Fentanyl Addict interview-Emilio
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- Опубліковано 19 жов 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Emilio, a fentanyl addict in Kensington, Philadelphia.
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No joke... because of watching SWU and visiting a young man in prison in prison from time to time, I just enrolled in college classes to become a substance abuse counselor.
Congratulations Jason, you’re embarking on a beautiful new phase of your life.
That’s awesome. Good luck to you.
Thank you t
Respect
Awesome!!!
Take care of yourself too 🙏😊
I started off watching every couple months when a video popped up to watching every day within hours of posting. SWU has a chokehold on me, nothing else like it on YT. The perspective I get from stories like Emilio's has really made me a better person
Same here. I watch every morning. Even have about 10 good friends now I talk to every morning in the comments. This is an awesome channel and nobody’s consistent dropping videos every morning at the same time as SWU.
Same!! Literally…I’m probably one of the only people in the world that doesn’t use UA-cam…like EVER, but now I’m on it religiously simply to watch SWU. The stories are incredible, and the perspective he provides is amazing!!!
A good point I don’t know if I should say fortunately or unfortunately I have a fairly intimate knowledge of these type of things I was an addict for quite some time luckily not during this most recent decade which is pretty awful but either way I wanted to say I hope Emilio gets clean man very sad because I can see that he has a kind soul and he’s not dumb at all just never really had a good role model or been shown the way it’s almost amazing he still here considering everything he’s been through I hope he gets claim which he’s already on Suboxone so he’s taking the right steps and I hope he returns to Puerto Rico and can be a good father and role model to his children
Same, Trisha...same!😫😁
You hit the nail on the head there Trisha!
I always knew that bad parenting was the cause of a lot of issues in adults, but until I came across this channel, I didn't realize how significant is it.
Lack of love from family or biological parents really does effect one’s Soul . Sending him loving vibes , may god bless him on his journey .
Your initial words really caught me. I'm 30 now, and I'm a very loving caring person. I was shown entirely to much love and compassion by my mom as a child. I had free reign of anything I wanted to do. We were poor, but my mom made me feel like I was perfect in anything I did. I'm gonna be a father and its weighed on me thinking about how I will be with my child. Because, I've reflected on my past. And i gotta say getting to much love has had it's own ripple effects on adult life. I never feel like I'm good enough, I always feel like if things aren't perfect in my relationships then I must be the problem. Me and Emilio are at both complete ends of scale but in the end, have probably struggled equally. I wish Emilio the best, hes an amazingly strong man I bet. I will love my child, but also have to check my self in being stern and letting them stand on they're own two feet. I know I have a big heart, but it's not always a good thing. Because sadness and pain can be quite overwhelming at times. Peace love and strength to all
@@chevchellios621 I completely understand where you're coming from, I've had the same experience as you. 💛
I’m struggling with this right now at 18. My mom and dad are dead now and weren’t really in my life and now my foster parents are emotionally abusive .
GOD BLESS Him🙏🏽👊🏽
@@manda-om9ls I am sorry to hear that. Hope things improve for you.
So much pain written into every scar, every awkward gesture, every deflected question and every heartbreaking memory. As strong as fentanyl is, it may as well be water: ultimately you develop a tolerance for opiates and opioids that bring you to your knees in a worse hell than you were beforehand. Reality is a cold place when you're alone with your demons.
So we’ll spoken, it’s exactly how it plays out for the person if they’re lucky enough to survive.
Parents this is an example of why you don't have children if you can't be a loving and peaceful parent. Emilio deserved better! I wish him peace and happiness in his life!
I know you probably hear this all the time, but i would absolutely LOVE to see a follow up on Emilio. He seems like a nice person that hard a very hard upbringing, unfortunately. I wish him all the best.
Thank you Mark and Emilio. Have a great day.
Loved Emilio’s interview. I feel like he’s tired and ready for a change. I hope he can one day feel loved and wanted.
Incredible story again Mark, thank you for sharing this, and Emilio: I pray that you tear down the hurdles in your mind and know that you can do ANYTHING if you put your mind to it. I too was once a struggling heroin addict and decided one day that I had had enough, it took a few years but I overcame it… addiction is giving up everything for one thing, recovery is giving up one thing for everything… god speed and good luck Emilio, I know you can do it!
This guy deserves a second chance… hope he gets it.
