I was a straight guy, and I have fallen hard for a gay guy. We are now together. ☺️ Last week he had me watch this series and now my heart hurts in a good way. The scene where Nick googles about his sexuality hits me so hard. I guess I also had my moment of a gay crisis at one point.
I Always knew I was different when I was a kid and I did the same I was searching all the questions haveing a panic and I’m proud to say I’m gay been out for a while and I feel so mush free! And your story is amazing! Thanks for sharing it too is all happy pride 🏳️🌈
Yes, women have said that two women kissing has often been used to titillate straight men, but here it was used to actually help nick realize the beauty of a love he could have and not at all sexualized in that way.
@@Cub1985 And also he was able to take notice that the world didn’t reject them in the moment. It was beautiful and natural and everyone was getting on with their own fun.
I'm addicted to Nick Nelson. He's just charming. A captivating character. And Kit Connor's performance was perfect. You really believe he loves Charlie.
Yes me too. He is such a sweetheart, lovely, gentle, and caring person. No wonder every person would like him regardless of gender. I envy him actually for how brave and matured he was in handling his emotions and exploring his sexuality. I hope to be like him someday, beautiful soul.
I've never sobbed so hard at a heartstopper scene than the one where Nick looks up his sexuality and does research, such a painfully relatable experience. Literally felt like 12 uear old me, being absolutely terrified of anyone finding out. Heartstopper is truly a gem 💓💜💙
@@ivyhidde7419 Sexuality and identity are complex. Don't measure your journey by someone else's ruler. Just do things however you feel fit. It gets better. And it is a beautiful experience to make it to the other side. You got this!
this show has been living rent free in my mind for more than a week, there's something about seeing nick realize he likes charlie more than just a friend that keeps me wanting to watch it over
So right! As a teen, I always was more into guys than girls and I thought that once I reached 18 I would become str8 but that didn't happened and I've learned to accept myself for who I am and not for what others perceive me to be.
once in a while we come across a kind and gentle soul that entraps many others. A soul that oozes kindness, that becomes contagious....Joe Locke brings Kit Connor along for the journey of his life....and ours.
I know how you feel, the series has really hit me hard… in a good way! I literally can’t stop watching it and the series has become like a comfort sort of thing that just calms me, I’ve never enjoyed watching a series so much in all my life Alice and the cast and crew captured nick and Charlie so well ❤
@@nathanwilkinson237 I totally agree with you. I don't know how many times I watched the first season. Personally, it hit me so deep that even I can't understand it. So many unresolved or unresolved issues from my past came up. I think I see it a little every day. I've read the entire collection too, and each time I think that the LGBT world has never been explored so well, with such delicacy and seriousness. I love kit Connor and I believe that no one would do Nick Nelson better than him. ❤️
I fell in love with orla gartland's voice the moment i heard this song like wow. there arent enough words in any language to describe how perfect it is and how well it fit in this very moment, the scene where nick questions his sexuality like- absolute perfection
also, how many people has died from screaming at the top of their lungs at an ungodly hour to tell our beautiful nick to HOLD CHARLIE'S DAM HAND LIKE JUST DO IT ALREADY THERE ISNT A PERSON WATCHING THIS GODAM SHOW WHO DOESNT KNOW THAT YOU'RE IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY i mean, we're all pretty much in love with charlie but still JUST DO IT
This will always be my theme song for Charlie and Nick... The thing I loved most about this story is that Nick fell in love with Charlies Softness of heart and his kind and gentle nature. And not his genitals. I pray they never do a sex scene. I am afraid to watch any more of the story because it meant so much to me and I pray it does not become tawdry or defiled in anyway.
i agree but sex only ever comes when you love someone. i would be suprised but not shocked if there was, because the two characters and actors that play nick and charlie have good chemistry. i understand your point and i dont think they will ever even do a sex scene but if they were too, it wouldnt be a bad thing anyways??
@@ofwgktadgaf. No dis to you, but it would be a very bad thing for me. I am a gay man who has been out for 44 years, and this has a purity to it that no one has ever even come close to before. I am NOT a goodie two shoes, I have watched porn, but this needs to stay innocents for me. I think I will not watch a season 2. Thank you very much for replying to me. Truly, no disrespect to your point of view.
