I cant believe Miz saw the body before anyone else...I can relate to seeing a loved one dying/dead in front of you. Its always the what ifs man...i hope he stays strong
It's kind of ironic since Reckful constantly berated and accused Miz of never coming to see him. And it wasn't clear at all that Reckful was going to do it. He was just clearly going through his dangerous manic phase and I guess Miz knew him well enough to know he was in danger.
Same, his impact on all of twitch is so big its so hard to truly feel his impact fully until he had fully left. I didnt watch him but I cried because he is more than just an entertainer.
I just didnt like what they did to XQC, his chat was spamming for him to react to it, not understanding that alot of people grief but don't show it so pls don't spam for your streamers to react to a death
Bro even I watch a lot of xqc but I m not like the others in the community I am so sad seeing miz crying 😢 but one thing u need to change in that comment it's not the community but a part of it cuz even if people like us are less in xqcs community we r there and r a part of it and again I m deeply sad with reckfuls passing away...😢
@@richfitzgerald833 A lot of fuckers are there just to get reactions for lsf. Yesterday he also had like double his normal viewers I think because of drops and shit which made it a lot worse. People who aren't there normally see some retards spamming for him to react to it and they start doing it. Not saying there isn't a lot of dogshit in his community
He was so open on his streams and he felt like a friend because he shared EVERYTHING. Related and empathized with the guy and watched him since early hearthstone days. First time I cried over someone I have never met, ever. I miss you Byron
As a survivor of depression and failed suicide ,pls to anyone that has suicidal thoughts and depression, talk to someone, dont keep it all to yourself...
Reckful was the kind of person that if you felt alone and you watched his stream you felt like you belonged somewhere. He was so kind and unique we shall miss you R.I.P
He helped me feel not so alone years ago when i was going through some dark times. I learned a lot from watching too. Not just about the games he was playing but about things in general. He was sooo incredibly smart
If you search back far enough Reckful was always hurting from his brother's death and even spoke about the toxicity of the KYS phrase on his streams and others.
What's insane was I randomly thought about him just Monday. So I looked him up and I watched a bunch of videos of him talking about his new game. He seemed so happy and excited about his game. You never know what people are going thru behind the smile. Rip.
I don’t watch reckful really, but I watched his Japan streams on UA-cam and watched every single one of them. Throughout it all I’ve just loved the way he interacted with strangers and other people. The friends he made along the journey was one of the best things to watch develop. And although I didnt watch him often especially now, I can’t help but cry and be so sad. Especially seeing the people that I do watch daily react to his death and break down, it’s really painful.
No more suffering... R.i.p.. Love you Byron... Thank you Mizkif ... Love you... And thank you for setting it straight when you didn't have to.. Take care of yourself.. My heart goes out to Byron's family... Change must start here..
I feel Mizkif's pain 100%, I lost my girlfriend 5/8/20 when she last her battle to depression and took abused her sleeping meds and ended up dying in her sleep..... The pain, feeling and shock of waking up next to your dead girlfriend will never leave me head, we tried so much to make her happy and help her out but the depression was just too much..... Please always check on your friends and family, you need to remind them that they MEAN something to alot of people...... RIP Ash
Honestly, when someone is overly happy with major depressive disorder, it's never good. You have to watch these people more than anyone else because 9/10 they are happy cause they know that they're about to leave this world. They have a plan and know the time is right and because of this, they are the happiest they've ever been. It's like you just found out about a surprise trip to paradise, you couldn't be happier.
Also the extreme highs and lows that come with the disorder. An all-time high can easily transition into an all-time low in a second. Overall extremely unpredictable and saddening to watch.
I wouldnt use "overly happy" tho. Its much more of calm, at peace demenaor. Not very energetic and overly happy. And this usually only happens right before the suicide, as most people dont plan far ahead when deciding to do it (1 day into the future is probably the most common). And way more common signs is them talking about suicide, social isolation, drugs/alcohol and loss of interest.
Some Guy were not asking for your kneel what we do ask for is your respect please. were grieving he was some of our best friend eventhough he didn’t know us. your opinion matters please don’t let you be known as a bad one ❤️
Normal people have to hide up their real emotions for things. Someone could seem the happiest person ever but in reality they are extremely depressed. I know this from experience too. I know how you feel. It is the saddest event when someone commits suicide because this can be prevented. RIP Reckful
That is true, sadly i know this feeling. Its the coldest form of happiness but it seems normal on the outside. That's why it's often confounded with having a better phase. It's a weird kind of happiness because u are kinda happy indeed because u don't have to care about bad things anymore, but at the same time it feels so much more empty than ever before. It was so damn cold.
@@YJ-uo5hs For me it was not cold or euphoric or anything like that. I was just normal and relaxed. No burden or worries or anything else negative. Sadly, after I failed it all reverted to the regular crap lol It was nice while it lasted, I guess.
the way mizkif still cracks a joke near the end shows how strong he is as a person trying to make others laugh despite how much he is holding back. Rest in peace Reckful.
Thats just life.... It always keeps going, no matter whats happening... In 200 Years everyone currently existing will be forgotten, it will be like we never been here...
@@szandor4705 I mean the average person. Ofcourse there are ways to be remembered longer then 200years... But still then, everything will be forgotten one day if we get wiped out. History will be gone... Thats why its so important to make the next logical step into colonizing other planets, currently we so fragile on just 1 planet... Can get wiped out so easy... But thats a thing for the upcoming generations, im talking about next 1000years...We will see first humans on Mars, if we lucky but thats about it... Sadly, we still in Space Travel Stoneage...
I have a friend who attempted suicide and even that got me crying. I can’t imagine what it would be like to lose a close friend to suicide. It sucks. Rip
The fact that Reckful was happy on the last few days of his life meaning that he was accepting his fate and his illness. That is a common emotion that people with depression and suicidal thoughts have when they reach their final decision. When the thought of being dead out weight everything else is very hard to bring people back from it. The amount of pill and drug they need to take to get out of that mindset is monumental. Let this be a reminder that when your friend is openly talking about depression and suicidal or even you know about them hiding it, the sign of them being happy is something you shouldn't take as face value. You always have to think about if that happiness is real or just acceptation of fate. I'm sorry for everyone that effected by Reckful's death and hope people will pay more attention to their loved ones.