I’m very proud of you for quitting the hard stuff !!! Keep going strong , your kids need you and they will be proud their father got clean !! You got this
Emilio, Síguele echando ganas a la vida porque tú eres alguien que vale la pena y tienes un propósito ,,,,,bendiciones💙.
Dr. Gabor Mate says, "there's only one story in your life that explains everything...I had needs, they weren't met, and as a result I suffered"
1 and half minutes in when he says "I never heard my mom and dad tell me they love me" my heart literally hurt for him.
Just that one thing is all we need to know about him to explain everything he says after and the reason he's sitting in front of Marks camera.
I also instantly thought of my boys and my granddaughter and can't imagine a single time I see them and not saying I love you..or the 1 million ways I show I show I love them. I also thought of my parents and grandparents and brother and life long friends and I know how incredibly blessed I am to have so much love in my life.
Best of luck trucking in PR & being nearer to your kids, Emilio 🤍🤍
Thank you for sharing Mark 🙏🏼🙏🏼
A beautiful human being that was dealt a really awful hand in life. Wishing you all the best with your recovery Emilio and getting your CDL. Good luck my brother
We have enough criminals and idiots destroying trucking
My heart goes out to this man.
I am really rooting for this man. Those Philly streets are no joke. Hope he makes it.
wow ..... i really like him a lot. super impressionable and seems so very genuine.
Thank you very much for sharing your story with us, Emilio! We really need truck drivers in this country right now and I hope you are able to get a great job doing what you want! Mark, you did such a great job of getting Emilio to relax and open up, your interview style is remarkably neutral and your subjects obviously appreciate that. Many thanks to the both of you, none of this is easy!!
Saludos Emilio! Shout of from California, Hey brother just wanted to give you some motivation, I use to be an addict before I been clean for a year now I also have a passion for Trucks I got my CDL a year ago, being in the road has help me stay clean and away from trouble! Anything possible I recently meet I driver he is 60 years old and got his license at 50 and he loves it! I know you got this, it’s never to late to turn your life around and to be there for your family because deep down you know that’s what u want. See you in the road brotha.
Hey Mark, I saw the piece that the mirror did on you. I'm not sure that I enjoyed the tone that the reporter took. You have helped the Whitakers so very much and brought attention to the plight and despair that has hit West Virginia. Keep On Truckin. Your interviews bring much knowledge and awareness to the suffering that is going on in today's world
Agreed. Do not like the tone of the article either.
As always, the best channel anywhere! Thank you, Mark, for giving EVERYONE a voice ! We who sit in comfort and ease can now understand we are all ONE. Just the difference in loving, supportive parents (both preferably) and those who are self destructive taking their kids down with them.
Man I’m proud of you, I bet it hasn’t been easy to chose to better your health but you are doing it and that is amazing. ✊🏽
Also, I wish I could’ve heard him speak Spanish, I’m sure he would have had longer responses, as someone who speaks two languages sometimes I find it difficult to find the right words in English and vice versa with Spanish but speaking in both can get my point across.
Thanks for sharing your story Emilio, the trucking industry needs good drivers and hope you get to be with your kids. Best of luck.
Yeah good drivers not more criminals and drug addicts that are a plague on this industry
Emilio, I’m sorry for all the suffering you had to endure. Sending you tons and tons of positive and love energy. You sound like an amazing person. May the next part of your life be filled with all that you want and surrounds you with people who love you unconditionally.
There are many interviewees that I can’t relate to/have a hard time empathizing with but I FEEL for this man, the circumstances he was dealt feels so familiar.
It's almost like a burden to empathize with these people, but I do...every single one of them, even if it's absurd to. It's something I can't help.
I clinically diagnosed with Antisocial personality disorder and I have been able to hone my ability to put my self in someone's shoes
I have a lot of respect for him, so open with what he shared - I wish him healing.
I’m crying for him… never feeling love as a child. No one deserves that.
Really respect how patient you were with him Mark. Much love and respect to the both of you
Mark! These videos shed light on the forgotten and the lost. We are all a product of our environment. Many blessings to you for your kindness and work you do.
Mark is really built different youtube needs to make an award just for him
This one made me tear up. Thank you, Mark!
