I really love your DID content. It's such a bummer that people don't understand. Honestly it feels willful, since you have so thoroughly explained it. oh btw my dad says you should sue dr. robinson
I hope this isn't awkward, but I just wanted to say thank you so much for continuing youtube even with all the drama you face. I remember watching you since highschool and I am now in my final year of univeristy. I remember watching you as a comfort youtuber the whole day when my dog passed. Thank you so much for never giving up on youtube and continuing to sharing your likes and passion with us❤
Not to diminish how unfair/triggering the newest drama-crap could be, but it's so beautiful to see you coping so well with it Pixie 💖 it just goes to show how much healing is possible and I'm glad to see it for you. Also glad to hear you are with a new therapist that really understands DID!
pixie i’d love to see you create a video focused on fun ways to upcycle your old clothes into something you’d want to wear :3 (adding trims, ribbons, beading etc)
Finding a therapist is already stressful, so i cant imagine the additional things thats you have to think about/have been forced into your brain, im so glad you had success finding a good one. Also "the special interest is special interesting" is the exact think i said to my husband while sitting in a circle of tamagotchis
Omg tamagotchis are SUCH a good special interest so many different characters and eras of toys and games and omg…! I can totally see how that would be an exciting world to be in hehe 🫶🏻🌸✨🌈💖
@Pixielocks The new unis just dropped and so did the connections rerelease, im thriving. Plus the uni has events now and a feature like streetpass? Quite the time to be alive as a tama fan
Not the toe wave 😭 But seriously, it sucks that people won't leave you alone. You deserve to exist on and offline as someone with DID, and it's for sure frustrating to not feel safe talking about certain things. I & we hope things get better for y'all 🥰🤟💜
right?? i watched an hour long video about the neurodivergencies of Cat Valentine and i don't even like that show lol !! (video by CJ the X, btw) i would be THRILLED to hear a similar theory about a show i love from someone with experience in the subject !!
As someone with a stigmatized mental illness, no matter what you do, you will be criticized. Prioritize your peace. People are way too comfortable making bold claims about people they only know from the internet. Also, the journey to find/replace a good therapist is always a struggle. Having a dissociative disorder or personality disorder makes it even harder. The fact that your face was used in that medical conference presentation is abominable, I emailed them when it happened. To anyone struggling with dissociation on any level, I highly recommend the book Dissociation Made Simple by Jamie Marich, PHD. She interviews people with DID and related disorders from all walks of life and gives a relatively radical perspective on what it means to live with a dissociative disorder.
It is so epic that you are feeling good these days! I know trauma therapy can be tough its great you found a helpful therapist :3 (despite the horrible ableism thrown your way those people should seriously loose their jobs they are not helping) also a Pinkie Pie BPD video would be so awesome!
17:29 as someone who’s starting to really crack the egg of trauma therapy, we really needed to hear this 🫶🏻💫🌷 thank you for the slumber party vibes! so excited for the new weekly schedule! 🌈🍓🌱
As someone who’s been watching you since I was 14 (22 now omg time flies!!) and watched basically every video since, I’m glad you know you have your core audience who will never disappear. I quite literally grew up with you and seeing you go through similar stuff as me was so comforting. Mental health is messy and most of us go through that stuff privately so I can’t imagine how hard it is to have those moments picked apart by people online 🩷 but through all the years, ive always loved ur content no matter what uve done (i still wear egl tho haha 😋) so do the content u want to do, whether that be fashion or my little pony or mental health, even if u stop uploading for a year, im still gunna come back to see the next video. Seeing people talk about u is the same feeling i got in highschool hearing people diss a friend, knowing they didnt know them properly, that was never going to change how i see that friend. Anyway going back to being a pretty silent viewer 🩷🎀🐻
I am so proud of you. :) you are a strong person, and i can tell you are mentally intelligent because you know your limits, and you are able to identify what makes you feel unsafe. Your safety is so important! Protect your joy.
i would love a channel where you just talk about your issues but as you said in the video people online can get really nasty over such issues. it really sucks how being emotionally open with your audience like that can create such a divide in your viewerbase. thats usually how i start to really connect with content creators, so its incredible unfortunate how that also brings the most stress and drama in many cases. stay strong as always pixie! remember you still have many people who love and care for you!
Hope you're okay!! 🩷 Excited for the return of slumber party sesh tho 🌸 Update: hearing about your harassments always makes me so sad 😭 You're such a sweet & genuine person and I hate seeing other people treat you so badly :( I think it's so important to put your own safety first! But I do get that it totally sucks that you can't share about your DID online safely 💔 But yeah, yay for good therapists!! 🌸🌸
I have been watching since 2016 and have been too afraid to leave a comment in fear that I would come off as too parasocial or annoying in case you've gotten a lot of comments like this. I started watching you around the time I was seriously wondering if I had DID. When you did get diagnosed it really encouraged me to go to therapy. But I still didn't till about a year ago (2023). I relate to so many of your struggles and it makes me so happy to see how far you have come. You've been a long time comfort UA-camr for me. When you posted more about DID, it was too triggering for me and I couldn't watch. But when you casually talk about it here like this, it makes me feel not alone. To see that you and Stevie have been together so long and someone actually wanted to marry someone with DID in real life has healed me in some ways, so thank you for sharing that even with the stigma. The fact you have overcome/are fighting many of the same problems that I have and we are the same age and have many of the same interests inspires me. I hope you continue to make UA-cam videos for as long as it makes you happy and for a long time 😊.
