I relate to that phrase so much I think the only way we can progress is by taking a truth so morbid and flipping it into a beautiful meaning. I really hope he’s doing better now ♥️
That mitski tweet when she said “I used to rebel by destroying myself, but realized that’s awfully convenient to the world. For some of us our best revolt is self preservation”
“I just work at an aquarium now. I didn’t have to apply, I don’t have to clock in, I don’t smell like fish, I just straight up work there.” Honestly goals.
Drew’s fan base has got to be one the most compassionate and understanding. We’re always so happy to hear from him and there’s never pressure from us for him to upload. We genuinely care about his well being and can appreciate the bits and pieces he’s willing to share with us. We’re also hilarious because King Drew is effortlessly the funniest in the platform by far.
The part about needing a relationship with yourself really spoke to me. We need to stop being so negative to our inner monologues and start talking to ourselves like we don't hate who we are all the time.
You probably grossly underestimate how many people you’ve connected with over the years, but this one feels especially candid and refreshing. Hope you stick around, Drew.
Thank you for existing. My daughter has had crippling anxiety since she was 9 yrs old. We have watched you on UA-cam for a long time. When you talk about your struggles with mental health it gives her hope. It makes her feel not alone.
Loving yourself is so hard! It feels fake and egotistical at times, but you’re so right, it’s a matter of survival. Glad to see this update from you, and please let me touch a stingray at the aquarium.
“i will die if i don’t at least make an attempt to love myself” i’m literally at that point right now, thank you so much for sharing so honestly drew. we missed you ❤️
“I will die if I don’t say I love you.” This line hit so deep. I’m writing this comment in bed after one of the worst depression slumps ever and cried from watching you verbalize everything I was thinking so beautifully, yet again. You are a consistent inspiration. I hope one day you can appreciate yourself as much as we appreciate and cherish you.
You’re literally the most effortlessly funny person on the internet. This video showed how much i missed listening to you. I think about you all the time and always wish you well. Love you!!
I've literally been retyping this comment in for like 5 minutes because I cannot form sentences to save my life. But this video was the silver lining the universe threw me today and I hope this comment helps you see how your light shines on others. Seriously, can't explain how much I needed to hear these words tonight. Thank you for being genuine and beautiful.
+ Same. Drew’s videos do add a random pop of Seenness into my life. This one was really unexpected and kinda jus really made me feel good. It also further confirmed my theory that I am, in fact, Drew Monson.
“my wife is sleeping… and my husband”… “I’d suggest you be nice to me” THIS. THIS humor is what we’ve missed Drew! You’re one of the most effortlessly funny people that made me laugh when I was growing up and now still never fails to make me laugh. You are so genuine and I hope you are feeling the happiness you deserve ❤️
When we say we “miss you” THIS exact vibe is what most of us mean. Just you and the camera and your unique stream of consciousness. That Stream of conscious has grown and evolved over the years but at its core it’s still YOU. And that’s what we love. 🥰❤️ Great to see you old friend.
I remember saying to my friend “I know myself the most therefore, I hate myself.” And then they responded with a quirky “right? Normalize hating yourself.” We shouldn’t normalize it, like drew said, we shouldn’t be the people who roll their eyes when someone says they love themselves, or proud of themselves. Anyway, I am glad your doing okay drew.
got me quakin' you're right though (not about hating urself, about the other thing) it's so easy to make up reasons to try and degrade ourselves, when building ourselves up will help us succeed and inspire others to do the same.
I cried hearing him say “I love you” to himself. i’ve been watching for years and I always hoped he could reach that point and from a person who has tried really hard to love themselves for the same reason of “I will die if I don’t”, it made me so proud to see the growth. progress not perfection. 💖
honestly.. I think hearing that might be a turning point for me 😗 I'm going through like the worst time in my life and I pretty much only have myself rn.. and maybe it's an opportunity to rly bond with myself? I've always wanted a twin that knew everything about me n had the same experiences n opinions as me but I LITERALLY DO. ITS ME. amazing.