Agreed 1000% When you have someone who wakes up every day feeling emotion pain and when you feel that there is no end in sight, it takes a monumental amount of effort and careful intervention; not just by the individual, but friends family and any support net that they have, to keep them from spiraling. Like you said, once that pro and con discussion with yourself starts to go into the positives in terms of suicide, from personal experience, it is almost impossible to “convince” someone who is in severe emotional distress that the answer that they have worked themselves up to (suicide) is not worth it. It fucking sucks and I hope that all his friends and especially his family are being cared and looked after during this time. The mind is a beautiful thing, but it also can be one of the worst prisons.
Kazuki Mizkif is just a vert good person when it comes to handling his emotions you never expect the passing of a loved one, it will never feel comfortable. I remember when Etika passed, it was unreal.
Maksitaxi alot of people can say that but get annoyed after they tell you everything. i know from past experiences its really hard to break someone to talk to you stay up aLiEnS i love you believe it or fucking not we enjoy something we both have this in common whatever your going through brother you will get through it let it all out both of you
@@patrickkk7799 You might lose the battle, but you damn well fight to the very end. You deserve happiness as much as anybody else. This might sound stupid coming from a stranger, but I care about you. Don't ever give up.
I didn’t watch Reckful but after I read everyone’s tweet saying how good of a person and friend he was and how massively he impacted the community made me extremely upset. Rest easy Byron “Reckful” 💜
man, i used to watch the hell out of reckfuls japan streams. when he was there he was always smiling and im gonna regret never really tuning in on the streams, he is in a better place now. RIP RECKFUL he deserved a global emote
While I never knew the man, never spent much time watching his streams, I hope he found his peace. I'm not one for solemn speeches, all I can offer is my sincere condolences to his dear friends, his family, and all who knew him. Reckful, I hope that in the end, you were able to escape yourself. Rest in peace.
something very sad and very confusing about suicidal people is that when they start being happier its most probably be because they have decided that they are going to end it soon, it is possible that he knew he was going to do it and that gave him relief and happiness, very very sad truth... i dont know if this was his case but... it happens...
My grandmother commited suicide 3 years ago and as someone who has gone through something like this, you will always have that feeling of guilt or think stuff like i could have done more or why wasn't i there to stop it. Reckful you were and are an amazing guy and from the bottom of my heart I hope you're at rest now Thank you for having entertained us for years
I have never actually watched Rekful before. Just watching this video alone, still got me very emotional to the point where i started crying. I hope that everyone recovers from the pain that might have happend from loosing someone that you knew very closely. R.I.P.
I found videos of reckful on youtube, and he exposed me to twitch and hearthstone, and he was there for me in a time where I felt so alone. Without him I wouldn't know Dr. K, and Dr. K has changed my life. He's had such a positive impact on my life, and I had so much hope for him in the future. This is heartbreaking. We love you Byron; rest in peace
i never ever met him nor talked with him, but I feel like I lost a best friend from my childhood, Depression is no joke and a silent killer. RIP bro :( :(
The thing that’s sucks is people are gonna hear and read others saying reckful was this millionaire,a multi million anything on the line of being wealthy or extremely wealthy they’re gonna say “what did he have to be sad about he had all this money” and when your financially stable money is no longer the root of your problems. Your problems then are about relationships with friends family bfs gfs , how your treated irl and online, your problems are now personal, physiological, and emotional problems that can’t be solve because you have money
Matthew Bidinger yea that saying is somewhat a more personal preference bc some ppl would be happy if they got some money but what I say is money does buy happiness because with money you can buy something to make you happy but ofc in reckfuls case money isn’t anything he need it was something more
Theres kids in Africa starving for food and yall think ur lives are difficult show some gratitude Also depression isnt real its a medical industry scam to steal your money and it's working they make billions so do the therapists wake up and think logically I used to believe in the fairy tale too but i woke up life's been 100x better for me same with anxiety it's bullshit they made it up, think why people never spoke about depression 1000 years ago? Cause it's not real take care if you don't believe it's not real you will have a shitty life then goodluck
It hurts seeing a twitch idol die because he impacted many lives and seeing him gone pains me and others. Rip to reckful and you’re gonna be alright, keep your chin up
Reckful was a legend and I wish I could’ve gotten to know him more. Many must realize words can have a huge impact, especially to those who stand alone.
27:07 powerful message.. at the end of the day, all you really have is yourself 🥺 learn how to depend on *you.* LOVE *you.* Enjoy spending time with *you.* I’ve done a lot of work on myself over the last eight or so years. After my last toxic relationship.. I moved 2,000 miles away from everything I knew. At the time, I didn’t trust myself. I always jumped into a new relationship within WEEKS of a breakup. Knew I couldn’t stay away from my ex.. or a previous ex.. or a completely new person. I knew it. So I forced it on myself. Told myself I’ll give it one full year of being completely single. No hookups, flirting, relationships.. _nothing._ Well.. ended up loving being alone so much that one year turned to five. Now I’ve been single for eight years and I’m my own best friend. Now my issues is forcing myself to be social 😂 which is so crazy because I absolutely DESPISED being alone. Now I fkn love it. I notice that the only times I ever fall into a really deep depression is when I depend on others too much.. and they let me down. It crushes me. But not for long! Not enough to take my life. You know why? Cause I know *I* got me. I know there’s always someone who will never let me down.. that I can always depend on. And that’s *me.* People suck man. People will hurt you, let you down, break your heart. You gotta learn how to lean on yourself and depend on _you._ Great advice my guy ♥️ the whole “check on your friends” thing is great. But really.. if they’re gonna do it, they’re gonna do it. You can’t stop it. Can’t help someone who isn’t gonna help their self 🥺
As someone who has been through depression, and suicide attempts, please, don’t be afraid to talk out to someone. People care about you more than you think. Rest in Peace, Byron.
