A Day in the Life of a 33 Year Old Alcoholic Struggling to Stay Sober
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Hey man.. Fellow aussie here.. 66yo. Drinker for 50years. The last 20 pretty heavy.. Port and beer was my poison of choice. Morning till early evening. Never got hangovers. Life was sweet. I really enjoyed drinking.. That was until my liver sent a nuclear warning shot across the bow. (Cirrhosis) is now my partner in crime. My stomach swelled up HUGE.. (Ascites).. Went to the ER and was drained of ascetic fluid.. 15ltrs out.. That was at the beginning of January 2024. Sober since then. Not because I wanted to. Because I HAD to. My liver doctor gave me some sobering news. "If you don't stop the booze, you'll be dead before the end of the year"............. How can I live without booze??............ I'm doing it now. It was hard but is getting easier.. My method to keep the mind off the devils water..............
Keep your fridge full of easy to get to snacks like fruit, (strawberries / plums / kiwi fruit / apples / lemons / cherry tomatoes / baby cucumbers / low sugar and salt muesli bars ). Anything that's fresh and you like. When you think of a beer, go the the fridge and grab a few of those snacks. Protein shakes.
I'm back exercising again. Swimming, weights, bike.. I've gone from 115kg down to 85kg.................... Do I miss the booze?? Bloody oath I do, but given the choice again, I'd much prefer to be 85kg and now eating like a horse than 115kg and feeling sluggish all the time.........
Hang in there mate.. It could've been a whole lot worse...................
Giving up the booze after such a long time was like losing my best friend.. But a new life is starting............
Do Coffee Enemas man you can heal your liver by cleaning it up.
He sounds like a kiwi to me. You're Aussie and you can't hear the difference? 😂😂😂😂
He's definitely a kiwi 😊
@@flouncey1977 I know. LOL Im Aussie and can that straight away.
I used to get horrible hangovers but I still kept doing it because everyone did it...
I'm 41/2 years sober now and you have no idea what good things are awaiting you on the other side of this!
I stopped drinking and studied nutrition created a program for myself and started exercising regularly
(I walk my dogs 2 miles a day)
I've lost 100 lbs so far!
I never thought it was possible at my age (64) but life is so sweet without substance abuse.
Don't overwhelm yourself with too much at once.
Your health goals will naturally progress as you get healthier.
Good luck!
👍
I’m a 69 yr old woman living in south Texas. You just popped on my feed. Thank you for making this video! I hope you keep telling your story! I will keep following you. I’m for you!
McAllen here 🎉
Hey man, quit now before the withdrawals and delirium tremens start. I’m 27, over the last year and a half I’ve put myself in the ER about ten times because of alcohol and withdrawals. On March 19th I checked myself into a rehab center for detox and residential inpatient. It was the best decision I could have made. 56 days sober now and no intention of ever drinking again. Alcohol just takes and takes from you, and if the bad shit hasn’t happened yet, like jail, prison, seizures, killing someone, killing yourself, etc, it’s coming if you keep diving further into alcohol. Quit now!
I am 70 year old woman...sober 4 years...started at 16...you can do the math. I got tired of my heart going crazy at night and phycosis (spelling) of voices I heard that no one else did...plus terrible sleep. I drank less and less until I was able to quit...boy, am I glad thats over...I will never drink again. I totally loved wine and brandy...but it's not worth it. Blessings.
I have 69 days sober, today. I will be 61 yrs. old, in 4 days. It is never too late, to reclaim your bliss, your life, yourself. Keep the faith, brother. Goddess Blessings.. 🙋 💜. Jaye
I lost a great friend at 41 years of age from alcohol. I'm rooting for you.
I'm so sorry, you lost your friend. Thank you, for taking the time, to wish me well. It is a lovely tribute, to your friend, that you would reach out, to a stranger. 💜
So happy for you! Awesome achievment, less than 10 percent of people are able to get sober! You are a miracle! ❤
I read The Alcohol Experiment and This Naked Mind. It changed my life. Keep your head up, keep going. Ive got about 18 months under my belt now. I’m sorry you’re struggling. It’s freaking hard, but it’s so so worth it.