I’ll say it again, Drew- myself and the rest of the community would binge watch said 45 minute video over and over again, we love you so much. Sending love from Australia 🇦🇺
You were spot on with how everyone right now is holding the secret of how bad/weird the past year and a half was/is. Each person experienced something unique but pretty much all of us did experience something bad/weird and it’s hard to explain.. I’m so glad you’re back for now, it’s like a breath of fresh air on UA-cam
Hearing you talk about this… it actually really helped me in a way. To not feel as alone. I have been going through similar stuff, especially the needing to love myself more. And when you talk about the urgency of needing to work on that for your own sake, I relate to that. I have been distancing myself and doing a lot of self sabotaging behaviors. Wish you luck on this path to self acceptance. It’s frickin rough but so important to give your all.
When we say we miss you, I think I speak for most of us when I say that THIS is the you we miss. I miss your honesty, life stories, songs and your exquisitely unique perspective on things. You don’t have to feel like you’ve “grown out” of your audience so to speak just because you’ve grown as a person. 99% of us love you for the CORE of who you and we’re happy to grow as people alongside you. It’s good to have you back my friend
I love that he gave no updates or anything, it was just Drew sharing his thoughts and feelings and honestly, it's not cringey at all that he's trying to love himself. It can be sooo hard to achieve self love but you are great and I'm sure you'll get the hang of it. Go Drew!
Man, I missed this humor. There is literally nobody else I know that has this humor. Drew, you are seriously special. And I commend you on recognizing how important it is to talk kindly to ourselves. I have a lot of faith in you 💜
Glad you’re taking better care of yourself. You really are still the funny guy in the room without really trying. And with age you get more poignant and thought-provoking. Glad you’re back. The internet with Drew Monson is so much more interesting than the internet without Drew Monson. Best to your dad.
I watched one of your videos years ago and now once every few years I get recommended a new video from you and I'm totally hear for it! I recently read a book called "Digital Minimalism" which helped me rethink my relationship with tech and the platforms I post content on it. I highly recommend it after hearing your thoughts about the Internet. I feel happier than ever after analyzing my own behavior through that book!
“It’s like an ex from high school being like ‘I miss you’ and you’re like ‘Do you??? Cause I’m not him!’” I don’t know why but that line really struck me. Feeling completely disconnected to your old self due to experiences & changes over the years that seeing people from the past is disorienting. Edit: after the whole video, the ending turned out surprisingly hopeful and beautiful and honestly I feel like this is a video that everyone needs to see right now.
I don't know how to explain this but I feel like Drew is one of those people that you meet at a party and end up chatting the night away with because he's so easy to connect with. This was so incredibly refreshing and weirdly validating, thank you for making this Drew. Glad to have you back
It’s crazy how Drew reached right into my mind and spoke my deepest thoughts. I hope he decides to keep uploading content. I missed his humor and banter, but happiness and mental health come first.
I think this is the first time I've left a UA-cam comment. This was so wonderful to hear. I didn't realize I was the same age as you. I also started the pandemic as a 24 year old and am now 26. You describing the Windows upgrade and not liking the new gray button was incredible. All of this was incredible. Every single word from start to finish resonated with me. Thank you. I hope your journey to loving yourself is even MORE successful than the amount of love you are getting in these comments :)
Yes 🙌🏻 My mom has small blood vessel disease and no one had any clue how to find it or treat it for years. People in our community told her that her symptoms were all in her head for 30 YEARS 😩
Ugh YES. I’ve had multiple doctors and specialists say they think I have an autoimmune disease for various reasons and then all eight million blood tests at the rheumatologist showed nothing conclusive so they’re like 🤷♀️🤷♀️like just enough is ABNORMAL to be concerning but nothing that has a conclusive answer 😤
@@lizalove91 I really think that this is common with women- as a 19 almost 20 year old girl- the only thing that let my doctors know something was very wrong is the fact that I had severe arthritis in my foot that needed surgery. Lots of women seem to complain about joint pain, fatigue, etc DO NOT stop looking for a good doctor and an answer. I recommend women doctors- men tended to just brush me off.
I’ve learned that if I don’t feel Ok (in pain or sick), and the doctor says everything looks Ok, I’ll be really persistent to find a solution lol I’ll get a second or third opinion if I have to.
This is one of the best, most genuine “youtube comeback” videos I’ve ever seen. This is the perfect example of using your time away from the internet to introspect and grow as a person. I hope Drew can keep doing whatever makes him happiest, with or without an audience
The doctor thing was sooooo relatable. A lot definitely does change from 24 to 26. Same with the mental stuff, loving myself has been a down hill battle so far.
