Finding Autism ... (Why I'm NOT Leaving YouTube part TWO)
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- Опубліковано 29 сер 2024
- How did I work out what being autistic meant as a teenager 40 years ago? Why do I make videos about autism now? What do people want from me? I had to answer all these questions and more to work out where to go next after massive life changes.
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I was very late diagnosed but relate so much to everything you said. We autistic elders have so much to offer so I'm glad you're staying on here. Thank you Quinn! 💜
" autistic elders" - I love that tag - I think I'll use it about myself - so much better than confused & baffled middle aged bloke :)
Those of us who developed without "intervention" have important experience. To be honest, the exploitative autism industry is hurting and limiting young autistics.
Hold the line, Quinn!
There are plenty of UA-cam channels to choose from for those not satisfied with your content. Your channel, along with others, has been invaluable to my journey of self identification in my 50's.
You do you.
"Why my honesty wasn't recognized let alone earning the trust I was led to expect". Oh my that one was hard to understand when I was young. My dad often said "That big mouth of yours will get you in trouble!!", when all I'd done was ask (what to me was) an honest question along the lines of "why?". I was simply curious!! The pain of being hurt or punished for unintended challenges to authority like that ironically led me to become someone who constantly questions authority and anything else that others accept without question.
You are my favorite Autism channel. When you put up a video I sit and watch. I concentrate on what you are saying, including going back a few bits if my mind wanders. I listen to you on normal speed, instead of speeding it up like I often do with others. Your content is very valuable.
I appreciate you pushing back against the manipulative advice of UA-cam. One of my political channels has begun using clickbait titles and changing them up . I've unsubscribed, despite the excellent quality of their coverage. I don't want to encourage their slide into gaslighting.
Currently, I'm trying to lower my grocery bill and do other cost-cutting practices, including memberships. Some day I look forward to reversing that and returning to giving for such value as you give us. Thanks for being you. I really appreciate learning how you have gotten to where you are.
Thanks again Quinn. If the UA-cam algorithm doesn't recommend this to enough people, we'll have to find another way to spread your message to the neurotypical world, especially to those who are open-minded but still lack accurate knowledge. Looking forward to future content.
I was late diagnosed at 56yo. 3 years ago. I still do not really understand what it means except it caused a lot of misery and difficulty in my life. It probably still is. You are one of the few social media sites that seem to be sensible and practical. Very little: woe is me! I am disabled! Life is so difficult!
Thank the stars there are humble people like you out there. In this dark and foreboding world you're needed more than ever.
Thank you Quinn for your honesty. You have helped this (very) late diagnosed 63 year old in more ways than you will ever know. Keep going friend, you are one of the very few autistic channels that I follow on UA-cam for that very reason 😊
I'm very late to this particular 🥳 party! I'm 65 and only just figured it out. One of my main sources was your channel. I've got another 18 month wait for my official diagnosis but I know. I know that large numbers of my family are also autistic. Please don't stop sharing your unique perspective as you are needed more than you can possibly understand. I laugh out loud at some of the other content creators when they say they were late diagnosed. Then have no idea how bad it really is. I'm glad they don't but listening to you gives me hope and understanding. Thank you from the very bottom of my heart!
As a fellow autistic oldster, i love your channel. I hope you keep on keepin on.
Thank you for your honesty and for not following the typical "UA-cam way of doing UA-cam". I find myself nodding my head in agreement and understanding many times throughout your videos. Keep being you Quinn!
Sir, you are probably one of the more relatable human beings I may ever have heard from.
I was born in 1977. I was punished for my behaviors since I was two.
I grew up in an era where books were how I learned information, and I was an adult when I finally heard the term "autism" to identify why my life was so painful and difficult, and I was lured into the ideology to "stop" the things that were perceived as "bad" until I was 30 years old and heard someone speak of autistics as something acceptable, a concept I have not felt for most of my life... acceptance. I want acceptance, not this hate for things I do that are a bother to typical people. My autistic friends like my autistic self more than any typical thing I was trained like a dog to perform.