That was my suggestion too! It takes so much pressure off you ! Focus on progress, not the setback. He’s already done some serious work with the sober video. I hope he will look into this option ❤️
I read Easy Way to Control Alcohol by Allen Carr and I had a similar experience - I just hit a year sober earlier this week actually. Once you change how you see alcohol, there’s really no going back - otherwise you’ll spend the rest of your life trying to resist something that you think is inherently a positive thing. And trying to quit drinking like that is absolute hell.
Thanks for the tip - I just ordered The Alcohol Experiment.
Congratulations for your strength and courage 🎉❤
I'm From the Caribbean...Have the same problem with always relapsing I'm 4 days sober..need some divine intervention..keep strong..I could relate..
Remember, it's not how much you stumble, it's how many times you get up! Keep getting up and you'll get there! ❤️
I lost my mother 9 months ago to alcohol. And my father is drinking too, and i can't stop him. That's a terrible life situation im in. Don't drink guys. It's a road to nowhere, but hurting people around you, those the closest.
Whisky was my favorite.
Stay strong and just keep quitting until you don't have to anymore.
I Quit drinking over and over so many times I can't count.
I am over 2 years sober now and loving life.
I know you can get there to some day.
Alcohol and cigarettes addiction actually destroyed my life. I could remember several years ago after divorce with my wife which brought me into my disastrous journey on Alcohol and cigarettes. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the
same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today
Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the
morning after. So no hangovers. No
depression mood for days. No anxiety.I now
have a more calm mind
How do i reach out to him? Is he on Instagram
Been there. One day at time my dude. Dont be too hard on yourself. You'll get there when you're ready. I got 8 years dry in January 2025.
My wife put herself into rehab last November. Sober over a year. Relapsed last week because she doesn’t think she has a problem. She can handle it, but she can’t. She doesn’t drink the hard stuff anymore just hard seltzers, but over the weekend she got drunk and had 4 tonight. I’m trying to stay supportive, but have been dealing with this for over 10 years. We were just married this past March. I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone, hurt,angry and depressed. I loved when she was sober. So much laughter and no fighting. That’s gone.
SUPPORT, SUPPORT , SUPPORT
First of all, don’t blame yourself for this. Second of all, she’s got a problem
Thank you for your honesty mate. Please try find some self-compassion. You will get through this too man. 🤜🤛
A month without a drink is fucking amazing. Keep grinding brother!
I'm on day 35. I attempted suicide Jan 1st because of alcohol, cold turkey and DT's. I jumped from a significant height and f'd myself up.. I was forced to detox for the first significant period in 20 years as I was in hospital for months.
It was also not in my home country which made it even crazier..
I have life altering injuries because of it.. and still relapsed after discharge.
I'm 38.
I identify with everything you experienced here. I hope all is going well for you.
I would caution to anybody in a similar position. Start slowly. Do not try and change so much so soon. Not having a drink is the only priority.
Please do it with medical supervision if you have been drinking heavily.
I know from a lot of experience.
Greetings from Ireland.
Damn dude. I hope your experience with all this all least can lead to you stopping drinking entirely. I know you wrote that you relapsed afterwards, but hopefully you’re back to sober again ya this time
All the best brother
@@Day-ZDuke I just saw this - thanks for the kind words man. Cheered me up!
On day 55 (my longest ever as I never took sobriety seriously before).
I relapsed for 3 weeks when released from hospital in March. I left Portugal (where it happened) and came back home. I haven't had a drink since then and don't intend to ever again. 🙏
I have some medical issues to deal with in the coming weeks and then will be admitted to an addiction centre for 3 months.
Quite daunting, it's my first (and only) time.
I hope everything is good for you?
Thanks again for taking the time to message..it really helped me when I read it earlier.
My 32 year old brother died of cirrhosis of the liver 6 months ago. He never drank hard liquor just beer and it killed him. He turned yellow and he was gone
Oh my…that’s so terrible. I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved brother. With my deepest sympathy ❤️🩹 to you and your family. I have a sister who is 68 who drinks nothing but beer too. Every single night and it’s been that way for 30 plus years. I worry about her greatly.
