Colin you are a diamond. I am seventy years old and have a richness of experience that helps me to relate to everything you say. ASD is your gift my friend - it makes you the precious being that you are! Courage and strength of character to face life’s hurdles ( are they hurdles or in fact treasures?) define the man. Every challenge polishes us and you, my friend, shine brilliantly. xx
David Harlem~The world needs more people like yourself in it. It would be a much better place to survive. I believe it take life experience to come to these conclusions sometimes. Of course, in my years coming up, my Grandmother instilled morals and values that I will always remember and treasure. I just hope the younger generation who are raising children get it right somehow. It doesn't seem to me that they are, and I don't mean to be negative. I'm in the US and people are seemingly more rude than ever. Children included. Very sad. We pray that the world gets more enlightened. Divine blessings to you! Tim and Tammie Miller `
@@ceeceety2320 Hi Tim. All these months later, I have just found your reply. Thank you for your very kind words. Like you, I cherish the attitudes and values that were instilled in me by my parents as I grew up. Yes, also like you, I am deeply troubled by what appears to be a decline in basic human decency. The enlightenment that you pray for is the only thing that will germinate change. Perhaps the virus that we are now all confronting will be the catalyst for that change. We are all attempting to exist in an obviously troubled world and on so many levels. I pray that my grandchildren and their generation will be the architects of a very different world - a world based on insight, understanding and compassion. God bless you and Tammie 🙏
A friend of mine who loves his boating watched this and told me to watch it. Im a bit older than you now 57 but i too was diagnosed about 5 years ago. Ive spent most of my adult life in a bubble where i went about my daily life but felt as though I wasnt part of it. Like you social gatherings terrify me and if forced into one I can usually cope for about 2 hours after which Im exhausted by the effort of trying to 'fit in'. Ive never been lucky enough to find my special person like you so i spend most of my time alone and as I put it to my friends living in my box. Very interesting listening to your foibles it never really occurred to me the condition had identifiable traits but I can identify with most of yours and many things you struggle with I struggle with too. Overthinking and depression yup I hate to admit this but ive come close several times when everything became too much but I have a strength that wont give up and keeps me going and that has always been my fall back. Ive had people suggest drugs but like you I try to keep a clear mind and try to think myself out of these ruts which get thrown in my way more often than I care to admit. Your solution is a brave one I just wish Id got the guts to walk away I do something new and different. Ive suggested living on an island but thats just me being a misery and trying to get away from people. All the very best Nick
Best topic yet..bitter, sweet, direct...as a vlogger you have the power to enlighten and motivate people to be the best they can with what they have.. Thank you for enlightening me. Blessings to all who have shared their experiences in the comments.. xx n
Colin: I am totally blown away by your courage in bearing your soul in this way. And, by doing so, you help countless others who are struggling day in and day out with their own mental health issues. As a mental health professional I can tell you that this is nothing short of epic. BRAVO!
Well done for talking about this. I hope the move onto the boat really helps. My daughter and I (Narrowboat Girl) moved onto our boat to improve our mental health. Emma is homeschooled as her dyslexia was causing her too much stress at school. Fresh air and a slower pace are great for us. I hope the buying process goes smoothly for you. We were stuck in a marina for a few weeks and we hated it so we know how you felt. Things are so much better out on the cut. Anyway good luck with getting your boat and we look forward to your next video 😁
Hi. Thank you so much! I was so apprehensive about posting that video (it's been recorded for over a week). Comments like yours mean so much :) I just know it will do me good once the house sale goes through and we get our boat. ps... follow us back on Twitter ;-) xxx
Today, finding out that some of y'all narrowboaters I follow from way out in US farmland have similar life experiences, challenges, is quite encouraging.
I live in the US, and have recently discovered narrowboats. Today I found one of you vlogs and went back and started watching from the beginning. When I got to this one I was stunned and in tears. I don’t think I have ever heard such a heartfelt and honest discussion. I admire you for being able to tell your story in such an articulate way. Thank you so much for sharing. I know that I am 4 years behind, but I intend to watch EVERY post. I hope you and Shaun are well and I look forward to following your journey. ❤️
Wonderful video and so glad you're sharing this with the community. I've had my own lifetime of struggles with what can only be described as a highly specialized brain, and a great deal of what you described, especially in terms of social anxiety, really resonates with me. I've been fortunate enough to come to a pretty high degree of peace with my noggin, but only through the dint of much effort and flailing around trying to find answers, and even now there's always the chance of missing a rung every so often. It's a life of practice, but it leads to a life of joy. So, as one heavily literarily tattooed oddball to another, thank you! Proud of you! And for you. Michael
Minimal List Michael, thank you. I’m not very good with words sometimes, but I’m really glad you managed to work some of this stuff out. You always come across as a wise man. x
Great video and very well done And Michael; what a very lovely reply Im diagnosed as having borderline personality disorder, and heard many similarities during this video; the overthinking, the meltdowns, the eiditic memory, panics, anxieties, etc Grateful Thanks and Huge respect to u both Davie x
I'm a perfectionist introvert. I live out in the middle of the woods alone. The days at work and the people I have to deal with puts me out of touch with anyone for the weekends. The time alone is an actual healing. A great video as always.
I'm the same, Matt. I live alone with just my dogs and quite happy. Being with women caused my stress to skyrocket, totally unsustainable. I have a few close neighbors here in Portland, Oregon but they are all wonderful people and we get along great. As long as I have at least a day to 'veg out' with no stress, I'm good.
Only discovered you on Amazon Prime today. Watched the first two episodes and then looked for your UA-cam channel. This is one of the loveliest vlogs I’ve seen and talk about ASD and mental health so eloquently. I count myself lucky I’ve discovered you and Shaun. You’re amazing and I’m looking forward to seeing more Britain by Narrowboat episodes and your videos. Thank you for being you! 🏳️🌈🙏
This is the best and most honest and clarifying description of how it is to live with ASD I have ever encountered. As a mum and a teacher and headmaster, my heart bleeds for the thirteen year old Colin in his room, waiting for hell to start all over again. It is fantastic that you have learned to cope with life, despite not knowing why you felt different. Absolutely amazing, hat and everything else off for that. I promise you, that I will do my very best, and then some more, to make sure my pupils do not get the same experience, no matter what their challenges are. Cross my heart.
Hi, Beate 👋 Thank you so much for taking time to comment. If you help just one thirteen year old have a better time then this video is totally worth it. Thank you! 💜
You really are fabulous :) This is one of the most positive open videos I've watched. I love the way you embrace it. Its the things that make us different which make us special. Thank you xxx
Labeling is a way of creating control...when imposed from the outside, it can be oppressive...but learning about oneself and finding a way of naming ‘it’ can be a source of liberation. Social media has been a boon for many unique people who need to navigate the world differently than the common herd. For me, the very idea of being at a sports event or even walking in the streets of a big city is frightening. You’re gaining a good handle on yourself. I got a dx about 10 years ago - They had me on meds for a while to ‘normalize’ me...but I’ve come to love being on the asd spectrum - it makes me, me and in this case you, you. So many people are finding the current lockdown terrible, but I’ve been almost luxuriating in the ability to self isolate without feeling guilty - in fact - it’s a virtuous skill! Enjoy it!
O it's not just a "label" dear it's how our life is, it's easy for someone not on the spectrum to understand ,usually it's the misinformed that come out with statements such as your own, and the only way to remedy that is read and learn, but hey everyone's entitled to their opinion.
I watched this year's ago and just watched it for the first time after being diagnosed with High Functioning ASD, ADHD and dyslexic at the age of 54 (which is the average life expectancy for these conditions). So much of what you said, I can identify with. Although, when I saw this previously, I didn't. My diagnosis came because I couldn't cope after lockdown which was the best time of my life. It made he understand myself better and after a shutdown and reboot I'm okay. Just need to go backpacking one day of the week to reset. If anyone else is struggling, get help and get this average age much higher.
Do you have any fybromyalgia nfrom your Asperger's my grandfather had it but lived so simple for to 85 just lost my mum who obvously had it di dnof severe ms 72 yes stress does us in my son's just diagnosed now
You have articulated what has taken me 60 years to come to terms with. Years of medication left me aggressive and fearless, not a good combination. With determination I was able to get off the medication, and actually deal with my depression and anxiety. As you know it’s an ongoing process, and for me at least a life long one. Talking to a few long time friends, they said they didn’t recognize the person I had become on medication. I’m grateful that those who mattered in my life hung in there and are still around today. I want to thank you again for making me feel relieved that I’m not alone in my struggle. Growing up I just thought extreme anxiety and panic attacks were common place. Now on a lighter note, I am intrigued with narrow boat life and hope some day to be able visit England and at least be able to enjoy a short term rental for an adventure on the canals. I’ve watched most of you and your partners vlogs and find them entertaining and informative, and yes you both have a fine sense of humour. Goodbye for now from a Canadian suffering through this cold endless winter.
Hi Louis, Apologies for the lateness of my reply. Yeah, I have hated every medication they tried to give me. None of it does me any good, and only causes more side effects. If ever you escape that long, hard, Canadian winter to visit the UK you must give narrow-boating a try! xx
Hi from The USA .I found your videos recently and love all of the history and scenery. I'm learning about a side of the U.K. I never knew existed!! I especially want to thank you for speaking about your personal issues. I have a daughter with bipolar disorder and it helps everyone when difficulties are talked about. Sometimes we feel all alone don't we!! Stay close to your little family it helps always😊
This video is four years old but I just discovered it and I can't tell you how much it helped me!! It was like you understood me. I'm gay and so much of what you said spoke to me. I stopped the video and just thought about it and then started it and stopped it to think as you talked. I don't want to belabor this post but I do want to thank you so much for making this video and for the wisdom you displayed in it. I live thousands of miles from you but you have touched my life in a significant way and I want to sincerely thank you!
Thank you Colin. My daughter is currently going through the process of being diagnosed as being on the spectrum of autism and your video was extremely helpful in making me understand what she is going through. She like you has ultra sensitivity to sound, manifesting in misaphonia. Very difficult not to take personally sometimes when she has to leave the room, but your video was an epiphany. Thank you so much. Keep on cruising you wonderful man!
Yeah, Misaphonia is awful, and Shaun gives me such a look sometimes if his chewing or crunching is stressing me, but it's tough when you don't understand. Sending love! 💜
Our daughter has recently been diagnosed with mysophonia, ASD and ADHD. Your vlog described her perfectly and your description was simple and easy for us to understand. Thank you Colin, for such an important and honest vlog.
I'm in my late 60s now and wish I'd heard something like this brave and open piece when I was growing up. It might have helped me understand that, as you say, we are all different; that the bullies I suffered from at school and throughout my life were cruel and ignorant; that I wasn't wrong all the time. Thank you so much.
