Im 57yrs old man and struggling with midlife crisis: Starting over - Health, Finances, being alone

Im 57yrs old man and struggling with midlife crisis: Starting over - Health, Finances, being alone
Hi Guys - Some have suggested I do a live stream, this is close to one, its about a hour long, sorry if its too long, my kids and wife had a mini picnic outside and they ddnt invite me so I stayed at home and started my negative self talk but decided to go out to the car and make a video about many subjects, some funny stories about a woke/politically correct relative saying I am a person of colour, a channel who just got demonetized for a silly reason and wandering what can people talk about online without people being hurt? My financial worries, health and relationship worries, the fact that I don't have any pension, I answered some comments or trolls and gave my response, I was very tired in the video so my speech is slow, sorry about that, sorry if I spoke of anything that may have offended, these days I'm not sure what to say in case it triggers ppl, hope the video was okay, rather long though and a bit boring.
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