Having someone else actually talk openly and in depth about how horribly traumatising last year was (especially for those with any kind of preexisting trauma) really helped me a lot. I’m glad you came by. Stay safe.
@@pterodactylbull What a shitty, uncompassionate take. The fact that there’s people who’ve lost everything from this pandemic, and your response is “it could be worse”? Maybe it wasn’t for you, but try to realize that you have no idea what everyone else has gone through.
@@pterodactylbull I agree to some extent, however if I’ve understood you correctly I feel as though perhaps you’re seeing the issue from a particular perspective without addressing the perspectives of others. I guess my thoughts on it are that the issue I’m seeing is that there are already people in this world who were experiencing those extremes before the pandemic hit. The world isn’t one size fits all. Human beings are very versatile. People survive unbearable things all the time. It’s not about whether you think you can or not, usually there’s just no other option. Ignoring that we do experience trauma from global events that change our collective lives forever in my opinion makes us more susceptible to something down the line being what breaks us. We should be constantly finding ways to take care of our bodies and minds. If we don’t, we die. The world will get worse. Pandemics will become more frequent. Things will get more fucked up. I’m in it for the long haul and addressing how an event made you weaker, having the words to describe your response to those events, finding support systems that will last long term and learning deeply about the events themselves is crucial to long term survival. This stuff interests me and I value your opinion. Hope I haven’t misunderstood your comment.
Apparently I'm psychic. I literally thought about you yesterday and double checked to see if you'd posted anything recently and realized it's been over a year. It's seriously so weird you posted today and I'm glad you did.
Same. A couple nights ago, I watched the videos were Shane, Drew and Garrett do the scary challenges. I literally just decided to out of the blue, no reason to at all.
"I will die if I don't say, 'I love you.'" I felt every inch of this and I can't express how badly I needed to hear another human being say this. Thank you for sharing Drew. Thank you.
When you talk about everyone walking around with a secret in their heart, and how that secret is how painful and scary last year was…that makes me want to bust out in tears. My job recently announced that our office is closing, and literally the only thing getting me through quarantine was the idea that this was all temporary. But it’s not temporary, and now I’m faced with the reality that I need to adjust to a completely new lifestyle. It’s certainly possible to do, but it’s sad and overwhelming and I feel lost. This video helps me feel less alone; thank you💛
I spent Y E A R S hanging out with people who encouraged my self deprecating humor and constantly being hateful towards myself and one day they got bored and left and I barely survived. The reason I did survive is because I had a very similar conversation with myself that you just had on camera. You deserve love, especially your own!
This sounds similar to my friend Jade, she always puts herself down and me and my other friend would always try to reassure her or try to change her mindset but she just would keep on putting herself down, eventually when she left school (I did sixth form, she left after fifth) we just didn't talk as much but I still cared for her, now that so much time has passed tho not really speaking to her, I just don't feel the same care as I did before, I'm just not in the mindset to be friends with her right now. I wish her the best but it doesn't mean I have to be in her life.
Drew is such a refreshing youtuber. He’s honest with us about how he feels and explains it in his own way. I see why you left and I’m glad you took your time and still are to collect yourself. We love you drew and all of us who support you honestly honestly do
Hey take as many public online breaks as you need, this video gave me such a deep comfort, you have such a gift for speaking from the heart. The past 2 years have been super fucking hard and it's kinda beautiful to feel listened to by someone who doesn't even know me from the internet. Keep being nice to yourself Drew, we like that guy
Thousands of people are always happy to see you. Your personality has had such an impact on us that we still think about you months/years after viewing your content. That’s something most people on this planet only dream of being able to achieve! You are special, and when your brain tries to disagree just remember we all want you to love yourself
Legit was either in some UA-cam or TikTok comments and people were like "Im glad he's taking time for himself. Hope he's doing good. Love his videos." Like we do think about u!!!
I cried because it felt like I wrote you a personal letter of what life has been like lately, and you vocalized it like an audiobook. Every breath every side glance when reminiscing of memories, fitting perfectly like the pieces to a lego characters puzzle set. You are the voice of those who have experienced the worst and are trying their best to heal from it all. You are so beautiful drew.
i 100% agree with you. the people being dickheads are the types of people that Drew was talking about that try to tear others down. I hope you feel healed and keep your head up luv. I didn't know how to explain why this video hit me so hard but you explained it beautifully!