I've watched the canal blogs for a couple of weeks now and think they are great - lovely and relaxed. My attention was caught in this one by the Asperger's reference. My oldest son had Asperger's and we went through hell with difficult behaviour from when he was a toddler onwards. He would come home from primary school with huge bruises and grazes. We just got waffly BS from the teachers who had no more of a clue than we had. I worked in Aberdeen and later moved to outer London for work. My son was ready to move to senior school, by then, and moved into a much bigger school (full of strangers). I would later find out that 'not coping with change' is a classic symptom). By the time we moved I had read on an early Compuserve Internet precursor group in the US specifically for Asperger parents. You know that 'in the car' game to occupy kids where you look for specific letters in car registrations? He would read the letters - say 'ABC' and say back 'BAC' which was one of the Asperger's classic 'pick 3 of these 16 symptoms' - inability to sequence. I worked away a lot in Europe in the weeks and one week my wife had a call that he had tried to hang himself with his school tie! Now he seems to function well and holds down a reasonable consulting job. Love the canal chats!
Dear Colin, thanks for sharing your journey with ASD - your are a fantastic person and I admire your candour and courage in discussing your situation. We have a teenage grandson who also has been diagnosed with ASD. Fortunately, we’ve been able, with professional help, to teach him coping mechanisms that help him a lot. I love your sense of humour and I sincerely hope that your dreams for the boat become reality. I look forward to following you both on your journey. Terry.
That was (possibly) your best video that I have seen (from ep1); which touched on a number of very important mental health issues. Firstly, I think you are very brave to be so open and free with your own struggles - a hearty cheer for that! Secondly, I could only imagine how many children (and adults) who could benefit from hearing your comments, and about your own life experiences - especially as a youngster, struggling and coping with a 'horrible' school existence. Just imagine, if you reached out to a relevant Mental Health organisation and/or charity group, and was able to be endorsed as an Ambassador, for them to help you to organise visits to schools en route on your narrowboat journeys - just imagine...how many children you could help! Anyway, Colin, I think you're very brave. And so, too, is your partner, Sean, for standing by you, and staying the course! So, very well done...to you both! And, thanks for sharing!
Yours is the most accurate, compassionate, empathetic and personal description of ASD and Aspergers specifically that I have ever heard/see. Thank you so much for your willingness to share. I am certain that it will be beneficial to others who either have Aspergers or who wish to understand it. I am watching all of your vids, in order now, after having jumped around a bit right after I discovered you on You Tube. Again, thank you for your warmth and strength in your willingness to share. (PS: I am a retired Clinical Social Worker in Ohio, US; just FYI!)
this is the video that i can actually relate to, as a 21 year old man who has autism. (mild end of the spectrum) colin, thank you for sharing your story, it has really brought a smile on my face to find out that i can actually relate to someone who also has what i have, plus dealing with mental health too. even though i got diagnosed in 2005 since i was a 3 year old toddler, i always knew that i was different from everyone else as soon as i was growing up, but didn’t tell some of my friends that i’m living with autism until i were 19. because back then, i was afraid of telling people sooner that i’m autistic since i had a fear of getting rejected by some friends or to get bullied for being different. i had wonderful feedback from those people and when it got to the point where they told me that they don’t think of me in a different way, i literally had happy tears. in a way, it’s almost like coming out as gay to everyone (in which i am gay myself😂) but only instead its something else. one thing that prevents me from having a meltdown is going outdoors, which is one of my favourite things to do since i love going out in the nature where it’s peaceful and have time for myself. i wish you all the very best for the future ahead of you, shaun and your furry friends, and congratulations on getting married next year 🥰💙
This is most likely one of the most important vlogs that I have viewed, in beginning to understand and appreciate the complexities of mental health, and how it can mean something different in each one of us. I started to watch this and couldn't stop, because of the value in what you shared. I admire your honesty, and your bravery for sharing. I sincerely wish that this is viewed by many, to broaden understanding, and more importantly, to kindle hope.
This is an AWESOME video. You have done a genuine service to the mental health community in sharing this. There is an American psychiatrist, Ned Hallowell who talks about people with certain mental health conditions having a brain with a Ferrari engine but bicycle brakes. The fact that you were able to post this personal video means that over time you've developed better brakes than most, but there is no doubt, a Ferrari engine underneath.
Totally agree - the more role models bring to light their health struggles and challenges, the better off we all are I enjoy your channel so much and now I admire the two of you even more ❣️
I have ADHD and I’m currently going through symptoms of generalised anxiety disorder, something incredibly calming about hearing you talk about mental health, the spectrum and just sharing your story ☺️
You will never know of the many people who watch your videos and think maybe I can do what he is doing, and it will change the lives of others you will never see or know of. But be assured that you are an inspiration to others, we love what you do and we are beside you living our lives the best way can, a day at a time, take care my friend.
My comment will unavoidably be repeated words from the many great comments before mine. Such an honest, informative, and easy to watch chat you had with everyone. Honestly it was like I was taking a walk with you. I hope that walk and talk helped you as much as it undoubtedly will help others that live with the same issues. Thanks for sharing 😀
Hi Colin. My son pointed me to your channel during a recent visit and I will be forever thankful to him for that. I am now approaching 80 and have experienced many of the symptoms you describe in this video, but for the first time I have some idea of what I have been going through. The symptoms are not severe but certainly produce their own level of stress. I am a Bradford lad who emigrated to Canada 50 years ago and have never looked due to the peace I find in the wide open spaces of this country, far away from cities and their frenzy. I plan to watch every episode of your journey and watch your progress. I wish you the best in the future.
one of the most humbling videos i have watched for a long time it takes a brave person to talk about mental health and mental health issues but full respect to yourself im sure everyone here can relate to mental health issues in one way or another either with themselves or people they know but just keep doing you love the videos
You are so right Colin , we are all individuals, there is no right or wrong way as lone as we learn from it, there shouldn't be labels, to have a good heart and do your best what more is there. I think your life style now with Silver Fox is the way to go, to find that quiet place, that still place at your mooring but also with in your self will be wonderful.Blessings from Australia.
Fantastic video. Huge, massive respect and awe that you have shared this with anyone who wants to watch. The biggest thing everyone needs to learn in life is that everyone is unique and different as you point out. I don;t think even doctors get this. The world needs to lose the concept of 'normal' and 'accepted'. What works for one person may be hated and stressful to another.
I suspect that the comments and replies here are nothing quite like you were expecting. The few I have read confirm that far more of us watching understand and are delighted and look forward to your videos. Thank you so very much for simply being yourself, and sharing your life experiences with us. I live in the United Stares and simply came across your videos by accident. I think it might have been one of the videos where you talk about trains. :) I get a kick out of your sense of humor. In creating engaging content like you guys do here on UA-cam, we simply share of ourselves and our fascination and learning about the world we live in. You might not have realized it in the moment when you were doing radio, but you were training for this moment. Thank you so very much for sharing your journey with us all here!
Thanks for posting! This gave me some things to think about. I too was diagnosed late (46, now 48). I need to make some changes myself to improve my mental health. Also, you are super easy to listen to and I look forward to watching your other videos!
Only just found your channel and have been hooked, I turn 50 this year and I was a late diagnosis, I was diagnosed in 2018 after years of being treated as bipolar and medicated for it too, it never worked and usually ended badly, hearing you describing it while my other half was listening was uncanny, the words coming out of your mouth were pretty much word for word how I've described it, the tesco bit made me chuckle, I usually sit in the car while other half goes in, she usually jokes but she knows how hard it is for me, until I was diagnosed whatever "it" was, was something external, an illness that had to be cured, as soon as I got my diagnosis it was suddenly ok, I wasn't broken, it was just the way I am. Of course being hyper aware means hyper aware of self too and the over analysis of every thought and the results of every thought and every thought that comes from that can be overwhelming but just knowing "hey, thats just the way I'm wired" kind of makes it easier to deal with, lovely to see someone being so open as I agree, it's nothing to be ashamed of, it's nothing wrong, we don't need curing. we are just different, and different is kinda cool.
This deserves way more shares, you can see from the comments it has helped a lot of people and could help a lot more, you have my absolute respect for sharing your condition with us
Thank you for the video. My partner and I have been watching your narrowboat adventures for several weeks now, but with no idea of your emotional struggles. My partner, a Harvard Law School graduate, has always suffered debilitating depression, but in recent months has especially been dealing with stress and anxiety, to the point it has made him physically ill. I think watching this video has resonated deeply with him. Thanks again. Mike, Cleveland OH, USA
OMG Colin, now i know why i love you so very much. You see you described my daughter, who was also recently diagnosed as High functioning Autism. She is like you highly intelligent and despite being born profoundly deaf attained a Science Degree at University which she has not used because she cannot deal with people in this world. She is extremely focussed and was even as a tiny child. Her anxiety levels like you leads her to melt downs and her autism led to her divorce from a husband who did not take his vows seriously i.e. to love her through sickness and health, and whom she adored. She lives with us now and is happier now but it took her until now to get over the way he treated her. ( Long story) She has found happiness again through a man who was first her best friend and who now has proved his love for and whom we all love too, but still she battles through her anxieties daily. The thought of facing the world for her brings her to her knees with panic and she hides away literally. So this video had me crying my eyes out for you and also for my daughter because i recognised in you, her life Colin.. . I knew there was a reason i was drawn to you, Colin...and I don't mean sexually...lol....(I am a happily marries since 1979 woman ..) No what.i mean is I now know I recognised like. You know? When i heard you speak it was as if a door had been opened and my understanding enlightened more for my daughter. I really would love to meet you and Shaun one day ....and i know your kind of a celebrity and so am realistic that i most likely will not, but I think you and I would get along. When my daughter was diagnosed i along with her dad was with her and they said they believed me to be also be High functioning Autistic. I was pretty shocked but looking back it explains a lot. Been pretty down about it for a while and I haven't told many people about how i feel ....guilt being one emotion since i obviously passed it on to my beloved daughter and i can see the pain it has caused her. Sobbing now Colin... I have never shared this with anyone especially in public like this.....Anyway bless you Colin for sharing ....with everyone and for trying to make the world a more understanding place for people like my daughter and indeed me who struggle daily. I really do mean this when i say... much love to you and to Shaun...You have touched my heart, Colin...in ways you will probably never get to see. As for Shaun...who obviously loves you very much he is your love and i am so very glad you have him. I am so very glad that i found your videos and now feel honoured to know you just a little more. love always Heather
Hi, Heather! Awww, I feel bad that it made you cry! It's so sad that partners don't understand, or find it impossible to cope, although I can believe that it happens because I know how hard it is for Shaun to cope living with me. As for being celebrities... Don't be silly! Haha! We're the same down-to-earth blokes from Yorkshire that we were a couple fo years ago! Sending loads of love! Colin x
@@FoxesAfloat It is very clear that Shaun loves you very much... Indeed its what endears me to him also. When you had a melt down that he shared, it was clear he was worried sick about you, you could see it in his eyes. He puts up with you (as you say) because he loves you and that is why. His love is a beautiful thing. He recognises a very special person when he sees one Colin, and that makes it very easy for him to 'put up with you' as you state. Never forget that... ok. Lots of love Heather x
Some of this broke my heart. I’m so sorry you were mistreated during school years. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s an important one to share. You’re such a fabulous soul. You’re both so real and warm. I’m sure I speak for many when I say you’re both so easy to love - even when only through my tv. Blessings!