@@legocommanderfox55 I miss my little brother every day. Beer killed him. He drank a few beers after work and on the weekends probably a 12pk. That’s all it took and he was gone
@@elcrazy8017 I'm sorry for your lost:(
I'm so sorry man, I never lost a sibling but lost my dad to fentanyl he was only 53. It's a different type of addiction but same root causes. Some people need others to show them that things can improve, not everyone has a clear view of the world and can let their emotions consume them unless they understand WHY they are feeling those emotions. Others just can't stop due to the withdrawal from Alcohol.
Either way, as sincerely as a person in a comment can be, please be well. Losses like that collapse our entire world and it takes a while for normalcy to return. Your brother would probably not want you to be distraught over his loss, my dad didn't. But I understand it's a different relationship you had and it could be totally different from my view. I hope knowing you aren't alone makes it a bit easier to tolerate.
@@Zadir09well said ❤
Get yourself some support! There are LOTS of people learning to stay sober one day (or one hour or one minute) at a time. You let it happen because it's an illness. It's the first drink that does the damage. Don't be so terribly hard on yourself--if you're like most of us who can't drink normally, you're beating yourself up all the time! Go get yourself support--go to meetings! The hardest part is in the beginning. Get the support!! And don't take the first drink TODAY. Just today. Then, do it again tomorrow. And oh, did i mention, get to meetings, get support!
My son is an alcoholic and currently looking at 20 do 5 in prison bc of his drinking 😢thank you for sharing im praying for you and sending love ❤️❤️❤️
I came across this video on a perfect evening in my world. 99 days sober and I’ve been contemplating drinking tonight. Thank you for mentioning the bloating. Why I quit., my body was not assimilating alcohol and slowly shutting down my kidneys.
I am 22 and i got diagnosed with alcoholic hepatitis like 6 months ago and instead of stopping i just started drinking more, so honestly i wouldnt be surprised if im close to, or already have cirrhosis but i hope all these other youngings knows this aint a game u cant exactly win. Stay sober out there tbh ive been feeling like shit this whole month. Throwing up blood and all types of nasty shit. Wish i could start over.
I just got diagnosed with this 3 days ago. Hoping I can reverse this. Was your case mild or severe alcoholic hepatitis? I wish you the best man.
@@NICKGUTTED it was mild but it's been a couple of months so I'm scared it's not reversible at this point. I've been noticing new things in my body like, my eyes are getting really yellow and parts of my skin too, and I've been bruising super easily and I feel more tired than usual. Hangovers take even longer to heal now and my blood pressure and breathing are so bad when Im sober.
@@NICKGUTTED hope you recover man, take a break for a couple of months if u can u can definitely reverse the damage o
If it's not severe🫡 be safe out there man.
@@bryanchavez6186 I’m so sorry to hear that. I got my test results back after my initial tests from the ER today and my AST and ALT went up somehow and I have not been drinking at all. Not one drop. I’m confused and worried. I wish you the best man. I’ll say a prayer for you my man. Take care.
@@NICKGUTTED ketogenic diet and intermittent fasting has remarkable effects on liver healing
I’m 22 so I’m not quite sure if my advice to you is valuable, but the one mindset that helped me to stop drinking alcohol completely was telling myself that alcohol is basically a poison and there is no need for me to drink poison, cause that doesn’t make sense. Since I told myself this I’m clean from alcohol for more than 1 year right now after drinking every weekend and during the times of covid basically every day. Telling yourself this is powerful cause atleast for me, drinking poison doesn’t make sense.
Stay strong man, I love your videos
btw bro im a web developer in training i dont know if this sounds stupid but i respect what your doing and if you need a website or logo or anything in the future il be more than happy to help ou help more people this video gave me strength to get back on track
I’ve got just over two years of sobriety. 33 year old Irish guy living down under. Binged on alcohol every weekend since the age of 15 and never stopped until it got worse and the whiskey got the better of me. Multiple black outs and eventually it caught up on me after falling asleep too many times in too many dodgy places. AA helped me realise that addiction is a spectrum and that there are many different types of drinkers/ alcoholics. I did not want to quit and couldn’t imagine life without it but here I am today having a decent life without it. It’s been such a learning curve, with good times and bad times but there would have been so many more bad times if I had of continued.
Change is possible and an open mind is key. Listening and learning in the rooms of AA gave me such a great scope of how bad the booze can be.
