My eyes hurt so much, I’ve been crying a lot. But I’m still going so to anyone reading this you can make it!!! You can do it!! God loves you and so do I!❤
The comment section is so wholesome,all the hopeless guys listening to the same playlist. Listening to each other. We all are going through the worst part of our life. But i really hope it will be alright.
For a few months now, i have loved this person in my classes. And recently, i told them, they were understanding more than anyone else, and we got pretty close after that. One of my best friends also really likes him, she said that she wouldn't come between us, but then she told him. Asked him to a hockey game and the movies. He dropped his plans with me and a few of my friends to go to the movies with her. Neither of them realized how much this hurts me. I have never felt this before, this heartbreak. I feel lost rn, i don't know what to do. This music helps so much, and i do want to say. For anyone and everyone. Even in scenarios like mine, just know, it won't stay like this, you will move on if it doesn't get better.
It’s ok it’s a lesson it made u a different person life has to brake u to it some people can handle it some can’t unfortunately most don’t and it hurts but we are strong that’s y our hart looks for help I hope this helps u love u man stay safe and remember it’s ok move on it’s hard but that’s what make u more of a man
@@twilibug we won’t know what the future brings enjoy life that’s how u find people have u ever been to your favorite place and do what u love people that like u for u will be there
well I would suggest you to treat the situation as if it was taking of a band-aid, wich means, the faster, the better. in italian we say "rapido e indolore". you just gotta try to push yourself into letting out the magic words: "it hurts me, everyday, everytime", with your friend. if she actually is a honest and loving friend, she will understand you, and hesitate to keep going. if she isn't, you lost the battle of friendship, she's as fake as can be, and you've lost your boyfriend. but wether it's the good ending (a) or the bad ending (b), know that if end defeated, you've only lost a battle, not the war itself, and from the errors you commit in battle, you improve your tactics in the real harsh war that you're always fighting, the one with no flags or sides opposing each other: the one with you, and you only. hope you read that lol, and hope it made you feel better
@@Plague364 Thank you so much, I did end up reading all of it, so thank you. Everything that you just said was helpful, and beautiful. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Jesus can heal you , and take away all the pain, all the heartache, all hopelessness. He can set you free and give you purpose, God woke you up today because He has a purpose for you whether you believe it or not, turn to Jesus Christ , He loves you , and He died and paid the price for all your sins so that you could stand in front of God and Him not see your sins, but see His son! The blood of Jesus wipes away all sins! “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16
Your life is not something to carry, it's something to cherish. Don't think just because you're hopeless, that your life is not a hope in of itself, especially for other people. Take care of it. It won't last forever. That limited time and possibilities with it is what makes your life and you beautiful, regardless of who you are
@@voidcreaturrSame… I told my closest friend about it once… the only one I can trust. Never again. She was supportive, but it was way too embarrassing and awkward… I just have to keep it in like I always have.
@@elenachen9171 wdym? Are you like actually doing mentally ill stuff? Like I don't mean that is what I mean. I would never do that I just wanted to clarify
I will be simply a beacon, for the dudes that just like me, aren't rlly depressed or that much sad, but have a lot of built-up tears and emotions. My life is aight, could be better you know, that is more or less my fault, im pretty lonely, just on that work and sleep routine, since i finished High-school i got distant from the already small group of friends, a failed relationship also took a bit of people i knew out of my life. I dont even know anymore, im just trying to put something out here, a piece of this feeling that tugs ok my chest, that isnt rlly good, since its been hard to cry since what? 4 or 5 years now.
I'm going through the same, i may not understand the events, but i sure understand the outcome. You aren't alone in this grey space. Your color will form, you will gain vision, words for me and you. It'll be okay.
I suffer from a mental disorder called "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder" watching and listening to these types of videos calms me down a lot, I imagine a life without problems and I imagine myself living in an isolated place without neighbors, a place full of peace and security, I love this type of content
You literally could have said I have OCD we all know what you're talking about you don't need to write a paragraph to explain that you like it. "I hAvE OcD." Sure you do buddy.🙄
Joseph, aprenda a usar el poder de su mente subconsciente y haga una reprogramación de su subconsciente, en UA-cam encuentra cómo hacerlo. Lo que usted anhela lo obtendra cuando Jesucristo venga por segunda vez e instaure el Reino de Dios (Daniel 2:44) en la tierra. Entonces habrá abundancia de paz, amor, justicia y seguridad.
im feeling down, trying to have a serious moment with myself, but then i go to my other tab and it's just a bunch of sonic memes. Life is hard, and while we may want the pain to end, and we may think that no one loves us, we should continue on. i hope that to anyone reading this comet or having a bad day, that they may be blessed with a sonic meme. good day or night to whomever reads this :)
@@footballforjesus sorry I reacted that way I've been paranoid, stressed, and etc lately and I want to end it all for the sake of my friends and family so they don't have to deal with me when I can't hold the darkness back and act kind anymore
@@SoulsBorneNoob Its ok man, stuff like that happens. And please don't end it all bro, make things right with your family, and those thoughts could possible be the devil (possible not to, but I had the same thoughts And I found out it was him) But Jesus took it all away in just a couple of minutes (instead of just trying on my own and waiting a couple years for it to go away) Im not trying to force you to go to him just because I said that just he did and Ik he can do it for u to. Its your choice man. Im just here to give the option to you. But please dont end it now. So many reasons to stay with ur family And to love them. God bless you.
There’s times when I feel alone and suicidal, snowfall really has helped me let alone all the other songs on this playlist. I know I have feelings I just want the pain to away. Sometimes life is just too hard and it seems so simple to fix it from the pull off a fucking trigger I’m tired of pain but just so scared to die, I wanna live.
You might not be councious of it but more pain to relief ratio you have every day, it just means that with patience litteraly the best things you can imagine will happen to you, im not even joking and this isnt some fake bs to give you hope, its litteraly true and all you have to do is be patient, i promise and i swear to God that will happen, you will get everything you ever wanted, just wait some time it will be worth it so much it will seem unfair, but on your side. Trust me bro, i went through that too, and i know it
@@GardenDemonHR thanks I know it’s hard for everybody who feels the things that I feel too, I’ve been taking counseling and am trying to better myself. I have three months clean so yay for me I guess.
Never knew I could sleep so peacefully to this soundtrack even thought I have sleeping problems... Keep making these videos for all the people who desperately need it.
I dont know what I'm doing with myself I don't want to go to sleep anymore because when I try to I just can't my thoughts keep me awake my thoughts keep bringing me back to the same event over and over again its like I got to keep myself distracted so I don't have to think anymore in order to sleep so I just turn on my favorite TV shows until my eyes gave up but today that didnt work its already 9am in the morning of the next day I havent gotten an ounce of sleep I just feel so lost I don't know what I want in life anymore but I'm tired of living this way I want to stop being afraid i want to stop being such a coward I want to move on and stop over thinking everything and just leave the past behide but it hurts what I forget everything and trust people again and let my guard down then I get hurt again it scared me but maybe moving on is better i just want to enjoy life to the fullest I wish for next year to be an amazing year I hope I go to college and get good grades without making myself miserable to get them and I hope I find my dream career, my passion and hopefully I make friends and hang out and laugh till I have happy tear in my eyes well I guess I do know what I want it just hard to get there but I will try guys never gave up ok I believe in you you deserve to be happy never let anyone not even yourself feel worthless I believe that you can chase away the storm away
Giving someone my fullest love was the most painful thing I’ve experienced so far and the passing of my dad and losing all of my friends and childhood friends on top of that
Venting: My friendship with my bff was hopeless.. I will forever mourn it when I think about it, but I was chained down by caring to much. It was so hurtful when I realized that I will never be enough and she will never feel satisfied with what I can give. From others pov I don't give much, but from my pov I neglected myself all the time to do things in her way. She was the one to take the first step away, it wouldn't have been hard to defuse the situation, but I just couldn't live like that anymore if what I gave wasn't enough. We wouldn't have gotten anywhere. I have been mourning a 7y friendship, but I'm able to live my life now. I'm even losing wait finaly. She had many other important people in her life so I think she will be fine. I can't tell this to her, but I wish the best for her. I hope she's happy in her life. And I'm sorry I ended it 60% for my own good and only 40% for you. You always struggled to cut of people that dont have good energy in your life, well I'll be the villain in our friendship once more. A lil negativity.. I put you on a pedestal and thought that you didn't know how our friendship dynamic strangled me, but I'll never know for sure. You let your guard down around me so I know that you see people relationship dynamics and such, but I don't know if you were aware how hurt I was through out the years. You used me to check if people were decent just because I was fat. You started treating me worse when I was doing well, I will always be confused if it was in my head or if it was real. Idk maybe unconsciously you wanted a friend that was doing worse than you. Well I'll never know what you thought, but I know I wish you the best things.
I was laying on bed and I wanted to play music so I played this one and now the songs r making me cry cuz I miss me being a kid but now life is harder ppl push u to go harder and harder to the point where u feel like u can’t be use anymore and now ur in a position where u can’t go any farrier and now u look back and realize u were just a kid.