I find it so weird that if people don’t agree with someone on everything, they no longer believe they have the right to exist. The internet has trained people to believe every bit of content they consume should serve them as an individual and if it doesn’t, instead of moving on, they attack it. No matter what someone thinks about your mental health, political values, life choices or whatever, you have so much to offer just as a human being and it’s frustrating that people reduce others to one quality that they find uncomfortable.
dude the thing about the presentation literally made my jaw drop. that is so beyond infuriating and horrific and shit like that (as well as my own first hand experiences within the mental health industrial complex) makes me feel like the field has had so little progression. so many people who get jobs in the mental health field have little to no empathy and dont care about the humans that theyre supposedly helping. im so sorry you went through that, Pixie. ♡
I have never been this early to a vid omg (I actually got the notification for once!) edit: also wanted to pop in to say that I (and I think the majority of your audience) totally understand the step back from mental health content. I am so thankful for what you’ve been willing to share (it actually motivated me to finally seek out trauma therapy!!!) but you gotta stay safe above everything. Sending u good vibes 🥰🥰
I've been watching your content for a long time because I love colourful fun fashion stuff. I got diagnosed with DID a few years before you. Even having no online presence people are still wild about it all. I am in my 30's now and it never stops being hard but making new better memories to outnumber the unfun times is worth it. Really cheering you on. Hope the five petal flower launch goes amazing for you
Re: Canadian healthcare, don't worry, I'm paying over a hundred a month for private American Healthcare and I still don't have a general doctor because of the shortage 🙃 Same boat whether you go bankrupt over it or not.
Yup. Where I'm at any specialty referral is at least 3mos; my son needed a GI and he's been waiting since Feb. & I believe his appt is next week (he's 20). I have EDS and the waitlist was 2.5yrs so they told my pcp what to do & after I was dx hypermobile type they said bc the waitlist is so long they won't see hypermobile folks-- just make sure you have a pcp, a neuro, a cardiologist, & a PT. Luckily I did have all of those already. The US Healthcare system sucks so bad & I have top notch insurance.
I love you....and your 'passions' like Ponies, the letter "W", happy faces, Dom's nose, Thomas the Tank Engine, Tweety Bird, Pretty Cure, Peeps ..... xoxoxo
Loved this! I know you used to have an advice portion and i think it might be cool to have an "Ask a Pixie" 'column'(video) for people writing in for advice that is hyper specific, similar to your reddit video.
I've already commented about the harassment on your community post, so I won't repeat myself, but I'm here to say that I'm really happy that you found an informed therapist!!!! Yessss! 🥳🙌🏼I'm also in Canada and without a GP... the health system is in shambles in Quebec. 🫠 Also, just like My Little Pony keeps you afloat, your videos have the same effect on me, so thank you for uploading! 💖 (Also, whenever I get the notification on my phone, I will run to get my laptop to watch instead of watching it on my phone, because I need the full rainbow immersion, if that makes any sense. 🌈🦄🤩)
you’ve been my comfort creator for the past 8 or 9 years, im so glad you’re doing well!! 💕 (or as well as you can be with people being so crappy? omg?? i hate people sometimes??) but these videos are such a safe space for me & others ur amazing!! 💕💕💕
It's so good to see you found a new therapist that knows a lot about did! And I'm happy to see yall having a schedule and being able to follow thru!! Honestly doing what's best for you and for your mental health without worrying too much about views is really good~ And also love the fact that when you do videos with certain topics you get lighter comments. That must be really good for your mental health!
I have PTSD. I'm proud of you! glad you've been doing your thing and doing it well. Honestly my aesthetic is rlly different from yours but I came for the rainbows and stayed for the mental health solidarity. 💙💛💗
i adore this kind of video, its really nice to hear you talk about what you feel comfortable sharing, it makes me feel less alone in my mental health struggles. your perseverance and hard work does not go unnoticed!
Havent been here in like a bajillion years (haha jill) but i am so happy to see you guys happy!! I'm schizoaffective (bp1 type) so i totally relate to the "cycle" thing. I find *myself* exhausting. It really is just coping and rolling with the punches. I think a lot more people might like a little life with a little job and a little house than you might realize. It's so hard to come by. Our little brains def werent made for social media
Pixie, we adore you! Every time that we have the privilege of seeing any content from you, it truly makes our day. We’re so proud of you, & thank you for being such a ray of sunshine. Our world is better with you in it. 💖
it has been so wonderful watching pixie slowly gravitate towards the interests i was starting to have when i found their channel ten years ago (namely MLP and egl fashion). i am still deep in the sauce on both of those, at least when the hyperfixation calls, and it's so nice to see someone else indulging in them !! especially MLP; it feels like everyone who used to make pony content stopped, an absolute travesty. it also greatly helps the slumber party vibes imo !! we are catching up on life, but also ponies surely must come up lol. glad to hear you're doing well, pixie system !!
I’ve been here since the beginning and will continue to be here for u 💖 I love your content. I admire how strong you are and how you can remain so happy and positive in spite of how people treat you. I look up to you a lot and you inspire me to be myself fully and without apologies 💖
I'm gonna do my nails too while watching this. Also I get so hard trying to find a qualified therapist. In the first intake I had in person with my recent new therapist (3 weeks going strong) I had to obviously disclose what I've been diagnosed with and he didn't seem intimidated but he also doesn't seem responsive much at all so its :// I miss the trauma specialist that diagnosed us but my insurance changed and it's been a haasle even since. I refuse to educate another therapist about DID cause thats not my job 😭 Sending so much love for your continued wellness, Pixie! 🩷
I had to pause the video and go grab my nail stuff from the closet so i could do my nails with you 😂 me and my headmates are big fans! We also love kawaii style and it’s pretty much all we wear these days!
stay safe, do your thing, and don't let anyone stop you from living your life the way you have to in order to survive. the internet is a hard place to be - but logging off is easy : ) if you need to take a little step back, do it with joy! we'll still all be here hanging out whenever you come back. also PLEASE i am begging for an hour long pinkie pie has bpd video LMNKJBH it would be so epic to hear you do a bunch of special interest power hours LOL
I know I’ve def said this before, but I love videos like these! Really does feel like I’m on the phone, catching up with a friend 💕 just makes my little heart happy and grounds me a little more to this earth ✨
I have always appreciated your videos and your candidness, and I especially appreciate them now that I am going through my own mental health healing journey; I was recently diagnosed with BP2, which answers so many questions about why I am the way I am, but also it is exhausting! To be constantly monitoring myself, moods and behaviors. My psychologist just told me this week that she is moving and I am devastated; she is looking for someone new for me, but I'm just sad. I don't want to rehash things with someone new. Thank you for sharing.