@@bertwesler1181 well i’ve got good news for you! this news does contain spoilers for the comic/webtoon of Heartstopper, so read with caution! the comic by alice oseman has never actually included a sex scene! Netflix did make a few changes like the addition of Imogen, or changing Aled to Isaac. but i doubt Netflix would go as far as creating a sex scene when there wasn’t one originally edit: also just recently found out that those changes were made by Alice Oseman herself! (the writer/artist/author). so yeah! i don’t think Alice would really allow Netflix to make a change as drastic as- nick and charlie doin the tango.
@@bertwesler1181 understood! i absolutely agree with you, this has a purity that i dont think anything could really com close to, but yes i was just saying that if there were to id fully understand but yes! ( i dont even think there would be a sex scene to begin with ! ) thankyou for letting me hear about yourself. have a great day/ night .!
Ive laughed and cried and even punched the air when Nick and Charlie kissed for the first time. The muscles in my cheeks ache from constantly smiling. TV at it's very best.
I don't normally comment on this stuff but this show has seriously made me rethink everything in my life. Seeing Nick and Charlie together it makes my heart just stop. I feel so connected specially to kit Connor (Nick) and I just can't stop thinking about it. It hits hard. And to be so connected to the show and to Nick it's just completely changed me.
I loved this story to an embarrassing level. I have never seen a movie or show, (and I am a huge~! Book, Theater, TV and Movie fan, I believe that the thing that separates humans from animals is our story telling), where every single actor, every single scene and every single cinema graphic was freakin PERFECT. This offering was cathartic for me. I have been out for 44 years, but this fulfilled something in me that has been missing all along. I have seen several other gay love stories, but this is the most innocent, sweet and wholesome love story I have ever seen. When I say that I loved it to an embarrassing level, (Dear God~!) I mean, I binge watched it 8 times in a week and a half. (and I have only ever binge watched one other show, ever, and that was only once through.) What sets this master piece aside from all other gay stories is both that it is one of the first none tragic love stories and it has not one single seen for the prurient of heart. Just awesome... Many tears of joy...
for some reason this song hit so hard when watching the show and I love it. but after the 10 time listing to it I got why. "why I'm like this?" is something every queer person has ask them self at one moment and I cried. Great song!!
So why am I like this Why am I like this Why am I like this, why am I...... so accurate. I love this song. Anyone else feel when Nick Typed am I gay? And wanting to say Don't do it......but knowing that it needs to happen. This perfectly fits the whole show.
Feeling this soooo real and I realize how much I relate with all comments here Wishing everyone love themselves sooo intensely and their loved ones 💙💜❤️ Thanks for such amazing edit work!
this is absolutely beautiful. this is one of my favorite songs from the show, and this edit perfectly shows Nick's journey. I love that you cut out the dialog bits and let it just be silence (except for the song obviously)
I have said it a hundred times I can’t understand why Orla and the rest of Fizz (both as a band and solo artists) haven’t been signed to a label big enough to do the extra promotional stuff and fund tours that you guys just haven’t got the money for at the moment. I’m slightly torn as at the moment it’s sort of like being in a very large family and we’ve got this amazing pool of music that the masses haven’t picked up on yet but on the other hand NO ONE deserves to blow up and become huge, more money and backing to spend time exploring different sounds! I’ve got all of Orla’s physical releases (and the rest of the band too) individually I honestly hand on heart don’t think there’s a bad track and together the chemistry between you all is something I’ve not seen for decades Looking forward to new music, I can’t say how amazing it is to have that buzz you get from finding a new artist, not had that for decades To slightly alter the old mobile advert used to say - The Future’s Bright, The Future’s Orla, Greta, Martin, Dodie & Fizz!!!
I am a girl but watching gay love stories or lesbian love stories make me so happy than the normal love stories.. why am I like this why am I like this???
@@googly6676 yeah but you still shouldn't call straight couples normal cuz that makes gay/lesbian couples sound abnormal which is not a good narrative to push
I think it’s because gay and lesbian love stories have an inherent adversity that they have to overcome. Society doesn’t stand in the way of heterosexual relationships.
Una historia genial!! Y los protagonistas son divinos!! Me la he visto como 6 veces ya y cada vez me encanta más! Y ni decir de los videos de UA-cam! Me encanta también la canción de Baby Queen "colours of you" donde todos salen bailando
Script perfeito, tomadas de cena, atores e todas as músicas representaram maravilhosamente a realidade dos conflitos q existem na adolescência sobre a homosexusualidade. Espero q todos ganhem muitos prêmios. Sutil, emocionante, carismático, sem apelações.