Remember, asking for help isn't giving up, its the refusal to give up. You're stronger than you think, dont allow yourself to down play your emotions, or your strengths. You are so much more than you believe
Every day I wake up into a body that isn’t me. I lie again and again so I don’t have to tell people who count on me that I’m not all that great and that I do struggle. I think the reason I make so much jokes is so I can have an ounce of that long forgotten joy I used to have inside of me. There’s people who have been with me since my lowest and that I really appreciate but slowly more and more of my friends simply leave and don’t talk to me anymore. There’s friends I have known since we were both little kids that just one day leave and it hurts because I don’t know what I’m doing wrong people say stuff like, you used to be way funnier, and I miss how you used to act, and that shit hurts more than anything. Because I know I can’t go back and I always try and look on the bright side but sometimes you just can’t. And people are starting to see me as weak because I bottle up all my stress and one little thing just knocks it all down and all they see is that little thing making me so mad
Love you brother/sister. I have never experienced the things you been through but can understand the pain you are constantly in. I’m so sorry for all the betrayals, thanks for being positive. Please do not bottle up your emotions, try to go out sometimes and have fun. Surround yourself with people and do not be alone as it might destroy you. Silence and darkness are terrifying, I myself have bad experiences with it. I can understand a little bit of your pain and it hurts me man. God bless you! ❤️ Thank you.
I am proud of this comment section seeing that everyone cares for others more than themselves, even though they are going to die living in that hell but motivating other to stay in that hell because the upcoming is heaven..
(Posting this here because I don’t want these words to go unknown since I’m not so good at expressing my emotions let alone put it into words but this time I was able to in a long endless paragraph lol) Was js chilling and thought of a good moment with my brother and something just hit me, I miss my siblings so bad I want to check up on them I want to hug them I want to call out their name again tell them to come just to give them random kisses and tell them that I love them I want to dance with them again. They’re the ones who have truly seen me hurt, they have seen me bawl my eyes out, they have seen me laugh uncontrollably/made me, they have seen me mad, also have made me mad, we’d have fights ofc it’s the sibling norm but they have worried for me when I’m sick or when I sleep too much, this wholesome ass memory that I never forget is when I had the flu and was in bed all day, both randomly came into my room to ask where it hurts with their doctor toy gear on and my little sister playing nurse on me taking my temperature. They both have sat down held hands with each other and meditated with me because they believe their big sister knows best :) there’s so much more I can say I can go on and on on how they’re the reason I keep going,I hope I get to see them soon and tell them how much I missed them and love them, this time being apart from my family has made me realize how much I’ve distanced myself mentally from everyone yet every time I’d have my unbearable moments I still managed to be strong for them with the confidence that I will live up to the day I finally give them anything they need and continue to watch them grow up to be two independent amazing individuals, words cannot describe how much I miss my lil wueritos I promise I will come back home one day once I stabilize myself again I will come back as a better person I will continue to carry the big sister role for you guys and set out a good example so that life won’t be too rough on you guys and I won’t leave til the day you guys decide to start your own separate lives and won’t need me no more.I want to continue to make memories with my lil soulmates, watch them grow, teach them the things they don’t get taught and be there for them whenever that gloomy stage in life comes,when they feel like there’s no one there for them I want to lift them up, care and be by their sides on times when they don’t feel good.I will work my ass off and give them back more for the way they cared for me when I was hurting all alone.Those 2 pure souls deserve to be protected at all costs they helped me through the worst and don’t even know it yet but the day you guys are mature enough to understand how much your mentally unstable sister adores you I will tell you guys on how glad and happy I was to be your sister the day you were born.I talk and pray to God to allow me to grow up by your side, to give me the peaceful happy future that I see with my bloodline til the day my journey comes to an end ❤️
God bless you, i hope one day you get better and spend more time with your family, it will help you, your a good soul i can feel it. Stay strong positive and healthy, enjoy your journey in life until the end. Please take care, if you need to talk feel free. ❤
I feel ourselves sinking into an abyss. I feel the world crashing and burning. The bad out weighs the good. The irreversible changes happen too fast to counter. I cannot do anything, I cannot stop the flow, I cannot stop my brain. I cannot stop too much. Too much is out of my control.
That's been me for awhile. I drink way too much on purpose. Like ngl I have work tm and I'm not gonna feel good at all in terms of energy. But fuckit we ball yk? Best advise that I can give, and take it from my demented brain with a grain of salt, is keep moving until you just utterly can't anymore. Put the most amount of effort you can muster into everything that you can. Yeah you'll get overwhelmed. Yeah you'll break down. But me, imma keep putting one foot in front of the other until I get the balls to end it all. And ik I'm blunt, and ik I might trigger your own compulsive thoughts amd actions and I'm sorry. But right here right now, words have inspired me. May I at least give you the strength and resolve to continue at a wounded stroll, or whatever pace you can take except stagnant. Much love to you friend. Whoever, whatever, however you are, know my words are true and given with as much love as I can muster.
@@alfakynkillu8330 thanks. But i really can’t keep going anymore. I just keep getting unlucky that my attempts don’t work. I’m on attempt number 7 now… I just don’t know how to get to the nearby bridge…
I just want to go to sleep and never wake. I want to go back to whatever my existence was before i was born. I dont want the ramifications on my family and friends of not being around after this point in time. I dont know why i wrote this. Its 3am, maybe i should have written on paper or something instead
thank you for the consistent love and support, means so much to me more then you think. im glad this channel is growing and i wish you nothing but love, happiness, and success. more music on the way and i am glad to be on this journey with you all, thank you for everything.
If you're reading this, as someone who emerged from darkness, know it's possible. I've endured unimaginable losses and battles, even losing my son, spiraling into destructive behavior. But I survived to tell you: your life is worth it. Someone will miss you deeply. Tonight, as we remember our pains, know you're not alone. Let your tears flow; it's okay not to be okay. You've survived this far on your own strength, and I'm proud of you. Rest tonight, find peace. Tomorrow is a new day, and I'll be here with you through the struggles. I'm proud of you. Thank you for being alive. 🌟💖
If you're reading this, know that it's possible to pull yourself from the darkness. I've been to 16 funerals, lost friends to suicides, violence, overdoses, car crashes, and cancer. I buried my son after just one day with him. I spiraled into drugs, alcohol, and reckless behavior, actively trying to die. Yet, I survived all that to be here and tell you that your life is worth it. There is someone who will miss you when you're gone. The pain you're feeling must be unbearable, and I'm so sorry it's there. But tonight, we're all here remembering our pains, battles, and struggles. You survived those on your own strengths and merits, and I'm so proud of you for making it this far. Cry tonight, my brothers and sisters, let it out. You don't have to be the perception of yourself through this playlist. You won't be a burden for letting it all out just this moment. You aren’t alone while you're here. Goodnight, I wish you peace when it's over, and I'll see you tomorrow. I'll be here again with you when those struggles eat at us just a little harder than we can handle. I'm proud of you. Thank you for being alive. 💖🌟
There are so many people in the comments who have experienced something or are in despair. And I listen to this music not because I am sad, but because it calms me down and makes me happy. If you have really experienced something traumatic, seek help from a doctor. Don't neglect your mental health!
I wish Covid wasn't a thing...I was genuinely happy in early 2020 or at least I think I was. I just finished the middle school equivalent of Germany and had hope to find new friends in high school and have some wild adventures like actually partying for the first time...somehow I am becoming closer to a cliche doomer than I ever thought to be. I don't have much hope currently sadly
i used to live in germany, it was such a beautiful place. i hope you can still have your adventures, but just because the pandemic cut a chunk out of our existence, it doesn't mean you can't still start your journey. it's not too late
It feels weird. Everyone i would give my life for only seemed to see me as "someone i know". I am sure I can't live without having people around me but i seems like i will end up living a life isolated and no one to share my stories with.
Omg I can’t describe the feeling of this but the title of video is just amazing when you are like me and you can’t explain you are fighting but you don’t know for which reason you wake up and this day Is like other annoying or very bad
you trust one person with your everything. Every single detail of your life. You never felt so connected with someone ever before. She was your day in and day out. She became your best friend. Your partner, your solu mate. 4years had past you thought you are having the best of life.. Everything is good. You have few misunderstandings along the way but its fine. You know it can be fixed. You allowed one person in your life like no body else did. Then one christmas eve. You found out that she was trying to meet her ex. Then the christmas day itself you brought her to you own family gathering not knowing that info. Thne next day, you recieve someones message request. A screenahot of her conversation with her ex trying to meet at 3am of xmas. I was dumbfounded. I never felt so anxious before. I cant imagine she could do that thing. I never sensed it. I never see it in her eyes that she did something wrong. Coz she played it way too well. Someone you trust with everything, you realize you dont even know who she really is.. Its an evil world we live in.