1. Super proud of you for how far you've come, this was nice 2. Pinkie undeniably has BPD I've been saying this I'm so glad you get it 3. You said your ending thingy different!!! Wwooooaaahh
I've been watching you since the Lolita days and I think it's so interesting how our experiences are so different but for me right after high school in 2019 I was in a high. Everything was great I was so confident, doing well in school and had a boyfriend. Then the pandemic happened and that relationship went sour and stayed sour for the next 2 years. I'm just now feeling better about myself and my life. I started going back to school. I feel motivated to take care of my health. Will have money coming in soon. But I discovered I have executive dysfunction or ADHD and most definitely autism. With the new scary changes and being in a relationship that wasn't for me, I experienced burnout and couldn't clean my room for years. Let myself overeat and really just didn't not care to live. I'm glad you're doing great and I think it's really cool we're experiencing highs together
this is such a lovely video 🥺🫶 I appreciate your candor and your grace, especially in the face of negativity and hate and your maturity and boundaries with sharing online!! yous have the right to keep things private 🥺🩷 your comfort and stafey is number 1, always! 🌸🥺🫶🩷
I picked up that same nail polish!!! I couldn't resist it in the store, it was just the PERFECT pink! I try to only buy nail polish on sale, but that color got me!b😅 I'm really glad your and your system doing well, Pixie! Finding a new therapist is stressful enough without having to deal with that extra helping of bullshit you should never have had to go through. ❤❤❤
I'm really glad to see you're doing better and moving on! I think I said before but the strength and integrity you show in the face of hate is something that inspires me on my own YT journey. Like I'm still a small UA-camr with a small audience but I am still afraid of how big my audience already is and how much bigger it might get. It's affecting my ability to enjoy the hobby I share with the world, and I'm trying to figure out how to get that joy back. So far, all I can think to do is keep going and hope the passion will return and the fears will fade. I hope I can get to a better place and find those strategies like you 💖
Weekly videos sound so fun. Either way, I do look forward to ur videos. They are very comforting to me :3 Thank you for talking about how ur doing, it's awesome to hear that ur doing alright despite gross people.i think some people see talking about others as gossip and interesting drama but it isn't it's people's lives :[ please stay you, with whatever that means.
I can only imagine how hard it must be to put your mental health status out to the world. I have something as well that a lot of people don’t understand and don’t believe. It’s probably even harder to not have the luxury to be able to hide it, not saying that masking it is a good idea, but we aren’t in a world unfortunately where people understand others like us. And when we try to explain it the way that others may understand, they think we are making light of it and having ‘fun’ with it. Sometimes it may be the case, but mental stuff like that is a lot harder and not as much as sunshine and rainbows as others may perceive. That, and a lot of people don’t want to see that kind of thing. I feel like it’s a no win situation for people like us. Stay strong, stay safe, and I’m proud of you for sharing your experience to the world. You never had to, but it’s nice to hear a voice like ours that can actually speak out.
I'm so so glad that you've found another good therapist who believes you and validates what has and is happening to you, and knows more about DID because they're a professional! You guys deserve that kind of consistent support from a professional, on top of your social support system. So glad that you guys are still improving and feel (as much as possible) safe. - someone who has been watching for a bunch of years, studied psychology in school and focused a bunch on DID stigma, and also has a bunch of mental health issues
Excited to have regularly scheduled pixie content!! Thank you for being a cozy channel! Keeping smaller communities safe and fun is hard but you are doing it!!
To say you've had so much rubbish thrown at you lately, its lovely to see how you're pushing through still! So proud of your progress and congrats on a new therapist! Excited to see more of this era emerge!!
PIXIE!!!!! POST THE PINKIE PIE BPD VIDEO AND MY LIFE IS YOURS! /ref (I love the idea of random little videos of random topics. That would be so fun and so real)
The "free health means noone can access it" 😭thats exactly it here in norway too. Waitlists are years long I've been watching since 2016 I believe! I have always enjoyed watching Pixielocks videos!
13:15 It makes me extremely sad that u feel like you gotta clarify this :( real confetti club members will not be making u feel this insecure about your own content- DO WHATEVER U WANT FOREVER PIXIE!!! This is your work, your channel, your life :( I mean damn I would love to see whatever you put up . Like I would EAT UP a precure psychoanalysis 3hr video tbh 😭😭 or your guide to MLP in the style of ur Precure one!!! 🩷🩷🩷
The amount our lives have been similar is crazy to me. Like our struggles haven’t been the same but like when we have had our ups and downs have been so in sync. I’m so happy that we are both in a good positive place and I’m able to be as happy for you as I am for me.
this is such a cutie lil video!! so glad you’re doing better and found a good therapist. we would absolutely love a bpd pinkie pie video ahh! also so excited for the brand drop eeeee!!!
9:20 I discovered IFS early this year and it’s been a total paradigm shift for me in terms of my emotion regulation. It’s been very useful to me and it’s one of my current major interests. *But even I’m* not a fan of the labels “manager”, “exile” and “firefighter” for my parts, because they haven’t been very applicable to me. I’m ironically finding more relatability with plural labels like “persecutor” and “little” even though I barely consider myself plural! I think the IFS model would do better if it could expand to accommodate more labels that describe more parts/alters for inclusivity sake. But more on topic to the video, I’ve always appreciated the work you’ve put into your channel Pixie! You’re one of those UA-camrs to me where you could talk about any subject and I’d be interested, whether it’s about your crafts, interest, collections, mental health, or anything new. I hope you still enjoy making videos for years to come!