Wishing you the best pal,
If I can do it, you can
Sober since Dec 21st, that's about 6 months. My stomach is less bloated, more energy, happier in my skin, and getting a lot done. I'm 48, and at this age, every drink may be the last. Do I love life? is it without struggles? surely not... but that doesn't mean I want to drink myself to death.
Same here. High fives brother!
I'm with you on this i was a alcoholic for 25 years now I'm 49 an I feel brilliant for nor drinking , just left my boyfriend for the same thing just don't want to be near it keep going x
Hi this is my first time watching you, i wish you the absolute best, im also a struggling alcoholic 23yo from across the pond 🇮🇪 . I go through about 20 cans of beer and 500ml of vodka per day. Not ideal but im waiting to get a spot in residential treatment. Best wishes 🙏
You can still push through the hangover because of your age. At a certain point you just can't push through anymore. I hope you're able to quit before that point.
Anybody can push through. Some may need to do it in a medical setting but it's not true to say you can't do it.
Bro you are an authority on quitting drinking. The relapse rate is over 95% in 30 days. I know because I have relapsed 1000 times. It takes me several months to even do a day 1.
Please start a new series, and forget about having time under your belt before you start. Just vlog the day no matter what. Sauce ain’t the boss you are
Fantastic, a guy who has "relapsed 1000 times" is dispensing advice to another "struggling alcoholic" to start a new series where he can't offer anything except NOT achieving sobriety. Geezuschryst, that's utterly phucking absurd.
"Sauce ain't the boss, you are". WTF? Based on your own admission, the "Sauce" has rendered you totally phucking delusional, and is kicking the shyt out of you.
If this weren't about a FATAL condition, ALCOHOLISM, I'd be on the floor laughing my ass off. It's deadly serious. People, at this very moment, are dying because they can't or won't SURRENDER, and have NO WILLINGNESS to actually live differently. Put the phucking shovel down, and start listening to the people standing above ground, who are telling you how to get out of the massive hole you've dug! Peace!
Been 4 weeks sober from alcohol,have done it before and was sober for a while but relapsed
A lot going on at home and with my health and this time I feel way more confident about staying sober, maintaining sobriety is difficult but I'll do it this time
Listen to this ive been drinking heavy over 32 years, and last year I did 14 weeks clean due to a health scare with my throat and 12 weeks the year before that during covid. Then stupid me thought I would have 4 cans when I got the all-clear thinking I was in control. Silly me was wrong. I was hooked again. Now I'm on my 7th day, and I'm taking 1 day at a time not putting to much pressure on myself. Start again you got this 👍
What helps me a lot is to read comments from people on day one on apps or places like reddit. It reminds me of how I felt back then. Videos like this help me too. You mention that you are proud of your ability to push through the hangover. I will say that you are young at 33, they only get worse. I'm 41 and my last hangover had me in bed for 5 days taking anti depressants. It's really dangerous for your mental health. You must persevere if you want any chance at a normal life. I stopped for 6 months last year and then started again, now at 35 days hoping to never drink again this time.
hangovers dont always get worse the older you get for everyone...i used to get the worst hangovers when I was younger and now i pretty much never get hungover
You can do it brother, I just made 11 months. I attend a lot of 12 step meetings and they help me tremendously
It really helps being around other men that are striving to recover and live sober. We’re praying for you sir
God Bless!!
I did it too man. Back to seven days
After a couple of weeks of Binge-Drinking I will go down to AA- Tomorrow. The Nightly sweats, anxiety , lost of Money, no excersise and the List goes on.
I truly hope It will stick this time because I cant live like this anymore. I don´t want to either! Alcohol is A Terrible drug in all aspects imagineble.
I think I'm addicted to alchohol. Started about an year ago and I drink about 5 bottles per week. 3 days ago I spent all my money on 3 1L bottles of vodka and had it all by myself in my room with the lights off just chugging crazy amounts of alchohol , I wanna stop drinking I feel obesse and old and I'm just 18 years old. I realize I need help and I booked a rehab appointment.
Life does get better. My younger years were so painful. I wouldn’t go through that again for anything! I’m the happiest now that I have ever been. Turning 70 this summer. Best of luck. Be kind to yourself
33 here too, i havent been sober for years my dude, hope you stay on course and keep at it buddy.