The game is the game. You aren't at fault for being vulnerable and letting someone in. I know it hurts now, but in hindsight it's better for things to end now than years down the line with a house, kids etc. I'm going through something simila, together over 3 years and broke up around Xmas now I don't even recognise her anymore. All the sweet nothings whispered in the night will soon no longer haunt you, stay strong
To everyone who's studying with this music: Checklist: • A bottle of water, at least 1liter. Your brain works better if it has enough water and drinking helps you to concentrate • Your charger. You sometimes don't even notice that your device's battery is going down, so better have it plugged in all the time • Your headphones. You will be able to focus more with headphones, because it blocks background noises. Also, if it's a late night study session, you won't wake up anyone • a tea or coffee. Coffee keeps you awake, green or black tea can make you feel more awake as well. • Your study/work stuff: your laptop/tablet/phone , a few pens, paper or whatever you need. •Anything else you could need, what about a heat pad, a blanket, a good lamp, your pet so you have a study buddy Reminder: After an hour, you should stand up and walk a bit around. Better stop the music or put on different music for the break. Open your window, even if it's cold outside. Fresh air will make it better, trust me. You could also lay your head down on your desk for ten minutes and listen to a podcast. Or, if you have to read a book, listen to the audiobook of it. You can also listen to the audiobook while doing another thing, that's even better than listening to music while reading the book. I hope y'all had a good day, if not, that's okay too. Remember to take care of yourself and try to get some sleep tonight (not mind! but copy paste it around!!)
a random day, my friend woke up weird, he just sent me this phrase: "The light at the end of the tunnel is just another day beginning, there will never be paradise." followed by a "goodbye" At that time I cried like hell because I knew he was depressed, today I'm going to his house just to talk to his mother and not let her do the same pls stay by the side of the person you love, everyday, everytime, so they don't to this
Here’s a little poem for yall Title: To Disappear I lie in my bed every night I wonder what life would be like If I never existed I wonder what disappearing would be like I don’t want to die I don’t want to cause people pain I don’t want to be buried I don’t want my parents to cry at the sight of my dead body I want to disappear from everyone’s memories I want to not exists I want life to move on without me I want to disappear This isn’t my best work but it’s my first actually poem, Paix et amour
This got me through my overnight shift. Makes me think of all the bad and good decisions I’ve made through out life. Still here holding up.. but I’m just tired..
Feels to conquer the earth. Not anyone's power but just my beautiful earth. I want to live with her forever, because the beauty of it gives me hope to stay alive
We must suffer... suffer to belive that maybe, just maybe, tommorow will be better... but tommorow never arrives, and it never will... that little strand of hope that things will get better, but it never does... we live with false hope for brighter days yet, the brighter the light... the darker the shadow.
I wanted to let you know that you are worth it, you are enough, and you deserve to be happy, loved, and you deserve to live. The world is a much better place with you in it, and you will get through this. I’m proud of you no matter what. You might not be perfect, but no one is, and you’re you. Being you is more than enough, and there’s only one of you in this whole entire world. Losing you would be losing something incredibly special. Suicide might seem like your only option, and though it might get rid of your pain, all it does is pass it on to the people who love and care about you. (It might be hard to feel this way but people do love and care about you, I know we haven’t met but I love and care about you.) And this is hard to see, but you have so so much to live for. You’re going to have so many good opportunities in the future and I know one day you’ll be able to look back on this and think: “I’m glad I never gave up.” You are strong. You are beautiful. You deserve everything good in life. I believe in you with all my heart, and hope that one day you’ll be able to say and believe I’m proud of myself, because you deserve it.
I always feel like shoving my feelings away. I cannot accept what comes to me and when I do, I loose it all again. I'm tired of trying to only come back to the starting point. My life seems to have no end. Some days, I will come out of my bubble and be myself, but other days, I will shut myself off. When I do isolate myself, my close ones notice and try to make me feel better, but I cannot accept it. I do not deserve such love in my life, such kindness. The majority of the time, I don't do anything for others. I don't help them. I can't help them. I cannot accept it. What am I supposed to feel ? I feel like once I open myself even more, I just end up digging a bigger hole, a bigger grave. I used to be stronger but now, I'm so weak. It is a task to live and that is one of the biggest things I hate, to be forced to do something. Work, friends, family, money, everything. I hate it all when it's forced. I try to find my own path, but it seems impossible in this world. Everything is controlled, to the point where I have become addicted to "entertainment". I am glued to my phone, computer, and starting to simply accept my unhappiness. As more goes on, it only grows more. I'm ending up owing too much to someone who does not accept. I cannot repay my debt. I cannot become who they want me to be. I just want to give up. Nothing I do works out. Never thought I would share my feelings online. Never thought I'd ever share my feelings at all. It's come to a point where I cannot hold it anymore. I just want to cry but when I want to, it does not come out. Nothing does. I keep avoiding the things I want to do because it all seems like an obligation. Why do we have to do such things to live ? To fit in ? I just want to exist without having to have meaning behind it. Can't it just be possible ? Today is a sunny day, yet I am trapped in my room. I do not want kind words, as they do not help me. I am so trapped in my head that I cannot differentiate living and dying. I want help, but I do not want it. I want to be left alone, yet I crave for relationships. To let go of expectations is impossible for me. I want it all, yet I do not care about what I have. I'm so selfish, but I accept that. I only accept things that are "Bad" and it shows. I am out here writing my views online for others to read and sympathize. I want love, but I do not want to work for it. I want it to come freely, effortlessly.. I want to accept it, but I cannot. Accepting it only means more pain. I'm only 21 years old, turning 22 and it has affected me so much, yet I'm so young. I can't even imagine when I'll be 30, 40. It only gets worse. I just want to scream and run away, yet I cannot. I am stuck and obliged to fulfill my duty. This is the worst I have ever felt, and I will continue to feel it. No one truly cares. No one really wants to help.. This world is so rotten, I cannot describe how I feel. I judge others for having less pain than me, yet I do not know their past, their life, what they're experiencing. Yet, I still wish I have it worse than them so I can justify my feelings. So others can justify and let me be weak. If strong means having all that I want, why didn't I get what I wanted when I was strong ? Why did it all go away ? I am such an over analytic that I am revising what I'm writing and coming up with more as I go and write this book of a I don't know what to call it. I keep going up and up, yet it never brings fulfillment. I want to keep going, but the reward gained does not fill my emptiness. The reward is not worth it. Though, I would be lying if I said all moments are bad. Some do make me feel like I'm the king of the world. Like I can do anything. This journey is so painful, yet there are times where I can rest, like a checkpoint. It feels so good to simply be. Maybe I have not discovered what I love in life, since I was always trying to make others love me. By becoming a copy of who I thought I liked. It was always external, and never internal love. It was fake, devoid of who I truly am. I've started to change for 3 years now. I can say that without doing what I did, I would've never became who I am today. I am proud of being who I am, thought I feel all is useless. "Why am I doing this when I can just die ?" wouldn't that just solve my problems ? To run away from everything, like I have been doing. I guess not.. They will keep following me until I acknowledge them. Until I accept then. Until I heal from them. I've tried so hard to heal, but when I want to, the answers won't be given to me. I don't want to do anything as long as I am not healed. Why live when your mind is dead ? I don't want to start anything because it might fail. Most of what I did failed so why would I need to try again ? I haven't found my path, living like a slave to life, suffering from addiction which I shouldn't, can't even express myself without my stupid inner voice telling me to shut up. Like bro, yo shut up. This endless hell, the voices of myself and loved ones, will not go away. Running away or dying seems like the appropriate choice, but why would I live to die ? That's just plain stupid. It's like a boat, designed to work in water, be used on the streets. I want to find an end, but my mind keeps telling me to go. Hence why my text is so long. Why can't it just end ??????????????????????
I’m so tired, so so so tired of myself. I just want to lie down and disappear and not feel this pain anymore. I hurt all the people I love the most and I don’t even know how to get out of this darkness. I just want to disappear.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
@@localcrackhead2809 i know how u feel, and a lot of the times it seems like the best thing would be to sleep and not wake up. but there is so much still waiting for you, and the universe isn't done with you yet. this world still has so much heart to show you
i wish i was in some cabin far away from this world, place and i hope i could call it my home, and that is probably possible with the dog that was next to me in the 8 years and showed me what unconditional love and a true companion i had, and probably only will ever have for real.