Your words have touched me deeply. I'm 59, never diagnosed but I know exactly what you are talking about. Sending lots of love to both of you. 🙋🏻♀️ Lisa
I've watched 5 episodes today, liked them all but this was on another level. Well done Colin! Thanks for being brave enough to talk about this. I'm a mental health nurse and have specialised for some years in supporting people with Asperger's and autism. Sadly, your experience is a common one and it can have a very undermining effect upon someone's self-confidence and esteem. Keep doing what you're both doing - you're rising above all this and getting to a better place - well, literally!!
Well I'm 74 and have been aware that I am somewhere on the "spectrum" for many years although not "diagnosed". My life experience has been a somewhat "watered down" version of yours. I have found that practicing Yoga has made a big contribution to me... The practice grounds me, stops my brain charging round in circles, makes me more aware and comfortable with those around me and as a bonus keeps my ageing body flexible. There are many lessons on U tube I recomend it to anyone. Thanks for your video. Happy boating "There is nothing absolutely nothing so worth doing as messing about in boats" Brian
hehe.. Great line at the end. I used to teach Pilates in addition to being a Personal Trainer and that helped The confines of the boat prevent a lot of the activity but I've never tried Yoga. 💜
Colin, this is now from quite a few years ago, but thank you. Like you, I suffered a lot as a child, and well into adulthood. I struggled for decades and was only diagnosed at 63. With the clarity came relief and grief and real adjustment. Major life changes too. I am also now thinking of getting a boat, for many of the ASD reasons you mention, and am finding yours and Shaun's videos very helpful. Please keep them coming and hopefully we will meet on a canal sometime in the future.
What an amazing video. I am a mental health professional and this really illuminated what the reality of what living with ASD can be like. My boyfriend has been diagnosed with autistic traits and I see a lot of what you have said in him, which I knew anyway but it has helped me understand him better. So many thanks for speaking out. I love your videos, they make me laugh and feel okay with the world. I have only just come across them so I am working through them. If you pass through Reading, we would love to say hi. Best wishes, Simon and Tony.
Thank you for sharing your story in this truly heartfelt vlog. It is so relatable to those of us who have experienced this journey. At 23, my son finally broke. Thankfully, he was receptive to medical help, both counselling & medication, but just as you said, his goal was to develop coping skills through CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) and wean off medication, which he has done successfully for many years now. Today, at 38, he is thriving extremely well. We journeyed through this together and with the support of our immediate family. I'm glad you reinforced that Mental Health is not something to be ashamed of or embarrassed about and that it is something that should be talked about.
This could have been my younger brother talking. He also had other health problems but he was what the doctors called “borderline “ autistic.He passed away at the age of sixty after a life of suffering everything you have talked about. Thank you for being so honest about your condition, it can’t have been easy. It’s good to unload and hopefully life will be a bit easier going forward.
My granddaughter is on the spectrum and is the most amazing person. (I think amazing is used too much which devalues the word) Incredible? We feel truly blessed to have her in our lives.
My granddaughter is also on the Spectrum. So gifted, but socially awkward. We honor her individuality and talents. She is gifted and a very loving young lady. We are blessed to have her in our lives♥️.
You’re a very brave man sharing your inner thoughts with use, I am Australian living in a remote part of the country, and just found this channel I’ll be watching it from now on thanks again for telling use who you are.
Thank you so much for opening up and putting this on UA-cam. At age 46 I'm recovering from chronic stress with undiagnosed ADHD/ASD and this has been so helpful, I can relate to it and not feel alone. I'm happy you've found the lifestyle that works for you and hey, cities suck, you've got the important things in life.
Ohhhhhhhh, thank you, thank you. We have a grandson (14) who is just like you. He has only been officially diagnosed for about 4 years. He is very intelligent, gently, caring, and struggles exactly like you describe. But, hearing you so beautifully describe YOU. It has helped me as his grandmother, who loves he so very much.....as we do our other three grandchildren. I am going to show this episode to my daughter....and I believe it will be good for our beautiful boy to hear.....we talk about his autism, and it is open and accepted. It is supported.....but to hear you......thank you, thank you, thank you. God bless you....
Thank you for saying there’s no such thing as normal, and that many personality traits are simply spectrums. I’ve tried to say the same thing to people, but you’ve said it perfectly.
Wow, just wow. I've just found you and Sean on Amazon Prime, enjoyed the series and looked for you on here. But this 20 minutes is one of the best things I have seen. Open, honest, informative and beautifully filmed. Thank you for sharing this with us. 👍
I describe my life as constantly being on a carnival midway. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. I hear every conversation, see every flashing light, the clank of every ride, the smells... Going to a carnival is fun for most people, because when they leave it's over. Not so much when you'd like to leave but you can't.
just started watching your channel, finding it very inspirational, your frankness in this one shows what a sympathetic, understanding and brave person you are. I wish you both all the luck in the world on your travels, and look forward to following your journey
I think this is the calmest I’ve seen you in a video. Probably because you’re laying it all bare (we know you do that on top of the boat too!) I have anxiety and there’s definitely a “mask” we wear, but there’s no mask here and it’s beautifully honest. Thank you for sharing it xx
I was in my late 60s before I was diagnosed. Thank you for your comments. I thought everybody exhausted themselves by overthinking before I discovered my autism. And I felt a failure for not being able to cope with it without simply shutting down. Thanks for reminding me that I am not alone. Bless you and all who sail with you.
You made me cry, my world has just fallen apart, iv do e something stupid and ended up trying to take my own life. Your words are so true and I hope I get the help you have had. I will follow you. Thanks.
@@FoxesAfloat Times are hard, it's when you have no one to talk to that your world closes in on You. When those you trusted have let you down so much. I truly thought I was stronger. Just starting to get the help I need. Take care and keep in touch, watch this space, I want a boat to take ex service men like myself out to relax and feel safe. Just looking for a boat now.
Colin, the way you express yourself and are able to share your story is amazing. Not many people could do it as well. You face your challenges in such a strong way giving others much needed encouragement. We all have setbacks in our lives. It's how we handle them is what matters. As the old saying goes, when life deals you a basket of lemons, turn the lemons into lemonade. You have been doing just that. You and your partner are a great team. As the British say, Carry on. You have so much to contribute.
I've thought since my teens that I wasn't normal, now 56, having listened to your vlog i can identify with 90% of what you described, (I like parties), though I'm very awkward in a social situation! Thank you Colin for helping others to understand
Great post, I was only told 2 years ago I suffer from depression and anxiety and it made me realise how long I have suffered this way just like you, the overthinking, dreading social events been told I'm odd,weird, different. I'm 45 married and 2 beautiful children and like you nobody would know. Thank you for this video it helps to hear I'm not alone. I have recently started taking countryside photos and love. I'm a new subscriber and so keep up the great work.
Oh my goodness! Look at how this video has gone on to give people support or validation or whatever good they've gotten from it! You are a beautiful human being Colin, and so is Shaun! You said you dreaded the outcome of this video. I can only imagine what was going through your head at that point, but I am sure you're very glad you did post it. I'm glad you did, as I've been reading the comments. Whoa! So much love and support out there. You are a beacon of light and even though my wife told me about this video probably last year, I now actually get it even more having seen you be so raw with your emotions. I'm surprised this video hasn't gone viral. I'm so glad to have found your channel and will continue to enjoy it as long as UA-cam is around! UA-cam will certainly outlive me! LOL! Peace and take good care and thank you!!!!
Colin.... just absolutely awesome!! I know it took a lot of courage for you to make this video. The ridiculous stigma surrounding autism and mental health is horrible. I'm also truly grateful you found a partner that can wholly support you! I'm a firefighter/medic and see all too often the effects these kinds of things have on people, my wife is actually inpatient in a mental health facility as I write this so it really does hit home. She has long been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and severe depression and its a daily struggle for her. But with people erasing the stigma and talking about it in the open it really does help, not only others struggling themselves letting them know that are not alone but with those who don't understand what others might actually be going through. Amazing as always!!
Boy oh boy, I so get it! It took me over 60 yrs to figure it out, but it was a revelation, like a light bulb going off. The bullying, the stress of social situations, it just resonates. I have seen more and more that we're not alone with this, there are lots of people dealing with this. I too suffered through childhood, the meltdowns, total anxiety. Lack in like you said, they really didn't know about this stuff back in the day, it was all freudian - no help, at least it wasn't called evil spirits. Knowing really helps.
Thank you so much for posting this. It was a two tissue moment listening to you describe me and my life as if you were looking in a crystal ball. I have never been diagnosed, but every syllable you uttered described me, my life, my anxiety, swings, crash and burns, knotted innards in the face of social situations. Oh my God. I was a hairdresser for 45 years. After dealing with new people and repeat clients who WANT something or DEMAND things, all day, every day, 30 minutes and repeat... I drank and drugged myself into oblivion every night for about 30 years. (I made Patsy and Eddie look like amateurs, sweetie... LOL) I no longer drink, and am drug free. I do smoke weed, but that's my worse vice. I was on meds for depression for a brief time, but like you, choose not to go that route. I've had 3 heart surgeries, mostly stress induced... and having smoke cigarettes since age 7. When in a depressive meltdown, it seems like acknowledgement of the situation lightens the load quite a bit and recovery is quicker. I know that it will get better. It always does. I KNOW the depressive episode will eventually end and I'll feel better again. So, I get through it, and work on getting through it by doing something positive or doing something kind for someone else. It helps. Positive energy . In the 80s, knowing my social phobia and fear of being in those situations, a boyfriend threw me a surprise birthday party. I threw everyone out, broke up with the boyfriend and never spoke again to anyone who attended. It is that severe. I still do not socialize with anyone offline. I just freeze and don't know what to say. I crave the company of friends, but when we do meet up, I can't get away fast enough. It's good having friends who understand. Thank you again for sharing this. You really touched my heart and released a floodgate of emotion, knowing someone else knows exactly how I feel. God bless you. Safe cruising.
Everything you said is shared by millions of us who for whatever reason don't tell our story. I'm so glad you watched this, if not only to know that we are out there and feel the same. Sending love ! 💜
Brave and enlighting. Good on you. I admire your honesty and integrity, im sure this vlog will help many to understand and hopefully be more compassionate of others in thefuture. Credit to you.
It's been a while since you posted this, and I don't know if you'll see this comment, but what a beautiful an intelligent vlog. I'm an American woman who dreams of the narrow-boat life...but years ago I worked with pre-school children who were on the spectrum and loved them dearly. I pray that they have grown into knowing and accepting themselves as you have. I am thankful you have such an understanding partner. I've really enjoyed your humor and joy in the few videos I have watched, and will be trying to watch them all. Much love to the two of you (and Dylan) from Tampa, Florida.
