this. i listen to this and day6's marathon alot cause its honestly so hard hitting for some reason idk. i just feel like im being left behind and i really just dont know where im going in life, or what i want to achieve, well thats to say i f i even want to achieve anything. these days it just feels so slow, and i just use music to distract myself. ive never shown anyone how weak or fragile im feeling inside and i always find myself confiding in myself, when im taking showers or before i go to sleep ill just end up talking to myself-- which usually ends up with me crying to myself. im so stupid im sorry i pray everyone has a good weekend, sending everyone good vibes :(
Just for once, I want to disappear from this world. I don't want to die but I just want to rest. I just didn’t want to do anything and sit under a tree and look at the sky. Listen to the birds chirping and the wind passing by me. It feels cold but warm. - Whqhfls
Same. I have this save place in my head. A meadow as far as you can see. Spring weather, a breeze which is comforting. It holds the scent of the sea. There is a small round bay surrounded by the same meadow and it doesn't close completely. You can see the horizon between the cliffs. The grass moves softly with the wind and everything is quiet. There is not a single human being. Just me and a rabbit hopping in the distance. I can hear some grasshoppers chirping. I feel carefree and I'm just existing as the wind gently touches my skin and my hair dances.
"but sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again" that line just really hits hard. When you're in a happy mood, when you feel free from all the problems you are in, and then that sudden worry comes like "i shouldn't be so happy like this, it's scary." that kind of thought just really changes everything, you want to be happy but you're afraid the outcome of your happiness which just really don't make sense aaaaa idk anymore.
Omg I think like this, too! It scares me when I'm too happy so I deliberately make myself sad by reading or watching sad clips/movies so I wouldn't have to be sad about something in the future (because it's certainly out of our control). It's just I feel like it when I laugh or smile, there will be an equivalent cry, so I try to keep it balanced in a way.
Dear, you are precious. You are still something with things that you have, even if it's not like how others enjoy theirs. You may find what your hobbies and passion are in time, you don't have to push yourself. You are valuable and enough just as you are... 💛
First, sorry if my english is bad :( But I used to feel that way, I just didn't know what to do with my life and questioned myself if it was worth it to still be here... but I realized that I don't want to feel this way, that even if I have nothing to offer at this moment I will find my way. If I can't stand by myself right now, I'll try to be a better person for the people that inspire me, for me, I'll do it for my favorite groups like bts, gfriend, seventeen... what about you? Now, I'll try to be a better person for you, so I can help you and other people that feel the same way, because we all deserve love and happiness
years has passed, and I came to tell that I do not feel sad anymore while listening to this song, I feel much relieved and comfort. And yes, I remember those days, I hope a day will come to you too, rather than crying of sadness, you will be filled with joy of what you had to get through to be able to come this far. You are doing well.
_"At some point in my life, I used to wish that I could disappear from this world"_ -that line never fails to make me cry especially if you constantly think of it everyday.
Listen.... If you're breathing, and in the whole universe, God thought that you, a tiny creature is as important as Sun and Moon that you coexist with them, then you're definitely here for a reason .... Go out and find the reason why you're here
I literally just wrote a long ass paragraph about how I hope that the new people I met today will be able to make me feel loved and still at the end I wrote about I know that at the end I was going to be the one always left out, the one not really loved, the one that doesn't deserve to be loved, because, come one, who would want to show love to me? I'm garbage.
@@tincad.3007 I'm on a phrase where i'm meeting new people too, i've been really excited for a few months, hoping this would be my time to finally got a "friend", but it didn't turn out well, i hope everyone can feel loved, and fighting ✨
@@tincad.3007 Thanks, i don't even know who you are, but you said such reassuring words to a "stranger" like me, I'm still waiting for that day to come, and i'm still fighting for it too, thanks, and i hope you too will finally be loved! ❤️
@@infocrash4179 aren't we all stranger in this world? It's just that at some point we start to like certain strangers and call them friends and hopefully, they do the same to us. So, every stranger in this world as the possibilities to became our friend, there 7 billions of possibilities. Isn't more reassuring like this? Good luck pal
No matter how hard I try ... things will always be the same so there is no point for to to try anymore .... just keep survive everyday until god take me away and I hope god also not abandon me .... I just don’t want to believe in hope anymore because it’s making sick to believe something that never happened.
when your family always yelling at you everyday that you're always lazy without knowing that you are just losing a lot of strength and will to live to do anything makes me really wanna disappear
I hate this feeling as if nothing excites me anymore. I'm losing interest in everything. I tried so hard to keep the fire burning but it seems like I'm out of wood. Unmotivated. While everyone is keep on moving forward, it seems like I'm the only one left behind. To anyone reading this, from the bottom of my heart, I hope you're doing well.
To my past self, it was hard wasn't it? But you made it. To those going through hard times, keep holding on. There's a light at the end of the tunnel. Of course there will still be dark days ahead, but the reminder of how you already got through it once will help you push forward. There are many beautiful days ahead too, inspite of all the pain. And they're worth living for. Maybe you don't believe me, but I speak as someone who has overcome three s*icide attempts. The days seem so dark and hopeless, but there really is so much beauty waiting for you. I'm cheering you on ❤️
@@Ven517 thank you. I'm grateful for second chances at life and am glad I chose to push through after. I've been able to help others in the past from my experiences and I've never been ashamed of my past if it meant being able to help someone else have another chance at life
@@hennyanggraini8987 There are people whom you haven't met yet that will love you for who you are, in all your highs and lows. Things you are meant to experience that will be life changing. Beauty meant just for you, even if you can't see it now. I promise it's there, even if we have to wait a little longer. And those things are worth holding on for. The light shines brighter in the darkness. In the quiet darkness, where you feel more vulnerable and alone, you'll learn to see the light and beauty all around you. But most importantly YOU ARE WORTHY of those things, and therefore worthy of living. Live for yourself because you deserve all those good things waiting for you.
When there's no one to talk to, I come back here. Listening to this song and reading the comments while crying. At least, I'm not alone in this kind of feelings.
Same here, but even though if i had someone to talk to, i still couldn't, it's like everything i wanna say keeps getting stuck in my chest and my throat..there's no point in telling anyway.. i was gonna comment something ,but i saw your comment so I'll just reply here, thanks
@@LeNoir2411 yup, sometimes it's hard to tell somebody about what's inside. I'm afraid that if I tell them, they couldn't understand cause I don't really know how to describe my feelings in proper words, it just hurts. In the end, I hope crying alone can be healing tho :" . Sending you virtual hug, hope you'll get better :))
"i hated myself for not been able to receive love" i feel that. i hate myself for not being brave enough to show my weakness, tears and stuffs to my family and close friends. im scared they would tell me im dramatic and ignored me but im also felt guilty when people cared for me. i blocked everyone from knowing my true self due to my low self-esteem. its so f up.
I know how that feels. Hope you can open up soon ^^ Sometimes we get in an unhealty cycle if we care too much about what others are gonna think about us. Cheering for u
Is it just me that feels guilty when I tell someone how I feel? I have this serious regret when I tell someone my problems and feelings which is why I'm never getting better, I can't bring myself to say it because I know I'll regret sharing my feelings.... I just have to deal with it on my own I guess
It's the same with me I really want to share my problems with someone but I know that I'll always regret doing it .... So I'm never able to share my pain and problems with anyone
Me too. I don't have any friends either, I recently cut them out. But when I told them what I trully feel, I feel like it just making things worse because they don't understand and I have accepted that. Thankfully music like this really helps me to comfort myself.
This may seem cliche but go see a therapist or counselor. Here you don't have to be guilty because that is their work and they are paid to hear and guide you. Friends are good but only to an extent.
when i talk about my worries with someone, i feel like im bothering them... i have my family and friends i can talk to but still i cant stop feeling guilty or selfish when i do it
The most painful and worst is realizing the true that noone can really understand you and noone stay by ur side till the end. All you have is only yourself.
@@moodybash7334 and for fck's sake, there are human beings, who don't believe in god. So please, stop going around with your 'if you have god, you have everything' quote.
"I hated myself for not being able to receive love." This line hits differently. I've always wanted to be loved, but I'm also the reason why I don't get the love I need. I have supportive parents whom I know will accompany me in any situation, and I have friends whom I know will always be there for me, but I never speak up about my problems to anyone, not because I don't trust them, but because I am not courageous enough to tell them how I feel. I always smile and laugh in front of my family and friends, but when I am having a difficult time, I want to be alone and cry. I can't even share it with the people around me, even if I know that they care for me and are willing to support me. See? I am the problem. But every time I cry, God is always there to save me. He is always there to remind me that I am not alone, and He is listening to all of the cries of my heart. To everyone who is having a difficult time right now, whether it is a small or a big problem, please remind yourself that your feelings are always valid. Always remember that you are not alone, you have God. FAITHing!!!!!
Wow this just how things are for me as well , I end up feeling guilty for not being able to share my pain with the ones who care about me , I feel like I am being disrespectful towards the love they are given me but at the same time I can't tell them how I feel because I don't want to burden them . It's like I am stuck in viscious circle.
Yes, exactly what im feeling right now. I am the problem. Im never have this feelings even when im in school. I am always happy (i guess) after im starting university i got this feelings. I don't know what is this, i dont even know what mental health is. Always telling myself "why would you feel down and depress you got all you need" "i don't have the luxury to feel this way" now i know i betrayed my own feelings and body. Im scared to see doctor, im scared to tell my parents. One day my mom and dad arguing, they always arguing, but this time it's about money. Mom once said while im there watching tv "you know how much money we have to pay for" my name" University fees. Im about to breakdown. But i am champion on holding back. Now im feeling useless, i don't/couldn't do anything, i have become paralysed.
I feel like I wrote this. I am depressed and have been sad and in pain for so long. Yesterday I took all the courage to get up and called the therapist I went to once. I feel much better but there is still a long way to recovery. I hope everyone going through the pain and sadness, find their light and happiness.
Hey i don't know who needs to hear this. But you are more than enough. You are worth it. You have endured this pain for so long and yet u are still striving. I may not know you but i want you to know that i wish i did. It's okay. You will get over this. You have got you. I love you
I feel sorry for myself cause I can’t take care of myself well....this song hits hard when you doesn’t have anyone to lean on and people keep judging us without knowing our problems
I'm sorry for that.. me too I feel like I can't do something by myself my parents keep saying to me "why you're like that " but me I'm a Christian so when my bad times comes I know who gonna help me I'm not forcing you no I'm Just telling you and it's your choice okay but I will pray for you 🙏😀🙂
Hey! I'm from the future. So you're here again? You love this song and you connect with it. And lately life has been difficult right? So you're here because you feel this song understands you. I want to say that I went to the future with the help of a time machine and I peeked a lil in your life and you know what I saw? A happy and grateful you! The person was glowing with happiness and was so grateful to those dark times (this moment) which will make u who u will be very soon. Just hold on ok? Just a lil more! You can definitely take it and it gonna make u stronger. You are enough and I'm so proud of you! I love the way you search for meaning of life in art and music. You are precious and the bright days are coming very soon. You have to experience the darkness in order to know how light feels like. Hold on♡
Hey mom , im sorry for not being a good daughter. Im sorry if i am so lazy and not being able to get good grades at school. Im sorry if i've ever made you disappointed with me.. Sometimes im tired with myself , im feeling that i am a burden to you. I once thinking that if i wasnt here you will be living a good life. But when i study hard and got to tell you that i got full marks in exam. I saw you smiled. When i work by my own , i gave you half of my salary and you smiled. Mom , i know you've been through a lot of pain while watching me growing up. Mom , please dont make that smile fade away. Your smile gives me strength to stay alive , because i want to see your smile. Mom , thank you for not giving up with me . I love you so much ! Ps : i write this here because i am too embarrassed to tell you this ') i love you so much mommm . From your daughter Edit : omg , idk why i got so many likes ! Btw thank you so much for reading !! My english is not that good because it's not my first language. BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE LIKES !! 😭😭❤ Edits : GUYS !! THOSE REPLIES MAKES MY HEART EXPLODES. Why you guys are so cuteeeeeeeee. Please take care of yourself ! Eat and sleep !! Drink water 3L a day !!!! Keep hidrated. I love you so much . This is TOO MUCH POSITIVITY I CANT TAKE IT ANYMOREEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Heyy we are in the same situation. Just like you I always feel that I was just a burden in my family specially when they comparing me into other and when I disappointed them. But just like you when they realized that I did my best they will make and show me their brightest smile.....