If your reading this i want you to know, there are so many battles that life will throw in your direction. Feeling unworthy, unhappy, lost, etc. is a normal part of life experience that we don't like. Everything can be hard if you think in that mindset and it can be very hard to change that mindset so it takes time. I'm so proud of everyone who's made it and whose still fighting those problems. I will be alongside with you. Take care sweet ones, don't let the bug beds bite ;)
I'm very sorry for all that you have lost all that you have lived through I know i have it bad but it's hurts me because I know people have it worse. People are so strong❤
I'm not particularly sad I often find myself listening to these songs pondering upon the memories I could've shared with my fallen friends 💔 sometimes it hurts knowing we the same age or barely older than each other, losing a friend made me realise the gift of life the one moment I truly understood what death is, it hurts knowing that they were just a call or text away arrogance will humble you
Я тут наверное единственная русская, но всё же. Мне нравится моя жизнь. У меня очень добрые родители, хорошие друзья. Иногда жизнь приносит нам сложные выборы, ужасный события и всё в этом духе. Если вы это читаете, то знайте-идеально не бывает. Жизнь сложна и несправедлива, пока кому-то хорошо, другому плохо. Это жизнь. Но ты сильный(ая), я верю и горжусь тобой. Ты сможешь всё! Даже в ситуации где на первый взгляд нет выхода, есть шанс на хорошую концовку. Честно скажу я и сама не настолько хороша. Я 3 года ненавидела себя и жизнь. Больше 3 лет назад погиб дорогой для меня человек. Что я этим хочу сказать? Всё просто, не зацикливайся на прошлом, не стыдись себя, люби себя и тех кто тебя окружает. Все мы не идеальны, никто и ничто не идеально. Если тебе станет плохо или ещё что-то пиши, я всегда тут
My darkest time was highschool, was I popular at school? Heck yeah, unfortunately that didn’t follow me home. I was never the kid to invite others over, I’d rather stay alone in my room and play Xbox. Didn’t even spend time with my parents, which I deeply regret now. As a 24 year old I look back at the mistakes I made.. I tried taking my life many many times throughout those 4 years. Fortunately, I’m terrified of Death. What if I mess up? My death would rock the very foundation of my family. I have 5 brothers and the thought of leaving them, having them lower me into an early grave is something I never want them to experience. No parent should bury their own kids. If I’ve learned anything over the past 7 years is that you have to take every moment like it’s your last. It might not sound like a lot but when you look back at yourself, you’ll always find a deeper meaning to life. For me its life, does getting up everyday suck? Maybe, but take each day with steps, the future holds no boundaries because it hasn’t happened. You can’t stress what’s going to happen tomorrow, you may not feel loved, you may not feel pain, you may not feel Alive. But you are. You’re here. You’ve made it this far, do you know how important that is? We all have doubts. The light of the mind cannot burn away all darkness. Think on it, and look in your heart. It will be for the best. When the walls come tumbling down, when you lose everything you have, you always have family. I love you. And I wish you well on your Journey.
I can't even say that it's the worst part of my life since I know tomorrow is gonna be worse like today has been worse than yesterday and that's how it always worked
I'm just done. I don't want to feel empty anymore. No matter what I do when I'm home I get yelled at. I know my parents love me but it still hurts. It gives me this sharp shooting feeling in my chest and I can't help but cry everytime. This honestly sucks because this year after summer, I start highschool. All my friends are going to different schools and I will be lonely. I'm terrified for my future in all honesty.
Essas músicas são ótimas para qualquer ocasião de está sozinho ou deitado, várias outras opções, eu penso já vida porque pareçe que eu me relaxo com os toques do som....
i have been diagnosed with depression at age 11, now I'm older i still have it. it's always so embarrassing to cry Infront of some one, but people also NEED to get out a good cry here and there. this might sound extra but yesterday I knocked down a bird nest not knowing anything was in it and 3 baby birds was there. the mama bird with worms in her mouth ready to feed her babies just watched me do it. I'm bawling my eyes out writing this, anyway i took one to feed and maybe keep it as a pet, i was so stupid. i was feeding him mushed up bananas. he was doing fine. then today my parents went to go check on the other ones, and we had to feed and take care of them. the one i was first taking care of died from choking. i was so heart broken. as i type this we put the 2 birds back into their nest and hopefully mama bird take care of them. I'm so heart broken, i told my dad some of them won't eat and he paused and said, "there not Gunna make it." it left me heartbroken and speechless. I don't want to cry ever again, I pray to God to help me, and i try my best to stay positive. I'm on depression meds and went to a mental hospital twice. I'm so soft and take things to heart easily. it's so hard.
this song makes me face the reality of self inflicting wounds destroying my life throughout the years. My stupidity always getting in the way of a successful life. Oh well.
Don't say such de grading things about yourself ! I know you're better than that ! I come bringing some good news to you today and that is the news our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ. He is the only one who can bring peace upon man's heart, if you sincerely take him as your saviour and allow him into your heart, these feelings of hopelessness you will see begin to flourish into great feelings of love, joy, hope and courage. It is a dark time for all, the world is full of darkness, and we are of the world, if the world is full of darkness and we are of the world, we become darkness, we become slaves to our flesh and feelings. But it is washing yourself with the blood of Jesus Christ that you can be saved. Believe in the good news I have come to spread today and you will soon be free, of body, of mind but most importantly, of heart. All the best !
Yk whats weird is that i knew he was going to leave but i just couldn’t accept it. Not until he really broke it off, but with how long it went on and how fucking bad it fucked with my head i cant shake the feeling he’s going to leave again. We got back together and I understand why he left, ill be it for stupid reasons of “ill leave before she leaves me” EVEN THO I WAS NEVER GOING TO. But either way it fucked my head up so badly that any fluctuations in his mood or mannerisms sends me shaking and feeling sick with anxiety. Its gotten better thankfully, back in the beginning i couldn’t even think of it without breaking down but i can think of it now and only feel anxious. I know hes not gonna leave and that he loves me but its the fact that he left once that makes me think he’ll do it again. And really what can i do? Nothing. Helplessness is like drowning in yourself. No where to run or hide, no one to save you, you’re completely alone. Its emotional and mental weakness x1000. Everything is telling you to fight but you know you can’t, yk that submission is easy but also impossible because who gives in to drowning? Ive never experienced what he put me through and what i allowed myself to fall into. Love is beautiful and love is horrible and love is terrifying and love is eternal and love is fucking worth the pain bevause at least you experienced it, something people kill, die, and live for. Appreciate love even when it fucks you up but never allow urself to fall apart forever.
For the past year ,i was with that girl and she tried to open my heart and understand me ,i was so afraid to open up that she thought i dont care...I ve been through some stuff in my life ,i had so much sadness and rage in me ,i couldnt express it. We split up ,we live close to each other ,i tried to reach her and not lose each other for the past one and a half month, told her that i love her,she told me its better not to talk again ,although she loves me back...I lost my sleep ,my stomach is twisted ,i feel so nervous all the time ...And its because its my fault...
I use this music to sleep but i wish it didn‘t get this associated with a such negative/depressing vibe. Why would anyone that clicked for the title, want to feel hopeless? If you‘re in a dark place reading this, whatever you‘re going through won‘t stay forever because life always changes. So make the right choices and start with loving yourself❤ you can do it
I fell in love with a woman a long time ago. And messed things up so badly that I vanished for ten years. Yet she still loved me from afar like I did her. But I was gone. I came back to see her happy, married, with a beautiful child. Now I wonder, is she better off that I left? or could I have stayed and fixed it? Do.. Do I even bother trying to keep going on? She was my world, my rock, and I fucked up.. maybe the world is better off with me gone entirely
Listen on Spotify - spoti.fi/3l0BFgw 💙
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My eyes hurt so much, I’ve been crying a lot. But I’m still going so to anyone reading this you can make it!!! You can do it!! God loves you and so do I!❤
The comment section is so wholesome,all the hopeless guys listening to the same playlist. Listening to each other. We all are going through the worst part of our life. But i really hope it will be alright.
update: my grandmother died yesterday.
it's been a month u okay?
For a few months now, i have loved this person in my classes. And recently, i told them, they were understanding more than anyone else, and we got pretty close after that. One of my best friends also really likes him, she said that she wouldn't come between us, but then she told him. Asked him to a hockey game and the movies. He dropped his plans with me and a few of my friends to go to the movies with her. Neither of them realized how much this hurts me. I have never felt this before, this heartbreak. I feel lost rn, i don't know what to do. This music helps so much, and i do want to say. For anyone and everyone. Even in scenarios like mine, just know, it won't stay like this, you will move on if it doesn't get better.
It’s ok it’s a lesson it made u a different person life has to brake u to it some people can handle it some can’t unfortunately most don’t and it hurts but we are strong that’s y our hart looks for help I hope this helps u love u man stay safe and remember it’s ok move on it’s hard but that’s what make u more of a man
@@Jvyoungin18 thank you! I know things get better, and sometimes, it's ok to just stay friends I suppose
@@twilibug we won’t know what the future brings enjoy life that’s how u find people have u ever been to your favorite place and do what u love people that like u for u will be there
well I would suggest you to treat the situation as if it was taking of a band-aid, wich means, the faster, the better. in italian we say "rapido e indolore". you just gotta try to push yourself into letting out the magic words: "it hurts me, everyday, everytime", with your friend.
if she actually is a honest and loving friend, she will understand you, and hesitate to keep going.
if she isn't, you lost the battle of friendship, she's as fake as can be, and you've lost your boyfriend.
but wether it's the good ending (a) or the bad ending (b), know that if end defeated, you've only lost a battle, not the war itself, and from the errors you commit in battle, you improve your tactics in the real harsh war that you're always fighting, the one with no flags or sides opposing each other: the one with you, and you only.
hope you read that lol, and hope it made you feel better
@@Plague364 Thank you so much, I did end up reading all of it, so thank you. Everything that you just said was helpful, and beautiful. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Everytime I wake up feels like I'm wasting another day
Relatable I think.
Jesus can heal you , and take away all the pain, all the heartache, all hopelessness. He can set you free and give you purpose, God woke you up today because He has a purpose for you whether you believe it or not, turn to Jesus Christ , He loves you , and He died and paid the price for all your sins so that you could stand in front of God and Him not see your sins, but see His son! The blood of Jesus wipes away all sins! “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
John 3:16
True same
I just wanna barricade myself in my room all day and only come out to use the bathroom and shower.