Man, Reckful's been a big name the last like 10 years or so, i started wow in vanilla and i remember his name cause i used to watch swifty and athene back in 09-2013ish. I never really followed him, but i have seen him featured in other's media quite a bit. I too have struggled with depression since my teen years, and seeing someone like me, coming from the same games i played as well. It's really sad and i was actually really upset upon hearing the news. I want to also comment to show my support and send my condolences to fans of his who see this. RIP Byron "Reckful" Bernstein
As someone who has been diagnosed with severe depression (I’m okay now) I knew suicide wasn’t a good option and that I could get better but when you’re in that state you feel so shit that you feel like it’s the only option left to make you feel better. It sucks but the pain from depression is unimaginable, it can even be physical but the emotional pain I had while depressed is something I can never fully explain. It’s horrible. I’m so glad I’m not depressed anymore but I have my lows and I still get panic attacks. But you can always get better. May he rest in peace ❤️.
@@boobyblasterboy Not necessarily. Before the attempt I had the best morning I had in about 10-15 years before it and all this time after. I hope it was the same for him so that he got at least a bit of relief at the end.
A lot of times when someone who seems to be suicidal suddenly appears to be doing much it’s because they have made up their mind and are feeling relief. It’s just something to keep in mind if you’re dealing with someone going through this.
It's... It's rough when people commit suicide... My great grandfather overdosed on purpose... You eventually get over it mostly but that small feeling of guilt... I'm sorry.. You'll have it forever
Man i can't believe this, i'm fucking heart broken, i never even knew i could feel this way with someone i haven't met personally. Byron got me through the hardest of times. I wish i could just give this man a hug.... RIP Byron, you're a legend.
I've just run some AI text generation scripts for my work while watching this. After the video ended, I checked the results and the last generated sentence was "i propose that we celebrate how much the folks in town love you ."
I saw my brother/best friend dead on the floor of our old house. He was stiff, white, cold, had blue lips that were all cracked. That image lives in my head.. he was young. Been a year. Still can't get over it
I've watched this video so many times. Miz is an amazing person. He touched on everything important and still kept it together. Know way I could have done that if my friend died like that. Miz is a real one. RIP Reckful
I didn't even know this guy existed till now but I can tell he had a positive effect on so many people. And his brother losing both his siblings is just so fucked. Mental health needs to be focused on more then anything right now.
i had a friend who i never knew was going through depression. we had a little picnic during one time and there was this sudden urge that i just needed to hug him. it was a feeling that i needed to hug him, nothing else to it, just to hug him out of nowhere. and so i did and he cried so hard as we hugged because it felt like no matter if i knew or not about what he was going through, there is always light in such a dark place. just that one hug changed his view at that current time. now he's one of my bestest friends and is the happiest guy i've ever known. please. if you know someone or have a feeling like someone is going through the toughest times, do something to help. whether its talking or just one simple hug. it can change a life no matter how you view it. i wasn't a viewer of Reckful but i do feel for him, i wish i knew him to give him that same hug i did to my friend and may he rest in peace.
Sorry y’all guys have to go through this, I didn’t really watch reckful, but I’ve been there when Etika passed and I just wanna say, don’t blame yourself. You didn’t have anything to do with it. We couldn’t have stopped it. I’m sorry y’all have to experience this. I am here to say it gets better, I’m really am sorry you have to go through this. I’ve felt the same way y’all have. We’ll get through this together.
I didn’t think this would hurt me as much as it does, relates to a lot of us with how open he was with issues and goes through very similar situations a lot of us, ours may not be the same but it’s similar
i totally empathize with your friends death my best wow friend just died this month and its very hard, i don't know if you were joking but man you have a vain veiw of the world when streams equals worth.
I know how Reckful must have felt. I’m 41 and I don’t remember a time I haven’t thought of ending it. It’s horrible to have these constant thoughts. If you’re able to hold on to something in your life even if it’s something small. I don’t have any support of family or friends... I feel very very alone. When I had friends and distraction I didn’t have these constant thoughts. Now I stick around for my pets which seems pathetic but they need me, wouldn’t survive at this point with someone else. It sounds really sad and pathetic but I gotta hold on to something. If you feel the same way and are alone too having something to care for helps. Your not completely alone and that living thing depends on you. A dog is even better cause it forces you to get out of your house even if you don’t want to. RIP Reckful, I’m sorry you couldn’t find something to live for. It’s incredibly sad
It’s eye opening to see how deep his problems truly went with suicidal depression. Genuinely makes you wonder what pushed him over the edge after so many years of struggling.
I felt happy when ever I decided that I will kill myself at home....I felt like I was finally free, it's finally over... That is why he probably seemed happier in the last few days.
Most people who feel that way do so because of the belief that death is better than life- In reality, it isn't. It's literally just darkness. Can't see, can't breathe, and can't move. It sucks.
I just I went into a deep yell of cry that my parents came yelling in my room thinking I was crazy, I myself didn’t know him very much but seeing all the hate he got. I just broke down little did I know he had walked the stairs to heaven that day, I just want to post this for people to see how cruel this world is. And How painful it can be but stand with pride and courage because I was there many times and I’ve tried to do it and I’m glad I failed. Because I regret everything I’ve done to myself because I’ve seen that if I ever if I ever kill myself im not hurting myself because I’m dead and I’m being sent somewhere else. The only people I will hurt are the people whom love me. I know that from experience since some of my family members have died of OD, and suicide and I’ve seen how affected people are. So people please stay, and have a great day!
Seriously...Ice gets it so hard I’m surprised he’s still here. As someone’s dealt with someone w/self-harm issues to the fucking edge is so saddening & infuriating at the same time. Makes you wanna shake them & ask why. Especially when you did everything you could
i wish i had friends like this. i literally tell everyone about my depression but people just stoppied talking to me responding to me and just get annoyed that im always depressed.