I wish i had something like this when i was young, my friends only tried to make me do stupid things and always left me waiting, i found out i was gay when i was 11 i never thought of myself as gay as my parents didn't really explain sexuality to me but then i made friends and everyone always talked about dating girls and i remember seeing this adorable guy kaleb was his name i think, just wanted to hold his hand but i just acted like i hated everyone and then my friends started tells lies about me and we stopped talking and then life got really dark for me, im in a better place now but i wish i had meant someone like Charlie.
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Seriously, I’ve never seen anyone act “I’m deeply crushing on you” as convincingly as Kit Connor has in Heartstopper.
I think that’s part of what makes the show so much fun… most of us know the feeling so well.
Totally, he's so adorable and reminds me a bit of Hugh Grant in his subtle facial expressions and shyness.
Ugh I knoooow! The hand holding part, my chest was squeezing and I yelled "Do it!" To my TV lmao
He really did a great job in this character 🥹🥹🥹💕💕💕
I am happily obsessed by Heartstopper, Nick and Charlie, and Orla's song that perfectly captures it all.
Yes, one of my favorite song from the show - the whole soundtrack is great.
@@IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS...I have been listening to the entire soundtrack non-stop! It's so good!!
Dude same
same 💙
Omg, I watched it like 5 Days ago and I can't stop watching It with the same emotion as in the first day 🥺 feels like a warm place
"i got my mistakes on loop inside my head" this part killing me softly
Ikr
This can be the slogan for mental health.... Very powerful song
I was a straight guy, and I have fallen hard for a gay guy. We are now together. ☺️ Last week he had me watch this series and now my heart hurts in a good way.
The scene where Nick googles about his sexuality hits me so hard. I guess I also had my moment of a gay crisis at one point.
aww that's so cutee!!
I really needed to read this comment, thanks a lot ❤️
Congratulations .. it must be great to be with someone u have crush on.. I wish for your happiness
"Oh my god we found another one!"
I Always knew I was different when I was a kid and I did the same I was searching all the questions haveing a panic and I’m proud to say I’m gay been out for a while and I feel so mush free! And your story is amazing! Thanks for sharing it too is all happy pride 🏳️🌈
the way Nick looked at the two girls kissing is heart warming, truly a masterpiece of a representation. Also, this edit is just spot on, thanks a lot!
Yes, women have said that two women kissing has often been used to titillate straight men, but here it was used to actually help nick realize the beauty of a love he could have and not at all sexualized in that way.
@@Cub1985 And also he was able to take notice that the world didn’t reject them in the moment. It was beautiful and natural and everyone was getting on with their own fun.
I'm addicted to Nick Nelson. He's just charming. A captivating character. And Kit Connor's performance was perfect. You really believe he loves Charlie.
Yes me too. He is such a sweetheart, lovely, gentle, and caring person. No wonder every person would like him regardless of gender. I envy him actually for how brave and matured he was in handling his emotions and exploring his sexuality. I hope to be like him someday, beautiful soul.
Why I am so obsessed about this cute and light love story? I guess I was in need of something like this at these funny times we're living.
One of my favourite song used in Heartstopper. Nick scene as he questioned his feelings for Charlie is wonderful done.
I've never sobbed so hard at a heartstopper scene than the one where Nick looks up his sexuality and does research, such a painfully relatable experience. Literally felt like 12 uear old me, being absolutely terrified of anyone finding out. Heartstopper is truly a gem 💓💜💙
Actually I'm at that point and I don't know who I am or if it ever gets better
@@ivyhidde7419 we all go at a different pace, some don't even need a label. Don't stress too much on trying to find one 💖
@@ivyhidde7419 Sexuality and identity are complex. Don't measure your journey by someone else's ruler. Just do things however you feel fit. It gets better. And it is a beautiful experience to make it to the other side. You got this!