At least we’re not the only ones
Your life is not something to carry, it's something to cherish. Don't think just because you're hopeless, that your life is not a hope in of itself, especially for other people. Take care of it. It won't last forever. That limited time and possibilities with it is what makes your life and you beautiful, regardless of who you are
“I have learned now that while those who speak about one's miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more..”
This is to true brother
There's enough hurt in this world, they don't want to make it worse by making you worry. They'd rather keep it inside.
@@BMLXXIIcan't trust them to keep it in. I would tell anyone if I knew I could trust them but I can't trust anyone
@@voidcreaturrSame… I told my closest friend about it once… the only one I can trust. Never again. She was supportive, but it was way too embarrassing and awkward… I just have to keep it in like I always have.
@@elenachen9171 wdym? Are you like actually doing mentally ill stuff? Like I don't mean that is what I mean. I would never do that I just wanted to clarify
4:04 in the morning, I cant sleep, Im overthinking so much that I consider it normal now.
Literally 4:02 rn.
dawg is in his emo phase🔥🔥🗣‼
@@somedude724XDD
2:15 in North Carolina for me, bud.
@@somedude724ha ha
I will be simply a beacon, for the dudes that just like me, aren't rlly depressed or that much sad, but have a lot of built-up tears and emotions. My life is aight, could be better you know, that is more or less my fault, im pretty lonely, just on that work and sleep routine, since i finished High-school i got distant from the already small group of friends, a failed relationship also took a bit of people i knew out of my life.
I dont even know anymore, im just trying to put something out here, a piece of this feeling that tugs ok my chest, that isnt rlly good, since its been hard to cry since what? 4 or 5 years now.
I'm going through the same, i may not understand the events, but i sure understand the outcome. You aren't alone in this grey space. Your color will form, you will gain vision, words for me and you. It'll be okay.
“Stop being a rainbow for someone who is blind”
What is the meaning of that because it is a good quote
@@Melanie91047 it means that you have to stop pretending about yourself for someone who doesn't even care that you are there.
Thank you for telling me👍
@@Melanie91047 you're welcome
Thx you for this one
Life is like finding a way in dark forest full of stars
looking for the flower in the field of darkeness
I suffer from a mental disorder called "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder" watching and listening to these types of videos calms me down a lot, I imagine a life without problems and I imagine myself living in an isolated place without neighbors, a place full of peace and security, I love this type of content
Hey don't be sad. And also imagine that your real life is also free of problems. ❤
You literally could have said I have OCD we all know what you're talking about you don't need to write a paragraph to explain that you like it. "I hAvE OcD." Sure you do buddy.🙄
Yeah me too 🖤🚶
Joseph, aprenda a usar el poder de su mente subconsciente y haga una reprogramación de su subconsciente, en UA-cam encuentra cómo hacerlo. Lo que usted anhela lo obtendra cuando Jesucristo venga por segunda vez e instaure el Reino de Dios (Daniel 2:44) en la tierra. Entonces habrá abundancia de paz, amor, justicia y seguridad.
i also have ocd, its a bitch
these playlists literally hypnotize me and put me in a derealization state somehow
im feeling down, trying to have a serious moment with myself, but then i go to my other tab and it's just a bunch of sonic memes. Life is hard, and while we may want the pain to end, and we may think that no one loves us, we should continue on. i hope that to anyone reading this comet or having a bad day, that they may be blessed with a sonic meme. good day or night to whomever reads this :)
these songs make me feel hopeless and at the same time seeing a light at the end of a tunel
Jesus can be that light
@@footballforjesusit can but doesn't have to be, don't try and make others follow your religion
@@SoulsBorneNoobIm not forcing it, but Jesus is the way. You have the option to go to him. im not forcing you to
@@footballforjesus sorry I reacted that way I've been paranoid, stressed, and etc lately and I want to end it all for the sake of my friends and family so they don't have to deal with me when I can't hold the darkness back and act kind anymore
@@SoulsBorneNoob Its ok man, stuff like that happens. And please don't end it all bro, make things right with your family, and those thoughts could possible be the devil (possible not to, but I had the same thoughts And I found out it was him) But Jesus took it all away in just a couple of minutes (instead of just trying on my own and waiting a couple years for it to go away) Im not trying to force you to go to him just because I said that just he did and Ik he can do it for u to. Its your choice man. Im just here to give the option to you. But please dont end it now. So many reasons to stay with ur family And to love them. God bless you.
When I can’t help anyone I know and hold dear to me.. I feel devoid of hope and alone, as if I’ve lost all of my soul
I’ve come to realize it doesn’t get better. Just an endless cycle.
There’s times when I feel alone and suicidal, snowfall really has helped me let alone all the other songs on this playlist. I know I have feelings I just want the pain to away. Sometimes life is just too hard and it seems so simple to fix it from the pull off a fucking trigger I’m tired of pain but just so scared to die, I wanna live.
You might not be councious of it but more pain to relief ratio you have every day, it just means that with patience litteraly the best things you can imagine will happen to you, im not even joking and this isnt some fake bs to give you hope, its litteraly true and all you have to do is be patient, i promise and i swear to God that will happen, you will get everything you ever wanted, just wait some time it will be worth it so much it will seem unfair, but on your side. Trust me bro, i went through that too, and i know it
@@GardenDemonHR thanks I know it’s hard for everybody who feels the things that I feel too, I’ve been taking counseling and am trying to better myself. I have three months clean so yay for me I guess.
Jesus can take all that away from you man, you just get him.
@@footballforjesusamen
Espero que ainda esteja aí, eu te amo ❤
Never knew I could sleep so peacefully to this soundtrack even thought I have sleeping problems... Keep making these videos for all the people who desperately need it.
sometimes i think suffering is the only thing i'm good at
I'm sure there's more things you're good at! I'm not much of someone who knows how to motivate someone, but I believe in you! ❤❤
I dont know what I'm doing with myself I don't want to go to sleep anymore because when I try to I just can't my thoughts keep me awake my thoughts keep bringing me back to the same event over and over again its like I got to keep myself distracted so I don't have to think anymore in order to sleep so I just turn on my favorite TV shows until my eyes gave up but today that didnt work its already 9am in the morning of the next day I havent gotten an ounce of sleep I just feel so lost I don't know what I want in life anymore but I'm tired of living this way I want to stop being afraid i want to stop being such a coward I want to move on and stop over thinking everything and just leave the past behide but it hurts what I forget everything and trust people again and let my guard down then I get hurt again it scared me but maybe moving on is better i just want to enjoy life to the fullest I wish for next year to be an amazing year I hope I go to college and get good grades without making myself miserable to get them and I hope I find my dream career, my passion and hopefully I make friends and hang out and laugh till I have happy tear in my eyes well I guess I do know what I want it just hard to get there but I will try guys never gave up ok I believe in you you deserve to be happy never let anyone not even yourself feel worthless I believe that you can chase away the storm away
Giving someone my fullest love was the most painful thing I’ve experienced so far and the passing of my dad and losing all of my friends and childhood friends on top of that
im so sorry
Hope is like a lightbulb, it shines throughout the darkest of times.
Remember that.
Venting:
My friendship with my bff was hopeless.. I will forever mourn it when I think about it, but I was chained down by caring to much. It was so hurtful when I realized that I will never be enough and she will never feel satisfied with what I can give. From others pov I don't give much, but from my pov I neglected myself all the time to do things in her way. She was the one to take the first step away, it wouldn't have been hard to defuse the situation, but I just couldn't live like that anymore if what I gave wasn't enough. We wouldn't have gotten anywhere. I have been mourning a 7y friendship, but I'm able to live my life now. I'm even losing wait finaly. She had many other important people in her life so I think she will be fine. I can't tell this to her, but I wish the best for her. I hope she's happy in her life. And I'm sorry I ended it 60% for my own good and only 40% for you. You always struggled to cut of people that dont have good energy in your life, well I'll be the villain in our friendship once more.
A lil negativity..
I put you on a pedestal and thought that you didn't know how our friendship dynamic strangled me, but I'll never know for sure. You let your guard down around me so I know that you see people relationship dynamics and such, but I don't know if you were aware how hurt I was through out the years. You used me to check if people were decent just because I was fat. You started treating me worse when I was doing well, I will always be confused if it was in my head or if it was real. Idk maybe unconsciously you wanted a friend that was doing worse than you. Well I'll never know what you thought, but I know I wish you the best things.
I was laying on bed and I wanted to play music so I played this one and now the songs r making me cry cuz I miss me being a kid but now life is harder ppl push u to go harder and harder to the point where u feel like u can’t be use anymore and now ur in a position where u can’t go any farrier and now u look back and realize u were just a kid.