Legit THIS is exactly what I missed about you, you’re immensely relatable cause you’re just so honest. You come across as so authentic and real. I love how you word things and I’ve been on a very similar journey in self love. It’s also about survival at this point and it’s so hard but we have to try! So glad to see your face on the Internet again
We missed you, Drew. We’re here for whatever content you make or don’t make. We’re here for you and your journey. And I hope we get videos of your new job at the aquarium.
“People can make their own Drew Monson story if I don’t tell it,” kinda amazed at how well you put that into words, so so happy to hear the Drew Monson story from Drew Monson:-)
You sir... Are the most earnest, respectable, and venerable UA-camr I've ever had the pleasure of combing across! Thank you so much for continuing your down-to-earth content and wiping the floor with all these synthetic "UA-cam moguls."
I need someone like you in my life. You just picked my brain apart. I hope things get better for you. You seem like such a nice person who is very self aware of themselves and others I want more Drew’s in the world.
people say they miss you because you're familiar. No matter how much you change or evolve or whatever content you make, seeing your face and hearing you talk is familiar and feels good. I'm glad you're back on meds, and you being away from the internet publicly is healthy, and im happy to see you here again, even if it's just temporary. thanks for posting with an update Drew
THIS and yeah i'm glad no one on the internet had to see what i was going through either my poor roommate gets stressed out enough like i'm not about to post anything lolol
i think the most comforting thing about this video is that it’s so relatable to so many people. i relate to it so heavily and so does every single other person who has commented. none of us are alone in feeling this way, even though it feels like such an isolating experience. i’m just starting my journey on trying to love myself and trying to find a place where i am not so miserable that i dread every day. it’s going to be long and hard and confusing, but this has reassured me that i’m not alone and that nows as good as time as any to stop letting my brain sabotage my own happiness
It literally clicked for me today. I might spiral again in ten minutes or two hours but I have a different understanding now. I don’t want to be the person I used to be (self hating, narcissistic), I want to be better and do better and learn to actually start loving myself (whoever that is)
the whole “idk what you miss” thing when someone says “I miss you” really hit me hard. I know how that feels. I think covid may have spiked derealization/depersonalization and dissociation episodes for a lot of us, even ppl without preexisting mental illnesses. thank you for making this. even if you may have dreaded it
This might be the best video he's ever made. The raw honesty is something we all needed, thank you Drew. I really recognize parts of myself and my journey with self love in your words
Oh. Wow. That, "an ex from high school being like I miss you" and you being like, "do you? Cause I don't. I'm not him anymore." Wow that part hit me so hard. It's so true. So completely true. People need to change, and leave some things behind. And you have to change for your life to actually continue.
Hello drew! I’ve missed you, but I would much prefer you to be comfortable than to force yourself to update. No one expects you to have profound opinions on the world right now, as someone who also struggles with my mental health: it’s scary enough navigating normal life, never mind having to read about all the crazy stuff happening around us. Glad to see you back! You’re one of the few UA-camrs I will always ALWAYS wait for! Love youuuuuuuuu! You have no idea how comforting your existence is to me
I have been ignoring and carrying on with my own self-deprecating humour, believing it to be a mere coping mechanism while at the same time hurting myself before anyone else could. It felt really very good to hear you, someone I do not really know but respect so much regardless, be so frank about how harmful it really is. Thank you so much for sharing and making me think on a subject as insidiously toxic as this.
drew always has the best quotes, here are some of my favs, feel free to add "my body is okay, but i'm not okay with it" "its like we forgot depression is meant to be sad"
I was engaged for every second of this video. The intelligence, humor, and wisdom are off the charts. You know how to talk about the human experience and reach people so well. The song at the end really got me. Thank you for this video.
i really liked your way of speaking about the necessity of changing your relationship with yourself to be more positive. the way that you said you HAVE TO learn to love yourself reminds me of the way i will sometimes tell myself things like i will get through this, because i HAVE TO. things will be okay, because they HAVE TO be. ive found that setting clear boundaries/goals with myself like really helps
you know that feeling when you're talking to a really close friend about something and you look into their eyes and you can FEEL that they are seeing you completely and fully and you realize you've never really felt SEEN like that before? I think this is as close to that feeling as I can get right now and I'm so very grateful for it
loving yourself feels so much better than the 'comfort' hating yourself brings you. i used to be so scared to try to work on my issues, because i only knew what it was like to be depressed, and sad, and scared all the time. taking the first step was hard, but every step after felt like the sun was finally coming out to warm my spirit!