I still break down sometimes from this song/ scene. Fuck I'm bawling even now lol. I'm not even much of a crier normally
this show has been living rent free in my mind for more than a week, there's something about seeing nick realize he likes charlie more than just a friend that keeps me wanting to watch it over
Perfect representation of searching ourselves who we are.. the struggle, the fear, and finally the proud and freedom♥️
So right! As a teen, I always was more into guys than girls and I thought that once I reached 18 I would become str8 but that didn't happened and I've learned to accept myself for who I am and not for what others perceive me to be.
once in a while we come across a kind and gentle soul that entraps many others. A soul that oozes kindness, that becomes contagious....Joe Locke brings Kit Connor along for the journey of his life....and ours.
Ive been watching heartstopper a lot of times like more than 10x and still counting,, love them both nick and charlie. Love this song so much💜❤💙💚💛🧡
Same here
Same here
i cant do that, i watched it 3 times and now im never watching it again, hurts to much lmao
“Maybe i’m an old soul trapped in a young body” that hits me so hard. 💞
the best new show and the best new song discovered ugh why is everything about this so perfect
I've seen season 1 a million times for Nick and Charlie are amazingly beautiful together. And, in my personal opinion, this song is really theirs.
I know how you feel, the series has really hit me hard… in a good way! I literally can’t stop watching it and the series has become like a comfort sort of thing that just calms me, I’ve never enjoyed watching a series so much in all my life Alice and the cast and crew captured nick and Charlie so well ❤
@@nathanwilkinson237
I totally agree with you. I don't know how many times I watched the first season. Personally, it hit me so deep that even I can't understand it. So many unresolved or unresolved issues from my past came up. I think I see it a little every day. I've read the entire collection too, and each time I think that the LGBT world has never been explored so well, with such delicacy and seriousness. I love kit Connor and I believe that no one would do Nick Nelson better than him. ❤️
I fell in love with orla gartland's voice the moment i heard this song like wow. there arent enough words in any language to describe how perfect it is and how well it fit in this very moment, the scene where nick questions his sexuality like- absolute perfection
also, how many people has died from screaming at the top of their lungs at an ungodly hour to tell our beautiful nick to HOLD CHARLIE'S DAM HAND LIKE JUST DO IT ALREADY THERE ISNT A PERSON WATCHING THIS GODAM SHOW WHO DOESNT KNOW THAT YOU'RE IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY i mean, we're all pretty much in love with charlie but still JUST DO IT
This will always be my theme song for Charlie and Nick...
The thing I loved most about this story is that Nick fell in love with Charlies Softness of heart and his kind and gentle nature. And not his genitals.
I pray they never do a sex scene.
I am afraid to watch any more of the story because it meant so much to me and I pray it does not become tawdry or defiled in anyway.
i agree but sex only ever comes when you love someone. i would be suprised but not shocked if there was, because the two characters and actors that play nick and charlie have good chemistry. i understand your point and i dont think they will ever even do a sex scene but if they were too, it wouldnt be a bad thing anyways??
@@ofwgktadgaf. No dis to you, but it would be a very bad thing for me.
I am a gay man who has been out for 44 years, and this has a purity
to it that no one has ever even come close to before.
I am NOT a goodie two shoes, I have watched porn,
but this needs to stay innocents for me.
I think I will not watch a season 2.
Thank you very much for replying to me.
Truly, no disrespect to your point of view.
Considering in the 4 books that are out there was never a sex scene, I doubt there will be one in season 2
@@bertwesler1181 well i’ve got good news for you! this news does contain spoilers for the comic/webtoon of Heartstopper, so read with caution!
the comic by alice oseman has never actually included a sex scene! Netflix did make a few changes like the addition of Imogen, or changing Aled to Isaac. but i doubt Netflix would go as far as creating a sex scene when there wasn’t one originally
edit: also just recently found out that those changes were made by Alice Oseman herself! (the writer/artist/author). so yeah! i don’t think Alice would really allow Netflix to make a change as drastic as- nick and charlie doin the tango.
@@bertwesler1181 understood! i absolutely agree with you, this has a purity that i dont think anything could really com close to, but yes i was just saying that if there were to id fully understand but yes! ( i dont even think there would be a sex scene to begin with ! ) thankyou for letting me hear about yourself. have a great day/ night .!
Ive laughed and cried and even punched the air when Nick and Charlie kissed for the first time. The muscles in my cheeks ache from constantly smiling. TV at it's very best.
i'm 5 seconds in the video and i'm already tearing up 😭this show and this song are my ultimate comfort combo thank you so much for this i love you
GOSH PROTECT NICK AT ALL COSTS 😭😭His sexual awakening was such wonderfully done!
