Ethanol - James Walker (Visualiser)

I wrote Ethanol for those long drives after midnight; windows down, music up, thoughts on, world off. I wanted reflect on our persistent need for excess; whether substances, attention, dopamine, love, or reassurance, we always need more.
Ethanol reflects my own recovery from addiction. Many paths that lead me there; an emotionally distant relationship with family, open-heart surgery at 14 (requiring intubation and a long stint in the ICU; it was touch-and-go for my survival), no outlet for my intense emotions and turned to dependence to fill the void. I am now clean and well.
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Never really sure if I could cut loose
Spending half my life looking for lost youth
Feeling like I’m hollow, am I see through?
Nothing fills the chasm, boy, like you do
Black or silver mirror, what’s the difference? We’ll pedestal ourselves until it kills us
Sacrifice integrity for algos
While conversation’s running to a standstill
Why do you only say what’s on your mind
When the ethanol takes over?
’til then you’re acting like another
Why does it only feel like you’re living a lie
Before the ethanol takes over?
You got me wishing I was stone cold sober
You’re moonlighting as something super special
But I don’t believe a word of which you tell them
I haven’t really laughed like that in months now
Every day’s an up-and-coming comedown
I can’t decipher anybody’s feelings
I’m never really sure if I’ll be leaving
One foot out the door, one off the damn room
Remember who I was as a new tattoo
Why do you only say what’s on your mind
When the ethanol takes over? ’til then you’re acting like another
Why does it only feel like you’re living a lie
Before the ethanol takes over? You got me wishing I was stone cold sober
Stone cold sober
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[@7SomeGuy7]

Thank you this song randomly popped up never heard it before. It is wonderfully made and the fact this has came to me when it did. I think its time for me to slow down and take a step back and reflect. Cause honestly I am seeing that i have been going harder than i even realized many blessings of love peace and happiness 💚💚💚

[@_Rose94]

Love the vibe of this song!

[@ilikejameswalker]

Thank you so much Rose, that's so kind of you. Thanks for the positivity ✨

[@thatmanfromtexas]

I love this song. Been replaying it on Spotify and UA-cam

[@ilikejameswalker]

Thank you so much, that's really meaningful to me. Appreciate you taking the time to listen and comment - appreciate you! Have a sweet day.

[@BiBoFan]

Beautiful song❤❤❤

[@ilikejameswalker]

Thank you so much ❤️‍🔥

[@BiBoFan]

@@ilikejameswalker You're welcome🥰