7:13 girrrrrl wtf?? I don't have any context but this sounds terrible. I don't want to be overly dramatic but I actually teared up just imagining being in this situation.. I'm so glad you found your therapist 🌸✨🙏
Omggg if you want the context my video “My Response” was my response to it, they used a number of people’s content including mine and it was a huge deal. Thankfully a ton of people stood up against it including professionals in the DID field. Lots of people made videos about it at the time as well if you feel like going down a rabbit hole, but it’s not a happy fun one 😭
This was fun to watch while I was on my lunch break at work. Just sat eating my cold pizza, charging my phone, and watching along. 💖 Definitely a chill vibe on this dreary Texas afternoon.
I am so excited about a weekly upload! I watch ALL your videos and LOVE LOVE LOVE your content!! BTW I received my diagnosis last January for BPD with alters, ADHD, and Autism Spectrum Disorder, so I got hit with the trifecta of neurodivergence and they all kinda blend into each other, so it's nice to finally have answers, but I had to take a break from posting on TikTok and online due to the hate and burnout I was receiving and feeling. Your content makes me feel seen and like a "normal" person, whatever that means.
I am having a wee watch of this before I go rollerskating - Pixielocks is the perfect niche for me, I am always so happy to see you upload and I get so many ideas of cute ways to manage my own mental health
me drinking my 11am baha blast: yesss coffee yes But I'm SO SO SO GLAD you are doing well and feel like you are on the up and up!! PIXIE SLAY SEASONNNN
Okay girl I love you and I get it with the healthcare having to wait but….living in a place with no free healthcare, having surgery cost me 31,000 dollars, when I see my doctor just for a check up it is over $100…
this vid posted for me when i get home from therapy?? THANK YOUUU!!! dude you're so cool and i love seeing you on here !!!! ☺️💐🌸💕 fully parasocially, you're always a big comfort to me being the same age, same country, with similarly-timed (but wildly different!) struggles, and im just really grateful for you n ur stuff 🩷 it's a cool reminder to see someone i think is super awesome and successful who has undeniably dealt with obstacles and done things non-linearly, to also give myself some grace for feeling so setback by crap for years now 🥲 (NOT that i wanna compare what we've been through at ALL bc ik mine is not on the same scale as u!! u have my utmost respect!!!) ANYWAY, thanks for the sleepover lol!! much love to you, your parts, partner, n kitties 🥰🙏💕✨🌈🌷🐈🐈⬛
pixie i've been watching you since I was just starting highschool & now I'm in my third year of design school!!! I never leave comments but I wanted to say I am really enjoying all of your recent content & I'm beyond happy to see you doing better!!! Keep it up-- excited for fpp!
As someone who's never watched a songle episode of My Little Pony, i would RAVENOUSLY consume an hour-long video of you armchair diagnosing Pinkie Pie and it would probably be the highlight of my week, and i would tell all my friends about "this cool youtube video essay I watched this weekend"
LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS VIBE SM!!! ALSO THE PINKIE BPD VIDEO WILL SLAY I SAY ABSOLUTELY YES DO IT AS A BPD-ER MYSELF this was a very incredibly comfy video to watch kyaaaaa!! ❤️💫🖤✨
i was watching it laying in bed like hhihihi twinsies but i eventually fall asleep bc i was so tired,,, so a nap later im rewatching it in the pc desk ily
It's good to hear you're doing so well ❤ I'm excited for weekly videos and I DEFINITELY want to hear anything you have to say about ponies because I also looooove ponies (especially Pinkie Pie)
ALSO ALSO not sure where in the process the announcement for shipping for 5PF will be but !! I really hope u can ship to the uk ;-;; it would be a dream of mine to be a 5PF collectorrrr
I have BPD !!
Thank you Pinkie Pie 💖💖💖💖💖💖
you heard it here first folks, straight from the horses mouth
woah! she has bpd? I didn’t know that! /ref
"I just want my little bakery, I don't need to be the Costco hotdog" holy smokes that's a powerful quote.
I really love your DID content. It's such a bummer that people don't understand. Honestly it feels willful, since you have so thoroughly explained it. oh btw my dad says you should sue dr. robinson
I hope this isn't awkward, but I just wanted to say thank you so much for continuing youtube even with all the drama you face. I remember watching you since highschool and I am now in my final year of univeristy. I remember watching you as a comfort youtuber the whole day when my dog passed. Thank you so much for never giving up on youtube and continuing to sharing your likes and passion with us❤
Pixie are you alright, are you alright, are you alright Pixie? *moonwalks away*
CHAMONE!
Literally 5 seconds in and the toe wave is FOUL 😭🩷
LMAO 😭🦶✨✨✨✨✨
5 seconds of suffer 😩😭💀
Not to diminish how unfair/triggering the newest drama-crap could be, but it's so beautiful to see you coping so well with it Pixie 💖 it just goes to show how much healing is possible and I'm glad to see it for you. Also glad to hear you are with a new therapist that really understands DID!
pixie i’d love to see you create a video focused on fun ways to upcycle your old clothes into something you’d want to wear :3 (adding trims, ribbons, beading etc)
Seconding this!!
That hospitals presentation is still one of the craziest most bonkers thing ive seen happen on youtube.