I don't normally comment on this stuff but this show has seriously made me rethink everything in my life. Seeing Nick and Charlie together it makes my heart just stop. I feel so connected specially to kit Connor (Nick) and I just can't stop thinking about it. It hits hard. And to be so connected to the show and to Nick it's just completely changed me.
I loved this story to an embarrassing level. I have never seen
a movie or show, (and I am a huge~! Book, Theater, TV and
Movie fan, I believe that the thing that separates humans from
animals is our story telling), where every single actor, every
single scene and every single cinema graphic was freakin
PERFECT. This offering was cathartic for me. I have been out
for 44 years, but this fulfilled something in me that has been
missing all along. I have seen several other gay love stories,
but this is the most innocent, sweet and wholesome love
story I have ever seen. When I say that I loved it to an
embarrassing level, (Dear God~!) I mean, I binge watched it 8 times
in a week and a half. (and I have only ever binge watched
one other show, ever, and that was only once through.)
What sets this master piece aside from all other gay stories is both
that it is one of the first none tragic love stories and it has
not one single seen for the prurient of heart.
Just awesome...
Many tears of joy...
I binge watched it so much I had to take a break. After five days off, I watched it through today again.
@@IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS yeah, now I watch it start to finish just not in one sitting.
Slow mo binge.
LOL
Waiting in season3! 💝🎀 Excited ❤
for some reason this song hit so hard when watching the show and I love it. but after the 10 time listing to it I got why. "why I'm like this?" is something every queer person has ask them self at one moment and I cried. Great song!!
This is so unbearably cuteee. I wish I would one day experience what is like to fall in love and having true connection with someone.
I love this show so much. This is the representation I look for as a gay person 😭 I finally feel heard and seen
Love this series and song ,nick and charlie also ❤
beautiful.this series is beautiful.🥰🥰🥰
So why am I like this
Why am I like this
Why am I like this, why am I......
so accurate. I love this song. Anyone else feel when Nick Typed am I gay? And wanting to say Don't do it......but knowing that it needs to happen.
This perfectly fits the whole show.
This show had me cry 1000 times, so did this song
Can't help but I love this song love Charlie and Nick ❤️
Beautiful series and Beautiful song
i cant tell you how many times this made me cry...
It is a good and beautiful series i can't wait for season ✨
Love everything in this show, especially Nick 😊🌈❤️
Feeling this soooo real and I realize how much I relate with all comments here
Wishing everyone love themselves sooo intensely and their loved ones 💙💜❤️
Thanks for such amazing edit work!
One of the best of life ❤
this is absolutely beautiful. this is one of my favorite songs from the show, and this edit perfectly shows Nick's journey. I love that you cut out the dialog bits and let it just be silence (except for the song obviously)
estoy atascado con esta serie en la cabeza hace dos semanas!!! es adictiva!!!
I have said it a hundred times I can’t understand why Orla and the rest of Fizz (both as a band and solo artists) haven’t been signed to a label big enough to do the extra promotional stuff and fund tours that you guys just haven’t got the money for at the moment. I’m slightly torn as at the moment it’s sort of like being in a very large family and we’ve got this amazing pool of music that the masses haven’t picked up on yet but on the other hand NO ONE deserves to blow up and become huge, more money and backing to spend time exploring different sounds!
I’ve got all of Orla’s physical releases (and the rest of the band too) individually I honestly hand on heart don’t think there’s a bad track and together the chemistry between you all is something I’ve not seen for decades
Looking forward to new music, I can’t say how amazing it is to have that buzz you get from finding a new artist, not had that for decades
To slightly alter the old mobile advert used to say - The Future’s Bright, The Future’s Orla, Greta, Martin, Dodie & Fizz!!!
Obsessed with heart stopper... But I don't want a second season. I think I love what it has to offer.
Probably one of the best productions and certainly my favorite 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾ty
I've had "why am I like this" stuck in my head because of this GaHDAMN shOW
this song makes me cry thank you heartstopper 😭😂🥰 not complaining tho
New season yaaaaay!!!
One of the best songs I have ever heard :) Fits so nice for the series ;-)
Constant GOOSEBUMPS
Obsessed with that song, i think it speaks out everything for those who need it
Prefect song for Nick.