My husband hasn’t had a drink since New Year’s Day and he was drinking heavy and the sheer admiration we have for him helps him stay positive and the fact he now also has tremendous pride now in fact he can now say he’s teetotal which we all thought was impossible! And to note he had two massive bottles of spirits at home but hasn’t touched a drop !Just take it day by day and say to yourself I will get though this one day at a time! Try not to cut everything at once as it’s so much to tempt you to quit and just concentrate on the 24hours🙂
Just went through this recently myself brother, prayers go out to you man. Best of luck 💯
Please go to rehab, or an AA meeting. You don't have to do this Alone. One Thing at a time. One day at a time. Good luck!
Life is so much more enjoyable sober. It is a lot funner doing things you really enjoy and not just dumb drunk fun
I don't think you're back to ground zero. HealthyGamerGG (UA-camr; psychiatrist; former monk) says with depression, our brains perceive negativity over positivity. If you can, look at the positive of the situation and how many days you went without alcohol! It's incredible when you think about it! Alcohol is not my drug of choice - weed was... and I am 30 days cold turkey/clean after smoking daily for decades. You got this!
Hello, awesome!! Gonna start my clean journey from weed this weekend. I'm tired of living my life in a loading screen!!!
After 39 days clean I look back and weed didn't even enhance my life ... maybe a long time ago but not now. It just made me tired all the time and the brain fog was horrible
awesome video. i drank around the same amount as you did at the end and was ready to end it all. i was so tired of that damn disease and the dependency on alcohol.
it helps to remember that forever is a long time. all we have is today, this very moment. it’s all we can control. keep your head up. sorry for you and thanks for documenting this.
It took a cancer diagnosis for me to stop. You can do it, it just takes the right kind of “motivation”, for want of a better word. I was literally too scared to drink after that so I guess you could say it was easier for me. That was over 11 years ago and I can honestly say I haven’t had a single drink in over a decade, and I believe that decision has literally saved my life. Never give up trying to give up! You CAN and you WILL succeed. All the best. 🥰
Bro I appreciate this guys candor and honesty you’re pushing me to push through just like you man keep posting I need these videos more than you realize
I feel you brother. I’ll be praying for your recovery as well as for my own. Even though I’ve got a problem with different substance I can completely relate to what you’re going through I can see it in your eyes. All the best mate
Hey, I’m Sorry that you relapsed but I’m really happy that someone finally has a channel with descriptions of relapses. Most videos are like, “ I decided and I quit, and today I’m X years sober, best decision of my life”. Yeah. So realistic.
Hey, from Liverpool UK 🇬🇧. UA-cams algorithm was the reason your video found me today. I'm not an alcoholic, so I can't say I feel what you're going through, but just want to say - You've got this ✨
One drink is too many and one drink is not enough...I'm a 35 year old alcoholic and have been sober over a year now... A year ago I was in a German hospital for 5 days from withdrawal and then shipped back to the states to rehab for 45 days. Find a meeting, get a sponsor and do the Steps. I wish you the best man! If I can do it, you can do it. I hope when you (if you) read this, you have a month of sobriety under your belt :) if not keep trying bro
Man did I NEED this. Stuck in a brutal cycle waking up feeling like dying, another drink to make it go away, another drink to keep it going. Repeat. Glad I found you.
You got this man! Awesome real video, I truly appreciate this.
Take good care and hang in there. I know that’s easier said than done. I’ve been sober 30 plus years. It keeps getting better, I promise. Praying for you. Please keep us posted as you can. Sending you lots of positive vibes and prayers from Maine, 🇺🇸 USA. ❤
Thank you so very much for posting this. I just discovered your channel and I will be watching everything you post. Rooting for you!
I too was an alcoholic drinking a fifth+ of liquor a day, throwing my health away.
I’m 27 and coming up on two years of sobriety. Life is amazing and I’m excited for the future.
Wishing you the absolute best and excited to watch your journey to successful sobriety! You’ve got this!!
You did well getting through January and no doubt would have learned some valuable lessons during that time.
These lessons will help you going forward on your sobriety journey.