Same 😭🫶🏻
omg how i love the cozy session while pixie paints her nails and i cut my hair at home, we are being so girlys together😚🩷🩷🩷🩷
Finding a therapist is already stressful, so i cant imagine the additional things thats you have to think about/have been forced into your brain, im so glad you had success finding a good one. Also "the special interest is special interesting" is the exact think i said to my husband while sitting in a circle of tamagotchis
Omg tamagotchis are SUCH a good special interest so many different characters and eras of toys and games and omg…! I can totally see how that would be an exciting world to be in hehe 🫶🏻🌸✨🌈💖
@Pixielocks The new unis just dropped and so did the connections rerelease, im thriving. Plus the uni has events now and a feature like streetpass? Quite the time to be alive as a tama fan
I love tamagotchis! Kuchipatchi is my favorite.
Not the toe wave 😭 But seriously, it sucks that people won't leave you alone. You deserve to exist on and offline as someone with DID, and it's for sure frustrating to not feel safe talking about certain things. I & we hope things get better for y'all 🥰🤟💜
A Pinkie Pie BPD rabbit hole theory actually sounds like an intriguing subject, lol.
right?? i watched an hour long video about the neurodivergencies of Cat Valentine and i don't even like that show lol !! (video by CJ the X, btw) i would be THRILLED to hear a similar theory about a show i love from someone with experience in the subject !!
As someone with a stigmatized mental illness, no matter what you do, you will be criticized. Prioritize your peace. People are way too comfortable making bold claims about people they only know from the internet. Also, the journey to find/replace a good therapist is always a struggle. Having a dissociative disorder or personality disorder makes it even harder. The fact that your face was used in that medical conference presentation is abominable, I emailed them when it happened. To anyone struggling with dissociation on any level, I highly recommend the book Dissociation Made Simple by Jamie Marich, PHD. She interviews people with DID and related disorders from all walks of life and gives a relatively radical perspective on what it means to live with a dissociative disorder.
It is so epic that you are feeling good these days! I know trauma therapy can be tough its great you found a helpful therapist :3
(despite the horrible ableism thrown your way those people should seriously loose their jobs they are not helping)
also a Pinkie Pie BPD video would be so awesome!
17:29 as someone who’s starting to really crack the egg of trauma therapy, we really needed to hear this 🫶🏻💫🌷 thank you for the slumber party vibes! so excited for the new weekly schedule! 🌈🍓🌱
As someone who’s been watching you since I was 14 (22 now omg time flies!!) and watched basically every video since, I’m glad you know you have your core audience who will never disappear. I quite literally grew up with you and seeing you go through similar stuff as me was so comforting. Mental health is messy and most of us go through that stuff privately so I can’t imagine how hard it is to have those moments picked apart by people online 🩷 but through all the years, ive always loved ur content no matter what uve done (i still wear egl tho haha 😋) so do the content u want to do, whether that be fashion or my little pony or mental health, even if u stop uploading for a year, im still gunna come back to see the next video. Seeing people talk about u is the same feeling i got in highschool hearing people diss a friend, knowing they didnt know them properly, that was never going to change how i see that friend. Anyway going back to being a pretty silent viewer 🩷🎀🐻
I am so proud of you. :) you are a strong person, and i can tell you are mentally intelligent because you know your limits, and you are able to identify what makes you feel unsafe. Your safety is so important! Protect your joy.
Please stay safe and don’t share anything you aren’t comfortable with or doesn’t feel safe. Take care of yourself, much love x
i would love a channel where you just talk about your issues but as you said in the video people online can get really nasty over such issues. it really sucks how being emotionally open with your audience like that can create such a divide in your viewerbase. thats usually how i start to really connect with content creators, so its incredible unfortunate how that also brings the most stress and drama in many cases. stay strong as always pixie! remember you still have many people who love and care for you!
Hope you're okay!! 🩷 Excited for the return of slumber party sesh tho 🌸 Update: hearing about your harassments always makes me so sad 😭 You're such a sweet & genuine person and I hate seeing other people treat you so badly :( I think it's so important to put your own safety first! But I do get that it totally sucks that you can't share about your DID online safely 💔 But yeah, yay for good therapists!! 🌸🌸
I have been watching since 2016 and have been too afraid to leave a comment in fear that I would come off as too parasocial or annoying in case you've gotten a lot of comments like this. I started watching you around the time I was seriously wondering if I had DID. When you did get diagnosed it really encouraged me to go to therapy. But I still didn't till about a year ago (2023). I relate to so many of your struggles and it makes me so happy to see how far you have come. You've been a long time comfort UA-camr for me. When you posted more about DID, it was too triggering for me and I couldn't watch. But when you casually talk about it here like this, it makes me feel not alone. To see that you and Stevie have been together so long and someone actually wanted to marry someone with DID in real life has healed me in some ways, so thank you for sharing that even with the stigma. The fact you have overcome/are fighting many of the same problems that I have and we are the same age and have many of the same interests inspires me. I hope you continue to make UA-cam videos for as long as it makes you happy and for a long time 😊.
I find it so weird that if people don’t agree with someone on everything, they no longer believe they have the right to exist. The internet has trained people to believe every bit of content they consume should serve them as an individual and if it doesn’t, instead of moving on, they attack it. No matter what someone thinks about your mental health, political values, life choices or whatever, you have so much to offer just as a human being and it’s frustrating that people reduce others to one quality that they find uncomfortable.
dude the thing about the presentation literally made my jaw drop. that is so beyond infuriating and horrific and shit like that (as well as my own first hand experiences within the mental health industrial complex) makes me feel like the field has had so little progression. so many people who get jobs in the mental health field have little to no empathy and dont care about the humans that theyre supposedly helping. im so sorry you went through that, Pixie. ♡
I have never been this early to a vid omg (I actually got the notification for once!) edit: also wanted to pop in to say that I (and I think the majority of your audience) totally understand the step back from mental health content. I am so thankful for what you’ve been willing to share (it actually motivated me to finally seek out trauma therapy!!!) but you gotta stay safe above everything. Sending u good vibes 🥰🥰
I've been watching your content for a long time because I love colourful fun fashion stuff. I got diagnosed with DID a few years before you. Even having no online presence people are still wild about it all. I am in my 30's now and it never stops being hard but making new better memories to outnumber the unfun times is worth it. Really cheering you on. Hope the five petal flower launch goes amazing for you
Re: Canadian healthcare, don't worry, I'm paying over a hundred a month for private American Healthcare and I still don't have a general doctor because of the shortage 🙃
Same boat whether you go bankrupt over it or not.