I think your conversation to us has raised a lot of issues that people may have but don’t realise it. Personally, I can relate to your ASD as Tescos is the worst place to shop, try Waitrose it will definitely calm you down. Seriously, I am pleased you opened up about your inner self. You are so right, we are all on the spectrum, it is just some people don’t know it. It seems these days everyone likes to have a label, it’s their way to be noticed. I agree with you, like people for who they are and not for what they are. Treat each other with respect and that way we will all get along just fine….
I wish there was a "love" button to click, as you would get one from me. This is a brilliant video. You open yourself up and explain so articulately how the world is for you and how each day has problems for you to overcome that neurotypicals can't begin to understand. I have two grown up children at opposite ends of the spectrum and I am constantly lost in love and admiration at how they cope with what life throws at them and come out the other side still smiling. I like to think that we as parents have helped them come to terms with who they are and develop coping strategies. As you say, everyone of us is unique and does not need a label; you have explained this so well. I wish you and Sean every happiness in your new (second time around!) life and will be following you avidly.
Andy, thank you so much. It means everything to me when people understand :) I have nothing for admiration for parents who have raised children on the spectrum. You're heroes! Thank you for the kind wishes. Lots of love! Colin.
Colin, that was the most profound and honest video/vlog? I have ever watched. I found your channel via another narrow boating vlogger and have watched a few of your recent vlogs before I found this one. Your vlogs knock the others into a cocked hat. I shall eagerly await your next vlog. In the meantime I shall catch up with your back catalogue. Thank you
This is an older video and I'm glad I just saw. You sharing your story helps me to better understand some of your comments in your latest videos. You're not alone and you're probably helping more people than you realize...👍
Hi I know it's a really old video to comment on but I just wanted to thank you for talking about all this. My grandma used to be big fans of you guys before she passed away just over a year ago and I like to keep up with you guys and come back to these older videos I used to talk about with her. I've related to a lot of the autism things you've talked about here since I first watched this. Now I've recently turned 18 and I've been doing my research and I'm finally trying to get diagnosed with autism myself and it was because of people like you sharing your stories and everything for inspiring me to learn more about this condition and ultimately how my brain works. So thank you for having the courage to talk about all this and thank you for giving me the courage to learn about myself! Things have been getting better since I've been able to identify the issues I've been having and what the problem is which has been really helpful so thanks again for talking about this and giving others including myself the courage to exist as we are.
Hi Athena. I’m sorry to hear that your grandma passed away. Big hugs from us. I hope you manage to get a diagnosis and any support that brings. Thanks for the kind words. Stay strong and always be true to yourself! x
Great video! Massive respect for telling everyone about the past and how you've dealt with it. It will hit a lot of people and they will have similar experiences in my opinion, I know I have. Keep up the amazing work on your channel :-)
I was finally diagnosed aged 43 I'm 52 now and I still can't cope with life. The world is a very busy place "lockdown" has been a God's send for me. You talk about the exact same things that set me off. This video will help thousands more people than you'll ever imagine....simply by talking about HFA on your site brings awareness to others. Love the videos you 2 put out.
No need to worry about how people view this video. You were candid. You explained everything so well. It even made me wonder if I am somewhere on the "spectrum". I have noticed some of the same traits in myself you spoke about. But I could never have explained them like you have....that would have stressed me out. After all you said and exposed, and if I knew it would not stress you out, I would like to give you a HUGE hug.
you are such a natural communicator, that is a gift in itself. Talking therapies are estimated to be as effective as medication for some people. Stay well xx
Well..... wasn't expecting this vid..... and I it just made me feel like... ahh a real person and one who has some balls, to be able to show up and share as yourself is really fabulous. I can relate to a bit of what you are saying and the next time I'm in the UK perhaps I'll look you up. Thanks again for sharing...
Hi I saw your vlog and thought it very interesting. My son was diagnosed with ASD when he was 7 and my daughter when she was 19 we have had some bad times but we have also had some lovely times. My son being diagnosed early was a help the school he went to helped him with strategies to help him cope with everyday life. My daughter struggles all the time with depression and anxiety. I have seen both sides of diagnosis the early and the late. I think my son copes so much better and actually helps my daughter alot to cope with different situations. My son is now 19 and my daughter is 27. Thank you for being so honest and open about your diagnosis it will help so may people. Love you you both. Tracy. Xx
In 2005 I was a mad Artist making things from old scraps of steel. I made a full time job of it, even fully restored a 1952 ( year I was born ) Morris Minor Ute into a proper USA type woody, but I could not keep up with my brain and all the thoughts that were spinning around in my head. I sort out help after a solo exhibition in Sydney that sold out in 2 days and I ran into a wall inside of my head due to the fact that I had not considered that there should have been more art I had 31 pieces in that show with an average price in excess of $800. I ended up on a drug that for about 4 months was great, my mind became clear and the spinning stopped. Then every thing slowly stopped I had lost the will to work, to enjoy, to look at a bit of old car and see what it could be, in about late 2012 I kicked out the drug and I still have a shed full of bits collected from 1988 and I sit and watch videos all day every day just waiting for the odd rare day where I can face the shed and even get so far as opening the doors. Mate I took the Medication line, I am Glad that you never did as I can say that the stuff you put into your trips would be very dull with out you talking about the history and how you feel and the fun you two have and show. You may have to show whats in that secret Draw one day.......C C-o-l-i-n I am glad I decided to watch from the start, as I love the cut, it's a pity we don't have that sort of thing here in Australia cause that would be me in a flash. Thank You for the courage I know that it took to do that walk with a Camera. Thanks again Tony.
Hey, Tony. Thanks so much! None of the meds worked for me either. Loads of crappy side effects. The main one took away the one thing in life that gave me pleasure 💦🤯😬 Haha! The secret cupboard is a story for another media where I wouldn't get banned 😂
Bravo! I teach high school - graphic design. I usually have several ASD students - due to the content of the courses and the fact that I try my best to ensure a safe and caring environment for them. Your video is so moving and honest. We are all unique and must treat everyone with respect and love. Best wishes for your new adventures on the Silver Fox. I will be watching with envy as you both explore the lovely countryside. I will be back in the UK in June of 2020. One day I hope to take a canal boat holiday there. Even better, to actually live on the canal, but for now I'll live vicariously through your vlogs. Cheers!
Hey Sandi. Again, thank you for such lovely words. If you do make it over, let us know and we can hopefully show you Silver Fox, along with loads of tea and cake :) xxx
Hello, I just found your channel today. I started watching video 163 which was very interesting and relaxing but it was "Autism and me" which I found extremely informative. I believe this will be of great help to anyone who is suffering those things you describe and I think most people who've commented are very glad you did. You have done a great service for Mental Health. Thank you and well done for speaking out. ❤️
You have a lovely voice. Absolutely lovely Thank you for speaking about it. It makes it accessible, understandable for people who have no experience, exposure to it. It spreads awareness. Like when you describe overthinking. English has the expression to secondguess something. Amateurs. I millionguess. I can get into a decisionlock, where I will not outwardly seem stress. Rather will look too lazy to decide/proceed. While inside I run a million miles an hour, trying to find every perspective. Social situations are maybe what unites all on the spectrum. But I found if I am communicating with somebody who I know to handle the same difficulties, I have it somehow easier. Just when you mutually know to look at signs of what is happening inside the other person, because you know them so much yourself. Labels are great for sorting. But from how I have it for me, I think the bad part is to give everybody ONE label. Instead everybody has... up to infinite labels
So glad you shared this with everyone. As you said, talking about mental health issues can be difficult, but Colin, each time you do, know that you are not just enlightening people, but helping others. Bless you and hang in there.
Thank you so much for opening up like this, you're absolutely right, it really does help others who struggle too. What I'd give to be able to just sail away from the noise... This lifestyle is so inspiring.
Your open and honest communication is so incredibly helpful. Your experiences mirror my own in so many ways and you’ve given me a sense that I’m not alone. Thank you!
I was just looking through some of your older videos because your channel has such warm positive energy that I wanted to watch more :) And, I found this one! I also have Asperger’s, and I relate very strongly to many things you express here. Thank you SO much for your openness and honesty in speaking about this. It is really touching to see true raw expression from another human. People spend so much time trying to hide who they are, rather than simply be truthful or open about it. You’re a bloody amazing person. You BOTH are. 😊✨
I wish I could give this a thousand likes.
Thank you so much, Mara! 💜💜💜
Colin you are a diamond. I am seventy years old and have a richness of experience that helps me to relate to everything you say. ASD is your gift my friend - it makes you the precious being that you are! Courage and strength of character to face life’s hurdles ( are they hurdles or in fact treasures?) define the man. Every challenge polishes us and you, my friend, shine brilliantly. xx
Thank you so much, David. Lovely words xx
David Harlem~The world needs more people like yourself in it. It would be a much better place to survive. I believe it take life experience to come to these conclusions sometimes. Of course, in my years coming up, my Grandmother instilled morals and values that I will always remember and treasure. I just hope the younger generation who are raising children get it right somehow. It doesn't seem to me that they are, and I don't mean to be negative. I'm in the US and people are seemingly more rude than ever. Children included. Very sad. We pray that the world gets more enlightened. Divine blessings to you! Tim and Tammie Miller
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@@ceeceety2320 Hi Tim. All these months later, I have just found your reply. Thank you for your very kind words. Like you, I cherish the attitudes and values that were instilled in me by my parents as I grew up. Yes, also like you, I am deeply troubled by what appears to be a decline in basic human decency. The enlightenment that you pray for is the only thing that will germinate change. Perhaps the virus that we are now all confronting will be the catalyst for that change. We are all attempting to exist in an obviously troubled world and on so many levels. I pray that my grandchildren and their generation will be the architects of a very different world - a world based on insight, understanding and compassion. God bless you and Tammie 🙏
A friend of mine who loves his boating watched this and told me to watch it. Im a bit older than you now 57 but i too was diagnosed about 5 years ago. Ive spent most of my adult life in a bubble where i went about my daily life but felt as though I wasnt part of it. Like you social gatherings terrify me and if forced into one I can usually cope for about 2 hours after which Im exhausted by the effort of trying to 'fit in'. Ive never been lucky enough to find my special person like you so i spend most of my time alone and as I put it to my friends living in my box. Very interesting listening to your foibles it never really occurred to me the condition had identifiable traits but I can identify with most of yours and many things you struggle with I struggle with too. Overthinking and depression yup I hate to admit this but ive come close several times when everything became too much but I have a strength that wont give up and keeps me going and that has always been my fall back. Ive had people suggest drugs but like you I try to keep a clear mind and try to think myself out of these ruts which get thrown in my way more often than I care to admit. Your solution is a brave one I just wish Id got the guts to walk away I do something new and different. Ive suggested living on an island but thats just me being a misery and trying to get away from people. All the very best Nick
Thanks so much Nick, and for watching this. I never dreamed that so many people would engage over this video. Amazing!