We I feel, relate so strongly, as proof to myself we were never broken to begin with... society trying to making us more like "them" (the typicals), is what broke me.
I am always amazed at the way you can articulate your experience in a way that is relatable to me at such a deep level. I wish there was a way to talk with you personally but I guess I'll never get the chance to. I really think your channel has given me hope about the questions that plagued me all of my life.
Perpetual Party Pooper over here 😊 😂I can attest to how validating it is to understand personal experiences and the self through carefully constructed scripts 🍀
Thank you Quinn, I was diagnosed in 2023 I’m 48 this year and every single video of yours - (yes I binged watch all your videos over the last 6 months since finding you lol) - I can relate to and they have helped me SO MUCH, from understanding traits, to letting go of guilt and shame after meltdowns and arguments
You’ve helped so much so thank you 😊
All well said. (and pls scrap the white background..hurts my eyessss!)
Black is also my preference for the same reason, though it's more typical for me to listen to videos without watching.
@@SlugcatEmporiumMy audio processing is not that great otherwise that would be a great fit for me too.
You are Quinn and you are great. Keep on keepin on.
I very much enjoy your videos and listening to you speak. Sorry to not have any helpful answers for you, but wanted to voice my support anyhow. 😊
You know, this was my first UA-cam channel on the journey of figuring out I was probably autistic, or at least similar enough to benefit from more information. I'm also ADD and often don't fully listen to longer videos, rather drifting in and out unintentionally. This is one of two channels I can stay tuned into during longer videos - this is the only one related to autism (the other is The Why Files, for context). I don't know why. It may be the format, or the pacing, or the wording, any number of things. But I like it. And clearly, from the many comments before mine, I'm not alone. Keep on doing you, Quinn, you have a dedicated audience, and even if it's a gamble, the odds are already in your favor.
I've noticed some of the channels on UA-cam that tend to get a millions of views, like those English teacher ones, give out incorrect information, like the person will say all British people do this, or that, and I've often never heard of or don't do what there on about.
How many years until Autistic people are not forced to feel that something is wrong with them... learning about being autistic at a young age could have been really really helpful, as learning of it later all of a sudden brought understanding to all my past social interactions.
Much love to you and your channel, I've learned so much from it. Still unsettled by the second "a" in the name. Grateful to you and the incredible work you put into communicating about these topics.
I was told by a paramedic here in ireland that she didn't consider me a human being while her colleague stood by in disbelief
How did this conversation occur if you don't mind my asking
"Barriers" in society and systems of processing services continue to get in my way of living life beyond struggling to survive.
For what it's worth, I've found your videos on autism the most interesting and useful.
I just wanted to say that I just found your channel this morning and I really appreciate your raw, honest, and personal perspective. Thank you for sharing your journey with me, and the rest of the world who is willing and wanting to understand what life can be like, and is like for persons with autism. I am a father (diagnosed as an adult and recently treating my ADHD without hyperactivity) who has 2 diagnosed autistic boys (3 & 6), and I am trying to learn as much as I possibly can to help them feel understood and feel good about themselves. I've definitely never looked at their diagnoses as something that will prevent them from finding success and love in life, but I do understand that they have a much different view and understanding of the world around them, and that I also needed to make adjustments to connect with them and make sure that I am being the best parent I can possibly be for them. Thanks again Quinn for sharing, and I wish you the greatest success in your life and endeavors.
Thanks for commenting and I can hope I give you plenty of reason to keep watching going forward😊
Thank you for this vid I have shared it on my facebook feed as you say very well what I'd like to be able to say. Hopefully some of the ND "friends" I have will watch it & may learn a little.