Yup. Where I'm at any specialty referral is at least 3mos; my son needed a GI and he's been waiting since Feb. & I believe his appt is next week (he's 20). I have EDS and the waitlist was 2.5yrs so they told my pcp what to do & after I was dx hypermobile type they said bc the waitlist is so long they won't see hypermobile folks-- just make sure you have a pcp, a neuro, a cardiologist, & a PT. Luckily I did have all of those already. The US Healthcare system sucks so bad & I have top notch insurance.
Can’t watch at this very moment but saved to my watch later!! Please stay safe Pixie 🩷 Self care and love to you all ✨
I'm glad I'm not the only one who does this🎉
I HAVE RETURNED 😏 watching rn 0:14
I love you....and your 'passions' like Ponies, the letter "W", happy faces, Dom's nose, Thomas the Tank Engine, Tweety Bird, Pretty Cure, Peeps ..... xoxoxo
Loved this! I know you used to have an advice portion and i think it might be cool to have an "Ask a Pixie" 'column'(video) for people writing in for advice that is hyper specific, similar to your reddit video.
Thank you for making this video! I woke up with a bad depression episode and I really needed to hear this.💕💕
I've already commented about the harassment on your community post, so I won't repeat myself, but I'm here to say that I'm really happy that you found an informed therapist!!!! Yessss! 🥳🙌🏼I'm also in Canada and without a GP... the health system is in shambles in Quebec. 🫠 Also, just like My Little Pony keeps you afloat, your videos have the same effect on me, so thank you for uploading! 💖 (Also, whenever I get the notification on my phone, I will run to get my laptop to watch instead of watching it on my phone, because I need the full rainbow immersion, if that makes any sense. 🌈🦄🤩)
you’ve been my comfort creator for the past 8 or 9 years, im so glad you’re doing well!! 💕 (or as well as you can be with people being so crappy? omg?? i hate people sometimes??) but these videos are such a safe space for me & others ur amazing!! 💕💕💕
It's so good to see you found a new therapist that knows a lot about did!
And I'm happy to see yall having a schedule and being able to follow thru!! Honestly doing what's best for you and for your mental health without worrying too much about views is really good~
And also love the fact that when you do videos with certain topics you get lighter comments. That must be really good for your mental health!
I have PTSD. I'm proud of you! glad you've been doing your thing and doing it well. Honestly my aesthetic is rlly different from yours but I came for the rainbows and stayed for the mental health solidarity.
💙💛💗
we love a lil bakery
I’ve NEVER been this early but the title scared me so I had to click 😮
Literally same!
i adore this kind of video, its really nice to hear you talk about what you feel comfortable sharing, it makes me feel less alone in my mental health struggles. your perseverance and hard work does not go unnoticed!
Ahhhhhhh!!!! Literally so excited to see the first drop for 5PF
Havent been here in like a bajillion years (haha jill) but i am so happy to see you guys happy!!
I'm schizoaffective (bp1 type) so i totally relate to the "cycle" thing. I find *myself* exhausting. It really is just coping and rolling with the punches.
I think a lot more people might like a little life with a little job and a little house than you might realize. It's so hard to come by. Our little brains def werent made for social media
Pixie, we adore you! Every time that we have the privilege of seeing any content from you, it truly makes our day. We’re so proud of you, & thank you for being such a ray of sunshine. Our world is better with you in it. 💖
it has been so wonderful watching pixie slowly gravitate towards the interests i was starting to have when i found their channel ten years ago (namely MLP and egl fashion). i am still deep in the sauce on both of those, at least when the hyperfixation calls, and it's so nice to see someone else indulging in them !! especially MLP; it feels like everyone who used to make pony content stopped, an absolute travesty. it also greatly helps the slumber party vibes imo !! we are catching up on life, but also ponies surely must come up lol. glad to hear you're doing well, pixie system !!
I’ve been here since the beginning and will continue to be here for u 💖 I love your content. I admire how strong you are and how you can remain so happy and positive in spite of how people treat you. I look up to you a lot and you inspire me to be myself fully and without apologies 💖
Love being a part of this community fr fr love u pixie. If no one likes you I’m dead
I'm gonna do my nails too while watching this. Also I get so hard trying to find a qualified therapist. In the first intake I had in person with my recent new therapist (3 weeks going strong) I had to obviously disclose what I've been diagnosed with and he didn't seem intimidated but he also doesn't seem responsive much at all so its :// I miss the trauma specialist that diagnosed us but my insurance changed and it's been a haasle even since. I refuse to educate another therapist about DID cause thats not my job 😭
Sending so much love for your continued wellness, Pixie! 🩷
I had to pause the video and go grab my nail stuff from the closet so i could do my nails with you 😂 me and my headmates are big fans! We also love kawaii style and it’s pretty much all we wear these days!
stay safe, do your thing, and don't let anyone stop you from living your life the way you have to in order to survive. the internet is a hard place to be - but logging off is easy : ) if you need to take a little step back, do it with joy! we'll still all be here hanging out whenever you come back.
also PLEASE i am begging for an hour long pinkie pie has bpd video LMNKJBH it would be so epic to hear you do a bunch of special interest power hours LOL
I know I’ve def said this before, but I love videos like these! Really does feel like I’m on the phone, catching up with a friend 💕 just makes my little heart happy and grounds me a little more to this earth ✨
That’s so awesome that you have a great therapist as part of your support network!