@@tothemax3884 ive done therapy meds everything. sometimes you just hate life and the only way to get throught it is find something to distract you for the day and as i said all my friends kinda gave up. they dont jknow how to help me and i cant blame them
i still watched some of old reckfull videos on wow level 80 and 85 always got me the chills,watched alot of hes videos hes birthday video,this is a huge hit to me i dont know why it feels much more frostrating than all of the deaths ive heard or seen ,,,,
I didn’t watch his streams but I followed his socials and some videos like him on typeracer destroying t1 but that moment where you browsed that just chatting section and every chat filled with Purple Hearts
@Car Ram-Rod that wasnt supposed to be a joke but rather a methapor. the year has been filled with suffering and hate not only on social media but also on the news. by saying "i want this to end" i mean that it would be great to see news about positive things. it feels like this permanent negativity rubs off on everyone and makes everyone even more sad esp in combination with covid considering you see news a lot more frequent since you have so much time at home.
This reminds me a lot of when Robert Williams passed. People who are hurting the most always try to be the most caring to those around them. It's like since they know how low you can go that they don't want others to feel that way and try to lift them up. It's just sad to see that they ultimately aren't able to lift themselves up as well. RIP Reckful
I just cant Believe that this is reality. I have watched reckful for almost 3 years now and i never knew this abut him. Thank you for sharing this Miz and may byron reast in peace.....
I cant believe Miz saw the body before anyone else...I can relate to seeing a loved one dying/dead in front of you. Its always the what ifs man...i hope he stays strong
It's kind of ironic since Reckful constantly berated and accused Miz of never coming to see him. And it wasn't clear at all that Reckful was going to do it. He was just clearly going through his dangerous manic phase and I guess Miz knew him well enough to know he was in danger.
Stfu
# Yoda_drug_addict yooooo chill
@@dekarmeryalmar8774 not now man, chill out
I personally didn't watch Reckful that much, but hearing he committed suicide pains me deeply
Rest in peace Reckful, I hope you're in a happier place now
Same, his impact on all of twitch is so big its so hard to truly feel his impact fully until he had fully left. I didnt watch him but I cried because he is more than just an entertainer.
me too. i only really watched his highlights from a while ago and just seeing and being apart of the memorials in WoW made me feel something.
same after hearing everyone sharing their experiences
Same
I just didnt like what they did to XQC, his chat was spamming for him to react to it, not understanding that alot of people grief but don't show it so pls don't spam for your streamers to react to a death
I've said it before, and I'll say it again, XQC's chat/community is the worst on twitch
I love xqc but his community is terrible.
@@richfitzgerald833 absolutely, same here
Bro even I watch a lot of xqc but I m not like the others in the community I am so sad seeing miz crying 😢 but one thing u need to change in that comment it's not the community but a part of it cuz even if people like us are less in xqcs community we r there and r a part of it and again I m deeply sad with reckfuls passing away...😢
@@richfitzgerald833 A lot of fuckers are there just to get reactions for lsf. Yesterday he also had like double his normal viewers I think because of drops and shit which made it a lot worse. People who aren't there normally see some retards spamming for him to react to it and they start doing it. Not saying there isn't a lot of dogshit in his community
He was so open on his streams and he felt like a friend because he shared EVERYTHING. Related and empathized with the guy and watched him since early hearthstone days. First time I cried over someone I have never met, ever. I miss you Byron
Amen
As a survivor of depression and failed suicide ,pls to anyone that has suicidal thoughts and depression, talk to someone, dont keep it all to yourself...
This is true as hell I tried to kill myself via jumping from a building but I survived and as soon as I jumped i regretted that shit so hard
Goro Majima jesus fucking christ are you ok and happy now?
idk i dont keep it to myself but what does that change
I almost shot my self and I had my finger on the trigger then I stopped my dad stopped me RIP dad RIP rekful
I hope you guys are okay
Reckful was the kind of person that if you felt alone and you watched his stream you felt like you belonged somewhere. He was so kind and unique we shall miss you R.I.P
He helped me feel not so alone years ago when i was going through some dark times. I learned a lot from watching too. Not just about the games he was playing but about things in general. He was sooo incredibly smart
Damn, his brother commited suicide when he was younger too.
Now there’s only one brother left.. I feel so sad for his poor family. Reckful’s parents were broken after Guy died and now this
@@vlazurah789 Guy, not Gary.
Ryuukai right, it must’ve autocorrected my bad
People who have had siblings commit suicide are more likely to do it themselves, statistically.
If you search back far enough Reckful was always hurting from his brother's death and even spoke about the toxicity of the KYS phrase on his streams and others.
RIP. shoutouts to everyone struggling out there. shit is rough. bipolar here. do your best, love your people.
Shoutout to you too, home slice
How Reckful died? he shot himself or what?
I'm trying.., you guys stay strong too! Much love!
Love you too brother stay strong stay loved
sucks being bipolar amiright, i got diagnosed a couple months ago
What's insane was I randomly thought about him just Monday. So I looked him up and I watched a bunch of videos of him talking about his new game. He seemed so happy and excited about his game. You never know what people are going thru behind the smile. Rip.
Bro I feel like I almost have a 6th sense. I did the same exact thing two night ago
The first thing I thought about was his game ever land and how he’ll never be able too see it finished
just some minutes before the news came out reckfuls twitter was recommended for me and i followed him, its so heartbreaking man
I did exactly the same thing
I did the exact same things 2 nights ago crazy.
I remember watching Dr K's Interview with reckful and I related to him a lot. So sad to see this happen to him. Rest In Peace Reckful.
I watched them too. Not a lot of streams of Reckful. I understood his pain. It feels so heavy. R.I.P. from Germany
Dr. K's response to this whole situation is heartbreaking.