I'm not clear where you are going with your channel. I was doing content about my passion for cars etc, & including bits about my AuDHD in the hope some would learn a little. But the channel has not caught on, so I have mostly stopped. Anyway that ramble is to say if you wish to include other AuDHD people in your vids, in some way, I am happy to be a person you can talk to for one, maybe about life's issues etc.
But please keep the info and vids coming, as a person of about your age, but only recently diagnosed I find them very useful.
Dexter's Rent an Autist. lol - I have had some difficulty digesting - finishing your videos until now. I think as a late diagnosed Gen X Autistic, I guess most of the content I could watch at first needed to be more bite sized, summarized and then expanded on. Now that I have ingested and processed so much content I find your content more relatable. I think it also has something to do with generational knowledge and the ever evolving understanding of the human mind.
Algorithms have always scared me! Before the internet, even. I would read magazines back-to-front so the ads wouldn't catch my eye as they were designed to do. The idea that our thought patterns can be capitalized on by **scary voice** UA-cam, or by anyone, feels gross.
That's why your content is always top of my list! I'm a listener, not a watcher. Even so, it is lovely to see your face!
Take care, Quinn! ❤
You mention your dad's reaction. Oh my strong relate.
My dad, even with me getting a Dx, stood by his idea I was "just trying to be spoiled" unaware of how much I suffered and struggled to exist among humanity.
Are all chameleons born jesters?
I love the joke you've made in 14:11 of the video.
You've stated the correct reasons, why you should continue, and why people continue to watch your videos. UA-cam algorythms are biased probably, depending on who wrote them.
I like your videos a lot. I’m 60 and just recently diagnosed. Thanks for the content
Hi Quinn! I'm Lewis.
Thank you for these last two videos! I've seen a fair few of yours over the last year or two and I have to say I think you're one of the best Autistic UA-cam content creators out there. You're very easy to watch and listen to due to your relaxed yet intelligent style and I for one am glad you're sticking around on here!
Also, you're one of the great creators who's inspired me to start my own Neurodiversity-focussed channel on here!
Thank you for all your hard work and effort in helping fellow autistics like myself as well as allistics who want to learn more about what autism actually is. This work of yours is invaluable so please keep it going! (You are wanted and needed by so many people!)
I hope this comment finds you thriving, happy, and well.
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Good luck with your channel Lewis. I can't claim to be anywhere close to an expert in this, but if you ever get stuck & need a brain to pick, give me a shout.
@@Autistamatic Thank you Quinn! I will certainly seek your help if needed.
I was diagnosed Asperger's in 1978 at age 7. I too hid my diagnosis till the last few years. I had learn what my autistic trait impact as well many I didn't even know were autistic traits.
Great videos!
I'm middle aged, female, and looking into autism because I have problems that don't go away and led to burnout. Yeah, it's mostly information for parents of autistic children and the children are certainly not seen as fully functional. There is a risk though of lots of middle aged ppl diagnosing themselves and the diagnosis being contaminated until it loses meaning. I mean, nowadays I hear "burnout" and "late diagnosed autistic" everywhere. I don't think it's just because I'm looking into it right now, although it could be. I hope it won't be/become a fad and/or be downgraded to being a fad.
There are some in the media and in power who see benefit in dismissing as a fad anything that challenges the status quo, especially if it's costly, and this is no exception. My DX was long ago and self-identification is a relatively new phenomenon, but most people I meet who have got to the point of believing/accepting that they are autistic (usually after months or years of research & self doubt) don't cast any doubts in my mind that they are as autistic as I. If anything the diagnosis is becoming harder to obtain and if people need help with the same issues as myself, I'd question the wisdom of denying them until they've had their need confirmed by a 3rd party. Yes I do sometimes meet people who I think may be mistaken & I've been known to suggest alternative avenues of enquiry, but if someone feels broken or disconnecteed & they get comfort or hope from what I & other autistic creators do, then whatever the cause of their unhappiness or pain, better they're here finding hope than out there, cold & alone.