Good luck Emilio, I really hope you can find the strength to turn things around for you and for your kids. Both you and them deserves love♥️
*_Just his opening statement, so profound, so sad a start in life ..._*
Seems like a nice young man who has had a tough start in life. I hope he beats the addiction and builds a relationship with his children.
I wish you the best Emilio! Your strength is incredible. Keep up the motivation, we can all see how tired you are of this life.
I believe in you Emilio. I also trust that God will show you real love in your life. I pray healing over you.
Would like to hear from the truck drivers out there that are actively raising and supporting their kids. Always interesting, thanks!
I am one and live right here in Delaware , Beth a truck driver for 9 years and it’s so much the world don’t Kno about us and wat we go through
@@joshuatingle2702
Bless you,man..I hear ya. I know drivers and they tell me stories. I couldn't imagine having to put up with half the sht they talk about💜💪stay strong,brother!
I want to ask him and most of your guests this question: What makes you happy? Again, he talks about the future that he wants but I didn't hear him lay out any clear plan to reach that goal. He seems approachable and I wish some realistic social worker could jump in and introduce him to the supports he needs. Good interview
I was born and raised in Camden county and im not gonna lie his story made me tear up a little, down here it seems like it happens to the best of us, everyone ends up in Kensington is a terrible place to be especially now with the clean up efforts going on right now that are just displacing more people that already have no where to go, it’s like a scene out of the walking dead every time you drive by, I just really hope Emilio can get the help he deserves, you guys are doing a amazing job at bringing to light to these terrible situations, and by the grace of god Emilio if you are somehow reading this, god gives his hardest battles to his strongest warriors keep your chin up high brother and just work on being the father you wish you had
Emilio, Que Dios te bendiga y te pido que obtengas todo lo que quieres de la vida. sigue empujando caballero ❤️
Amen🙏🏼
May Emilio achieve his dreams of being a trucker and living nearer his kids! What a hand life dealt him!
I really love what you're doing Mark. Keep up the compassion.
Thank you Mark, for your great work.
Being able to see, and listen to, and Feel raw human nature... all of these very real individuals, and interviews with No bias and No filter, is a very valuable thing to take in.
We can watch and listen, and hopefully feel moved, with compassion and understanding for the human being in these videos more clearly. And then by doing so, we might actually understand and see our Own selves, and others around us in our lives more clearly and honestly as well.
This guy can get through this. He has a plan with an attainable goal. Keep it up brother don’t let anything hold you back.
Thanks Mark, you're changing lives of everyone you interview and everyone that watches .....great job!
I love this project, it's so real and raw.
@Emilio God Bless you!
So happy to see someone on Suboxone and off the other garbage! We can do this!
Every hair on my body is standing up,,, this poor soul has been through HELLLLLLL!!!!! I hope he stays on the saboxen and stay try to get his life back..... my mind is blown💙💜💚🧡❤💙💙💙💙
I hate that Emilio was not raised by his family bc of their addiction and his father had a second chance to be in his life and then introduced him to the thing that put him in that situation in the first place. So sad but such a beautiful soul.
For anyone wondering what “hard” is when he listed the roster of substances he used to use, that’s the street name in Kensington for crack
Thanks for the explanation.
New sub to the channel....I'm 42....used heroin and fentynol since I was 14...ecstasy pcp cocaine crack anything really in those years too...been clean since July 4th 2021.....it's so hard....I'm still going strong...I can't promise I will be clean forever.....I take it hour by hour or I will slip n use....hopefully time will make it easier......love all u people
Emilio has a good heart. Wishing him the very best for his future.
I was born and raised in his same community he is from im from north Philadelphia also he was my patient at a clinic I used to work At ,I see him when I’m driving around god bless him
Good luck Emilio and thankyou for sharing your story 💛
The reality of going through withdrawals from hard drugs is that u can die from the withdrawal it self. People that go through withdrawals have to have proper medication and care..... ❤️
Seems like a really good guy, thats been through alot of shit. Nothin but prayers and love for you🙏🏻❤️
Love this man. I can tell he is a good person! I wish him the best
Yes looks Ike some employer wouldove to hire😂😂😂
Fire is a horrible injury. I worked in a burn unit, while I was in school. I really feel for this guy. Best of luck Emilio!
You keep getting beat down, physically, mentally and emotionally pretty soon your just a shell of what you could have been, tired and hopeless. Love Yourself 💙💙💙
Emilio seems like a real one. I wish him all the best.