This is one of Enhypen Sunoo's favorite song and the lyrics is so painful now I get it.It's like him, it's like describing himself and it's like this "The biggest smiles hide the deepest secrets and the people with the prettiest eyes hide the most tears and the people with the kindest heart hides the most pain". Haters can't leave him alone and I'm afraid that one he'll change because of them. Sunoo is so precious and I want to see his bright smile forever.
"i was afraid of everyone's eyes on me" I'm a person without any self-confidence, like, I was never proud of being myself. I always feel like I need to be another person instead of being my true self bcoz people around me always judge me for being myself. I tried practicing self-love alot but it never works on me :( my friends always said that I need to be loud instead of being quiet, people said I need to have confident so that others will look up to you. sometimes I hate being around people. they never see or even try to understand my struggles
You know what, you shine the most when you're yourself. It can be hard for other people to accept and understand that you're different to them but in reality, even if you change your personality it will never feel as good as it will feel if you focused on enhancing what you already are. I find that the people who I think are the prettiest are those who laugh without worrying about whether their smile is ugly or nice and who talk without worrying that they sound weird and who do their thing without worrying about the backlash from others. People will always criticise your personality and the way you are, even if you change. So why not just be criticised while being your amazing self. Sending you a virtual hug~
I’ve tried my best but nothing goes my way. My parents were disappointed with me. They started to point out my mistakes without knowing how hard i tried to meet their expectations. And now, i’m here again just to heal myself listening to this.
Hey, random stranger on the internet here, it’s been 2 months since you commented this but I just want to wish you all the best. Even though it sounds corny, things do get better. Your parents might not see all of the hard work you’re doing, but I guarantee there will be people who admire and appreciate you for what you’re doing. Even though it’s hard to try again, just hold on for a little longer and I promise you that you’ll be grateful that you did. Stay strong, I hope you’re doing okay :)
I've been crying for 2hours now, it's really hurts me, I've only seen them as two, two or none, I've been a Stan since 2018 and it's so hard to see one of them on stage.. I'll support bol4 forever and will be support her comeback in May but jiyoon will ALWAYS be in my heart no matter what
Malorie I think it’s best for her. She got barely any lines and screen time. Literally she would have about 2 lines or under. And they’re a duo as well, which makes it way worse.
@@ourcircle2576 i agree, as much as i wish that she don't leave, but she is more like a background singer and instrumental player to support jiyoung currently than a singer duo
I remember listening to this song three years ago when I was completely broken, with tears streaming down my face. I am out of the woods now but I just wanted to say thank you to this song and to the one who made the lyrics, this song was my refuge through it all. I don't know who needs to hear this but to anyone who is currently going through a hard time please know that time does heal and it does get better. Just hold on, just hold on for a little while. I promise its definitely worth it.
@@nadhs21 Just tried to surround myself with good ppl and good vibes. Tried to stay out of my own head a lot( which can be hard to do at times I admit but it can be done) and just took it one day at a time, one step after another, moment to moment until one day I realized that the pain was less and/or more bearable. So time does heal... !!
i felt sorry to my parents. i can't be honest to them. i can't tell them what makes me sad. i can't tell them how i feel. even for being honest with myself it felt so hard
if you're reading this, please take this as a sign. a sign to remind you that you're dearly loved, you're worthy, you're enough and you're deserving of happiness. you might be finding yourself in a very dark place right now, and although i can't promise that things will be better by tomorrow, or next week, or next year, i can promise you that things will eventually get better. life isn't about sunshine and rainbows but i'm proud that you've made it this far! let's keep moving forward to a better and brighter future because i believe in you, stay strong!
" i hated myself for not been able to receive love " , it hits deep Ps: thank you for the likes, i guess I'm not the only one relating to this, hang in there beautiful souls maybe we'll have our share of happiness soon, let's not give up we've come this far ❤
i'm really having hard time right now, struggling with my new business while taking care of my sick parents. sometimes, i feel like i'm not receiving love at all. people pushing me too hard like "you have to do this do that for your family." even i want to enjoy the last days of my 20's. i will never be young again but i have to be adult now. sometimes i just want to disappear but this song gave me support today. i just needed good cry, thank you❤
It's such a shitty thing to say but I love how we're all depressed here, it really helps knowing that there are people who know exactly how you're feeling right now. I'm literally so sad that I took me this long to find this song, it really puts all of my thoughts and feelings into something tangible and I'm so in love with it.
@@Rozumarix Hi! Thanks for asking, that's really considerate of you. Right now I'm okay, I've got a lot of things distracting me lately so I haven't been in too deep in my thoughts and feelings for a good few weeks now. As for tips, I wish I had a piece of really good advice I could give you. Recently I've been revisiting my childhood memories, watching old cartoons and animes, reading old books, partaking in kids crafts and stuff. I guess it was just nice to remember how I was happier and life was so simple back when I did those things the first time around. All in all, I like to distract myself. Listening to music is a big one for me and it doesn't hurt to indulge yourself in a few things that make you happy or feel something other than your hurts. I hope this helped at least somewhat, and I hope you'll be able to start healing in the near future.
I just found this song out during a night where I’m crying silently in my room. Somehow the song and the stories from the comment section made me cry but cheered me up too. I wish everyone to someday find their own happiness and find theirselves. I wish that everyone who’s under deep pain and sorrows right now will one day be better and successful.
it sucks to not have a dream. the pressure that i get whenever my parents, relatives, friends says that i'm good at something is sickening. i honestly don't know what i want. it sucks that whenever my idols or someone mentions something about 'dream' i get too sensitive cos i don't have one. it sucks that i don't wanna live anymore. it sucks that i suck. i'm getting tired of running after nothing.
What's so bad about not having a dream... It's ok to not have dreams, it's ok to discover things as we move on with our lives.. Just don't run for something just because everyone is running.. I hope that someday you'll find out what you're made to do... Just keep discovering.. To the unknown person... I'm rooting for you. 😊
I remember this used to be my comfort song. Every night, I would cry listening to this song and remembering all the pain I had to go through. Still, I would try to cheer myself saying the better days would come and hang in there. I feel so grateful now to say I don’t have that feeling anymore. Everything did get better. To anyone reading this, I’ll just say not to lose hope. You’re doing great. The happy days are waiting for you. I hope you too can be proud of yourself for how far you came and how you never gave up and finally succeeded.
Your skin is not a paper, don't cut it. Your neck is not a dress, don't hang it. Your life is not a story, don't end it. Your smile is beautiful, don't hide it.
I also used to cry every night. There was a time i thought leaving this world was really the only option. I remember very vividly, one night i looked towards my future and asked myself if my pain will ever go away? I didn't believe i would be okay at all. After years, i turned back to that night countless and countless times and said to myself it all passed. I'm okay. I'm better. I really healed. And i did it by myself. No one saved me. No one knew it. I was strong enough to overcome everything and now i feel proud of myself. If you're depressed i know these words won't help you that much i know. But i believe you will overcome everything as well and i'm proud of you too. When the time comes you will also see how strong you were and you will be proud too. Just keep going. Just don't give up.
Same, there was one point in my life I thought: "Is it that easy to end this pain?" But.. My little heart mustered up all my hope and I thought: "Maybe after all this pain, I could be like me again!" There was so many times that my heart saved me from death.
hey future anna! you’re a little bit happier now right? even if it’s just by 0.000001%, if you’ve managed to gain just a little happier than you are right now, you did amazing and i’m proud of you, and i hope you’re proud of yourself as well. remember that the rainbow only comes after the storm. the sky will clear, just wait a little longer. the next time you come here, you may be sad, or you may be happy. whatever it is that made you come back, just know that i will always welcome you with open arms because you deserve someone’s love, and the only love that you need is your own. i’m right here.
For anyone who doesn’t know the true meaning behind this song, here it is: You finally grow up, you grow up with lots of people looking at you. They see all your mistakes. You feel as if those people are disappointed at your mistakes. They don’t know the true you so you hide. All your childhood happy memories, gone. You were happy but now your in pain. You don’t want to feel happy because you don’t want to feel pain ever again. You ask much longer the pain will last. You feel as if you wanna go but you can’t because you know you can do something amazing but everything is holding you back....
this song hits different when you can feel the same way like the lyrics. Everything just doesn’t seem right anymore and you just felt tired. Honestly, I am crying because this song just relates to what I’m feeling nowadays.
I'm a loner since I was a kid. I've been bullied because of my appearance, I even lost count of names they call me, I don't know what's the most popular. I grew up without an inch of confidence. I always doubt myself, I was the quiet and lonely kid. Even with my friends, I'm always the odd one out. I'm more comfortable when I'm alone because I'm free of their judgemental eyes. I'm going 20 next year, I only have 1 friend that I consider my closest friend. But I can't even share my deepest heartaches with her. I'm afraid she'll judge me, I know she's not that kind of person, but my anxiety says otherwise. I've been bottling this feeling for so long, this song helped me, even saved me. The feelings I can't describe, the tears I can't shed, finally come out and it is really good. This song understands me more than anyone. Thank you BOL4! You saved me, I will forever be grateful to this song.
Same with me but I have my Best friends but I always act strong in front of them cause one of my best friends have low self confidence. So I need to show to her that I also strong and she can also being a strong person. But sometimes I feel tired to be strong...
Psychology said that we have to tell our problems to someone we trust to avoid depression but everytime i told them, i wish i could turn back time and not telling them.....b'cause i'm a idiot that time to trust someone that much Edit: never got this much like🤧tq
i’m *was* a smart student in school, but now my results are becoming worse, and my parents usually pester me to be better and do my best. but when i did my best, they would nag me and say that i didn’t work hard enough and i really have enough of reaching their expectations, i play games and listen to inspirational podcasts to feel better but i don’t think it’ll work that way,, edit: recently, i’ve been (fake) smiling a lot but the pain in me is immeasurable, nobody questions me, but now i wonder, when will people spare their time and check on me, do they not care or do they deliberately not care? is it because i’m smiling or, because i’m invisible to them? is my façade that good? but aye at least i have people to relate too, thanks for the comments ya know, it helps and yes i’m finally read em and will reply :’)
Maedelynn Castelliana hi friend i totally feel you!! Just do your best and that’s enough. Yes, you may not be able to meet their expectations, but most importantly your own expectations. If you think that you’ve tried your very best, then be proud of yourself no matter how the results turns out to be. Don’t be so hard on yourself, and you’re not alone ❤️
You don’t have to become ‘The expectation’ because the only thing important is you being you. I’ve also experienced these things with my parents but don’t worry, myself and millions of people are with you 😊
I'm smart too, I just don't keep up with my work a lot, my Mom is getting on me and telling she'll take away things like my phone and stuff if I don't complete it, and the pressure just keeps on coming.. I really don't wanna disappoint my Mom and my Big brothers, so I try my best, but still manage to not fill what's needed to be done sigh... Don't give up, if you need someone to talk to, I wouldn't mind to have a chat. Also maybe try some stuff to relieve the stress, for me I sing and do all kinds of activities to keep my mind off school and not stress about it. I hope this helped you or made feel better even if it was a little bit. Sorry for the long comment 😅😅 I'll go now bye! 👋
hey, same here. i was considered a smart student when i was in elementary and middle school, rn im in high school and im just too tired of everything, my grades are worsening, idgaf anymore bout my mental health. i keep distancing myself from my friends and family. i just wish i could disappear from this hell. nothing matters anymore. im thinking of killing myself on 7th May this year. im gonna make it a fuckin hella good birthday for my life.
this song truly encompasses the hardships of youth.. i feel like it is explaining my story right now. how is it possible to be in so much pain but to still hold on to the hope that it might be okay one day? it hurts, it’s lonely. there’s a part of me that wants to give up and end my life, but there’s another part of me that wonders if i can make it in this world. i’ll just see what happens for now..
the most painful thing ive ever tried is to just be myself in front of everyone . and its still soo painful to just be myself without crying without fearing without hurting . its difficult to not cover myself up into what others want . to push myself aside for what i think is best. its still soo difficult . I still hurt and i dont know how long it will last. But i have learn to live with it. To the point where this pain just reminds me that im alive..
I know it sometimes gets hard,but , pls remember that there are people who care and love you for who you are , so pls stay strong and happy and in the end you will be happy 😊💝
Every night I’m scared for the future... I’m not the smartest in school which makes my parents disappointed In me and my only passion is art... the only thing is, my parents are against it. I cry myself to sleep bc of this bc when they find my art, they throw it away. This song really describes me 😭 Edit: I read all of your comments and I appreciate every single one. Thank you so so much... I hope we all overcome our struggles and experience the second part of the song 😢 Edit2: 20 jan/ I’m overwhelmed by the many beautiful comments so I think I should do an update? I’m still going with my passion and even though they still wouldn’t accept it, I don’t care anymore. One day I want to make a webtoon and that’s all on my mind recently. I’ve learnt that I need to start hiding every time I draw so they don’t find out and so far, that’s been paying off.