Remember, asking for help isn't giving up, its the refusal to give up. You're stronger than you think, dont allow yourself to down play your emotions, or your strengths. You are so much more than you believe
Every day I wake up into a body that isn’t me. I lie again and again so I don’t have to tell people who count on me that I’m not all that great and that I do struggle. I think the reason I make so much jokes is so I can have an ounce of that long forgotten joy I used to have inside of me. There’s people who have been with me since my lowest and that I really appreciate but slowly more and more of my friends simply leave and don’t talk to me anymore. There’s friends I have known since we were both little kids that just one day leave and it hurts because I don’t know what I’m doing wrong people say stuff like, you used to be way funnier, and I miss how you used to act, and that shit hurts more than anything. Because I know I can’t go back and I always try and look on the bright side but sometimes you just can’t. And people are starting to see me as weak because I bottle up all my stress and one little thing just knocks it all down and all they see is that little thing making me so mad
@user-fd2eq7hp4p Thanks For The Advice.
i know the feeling. im trans and dealing with heavy dysohoria rn
Love you brother/sister. I have never experienced the things you been through but can understand the pain you are constantly in. I’m so sorry for all the betrayals, thanks for being positive. Please do not bottle up your emotions, try to go out sometimes and have fun. Surround yourself with people and do not be alone as it might destroy you. Silence and darkness are terrifying, I myself have bad experiences with it.
I can understand a little bit of your pain and it hurts me man. God bless you! ❤️
Thank you.
I am proud of this comment section seeing that everyone cares for others more than themselves, even though they are going to die living in that hell but motivating other to stay in that hell because the upcoming is heaven..
(Posting this here because I don’t want these words to go unknown since I’m not so good at expressing my emotions let alone put it into words but this time I was able to in a long endless paragraph lol) Was js chilling and thought of a good moment with my brother and something just hit me, I miss my siblings so bad I want to check up on them I want to hug them I want to call out their name again tell them to come just to give them random kisses and tell them that I love them I want to dance with them again. They’re the ones who have truly seen me hurt, they have seen me bawl my eyes out, they have seen me laugh uncontrollably/made me, they have seen me mad, also have made me mad, we’d have fights ofc it’s the sibling norm but they have worried for me when I’m sick or when I sleep too much, this wholesome ass memory that I never forget is when I had the flu and was in bed all day, both randomly came into my room to ask where it hurts with their doctor toy gear on and my little sister playing nurse on me taking my temperature. They both have sat down held hands with each other and meditated with me because they believe their big sister knows best :) there’s so much more I can say I can go on and on on how they’re the reason I keep going,I hope I get to see them soon and tell them how much I missed them and love them, this time being apart from my family has made me realize how much I’ve distanced myself mentally from everyone yet every time I’d have my unbearable moments I still managed to be strong for them with the confidence that I will live up to the day I finally give them anything they need and continue to watch them grow up to be two independent amazing individuals, words cannot describe how much I miss my lil wueritos I promise I will come back home one day once I stabilize myself again I will come back as a better person I will continue to carry the big sister role for you guys and set out a good example so that life won’t be too rough on you guys and I won’t leave til the day you guys decide to start your own separate lives and won’t need me no more.I want to continue to make memories with my lil soulmates, watch them grow, teach them the things they don’t get taught and be there for them whenever that gloomy stage in life comes,when they feel like there’s no one there for them I want to lift them up, care and be by their sides on times when they don’t feel good.I will work my ass off and give them back more for the way they cared for me when I was hurting all alone.Those 2 pure souls deserve to be protected at all costs they helped me through the worst and don’t even know it yet but the day you guys are mature enough to understand how much your mentally unstable sister adores you I will tell you guys on how glad and happy I was to be your sister the day you were born.I talk and pray to God to allow me to grow up by your side, to give me the peaceful happy future that I see with my bloodline til the day my journey comes to an end ❤️
God bless you, i hope one day you get better and spend more time with your family, it will help you, your a good soul i can feel it. Stay strong positive and healthy, enjoy your journey in life until the end. Please take care, if you need to talk feel free. ❤
El sentimiento por los hermanos es lo más hermoso que puede existir
I feel ourselves sinking into an abyss. I feel the world crashing and burning. The bad out weighs the good. The irreversible changes happen too fast to counter.
I cannot do anything, I cannot stop the flow, I cannot stop my brain.
I cannot stop too much. Too much is out of my control.
Sometimes I go to bed and hope I don’t wake up…
I know this feeling, if you need someone to talk to I’m here for you
That's been me for awhile. I drink way too much on purpose. Like ngl I have work tm and I'm not gonna feel good at all in terms of energy. But fuckit we ball yk? Best advise that I can give, and take it from my demented brain with a grain of salt, is keep moving until you just utterly can't anymore. Put the most amount of effort you can muster into everything that you can. Yeah you'll get overwhelmed. Yeah you'll break down. But me, imma keep putting one foot in front of the other until I get the balls to end it all. And ik I'm blunt, and ik I might trigger your own compulsive thoughts amd actions and I'm sorry. But right here right now, words have inspired me. May I at least give you the strength and resolve to continue at a wounded stroll, or whatever pace you can take except stagnant. Much love to you friend. Whoever, whatever, however you are, know my words are true and given with as much love as I can muster.
@@alfakynkillu8330 thanks. But i really can’t keep going anymore. I just keep getting unlucky that my attempts don’t work. I’m on attempt number 7 now… I just don’t know how to get to the nearby bridge…
Nobody else wants that so stop it
Um novo dia com certeza será mais lindo com você, eu te amo ❤
man this just makes me cry, the tunes are so deep, i can't take it without crying.
I just want to go to sleep and never wake. I want to go back to whatever my existence was before i was born. I dont want the ramifications on my family and friends of not being around after this point in time.
I dont know why i wrote this. Its 3am, maybe i should have written on paper or something instead
You good bro?
thank you for the consistent love and support, means so much to me more then you think. im glad this channel is growing and i wish you nothing but love, happiness, and success. more music on the way and i am glad to be on this journey with you all, thank you for everything.
If you're reading this, as someone who emerged from darkness, know it's possible. I've endured unimaginable losses and battles, even losing my son, spiraling into destructive behavior. But I survived to tell you: your life is worth it. Someone will miss you deeply. Tonight, as we remember our pains, know you're not alone. Let your tears flow; it's okay not to be okay. You've survived this far on your own strength, and I'm proud of you. Rest tonight, find peace. Tomorrow is a new day, and I'll be here with you through the struggles. I'm proud of you. Thank you for being alive. 🌟💖
If you're reading this, know that it's possible to pull yourself from the darkness. I've been to 16 funerals, lost friends to suicides, violence, overdoses, car crashes, and cancer. I buried my son after just one day with him. I spiraled into drugs, alcohol, and reckless behavior, actively trying to die. Yet, I survived all that to be here and tell you that your life is worth it. There is someone who will miss you when you're gone. The pain you're feeling must be unbearable, and I'm so sorry it's there. But tonight, we're all here remembering our pains, battles, and struggles. You survived those on your own strengths and merits, and I'm so proud of you for making it this far. Cry tonight, my brothers and sisters, let it out. You don't have to be the perception of yourself through this playlist. You won't be a burden for letting it all out just this moment. You aren’t alone while you're here. Goodnight, I wish you peace when it's over, and I'll see you tomorrow. I'll be here again with you when those struggles eat at us just a little harder than we can handle. I'm proud of you. Thank you for being alive. 💖🌟
I appreciate you and your message brought tears to my eyes, Im glad you are here to remind us the importance of life.
thank you for this beautiful message
There are so many people in the comments who have experienced something or are in despair. And I listen to this music not because I am sad, but because it calms me down and makes me happy. If you have really experienced something traumatic, seek help from a doctor. Don't neglect your mental health!
Stay strong! The journey may be tough, but so are you 💪
Your channel is growing fast! Thank you for your wonderful playlists and equally wonderful support! 80k coming soonThank you for everything🖤
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I wish Covid wasn't a thing...I was genuinely happy in early 2020 or at least I think I was.
I just finished the middle school equivalent of Germany and had hope to find new friends in high school and have some wild adventures like actually partying for the first time...somehow I am becoming closer to a cliche doomer than I ever thought to be.
I don't have much hope currently sadly
Realer scheiß
i used to live in germany, it was such a beautiful place. i hope you can still have your adventures, but just because the pandemic cut a chunk out of our existence, it doesn't mean you can't still start your journey. it's not too late
Making the best dialogues ever to these songs🫶
It feels weird. Everyone i would give my life for only seemed to see me as "someone i know". I am sure I can't live without having people around me but i seems like i will end up living a life isolated and no one to share my stories with.
The best channel for ambient chill mixes 😊💙
So grateful !
You are not your depression.. you are the sky… clouds come , they cause storms. But they pass.. never give up. I believe in you.
Snowfall really hits different at 3 am 💔
Omg I can’t describe the feeling of this but the title of video is just amazing when you are like me and you can’t explain you are fighting but you don’t know for which reason you wake up and this day Is like other annoying or very bad
you trust one person with your everything. Every single detail of your life. You never felt so connected with someone ever before. She was your day in and day out. She became your best friend. Your partner, your solu mate. 4years had past you thought you are having the best of life.. Everything is good. You have few misunderstandings along the way but its fine. You know it can be fixed. You allowed one person in your life like no body else did. Then one christmas eve. You found out that she was trying to meet her ex. Then the christmas day itself you brought her to you own family gathering not knowing that info. Thne next day, you recieve someones message request. A screenahot of her conversation with her ex trying to meet at 3am of xmas. I was dumbfounded. I never felt so anxious before. I cant imagine she could do that thing. I never sensed it. I never see it in her eyes that she did something wrong. Coz she played it way too well. Someone you trust with everything, you realize you dont even know who she really is.. Its an evil world we live in.
