Hi babe. As always, I support you. I think you’re amazingly talented, and one of few that can build, play, sing, and take on any instrument that you pick up. I love how you were born with music pulsing through your veins and how important it is to you. That you MUST be around and with someone who truly UNDERSTANDS that and feels that. Music is LIFE. The soundtrack behind EVERYTHING we do. When our own words fail, we find someone else who has created a way to express what we failed to say. You and I FEEL music. Breathe it. A chord, or a certain riff, a few measures often send chills through me. Or make my heart feel a great heaviness. Music is *Survival*. I don’t have a doubt I would not be here without it. It has been there when no one else was. I am grateful for you, dear, and your reassurance that you’re still *there*, even though we may not share words for a little piece of time. I’m there also and want you to know I’m not going anywhere, even if forced. You’ve seen that. (I do have to LOL a bit about that because I ground my foot in, and when I do, I dare anyone to try to move me, unless physical strength outweighs me. But good luck on that too, right? I’ve hefted you and your weight. 😉 My body is weak, and tries to fail me with curveballs often, but my mind is strong, and my heart bigger. Its armor chinked and scratched to hide the scars underneath. You’ve managed to find a weakness in said fortress, and I hope you, my buttress, continue to guard it, and allow me into your heart. I only ask for a portion of that in return. To guard me, keep me safe, don’t break me, and be the best person you can be, for you, not for anyone else. You don’t just have *potential*. You’ve already proven yourself worthy and capable. I hope we can continue to build our own fortress together, that no one else can tear down or separate. I know this is different and new for you, and I have the utmost patience. Remember the turtle 🐢. Anyhow, it’s not a race, it’s a support system, someone to share with. So please, by all means, lean on me, when you need, while also standing on your own two feet. I’m basically a bonus (lol). In the beginning you were the fast one, then me, then you, but I think we have figured out a good pace for the meantime, right? I love you. I am not afraid to say so or tell the ones I love that I do. Time seems to fly by at an even quicker pace as the years pass. So these minutes, hours, and days are so precious. I want you to know you have nothing to hide from me, and that I’ll accept you always, even those parts you think are too bad. In time you’ll find that I won’t repeat them little by little as you share lesser important things and find my lips sealed 🤐. My near crossing with death has made me feel *everything* more deeply, it’s not just at you. But I feel it is so important that I tell you and everyone (although in a lot less words for others) how loved you are and how blessed I am to have crossed your path. I know where I will be should I leave this place, no doubt (2x this year and several over the years) is left in me. God above has me in His ♾️ hands. ❤ 7/6/2023 LDM Note: I didn’t mean for this to be THIS long! 😂 That is a writer for you! I couldn’t leave things unsaid and once the ball started rolling…I felt a sense of urgency and a need to lay my cards out on the table once again. There’s no rush, hun. I just like to put it all out there, and see if things line up, then I back up and give you time to decide. Same with everyone in my life. I hope you come to the same conclusion. I do love you with what my heart has to bear. You never know, your heart may be larger than mine. But I take my words, and my feelings very seriously.
Hi babe. As always, I support you. I think you’re amazingly talented, and one of few that can build, play, sing, and take on any instrument that you pick up. I love how you were born with music pulsing through your veins and how important it is to you. That you MUST be around and with someone who truly UNDERSTANDS that and feels that. Music is LIFE. The soundtrack behind EVERYTHING we do. When our own words fail, we find someone else who has created a way to express what we failed to say. You and I FEEL music. Breathe it. A chord, or a certain riff, a few measures often send chills through me. Or make my heart feel a great heaviness. Music is *Survival*. I don’t have a doubt I would not be here without it. It has been there when no one else was. I am grateful for you, dear, and your reassurance that you’re still *there*, even though we may not share words for a little piece of time. I’m there also and want you to know I’m not going anywhere, even if forced. You’ve seen that. (I do have to LOL a bit about that because I ground my foot in, and when I do, I dare anyone to try to move me, unless physical strength outweighs me. But good luck on that too, right? I’ve hefted you and your weight. 😉 My body is weak, and tries to fail me with curveballs often, but my mind is strong, and my heart bigger. Its armor chinked and scratched to hide the scars underneath. You’ve managed to find a weakness in said fortress, and I hope you, my buttress, continue to guard it, and allow me into your heart. I only ask for a portion of that in return. To guard me, keep me safe, don’t break me, and be the best person you can be, for you, not for anyone else. You don’t just have *potential*. You’ve already proven yourself worthy and capable. I hope we can continue to build our own fortress together, that no one else can tear down or separate. I know this is different and new for you, and I have the utmost patience. Remember the turtle 🐢. Anyhow, it’s not a race, it’s a support system, someone to share with. So please, by all means, lean on me, when you need, while also standing on your own two feet. I’m basically a bonus (lol). In the beginning you were the fast one, then me, then you, but I think we have figured out a good pace for the meantime, right? I love you. I am not afraid to say so or tell the ones I love that I do. Time seems to fly by at an even quicker pace as the years pass. So these minutes, hours, and days are so precious. I want you to know you have nothing to hide from me, and that I’ll accept you always, even those parts you think are too bad. In time you’ll find that I won’t repeat them little by little as you share lesser important things and find my lips sealed 🤐. My near crossing with death has made me feel *everything* more deeply, it’s not just at you. But I feel it is so important that I tell you and everyone (although in a lot less words for others) how loved you are and how blessed I am to have crossed your path. I know where I will be should I leave this place, no doubt (2x this year and several over the years) is left in me. God above has me in His ♾️ hands. ❤ 7/6/2023 LDM
Note: I didn’t mean for this to be THIS long! 😂 That is a writer for you! I couldn’t leave things unsaid and once the ball started rolling…I felt a sense of urgency and a need to lay my cards out on the table once again. There’s no rush, hun. I just like to put it all out there, and see if things line up, then I back up and give you time to decide. Same with everyone in my life. I hope you come to the same conclusion. I do love you with what my heart has to bear. You never know, your heart may be larger than mine. But I take my words, and my feelings very seriously.