Losing one's mother is an explainable kind of pain you can't put into words.. Even for us who have their mothers alive we live with the fear of losing them of worrying abt them especially as you grow up you feel like even your parents start relying on you and you try to only show them the good side of you but it's not always something tht can be achieved with efforts .. I guess we always feel sorry to our parents and complicated feelings at times .. For me i wished my parents had a better child than me coz i believe they deserved someone better who could make up for wht they suffered but the only thing i could do for them is holding on and trying to hide away my sadnesess and darkeness .. I don't know if i made my mother proud but i hope i could not make her worry abt me and all i wish from god is to take my life before hers and my father .. I'm sorry mom and dad i'm really trying hard to live each day as decent as i can as long as you're both healthy and not sad or worried because of me i'm okay .. I hope i never become a burden to you as long as god can grant me that i'm okay with everything
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Losing one's mother is an explainable kind of pain you can't put into words..
Even for us who have their mothers alive we live with the fear of losing them of worrying abt them especially as you grow up you feel like even your parents start relying on you and you try to only show them the good side of you but it's not always something tht can be achieved with efforts ..
I guess we always feel sorry to our parents and complicated feelings at times ..
For me i wished my parents had a better child than me coz i believe they deserved someone better who could make up for wht they suffered but the only thing i could do for them is holding on and trying to hide away my sadnesess and darkeness ..
I don't know if i made my mother proud but i hope i could not make her worry abt me and all i wish from god is to take my life before hers and my father ..
I'm sorry mom and dad i'm really trying hard to live each day as decent as i can as long as you're both healthy and not sad or worried because of me i'm okay ..
I hope i never become a burden to you as long as god can grant me that i'm okay with everything