FWIW - I'm terrible at "sources" but on top of the colloquial evidence from years of adult assessments of "self diagnosed" folks, I thought I saw something empirical on the subject linked on social media back when I could face it. I haven't time to look for the source right now, but if I find it I'll link it. Please do the same if you find it first😊
EDIT: It's worth pointing out that considering the overlap of other neurodivergences with autism AND the prevalence of repeated mental health problems in our community it's sometimes the case that a "symptomatic" issue will be identified & treated whilst the autistic element remains unnoticed or sidelined in favour of the treatable condition.
If you find the rent-an-autist service oversubscribed, is there a contact to submit my CV?
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Hello friend.
I think we may have met a long time ago. Does the Mcguire Program, Cambridge mean anything to you? Possibly 2005?
You just seem familiar somehow. It might be your name, or your honesty and directness. Either way its a strange feeling of connectedness.
I found your channel for the first time today. Incredibly calm, rational and non- UA-cam. Im already subscribed and binge watching.
At 63 years I am only just beginning my autism and/or adhd journey. I am looking forward to a life in full colour, where I don't have to hide, not
even from myself. Thank you.
I don't think I've ever been to Cambridge, so I doubt it was me on that occasion, but perhaps elsewhere? I've been mistaken for other people more than once, but as a prosopagnosic autist, I've done the same myself more than I care to mention😂 Thank you for subscribing & I hope you enjoy(ed) your journey through the channel.
I think the song "working class hero" by John Lennon describes what it's like being autistic ignoring the working class hero lyrics. It also mentions "till the pain is so big you feel nothing at all" - alexithymia
As soon as you born they make you feel small, by giving you no time instead of it all. Till the pain is so big you feel nothing at all.
They hurt you at home and they hit you at school, they hate you if you're cleaver and they despise a fool, till your so fucking crazy you can't follow their rules.
When they've tortured and scared you for 20 odd years, then they expect you to pick a career, when you cant really function your so full of fear.
To be fair some of his music makes me curious if he was autistic. Allot of people just blame the amount of drugs he took.
My favourite at the moment is "Watching the wheels"
Like others have commented already before me, I am a late in life diagnosed Autist, I relate also to what you said. I hate the ‘medical’ terms they use in our diagnosis, pathological and comorbidity are the worst of them. There is nothing pathological about my demand avoidance, it is just how neurotypical people want to call it. They should just stick with the term for liars and kleptomaniacs. Nor having autism something that is going to kill me, though bullying, and neurotypical thinking can force a lot of young kids to suicide. Our food avoidance for texture and taste may also shorten our lives, but right now suicide is the leading cause of death for autistic people.
Can i contact you and how?
I have a monetised UA-cam channel, but its impossible to create enough content to get the videos promoted by the algorithm.
Would you like to be featured in a future Autistamatic video Gordon?
@@Autistamatic I might do. My channel got demonetised this week (again)! They require more viewing minutes. Thats why so many channels do live streams now. My videos are all quite short so its hard to get the time up.
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What does "Be more UA-cam" actually mean?😊
In this case, it means "stuff I DON'T want to do" for the most part😉😂
The next video I release (mid-May) will talk a bit more about what I've got planned & I'm really excited about it. Fingers crossed I'm past this current tranche of bad luck so I can get properly stuck in!
I love you 😂
Have you ever heard of the zeitgeist movement? I heard in your video that you don't fit well in a transactional society. I've been obsessed about a resource based economy for years. I think if we do ever colonise mars they will work under a resource based economy, working towards a better life rather then working for a paycheck. I'm hoping we do goto mars to demonstrate a new template to build our society on. Just like everybody copied America maybe we will copy martians. As things stand now technological advancement and automation is in direct competition with human employment and income.
Business Models can go get canceled for all I care.
Ruining my life, those business models.
I hate capitalism. I know how you feel. Me too.
Hard to believe only 19 comments. I think everyone is on the spectrum. Why aren't there millions of comments and subscribers?