Best topic yet..bitter, sweet, direct...as a vlogger you have the power to enlighten and motivate people to be the best they can with what they have.. Thank you for enlightening me. Blessings to all who have shared their experiences in the comments.. xx n
Colin: I am totally blown away by your courage in bearing your soul in this way. And, by doing so, you help countless others who are struggling day in and day out with their own mental health issues. As a mental health professional I can tell you that this is nothing short of epic. BRAVO!
Thank you so much, Tom 💜
Well done for talking about this. I hope the move onto the boat really helps. My daughter and I (Narrowboat Girl) moved onto our boat to improve our mental health. Emma is homeschooled as her dyslexia was causing her too much stress at school. Fresh air and a slower pace are great for us. I hope the buying process goes smoothly for you. We were stuck in a marina for a few weeks and we hated it so we know how you felt. Things are so much better out on the cut. Anyway good luck with getting your boat and we look forward to your next video 😁
Hi. Thank you so much! I was so apprehensive about posting that video (it's been recorded for over a week). Comments like yours mean so much :) I just know it will do me good once the house sale goes through and we get our boat.
ps... follow us back on Twitter ;-) xxx
@pmailkeey Maybe you should consider going private for your medical care.
Today, finding out that some of y'all narrowboaters I follow from way out in US farmland have similar life experiences, challenges, is quite encouraging.
Your little girls channel is Brilliant!!! I love watching her channel. x
I live in the US, and have recently discovered narrowboats. Today I found one of you vlogs and went back and started watching from the beginning. When I got to this one I was stunned and in tears. I don’t think I have ever heard such a heartfelt and honest discussion. I admire you for being able to tell your story in such an articulate way. Thank you so much for sharing. I know that I am 4 years behind, but I intend to watch EVERY post. I hope you and Shaun are well and I look forward to following your journey. ❤️
Wonderful video and so glad you're sharing this with the community. I've had my own lifetime of struggles with what can only be described as a highly specialized brain, and a great deal of what you described, especially in terms of social anxiety, really resonates with me. I've been fortunate enough to come to a pretty high degree of peace with my noggin, but only through the dint of much effort and flailing around trying to find answers, and even now there's always the chance of missing a rung every so often. It's a life of practice, but it leads to a life of joy.
So, as one heavily literarily tattooed oddball to another, thank you! Proud of you! And for you.
Michael
Minimal List Michael, thank you. I’m not very good with words sometimes, but I’m really glad you managed to work some of this stuff out. You always come across as a wise man. x
Great video and very well done
And Michael; what a very lovely reply
Im diagnosed as having borderline personality disorder, and heard many similarities during this video; the overthinking, the meltdowns, the eiditic memory, panics, anxieties, etc
Grateful Thanks and Huge respect to u both
Davie x
Davie IMRIE Thanks David 👍🏻
Ya know, today is one of those days where learning some folks who you know are themselves dealing with similar things is actually uplifting.
I'm a perfectionist introvert. I live out in the middle of the woods alone. The days at work and the people I have to deal with puts me out of touch with anyone for the weekends. The time alone is an actual healing. A great video as always.
Thanks Matt. If I didn’t have Shaun I would probably do the same as you 👍🏻
I'm the same, Matt. I live alone with just my dogs and quite happy. Being with women caused my stress to skyrocket, totally unsustainable. I have a few close neighbors here in Portland, Oregon but they are all wonderful people and we get along great. As long as I have at least a day to 'veg out' with no stress, I'm good.
Only discovered you on Amazon Prime today. Watched the first two episodes and then looked for your UA-cam channel. This is one of the loveliest vlogs I’ve seen and talk about ASD and mental health so eloquently. I count myself lucky I’ve discovered you and Shaun. You’re amazing and I’m looking forward to seeing more Britain by Narrowboat episodes and your videos. Thank you for being you! 🏳️🌈🙏
Welcome to our channel, Philip. Season 2 out on Prime in the new year 👍❤️🙏
This is the best and most honest and clarifying description of how it is to live with ASD I have ever encountered. As a mum and a teacher and headmaster, my heart bleeds for the thirteen year old Colin in his room, waiting for hell to start all over again. It is fantastic that you have learned to cope with life, despite not knowing why you felt different. Absolutely amazing, hat and everything else off for that. I promise you, that I will do my very best, and then some more, to make sure my pupils do not get the same experience, no matter what their challenges are. Cross my heart.
Hi, Beate 👋
Thank you so much for taking time to comment. If you help just one thirteen year old have a better time then this video is totally worth it. Thank you! 💜
Your a big man for telling us all about your life mate and I can understand were you are coming from and it’s hard going at times
A 61 year old veteran and i sit har with tears in my eyes about your honesty, you are a beautiful person.
You really are fabulous :) This is one of the most positive open videos I've watched. I love the way you embrace it. Its the things that make us different which make us special. Thank you xxx
Thank you, lovely!
Hope you’re both keeping well xxx
Labeling is a way of creating control...when imposed from the outside, it can be oppressive...but learning about oneself and finding a way of naming ‘it’ can be a source of liberation.
Social media has been a boon for many unique people who need to navigate the world differently than the common herd. For me, the very idea of being at a sports event or even walking in the streets of a big city is frightening. You’re gaining a good handle on yourself.
I got a dx about 10 years ago - They had me on meds for a while to ‘normalize’ me...but I’ve come to love being on the asd spectrum - it makes me, me and in this case you, you. So many people are finding the current lockdown terrible, but I’ve been almost luxuriating in the ability to self isolate without feeling guilty - in fact - it’s a virtuous skill! Enjoy it!
Thanks, Elizabeth 💜
O it's not just a "label" dear it's how our life is, it's easy for someone not on the spectrum to understand ,usually it's the misinformed that come out with statements such as your own, and the only way to remedy that is read and learn, but hey everyone's entitled to their opinion.
@@magsreape3608 your reply confuses me. Are you saying I am misinformed about ‘labeling’? Please explain?
I watched this year's ago and just watched it for the first time after being diagnosed with High Functioning ASD, ADHD and dyslexic at the age of 54 (which is the average life expectancy for these conditions). So much of what you said, I can identify with. Although, when I saw this previously, I didn't. My diagnosis came because I couldn't cope after lockdown which was the best time of my life. It made he understand myself better and after a shutdown and reboot I'm okay. Just need to go backpacking one day of the week to reset. If anyone else is struggling, get help and get this average age much higher.
Do you have any fybromyalgia nfrom your Asperger's my grandfather had it but lived so simple for to 85 just lost my mum who obvously had it di dnof severe ms 72 yes stress does us in my son's just diagnosed now
You have articulated what has taken me 60 years to come to terms with. Years of medication left me aggressive and fearless, not a good combination. With determination I was able to get off the medication, and actually deal with my depression and anxiety. As you know it’s an ongoing process, and for me at least a life long one.
Talking to a few long time friends, they said they didn’t recognize the person I had become on medication. I’m grateful that those who mattered in my life hung in there and are still around today.
I want to thank you again for making me feel relieved that I’m not alone in my struggle. Growing up I just thought extreme anxiety and panic attacks were common place.
Now on a lighter note, I am intrigued with narrow boat life and hope some day to be able visit England and at least be able to enjoy a short term rental for an adventure on the canals. I’ve watched most of you and your partners vlogs and find them entertaining and informative, and yes you both have a fine sense of humour.
Goodbye for now from a Canadian suffering through this cold endless winter.
Hi Louis,
Apologies for the lateness of my reply.
Yeah, I have hated every medication they tried to give me. None of it does me any good, and only causes more side effects. If ever you escape that long, hard, Canadian winter to visit the UK you must give narrow-boating a try! xx
Hi from The USA .I found your videos recently and love all of the history and scenery. I'm learning about a side of the U.K. I never knew existed!! I especially want to thank you for speaking about your personal issues. I have a daughter with bipolar disorder and it helps everyone when difficulties are talked about. Sometimes we feel all alone don't we!! Stay close to your little family it helps always😊
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This video is four years old but I just discovered it and I can't tell you how much it helped me!! It was like you understood me. I'm gay and so much of what you said spoke to me. I stopped the video and just thought about it and then started it and stopped it to think as you talked. I don't want to belabor this post but I do want to thank you so much for making this video and for the wisdom you displayed in it. I live thousands of miles from you but you have touched my life in a significant way and I want to sincerely thank you!
Not only am I heartened by your words, but also the sheer volume of supporting comments. Truly wonderful.
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Thank you Colin. My daughter is currently going through the process of being diagnosed as being on the spectrum of autism and your video was extremely helpful in making me understand what she is going through. She like you has ultra sensitivity to sound, manifesting in misaphonia. Very difficult not to take personally sometimes when she has to leave the room, but your video was an epiphany. Thank you so much. Keep on cruising you wonderful man!
Yeah, Misaphonia is awful, and Shaun gives me such a look sometimes if his chewing or crunching is stressing me, but it's tough when you don't understand. Sending love! 💜
Our daughter has recently been diagnosed with mysophonia, ASD and ADHD. Your vlog described her perfectly and your description was simple and easy for us to understand. Thank you Colin, for such an important and honest vlog.
you're welcome, Lesley and thank you 🙏❤️
Excellent Colin.
I just wish a lot more people could watch this as it’s right on the button.
I'm in my late 60s now and wish I'd heard something like this brave and open piece when I was growing up. It might have helped me understand that, as you say, we are all different; that the bullies I suffered from at school and throughout my life were cruel and ignorant; that I wasn't wrong all the time. Thank you so much.
Sorry you had a hard time too, Chris. xxx
I've watched the canal blogs for a couple of weeks now and think they are great - lovely and relaxed. My attention was caught in this one by the Asperger's reference. My oldest son had Asperger's and we went through hell with difficult behaviour from when he was a toddler onwards. He would come home from primary school with huge bruises and grazes. We just got waffly BS from the teachers who had no more of a clue than we had. I worked in Aberdeen and later moved to outer London for work. My son was ready to move to senior school, by then, and moved into a much bigger school (full of strangers). I would later find out that 'not coping with change' is a classic symptom). By the time we moved I had read on an early Compuserve Internet precursor group in the US specifically for Asperger parents. You know that 'in the car' game to occupy kids where you look for specific letters in car registrations? He would read the letters - say 'ABC' and say back 'BAC' which was one of the Asperger's classic 'pick 3 of these 16 symptoms' - inability to sequence. I worked away a lot in Europe in the weeks and one week my wife had a call that he had tried to hang himself with his school tie! Now he seems to function well and holds down a reasonable consulting job. Love the canal chats!
Thanks, Jon. I'm glad your son is sorted now 👍🏻
Dear Colin, thanks for sharing your journey with ASD - your are a fantastic person and I admire your candour and courage in discussing your situation. We have a teenage grandson who also has been diagnosed with ASD. Fortunately, we’ve been able, with professional help, to teach him coping mechanisms that help him a lot. I love your sense of humour and I sincerely hope that your dreams for the boat become reality. I look forward to following you both on your journey. Terry.