Either try to talk to them peacefully about how you will not tolerate them: (1) controling your entire life, wishes and future; (2) abusing you psychologically by making you give up on something that means so much to you, or stand up for yourself. Tolerating abuse at such young age is wrong and can be bad for health. So hide these drawings, take pictures and post them, confide them to a friend, doodle on your phone, or even threaten to stop studying at all. Maybe it would be best to reach out for a teacher that may approach your parents in an eloquent manner. Perhaps, simply tell them about your future plans and how badly you want to pursue it. Whatever desicion you proceed to take, keep in mind that it's your life, remember to not let someone else decide how you live it; because it's an essential part of your freedom, partially, regardless of age. My best wishes going for you. Cry now, but if you can, smile as bright as you can in the future 💕
" How much pain must it have been" Can't stop crying with this line. If people around me know what I was going through, could they help me? Idk how could I possibly last long with this.
people cannot help you but you can help yourself the first step is accepting you need help and you are already there love. extend more and seek help from professionals
"but sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again" well that hit me, I've always felt like I didn't belong in our friend group but when I finally chatted with them after I ignored them for months I felt pure happiness but I'm scared I'll be in pain once I'm comfortable with them again.......
i feel the same with my circle of friends.i don't feel like i'm actually their friend and that i belong in their group.i don't know why seeing them and hanging out with them triggers my anxiety.i get anxious around them and i can't understand why.
That's so me rn. It's been 4 months since i haven't replied their messages because i'm too scared for no reason. They always text me if i'm okay and whenever i have the courage to talk i feel down again. Inside i beg them to leave me because i don't deserve these good people. When i think about the past, i was with them w their ups and downs but now i don't want them to be with me in my darkest days.
Exactly, but idk why sometimes there r people who also struggling but they use that reason to hurt other people for example they treat people the way they have treated by other people, I mean they know how it feels but they think it's okay like making things more fair, actually I kinda sick of that 😕
I remember listening to this song at the lowest point of my life. It felt like the pain was never-ending, but now I’m genuinely happy, and everything’s going well. I’m able to receive and give love wholeheartedly again. If i can do it, then you can too. Keep going! You can do it! You got this ❤
Whenever I feel like suicidal thoughts are pushing me to my limits I always come her just to read the comments about recovery,it gives me hope. This song is like a free therapist for whenever I feel like giving up. I am glad I haven't given up even though it is becoming harder, if I survived till now, I will also in the future.
I hope you are doing well now, even though you feel like tired of everything don't give up you should never give up that way you can go on in life. Sending hugs ❤️
I feel like am such a burden in this world...sometimes its just hard to take it all...people don't understand...and I don't think they will...this song expresses how I feel...
No one will ever understand. So don't feel like you're a burden. You're not one. Everyday you wake up, it means you still have a reason to live, that's why you're not dying. So you're not a burden. 💞
I hope one day when I am able to find myself, I’ll look back to this song feeling happy and proud I made it. This song will no longer represent my past but a song that I feel comfort and relieved ❤
okay, i’ve been reading the comments and i wanna say something to the people who need to hear it.. you’re worth it! don’t give up, there’s always hope. everything happens for a reason. you will get through it soon! i love you, have a good day or night!!
For all those who feel related to this song, I just want to remind you that you're enough. You're important. You're precious. You're worthy. Don't be too harsh on yourself, as the song says "time is the medicine." It really is. It doesn't matter what everyone else says or thinks about you, simply because they aren't you, focus on your own happiness, chase your dreams, I know you have some! Remember that every step you'll give, will lead you to them!, It's okay to do it with your own path and rythm. I know it's hard to do it, you just need to set free all your sadness, it's okay to feel sad, it's okay to feel what you're feeling right now, as someone who used to be the same I can understand you and even though some days still get dark all of the sudden, I haven't lost hope either I haven't give up. That's why I wish you to decide to remain with me. With us. I believe in you. You're brave. You can do it.
There are two yous who will return to this song First the one who is hurting and wants to disappear Second who is healing and looking back at how far you have come from the first time you heard this song
This thought is really the only thing that keeps me going right now - the thought that hopefully in a few months or years, I will go back to this song thinking about how far I've come. This song makes me cry so much but it also gives me hope for a better future
My parents love me,.But idk why i feel like i don't deserve their love. I'm Always ruining things, wrecking their high hopes. But i've never told them how lonely i feel inside. So called friends who always take advantage of me,hurt me like hell. Once i was a smart kid, but now my grades are terrible. How am I suppose to live like this? I really don't wanna live anymore.
this is exactly what I'm feeling now. I feel like a useless daughter for my parents and I don't have any friend that I trust so I don't tell much things to my friend even the closest one since they're the one who hurted me the most and my grades kinda slowly dropping too. so I'm trying to set in my mind that I won't trust anyone and I won't get my hope high for anyone as well since I've learnt that most people will put themselves first. I'm also focusing on making myself a better person for my parents and for myself too. it's hard bcs I'm still lost and I don't know what to do but I know that I dont want to mind any people anymore except my parents. I'm still finding my own way tho
hey stranger : you're here again, lately You may have been feeling bit tired, and I do so, it's okay to cry sometimes but You need to realize that you deserve better life, sometimes I don't have even time to cry, I'm feeling like I just want to dissappear, we may don't have many problems but we always feel sad it's okeey too we are human beings too and we're feeling, even if we have never met or i didn't even know who You are I'm here to tell You that You are beautiful You're kind You're enough and I'm proud of You, You can do it, I believe in you 💜
I reminisce the time where i cried every night draining myself to sleep. Growing up being not emotionally connected to my parents, where my feelings is heard but not validated coz im too young to feel that way and compare their tragic past and sufferings when they were young just like me. Thank you for this. May we all feel loved and embraced.
I feel like my feelings aren't valid anymore, my parents keep telling me not to get upset or cry over little things cuz I'm already 20, a young adult, but I'm just too sensitive, it's true that a lot of people suffer more than me, it's true that I'm quite lucky, I have a family, I go to a good university, I have friends, I have everything I need, I know that I'm loved....but why am I hurting so much? Simple but hurtful words always hurt me and it always dig deeper through my heart, I know I'm so weak that these things always gets me through my head. I always cry over useless things, and I've always hated myself for this. I wanna change too, but I dont know how.
It doesn't matter how old you are,it happens to everyone and it's okay.You might not see any motivations right now,or any reasons to be here,but there's still so much more to life.You'll get through it,it's okay.If you notice that things aren't the same and that it's only getting worse try to find some professional help,yknow someone who will understand you and help you...I hope you're going to be fine.If you ever wanna talk,im hereee,sending hugsss😌💖
Tbh kpop brought me out of my sadness..(i don't know if it was depression exactly or not so..sadness). I can relate to this song so much...those days I used to feel like no one..not even my close friends cared if i exist or not...but kpop showed me the brighter side of life...made me laugh in the darkest of my days when i couldn't help but be sad...slowly i started realizing that maybe people do care..or maybe I found people who do..so everyone out there feeling any type of depression or sadness...stay strong..your existence matters...you will find your people ..your magic..just be strong, work hard and be your best version.❤ I am cheering up for you!! ;) Love, Someone to whom your existence matters :) Edit: You might feel the emptiness at times but that's what life is about...you will feel so full of happiness on some days and on others empty as hell but please hold on there to not miss on the better days or the best of the days that are yet to come... like i do :) and please seek professional help if you need it.
i hope you also went out to receive professional help if you were more depressed rather than sad. music is helpful, it's a coping mechanism, but if you're getting depressed, then it's best to not rely on music alone and seek help. :)))
@@noonyno7257 actually fortunately i came out of that part of my life very early so i didn't seek any professional help because at that time i just thought that maybe its just because of studies related stress etc.but maybe it was more... and right now i am very happy in my life surrounded by positive people....but yes if i ever happen to find myself there again i will surely do and thanks for the concern.😊❤
@@noonyno7257 yas it's true. Got diagnosed with major depression last yr. But no one can cure u but urself. So sometimes listening and knowing that others have the same pain with u makes u feel somewhat comforted.
3:18 The moment when she validates your pain by saying " how painful must it have been " .....Thats all we want to hear from the people around us.We dont want you to necessarily solve our problems but atleast dont invalidate our pain by saying there are people worse off than us and make us feel worse.
When I first listened to this song, I was at a rough patch, a hard moment in my life. But listening to this again after a year made me realize the healing I’ve done and the change that came with it. The younger me did not expect to even be alive at this moment in time, but if I got out of that phase, then I believe you can too. Take a deep breath and think of your future self healing during the right time and try listening to this song again. It won’t be the same feeling, for everything can change. You got this and I love u ❤
The fact that this song talks about our pain but still gives us an inspiration to keep going.. i love this. My friend said if I want to know her pain then I should listen to this song.. and now idk how to make her feel better anyways I'll stay haru. I'll listen and stay.
This song is all about emotional abuse we taken when we are kids that really affect our present living. The bridge of our anxiety, depression, fear we our fighting right now and after listening to this song I questioned myself, why would I suffer that's not my fault? "IT'S NOT OUR FAULT."
Cried a lot when I first heard this song years ago. I was fighting on my own and got over obstacles that seemed like the end of the world for me at the time. I’m back here once again as life always puts us through something. I believe I can get over it this time as well and see the light at the end of the tunnel
When the first time I listened to this song, I cried so much. After 4 years, I'm here to listen this song again, I feel so much relieved and comfort. I remember that I cried those days so much and my heart was heavy. I went through so much pain to live in this happy. life has ups and downs. Believe in time, Time will heal you. You are perfect the way you are 🌟
1:39-1:46 these lines hit me hard. I'm fighting with myself everyday. Family problems,stress from studies,fake friends, getting hate in school there's nothing that I'll be happy for. Even If I get the chance to be happy,I knew something bad will happen. I don't want to die but neither I want to live. I want to take rest from everything. I want to go to a trip alone,to a hill,in the middle of wildflowers,under a tree where a cold yet warm breeze will be flowing. Is it too much to ask? To everyone who's fighting all alone, don't worry. You all will be a bright shining light in the future. Present must hurt now but believe me future will be more beautiful. Stay strong loves
I wonder hows the people commented 6 or 10 months been doing , i hope they fought well. There so much in life guys keep moving baby steps still counts ;) take care y'all
Sunoo if you're here,I just wanted to say that you are an angel,you shines the brightest in this cruel world. You may not know me personally but If you feel that no one cares to you,remember me please.I will support you till I can. And to anyone who are reading this,always remember that you are loved and enough. You are brave and strong. MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA,SUNOO.
I just can't continue on with whatever is happening in my life. I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and it's even hard to fake a smile nowadays. This song is just like a warm hug which i can never receive in real life.
to my future self: Today was a very difficult day,,,been crying for 3-4 hrs,,, thought I'm relapsing again,,, meds aren't helping anymore,,,fought with my mom and got so mad at myself bc of that,,,so when I was taking a walk this song poped up in my recommends. I don't listen to bol4 and didn't even look at the lyrics at first but this song just clicked with me so well. And I read the lyrics and they're so relatable,,,"but sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again",,, ain't this the worst feeling ever. I smile and then immediately think "What price will I have to pay later for this moment of happiness". And this thought just drains out all your energy to fight for this moment of happiness and then ...the most terrifying thing is when you lose your last hope...hope that everything gets better and everything is temporary...hope that holds you hanging there...when it vanishes anything becomes nothing... meaningless. But this song wouldn't be written if the author didn't make it ...and they did make it...So will you. JUST HANG IN THERE. "That too shall pass" EDIT: hey you, it has been more than three years. I'm glad you hung in there! Thank you for that ♥️ your future self is finally happy. You love and you're loved sincerely. You got a purpose in your life, and you're doing pretty well. Thank you for never giving up. I love you. I really do. Thank you so much ! Oh and you got "This too shall pass" tattooed on your collarbone! 😂
Oh damn 9 months ago looking back at it. Hey my past self, everything is still shit but it’s your type of shit. still hanging still there. Can’t say everything will be okay because it will never be but You’ll find strength to fight it. If not today then tomorrow, if not tomorrow then the day after, if not the day after then next week month year decade ...just be patient. I’m sorry and I believe in you
I feel like social media has given a lot of people the idea that everyone is happy and that happiness is the ultimate fulfillment, but that's not really realistic except in a fairy world... Happiness, sadness, anger, frustration are all valid emotions and they exist for a reason. They are what makes us HUMAN and real. You can't know true happiness unless you've gone through sorrow and felt all these deep emotions. Happiness doesn't come from big things, yes, you can feel temporary fulfillment and pleasure from money and materialistic things but at the end of the day, those things are not going to last forever. I don't know who needs to hear this but please know that what you're feeling is valid and I can try to understand your pain, but we all hurt differently I just want you to know that it's okay to feel like no one understands you and that you are lingering in this deep hole of emptiness, but I promise you just the fact that you've been chosen to exist in this world makes you worthy of being alive. Cry and scream all you want if that helps you, but please don't hurt yourself... You know yourself the best and that's all that matters. I hope you find something that you can hold onto (even if that's yourself ).