This man deserves a chance to succeed. His heart and mind is beautiful and I see he can do it with some help.
Emmilo everything you said came from your heart you are so strong you seem to want a better life you sure deserve you're a special person may God bless you
Mark this is a great interview, I think though could have been much deeper if you had a translator to ask those deep nuanced questions, especially those with the PR 🇵🇷 culture.
I hope his life pans out how he wants it to. It's so great to see he has goals and is trying to make things happen for himself. I wish him so much luck. So young with so much time ahead of him. Take care my dude.
So much hurt in his eyes
Good luck Emilio! Keep on fighting for you, your kids, you got this!
Congrats for getting on suboxone. It's a lifesaver for so many! This guy has a lot of interesting ink. I wonder if he's an artist himself?🎨 🤔
You can tell he is a gone thru so much, this man shows so much sadness in his face, I hope he can make it and stay clean and be happy with his kids....he has a handsome face, he is still young with the potential to turn his life around!!!! Come on Emilio, YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! Prayers from California!!
God bless you, Emilio. Sending you so much love
You could tell Emilio has seen and been through some real sh*t, (eyes are the window to the soul). I really enjoyed his interview and best of luck to him.
I'm Praying for you Emilio. God bless you.
My heart broke. His memory about that Christmas and his presents. That is the saddest thing ever: to see a 37yo tattooed gang member tearing up like a little boy remembering that enormous traumatic experience. My heart broke completely.
The man really knows his dates, quite impressive.
Would love to see a part 2 with Emilio! Like all these people you interview, he has been through hell and back and hes still here. That is amazing. I wish him the best god bless you Emilio.
I wish you all the best Emilio and I sure hope to hear of you getting your CDL someday. That would be awesome!
Thank you for this man.. helps answer some questions I had for a family member that is struggling with this.. really helped me to understand his problem
As I first listened to Emilio’s story I felt sad that he wasn’t given opportunities that all children should be given-loving parents who are firmly vested in their child well-being. Yet, as I listen to Emilio speak, I hear a warrior; a man who has a sting desire to better himself. He says that he wants to drive trucks; those are his interests. I sure hope he meets and even surpasses his goals. He has a wonderful spirit!!
Man this one is hard to watch . I can tell hes sick of the never ending vicious cycle . I feel like hes ready for a positive change in his life . From one addict to another it does get better - i pray god gives him the perseverance he needs to turn the page .
Much luck to this brother hope he finds a better way let's let's pray for him.
HIs facial expression, voice, vocabulary are all so childlike.
The world is so full of broken people. It's devastating. No wonder society is such a mess. We need to learn to love more. Accept more. Care more. This channel is a great start. It starts with understanding. My heart goes out to Emilio.
This was incredible! Thank you!!
This hits home I’m from that area he grow up in
I feel for this guy. I hope he can stay off the hard stuff and reunite with his family and kids. The world owes him an Up.
The world doesn't OWE him anything!
I love you Emilio. I hope you see this. You deserve love. 🧡
❤❤❤
Emilio puro Respecto carnal. Keep strong and keep pushing hard. You have purposes here.
Emilio you can do it! You have a plan, don't let anyone get in your way.
Daaaamn Emilio just became one of my favourites :’(
Dude seems like a genuine guy. I hope that suboxon helps him, know it helps me. Try and get an update later on on this guy mark
Sigue alante pana.
So sad 😭 never felt loved 🥰 what world do we live in horrible.
My fellow Boricua I hope you find your peace and do right for yourself and your kids. I’m praying for you!
Emilio, I’m so sorry you had to go through everything you did. I pray everything works out for you,
you seem like a really nice guy. Stay strong. You got this 👍
I love him. Foster care sucks. Neglect and society teaching all the backwards things sucks. Can’t wait till the people rise up more. Would love to hear Emilio open up more on his childhood….When he’s ready.
Emilio I hope you get better❤ I believe in you.
I think at the end when he said he was having trouble explaining,
He was trying to say that, the people who remain loyal to you when you are at such a low point in life, are very important, should not be taken for granted, and should be shown that same loyalty
Wish I could give you a big big hug Emilio.. sending you love and so much positive energy 💚
God bless you Emilio. There is something special about your spirit.
This man deserves Gofund me money.he’s on the right path trying to clean up and be a truck driver.🙏🙏amen