Deserve Me (w/ Lyrics)
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- Опубліковано 7 вер 2024
- This is the 9th and final song off Bug Hunter's album, The Rough Draft
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Lyrics:
And it happens again
A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest
A kick to my ego, a lack of defense
As though in slow motion, you wind up again
When did this become so normal and do I deserve this?
When I met you in high school, I felt overwhelmed
at getting attention for the first time. It sounds
like a pitiful cliché, a lame kiss-and-tell
but the story takes twists and I can tell it myself
I always adored you, the way you'd stand up
for yourself and for me, but I couldn't handle
the tempers and tantrums you' throw at random
told myself it was my fault, 'cause I couldn't man up
that was the last time, I said and I said
and it happens again
A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest
A kick to my ego, a lack of defense
As though in slow motion, you wind up again
When did this become so normal and do I deserve this?
We laid out in your backyard naming every star we saw
back when both your hands were gentle and your speaking voice was soft
you joked that romans made up constellations on the spot
and I believe that even Grecians beat me at connecting dots
cause for every side you showed me, I'd soften or I'd try
to justify with reasons pleading for you in my mind
I only see you sweetly when I see the stars at night
leave it to the only person that could ruin half the sky
I just want to tell her I miss my best friend
And it happens again
A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest
A kick to my ego, a lack of defense
As though in slow motion, you wind up again
When did this become so normal…?
A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest
A kick to my ego, a lack of defense
As though in slow motion, you wind up again
What do I deserve…?
I'm finally ready to admit this wasn't my fault
to learn that love does not exist when I feel this small
and I can count on one hand the times you made me feel worthy
now I can count on one finger to say: You Don't Deserve Me
I just want to tell her I miss my best friend.
I FREAKING LOVE THE LINE “I CAN COUNT ON ONE FINGER TO SAY YOU DONT DESERVE ME”
The line "but the story takes twists and i can tell it myself" is so powerful. Having to reassure yourself or someone else that you have autonomy and can do things on your own is one of the most helpless feelings i've ever dealt with. Having to defend and explain every decision you make because one slip up is enough proof that you'll always need someone to think for you, always feeling like you need to prove yourself to someone who will never think it's enough. That line resonates with me so much
Man, the second verse is so clever. "I believe that even Grecians beat me at connecting dots," I love your lyrics! I can't get them out of my head!
Ooooof this hits close to home. So much so i think it's chilling on my sofa. Get outta here feels, shoot!
Ok, that was... fast. Thank you tho, your music is really good. Great job 👉😎👉
God dude this song hits so hard I actually started crying. It took so long for me to admit that my mother is abusive and what she has done was never my fault no matter how many times she said it was. I'm so glad you made this song and that the ending shows how you recovered and how other abuse survivors can also recover 💗
I'm so glad you could have this song! I hope your doing well and I'm proud of your attitude
Dude. Was sending this to my ma too. Then I saw your comment. You're not alone. I'm with you friend.
This response is so normal for those narcissistic and manipulative personalities. It's really really not your fault. Nothing you could've done would've changed it. And it's totally okay to still love her if you feel that way, and still acknowledge that it's totally fucked.
You are not alone
I hope you are good now I'm sorry that you had to deal with that
I have trouble learning simple things and it doesn't matter how many people tell me that helping me learn stuff isn't a big deal because I'm so used to my dad convincing me I'm not worth the effort and that I don't deserve people's help and patience I'm only just now starting to learn my dad doesn't deserve me I was patient with him no matter how many times he yelled at me but he was never patient with me when I needed help with something
I have had a bad habit in the past of giving my trust to people who have hurt me, and my road to recovery is long and I’m still working on it. But this song hits home in the best way.
Because, yeah. They didn’t deserve me. None of them did.
Man I was gonna tell you to go to sleep and then I remembered you’re on the west coast and it is, indeed, not 11:11 over there.
II'm glad that you have started to trust yourself more than the people that hurt you I would like to say you deserve better I hope you are doing well
god dude,, this song hits too close to home. complex trauma / cptsd sufferer + abuse survivor here and this song means so much to me. it helps me a lot, thank you so much for creating such great music
Man, the build up and release after the lyric "you don't deserve me" feels so cathartic. Such an awesome song!
Yeah I played it live in Dallas last night and forgot how much it pops at the end!
Man you've been on repeat for the past two days. Because I only discovered you yesterday. Why are you not crazy famous?
I’m just the right amount of both! 😅
dude i've been a big fan of your stuff since I saw you post about it on imgur a while back, I gotta say man, keep up the great work. There's something so familiar yet unique about your songs and style that just makes me need to listen to them over and over again.