The fact that this is one of Sunoo's favourite song hurts me. Sunoo is always so smily and bright even his members say his brightness and positivity gives them energy but from the inside I know Sunoo is going through alot its sad because he is only 17. The fact that when we learned he had health problems in I-Land even j-hope was suprised because he said you don't notice it with Sunoo's bright energy. The way Sunoo is getting so much and fat shaming right now is so sad I want to hug him and tell our happy pill Sunoo that everything will be alright I hope everything will be better in the future. This song is so emional for some reason but I love it the lyrics really makes you feel something....
Everyone who found this comment, i just want to say that you are doing enough okay?? Even though you feel like it's a failure, that's okay you try your hardest! Also to remember that everyone have their own path and struggle, so cheer up!! See how beautiful the sky is even on a rainy day, look how the rain pouring at the same time, cool isn't it?? Hope y'all have a great day for yesterday, today, and tomorrow :DDDD
i hope i'll get better, i am in so much pain and i have been fighting against myself not to give up and end my life. i have been crying silently every night, afraid that someone in the family might hear, I do not want them to worry. this song describes every pain and undescribable feelings. i am diagnosed with anxiety and sleeping disorder, and this is killing me slowly.. i was then a very happy, optimistic and jolly person, i feel like i am little by little losing my self. to anyone going through something like me, pls do your best not to give up, i understand your pain and your struggles, let's win together
To my parent: Mom why is it that when I’m crying, u force me to tell you what’s wrong and then ask me “do you think it’s fair that I’m worrying about you and you won’t tell me what’s bothering you?” Mom it’s not about you. If I’m not ready to tell you then I’m just not. If I never wanna tell you then so be it.n Dad... Just stop forcing me to try and find myself. It’ll come when it comes. You’re just adding onto my stress, I know I’m lazy stop reminding me I’m working on it, stop comparing me to my cousin she’s 4 years younger and I know she’s better already. Jeez To Kpop: you helped me find my love for dance. Thank you. Dance is the only thing that helps me nowadays. To my friends: where are you?
I’m sorry, so so sorry that you have to go through that. Please, take care of yourself and keep breathing. Just know that I’ll cry for you and I’ll smiled when you’re happy. I know it doesn’t matter what I think. But knowing someone will remember you is enough for me. So I hope this is enough for you to keep looking forward in life too.
Dear You there was a time the only reason that made me wanna live was to see another comeback of my favorite group (exo) , everything will be okay, you will find yourself soon just dont rush it , your mom and dad Is like any ordinary parents , my parents are the same , they just do that cause they love you my dear , i hope you will find happiness in this yearrr and if you ever get depressed just know that you are not alone in this fight with life ❤️
don't worry! i don't know if this will help but, my sisters and my whole family also compares me to my perfect beautiful younger cousin whos 2 years younger than me. it hurts a lot to just belive she's better than me...but if we keep on beliving useless ( i'm not saying my cousin is useless) things like this in our life, it'll only get harder for us. so i'm not here to scold you or to give you a lecture, and you probably don't want to get advice from someone that's 11 years old but, stay strong!
Ah I remember I found this song when I was in a very deep point of my life. This song just expressed all my feelings. That ‘i dont wanna die, just dont wanna live like this’ kind of thought. I cried almost every night, or when I was alone, sometimes even is the supermarket and didn’t know where could i hide from people. When something happy happened with me I felt such guilt that I started crying again. This song also made me cry but gave some peace in a way i cant even defeniate. I can remember in those days there was a vioce in my head that said such things i worth nothing, im disgusting etc. Nowadays I can truly say I’m fine. And listening this song with a mindset like this, I feel so so graceful. Like now I knew it was a part of my storie and those hard times also formed me. Still like this song. :)
I hope you’re doing better..i was in a similar situation and im doing good nowadays..i just get worried sometimes if this happiness will last. Nevertheless time doesnt heal but it makes everything better and tolerable
Whenever I am at my lowest, I come back here. While reading the comments and listening to this song, I started crying. I tell myself that at least other people experience this as well, so that's something. That has helped me feel better. I might be in pain right now and want to disappear, but I want to envision myself returning here and seeing my healed and happy self. Then, I'll reflect on how far I've come since the first time I heard this song.
To anyone who feels this song represent your life, let's hug... We can be happy.. let's fight for our happiness.
💜💜💜
you’re right. we can choose what we do with our sadness. we will make it through.
💪 let's fight
💕
The song haven't started but i already liked this comment because i can feel that i relate to it so much
this song hits differently when you're in that point of your life where nothing makes sense anymore and only music keeps you alive
so true.. im so glad i know this song
So true im suffering with suicidal thoughts and im still stuck whether i keep going or kill myself any moment
@@missbunny9568 please stay
@@iloveten9864 thank you❤
this. i listen to this and day6's marathon alot cause its honestly so hard hitting for some reason idk. i just feel like im being left behind and i really just dont know where im going in life, or what i want to achieve, well thats to say i f i even want to achieve anything. these days it just feels so slow, and i just use music to distract myself. ive never shown anyone how weak or fragile im feeling inside and i always find myself confiding in myself, when im taking showers or before i go to sleep ill just end up talking to myself-- which usually ends up with me crying to myself. im so stupid im sorry i pray everyone has a good weekend, sending everyone good vibes :(
Just for once, I want to disappear from this world. I don't want to die but I just want to rest. I just didn’t want to do anything and sit under a tree and look at the sky. Listen to the birds chirping and the wind passing by me. It feels cold but warm. - Whqhfls
Hi there
Same
Same. I have this save place in my head. A meadow as far as you can see. Spring weather, a breeze which is comforting. It holds the scent of the sea. There is a small round bay surrounded by the same meadow and it doesn't close completely. You can see the horizon between the cliffs. The grass moves softly with the wind and everything is quiet. There is not a single human being. Just me and a rabbit hopping in the distance. I can hear some grasshoppers chirping. I feel carefree and I'm just existing as the wind gently touches my skin and my hair dances.
Sorry for my English
@@marzipan24 Are you a writer? This is so beautiful!!!
"but sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again"
that line just really hits hard. When you're in a happy mood, when you feel free from all the problems you are in, and then that sudden worry comes like "i shouldn't be so happy like this, it's scary." that kind of thought just really changes everything, you want to be happy but you're afraid the outcome of your happiness which just really don't make sense aaaaa idk anymore.
Aishhh i always think like this..........pls-
I’m also like this, like the 3rd law of newton it became my motto in life.
Same me too,🥺
Omg I think like this, too! It scares me when I'm too happy so I deliberately make myself sad by reading or watching sad clips/movies so I wouldn't have to be sad about something in the future (because it's certainly out of our control). It's just I feel like it when I laugh or smile, there will be an equivalent cry, so I try to keep it balanced in a way.
I'm also quite like this too.😄
I feel like everyone around me is moving forward and I'm stuck. I have no passions or hobbies and I feel like I'm never going to be anything
Dear, you are precious. You are still something with things that you have, even if it's not like how others enjoy theirs. You may find what your hobbies and passion are in time, you don't have to push yourself. You are valuable and enough just as you are... 💛
Me too...😭😭 Confused about my self.. everyday.. stuck and.. crying so bad.
youre not alone :(
Same I dont even know what college course to do as I have no ambitions
First, sorry if my english is bad :(
But I used to feel that way, I just didn't know what to do with my life and questioned myself if it was worth it to still be here... but I realized that I don't want to feel this way, that even if I have nothing to offer at this moment I will find my way. If I can't stand by myself right now, I'll try to be a better person for the people that inspire me, for me, I'll do it for my favorite groups like bts, gfriend, seventeen... what about you?
Now, I'll try to be a better person for you, so I can help you and other people that feel the same way, because we all deserve love and happiness
“but sometimes when I’m too happy, I’m afraid I’ll be in pain again”
oof this hit a little bit too close to home didn’t it
It did for sure :"^
Yea
my mentality in a song 🥴
😢
This..this one really hit the hardest... >.
if someone asked me to pick a song that will describe how i feel, it would definitely be this song.
Me too.this song describes every second of my pain
Me too
I hope you will have a better days then now✨.
me too...
Same
years has passed, and I came to tell that I do not feel sad anymore while listening to this song, I feel much relieved and comfort. And yes, I remember those days, I hope a day will come to you too, rather than crying of sadness, you will be filled with joy of what you had to get through to be able to come this far. You are doing well.
so glad to hear that you're doing great. 🫶🫶 You're so strong
Really hoping this is going to happen
I'm with you.. I first heard this year 2020... and now, I'm constantly healing. This songs now feels nostalgic.
I am glad to came a cross your comment and I would like to say thank you for your kind words, I needed it.
Sanaol
When living was too tiring, but dying was too scary.
:((
I feel u
Im so lost
Exactly......
But death is sometimes better than hearing the words of prey and beating 💔
*”we’re still young but we stressin’ like we’re in our 40’s”*
True😢
so sad
when these days are supposed to be our best
ikr people when they are our age they would be having fun during their teen/child hood but well ...
I think I will be happy when I grew up
Yah I am 13 but suffering from age 12 till now
From my friends, best friend, family
_"At some point in my life, I used to wish that I could disappear from this world"_
-that line never fails to make me cry especially if you constantly think of it everyday.
it's okayyyyyy luv!!! i,m here..k? :)))
Yes 🙃
That line is soo... Strong. It hits me real hard, because I think that too.
Last verse got me "because if I keep trying to stand up like this, I might be able to find myself"
Listen.... If you're breathing, and in the whole universe, God thought that you, a tiny creature is as important as Sun and Moon that you coexist with them, then you're definitely here for a reason .... Go out and find the reason why you're here
"I hated myself for not being able to receive love" this line is soo me.
I literally just wrote a long ass paragraph about how I hope that the new people I met today will be able to make me feel loved and still at the end I wrote about I know that at the end I was going to be the one always left out, the one not really loved, the one that doesn't deserve to be loved, because, come one, who would want to show love to me? I'm garbage.
@@tincad.3007 I'm on a phrase where i'm meeting new people too, i've been really excited for a few months, hoping this would be my time to finally got a "friend", but it didn't turn out well, i hope everyone can feel loved, and fighting ✨
@@infocrash4179 I'm sorry it didn't turn out well, but keep your head up, we'll feel loved one day❤️
@@tincad.3007 Thanks, i don't even know who you are, but you said such reassuring words to a "stranger" like me, I'm still waiting for that day to come, and i'm still fighting for it too, thanks, and i hope you too will finally be loved! ❤️
@@infocrash4179 aren't we all stranger in this world? It's just that at some point we start to like certain strangers and call them friends and hopefully, they do the same to us. So, every stranger in this world as the possibilities to became our friend, there 7 billions of possibilities. Isn't more reassuring like this? Good luck pal
this comment section proves that i’m not alone, at least.
p/s: someday we will find our places in this world and we will believe that we are loved.
Yes, you are not alone...
Of course you are not because this is same with me
I'm glad that I'm not alone
No matter how hard I try ... things will always be the same so there is no point for to to try anymore .... just keep survive everyday until god take me away and I hope god also not abandon me .... I just don’t want to believe in hope anymore because it’s making sick to believe something that never happened.