I have always appreciated your videos and your candidness, and I especially appreciate them now that I am going through my own mental health healing journey; I was recently diagnosed with BP2, which answers so many questions about why I am the way I am, but also it is exhausting! To be constantly monitoring myself, moods and behaviors. My psychologist just told me this week that she is moving and I am devastated; she is looking for someone new for me, but I'm just sad. I don't want to rehash things with someone new. Thank you for sharing.
1. Super proud of you for how far you've come, this was nice
2. Pinkie undeniably has BPD I've been saying this I'm so glad you get it
3. You said your ending thingy different!!! Wwooooaaahh
I've been watching you since the Lolita days and I think it's so interesting how our experiences are so different but for me right after high school in 2019 I was in a high. Everything was great I was so confident, doing well in school and had a boyfriend. Then the pandemic happened and that relationship went sour and stayed sour for the next 2 years. I'm just now feeling better about myself and my life. I started going back to school. I feel motivated to take care of my health. Will have money coming in soon. But I discovered I have executive dysfunction or ADHD and most definitely autism. With the new scary changes and being in a relationship that wasn't for me, I experienced burnout and couldn't clean my room for years. Let myself overeat and really just didn't not care to live. I'm glad you're doing great and I think it's really cool we're experiencing highs together
this is such a lovely video 🥺🫶 I appreciate your candor and your grace, especially in the face of negativity and hate and your maturity and boundaries with sharing online!! yous have the right to keep things private 🥺🩷 your comfort and stafey is number 1, always! 🌸🥺🫶🩷
I picked up that same nail polish!!! I couldn't resist it in the store, it was just the PERFECT pink! I try to only buy nail polish on sale, but that color got me!b😅 I'm really glad your and your system doing well, Pixie! Finding a new therapist is stressful enough without having to deal with that extra helping of bullshit you should never have had to go through. ❤❤❤
I'm really glad to see you're doing better and moving on! I think I said before but the strength and integrity you show in the face of hate is something that inspires me on my own YT journey. Like I'm still a small UA-camr with a small audience but I am still afraid of how big my audience already is and how much bigger it might get. It's affecting my ability to enjoy the hobby I share with the world, and I'm trying to figure out how to get that joy back. So far, all I can think to do is keep going and hope the passion will return and the fears will fade. I hope I can get to a better place and find those strategies like you 💖
Weekly videos sound so fun. Either way, I do look forward to ur videos. They are very comforting to me :3 Thank you for talking about how ur doing, it's awesome to hear that ur doing alright despite gross people.i think some people see talking about others as gossip and interesting drama but it isn't it's people's lives :[ please stay you, with whatever that means.
I can only imagine how hard it must be to put your mental health status out to the world. I have something as well that a lot of people don’t understand and don’t believe. It’s probably even harder to not have the luxury to be able to hide it, not saying that masking it is a good idea, but we aren’t in a world unfortunately where people understand others like us. And when we try to explain it the way that others may understand, they think we are making light of it and having ‘fun’ with it. Sometimes it may be the case, but mental stuff like that is a lot harder and not as much as sunshine and rainbows as others may perceive. That, and a lot of people don’t want to see that kind of thing. I feel like it’s a no win situation for people like us.
Stay strong, stay safe, and I’m proud of you for sharing your experience to the world. You never had to, but it’s nice to hear a voice like ours that can actually speak out.
18:12 girl i had to back up bc i was just listening and not watching and i was like "whAT?" 🤣
I wish there was a youtube for nice people. Only people who have something supportive and positive to say. Love you Pixielocks!
I'm so happy for you Pixie!!! Looking forward to the launch of Five Petals! 🥰🥰✨✨✨✨
I'm so so glad that you've found another good therapist who believes you and validates what has and is happening to you, and knows more about DID because they're a professional! You guys deserve that kind of consistent support from a professional, on top of your social support system. So glad that you guys are still improving and feel (as much as possible) safe.
- someone who has been watching for a bunch of years, studied psychology in school and focused a bunch on DID stigma, and also has a bunch of mental health issues
Excited to have regularly scheduled pixie content!!
Thank you for being a cozy channel! Keeping smaller communities safe and fun is hard but you are doing it!!
yippeee thank you for the slumber party realness 🤲🏻💗 made my break at work so fun
To say you've had so much rubbish thrown at you lately, its lovely to see how you're pushing through still! So proud of your progress and congrats on a new therapist! Excited to see more of this era emerge!!
as someone who’s also a system, we’re also getting harassed on social media and getting fake claimed , it’s INSANE
PIXIE!!!!! POST THE PINKIE PIE BPD VIDEO AND MY LIFE IS YOURS! /ref (I love the idea of random little videos of random topics. That would be so fun and so real)
My therapist has started doing some IFS work with me and HOLY SHIT I’m glad she doesn’t use any of that terminology, wtf
The "free health means noone can access it" 😭thats exactly it here in norway too. Waitlists are years long
I've been watching since 2016 I believe! I have always enjoyed watching Pixielocks videos!
13:15 It makes me extremely sad that u feel like you gotta clarify this :( real confetti club members will not be making u feel this insecure about your own content- DO WHATEVER U WANT FOREVER PIXIE!!! This is your work, your channel, your life :( I mean damn I would love to see whatever you put up . Like I would EAT UP a precure psychoanalysis 3hr video tbh 😭😭 or your guide to MLP in the style of ur Precure one!!! 🩷🩷🩷
The amount our lives have been similar is crazy to me. Like our struggles haven’t been the same but like when we have had our ups and downs have been so in sync. I’m so happy that we are both in a good positive place and I’m able to be as happy for you as I am for me.
Very comfy, very nice and squeaky clean feeling, we love you Pixie! All of yous! ❤
so so SOOO happy to hear about how well y'all have been doing >w< also so glad there were no nailpolish comforter tragedies TvT
this is such a cutie lil video!! so glad you’re doing better and found a good therapist. we would absolutely love a bpd pinkie pie video ahh! also so excited for the brand drop eeeee!!!