Reid Winchester I need more Reid’s in the world! 😅 glad you found me man. This made my day
dear god this is like the most painful nostalgia. every time i feel guilty or like i miss them i listen to this and it just reminds me about all the shit i went through, all the times i forgave and forgot.
this song reminds me so so so much of a toxic relationship i was on fu c k
parts of the song highkey gave me chills bc of how hard it hit to home
This song helped me come to terms with something from a past relationship that wasn't my fault, and I'd blamed myself for not being man enough for a long time, and that she never deserved me anyway - she was the one who lost out, not me. And that one day I'll find someone that gives to me as much as they take.
YUUUUUUP Feel that. This song just said exactly how I felt about an ex.
Going through a break up right now and honestly this is helping a little ♥️
I think the world would genuinely be a better place if more people heard this song.
Im so proud of anyone who was able to rise above the tramua and abuse inflicted upon them and realize they deserve so much better. Ive known so many people who dont realize how fantastic and lovely they truly are beacuse theyve been kicked down by life. Their never perfect human beings (no one is) but i always see how their trying, i always see the little kindness they do, i always see the enduring humor they bring. Its not fair that they dont get to see themselves that way.
I can't say how often I heard this song in the last few months. But it still hits so close to home.
I don't think they were malicious with it, but the more I think about it, the clearer it becomes, that their behavior hurt me. Like the song says I can count on one hand the times they made me feel worthy.
I just hope I can forget them, because I can't see myself remembering them and not feeling the pain. The pain of hearing "I love you" but feeling "You're not good enough" and them never adepting to my needs while I had to tiptoe around theirs.
I hope I can forget, but I don't believe I can
“Time will revise both the perfect and the broken
So I have to write a song to keep a snapshot of the moment”
@@BugHunter Thanks for the quote. We can only hope that time doesn't revise the perfect by turning it broken
It's been at least a year of time's passage... how are you doing now? Hope you're doing well 💜
@@marnizavaleta Not quite a year, but I am doing well. Thanks for asking, kind stranger
anyone else notice this song loops?
last lyric: I just want to tell her I miss my best friend...
first lyric: ...And it happens again.
I think that's supposed to signify that the singer kept going back to he toxic relationship and that's why it "happens again"
I tried it and went "Hey this song is really long"
This hits close to home. I've dealt with two people like that. Both of them got better, but I'm still wary about him. one's my dad and one used to be my best friend.
this song made me realize that i’m the worst part of my life... anyways the _i can count on one finger to say you don’t deserve me_ part hits different
this song is so relatable to me as i’ve been through so much pain with toxic people in my life and this is like a message i would say to them.
I'm in a challenging relationship right now where all the financial responsibility is mine, as well as all the chores and household maintenance. The other person still says I dont do enough for them. Im not allowed to ask them for help, and im not allowed to talk to anyone else about it. This song gives me the confidence to say what I have to, even though I just want to tell them I miss my best friend.
Did you get out?
god my friend sent me this song and i just relate so much. ive been going through a lot lately and this song reminds me of so many people at once and it hurts so much but i get to the end *i can count on one finger to say you dont deserve me* and i feel hopeful that one day i can look back at the past few months and be happy that i was finally able to overcome it all
i’ve lost a couple fake friends recently in the past year and this song just helps me a lot because it’s honestly what i wish i would’ve said to them. they hurt me and i never truly said that they didn’t deserve me. but i also used to miss them at the same time. i don’t anymore cuz then i just think of the pain they caused me but, it’s happened that i’ve thought of them again. and i like to listen to this and finally admit that i didn’t do anything wrong and they left me because they just honestly didn’t deserve me. i still cry and get chills listening to this, by the way. thank you for your amazing music. you’re awesome and deserve only love and happiness my dude.
This song is fantastic! I cannot believe it took me as long as it has to go and listen to my back catalogue of Bug Hunter songs, I missed out on so many gems like this song and now I've been binging these songs to make up for lost time. I cannot wait to hear some really amazing songs from you live next week!
Where ya seein us!
@@BugHunter I'll be at the show in Minneapolis with my best friend, we both got into your music initially with Dear McCracken and really fell in love with your sound around when 2 Bed 2 Bath and a Ghost came out and then really started listening when WHAC released and we're both so excited to see you and Narcissist Cookbook!
I can NOT stop listening to all your songs!
Healing is a long Journey. At times it feels like the wound we suffered will never heal, we blame ourselves for being naive, trying to give excuse after excuse to people who frankly Don't Deserve Us. The pain of the good memories, and the agony of the painful ones, how we blamed ourselves. We deserved better, we see we deserved better.