Terry, thank you again! You're a lovely person and your comments are so kind. Much love to you! x
That was (possibly) your best video that I have seen (from ep1); which touched on a number of very important mental health issues. Firstly, I think you are very brave to be so open and free with your own struggles - a hearty cheer for that! Secondly, I could only imagine how many children (and adults) who could benefit from hearing your comments, and about your own life experiences - especially as a youngster, struggling and coping with a 'horrible' school existence. Just imagine, if you reached out to a relevant Mental Health organisation and/or charity group, and was able to be endorsed as an Ambassador, for them to help you to organise visits to schools en route on your narrowboat journeys - just imagine...how many children you could help!
Anyway, Colin, I think you're very brave. And so, too, is your partner, Sean, for standing by you, and staying the course! So, very well done...to you both! And, thanks for sharing!
Thank you so much! xx
Yours is the most accurate, compassionate, empathetic and personal description of ASD and Aspergers specifically that I have ever heard/see. Thank you so much for your willingness to share. I am certain that it will be beneficial to others who either have Aspergers or who wish to understand it. I am watching all of your vids, in order now, after having jumped around a bit right after I discovered you on You Tube. Again, thank you for your warmth and strength in your willingness to share. (PS: I am a retired Clinical Social Worker in Ohio, US; just FYI!)
this is the video that i can actually relate to, as a 21 year old man who has autism. (mild end of the spectrum) colin, thank you for sharing your story, it has really brought a smile on my face to find out that i can actually relate to someone who also has what i have, plus dealing with mental health too. even though i got diagnosed in 2005 since i was a 3 year old toddler, i always knew that i was different from everyone else as soon as i was growing up, but didn’t tell some of my friends that i’m living with autism until i were 19. because back then, i was afraid of telling people sooner that i’m autistic since i had a fear of getting rejected by some friends or to get bullied for being different. i had wonderful feedback from those people and when it got to the point where they told me that they don’t think of me in a different way, i literally had happy tears. in a way, it’s almost like coming out as gay to everyone (in which i am gay myself😂) but only instead its something else. one thing that prevents me from having a meltdown is going outdoors, which is one of my favourite things to do since i love going out in the nature where it’s peaceful and have time for myself.
i wish you all the very best for the future ahead of you, shaun and your furry friends, and congratulations on getting married next year 🥰💙
The world needs more people like you Colin. We are all unique and that should be celebrated not frowned upon.
Aww, thanks, Andy!
This is most likely one of the most important vlogs that I have viewed, in beginning to understand and appreciate the complexities of mental health, and how it can mean something different in each one of us. I started to watch this and couldn't stop, because of the value in what you shared. I admire your honesty, and your bravery for sharing. I sincerely wish that this is viewed by many, to broaden understanding, and more importantly, to kindle hope.
Thank you so much, David 💜
This is an AWESOME video. You have done a genuine service to the mental health community in sharing this. There is an American psychiatrist, Ned Hallowell who talks about people with certain mental health conditions having a brain with a Ferrari engine but bicycle brakes. The fact that you were able to post this personal video means that over time you've developed better brakes than most, but there is no doubt, a Ferrari engine underneath.
What an amazing way to put it. Thanks 💜
my son has Aspergers and you totally describe similar symptons,thank you for your bravery,and helping people understand the complexities of Aspergers.
Thanks David.
Totally agree - the more role models bring to light their health struggles and challenges, the better off we all are
I enjoy your channel so much and now I admire the two of you even more ❣️
I have ADHD and I’m currently going through symptoms of generalised anxiety disorder, something incredibly calming about hearing you talk about mental health, the spectrum and just sharing your story ☺️
I hope you get through it mate 💜
You will never know of the many people who watch your videos and think maybe I can do what he is doing, and it will change the lives of others you will never see or know of. But be assured that you are an inspiration to others, we love what you do and we are beside you living our lives the best way can, a day at a time, take care my friend.
So kind. Thank you so much! 💜
Wow! What an honest, open-hearted person you are. Anyone would be honored to be your friend.
My comment will unavoidably be repeated words from the many great comments before mine. Such an honest, informative, and easy to watch chat you had with everyone. Honestly it was like I was taking a walk with you. I hope that walk and talk helped you as much as it undoubtedly will help others that live with the same issues. Thanks for sharing 😀
I appreciate that!
Hi Colin. My son pointed me to your channel during a recent visit and I will be forever thankful to him for that. I am now approaching 80 and have experienced many of the symptoms you describe in this video, but for the first time I have some idea of what I have been going through. The symptoms are not severe but certainly produce their own level of stress. I am a Bradford lad who emigrated to Canada 50 years ago and have never looked due to the peace I find in the wide open spaces of this country, far away from cities and their frenzy.
I plan to watch every episode of your journey and watch your progress. I wish you the best in the future.
Awesome, thank you so much for joining us. Sounds like you live in a beautiful place. Take care and stay safe 🙏❤️
one of the most humbling videos i have watched for a long time it takes a brave person to talk about mental health and mental health issues but full respect to yourself im sure everyone here can relate to mental health issues in one way or another either with themselves or people they know but just keep doing you love the videos
Thank you so much 💜
Your welcome I always think people should be open and honest about things and if your ever towards Ely Cambridgeshire way drop a message I'll stop by
Thank you for sharing your ASD journey. You are an inspiration!
Thank you so much!
You are so right Colin , we are all individuals, there is no right or wrong way as lone as we learn from it, there shouldn't be labels, to have a good heart and do your best what more is there. I think your life style now with Silver Fox is the way to go, to find that quiet place, that still place at your mooring but also with in your self will be wonderful.Blessings from Australia.
💜 Well said
Fantastic video. Huge, massive respect and awe that you have shared this with anyone who wants to watch. The biggest thing everyone needs to learn in life is that everyone is unique and different as you point out. I don;t think even doctors get this. The world needs to lose the concept of 'normal' and 'accepted'. What works for one person may be hated and stressful to another.
Very true words, Mike 💜
I suspect that the comments and replies here are nothing quite like you were expecting. The few I have read confirm that far more of us watching understand and are delighted and look forward to your videos. Thank you so very much for simply being yourself, and sharing your life experiences with us. I live in the United Stares and simply came across your videos by accident. I think it might have been one of the videos where you talk about trains. :) I get a kick out of your sense of humor. In creating engaging content like you guys do here on UA-cam, we simply share of ourselves and our fascination and learning about the world we live in. You might not have realized it in the moment when you were doing radio, but you were training for this moment. Thank you so very much for sharing your journey with us all here!
Thanks for posting! This gave me some things to think about. I too was diagnosed late (46, now 48). I need to make some changes myself to improve my mental health. Also, you are super easy to listen to and I look forward to watching your other videos!
Thanks, Todd! I hope you enjoy the other videos :) x
Only just found your channel and have been hooked, I turn 50 this year and I was a late diagnosis, I was diagnosed in 2018 after years of being treated as bipolar and medicated for it too, it never worked and usually ended badly, hearing you describing it while my other half was listening was uncanny, the words coming out of your mouth were pretty much word for word how I've described it, the tesco bit made me chuckle, I usually sit in the car while other half goes in, she usually jokes but she knows how hard it is for me, until I was diagnosed whatever "it" was, was something external, an illness that had to be cured, as soon as I got my diagnosis it was suddenly ok, I wasn't broken, it was just the way I am. Of course being hyper aware means hyper aware of self too and the over analysis of every thought and the results of every thought and every thought that comes from that can be overwhelming but just knowing "hey, thats just the way I'm wired" kind of makes it easier to deal with, lovely to see someone being so open as I agree, it's nothing to be ashamed of, it's nothing wrong, we don't need curing. we are just different, and different is kinda cool.
Exactly right! A lot of people think once you have a diagnosis that there's a cure. It's really just about learning to live with how you are. 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
This deserves way more shares, you can see from the comments it has helped a lot of people and could help a lot more, you have my absolute respect for sharing your condition with us
Thanks so much !
Agreed!! Respect Sir !!
What a great video I totally admire you for your honesty. I have just discovered your channel so glad I did.
Thank you so much! Welcome! 👍🏻
Thank you for the video. My partner and I have been watching your narrowboat adventures for several weeks now, but with no idea of your emotional struggles. My partner, a Harvard Law School graduate, has always suffered debilitating depression, but in recent months has especially been dealing with stress and anxiety, to the point it has made him physically ill. I think watching this video has resonated deeply with him.
Thanks again.
Mike, Cleveland OH, USA
I would say I'm pleased it triggered something, but I'm not glad of the circumstances. Be strong both of you! 💜
OMG Colin, now i know why i love you so very much. You see you described my daughter, who was also recently diagnosed as High functioning Autism. She is like you highly intelligent and despite being born profoundly deaf attained a Science Degree at University which she has not used because she cannot deal with people in this world. She is extremely focussed and was even as a tiny child. Her anxiety levels like you leads her to melt downs and her autism led to her divorce from a husband who did not take his vows seriously i.e. to love her through sickness and health, and whom she adored. She lives with us now and is happier now but it took her until now to get over the way he treated her. ( Long story) She has found happiness again through a man who was first her best friend and who now has proved his love for and whom we all love too, but still she battles through her anxieties daily. The thought of facing the world for her brings her to her knees with panic and she hides away literally. So this video had me crying my eyes out for you and also for my daughter because i recognised in you, her life Colin.. . I knew there was a reason i was drawn to you, Colin...and I don't mean sexually...lol....(I am a happily marries since 1979 woman ..) No what.i mean is I now know I recognised like. You know? When i heard you speak it was as if a door had been opened and my understanding enlightened more for my daughter. I really would love to meet you and Shaun one day ....and i know your kind of a celebrity and so am realistic that i most likely will not, but I think you and I would get along. When my daughter was diagnosed i along with her dad was with her and they said they believed me to be also be High functioning Autistic. I was pretty shocked but looking back it explains a lot. Been pretty down about it for a while and I haven't told many people about how i feel ....guilt being one emotion since i obviously passed it on to my beloved daughter and i can see the pain it has caused her. Sobbing now Colin... I have never shared this with anyone especially in public like this.....Anyway bless you Colin for sharing ....with everyone and for trying to make the world a more understanding place for people like my daughter and indeed me who struggle daily. I really do mean this when i say... much love to you and to Shaun...You have touched my heart, Colin...in ways you will probably never get to see. As for Shaun...who obviously loves you very much he is your love and i am so very glad you have him. I am so very glad that i found your videos and now feel honoured to know you just a little more. love always Heather
Hi, Heather!
Awww, I feel bad that it made you cry!
It's so sad that partners don't understand, or find it impossible to cope, although I can believe that it happens because I know how hard it is for Shaun to cope living with me.
As for being celebrities... Don't be silly! Haha! We're the same down-to-earth blokes from Yorkshire that we were a couple fo years ago!