9:20 I discovered IFS early this year and it’s been a total paradigm shift for me in terms of my emotion regulation. It’s been very useful to me and it’s one of my current major interests. *But even I’m* not a fan of the labels “manager”, “exile” and “firefighter” for my parts, because they haven’t been very applicable to me. I’m ironically finding more relatability with plural labels like “persecutor” and “little” even though I barely consider myself plural! I think the IFS model would do better if it could expand to accommodate more labels that describe more parts/alters for inclusivity sake.
But more on topic to the video, I’ve always appreciated the work you’ve put into your channel Pixie! You’re one of those UA-camrs to me where you could talk about any subject and I’d be interested, whether it’s about your crafts, interest, collections, mental health, or anything new. I hope you still enjoy making videos for years to come!
7:13 girrrrrl wtf?? I don't have any context but this sounds terrible. I don't want to be overly dramatic but I actually teared up just imagining being in this situation..
I'm so glad you found your therapist 🌸✨🙏
Omggg if you want the context my video “My Response” was my response to it, they used a number of people’s content including mine and it was a huge deal. Thankfully a ton of people stood up against it including professionals in the DID field. Lots of people made videos about it at the time as well if you feel like going down a rabbit hole, but it’s not a happy fun one 😭
This was fun to watch while I was on my lunch break at work. Just sat eating my cold pizza, charging my phone, and watching along. 💖 Definitely a chill vibe on this dreary Texas afternoon.
@3:38 Mood quote of the day: “I don’t need to be the Costco hotdog”! That pretty much sums things up for me 🙃
I am so excited about a weekly upload! I watch ALL your videos and LOVE LOVE LOVE your content!! BTW I received my diagnosis last January for BPD with alters, ADHD, and Autism Spectrum Disorder, so I got hit with the trifecta of neurodivergence and they all kinda blend into each other, so it's nice to finally have answers, but I had to take a break from posting on TikTok and online due to the hate and burnout I was receiving and feeling. Your content makes me feel seen and like a "normal" person, whatever that means.
we adore you pixie 💘 excited for the weekly vids!
I am having a wee watch of this before I go rollerskating - Pixielocks is the perfect niche for me, I am always so happy to see you upload and I get so many ideas of cute ways to manage my own mental health
Really happy to hear things are going better for you! I’m excited for the weekly uploads.
Needed a calm video like this today ;w;
not to be parasocial but this felt like face timing a childhood best friend in the best way possible 🩷 love you pixie !!
I've been waiting 20 months so far for an adhd therapist and medication in the uk. Im suffering so much xx
Love the slumber party vibes! honestly you could post whilst being in a burlap sack and id happily watch 🥹💗
me drinking my 11am baha blast: yesss coffee yes
But I'm SO SO SO GLAD you are doing well and feel like you are on the up and up!! PIXIE SLAY SEASONNNN
Weeeee thank you angel 😭💖
Okay girl I love you and I get it with the healthcare having to wait but….living in a place with no free healthcare, having surgery cost me 31,000 dollars, when I see my doctor just for a check up it is over $100…
Was just crossing my fingers and hoping Thursday was the upload day this week 😭🙏 a blessing!!!
@@maxwellversed :D hehe
yay!!! this video made me so excited for what’s to come ☺️🫶🏻
this vid posted for me when i get home from therapy?? THANK YOUUU!!!
dude you're so cool and i love seeing you on here !!!! ☺️💐🌸💕
fully parasocially, you're always a big comfort to me being the same age, same country, with similarly-timed (but wildly different!) struggles, and im just really grateful for you n ur stuff 🩷
it's a cool reminder to see someone i think is super awesome and successful who has undeniably dealt with obstacles and done things non-linearly, to also give myself some grace for feeling so setback by crap for years now 🥲 (NOT that i wanna compare what we've been through at ALL bc ik mine is not on the same scale as u!! u have my utmost respect!!!)
ANYWAY, thanks for the sleepover lol!! much love to you, your parts, partner, n kitties 🥰🙏💕✨🌈🌷🐈🐈⬛
pixie i've been watching you since I was just starting highschool & now I'm in my third year of design school!!! I never leave comments but I wanted to say I am really enjoying all of your recent content & I'm beyond happy to see you doing better!!! Keep it up-- excited for fpp!
As someone who's never watched a songle episode of My Little Pony, i would RAVENOUSLY consume an hour-long video of you armchair diagnosing Pinkie Pie and it would probably be the highlight of my week, and i would tell all my friends about "this cool youtube video essay I watched this weekend"
LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS VIBE SM!!! ALSO THE PINKIE BPD VIDEO WILL SLAY I SAY ABSOLUTELY YES DO IT AS A BPD-ER MYSELF this was a very incredibly comfy video to watch kyaaaaa!! ❤️💫🖤✨
really loved catching up with you pixie, love you lots 🫶
i was watching it laying in bed like hhihihi twinsies but i eventually fall asleep bc i was so tired,,, so a nap later im rewatching it in the pc desk ily
I love these slumber party videos so much. It feels like being on a video call with a big sibling.
It's good to hear you're doing so well ❤ I'm excited for weekly videos and I DEFINITELY want to hear anything you have to say about ponies because I also looooove ponies (especially Pinkie Pie)
ALSO ALSO not sure where in the process the announcement for shipping for 5PF will be but !! I really hope u can ship to the uk ;-;; it would be a dream of mine to be a 5PF collectorrrr
I will definitely ship internationally :D need to look into the most affordable options because Canada Post can be coo coo banana 🍌
I love seeing you feeling so positive 💓
I’m 1000% with you on the bakery analogy!! 😌🙌🏽