’m not addicted to heroin homie… I was gone on benzos. I just wanted to say what’s up. There’s millions of us. I’m 59 days today, I’m still going through it. Keep it up bro

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      Way to go Tino! I saw people withdrawing from benzos and it aint a walk on the park either. So 59 days is a heck of a milestone. Hope you’re still clean n still fighting.

    • @tinobrown4711
      @tinobrown4711 2 роки тому

      @@toohardz Hell yeah! I’m on day like 130 or some shit. I don’t count as much anymore 😁 hope all is well with you

  • @B455PL4Y3R
    @B455PL4Y3R 2 роки тому

    What is it like when you wake up in the morning? is it like a different life? I forgot what its like to be normal i dont even know if it's worth it, how do you feel?

    • @B455PL4Y3R
      @B455PL4Y3R 2 роки тому

      sorry i made this comment before i finished the video, thankyou for all the words, i have nobody who understands and am just seeking people who have done it i suppose.
      well done man..

    • @Artixou
      @Artixou 2 роки тому

      @@B455PL4Y3R It'll be the best choice in your life, good luck in your journey mate

  • @Ginnpis
    @Ginnpis 2 роки тому

    Keep it up my man

  • @goodgameg9489
    @goodgameg9489 2 роки тому

    You sound so much more masculine when you're clean!

  • @TheGesox
    @TheGesox 2 роки тому

    Nice you make it.....

  • @bunny1114
    @bunny1114 2 роки тому +1

    I’m so FUCKINGGGG proud of you

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      Thank u 🙏🏻 soo much for saying that bunny

  • @bookreaderson
    @bookreaderson Рік тому

    Ahhh the withdrawals from cold turkey just makes it worse. U didn’t start with a 20 bag a day habit ur first day. It’s gradual. U come off gradual

  • @EdmundKempersDartboard
    @EdmundKempersDartboard Рік тому

    Pretty hard sell. "Sobriety sucks. Do it."

  • @omarelsherif7196
    @omarelsherif7196 2 роки тому

    How u doin brodi?

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +2

      Hey Omar, how are u broski? How have u been?

    • @omarelsherif7196
      @omarelsherif7196 2 роки тому

      @@toohardz I've been constantly relapsing every single day since I initiallt relapsed 2 weeks ago. It went so fast and it completely has me in it's grips again. Good thing is I've been reconnecting with some buddies and explaining them the problems that I created for myself, they are coaxing me into coming to the gym everyday and really raising that pressure to quit. Tomorrow I dont wanna wake up and re-up.

  • @benzo_vamp
    @benzo_vamp Рік тому

    Dude hell yeah I’m coming up on 48 hours off 20mg methadone. Using benzos sometimes to help and weed. I got this I know it

    • @benzo_vamp
      @benzo_vamp Рік тому

      An yea people do need meds like benzos and gabapentin and cannabis zopicloe. Your body needs it to balance out

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      How u doing now? Still clean?

  • @lesliefarrand7305
    @lesliefarrand7305 2 роки тому +2

    Love the video 💕

  • @Red2016-p5p
    @Red2016-p5p 11 місяців тому

    I need help bro

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  11 місяців тому

      I’m right here with you. What’s going on? What do u need help with bro?

    • @Red2016-p5p
      @Red2016-p5p 11 місяців тому

      @@toohardz bro I go 2-3 days and I relapse all the time it's so hard and am going to the extremes now to score bro

    • @Red2016-p5p
      @Red2016-p5p 11 місяців тому

      @@toohardz I have no meds to help what should I do

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  11 місяців тому

      @user-ug9tb2xg2j well can u get some pregabalin300mg or gabapentin 400mg? Or tegretol 200mg?