We will all find our place in this world. Just keep going I believe in you!! 💖
when your family always yelling at you everyday that you're always lazy without knowing that you are just losing a lot of strength and will to live to do anything makes me really wanna disappear
*BIG HUGSSS* 💖💖💖
Same but we don't need to give up
sending BIG VIRTUAL HUG💕💕
Please dont give up
Aparna?
facing the same problems 🤧 😫 🤧
I hate this feeling as if nothing excites me anymore. I'm losing interest in everything. I tried so hard to keep the fire burning but it seems like I'm out of wood. Unmotivated. While everyone is keep on moving forward, it seems like I'm the only one left behind. To anyone reading this, from the bottom of my heart, I hope you're doing well.
I hope you're doing well too. don't worry, you're not the only one who feels that way 💕 we're in this together
Cheer up !
omg thank youu random strangers huhu
I hope you're doing well too
I feel you everyday i have no interest on everything
To my past self, it was hard wasn't it? But you made it.
To those going through hard times, keep holding on. There's a light at the end of the tunnel. Of course there will still be dark days ahead, but the reminder of how you already got through it once will help you push forward. There are many beautiful days ahead too, inspite of all the pain. And they're worth living for.
Maybe you don't believe me, but I speak as someone who has overcome three s*icide attempts. The days seem so dark and hopeless, but there really is so much beauty waiting for you. I'm cheering you on ❤️
thank you for living
@@Ven517 thank you. I'm grateful for second chances at life and am glad I chose to push through after. I've been able to help others in the past from my experiences and I've never been ashamed of my past if it meant being able to help someone else have another chance at life
How to hold when you don't have anyone, it's so hard 💔💔💔
@@hennyanggraini8987 There are people whom you haven't met yet that will love you for who you are, in all your highs and lows. Things you are meant to experience that will be life changing. Beauty meant just for you, even if you can't see it now. I promise it's there, even if we have to wait a little longer. And those things are worth holding on for. The light shines brighter in the darkness. In the quiet darkness, where you feel more vulnerable and alone, you'll learn to see the light and beauty all around you. But most importantly YOU ARE WORTHY of those things, and therefore worthy of living. Live for yourself because you deserve all those good things waiting for you.
Thank you so much...I hope I'll get through this too...
When there's no one to talk to, I come back here. Listening to this song and reading the comments while crying. At least, I'm not alone in this kind of feelings.
Same..
Same
Same here, but even though if i had someone to talk to, i still couldn't, it's like everything i wanna say keeps getting stuck in my chest and my throat..there's no point in telling anyway.. i was gonna comment something ,but i saw your comment so I'll just reply here, thanks
@@LeNoir2411 yup, sometimes it's hard to tell somebody about what's inside. I'm afraid that if I tell them, they couldn't understand cause I don't really know how to describe my feelings in proper words, it just hurts. In the end, I hope crying alone can be healing tho :"
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Sending you virtual hug, hope you'll get better :))
Same🥺
"i hated myself for not been able to receive love"
i feel that.
i hate myself for not being brave enough to show my weakness, tears and stuffs to my family and close friends. im scared they would tell me im dramatic and ignored me but im also felt guilty when people cared for me. i blocked everyone from knowing my true self due to my low self-esteem. its so f up.
I know how that feels. Hope you can open up soon ^^ Sometimes we get in an unhealty cycle if we care too much about what others are gonna think about us. Cheering for u
@@AnaCarolina-pt2yr thank you 💓 I really appreciate your words :))
Purple you 💜💜
@@malvikayadav7675 thank you :))
@@박지민-z8m thank you :)) and god bless you too
Is it just me that feels guilty when I tell someone how I feel? I have this serious regret when I tell someone my problems and feelings which is why I'm never getting better, I can't bring myself to say it because I know I'll regret sharing my feelings.... I just have to deal with it on my own I guess
It's the same with me I really want to share my problems with someone but I know that I'll always regret doing it .... So I'm never able to share my pain and problems with anyone
@@arahman789 I'm glad to know I'm not alone 😔 I hope it gets better for you soon if not now
Me too. I don't have any friends either, I recently cut them out. But when I told them what I trully feel, I feel like it just making things worse because they don't understand and I have accepted that. Thankfully music like this really helps me to comfort myself.
This may seem cliche but go see a therapist or counselor. Here you don't have to be guilty because that is their work and they are paid to hear and guide you. Friends are good but only to an extent.
when i talk about my worries with someone, i feel like im bothering them... i have my family and friends i can talk to but still i cant stop feeling guilty or selfish when i do it
모두가 행복했으면 좋겠다
@moaandarmy8012 ❤️
I hope u are too
Yes I am and hopeful u are too stranger xoxo❤😊
너도 ❤❤
Same here 😊
The most painful and worst is realizing the true that noone can really understand you and noone stay by ur side till the end. All you have is only yourself.
AND GOD, if you're religious. And that's enough
@@moodybash7334 and for fck's sake, there are human beings, who don't believe in god. So please, stop going around with your 'if you have god, you have everything' quote.
@@piyadas3193 please chill. I just said above "IF YOU'RE RELIGIOUS" read properly please and be respectful.
Weaskey the King who cares about God.
@@lexdiaries4955 lol you even got my username wrong. It's Harry Potter related. Not religious related.
Why do you dislike religion so much?
"I hated myself for not being able to receive love."
This line hits differently.
I've always wanted to be loved, but I'm also the reason why I don't get the love I need. I have supportive parents whom I know will accompany me in any situation, and I have friends whom I know will always be there for me, but I never speak up about my problems to anyone, not because I don't trust them, but because I am not courageous enough to tell them how I feel. I always smile and laugh in front of my family and friends, but when I am having a difficult time, I want to be alone and cry. I can't even share it with the people around me, even if I know that they care for me and are willing to support me. See? I am the problem. But every time I cry, God is always there to save me. He is always there to remind me that I am not alone, and He is listening to all of the cries of my heart.
To everyone who is having a difficult time right now, whether it is a small or a big problem, please remind yourself that your feelings are always valid. Always remember that you are not alone, you have God. FAITHing!!!!!
Wow tq you really made my day
Wow this just how things are for me as well , I end up feeling guilty for not being able to share my pain with the ones who care about me , I feel like I am being disrespectful towards the love they are given me but at the same time I can't tell them how I feel because I don't want to burden them . It's like I am stuck in viscious circle.
Yes, exactly what im feeling right now. I am the problem. Im never have this feelings even when im in school. I am always happy (i guess) after im starting university i got this feelings. I don't know what is this, i dont even know what mental health is. Always telling myself "why would you feel down and depress you got all you need" "i don't have the luxury to feel this way" now i know i betrayed my own feelings and body. Im scared to see doctor, im scared to tell my parents.
One day my mom and dad arguing, they always arguing, but this time it's about money. Mom once said while im there watching tv "you know how much money we have to pay for" my name" University fees. Im about to breakdown. But i am champion on holding back.
Now im feeling useless, i don't/couldn't do anything, i have become paralysed.
Thank you, just thank you. No words needed, thank you, and fighting for us!!
I feel like I wrote this. I am depressed and have been sad and in pain for so long. Yesterday I took all the courage to get up and called the therapist I went to once. I feel much better but there is still a long way to recovery.
I hope everyone going through the pain and sadness, find their light and happiness.
Hey i don't know who needs to hear this. But you are more than enough. You are worth it. You have endured this pain for so long and yet u are still striving. I may not know you but i want you to know that i wish i did. It's okay. You will get over this. You have got you.
I love you
😭😭
🥺💖
There will always be someone who can’t see your worth. Don’t let it be you
I love you too. Don't top to share love that maybe someone else can't get out there
I really needed to hear this 😭
It's comforting that everyone here is being brought together by this song. I hope everyone here will be happy at one point.
I feel sorry for myself cause I can’t take care of myself well....this song hits hard when you doesn’t have anyone to lean on and people keep judging us without knowing our problems
for real, i feel you too :< but i hope you're doing well now don't mind them just focus on yourself and goals in life. Have a great day fighting! ❤️
@@laylabarks thank you i hope you doing well too
I'm sorry for that.. me too I feel like I can't do something by myself my parents keep saying to me "why you're like that " but me I'm a Christian so when my bad times comes I know who gonna help me I'm not forcing you no I'm Just telling you and it's your choice okay but I will pray for you 🙏😀🙂
Me from 2 years ago must be proud to see im survived❤
Hey! I'm from the future. So you're here again? You love this song and you connect with it. And lately life has been difficult right? So you're here because you feel this song understands you. I want to say that I went to the future with the help of a time machine and I peeked a lil in your life and you know what I saw? A happy and grateful you! The person was glowing with happiness and was so grateful to those dark times (this moment) which will make u who u will be very soon. Just hold on ok? Just a lil more! You can definitely take it and it gonna make u stronger. You are enough and I'm so proud of you! I love the way you search for meaning of life in art and music. You are precious and the bright days are coming very soon. You have to experience the darkness in order to know how light feels like. Hold on♡
Thank you so much for this
thank you so muchh
thanks
Awww thank you so much made my day
Thank you so much
Hey mom , im sorry for not being a good daughter. Im sorry if i am so lazy and not being able to get good grades at school. Im sorry if i've ever made you disappointed with me.. Sometimes im tired with myself , im feeling that i am a burden to you. I once thinking that if i wasnt here you will be living a good life. But when i study hard and got to tell you that i got full marks in exam. I saw you smiled. When i work by my own , i gave you half of my salary and you smiled. Mom , i know you've been through a lot of pain while watching me growing up. Mom , please dont make that smile fade away. Your smile gives me strength to stay alive , because i want to see your smile. Mom , thank you for not giving up with me . I love you so much !
Ps : i write this here because i am too embarrassed to tell you this ') i love you so much mommm .
From your daughter
Edit : omg , idk why i got so many likes ! Btw thank you so much for reading !! My english is not that good because it's not my first language. BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE LIKES !! 😭😭❤
Edits : GUYS !! THOSE REPLIES MAKES MY HEART EXPLODES. Why you guys are so cuteeeeeeeee. Please take care of yourself ! Eat and sleep !! Drink water 3L a day !!!! Keep hidrated. I love you so much . This is TOO MUCH POSITIVITY I CANT TAKE IT ANYMOREEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Heyy we are in the same situation. Just like you I always feel that I was just a burden in my family specially when they comparing me into other and when I disappointed them. But just like you when they realized that I did my best they will make and show me their brightest smile.....
Beban keluarga check✓
im in the same situation too. we can do this, stay strong ♡
hyee :(( are u feeling better now ? surely she must be so proud of u !! i love you. may allah bless u and ur family 😽💜 BE STRONGGG !!
it must be good that you have mom's love because I just have mom but I don't have her love
This is one of Enhypen Sunoo's favorite song and the lyrics is so painful now I get it.It's like him, it's like describing himself and it's like this "The biggest smiles hide the deepest secrets and the people with the prettiest eyes hide the most tears and the people with the kindest heart hides the most pain". Haters can't leave him alone and I'm afraid that one he'll change because of them. Sunoo is so precious and I want to see his bright smile forever.
"i was afraid of everyone's eyes on me"
I'm a person without any self-confidence, like, I was never proud of being myself. I always feel like I need to be another person instead of being my true self bcoz people around me always judge me for being myself. I tried practicing self-love alot but it never works on me :( my friends always said that I need to be loud instead of being quiet, people said I need to have confident so that others will look up to you. sometimes I hate being around people. they never see or even try to understand my struggles
You know what, you shine the most when you're yourself. It can be hard for other people to accept and understand that you're different to them but in reality, even if you change your personality it will never feel as good as it will feel if you focused on enhancing what you already are. I find that the people who I think are the prettiest are those who laugh without worrying about whether their smile is ugly or nice and who talk without worrying that they sound weird and who do their thing without worrying about the backlash from others. People will always criticise your personality and the way you are, even if you change. So why not just be criticised while being your amazing self. Sending you a virtual hug~
what you are experiencing is the same with me. zero confidence and always think of what will people say about me.
same to the point that i dont know myself anymore
you dont need all of that, you just needa be happy :)
@@h03seok21 how ?
I’ve tried my best but nothing goes my way. My parents were disappointed with me. They started to point out my mistakes without knowing how hard i tried to meet their expectations. And now, i’m here again just to heal myself listening to this.
same here :'( anyways, stay strong and here a hug for you
(づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ
I hope this comforted you a little bit 🥰
Hey, random stranger on the internet here, it’s been 2 months since you commented this but I just want to wish you all the best. Even though it sounds corny, things do get better. Your parents might not see all of the hard work you’re doing, but I guarantee there will be people who admire and appreciate you for what you’re doing. Even though it’s hard to try again, just hold on for a little longer and I promise you that you’ll be grateful that you did. Stay strong, I hope you’re doing okay :)
Same 🥺🥺🥺😭
@@wooyoungie6095 thank you for your kind words💜
@@kyaran2463 thank you. It meant a lot to me.💜
This is even sadder with the news of Jiyoon leaving...