"I'm finally ready to admit this was not my fault." This resonates with me alot, I blamed myself for the bullying I endured, convinced myself for so long I deserved it, that it was my fault. It wasn't my fault, not when they tried to goat reactions out of me, not when they took everything I said out of context, not when they misrepresented what I said. It wasn't my fault when they fell apart, but lately I know it wasn't my fault, I was a victim of their narcissism, egotism, and bullying.
Not every wound is physical, and the psychological healing is hard, and it takes a long time, but eventually we get there.
more music please. I have tears and I dont want them to stop flowing
This song literally explains my feelings towards my ex, thank you for this song💞
He showed me big hunter.... now he’s the message of the song...
the tune is so upbeat for such a sad song haha i kinda love it?? the ending was hella cathartic but i still have to chase this song with be glad i love you or something sweet LOL
Um... I was introduced to Toddler with a Slingshot and Pinecones. I was entirely unprepared for the left hook this was. You have a beautiful talent, thank you for putting to words what is so hard to portray. I miss my best friends too. 1 from high school, one as an adult. Even with the cross to my shoulder and the jabs to my ego.
Oof yeah this probably caught you off guard if you started there! Apologies for that, but thanks for diving deeper into our music!
@@BugHunter Absolutely no regrets! Loving every minute!
There are not words to describe the feelings that move through me when I hear this song. What an absolutely beautiful song. It literally made me cry on the spot. It was exactly what I needed to hear right when I needed to hear it. I'm still typing this through teary eyes so i apologize for the typos. Just awesome. Thank you so much!
hits hard and at the exact right time for me
Wrote a song today. Thought it was pretty great. Discovered this song and the "ruined half the sky" part is almost identical to my song lmao Great tune!
Woah dude, I never actually realised how underrated you are, I love your music! Keep up the great work!
Thanks! Growing bit by bit every day!
Bug Hunter That's great!
This hurts so much... I miss him so much... I ended our friendship because I couldn't take it anymore... He moved on, he got to be happy... I still can barely take thinking about it...
Been listening to your music all afternoon at the recommendation of a friend (thanks Liv) and I'm really digging it, keep up the great work!
Appreciate that! Thanks to you and Liv!
@@BugHunter Hi, liv here, I love your stuff so much, you responding means alot to me!
It's truly amazing how much this song has helped me with getting past an awful heartbreak . Love your music! Keep it up!
I am really not sure how these videos I’m just discovering are all years old and you are not insanely famous yet. Any day now you are going to blow up, song after song of incredible lyrics and talent.
Thank you! We’re amazed how far we’ve made it 😅 who knows what’s next
This hits. The more I listen to your music as a chubby awkward kid with adhd who moved around alot with abusive parents and who fell for the first girl to show me anything resembling kindness I have never felt so seen. Except by my wife.
I know you won't see this but I'ma yell into the void anyway. This song helped me a lot, it helped me realise how abusive my fiancée was. How no much love I put in would ever change that. How she took advantage and tried to ruin my life. And how there are so many people in the world that have felt the same things. Please, don't degrade yourself to keep a relationship going if it's not already working. I know it's a cliche but there are more fish in the sea. You can find someone better, don't degrade yourself to stay with someone who doesn't respect you.
This is genuinely one of my favorite songs ever, everything is just so perfect about it and it’s just so atmospheric❤
Thank you so much for this. I've been in two abusive and emotionally manipulative relationships, both at incredibly low points in my life. it can be so hard to get out when you've become convinced that you deserve to be treated like that by your partner, especially if you're convinced no one else will "love you" like they do. It can be so hard to learn you're worth more than that, and my heart goes out to everyone trying to learn that now. You saying "you don't deserve me" always gives me chills, because it's a line I tried so hard to add to my vocabulary for two decades. I'm grateful I can say it now, and even more so that I know when to use it to keep toxicity and harm out of my life.
Thank you for music, man. You have a bigger impact than you know. Love
Oh boy this hits way too close to home in regards to my relationship with my abusive mother. She used to be so nice to me, and it took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that the way she ended up being with me before I finally moved out wasn't my fault, and it's just her being a manipulative, gaslighting, narcissistic, generally just nasty person.
This and "Braggin" has been stuck in my head for over a week now..... A+
god this song HURTS
Absolutely in tears right now, the moment you said lost my best friend. I... Something inside of me....
It spoke to me in reference towards my mom. Thank you so much for this song. I'm here for you Bug.