The game is the game. You aren't at fault for being vulnerable and letting someone in. I know it hurts now, but in hindsight it's better for things to end now than years down the line with a house, kids etc. I'm going through something simila, together over 3 years and broke up around Xmas now I don't even recognise her anymore. All the sweet nothings whispered in the night will soon no longer haunt you, stay strong
Snowfall music never disappoints
Thanks again for adding us into that playlist 🙏🙏
We’re currently having severe fog where I’m at walked to a field and sat down to this there’s something beautiful about it but a deep sadness
To everyone who's studying with this music:
Checklist:
• A bottle of water, at least 1liter. Your brain works better if it has enough water and drinking helps you to concentrate
• Your charger. You sometimes don't even notice that your device's battery is going down, so better have it plugged in all the time
• Your headphones. You will be able to focus more with headphones, because it blocks background noises. Also, if it's a late night study session, you won't wake up anyone
• a tea or coffee. Coffee keeps you awake, green or black tea can make you feel more awake as well.
• Your study/work stuff: your laptop/tablet/phone , a few pens, paper or whatever you need.
•Anything else you could need, what about a heat pad, a blanket, a good lamp, your pet so you have a study buddy
Reminder: After an hour, you should stand up and walk a bit around. Better stop the music or put on different music for the break. Open your window, even if it's cold outside. Fresh air will make it better, trust me.
You could also lay your head down on your desk for ten minutes and listen to a podcast. Or, if you have to read a book, listen to the audiobook of it. You can also listen to the audiobook while doing another thing, that's even better than listening to music while reading the book.
I hope y'all had a good day, if not, that's okay too. Remember to take care of yourself and try to get some sleep tonight
(not mind! but copy paste it around!!)
Life is difficult.
No
I love these songs, they make me feel peace.
a random day, my friend woke up weird, he just sent me this phrase:
"The light at the end of the tunnel is just another day beginning, there will never be paradise."
followed by a "goodbye"
At that time I cried like hell because I knew he was depressed, today I'm going to his house just to talk to his mother and not let her do the same
pls stay by the side of the person you love, everyday, everytime, so they don't to this
Here’s a little poem for yall
Title: To Disappear
I lie in my bed every night
I wonder what life would be like
If I never existed
I wonder what disappearing would be like
I don’t want to die
I don’t want to cause people pain
I don’t want to be buried
I don’t want my parents to cry at the sight of my dead body
I want to disappear from everyone’s memories
I want to not exists
I want life to move on without me
I want to disappear
This isn’t my best work but it’s my first actually poem, Paix et amour
This got me through my overnight shift. Makes me think of all the bad and good decisions I’ve made through out life. Still here holding up.. but I’m just tired..
The fact that this playlist motivated me to do my homework
Thanks for letting people express themselves with these sounds!
Feels to conquer the earth. Not anyone's power but just my beautiful earth. I want to live with her forever, because the beauty of it gives me hope to stay alive
listening while studying
Hello!thank you so much 💓 i love your playlist😢❤
I am from vietnam. I really like this song that is snowfall and I listen to it everday. Finally, I want to say:' thank you so much'💌❤❤💖
I think I am okay with this music and in my loneliness
it hurts 💔
We must suffer... suffer to belive that maybe, just maybe, tommorow will be better... but tommorow never arrives, and it never will... that little strand of hope that things will get better, but it never does... we live with false hope for brighter days yet, the brighter the light... the darker the shadow.
It shines throughout the darkest of times
_____ favorite music _____
I wanted to let you know that you are worth it, you are enough, and you deserve to be happy, loved, and you deserve to live. The world is a much better place with you in it, and you will get through this. I’m proud of you no matter what. You might not be perfect, but no one is, and you’re you. Being you is more than enough, and there’s only one of you in this whole entire world. Losing you would be losing something incredibly special. Suicide might seem like your only option, and though it might get rid of your pain, all it does is pass it on to the people who love and care about you. (It might be hard to feel this way but people do love and care about you, I know we haven’t met but I love and care about you.) And this is hard to see, but you have so so much to live for. You’re going to have so many good opportunities in the future and I know one day you’ll be able to look back on this and think: “I’m glad I never gave up.” You are strong. You are beautiful. You deserve everything good in life. I believe in you with all my heart, and hope that one day you’ll be able to say and believe I’m proud of myself, because you deserve it.
The unic moment wen i feel good is when i suffer i dont know why but yeah i only....waste the time and hope this ends... Thank you for reading this
5 years ago I lost two friends due to suicide and I felt so hopeless I wished it was me and not them two I still dream with them to this day
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I'm sorry, that's awful to know.. I hope you're doing alright
I always feel like shoving my feelings away. I cannot accept what comes to me and when I do, I loose it all again. I'm tired of trying to only come back to the starting point. My life seems to have no end. Some days, I will come out of my bubble and be myself, but other days, I will shut myself off. When I do isolate myself, my close ones notice and try to make me feel better, but I cannot accept it. I do not deserve such love in my life, such kindness. The majority of the time, I don't do anything for others. I don't help them. I can't help them. I cannot accept it. What am I supposed to feel ? I feel like once I open myself even more, I just end up digging a bigger hole, a bigger grave. I used to be stronger but now, I'm so weak. It is a task to live and that is one of the biggest things I hate, to be forced to do something. Work, friends, family, money, everything. I hate it all when it's forced. I try to find my own path, but it seems impossible in this world. Everything is controlled, to the point where I have become addicted to "entertainment". I am glued to my phone, computer, and starting to simply accept my unhappiness. As more goes on, it only grows more. I'm ending up owing too much to someone who does not accept. I cannot repay my debt. I cannot become who they want me to be. I just want to give up. Nothing I do works out. Never thought I would share my feelings online. Never thought I'd ever share my feelings at all. It's come to a point where I cannot hold it anymore. I just want to cry but when I want to, it does not come out. Nothing does. I keep avoiding the things I want to do because it all seems like an obligation. Why do we have to do such things to live ? To fit in ? I just want to exist without having to have meaning behind it. Can't it just be possible ? Today is a sunny day, yet I am trapped in my room. I do not want kind words, as they do not help me. I am so trapped in my head that I cannot differentiate living and dying. I want help, but I do not want it. I want to be left alone, yet I crave for relationships. To let go of expectations is impossible for me. I want it all, yet I do not care about what I have. I'm so selfish, but I accept that. I only accept things that are "Bad" and it shows. I am out here writing my views online for others to read and sympathize. I want love, but I do not want to work for it. I want it to come freely, effortlessly.. I want to accept it, but I cannot. Accepting it only means more pain. I'm only 21 years old, turning 22 and it has affected me so much, yet I'm so young. I can't even imagine when I'll be 30, 40. It only gets worse. I just want to scream and run away, yet I cannot. I am stuck and obliged to fulfill my duty. This is the worst I have ever felt, and I will continue to feel it. No one truly cares. No one really wants to help.. This world is so rotten, I cannot describe how I feel. I judge others for having less pain than me, yet I do not know their past, their life, what they're experiencing. Yet, I still wish I have it worse than them so I can justify my feelings. So others can justify and let me be weak. If strong means having all that I want, why didn't I get what I wanted when I was strong ? Why did it all go away ? I am such an over analytic that I am revising what I'm writing and coming up with more as I go and write this book of a I don't know what to call it. I keep going up and up, yet it never brings fulfillment. I want to keep going, but the reward gained does not fill my emptiness. The reward is not worth it. Though, I would be lying if I said all moments are bad. Some do make me feel like I'm the king of the world. Like I can do anything. This journey is so painful, yet there are times where I can rest, like a checkpoint. It feels so good to simply be. Maybe I have not discovered what I love in life, since I was always trying to make others love me. By becoming a copy of who I thought I liked. It was always external, and never internal love. It was fake, devoid of who I truly am. I've started to change for 3 years now. I can say that without doing what I did, I would've never became who I am today. I am proud of being who I am, thought I feel all is useless. "Why am I doing this when I can just die ?" wouldn't that just solve my problems ? To run away from everything, like I have been doing. I guess not.. They will keep following me until I acknowledge them. Until I accept then. Until I heal from them. I've tried so hard to heal, but when I want to, the answers won't be given to me. I don't want to do anything as long as I am not healed. Why live when your mind is dead ? I don't want to start anything because it might fail. Most of what I did failed so why would I need to try again ? I haven't found my path, living like a slave to life, suffering from addiction which I shouldn't, can't even express myself without my stupid inner voice telling me to shut up. Like bro, yo shut up. This endless hell, the voices of myself and loved ones, will not go away. Running away or dying seems like the appropriate choice, but why would I live to die ? That's just plain stupid. It's like a boat, designed to work in water, be used on the streets. I want to find an end, but my mind keeps telling me to go. Hence why my text is so long. Why can't it just end ??????????????????????
I’m so tired, so so so tired of myself. I just want to lie down and disappear and not feel this pain anymore. I hurt all the people I love the most and I don’t even know how to get out of this darkness. I just want to disappear.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
@@supravietuitoriblog547 this brought tears to my eyes, I don’t know who you are but thank you for your kindness, truly.