Sending loads of love! Colin x
@@FoxesAfloat It is very clear that Shaun loves you very much... Indeed its what endears me to him also. When you had a melt down that he shared, it was clear he was worried sick about you, you could see it in his eyes. He puts up with you (as you say) because he loves you and that is why. His love is a beautiful thing. He recognises a very special person when he sees one Colin, and that makes it very easy for him to 'put up with you' as you state. Never forget that... ok. Lots of love Heather x
@@FoxesAfloat Just joined to support you both on your venture. Love your videos guys and you both too. x
Some of this broke my heart. I’m so sorry you were mistreated during school years. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s an important one to share. You’re such a fabulous soul. You’re both so real and warm. I’m sure I speak for many when I say you’re both so easy to love - even when only through my tv. Blessings!
Thank you so much!
Your words have touched me deeply. I'm 59, never diagnosed but I know exactly what you are talking about. Sending lots of love to both of you. 🙋🏻♀️ Lisa
Thanks, Lisa. You too 💜
@@FoxesAfloat 💜
I have suffered your symptoms ,now at 57,I've learnt like you to take some stress out of my routine,thankyou.
Good stuff, Adrian. Hope you;'re well xx
@@FoxesAfloat Thankyou it's good to know people care,feel so lonely in this world.
I've watched 5 episodes today, liked them all but this was on another level. Well done Colin! Thanks for being brave enough to talk about this. I'm a mental health nurse and have specialised for some years in supporting people with Asperger's and autism. Sadly, your experience is a common one and it can have a very undermining effect upon someone's self-confidence and esteem. Keep doing what you're both doing - you're rising above all this and getting to a better place - well, literally!!
Thank you so much! 👍🏻💜
Well I'm 74 and have been aware that I am somewhere on the "spectrum" for many years although not "diagnosed". My life experience has been a somewhat "watered down" version of yours.
I have found that practicing Yoga has made a big contribution to me... The practice grounds me, stops my brain charging round in circles, makes me more aware and comfortable with those around me and as a bonus keeps my ageing body flexible. There are many lessons on U tube I recomend it to anyone.
Thanks for your video. Happy boating "There is nothing absolutely nothing so worth doing as messing about in boats"
Brian
hehe.. Great line at the end. I used to teach Pilates in addition to being a Personal Trainer and that helped The confines of the boat prevent a lot of the activity but I've never tried Yoga. 💜
Colin, this is now from quite a few years ago, but thank you. Like you, I suffered a lot as a child, and well into adulthood. I struggled for decades and was only diagnosed at 63. With the clarity came relief and grief and real adjustment. Major life changes too. I am also now thinking of getting a boat, for many of the ASD reasons you mention, and am finding yours and Shaun's videos very helpful. Please keep them coming and hopefully we will meet on a canal sometime in the future.
What an amazing video. I am a mental health professional and this really illuminated what the reality of what living with ASD can be like. My boyfriend has been diagnosed with autistic traits and I see a lot of what you have said in him, which I knew anyway but it has helped me understand him better. So many thanks for speaking out.
I love your videos, they make me laugh and feel okay with the world. I have only just come across them so I am working through them. If you pass through Reading, we would love to say hi. Best wishes, Simon and Tony.
Hi guys 👋
Thank you so much. We're on the Thames near Oxford at the moment. Still not sure which way we're going yet 😬
Thank you for sharing your story in this truly heartfelt vlog. It is so relatable to those of us who have experienced this journey. At 23, my son finally broke. Thankfully, he was receptive to medical help, both counselling & medication, but just as you said, his goal was to develop coping skills through CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) and wean off medication, which he has done successfully for many years now. Today, at 38, he is thriving extremely well. We journeyed through this together and with the support of our immediate family. I'm glad you reinforced that Mental Health is not something to be ashamed of or embarrassed about and that it is something that should be talked about.
Thanks Kathy, and great to hear your son is doing well.
This could have been my younger brother talking. He also had other health problems but he was what the doctors called “borderline “ autistic.He passed away at the age of sixty after a life of suffering everything you have talked about. Thank you for being so honest about your condition, it can’t have been easy. It’s good to unload and hopefully life will be a bit easier going forward.
My granddaughter is on the spectrum and is the most amazing person. (I think amazing is used too much which devalues the word) Incredible? We feel truly blessed to have her in our lives.
She sounds an awesome person xxx
My granddaughter is also on the Spectrum. So gifted, but socially awkward. We honor her individuality and talents. She is gifted and a very loving young lady. We are blessed to have her in our lives♥️.
This dose of honesty is why we love watching you two. You’re real. Thank You
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Thank you for talking about autism you truly are amazing and so is Shaun. Big hugs to you both 💕
Thanks, Gail 💜
You’re a very brave man sharing your inner thoughts with use, I am Australian living in a remote part of the country, and just found this channel I’ll be watching it from now on thanks again for telling use who you are.
Hi, Keith and WELCOME! 🙏 xx
Thank you so much for opening up and putting this on UA-cam. At age 46 I'm recovering from chronic stress with undiagnosed ADHD/ASD and this has been so helpful, I can relate to it and not feel alone. I'm happy you've found the lifestyle that works for you and hey, cities suck, you've got the important things in life.
Thanks, Gary! I hope you find calm 💜
Ohhhhhhhh, thank you, thank you. We have a grandson (14) who is just like you. He has only been officially diagnosed for about 4 years. He is very intelligent, gently, caring, and struggles exactly like you describe. But, hearing you so beautifully describe YOU. It has helped me as his grandmother, who loves he so very much.....as we do our other three grandchildren. I am going to show this episode to my daughter....and I believe it will be good for our beautiful boy to hear.....we talk about his autism, and it is open and accepted. It is supported.....but to hear you......thank you, thank you, thank you. God bless you....
Thank you, Nancy. Your grandson has a very caring and loving grandmother 💜
Thank you for saying there’s no such thing as normal, and that many personality traits are simply spectrums. I’ve tried to say the same thing to people, but you’ve said it perfectly.
It's true 💜👍🏻
Wow, just wow. I've just found you and Sean on Amazon Prime, enjoyed the series and looked for you on here.
But this 20 minutes is one of the best things I have seen. Open, honest, informative and beautifully filmed. Thank you for sharing this with us. 👍
Welcome aboard, Dave! Thank you so much 💜
I describe my life as constantly being on a carnival midway. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. I hear every conversation, see every flashing light, the clank of every ride, the smells... Going to a carnival is fun for most people, because when they leave it's over. Not so much when you'd like to leave but you can't.
Such a familiar story. Sending love 💜
just started watching your channel, finding it very inspirational, your frankness in this one shows what a sympathetic, understanding and brave person you are. I wish you both all the luck in the world on your travels, and look forward to following your journey
Thanks and welcome
I think this is the calmest I’ve seen you in a video. Probably because you’re laying it all bare (we know you do that on top of the boat too!)
I have anxiety and there’s definitely a “mask” we wear, but there’s no mask here and it’s beautifully honest.
Thank you for sharing it xx
Thanks for noticing it, Leanne 💜
I was in my late 60s before I was diagnosed. Thank you for your comments. I thought everybody exhausted themselves by overthinking before I discovered my autism. And I felt a failure for not being able to cope with it without simply shutting down. Thanks for reminding me that I am not alone. Bless you and all who sail with you.
Thanks Sue 💜
You made me cry, my world has just fallen apart, iv do e something stupid and ended up trying to take my own life. Your words are so true and I hope I get the help you have had.
I will follow you. Thanks.
I hope you're getting some support, Paul. 💜
@@FoxesAfloat
Times are hard, it's when you have no one to talk to that your world closes in on You. When those you trusted have let you down so much.
I truly thought I was stronger. Just starting to get the help I need.
Take care and keep in touch, watch this space, I want a boat to take ex service men like myself out to relax and feel safe. Just looking for a boat now.
Colin, the way you express yourself and are able to share your story is amazing. Not many people could do it as well. You face your challenges in such a strong way giving others much needed encouragement. We all have setbacks in our lives. It's how we handle them is what matters. As the old saying goes, when life deals you a basket of lemons, turn the lemons into lemonade. You have been doing just that. You and your partner are a great team. As the British say, Carry on. You have so much to contribute.
Thanks so much mate! x
I've thought since my teens that I wasn't normal, now 56, having listened to your vlog i can identify with 90% of what you described, (I like parties), though I'm very awkward in a social situation! Thank you Colin for helping others to understand
Great post, I was only told 2 years ago I suffer from depression and anxiety and it made me realise how long I have suffered this way just like you, the overthinking, dreading social events been told I'm odd,weird, different. I'm 45 married and 2 beautiful children and like you nobody would know. Thank you for this video it helps to hear I'm not alone. I have recently started taking countryside photos and love. I'm a new subscriber and so keep up the great work.
Thank you so much for commenting, Simon! (And for subscribing) 👍🏻💜
Oh my goodness! Look at how this video has gone on to give people support or validation or whatever good they've gotten from it! You are a beautiful human being Colin, and so is Shaun! You said you dreaded the outcome of this video. I can only imagine what was going through your head at that point, but I am sure you're very glad you did post it. I'm glad you did, as I've been reading the comments. Whoa! So much love and support out there. You are a beacon of light and even though my wife told me about this video probably last year, I now actually get it even more having seen you be so raw with your emotions. I'm surprised this video hasn't gone viral. I'm so glad to have found your channel and will continue to enjoy it as long as UA-cam is around! UA-cam will certainly outlive me! LOL! Peace and take good care and thank you!!!!
Thank you so much! 🐾 💜🐾
Colin.... just absolutely awesome!! I know it took a lot of courage for you to make this video. The ridiculous stigma surrounding autism and mental health is horrible. I'm also truly grateful you found a partner that can wholly support you! I'm a firefighter/medic and see all too often the effects these kinds of things have on people, my wife is actually inpatient in a mental health facility as I write this so it really does hit home. She has long been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and severe depression and its a daily struggle for her. But with people erasing the stigma and talking about it in the open it really does help, not only others struggling themselves letting them know that are not alone but with those who don't understand what others might actually be going through. Amazing as always!!
Thanks so much, Chris 💜
Boy oh boy, I so get it! It took me over 60 yrs to figure it out, but it was a revelation, like a light bulb going off. The bullying, the stress of social situations, it just resonates. I have seen more and more that we're not alone with this, there are lots of people dealing with this. I too suffered through childhood, the meltdowns, total anxiety. Lack in like you said, they really didn't know about this stuff back in the day, it was all freudian - no help, at least it wasn't called evil spirits. Knowing really helps.
As someone with a likely undiagnosed family member, this explains a lot and meant a lot. You put it all out there very eloquently and honestly.
Thanks, Jonathan 💜
Thank you so much for posting this.
It was a two tissue moment listening to you describe me and my life as if you were looking in a crystal ball.
I have never been diagnosed, but every syllable you uttered described me, my life, my anxiety, swings, crash and burns, knotted innards in the face of social situations.
Oh my God.
I was a hairdresser for 45 years.
After dealing with new people and repeat clients who WANT something or DEMAND things, all day, every day, 30 minutes and repeat... I drank and drugged myself into oblivion every night for about 30 years.