I don’t watch reckful really, but I watched his Japan streams on UA-cam and watched every single one of them. Throughout it all I’ve just loved the way he interacted with strangers and other people. The friends he made along the journey was one of the best things to watch develop. And although I didnt watch him often especially now, I can’t help but cry and be so sad. Especially seeing the people that I do watch daily react to his death and break down, it’s really painful.
No more suffering... R.i.p.. Love you Byron...
Thank you Mizkif ... Love you... And thank you for setting it straight when you didn't have to.. Take care of yourself..
My heart goes out to Byron's family...
Change must start here..
I feel Mizkif's pain 100%, I lost my girlfriend 5/8/20 when she last her battle to depression and took abused her sleeping meds and ended up dying in her sleep..... The pain, feeling and shock of waking up next to your dead girlfriend will never leave me head, we tried so much to make her happy and help her out but the depression was just too much..... Please always check on your friends and family, you need to remind them that they MEAN something to alot of people...... RIP Ash
Damn man I’m so sorry. I could only imagine the pain, I hope you’re doing better nowadays
I'm so sorry this has happened to you. I hope that you can get through this and keep the good memories with you
I'm so sorry bro....
I'm sorry to hear that man 😢 I hope you're doing well Thoughts and prayers go out to y'all 🙏
Honestly, when someone is overly happy with major depressive disorder, it's never good. You have to watch these people more than anyone else because 9/10 they are happy cause they know that they're about to leave this world. They have a plan and know the time is right and because of this, they are the happiest they've ever been. It's like you just found out about a surprise trip to paradise, you couldn't be happier.
That’s my thought too. Most people are unaware of this however.
Also the extreme highs and lows that come with the disorder. An all-time high can easily transition into an all-time low in a second. Overall extremely unpredictable and saddening to watch.
I wouldnt use "overly happy" tho. Its much more of calm, at peace demenaor. Not very energetic and overly happy. And this usually only happens right before the suicide, as most people dont plan far ahead when deciding to do it (1 day into the future is probably the most common). And way more common signs is them talking about suicide, social isolation, drugs/alcohol and loss of interest.
RED GATOR you’re a sick piece of shit
That’s a scary thought damn.
Thx for sharing this. It means alot to hear someone close to him talk about it in this way! RIP reckful and we will always remember you!
I'm so, so... so sorry.
I'm hurting and I only knew him through a screen for a few years.
This just... sucks.
I know so many people say this but 2020 is truly a horrible year
Mr.subzone every damn second it's getting worse and worse
Some Guy Are you kidding right now?
@@tw6428 How is racism bad except for the racism
Some Guy Look up the word Empathy. It’ll help you grow as a person.
Some Guy were not asking for your kneel what we do ask for is your respect please. were grieving he was some of our best friend eventhough he didn’t know us. your opinion matters please don’t let you be known as a bad one ❤️
I feel really bad for reckfuls brother and family, people really treat streamers like trash while they are also human. Rip
When someone suicidal seem happy, its most likely because they're ready to go... Im speaking from experience.
Normal people have to hide up their real emotions for things. Someone could seem the happiest person ever but in reality they are extremely depressed. I know this from experience too. I know how you feel. It is the saddest event when someone commits suicide because this can be prevented. RIP Reckful
Jac Peche
*What you just said , is honestly terrifying*
Dammit 2020
That is true, sadly i know this feeling. Its the coldest form of happiness but it seems normal on the outside. That's why it's often confounded with having a better phase.
It's a weird kind of happiness because u are kinda happy indeed because u don't have to care about bad things anymore, but at the same time it feels so much more empty than ever before. It was so damn cold.
Ultrahorizon you are exactly correct
@@YJ-uo5hs For me it was not cold or euphoric or anything like that. I was just normal and relaxed. No burden or worries or anything else negative. Sadly, after I failed it all reverted to the regular crap lol It was nice while it lasted, I guess.
the way mizkif still cracks a joke near the end shows how strong he is as a person trying to make others laugh despite how much he is holding back. Rest in peace Reckful.
What he said about how everything will return to normal in a few days is so sad because you know it's true. RipReck
Yeah truh... i almost forgot about etika Last year
Thats just life.... It always keeps going, no matter whats happening... In 200 Years everyone currently existing will be forgotten, it will be like we never been here...
@@gomary09 I'd disagree about the use of the term "everyone" there are thousands of people remembered 200+ years ago today. Right?
@@szandor4705 I mean the average person. Ofcourse there are ways to be remembered longer then 200years... But still then, everything will be forgotten one day if we get wiped out. History will be gone...
Thats why its so important to make the next logical step into colonizing other planets, currently we so fragile on just 1 planet... Can get wiped out so easy... But thats a thing for the upcoming generations, im talking about next 1000years...We will see first humans on Mars, if we lucky but thats about it... Sadly, we still in Space Travel Stoneage...
I have a friend who attempted suicide and even that got me crying. I can’t imagine what it would be like to lose a close friend to suicide. It sucks. Rip
Yea, learning a friend tried that is traumatising. I cant imagine what it felt like to have someone actually pass on is horrifying
Lmao
Your Nan bruh u fucked in the head
@@noahbritton-davies4447 it's funny
@@yournan7249 you're trying too hard to be edgy, get off the internet
The fact that Reckful was happy on the last few days of his life meaning that he was accepting his fate and his illness. That is a common emotion that people with depression and suicidal thoughts have when they reach their final decision. When the thought of being dead out weight everything else is very hard to bring people back from it. The amount of pill and drug they need to take to get out of that mindset is monumental. Let this be a reminder that when your friend is openly talking about depression and suicidal or even you know about them hiding it, the sign of them being happy is something you shouldn't take as face value. You always have to think about if that happiness is real or just acceptation of fate. I'm sorry for everyone that effected by Reckful's death and hope people will pay more attention to their loved ones.
Agreed 1000%
When you have someone who wakes up every day feeling emotion pain and when you feel that there is no end in sight, it takes a monumental amount of effort and careful intervention; not just by the individual, but friends family and any support net that they have, to keep them from spiraling.