I've been crying for 2hours now, it's really hurts me, I've only seen them as two, two or none, I've been a Stan since 2018 and it's so hard to see one of them on stage.. I'll support bol4 forever and will be support her comeback in May but jiyoon will ALWAYS be in my heart no matter what
@@snsaraah she want to continue as a solo singer
Malorie
I think it’s best for her. She got barely any lines and screen time. Literally she would have about 2 lines or under. And they’re a duo as well, which makes it way worse.
@@ourcircle2576 yess
@@ourcircle2576 i agree, as much as i wish that she don't leave, but she is more like a background singer and instrumental player to support jiyoung currently than a singer duo
I remember listening to this song three years ago when I was completely broken, with tears streaming down my face. I am out of the woods now but I just wanted to say thank you to this song and to the one who made the lyrics, this song was my refuge through it all. I don't know who needs to hear this but to anyone who is currently going through a hard time please know that time does heal and it does get better. Just hold on, just hold on for a little while. I promise its definitely worth it.
Thanks🥹🦋
How did you survive ?
@@nadhs21 Just tried to surround myself with good ppl and good vibes. Tried to stay out of my own head a lot( which can be hard to do at times I admit but it can be done) and just took it one day at a time, one step after another, moment to moment until one day I realized that the pain was less and/or more bearable. So time does heal... !!
i felt sorry to my parents. i can't be honest to them. i can't tell them what makes me sad. i can't tell them how i feel. even for being honest with myself it felt so hard
I feel you
me too lol.
Me too
Don't worry I feel this too
i really really understand this
Unfortunately i feel like you
if you're reading this, please take this as a sign. a sign to remind you that you're dearly loved, you're worthy, you're enough and you're deserving of happiness. you might be finding yourself in a very dark place right now, and although i can't promise that things will be better by tomorrow, or next week, or next year, i can promise you that things will eventually get better. life isn't about sunshine and rainbows but i'm proud that you've made it this far! let's keep moving forward to a better and brighter future because i believe in you, stay strong!
Thank you so much po💗
I really need this ❤
thank you I really needed this :,)
U too
Thank you so much. You are a wonderful person,💓
" i hated myself for not been able to receive love " , it hits deep
Ps: thank you for the likes, i guess I'm not the only one relating to this, hang in there beautiful souls maybe we'll have our share of happiness soon, let's not give up we've come this far ❤
Love yourself the fullest coz no one can love you more than yourself 💜💜💜💜
It hits me hard
@@gulu532 but it's the hardest thing to do....
This line like 😭
It really hit me hard the the thing which I always think
i'm really having hard time right now, struggling with my new business while taking care of my sick parents. sometimes, i feel like i'm not receiving love at all. people pushing me too hard like "you have to do this do that for your family." even i want to enjoy the last days of my 20's. i will never be young again but i have to be adult now. sometimes i just want to disappear but this song gave me support today. i just needed good cry, thank you❤
Don't be too harsh on yourself, remember to stop and take a deep breath sometimes. I'm proud of you. You are amazing and you can do it. You got this!❤
It's such a shitty thing to say but I love how we're all depressed here, it really helps knowing that there are people who know exactly how you're feeling right now. I'm literally so sad that I took me this long to find this song, it really puts all of my thoughts and feelings into something tangible and I'm so in love with it.
@@Rozumarix Hi! Thanks for asking, that's really considerate of you. Right now I'm okay, I've got a lot of things distracting me lately so I haven't been in too deep in my thoughts and feelings for a good few weeks now.
As for tips, I wish I had a piece of really good advice I could give you. Recently I've been revisiting my childhood memories, watching old cartoons and animes, reading old books, partaking in kids crafts and stuff. I guess it was just nice to remember how I was happier and life was so simple back when I did those things the first time around.
All in all, I like to distract myself. Listening to music is a big one for me and it doesn't hurt to indulge yourself in a few things that make you happy or feel something other than your hurts. I hope this helped at least somewhat, and I hope you'll be able to start healing in the near future.
Just know you’re not alone
@@Rozumarix Are you alright now?
This song really describe my feelings or my life
@@skymelline4897 this is really helpful
I just found this song out during a night where I’m crying silently in my room. Somehow the song and the stories from the comment section made me cry but cheered me up too. I wish everyone to someday find their own happiness and find theirselves. I wish that everyone who’s under deep pain and sorrows right now will one day be better and successful.
it sucks to not have a dream. the pressure that i get whenever my parents, relatives, friends says that i'm good at something is sickening. i honestly don't know what i want. it sucks that whenever my idols or someone mentions something about 'dream' i get too sensitive cos i don't have one. it sucks that i don't wanna live anymore. it sucks that i suck. i'm getting tired of running after nothing.
Omg same, I don't have dreams or goals and it's despairing
same , :(
What's so bad about not having a dream... It's ok to not have dreams, it's ok to discover things as we move on with our lives.. Just don't run for something just because everyone is running.. I hope that someday you'll find out what you're made to do... Just keep discovering.. To the unknown person... I'm rooting for you. 😊
EXACTLY ME :((
it sucks when u know that you can do better but you just CAN’T because you don’t have the motivation to go on anymore
I remember this used to be my comfort song. Every night, I would cry listening to this song and remembering all the pain I had to go through. Still, I would try to cheer myself saying the better days would come and hang in there. I feel so grateful now to say I don’t have that feeling anymore. Everything did get better. To anyone reading this, I’ll just say not to lose hope. You’re doing great. The happy days are waiting for you. I hope you too can be proud of yourself for how far you came and how you never gave up and finally succeeded.
Your skin is not a paper, don't cut it.
Your neck is not a dress, don't hang it.
Your life is not a story, don't end it.
Your smile is beautiful, don't hide it.
😭😭😭💜💜
Thank you, I'm really need it through my depression now 😭
Too late
And let your smile change the world, don't let the world change your smile :)
@@aurore_14 I'm sorry, please stay strong, I'm proud of you, you can do it! keep going, I promise it'll be worth it in the future
Anyone else crying rn? hearing this song and reading the comments
Me🖐️😭
Me😭
me.
Your not alone😭
👋
I also used to cry every night. There was a time i thought leaving this world was really the only option. I remember very vividly, one night i looked towards my future and asked myself if my pain will ever go away? I didn't believe i would be okay at all. After years, i turned back to that night countless and countless times and said to myself it all passed. I'm okay. I'm better. I really healed. And i did it by myself. No one saved me. No one knew it. I was strong enough to overcome everything and now i feel proud of myself. If you're depressed i know these words won't help you that much i know. But i believe you will overcome everything as well and i'm proud of you too. When the time comes you will also see how strong you were and you will be proud too. Just keep going. Just don't give up.
this really described my life, i'm crying
your words- it's so motivational, thank you
Thankyou so much, I love you ❤️
u know what U SAVED YOURSELF
Same, there was one point in my life I thought: "Is it that easy to end this pain?" But.. My little heart mustered up all my hope and I thought: "Maybe after all this pain, I could be like me again!" There was so many times that my heart saved me from death.
The fact that this song describing everyone's pain which we all hide it deepdown in our hearts is just hitting different
hey future anna! you’re a little bit happier now right? even if it’s just by 0.000001%, if you’ve managed to gain just a little happier than you are right now, you did amazing and i’m proud of you, and i hope you’re proud of yourself as well. remember that the rainbow only comes after the storm. the sky will clear, just wait a little longer. the next time you come here, you may be sad, or you may be happy. whatever it is that made you come back, just know that i will always welcome you with open arms because you deserve someone’s love, and the only love that you need is your own. i’m right here.
Hey, are you feeling a bit better now?
Hey Anna, how has everything been since this comment? Are you recovering
You're such a pure hearted person 💜
Hey Anna! I hope everything is okay now. If it isn't, it will be. Keep moving forward stranger!
I'm proud of you Anna💗💗
For anyone who doesn’t know the true meaning behind this song, here it is: You finally grow up, you grow up with lots of people looking at you. They see all your mistakes. You feel as if those people are disappointed at your mistakes. They don’t know the true you so you hide. All your childhood happy memories, gone. You were happy but now your in pain. You don’t want to feel happy because you don’t want to feel pain ever again. You ask much longer the pain will last. You feel as if you wanna go but you can’t because you know you can do something amazing but everything is holding you back....
Oh God i'm tearing up cz that's exactly how i feel rn
This is exactly how I feel, and I am just 12 years old!!
@@nikhita3272
Hi am 11
goodness this is me for 2 decades. god, i'm still like this right now. I'm really.. really... tired.
Me rn
“ i hurt to the point where i could hurt no more, but the pain wouldn’t go away.”
this lyrics, just hit me big time. she knows what i’am feeling.
this song hits different when you can feel the same way like the lyrics. Everything just doesn’t seem right anymore and you just felt tired. Honestly, I am crying because this song just relates to what I’m feeling nowadays.
I'm a loner since I was a kid. I've been bullied because of my appearance, I even lost count of names they call me, I don't know what's the most popular. I grew up without an inch of confidence. I always doubt myself, I was the quiet and lonely kid. Even with my friends, I'm always the odd one out. I'm more comfortable when I'm alone because I'm free of their judgemental eyes. I'm going 20 next year, I only have 1 friend that I consider my closest friend. But I can't even share my deepest heartaches with her. I'm afraid she'll judge me, I know she's not that kind of person, but my anxiety says otherwise. I've been bottling this feeling for so long, this song helped me, even saved me. The feelings I can't describe, the tears I can't shed, finally come out and it is really good. This song understands me more than anyone. Thank you BOL4! You saved me, I will forever be grateful to this song.
Felt lyk someone was describing me....... Wish u happiness dear... 😊😊😊...I
Same with me but I have my Best friends but I always act strong in front of them cause one of my best friends have low self confidence. So I need to show to her that I also strong and she can also being a strong person. But sometimes I feel tired to be strong...
I see myself in you but I don’t even have a friend I can share stuff with
We will get through it don’t worry
@@durgabhavani1491 don't worry dear you can talk to me.
@@durgabhavani1491 you are from India right? You can talk to me freely
Psychology said that we have to tell our problems to someone we trust to avoid depression
but everytime i told them, i wish i could turn back time and not telling them.....b'cause i'm a idiot that time to trust someone that much
Edit: never got this much like🤧tq
you can trust only your dog and therapist because your dog is loyal and you pay therapist for their job
the regret after ify
Fr. Trusting someone destroyed my life meep
I can feel u :(
Same
i’m *was* a smart student in school, but now my results are becoming worse, and my parents usually pester me to be better and do my best. but when i did my best, they would nag me and say that i didn’t work hard enough and i really have enough of reaching their expectations, i play games and listen to inspirational podcasts to feel better but i don’t think it’ll work that way,,
edit: recently, i’ve been (fake) smiling a lot but the pain in me is immeasurable, nobody questions me, but now i wonder, when will people spare their time and check on me, do they not care or do they deliberately not care? is it because i’m smiling or, because i’m invisible to them? is my façade that good? but aye at least i have people to relate too, thanks for the comments ya know, it helps and yes i’m finally read em and will reply :’)
Maedelynn Castelliana hi friend i totally feel you!! Just do your best and that’s enough. Yes, you may not be able to meet their expectations, but most importantly your own expectations. If you think that you’ve tried your very best, then be proud of yourself no matter how the results turns out to be. Don’t be so hard on yourself, and you’re not alone ❤️
please stay strong. im with you,
You don’t have to become ‘The expectation’ because the only thing important is you being you. I’ve also experienced these things with my parents but don’t worry, myself and millions of people are with you 😊
I'm smart too, I just don't keep up with my work a lot, my Mom is getting on me and telling she'll take away things like my phone and stuff if I don't complete it, and the pressure just keeps on coming.. I really don't wanna disappoint my Mom and my Big brothers, so I try my best, but still manage to not fill what's needed to be done sigh... Don't give up, if you need someone to talk to, I wouldn't mind to have a chat. Also maybe try some stuff to relieve the stress, for me I sing and do all kinds of activities to keep my mind off school and not stress about it. I hope this helped you or made feel better even if it was a little bit. Sorry for the long comment 😅😅 I'll go now bye! 👋
hey, same here. i was considered a smart student when i was in elementary and middle school, rn im in high school and im just too tired of everything, my grades are worsening, idgaf anymore bout my mental health. i keep distancing myself from my friends and family. i just wish i could disappear from this hell. nothing matters anymore. im thinking of killing myself on 7th May this year. im gonna make it a fuckin hella good birthday for my life.
this song truly encompasses the hardships of youth.. i feel like it is explaining my story right now. how is it possible to be in so much pain but to still hold on to the hope that it might be okay one day? it hurts, it’s lonely. there’s a part of me that wants to give up and end my life, but there’s another part of me that wonders if i can make it in this world. i’ll just see what happens for now..
the most painful thing ive ever tried is to just be myself in front of everyone . and its still soo painful to just be myself without crying without fearing without hurting . its difficult to not cover myself up into what others want . to push myself aside for what i think is best. its still soo difficult . I still hurt and i dont know how long it will last. But i have learn to live with it. To the point where this pain just reminds me that im alive..