@@localcrackhead2809 i know how u feel, and a lot of the times it seems like the best thing would be to sleep and not wake up. but there is so much still waiting for you, and the universe isn't done with you yet. this world still has so much heart to show you
i wish i was in some cabin far away from this world, place and i hope i could call it my home, and that is probably possible with the dog that was next to me in the 8 years and showed me what unconditional love and a true companion i had, and probably only will ever have for real.
I'm starting to think it's luxury nowadays to have a peaceful frame of mind....
same
If your reading this i want you to know, there are so many battles that life will throw in your direction. Feeling unworthy, unhappy, lost, etc. is a normal part of life experience that we don't like. Everything can be hard if you think in that mindset and it can be very hard to change that mindset so it takes time. I'm so proud of everyone who's made it and whose still fighting those problems. I will be alongside with you. Take care sweet ones, don't let the bug beds bite ;)
Keep going, sport; there's a big ol' world out there, and it's all for you. I'm proud of you, kid. You're gonna do great things in this world. :)
I'm very sorry for all that you have lost all that you have lived through I know i have it bad but it's hurts me because I know people have it worse. People are so strong❤
No words to explain 💔
Its not how alone I feel that's the problem, its more that I just don't care anymore
Thats the secret to a happy life
No.@@dessire1803
я запутался в своих мыслях.. я думал, я избавился от этого, но это не так.. это всё не так.. воспоминания не греют больше..
как ты там?
I'm not particularly sad I often find myself listening to these songs pondering upon the memories I could've shared with my fallen friends 💔 sometimes it hurts knowing we the same age or barely older than each other, losing a friend made me realise the gift of life the one moment I truly understood what death is, it hurts knowing that they were just a call or text away arrogance will humble you
Я тут наверное единственная русская, но всё же. Мне нравится моя жизнь. У меня очень добрые родители, хорошие друзья. Иногда жизнь приносит нам сложные выборы, ужасный события и всё в этом духе. Если вы это читаете, то знайте-идеально не бывает. Жизнь сложна и несправедлива, пока кому-то хорошо, другому плохо. Это жизнь. Но ты сильный(ая), я верю и горжусь тобой. Ты сможешь всё! Даже в ситуации где на первый взгляд нет выхода, есть шанс на хорошую концовку.
Честно скажу я и сама не настолько хороша. Я 3 года ненавидела себя и жизнь. Больше 3 лет назад погиб дорогой для меня человек. Что я этим хочу сказать? Всё просто, не зацикливайся на прошлом, не стыдись себя, люби себя и тех кто тебя окружает. Все мы не идеальны, никто и ничто не идеально. Если тебе станет плохо или ещё что-то пиши, я всегда тут
This is so calming.🖤🖤
My darkest time was highschool, was I popular at school? Heck yeah, unfortunately that didn’t follow me home. I was never the kid to invite others over, I’d rather stay alone in my room and play Xbox. Didn’t even spend time with my parents, which I deeply regret now. As a 24 year old I look back at the mistakes I made.. I tried taking my life many many times throughout those 4 years. Fortunately, I’m terrified of Death. What if I mess up? My death would rock the very foundation of my family. I have 5 brothers and the thought of leaving them, having them lower me into an early grave is something I never want them to experience. No parent should bury their own kids.
If I’ve learned anything over the past 7 years is that you have to take every moment like it’s your last. It might not sound like a lot but when you look back at yourself, you’ll always find a deeper meaning to life. For me its life, does getting up everyday suck? Maybe, but take each day with steps, the future holds no boundaries because it hasn’t happened. You can’t stress what’s going to happen tomorrow, you may not feel loved, you may not feel pain, you may not feel Alive. But you are. You’re here. You’ve made it this far, do you know how important that is?
We all have doubts. The light of the mind cannot burn away all darkness. Think on it, and look in your heart. It will be for the best. When the walls come tumbling down, when you lose everything you have, you always have family.
I love you. And I wish you well on your Journey.
I can't even say that it's the worst part of my life since I know tomorrow is gonna be worse like today has been worse than yesterday and that's how it always worked
I hope you heal from every wound you have dear reader 😊 keep going keep pushing 👍
I'm just done. I don't want to feel empty anymore. No matter what I do when I'm home I get yelled at. I know my parents love me but it still hurts. It gives me this sharp shooting feeling in my chest and I can't help but cry everytime. This honestly sucks because this year after summer, I start highschool. All my friends are going to different schools and I will be lonely. I'm terrified for my future in all honesty.
mate... do you need someone?
Sometimes
Every day feel the same
its been eight months... how abt now? days different? did things get better?
Essas músicas são ótimas para qualquer ocasião de está sozinho ou deitado, várias outras opções, eu penso já vida porque pareçe que eu me relaxo com os toques do som....
A 1 música da uma nostalgia e faz refletirmos na nossa vida toda é uma badzinha boa 😢❤
i have been diagnosed with depression at age 11, now I'm older i still have it. it's always so embarrassing to cry Infront of some one, but people also NEED to get out a good cry here and there. this might sound extra but yesterday I knocked down a bird nest not knowing anything was in it and 3 baby birds was there. the mama bird with worms in her mouth ready to feed her babies just watched me do it. I'm bawling my eyes out writing this, anyway i took one to feed and maybe keep it as a pet, i was so stupid. i was feeding him mushed up bananas. he was doing fine. then today my parents went to go check on the other ones, and we had to feed and take care of them. the one i was first taking care of died from choking. i was so heart broken. as i type this we put the 2 birds back into their nest and hopefully mama bird take care of them. I'm so heart broken, i told my dad some of them won't eat and he paused and said, "there not Gunna make it." it left me heartbroken and speechless. I don't want to cry ever again, I pray to God to help me, and i try my best to stay positive. I'm on depression meds and went to a mental hospital twice. I'm so soft and take things to heart easily. it's so hard.
Bener-bener ngebantu pas lagi bengong-bengongnya:')
I would not exactly say am in pain but more so pressure
this song makes me face the reality of self inflicting wounds destroying my life throughout the years. My stupidity always getting in the way of a successful life. Oh well.
Don't say such de grading things about yourself ! I know you're better than that !
I come bringing some good news to you today and that is the news our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ.
He is the only one who can bring peace upon man's heart, if you sincerely take him as your saviour and allow him into your heart, these feelings of hopelessness you will see begin to flourish into great feelings of love, joy, hope and courage.
It is a dark time for all, the world is full of darkness, and we are of the world, if the world is full of darkness and we are of the world, we become darkness, we become slaves to our flesh and feelings. But it is washing yourself with the blood of Jesus Christ that you can be saved. Believe in the good news I have come to spread today and you will soon be free, of body, of mind but most importantly, of heart.
All the best !
No siempre debes ser un arcoiris, a veces los mas hermosos paisajes estan cubiertos por nubes negras.
i just want my sister, ever since i lost her ive been , lonely, helpless, hopeless, sad, drained, tired.
80k soon 👀
Yk whats weird is that i knew he was going to leave but i just couldn’t accept it. Not until he really broke it off, but with how long it went on and how fucking bad it fucked with my head i cant shake the feeling he’s going to leave again. We got back together and I understand why he left, ill be it for stupid reasons of “ill leave before she leaves me” EVEN THO I WAS NEVER GOING TO.
But either way it fucked my head up so badly that any fluctuations in his mood or mannerisms sends me shaking and feeling sick with anxiety.
Its gotten better thankfully, back in the beginning i couldn’t even think of it without breaking down but i can think of it now and only feel anxious.
I know hes not gonna leave and that he loves me but its the fact that he left once that makes me think he’ll do it again.
And really what can i do?
Nothing.
Helplessness is like drowning in yourself. No where to run or hide, no one to save you, you’re completely alone.
Its emotional and mental weakness x1000. Everything is telling you to fight but you know you can’t, yk that submission is easy but also impossible because who gives in to drowning?
Ive never experienced what he put me through and what i allowed myself to fall into.
Love is beautiful and love is horrible and love is terrifying and love is eternal and love is fucking worth the pain bevause at least you experienced it, something people kill, die, and live for.
Appreciate love even when it fucks you up but never allow urself to fall apart forever.
For the past year ,i was with that girl and she tried to open my heart and understand me ,i was so afraid to open up that she thought i dont care...I ve been through some stuff in my life ,i had so much sadness and rage in me ,i couldnt express it. We split up ,we live close to each other ,i tried to reach her and not lose each other for the past one and a half month, told her that i love her,she told me its better not to talk again ,although she loves me back...I lost my sleep ,my stomach is twisted ,i feel so nervous all the time ...And its because its my fault...
I use this music to sleep but i wish it didn‘t get this associated with a such negative/depressing vibe. Why would anyone that clicked for the title, want to feel hopeless? If you‘re in a dark place reading this, whatever you‘re going through won‘t stay forever because life always changes. So make the right choices and start with loving yourself❤ you can do it
I fell in love with a woman a long time ago. And messed things up so badly that I vanished for ten years. Yet she still loved me from afar like I did her. But I was gone. I came back to see her happy, married, with a beautiful child. Now I wonder, is she better off that I left? or could I have stayed and fixed it?
Do.. Do I even bother trying to keep going on? She was my world, my rock, and I fucked up.. maybe the world is better off with me gone entirely
You can do anything bro it all starts today.