Like you said, once that pro and con discussion with yourself starts to go into the positives in terms of suicide, from personal experience, it is almost impossible to “convince” someone who is in severe emotional distress that the answer that they have worked themselves up to (suicide) is not worth it.
It fucking sucks and I hope that all his friends and especially his family are being cared and looked after during this time.
The mind is a beautiful thing, but it also can be one of the worst prisons.
I can’t believe this, this doesn’t seem real
Yea his reaction feels off
@@crowmaster9652 Because its probably his fire time reacting to something like this and hes probably still shocked
Kazuki Mizkif is just a vert good person when it comes to handling his emotions
you never expect the passing of a loved one, it will never feel comfortable. I remember when Etika passed, it was unreal.
Crowmaster Mat doesn't react like the norm to emotional things. Trust he is hurting really bad.
@@maksitaxi Yeah
Rip to the king of rogues and my deepest apologies to ur loss man im sure that he was more amazing in life then hes streams
He was such a genuine person I feel like it's a bad nightmare.... I didn't know him personally but you can see it
look at that guy Miz man...wow he has such a unique way of speaking. Hats off to you Miz you are a composed man and very humble. Rest in peace Byron.
When he said check on your friends but check on yourself too :(
cant say i blame him as someone who fights demons everyday if my family wasnt here id be gone already that pain is a long battle we cant win it seems
im here for you bro whats going on
Maksitaxi life just crumbles
Maksitaxi alot of people can say that but get annoyed after they tell you everything. i know from past experiences its really hard to break someone to talk to you stay up aLiEnS i love you believe it or fucking not we enjoy something we both have this in common whatever your going through brother you will get through it let it all out both of you
@@patrickkk7799 pick up the crambles, and keep going!!
@@patrickkk7799 You might lose the battle, but you damn well fight to the very end. You deserve happiness as much as anybody else. This might sound stupid coming from a stranger, but I care about you. Don't ever give up.
I didn’t watch Reckful but after I read everyone’s tweet saying how good of a person and friend he was and how massively he impacted the community made me extremely upset.
Rest easy Byron “Reckful” 💜
man, i used to watch the hell out of reckfuls japan streams. when he was there he was always smiling and im gonna regret never really tuning in on the streams, he is in a better place now.
RIP RECKFUL
he deserved a global emote
While I never knew the man, never spent much time watching his streams, I hope he found his peace. I'm not one for solemn speeches, all I can offer is my sincere condolences to his dear friends, his family, and all who knew him. Reckful, I hope that in the end, you were able to escape yourself.
Rest in peace.
something very sad and very confusing about suicidal people is that when they start being happier its most probably be because they have decided that they are going to end it soon, it is possible that he knew he was going to do it and that gave him relief and happiness, very very sad truth... i dont know if this was his case but... it happens...
Thank you for sharing. 💖💖💖
My grandmother commited suicide 3 years ago and as someone who has gone through something like this, you will always have that feeling of guilt or think stuff like i could have done more or why wasn't i there to stop it. Reckful you were and are an amazing guy and from the bottom of my heart I hope you're at rest now
Thank you for having entertained us for years
I have never actually watched Rekful before. Just watching this video alone, still got me very emotional to the point where i started crying. I hope that everyone recovers from the pain that might have happend from loosing someone that you knew very closely. R.I.P.
I found videos of reckful on youtube, and he exposed me to twitch and hearthstone, and he was there for me in a time where I felt so alone. Without him I wouldn't know Dr. K, and Dr. K has changed my life. He's had such a positive impact on my life, and I had so much hope for him in the future. This is heartbreaking. We love you Byron; rest in peace
They always take the good ones, rip Reckful we already miss you 😔
The good ones take themselves, and they can't keep them here :)
i never ever met him nor talked with him, but I feel like I lost a best friend from my childhood, Depression is no joke and a silent killer. RIP bro :( :(
The thing that’s sucks is people are gonna hear and read others saying reckful was this millionaire,a multi million anything on the line of being wealthy or extremely wealthy they’re gonna say “what did he have to be sad about he had all this money” and when your financially stable money is no longer the root of your problems. Your problems then are about relationships with friends family bfs gfs , how your treated irl and online, your problems are now personal, physiological, and emotional problems that can’t be solve because you have money
Having that much money probably made it worse, less purpose in life
@@PhungNalle That and being constantly confronted with a life that should be making you happy... but it's not. Sad =(
there's that saying that money doesn't buy happiness, it defs applies here if anything it makes you feel more alone imho.
Matthew Bidinger yea that saying is somewhat a more personal preference bc some ppl would be happy if they got some money but what I say is money does buy happiness because with money you can buy something to make you happy but ofc in reckfuls case money isn’t anything he need it was something more
Theres kids in Africa starving for food and yall think ur lives are difficult show some gratitude
Also depression isnt real its a medical industry scam to steal your money and it's working they make billions so do the therapists wake up and think logically I used to believe in the fairy tale too but i woke up life's been 100x better for me same with anxiety it's bullshit they made it up, think why people never spoke about depression 1000 years ago? Cause it's not real take care if you don't believe it's not real you will have a shitty life then goodluck
Rest in peace:(
It hurts seeing a twitch idol die because he impacted many lives and seeing him gone pains me and others. Rip to reckful and you’re gonna be alright, keep your chin up
I watched him from the beginning. Felt like I knew him.
RIP in peace, Reckful you are missed and loved.