Be yourself!!! We love u❤️i'm supporting u😍😍
Be yourself we live u❤️❤️i'm supporting u😍
I know it sometimes gets hard,but , pls remember that there are people who care and love you for who you are , so pls stay strong and happy and in the end you will be happy 😊💝
Good luck, have hope
This hit a little too close to home . I don't get why I was born this way . Why couldn't I have just been born a happy strong willed person ?
Every night I’m scared for the future... I’m not the smartest in school which makes my parents disappointed In me and my only passion is art... the only thing is, my parents are against it. I cry myself to sleep bc of this bc when they find my art, they throw it away. This song really describes me 😭
Edit: I read all of your comments and I appreciate every single one. Thank you so so much... I hope we all overcome our struggles and experience the second part of the song 😢
Edit2: 20 jan/ I’m overwhelmed by the many beautiful comments so I think I should do an update? I’m still going with my passion and even though they still wouldn’t accept it, I don’t care anymore. One day I want to make a webtoon and that’s all on my mind recently. I’ve learnt that I need to start hiding every time I draw so they don’t find out and so far, that’s been paying off.
Spaghetae i really hope you are able to pursue art💙 and that your parents will come to accept it as well
I hope you'll get through all of these hard times and you will be succeed in whatever you're doing.
Yes, passion is damn hard to give up, i hope your parents will soon realize and accept your true happiness. Fighting!!! 🙏🙏
Either try to talk to them peacefully about how you will not tolerate them: (1) controling your entire life, wishes and future; (2) abusing you psychologically by making you give up on something that means so much to you, or stand up for yourself. Tolerating abuse at such young age is wrong and can be bad for health. So hide these drawings, take pictures and post them, confide them to a friend, doodle on your phone, or even threaten to stop studying at all. Maybe it would be best to reach out for a teacher that may approach your parents in an eloquent manner. Perhaps, simply tell them about your future plans and how badly you want to pursue it.
Whatever desicion you proceed to take, keep in mind that it's your life, remember to not let someone else decide how you live it; because it's an essential part of your freedom, partially, regardless of age.
My best wishes going for you. Cry now, but if you can, smile as bright as you can in the future 💕
just study then work n have money to your passion
" How much pain must it have been" Can't stop crying with this line. If people around me know what I was going through, could they help me? Idk how could I possibly last long with this.
Have faith buddy ... good days would come and things would get better even if 0.0001% but you can definitely do through this we can go through this :)
people cannot help you but you can help yourself the first step is accepting you need help and you are already there love. extend more and seek help from professionals
Mee too😣
Same
U are the light that shines bright✨
"but sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again" well that hit me, I've always felt like I didn't belong in our friend group but when I finally chatted with them after I ignored them for months I felt pure happiness but I'm scared I'll be in pain once I'm comfortable with them again.......
i feel the same with my circle of friends.i don't feel like i'm actually their friend and that i belong in their group.i don't know why seeing them and hanging out with them triggers my anxiety.i get anxious around them and i can't understand why.
That's so me rn. It's been 4 months since i haven't replied their messages because i'm too scared for no reason. They always text me if i'm okay and whenever i have the courage to talk i feel down again. Inside i beg them to leave me because i don't deserve these good people. When i think about the past, i was with them w their ups and downs but now i don't want them to be with me in my darkest days.
Be kind to everyone. We're all struggling with something we don't talk about.
Exactly, but idk why sometimes there r people who also struggling but they use that reason to hurt other people for example they treat people the way they have treated by other people, I mean they know how it feels but they think it's okay like making things more fair, actually I kinda sick of that 😕
I just want to rest in a quite place. I just want to quit everything and want to sit peacefully. I want time to stop for a while.
Hiii *BIG HUGGGSSS* 💖💖💖
Me too, I just wanna take a break from everything....
if it's too much, it's okay to stop for a while and heal yourself
all I want rn, my body need it but my mind doesn´t care :)
Allow me to give you a hug.
When u just noticed that your crying but tears are not comming out then u know u dying inside and no one helps
It hurts worst.. Even i want to scream but i can't
Everytime i want to cried ....theres no tears anymore
@@XOXO_EDITS becuase they will say shut tf up
@@dalia4825 yeah..
It even bleeds inside the heart veins
I remember listening to this song at the lowest point of my life. It felt like the pain was never-ending, but now I’m genuinely happy, and everything’s going well. I’m able to receive and give love wholeheartedly again. If i can do it, then you can too. Keep going! You can do it! You got this ❤
I always cry when I heard this song. Adult life is tiring
same sis, same ..
Life in general is tiring.
Yeah
Legit 😭
The pressure is on you. On US. fighting 😊
Youth is also tiring bruh-
Whenever I feel like suicidal thoughts are pushing me to my limits I always come her just to read the comments about recovery,it gives me hope. This song is like a free therapist for whenever I feel like giving up. I am glad I haven't given up even though it is becoming harder, if I survived till now, I will also in the future.
I hope you are doing well now, even though you feel like tired of everything don't give up you should never give up that way you can go on in life. Sending hugs ❤️
U can do it never ever give up please lots of love!💜
I feel like am such a burden in this world...sometimes its just hard to take it all...people don't understand...and I don't think they will...this song expresses how I feel...
Same.
@@robinop9014 we're the same...
Same🙂
@@felixnavidad6621 ig were all the same...
No one will ever understand. So don't feel like you're a burden. You're not one. Everyday you wake up, it means you still have a reason to live, that's why you're not dying. So you're not a burden. 💞
I hope one day when I am able to find myself, I’ll look back to this song feeling happy and proud I made it. This song will no longer represent my past but a song that I feel comfort and relieved ❤
okay, i’ve been reading the comments and i wanna say something to the people who need to hear it..
you’re worth it! don’t give up, there’s always hope. everything happens for a reason. you will get through it soon! i love you, have a good day or night!!
thank u, ilyt
Ily🥺
For all those who feel related to this song, I just want to remind you that you're enough. You're important. You're precious. You're worthy. Don't be too harsh on yourself, as the song says "time is the medicine." It really is. It doesn't matter what everyone else says or thinks about you, simply because they aren't you, focus on your own happiness, chase your dreams, I know you have some! Remember that every step you'll give, will lead you to them!, It's okay to do it with your own path and rythm. I know it's hard to do it, you just need to set free all your sadness, it's okay to feel sad, it's okay to feel what you're feeling right now, as someone who used to be the same I can understand you and even though some days still get dark all of the sudden, I haven't lost hope either I haven't give up. That's why I wish you to decide to remain with me. With us. I believe in you. You're brave. You can do it.
I love you. I needed to hear this. All the love and hugs for you in this world. 💙
@@mehru6136 sending you lots of hugs!! You got this! 😉♥️♥️♥️
I really love this...
As I read theough your comments, the voice in my head says: "Not true. I'M THE WORST. I'M HIDEOUS I'm not worth it. All I'm worth is hate"
Thank you so much
One day I will be able to sing along to this without tearing up.
no way you can do that
There are two yous who will return to this song
First the one who is hurting and wants to disappear
Second who is healing and looking back at how far you have come from the first time you heard this song
I came back to this When I was grateful and healing but now I'm back again.... totally broken
well said
This thought is really the only thing that keeps me going right now - the thought that hopefully in a few months or years, I will go back to this song thinking about how far I've come. This song makes me cry so much but it also gives me hope for a better future
@@bhawnasureshkumar8201 it's gonna get better, hang in there mate
@@elli5797 see you there when we'll be peaking in our lives , fighting! ╰(*´︶`*)╯
My parents love me,.But idk why i feel like i don't deserve their love. I'm Always ruining things, wrecking their high hopes. But i've never told them how lonely i feel inside. So called friends who always take advantage of me,hurt me like hell. Once i was a smart kid, but now my grades are terrible. How am I suppose to live like this? I really don't wanna live anymore.
Fr.
Me too and idk whyy
time will heal
Come *BIG HUUGGGGSSSS* 💖💖💖
this is exactly what I'm feeling now. I feel like a useless daughter for my parents and I don't have any friend that I trust so I don't tell much things to my friend even the closest one since they're the one who hurted me the most and my grades kinda slowly dropping too. so I'm trying to set in my mind that I won't trust anyone and I won't get my hope high for anyone as well since I've learnt that most people will put themselves first. I'm also focusing on making myself a better person for my parents and for myself too. it's hard bcs I'm still lost and I don't know what to do but I know that I dont want to mind any people anymore except my parents. I'm still finding my own way tho
hey stranger :
you're here again, lately You may have been feeling bit tired, and I do so, it's okay to cry sometimes but You need to realize that you deserve better life, sometimes I don't have even time to cry, I'm feeling like I just want to dissappear, we may don't have many problems but we always feel sad it's okeey too we are human beings too and we're feeling, even if we have never met or i didn't even know who You are I'm here to tell You that You are beautiful You're kind You're enough and I'm proud of You, You can do it, I believe in you 💜
awieee thank you beb😭💖
Thanks
Thank you so much for your pure words , I wish that you achieve your dreams and may god bless you 🙏
U too ! *BIG HUUGGSSS* 💖💖💖
Thank u💜💜
Crying hard with the lyrics...
Hello fellow Shawol just know we are all here if you ever want to talk 💙💎
Hi Shawols!!
Same , I cry everytime I hear this song
This song so sad:(
I reminisce the time where i cried every night draining myself to sleep. Growing up being not emotionally connected to my parents, where my feelings is heard but not validated coz im too young to feel that way and compare their tragic past and sufferings when they were young just like me. Thank you for this. May we all feel loved and embraced.
I feel like my feelings aren't valid anymore, my parents keep telling me not to get upset or cry over little things cuz I'm already 20, a young adult, but I'm just too sensitive, it's true that a lot of people suffer more than me, it's true that I'm quite lucky, I have a family, I go to a good university, I have friends, I have everything I need, I know that I'm loved....but why am I hurting so much? Simple but hurtful words always hurt me and it always dig deeper through my heart, I know I'm so weak that these things always gets me through my head. I always cry over useless things, and I've always hated myself for this. I wanna change too, but I dont know how.
It doesn't matter how old you are,it happens to everyone and it's okay.You might not see any motivations right now,or any reasons to be here,but there's still so much more to life.You'll get through it,it's okay.If you notice that things aren't the same and that it's only getting worse try to find some professional help,yknow someone who will understand you and help you...I hope you're going to be fine.If you ever wanna talk,im hereee,sending hugsss😌💖
And remember that your feelings ARE VALID and you matter💞💞
@@binniebeanie thankyou so much, I needed that 😊
You are an precious existence, not matter what.
i feel you and i love you so much, hang in there
Tbh kpop brought me out of my sadness..(i don't know if it was depression exactly or not so..sadness). I can relate to this song so much...those days I used to feel like no one..not even my close friends cared if i exist or not...but kpop showed me the brighter side of life...made me laugh in the darkest of my days when i couldn't help but be sad...slowly i started realizing that maybe people do care..or maybe I found people who do..so everyone out there feeling any type of depression or sadness...stay strong..your existence matters...you will find your people ..your magic..just be strong, work hard and be your best version.❤
I am cheering up for you!! ;)
Love,
Someone to whom your existence matters :)
Edit: You might feel the emptiness at times but that's what life is about...you will feel so full of happiness on some days and on others empty as hell but please hold on there to not miss on the better days or the best of the days that are yet to come... like i do :) and please seek professional help if you need it.