Hey bro. I’m a alcoholic. It’s been a rough decade for me since I turned 21. Before that it wasn’t an issue. Just sad that this is where my life went. The last decade I over drank. It got especially bad between 2021-2023. Since October of 2023 to now May 2024 I’ve only drank 6x total. That’s 6x too much. It’s a lot better then before. I use to get drunk 3-4x a week but now I’m a lot better and so proud of myself but I really do need to eliminate it all together. It’s a struggle. I just went out yesterday and drank- was dumb. Oh well- day 1. Here we go.
That was such a great video. Really helped me through this evening. Hope youre still staying sober. I'm at almost 48 hours through a bad bout of alcohol poisoning, the symptoms have been absolutely frightening and im not out of the woods yet. I am determined to stop now, I simply can't and won't go through this hell again. All others suffering just believe we can do it.
You GOT THIS BROTHER/ HOPE EVERYTHING GOOD WITH YA.. STAY BLESSED!!!🤜🤛
I only started drinking heavily a couple of years ago. It's loneliness that drives me to it. I live alone and work more or less alone. I simply cannot spend too much time at home alone or I get depressed. I love the atmosphere of the pub where at least there's a chance I can talk to someone, listen to the music on the juke box, etc. Anyone else feel the same way?
I literally feel the same. I started drinking heavier when the pandemic started. Now it’s a daily habit 😢 Today I will not be drinking! That’s the goal ❤
@@lauram3334 Tell me about it!
Yes, me to.
Find peace then you wont feel alone
@@lloyddouglas3650 And how does one find peace?
Thank you for sharing. Stay strong ❤
As someone who lost family to addiction, you have NO idea how grateful the people around you are that you keep trying! I wish the people I lost would have kept getting up again like you! Please Please no matter how many times you fall, Never give up! I am praying and rooting for you from all the way in the US! Thank you for posting this, this is real life content that resonates. I am certain you can become sober, you have it in you and I'm sure you know it! Keep going dude!
I had the blackest soul blackout that is such a weird shame trauma months later I still just embrace it as fuel to stay sober. Too weird, I don't want that ever again. A binary switch flipped in the soul and a deep seated realization of the alcoholic matrix that's infected an unnatural lack-of-nature lifestyle modern society so deeply.
32 years old here, ended up drinking every single night when lockdown started, could not get out of the cycle until I genuinely felt like I was going to die after getting pancreatitis at the end of last year. Even after that I cut to drinking every weekend, but really binge drinking then I woke up one day realising that I’m genuinely killing myself and I was so lucky to come out of the other end of pancreatitis and I had to stop being so fucking selfish, especially for my kids. Now I don’t drink (only 2 months in) and I’ve been exercising every day instead and let me tell you, what a life changing experience it has been. I’m annoyed at myself for not getting sober sooner. You’ve got this I promise,you just need to really dig deep inside yourself and grab hold of whatever you can find to get you through this ❤
Keep the faith. Keep moving forward. Thank you for your honesty. Don't stop the process.
I’m 42 and a recovering alcoholic. I drank solidly for 15 years, morning, noon and night. That was until the 21st of December 2019. Through the power of support from my family and friends, a desire to stop drinking and the acknowledgment I’m powerless over alcohol, I managed to put down the first drink and the rest took care of itself.
Hang in there, it does get easier, but it’s a talking illness. You need to share your struggles with those around you and lean on the support when you need it.
Be strong brother. You are loved and highly valued. GOD loves you. I am praying for your sobriety and continued health and wellness. Be strong. Love from Indiana/Texas USA
U r so brave...thank you so much for sharing your honest raw feelings
When I did a 7 day water fast, it reset my food and alcohol cravings. Weened back into food after the 7 days sticking to a high protein diet and I have had zero cravings since. Long term fasting is not for everyone, so if you try something like that do it with extreme caution and at your own risk. Ensure you are adding quality electrolytes to your water too daily. Have a doctor monitor you throughout it too if possible. Good luck with your sobriety brother. I have faith in you.
I’m pulling for you Man! ❤🙏
Stay strong buddy. It’s so difficult but you absolutely can do it. Also, your cat is so beautiful.