Reckful was a legend and I wish I could’ve gotten to know him more. Many must realize words can have a huge impact, especially to those who stand alone.
its an unbelievably mature take to tell the people who told him to kill himself not to feel responsible. for real
27:07 powerful message.. at the end of the day, all you really have is yourself 🥺 learn how to depend on *you.* LOVE *you.* Enjoy spending time with *you.*
I’ve done a lot of work on myself over the last eight or so years. After my last toxic relationship.. I moved 2,000 miles away from everything I knew. At the time, I didn’t trust myself. I always jumped into a new relationship within WEEKS of a breakup. Knew I couldn’t stay away from my ex.. or a previous ex.. or a completely new person. I knew it. So I forced it on myself. Told myself I’ll give it one full year of being completely single. No hookups, flirting, relationships.. _nothing._ Well.. ended up loving being alone so much that one year turned to five. Now I’ve been single for eight years and I’m my own best friend. Now my issues is forcing myself to be social 😂 which is so crazy because I absolutely DESPISED being alone. Now I fkn love it.
I notice that the only times I ever fall into a really deep depression is when I depend on others too much.. and they let me down. It crushes me. But not for long! Not enough to take my life. You know why? Cause I know *I* got me. I know there’s always someone who will never let me down.. that I can always depend on. And that’s *me.*
People suck man. People will hurt you, let you down, break your heart. You gotta learn how to lean on yourself and depend on _you._ Great advice my guy ♥️ the whole “check on your friends” thing is great. But really.. if they’re gonna do it, they’re gonna do it. You can’t stop it. Can’t help someone who isn’t gonna help their self 🥺
As someone who has been through depression, and suicide attempts, please, don’t be afraid to talk out to someone. People care about you more than you think. Rest in Peace, Byron.
Man, Reckful's been a big name the last like 10 years or so, i started wow in vanilla and i remember his name cause i used to watch swifty and athene back in 09-2013ish. I never really followed him, but i have seen him featured in other's media quite a bit. I too have struggled with depression since my teen years, and seeing someone like me, coming from the same games i played as well.
It's really sad and i was actually really upset upon hearing the news.
I want to also comment to show my support and send my condolences to fans of his who see this.
RIP Byron "Reckful" Bernstein
As someone who has been diagnosed with severe depression (I’m okay now) I knew suicide wasn’t a good option and that I could get better but when you’re in that state you feel so shit that you feel like it’s the only option left to make you feel better.
It sucks but the pain from depression is unimaginable, it can even be physical but the emotional pain I had while depressed is something I can never fully explain. It’s horrible. I’m so glad I’m not depressed anymore but I have my lows and I still get panic attacks. But you can always get better. May he rest in peace ❤️.
Rest easy Byron, you did so much & will be remembered forever
Sucks when you try to imagine the things that were going through his head in his last moments. Rip Byron
Unimaginable. Must’ve been so scary and painful to go through. May he Rest In Peace in a much better place then this earth.
@@boobyblasterboy Not necessarily. Before the attempt I had the best morning I had in about 10-15 years before it and all this time after. I hope it was the same for him so that he got at least a bit of relief at the end.
10:07 he's talking about tyler1's stream/video on this if anyone is wondering
he was just on his alt and said he hadn't seen tyler's take, he watched it on stream and didnt like it
@@marklion315 what is his fucking alt
Alt account
@@PropheticShadeZ yes, what is it, what's it's name
@@ervin6270 yes, I want to know that too
A lot of times when someone who seems to be suicidal suddenly appears to be doing much it’s because they have made up their mind and are feeling relief. It’s just something to keep in mind if you’re dealing with someone going through this.
Ive had issues overthinking and being trapped in my own head for a long time and watching this is really helps me feel like I'm not alone.
How are you doing now? I hope better :)
It's... It's rough when people commit suicide... My great grandfather overdosed on purpose... You eventually get over it mostly but that small feeling of guilt... I'm sorry.. You'll have it forever
I didn’t know he existed before he died and now that I watch mizkif today and hearing and listening to miz it is so sad to see him cry
You made him happy Miz. You and Slick. He's proud of you mate.
Man i can't believe this, i'm fucking heart broken, i never even knew i could feel this way with someone i haven't met personally. Byron got me through the hardest of times. I wish i could just give this man a hug.... RIP Byron, you're a legend.
I've just run some AI text generation scripts for my work while watching this. After the video ended, I checked the results and the last generated sentence was "i propose that we celebrate how much the folks in town love you ."
🤗
I saw my brother/best friend dead on the floor of our old house. He was stiff, white, cold, had blue lips that were all cracked. That image lives in my head.. he was young. Been a year. Still can't get over it
You will get over it i believe in you
time heals all wounds friend hang in there
Rest in peace Reckful, you‘ll never be forgotten!
I've watched this video so many times. Miz is an amazing person. He touched on everything important and still kept it together. Know way I could have done that if my friend died like that. Miz is a real one. RIP Reckful
I didn't even know this guy existed till now but I can tell he had a positive effect on so many people. And his brother losing both his siblings is just so fucked. Mental health needs to be focused on more then anything right now.
i had a friend who i never knew was going through depression. we had a little picnic during one time and there was this sudden urge that i just needed to hug him. it was a feeling that i needed to hug him, nothing else to it, just to hug him out of nowhere. and so i did and he cried so hard as we hugged because it felt like no matter if i knew or not about what he was going through, there is always light in such a dark place. just that one hug changed his view at that current time. now he's one of my bestest friends and is the happiest guy i've ever known. please. if you know someone or have a feeling like someone is going through the toughest times, do something to help. whether its talking or just one simple hug. it can change a life no matter how you view it. i wasn't a viewer of Reckful but i do feel for him, i wish i knew him to give him that same hug i did to my friend and may he rest in peace.
R.I.P Reckful 😔✊🏻
2019: Etika
2020: Reckful
let’s hope next year no streamer/ youtubers dies
Yea another youtuber named iceycat took his life this week as well, it fucking sucks man
Dolphin Reverse iceycat was awsome man atleast they are in a better place.
*It will only get WORSER due to people becoming shitter*
2020 is not good year...
Dolphin Reverse WHAT???
Sorry y’all guys have to go through this, I didn’t really watch reckful, but I’ve been there when Etika passed and I just wanna say, don’t blame yourself. You didn’t have anything to do with it. We couldn’t have stopped it. I’m sorry y’all have to experience this. I am here to say it gets better, I’m really am sorry you have to go through this. I’ve felt the same way y’all have. We’ll get through this together.
