I know exactly how you feel! I would go to bed telling myself that tomorrow it definitely wasn't happening, then I'd wake up and I'd do it all over again! And you're right, it really is physically and mentally exhausting. Maybe you were subconsciously trying to rebel against your Anorexia thoughts? Glad you're coming out of the cycle now, I think once you get out of it for a few days it's much easier to stay out of it! Keep us updated! x
congratualtions on showing this- being public. You may not now how many people are watching you, hiding away too scared to come out, to admit this horrific cycle of binge eating. I am crying right now. You are winning this moment by posting this video, even if the monster comes back tomorrow, you will win again. I have had 8 months of uncontrollable purge-binge-cycles, aggressive and violent. I know what you are talking about. Binge purge binge purge, nothing will stop it. Win each day.X
I'm eating more than I have ever right now... I eat until I feel sick but I can't control myself and it's getting worse. I always tell myself I don't need to eat that snack but I do and then I have to eat everything it's nonstop until I feel sick... It's not healthy :(
@lilmover Thanks for the big understanding hug, I really needed it. You are right about the black and white thinking, you do follow me, I am tiny_ratty,x
darling what's your twitter? do I not follow you? I hear you. . . I know just how you feel, how awful the feeling of loss of control and how hard it is to regain that. Just wanted to reach out and give you a big understanding hug. I have done exactly the same things you. Your so beautiful and well spoken. I think the reason we go from control and then NONE is because we tend to think in black and white and so when we slip a bit, its kind of all or nothing so it is possible for us to slip alot
I know exactly how you feel! I would go to bed telling myself that tomorrow it definitely wasn't happening, then I'd wake up and I'd do it all over again! And you're right, it really is physically and mentally exhausting. Maybe you were subconsciously trying to rebel against your Anorexia thoughts? Glad you're coming out of the cycle now, I think once you get out of it for a few days it's much easier to stay out of it! Keep us updated! x
congratualtions on showing this- being public. You may not now how many people are watching you, hiding away too scared to come out, to admit this horrific cycle of binge eating. I am crying right now. You are winning this moment by posting this video, even if the monster comes back tomorrow, you will win again.
I have had 8 months of uncontrollable purge-binge-cycles, aggressive and violent. I know what you are talking about. Binge purge binge purge, nothing will stop it. Win each day.X
I'm eating more than I have ever right now... I eat until I feel sick but I can't control myself and it's getting worse. I always tell myself I don't need to eat that snack but I do and then I have to eat everything it's nonstop until I feel sick... It's not healthy :(
@meggs544 Thanks Megg, we have matching fringes! being so out of control is terrifying isn't it,x
@xXRoBeRtXHaYdNXx Thanks that's really sweet, I may have to speak to my parents, but they are skint too, money hey!x
@Ilovebobbetty bahaha!! thats shocking that i've been following/talking to you and didn't know it was you! *lays head in lap*
BIG HUGS! xxx
@lilmover Thanks for the big understanding hug, I really needed it. You are right about the black and white thinking, you do follow me, I am tiny_ratty,x
darling what's your twitter? do I not follow you?
I hear you. . . I know just how you feel, how awful the feeling of loss of control and how hard it is to regain that. Just wanted to reach out and give you a big understanding hug.
I have done exactly the same things you. Your so beautiful and well spoken. I think the reason we go from control and then NONE is because we tend to think in black and white and so when we slip a bit, its kind of all or nothing so it is possible for us to slip alot
I hope all goes well. I'd send you some money if i could. Perhaps you could ask your parents for the money and pay them back later?