I gotta say, I was looking down and bobbing my head, and then the "I can count on one finger to say you don't deserve me" part played and it filled me with such an immense amount of joy. Love it.
this song is getting me through a lot rn, thank you for making it. its literally an anthem for all the people who had to deal with this shit like this from someone they are close to, but who are also super toxic :'D. if anyone reading this is in a toxic relationship, you deserve better and make sure to get them out your life. say "you dont deserve me 🖕"
overall a really good song i listen to it all the time
Jesus christ, I just found out about this song yesterday and I couldn't stop listening to it. Mostly because of all the emotions that were in when it built up to "you don't deserve me". I can't stop listening to it and singing with all my might. And tearing up as well. It's an incredible song and I'm glad it exists! Thank you! :)
I can't wait to listen to all of these!!
this song helped me get through a lot of stuff, thanks man. 💕
Wow...
That's all I can say
Wow...
This song is fucking amazing
I know what it's like to be stuck with someone abusive, because my mum has been emotionally and mentally abusive for as long as i can remember
Great song keep it up
I love this song man!
I forgot that I was subscribed to you! But I'm glad I came across this video. Great song. 😊
This hit really hard today, thank you for making this.
Why you gotta write an album about my life man, now I have to go learn all of these songs.
This song has got me in a death grip, I’m currently getting ready to buy a handwritten poster card of some lyrics from this i love ❤️
I'm so sorry that anyone went through this or something like it I'm sorry
for the pain that I and all other have cause I hope you all are doing better I know I need to be a better person goodbye and beware the man in green
So excited to listen. Keep up the great work :)
I really love your songs! Keep it up!!
I think your subscriber counts missing a few digits, no way you're at less then 3000000 subs with this quality writing
Hey I remember when I was at 100! Doing pretty well in my book 😅
@@BugHunter 🤩
This song is my life, i cried the first time i heard it. Love your stuff guys
This is crazy. I honestly didn't know other people experienced this kind of stuff, especially in relationships. My longest relationship ended with several months of me receiving hurtful comments, attempts to change me, bad reactions when I couldn't deliver on unnecessary requests, and repeatedly forgiving her, hoping it would be the end of the emotional pain. I finally had the guts to call it off, and I haven't been faced with mean, hurtful, loveless behavior since then. Stay strong with me, friends. We deserve better.
keep doing this youre the best
i was here december 2,2021
awesome song, keep it up!
Love bug hunter 💛😭👌🏼
Awesome!! Love it bugz ❤
This is so good!
Took me so long to accept my mom being happy I'm scared of her isn't normal. That it isn't a funny joke.
I feel you man, but it's not your fault, remember that.
how did you get so good at guitar
it took me a good 5 minutes of frantic goog searching before i remembered about your bandcamp. ya gotta put the link in the video comments so we can buy the album! otherwise, aaaaa i love all of these. i've come to expect some fantastic stuff from yall.
Thanks so much! We're still in the early "spread-the-word" stage, rather than "make money" stage :D That's why we put Spotify links front and center. I appreciate you tracking it down though!
@@BugHunter pls let me throw money @ you tho, i almost died)))
Listening this at 2 in the morning deciding if i should try to forgive my gf again. And i have thoughts. I love how the title isnt "you dont deserve me" its just deserve me. Its like a pleading. Please do something to deserve me. And the last last words. I just want to tell her i miss my best friend. Wasnt she the best friend? Well she was but she isnt anymore huh? Just some thoughts. Anyway i dont know what ill do with my life. Have fun anyone listening and i hope everything goes well
At 2x speed this straight up sounds like a rock song
Wow, you are really good
Это песня очень классная
Жалко что её мало кто слышал
Fuck this is a good song kinda a cliche but in high school im the skinny nerd im not popular but i got a few mates around 3 months ago i developed my first actual crush loved her personality finnaly asked her out she said she had a crush on me 2 heres were it goes bad me thinking i would never get a partner let alone a semi popular and hot one i basicaly lost my shit if i had won the lottery i wouldve felt ths same but i ignored so many red flags she was the basic opposite of me stronger smarter extroverted confident that kinda thing naturally we would want different things in a relationship i pushed my friends away like a dick then i was paranoid if she just said yes to be nice and ive basicly been trying to figure shit out and (heres the important part) i now realize how shit shes treated me anyway were getting better mainly because this song made me realize how shit our relationship was so really thank you bug hunter i love the rest of the songs 2 your music desevers a lot more attention and to all the nobody's out there the nerds and outcasts keep pushing like look at my profile pic im the scum of the earth if i got someone u guys can 2
Do you have an instrumental version available?? I would love to be able to sing this song for someone.
Holy shit wait is there a second voice? A girl voice I've heard this so many times over the past months and I never heard it
Yep! That’s Stephanie Mae doing harmonies!
Your songs become great study songs when you do 1.1x speed. Just fast enough to not follow every word in your head so you can focus on the work.
:)