Rest in peace Byron..
this gave me chills, much love out to everyone
Rest in peace Byron, I hope everyone stays strong xqcL
I didn’t think this would hurt me as much as it does, relates to a lot of us with how open he was with issues and goes through very similar situations a lot of us, ours may not be the same but it’s similar
learn from this people! Rip reckful you absolute legend!
I never knew about Reckful, but I hope he is resting easy. God bless his soul ❤️
“Find a way” ~Tyler1
Reckful was a living legend and he didn't even realise.. Life is fucking brutal.
"When WoW died he died" man when Miz said that i broke down
I never heard of Reckful, but this is sad. Rest in peace Reckful
i totally empathize with your friends death my best wow friend just died this month and its very hard, i don't know if you were joking but man you have a vain veiw of the world when streams equals worth.
So sorry for the loss of your friend. Rip.
I know how Reckful must have felt. I’m 41 and I don’t remember a time I haven’t thought of ending it. It’s horrible to have these constant thoughts. If you’re able to hold on to something in your life even if it’s something small. I don’t have any support of family or friends... I feel very very alone. When I had friends and distraction I didn’t have these constant thoughts. Now I stick around for my pets which seems pathetic but they need me, wouldn’t survive at this point with someone else. It sounds really sad and pathetic but I gotta hold on to something. If you feel the same way and are alone too having something to care for helps. Your not completely alone and that living thing depends on you. A dog is even better cause it forces you to get out of your house even if you don’t want to. RIP Reckful, I’m sorry you couldn’t find something to live for. It’s incredibly sad
Rest in peace, this hurts me to see this happen, this is so unfair, who in their right mind would
drive someone to the point that this would happen.
It’s eye opening to see how deep his problems truly went with suicidal depression. Genuinely makes you wonder what pushed him over the edge after so many years of struggling.
I felt happy when ever I decided that I will kill myself at home....I felt like I was finally free, it's finally over...
That is why he probably seemed happier in the last few days.
Hope you are fine by now and dont feel that anymore!
Sun y happy?
Most people who feel that way do so because of the belief that death is better than life-
In reality, it isn't. It's literally just darkness. Can't see, can't breathe, and can't move. It sucks.
Salty Oreo maybe they would rather feel that instead of living
@@thecheese1120
Wdym "feel"
You literally feel nothing whatsoever
I can only assume you processed this video in 480p for the faster render and therefore upload, fucking respect the grind bro!
I just I went into a deep yell of cry that my parents came yelling in my room thinking I was crazy, I myself didn’t know him very much but seeing all the hate he got. I just broke down little did I know he had walked the stairs to heaven that day, I just want to post this for people to see how cruel this world is. And How painful it can be but stand with pride and courage because I was there many times and I’ve tried to do it and I’m glad I failed. Because I regret everything I’ve done to myself because I’ve seen that if I ever if I ever kill myself im not hurting myself because I’m dead and I’m being sent somewhere else. The only people I will hurt are the people whom love me. I know that from experience since some of my family members have died of OD, and suicide and I’ve seen how affected people are. So people please stay, and have a great day!
Seriously...Ice gets it so hard I’m surprised he’s still here. As someone’s dealt with someone w/self-harm issues to the fucking edge is so saddening & infuriating at the same time. Makes you wanna shake them & ask why. Especially when you did everything you could
Just when I thought this year couldn't get any worse
feel ya man i hope u get better
i wish i had friends like this. i literally tell everyone about my depression but people just stoppied talking to me responding to me and just get annoyed that im always depressed.
i understand the pain reckful is going through. dying seems like the only escape. i hope hes in a better place now
It’ll get better❤️
If you have can, you should really try reaching out to a therapist for help. You don’t have to go through that alone
@@tothemax3884 ive done therapy meds everything. sometimes you just hate life and the only way to get throught it is find something to distract you for the day
and as i said all my friends kinda gave up. they dont jknow how to help me and i cant blame them
Vicious suh PhoenixCamille#0695 Talk to me
i still feel numb when watching this. physically and mentally.
mentally*
“ When WOW died he died” that game was hes escape from reality obv
I know Reckful since last year and i didnt know this i waited for him 1 year. This Video makes me Fkn cry. RIP Reckful..
Sometimes you really need to talk to someone you know when you feel down.
i still watched some of old reckfull videos on wow level 80 and 85 always got me the chills,watched alot of hes videos hes birthday video,this is a huge hit to me i dont know why it feels much more frostrating than all of the deaths ive heard or seen ,,,,
"Get off the internet and do something with your life"... and hearing that from a streamer.
He's so right.
I didn’t watch his streams but I followed his socials and some videos like him on typeracer destroying t1 but that moment where you browsed that just chatting section and every chat filled with Purple Hearts
We should just end this year early.
We're just half way through.
fk this year tbh
I still can't believe how crazy this year is. It is one of the most fucked up things.
@Car Ram-Rod that wasnt supposed to be a joke but rather a methapor. the year has been filled with suffering and hate not only on social media but also on the news. by saying "i want this to end" i mean that it would be great to see news about positive things. it feels like this permanent negativity rubs off on everyone and makes everyone even more sad esp in combination with covid considering you see news a lot more frequent since you have so much time at home.
though i understand that this is probably not the right comment for this video. im sorry. i didnt mean to be disrespectful.
This reminds me a lot of when Robert Williams passed. People who are hurting the most always try to be the most caring to those around them. It's like since they know how low you can go that they don't want others to feel that way and try to lift them up. It's just sad to see that they ultimately aren't able to lift themselves up as well. RIP Reckful
You don't know what personal battles/struggles someone is going through, be kind to everyone.
I just cant Believe that this is reality. I have watched reckful for almost 3 years now and i never knew this abut him. Thank you for sharing this Miz and may byron reast in peace.....
he fought so hard
I can understand what it feels like seeing the one you loved just... gone 😔