Omg i can relate so much with you, stay strong and keep going ahead dear ❤️
💜💜💜
i hope you also went out to receive professional help if you were more depressed rather than sad. music is helpful, it's a coping mechanism, but if you're getting depressed, then it's best to not rely on music alone and seek help. :)))
@@noonyno7257 actually fortunately i came out of that part of my life very early so i didn't seek any professional help because at that time i just thought that maybe its just because of studies related stress etc.but maybe it was more... and right now i am very happy in my life surrounded by positive people....but yes if i ever happen to find myself there again i will surely do and thanks for the concern.😊❤
@@noonyno7257 yas it's true. Got diagnosed with major depression last yr. But no one can cure u but urself. So sometimes listening and knowing that others have the same pain with u makes u feel somewhat comforted.
3:18 The moment when she validates your pain by saying " how painful must it have been " .....Thats all we want to hear from the people around us.We dont want you to necessarily solve our problems but atleast dont invalidate our pain by saying there are people worse off than us and make us feel worse.
I agree
:'))
True
👏👏👏 Yesssssss!
💯
When I first listened to this song, I was at a rough patch, a hard moment in my life. But listening to this again after a year made me realize the healing I’ve done and the change that came with it.
The younger me did not expect to even be alive at this moment in time, but if I got out of that phase, then I believe you can too. Take a deep breath and think of your future self healing during the right time and try listening to this song again. It won’t be the same feeling, for everything can change.
You got this and I love u ❤
The fact that this song talks about our pain but still gives us an inspiration to keep going.. i love this. My friend said if I want to know her pain then I should listen to this song.. and now idk how to make her feel better anyways I'll stay haru. I'll listen and stay.
I'm tired of explaining things that they'd never understand
Hello *BIG HUGGGGSSS* 💖
Virtual hugs ^^^
Same. I thought he would comfort me if i explained but he doesnt even care
Yeah
so aesthetically pleasing
"This is not how i really am but i keep getting further away"
This line represent me...
This song is all about emotional abuse we taken when we are kids that really affect our present living. The bridge of our anxiety, depression, fear we our fighting right now and after listening to this song I questioned myself, why would I suffer that's not my fault?
"IT'S NOT OUR FAULT."
"but sometimes when i'm too happy, i'm afraid i'll be in pain again"
Yeah i felt that, we worry about such things that dont even happen yet
Cried a lot when I first heard this song years ago. I was fighting on my own and got over obstacles that seemed like the end of the world for me at the time. I’m back here once again as life always puts us through something. I believe I can get over it this time as well and see the light at the end of the tunnel
:d
When the first time I listened to this song, I cried so much. After 4 years, I'm here to listen this song again, I feel so much relieved and comfort. I remember that I cried those days so much and my heart was heavy. I went through so much pain to live in this happy. life has ups and downs. Believe in time, Time will heal you. You are perfect the way you are 🌟
1:39-1:46 these lines hit me hard. I'm fighting with myself everyday. Family problems,stress from studies,fake friends, getting hate in school there's nothing that I'll be happy for. Even If I get the chance to be happy,I knew something bad will happen. I don't want to die but neither I want to live. I want to take rest from everything. I want to go to a trip alone,to a hill,in the middle of wildflowers,under a tree where a cold yet warm breeze will be flowing. Is it too much to ask?
To everyone who's fighting all alone, don't worry. You all will be a bright shining light in the future. Present must hurt now but believe me future will be more beautiful. Stay strong loves
I hope your life is going well now. Thanks for this message✨
i relate to you so much right now, like seriously the pressure of life right now and chasing after the nonexistent hope i have is really tough.
I relate to you
I Hope You Use This Message For Yourself Too. Its Just a Bad Day/Week/ Month Its not a Bad Life
@@Pia0324 its happy to know i'm not alone...
I wonder hows the people commented 6 or 10 months been doing , i hope they fought well. There so much in life guys keep moving baby steps still counts ;) take care y'all
thank You so much for Your comment it made me feel better
lol I'm still fighting to not losing myself lol :) I'm still trying
@@nurulnazimah9258 just keep fighting I trust You 💜
@@luciqana8340 @imah Rosli 💓
@@nurulnazimah9258 im proud of u💓
Sunoo if you're here,I just wanted to say that you are an angel,you shines the brightest in this cruel world.
You may not know me personally but If you feel that no one cares to you,remember me please.I will support you till I can.
And to anyone who are reading this,always remember that you are loved and enough.
You are brave and strong.
MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA,SUNOO.
to Sunoo (2):
oh gosh you are such a ball of lighttt
I just can't continue on with whatever is happening in my life. I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and it's even hard to fake a smile nowadays.
This song is just like a warm hug which i can never receive in real life.
stay strong dear ❤️
to my future self:
Today was a very difficult day,,,been crying for 3-4 hrs,,, thought I'm relapsing again,,, meds aren't helping anymore,,,fought with my mom and got so mad at myself bc of that,,,so when I was taking a walk this song poped up in my recommends. I don't listen to bol4 and didn't even look at the lyrics at first but this song just clicked with me so well. And I read the lyrics and they're so relatable,,,"but sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again",,, ain't this the worst feeling ever. I smile and then immediately think "What price will I have to pay later for this moment of happiness". And this thought just drains out all your energy to fight for this moment of happiness and then ...the most terrifying thing is when you lose your last hope...hope that everything gets better and everything is temporary...hope that holds you hanging there...when it vanishes anything becomes nothing... meaningless. But this song wouldn't be written if the author didn't make it ...and they did make it...So will you. JUST HANG IN THERE. "That too shall pass"
EDIT: hey you, it has been more than three years. I'm glad you hung in there! Thank you for that ♥️ your future self is finally happy. You love and you're loved sincerely. You got a purpose in your life, and you're doing pretty well. Thank you for never giving up. I love you. I really do. Thank you so much ! Oh and you got "This too shall pass" tattooed on your collarbone! 😂
I felt this
Oh damn 9 months ago looking back at it. Hey my past self, everything is still shit but it’s your type of shit. still hanging still there. Can’t say everything will be okay because it will never be but You’ll find strength to fight it. If not today then tomorrow, if not tomorrow then the day after, if not the day after then next week month year decade ...just be patient. I’m sorry and I believe in you
I feel like social media has given a lot of people the idea that everyone is happy and that happiness is the ultimate fulfillment, but that's not really realistic except in a fairy world... Happiness, sadness, anger, frustration are all valid emotions and they exist for a reason. They are what makes us HUMAN and real. You can't know true happiness unless you've gone through sorrow and felt all these deep emotions. Happiness doesn't come from big things, yes, you can feel temporary fulfillment and pleasure from money and materialistic things but at the end of the day, those things are not going to last forever. I don't know who needs to hear this but please know that what you're feeling is valid and I can try to understand your pain, but we all hurt differently I just want you to know that it's okay to feel like no one understands you and that you are lingering in this deep hole of emptiness, but I promise you just the fact that you've been chosen to exist in this world makes you worthy of being alive. Cry and scream all you want if that helps you, but please don't hurt yourself... You know yourself the best and that's all that matters. I hope you find something that you can hold onto (even if that's yourself ).
thank you.
🥺
i love u for writing this, thank u
@@buserfly Thank you, I'm happy to know that my words helped somehow ❤
@@evergreen2251 ❤❤
The fact that this is one of Sunoo's favourite song hurts me. Sunoo is always so smily and bright even his members say his brightness and positivity gives them energy but from the inside I know Sunoo is going through alot its sad because he is only 17. The fact that when we learned he had health problems in I-Land even j-hope was suprised because he said you don't notice it with Sunoo's bright energy. The way Sunoo is getting so much and fat shaming right now is so sad I want to hug him and tell our happy pill Sunoo that everything will be alright I hope everything will be better in the future. This song is so emional for some reason but I love it the lyrics really makes you feel something....
Yes right Even sunoo is the most smily member but he's just a human too .
I want to protect him 😭😭
I love him sm❤️❤️🥺
my friend sent me this when i was suicidal. thank you for saving a stranger like me through this song
"𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙄 𝙖𝙢 𝙩𝙤𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙮, 𝙄'𝙢 𝙖𝙛𝙧𝙖𝙞𝙙 𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣"
😭
😭😭
😭😭😭
😭😭😭😭
For everyone who were finding this song and still fighting till this very day, you're really strong. I am proud of you.
Everyone who found this comment, i just want to say that you are doing enough okay?? Even though you feel like it's a failure, that's okay you try your hardest! Also to remember that everyone have their own path and struggle, so cheer up!! See how beautiful the sky is even on a rainy day, look how the rain pouring at the same time, cool isn't it?? Hope y'all have a great day for yesterday, today, and tomorrow :DDDD
thank you for these comment😔💛
Yesss exactly! Also hi atiny 💕
Thank you 🥺🥺
i hope i'll get better, i am in so much pain and i have been fighting against myself not to give up and end my life. i have been crying silently every night, afraid that someone in the family might hear, I do not want them to worry. this song describes every pain and undescribable feelings. i am diagnosed with anxiety and sleeping disorder, and this is killing me slowly.. i was then a very happy, optimistic and jolly person, i feel like i am little by little losing my self. to anyone going through something like me, pls do your best not to give up, i understand your pain and your struggles, let's win together
i hope you feel better ❤️🩹
Let's win together ^^
let's do this 🤍
how are you? I hope your doing well now:)
How are you love?i'm going through the same :)
To my parent:
Mom why is it that when I’m crying, u force me to tell you what’s wrong and then ask me “do you think it’s fair that I’m worrying about you and you won’t tell me what’s bothering you?” Mom it’s not about you. If I’m not ready to tell you then I’m just not. If I never wanna tell you then so be it.n
Dad... Just stop forcing me to try and find myself. It’ll come when it comes. You’re just adding onto my stress, I know I’m lazy stop reminding me I’m working on it, stop comparing me to my cousin she’s 4 years younger and I know she’s better already. Jeez
To Kpop: you helped me find my love for dance. Thank you. Dance is the only thing that helps me nowadays.
To my friends: where are you?
Dear beloved stranger, ❤️
It's okay, i experienced the same thing and i hope you will always be happy 😊❤️
I’m sorry, so so sorry that you have to go through that. Please, take care of yourself and keep breathing. Just know that I’ll cry for you and I’ll smiled when you’re happy. I know it doesn’t matter what I think. But knowing someone will remember you is enough for me. So I hope this is enough for you to keep looking forward in life too.
I'm crying.
Your comment is legit so heart touching 🙂💜
Dear You
there was a time the only reason that made me wanna live was to see another comeback of my favorite group (exo) , everything will be okay, you will find yourself soon just dont rush it , your mom and dad Is like any ordinary parents , my parents are the same , they just do that cause they love you my dear , i hope you will find happiness in this yearrr and if you ever get depressed just know that you are not alone in this fight with life ❤️
don't worry! i don't know if this will help but, my sisters and my whole family also compares me to my perfect beautiful younger cousin whos 2 years younger than me. it hurts a lot to just belive she's better than me...but if we keep on beliving useless ( i'm not saying my cousin is useless) things like this in our life, it'll only get harder for us. so i'm not here to scold you or to give you a lecture, and you probably don't want to get advice from someone that's 11 years old but, stay strong!
This hits different when u studying for a exam..and you are one of the top student in the school.
Every single line has meaning..
Ah I remember I found this song when I was in a very deep point of my life. This song just expressed all my feelings. That ‘i dont wanna die, just dont wanna live like this’ kind of thought. I cried almost every night, or when I was alone, sometimes even is the supermarket and didn’t know where could i hide from people. When something happy happened with me I felt such guilt that I started crying again. This song also made me cry but gave some peace in a way i cant even defeniate. I can remember in those days there was a vioce in my head that said such things i worth nothing, im disgusting etc. Nowadays I can truly say I’m fine. And listening this song with a mindset like this, I feel so so graceful. Like now I knew it was a part of my storie and those hard times also formed me. Still like this song. :)
keep going luv! this gave me hope that someday it will be fine, hopefully i can still see that someday...
@@rea.5186 thank you so much! I pray for you and I truly believe you will be fine, and you will see it yourself with a big big smile soon. 😊❤️
I love you and He cares for you! thank you for staying courageous.
I hope you’re doing better..i was in a similar situation and im doing good nowadays..i just get worried sometimes if this happiness will last. Nevertheless time doesnt heal but it makes everything better and tolerable
I hope your still doing better now bae,I hope I can be this fine soon too:)
Whenever I am at my lowest, I come back here. While reading the comments and listening to this song, I started crying. I tell myself that at least other people experience this as well, so that's something. That has helped me feel better. I might be in pain right now and want to disappear, but I want to envision myself returning here and seeing my healed and happy self. Then, I'll reflect on how far I've come since the first time I heard this song.