This is a really good edit
I agree ❤️
In tears again.
I am a girl but watching gay love stories or lesbian love stories make me so happy than the normal love stories.. why am I like this why am I like this???
Same, Be my friend
I get your point, but using the word “normal” like that just isn’t it. Gay and lesbian stories are just as normal as straight ones.
@@babycakelings for me those are special ones their love needs more courage and power to come out ❤️
@@googly6676 yeah but you still shouldn't call straight couples normal cuz that makes gay/lesbian couples sound abnormal which is not a good narrative to push
I think it’s because gay and lesbian love stories have an inherent adversity that they have to overcome. Society doesn’t stand in the way of heterosexual relationships.
Im obsessed with this song 🥺
I'm not gay but this series made me crie I love this series 😢❤
I got this song on loop inside my head❣
Beautiful job! I loved the timing and scene choices you made. My favorite song from the show too!
I can’t get this song out of my head
LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS SONG!!! 💖💗💞❤️🔥💯
nick is mvp!!!
Why can't i stop crying?!
Omg I love this show so much I’m obsessed ❤️❤️❤️🌈
amo la serie y la canción... gracias por el video y bendiciones
All of us gay kids have all been there! Thanks so much!
I love how you started this at the same scene as the ending shot of your Harry styles as it was video! Super nice editing
Me encanta esta canción y la serie la mejor de todas 😍
Una historia genial!! Y los protagonistas son divinos!! Me la he visto como 6 veces ya y cada vez me encanta más! Y ni decir de los videos de UA-cam! Me encanta también la canción de Baby Queen "colours of you" donde todos salen bailando
Why i an like this? I want to believe in romance!! I love this edit and this show
It made me cry immediately. Nice
I love heartstopper , this song and everything that has to do with show/book. As a bi woman this relates 100 to me.
I love all charactors from this series.... ❤❤
O vídeo mais lindo com a música mais linda! 😍😍
estou em repeat com essa música!!!!!!!!
Os dois são simplesmente perfeitos. E essa música é a cereja no bolo.
I’m still obsessed with HeartStopper, Charlie look’s like me actually :)
Heartstopper made me question my whole life why i didnt have a highschool sweetheart? Like thats really sad? But really really love the song
This song gives me chills ❤️
Hermosa 😻😻 ame heartstopper 💜
Missing Heartstopper and the OST so much but so excited for S2 &3!
Wow great editing, this song fits the vibe of this show so well. So lovely
Obsessed with this 😭
i love this perfect combination❤️❤️❤️❤️
I started to cry while reading heartstopper volume 4 and at the same time listening to this, a good time to cry 🚶
I binged HEARTSTOPPER 22X
This is Beautiful and Naive. Reminded me when I was age 18
I love this series so much 😍
🍂"Why are we like this?"🍃
Omgg diese serie verändert mich so
This was wonderfully done.
I'm sobbing. 😭😭❤
Script perfeito, tomadas de cena, atores e todas as músicas representaram maravilhosamente a realidade dos conflitos q existem na adolescência sobre a homosexusualidade. Espero q todos ganhem muitos prêmios. Sutil, emocionante, carismático, sem apelações.
Definitivamente una historia con un final muy feliz! La forma que todos manejaron su sexualidad en la película fue genial!
I love Nick and Charlieeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Great video. I hadn’t noticed Nick’s tear, as he sees the result of the gay quiz (1.20), until I watched your vid. Made me emotional again.
Todos alguna vez fuimos nick en esta escena😢
im crying my eyes out.
I love your videos, really good work!
Omg this is so cute I wanna watch heart stopper again for the 20th time
I love heartstopper
I am obsessed with Heartstopper❤
Fav song fav series ! Ngl
Es normal que me den ganas de llorar al ver este video ?);
Cada vez que veo los cortos de UA-cam, lloro! Es una serie espectacular que te toca el corazón!
I wish i had something like this when i was young, my friends only tried to make me do stupid things and always left me waiting, i found out i was gay when i was 11 i never thought of myself as gay as my parents didn't really explain sexuality to me but then i made friends and everyone always talked about dating girls and i remember seeing this adorable guy kaleb was his name i think, just wanted to hold his hand but i just acted like i hated everyone and then my friends started tells lies about me and we stopped talking and then life got really dark for me, im in a better place now but i wish i had meant someone like Charlie.