  • @billgoforth7426
    @billgoforth7426 9 місяців тому

    Staying and from

  • @nicowitdarx
    @nicowitdarx 2 роки тому

    good shit bro

  • @kevsmelting4178
    @kevsmelting4178 2 роки тому

    SO PROUD MAN

  • @rydash56
    @rydash56 9 місяців тому

    Damn bro your a through cat homie

  • @mickobrien3156
    @mickobrien3156 Рік тому

    If you're on Suboxone or methadone, you're not clean. That stuff is ok to get life a little more stable, esp finances.... but you're not sober on that stuff. You're just not high. The physical agony of withdrawals... that bill still must be paid. And there's no way around it. It's every opioid addicts biggest fear.
    If you're truly truly clean, then congrats! That's the hard way, and why it's got the best reward.

    • @ianmangham4570
      @ianmangham4570 Рік тому

      So what ? Who cares if he's on meds ?

    • @mickobrien3156
      @mickobrien3156 Рік тому

      @@ianmangham4570 Nobody cares. But it seems you do.

    • @ianmangham4570
      @ianmangham4570 Рік тому

      @@mickobrien3156 Donkey smell

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  Рік тому

      It is I’m glad n thankful I got clean

  • @shillongcitylover1162
    @shillongcitylover1162 2 роки тому +4

    Heads off to you bro.. cravings will last forever but u need to b strong until it looses n says AK u won n i(cravings) loose...n abt d job ..don't worry ur on GOD'S path now..it's a test fr u now bro..GOD didn't quit on u or u wudnt hve woke up anymore in the morning....ders a GOD'S plan fr u .trust me..u wil do hve a best life best job den u had b4..just hve patience..m sure GOD'S have plan sumtin best fr u..but plßssssßssss bro dnt go back to dat stuff...plsssssß bro m begging u..ur lukin very gud now..ur recovering very fast...again m sayin no matter how crave u have plssß dnt touch it again by just thinking m clean fr all dese days let's just take it last fr today it won't matter if I do it only once..Cuz dats wat is heroin abt..once u go back only once u'll get stuck again n u will regret everyday of ur life..n all ur sacrifices will b waste for nothing..so plssss bro don't just dnt think abt it try to get busy on sumtin like be wit ur wife kids family good environment etcetc..trust me u r reaching ur goal...c he different it is now comparing to heroin days life...so plssss bro..if u touch it again m never gonna talk reply or chat with you ever again...

  • @paradiseangels9731
    @paradiseangels9731 2 роки тому +2

    Looking better, you could be saving a lot more life's from making the videos Thanks ❗

  • @billgoforth7426
    @billgoforth7426 9 місяців тому

    You need to surround yourself with people that are clean.. early on .. some kind of outside help NAA Church whatever it takes. AA.. your odds of stain cleaner slim to none without it.. find my own personal experience I wish you the best..

  • @brownmunde2195
    @brownmunde2195 2 роки тому +2

    I will give you 3000 dollar But you must take medicine from that money
    Ok brother?

    • @Eddieramram
      @Eddieramram 2 роки тому

      That would be nice. I’m getting clean to and need help to

    • @Eddieramram
      @Eddieramram 2 роки тому

      @@Cymduu hey, I’m coming up on 3 months clean and looking for job rn. Been eating healthier and exercising. My parents been helping but I jus feel bad . But staying positive

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому +1

      Sure thing. That would really be a life saver right about now. I’m working 2 jobs, 16 hours a day n still can’t make ends meet. Seriously some days I just think about ending it all. Can’t cTch a break no matter what I do or how hard I try

  • @kekaharris6618
    @kekaharris6618 2 роки тому

    You look so cool, get sme weed wax. Man

  • @sasdf2215
    @sasdf2215 2 роки тому

    Man pick up jiu jitsu or a martial art, will help you

    • @toohardz
      @toohardz  2 роки тому

      I used to train mma religiously for years, but then that bitch gradually took over everything I loved and replaced it

  • @about9256
    @about9256 Рік тому

    ]Cis ofC[
    notice the sky turns a darker shade of blue!look in to it! that is eternal energy!for us!the life!
    ]Cis ofC[
    Creator created all,and free doesn't matter the color!the God decived the whole world!