(I made Patsy and Eddie look like amateurs, sweetie... LOL)
I no longer drink, and am drug free. I do smoke weed, but that's my worse vice.
I was on meds for depression for a brief time, but like you, choose not to go that route.
I've had 3 heart surgeries, mostly stress induced... and having smoke cigarettes since age 7.
When in a depressive meltdown, it seems like acknowledgement of the situation lightens the load quite a bit and recovery is quicker.
I know that it will get better. It always does. I KNOW the depressive episode will eventually end and I'll feel better again. So, I get through it, and work on getting through it by doing something positive or doing something kind for someone else. It helps.
Positive energy .
In the 80s, knowing my social phobia and fear of being in those situations, a boyfriend threw me a surprise birthday party. I threw everyone out, broke up with the boyfriend and never spoke again to anyone who attended. It is that severe.
I still do not socialize with anyone offline. I just freeze and don't know what to say.
I crave the company of friends, but when we do meet up, I can't get away fast enough.
It's good having friends who understand.
Thank you again for sharing this.
You really touched my heart and released a floodgate of emotion, knowing someone else knows exactly how I feel.
God bless you.
Safe cruising.
Everything you said is shared by millions of us who for whatever reason don't tell our story. I'm so glad you watched this, if not only to know that we are out there and feel the same.
Sending love ! 💜
Brave and enlighting. Good on you. I admire your honesty and integrity, im sure this vlog will help many to understand and hopefully be more compassionate of others in thefuture. Credit to you.
Thank you so much!
It's been a while since you posted this, and I don't know if you'll see this comment, but what a beautiful an intelligent vlog.
I'm an American woman who dreams of the narrow-boat life...but years ago I worked with pre-school children who were on the spectrum and loved them dearly.
I pray that they have grown into knowing and accepting themselves as you have. I am thankful you have such an understanding partner.
I've really enjoyed your humor and joy in the few videos I have watched, and will be trying to watch them all. Much love to the two of you (and Dylan) from Tampa, Florida.
Thanks so much, Carolyn and big respect for the work you did 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻💜💜💜
I think your conversation to us has raised a lot of issues that people may have but don’t realise it. Personally, I can relate to your ASD as Tescos is the worst place to shop, try Waitrose it will definitely calm you down.
Seriously, I am pleased you opened up about your inner self. You are so right, we are all on the spectrum, it is just some people don’t know it. It seems these days everyone likes to have a label, it’s their way to be noticed.
I agree with you, like people for who they are and not for what they are. Treat each other with respect and that way we will all get along just fine….
Thanks, Mike 💙
I wish there was a "love" button to click, as you would get one from me. This is a brilliant video. You open yourself up and explain so articulately how the world is for you and how each day has problems for you to overcome that neurotypicals can't begin to understand.
I have two grown up children at opposite ends of the spectrum and I am constantly lost in love and admiration at how they cope with what life throws at them and come out the other side still smiling. I like to think that we as parents have helped them come to terms with who they are and develop coping strategies.
As you say, everyone of us is unique and does not need a label; you have explained this so well.
I wish you and Sean every happiness in your new (second time around!) life and will be following you avidly.
Andy, thank you so much. It means everything to me when people understand :)
I have nothing for admiration for parents who have raised children on the spectrum. You're heroes!
Thank you for the kind wishes. Lots of love! Colin.
Colin, that was the most profound and honest video/vlog? I have ever watched. I found your channel via another narrow boating vlogger and have watched a few of your recent vlogs before I found this one. Your vlogs knock the others into a cocked hat. I shall eagerly await your next vlog. In the meantime I shall catch up with your back catalogue. Thank you
Wow, thank you!
"There's no such thing as normal". Superbly put. A phrase we should try to live by.
Exactly x
Thank you *so* much for this. You are incredibly brave, Colin to say these things. I could probably blab on forever, but just to say this: Thank you.
You are so welcome
This is an older video and I'm glad I just saw. You sharing your story helps me to better understand some of your comments in your latest videos. You're not alone and you're probably helping more people than you realize...👍
Thank you so much for your understanding, Rebecca ❤️
Hi I know it's a really old video to comment on but I just wanted to thank you for talking about all this. My grandma used to be big fans of you guys before she passed away just over a year ago and I like to keep up with you guys and come back to these older videos I used to talk about with her. I've related to a lot of the autism things you've talked about here since I first watched this. Now I've recently turned 18 and I've been doing my research and I'm finally trying to get diagnosed with autism myself and it was because of people like you sharing your stories and everything for inspiring me to learn more about this condition and ultimately how my brain works. So thank you for having the courage to talk about all this and thank you for giving me the courage to learn about myself! Things have been getting better since I've been able to identify the issues I've been having and what the problem is which has been really helpful so thanks again for talking about this and giving others including myself the courage to exist as we are.
Hi Athena. I’m sorry to hear that your grandma passed away. Big hugs from us. I hope you manage to get a diagnosis and any support that brings. Thanks for the kind words. Stay strong and always be true to yourself! x
Great video! Massive respect for telling everyone about the past and how you've dealt with it. It will hit a lot of people and they will have similar experiences in my opinion, I know I have.
Keep up the amazing work on your channel :-)
I appreciate that!
I was finally diagnosed aged 43 I'm 52 now and I still can't cope with life. The world is a very busy place "lockdown" has been a God's send for me. You talk about the exact same things that set me off. This video will help thousands more people than you'll ever imagine....simply by talking about HFA on your site brings awareness to others. Love the videos you 2 put out.
Thanks so much 💜
No need to worry about how people view this video. You were candid. You explained everything so well. It even made me wonder if I am somewhere on the "spectrum". I have noticed some of the same traits in myself you spoke about. But I could never have explained them like you have....that would have stressed me out. After all you said and exposed, and if I knew it would not stress you out, I would like to give you a HUGE hug.
you are such a natural communicator, that is a gift in itself. Talking therapies are estimated to be as effective as medication for some people. Stay well xx
Thanks, Louise 💜
Well..... wasn't expecting this vid..... and I it just made me feel like... ahh a real person and one who has some balls, to be able to show up and share as yourself is really fabulous. I can relate to a bit of what you are saying and the next time I'm in the UK perhaps I'll look you up. Thanks again for sharing...
Thanks for some lovely words, Michael 💜
Hi I saw your vlog and thought it very interesting. My son was diagnosed with ASD when he was 7 and my daughter when she was 19 we have had some bad times but we have also had some lovely times. My son being diagnosed early was a help the school he went to helped him with strategies to help him cope with everyday life. My daughter struggles all the time with depression and anxiety. I have seen both sides of diagnosis the early and the late. I think my son copes so much better and actually helps my daughter alot to cope with different situations. My son is now 19 and my daughter is 27. Thank you for being so honest and open about your diagnosis it will help so may people. Love you you both. Tracy. Xx
Thanks so much, Tracy!
In 2005 I was a mad Artist making things from old scraps of steel.
I made a full time job of it, even fully restored a 1952 ( year I was born ) Morris Minor Ute into a proper USA type woody, but I could not keep up with my brain and all the thoughts that were spinning around in my head.
I sort out help after a solo exhibition in Sydney that sold out in 2 days and I ran into a wall inside of my head due to the fact that I had not considered that there should have been more art I had 31 pieces in that show with an average price in excess of $800.
I ended up on a drug that for about 4 months was great, my mind became clear and the spinning stopped.
Then every thing slowly stopped I had lost the will to work, to enjoy, to look at a bit of old car and see what it could be, in about late 2012 I kicked out the drug and I still have a shed full of bits collected from 1988 and I sit and watch videos all day every day just waiting for the odd rare day where I can face the shed and even get so far as opening the doors.
Mate I took the Medication line, I am Glad that you never did as I can say that the stuff you put into your trips would be very dull with out you talking about the history and how you feel and the fun you two have and show.
You may have to show whats in that secret Draw one day.......C C-o-l-i-n
I am glad I decided to watch from the start, as I love the cut, it's a pity we don't have that sort of thing here in Australia cause that would be me in a flash.
Thank You for the courage I know that it took to do that walk with a Camera.
Thanks again Tony.
Hey, Tony. Thanks so much! None of the meds worked for me either. Loads of crappy side effects. The main one took away the one thing in life that gave me pleasure 💦🤯😬
Haha! The secret cupboard is a story for another media where I wouldn't get banned 😂
Bravo! I teach high school - graphic design. I usually have several ASD students - due to the content of the courses and the fact that I try my best to ensure a safe and caring environment for them. Your video is so moving and honest. We are all unique and must treat everyone with respect and love. Best wishes for your new adventures on the Silver Fox. I will be watching with envy as you both explore the lovely countryside. I will be back in the UK in June of 2020. One day I hope to take a canal boat holiday there. Even better, to actually live on the canal, but for now I'll live vicariously through your vlogs. Cheers!
Hey Sandi. Again, thank you for such lovely words. If you do make it over, let us know and we can hopefully show you Silver Fox, along with loads of tea and cake :) xxx
Hello, I just found your channel today. I started watching video 163 which was very interesting and relaxing but it was "Autism and me" which I found extremely informative. I believe this will be of great help to anyone who is suffering those things you describe and I think most people who've commented are very glad you did. You have done a great service for Mental Health. Thank you and well done for speaking out. ❤️
Hello and welcome! 🙏
You have a lovely voice. Absolutely lovely
Thank you for speaking about it. It makes it accessible, understandable for people who have no experience, exposure to it. It spreads awareness.
Like when you describe overthinking. English has the expression to secondguess something. Amateurs. I millionguess. I can get into a decisionlock, where I will not outwardly seem stress. Rather will look too lazy to decide/proceed. While inside I run a million miles an hour, trying to find every perspective.
Social situations are maybe what unites all on the spectrum. But I found if I am communicating with somebody who I know to handle the same difficulties, I have it somehow easier. Just when you mutually know to look at signs of what is happening inside the other person, because you know them so much yourself.
Labels are great for sorting. But from how I have it for me, I think the bad part is to give everybody ONE label.
Instead everybody has... up to infinite labels
Great words, Michael!
So glad you shared this with everyone. As you said, talking about mental health issues can be difficult, but Colin, each time you do, know that you are not just enlightening people, but helping others. Bless you and hang in there.
Thanks, Florence 💜
Thank you so much for opening up like this, you're absolutely right, it really does help others who struggle too. What I'd give to be able to just sail away from the noise... This lifestyle is so inspiring.
Thanks, Michael 💜
Your open and honest communication is so incredibly helpful. Your experiences mirror my own in so many ways and you’ve given me a sense that I’m not alone. Thank you!
I was just looking through some of your older videos because your channel has such warm positive energy that I wanted to watch more :)
And, I found this one! I also have Asperger’s, and I relate very strongly to many things you express here. Thank you SO much for your openness and honesty in speaking about this. It is really touching to see true raw expression from another human. People spend so much time trying to hide who they are, rather than simply be truthful or open about it. You’re a bloody amazing person. You BOTH are. 😊✨
Aww, thank you so much! 💜