I see a lot of myself in you and the stuff you say man. I've only just started to really admit to myself that I have a problem. Power to you, keep strong
Sober for 6 months. I’ll share my story in the hopes it might help you bro as well as anyone else out there who’s still struggling. Near the end, I was putting down a fifth or more of vodka a day. I kept throwing it up so I had to drink more. I couldn’t even keep water or coffee down. My body wasn’t functioning properly anymore and I kept getting bruises because my kidneys were shot. My hair started thinning because I was so malnourished. Not a good look for the ladies! Luckily it grew back! I started getting gout in my right ankle, yuck! I ruined relationships with people who I really cared about because booze turned me into a raging asshole. I pissed myself once and slept in it because I didn’t have the energy to clean myself up. I was spending over a grand a month on alcohol plus whatever garbage food that I was ordering. That’s a shit ton of money I could have used to go on a vacation, buy a car, put a down payment on a house, etc. I developed a sleeping disorder which I still have and average maybe 3-4 hours of light sleep a night. I got high blood pressure from it. It will bring you down everyt time. Miraculously, my liver is ok but I know quite a few people who weren’t as lucky and got Cirrhosis. That’s NOT something you want to get or pancreatitis. Withdrawal was an absolute nightmare. Bro, you’re still a young guy. Please DO NOT let yourself get as bad as I did and some of the other lovely folks who have been brave enough to share their stories here. Learn from our mistakes, not yours. We (alcoholics) are physically built differently than others. From birth, our livers secrete a certain enzyme that makes us addicts. As someone else here said, don’t beat yourself up. Every day is a new day, and don’t feel ashamed of getting help. I tried quitting on my own hundreds of times but it never lasted very long so I started going to AA. My life was becoming unmanageable. You’re still a young guy, you’re good looking, intelligent and I can tell how badly you want to stop. I’m rooting for you brother…you got this, and you’re worth it!
This is so inspiring mate ❤
You do it to feel better. Its called self hurting behavior. To get away from the real pain you have inside. And it means that youre not ready, willing or strong enough yet to face it. We do what we need. I wish the best from Sweden
Love your comment! Wish you the best!
I finally broke down and realized that I needed support. I’ve been going to AA meetings and told everyone around me about my struggles. The overwhelming majority of people were supporting and loving. I got my 30 day token then f’d up with a lapse. Lapse is part of recovery. The best thing is to never say you won’t ever drink again because that just sends you down a spiral when a lapse occurs. Don’t give up. Get help and ask for help. I was really hesitant to go to meetings but it has been a safe place and therapeutic.
Love you bro! I'm struggling right now too your not alone but we will get through day by day aware and mindfulness is key you got this I feel you! We have more to gain than ever! 😁🙏💖
Relapse is part of the process. Don’t beat yourself up to bad. People who are trying to quit that relapse are actually more likely to eventually stay sober…. So technically, you’re doing awesome! Keep goinggggg
Excessive booze consumption will most def make the heart beat out of wack from time to time for a good 2 days after heavy bender.. ive been there in the past. Im 40 now and havent had heavy sessions for 4 5 years, but i remember, the anxious feelings uncomfortable feeling in chest like palpitations etc.. its all a sign to cut the poisons and live a healthier life.
I love this! Love your honesty and your attitude to tackling this disorder head on. To anyone struggling with alcohol reading this right now, please remember that alcohol is an extremely addictive substance that is actually marketed to us to within an inch of our lives - it isnt your fault so dont let alcohol diminish your self worth - I find that is the worst part of struggling with alcohol, its the shame and feelings of low self worth that really gets to you. Also, our brains are wired different to those with no addiction problems - we simply need to find other ways getting that dopamine release and basically do those things as much as we can! Exercise is a great one! I've even found playing some addictive games on my phone a great distraction in the evenings and helps get rid of cravings ( I recognise playing games isn't the healthiest, however it is much better than drinking!). Also make sure you are nourishing your body with good food and lots of fruit and vegetables as well as taking care of your gut - try and eat fermented veg, drink Kombucha etc - a healthy gut has been found to really help with mental health!
After living a life with escapes being my existence, its soo hard to just be clean! But you know what, it is probably the BEST buzz you will ever have. I just fear straight, as do you. But being clean would be the ultimate because we are ALWAYS addicted to something. The key is controlling BOREDOM and your thoughts. Good luck my friend. I feel your pain.
I relapsed yesterday. Thanks for your honesty, now i know im not alone 😞
Got diagnosed with ptsd and learned my childhood was abusive. I had forgotten it. But mental health required me to stop drinking. It was hard. But memories surfaced. Then I went to therapy and realized my life had been objectively hard. Drinking was an escape. Now that I’m healing this trauma after acceptance of it; alcohol is just not it. I do not want it; or have issues craving it. I know why I did it. Now I can focus on that instead. Life changing.
Have watched Alcohol absolutely wreck one of my best friends lives . I already wasn't that big on drinking but seeing how he was to what he is now is just fucked and made me decide to basically not drink at all except maybe the odd 1 here and there , socially , but I'm already struggling with a 12 year Benzo and Opiate Addiction ( they were for legit purposes that ended up turning me into a junky u could say ) but it's not fun anymore , just being chained to these chemicals everyday is soul crushing and with Benzoes and Alcohol being somewhat related and 2 of the most dangerous addictions in terms of withdrawal , I feel where ur coming from with the struggle but I truly hope things keep getting better for u man , u can keep this up and idk u but u seem to have a decent amount of support which I hope helps too . Most importantly I wish u nothing but the best on ur journey to recovery and freeing urself from the shackles of addiction bro . One love and stay safe dude 👊
You got this....im a recovering addict and I have relapsed many times. The first step is admitting you slipped. I was a fentanyl and meth addict and anything I could get my hands on pretty much. I died many times due to overdoses and the last one really hit me hard. I lost my best friend to her addiction. I have faith in you and I think your head is actually in the right place. You have to want it . I think you really want it this time ❤ giving up on yourself is the only way to fail. You got up and made a change and thats big 😊 I'll be praying for you ❤
I quit at 37, nearly 2 years ago, and it was rough for me and also the best thing I ever did. It gets easier with each month and it felt like a goal I'd never achieve but here I am. I wish you all the best.
Good luck man!
27 here from Canada... I'm working on this myself as I do have much to lose..
I was also thinking of recording my journey
Yes my friend. Do a FAST.I have done about 5 day fasts in the past,and all I can say is that you could be in a different world after just 5 days.One where you wont have any desire to put a poison in your body. If you get hungry,slowly chew on some raw veggies. Fasting is a powerful tool to get you from A,to B.
Hey, I've detoxed and relapsed a few times over the past year. I am on day 5 now and feel that this time it feels different. I'm in the same situation as you, I could lose my family. Keep it up 👍
Hang in there man, I know addiction is hard but recovery is possible for everyone and you are worth it.
struggling with Benzos for years and years, been clean but always go back to them. this video is amazing good luck
I understand bro. I have three days sober. I’ve had time before. I just got off a five day bender. Pray and stay strong. Hate the liquid!!
Was thinking of relapsing tonight and come across this video havnt drank for ages ... I know i need to keep going...thankyou everyone is a victim of instant gratification people just wanna keep taking the easy way out and call it happiness
Strengh theough restraint
My partner has gone from drinking every day for a lot of his 54 years. He has now made it to six months alcohol free. It's life changing not only for him but for me and out relationship as I don't drink alcohol at all...hoping you get through, you can do it.
Addicted for 12 years and sober now 8.It wasnt the drink and never been a drinker but we all can relate in recovery.
You can get comfortabke ny friend and work through those feelings.Keep some positive comments to come back to, that way you have kind words to pull you through.❤ #WeDrRecover ❤
God bless for being so transparent good luck
Well done. 1st day is the most important. Hope your still sober. You can do it.
20 years sober for me now. I found ACOA very helpful too.
Alcohol, drugs, addiction are not cunning, baffling, and powerful in the least. YOU ARE. More people need to realize this.
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Thankyou x
You seem like a genuin , honest handsome man.I will follow your fight
Love from Norway❤
I had to stop drinking, its extremely difficult stopping any substance and each one comes with their horrors, just take it day by day, keep yourself occupied, cut out bad influences around you like places and people and keep hydrated, dont beat yourself up, nothing ever worth having came free and easy! Hang in there dude 🙏
Good luck butty. Keep it going 👍
ITS OK BUD, YOURE GONNA MAKE IT!!!! YOU GOT THIS BRO