I come back to this video like once a quarter, whenever I remember it, mainly for the last like 10 minutes. It’s inspirational in such a niche way. Relatable beyond belief. I also went off my meds in 2020 for no good reason, just being mentally ill and the mental illness being like “nah you don’t need meds actually” and it was also a terrible and dangerous idea for me. Glad we’re both on the way to doing a lot better. ❤
I can’t even explain the ear to ear grin that came onto my face when I got this notification. We love you Drew, I love your humor and your honesty and your endearing awkwardness. I wish you continued luck in loving yourself and I can speak for everyone when I say we are here and happy for whatever glimpses you want to give us into your life and any context you want to create!
I was diagnosed with bpd & cptsd in the beginning of the pandemic in March, after getting out of a psychiatric hospital. I watched the shutdowns begin on the TVs in the rec room. It was an incredibly hard year but it feels like I am slowly crawling up & building a relationship with myself. We’ve all grown a lot! Seeing this makes me feel much less alone, & I am happy to see you smiling. I really recommend cats, they have been a good motivator for me lol.
When Drew mentioned that he has a relationship with himself, I relate to that SO MUCH! I talk to myself (not in a creepy way) all the time, it’s like I’m talking to my BFF or something lol.
Same... Sometimes u just have to say things out loud because hearing things audibly helps. Mostly when your working something out and to get out of my headd... I think and worry wayy too much. If u cant tell i ONLY have negative things or stuff to worry about and ZERO good or even slightly happy noise in my brains lol ugh
"if i dont love myself, i will die." is honestly so beautful and has so much truth to it, like wow
touching video
I relate to that phrase so much I think the only way we can progress is by taking a truth so morbid and flipping it into a beautiful meaning. I really hope he’s doing better now ♥️
That mitski tweet when she said “I used to rebel by destroying myself, but realized that’s awfully convenient to the world. For some of us our best revolt is self preservation”
Love and relate to that SO much, ty for sharing
I love mitski
LOVE this quote and mitski
“I just work at an aquarium now. I didn’t have to apply, I don’t have to clock in, I don’t smell like fish, I just straight up work there.” Honestly goals.
This guy’s sense of humor is so unique. I love it
Drew makes me laugh more than any comedian I've ever seen
god, we love u so much
Oh shit, hey bestieeeeee
Frances ☺️
frances, i love you. now that i know that you love drew though, i love you even more😭
He looks good!!!
omg hi Frances lol love u
It worries me that every tangent you go on makes sense to me.
It’s such an awesome form of comedy. It’s literally what goes on inside my ADHD brain every minute of the day. Lol
when u think abt it ur comment is lowkey offensive and codescending but hey🙊
@@anyways111 i was about to comment that i feel like it underestimates his genuine intelligence and humor it’s not respectful tbh
tarantula kat!
ADHD gang
Drew’s fan base has got to be one the most compassionate and understanding. We’re always so happy to hear from him and there’s never pressure from us for him to upload. We genuinely care about his well being and can appreciate the bits and pieces he’s willing to share with us. We’re also hilarious because King Drew is effortlessly the funniest in the platform by far.
Just reading comments on his videos is uplifting lol. You are so right, his fans have so much in common.
I’m literally getting goose bumps reading this
I appreciate all of his fans so much for this. Wishing you a great day stranger!
Exactly
@@Timboyxxx ikr it feels like family here and I wish i could be surrounded around such accepting people like this in my horrible south county
The part about needing a relationship with yourself really spoke to me. We need to stop being so negative to our inner monologues and start talking to ourselves like we don't hate who we are all the time.
You probably grossly underestimate how many people you’ve connected with over the years, but this one feels especially candid and refreshing. Hope you stick around, Drew.
Yes 🙌🏼 🙌🏼 Thank you 🙏🏻 🙏🏻 You said it all. Perfectly. He’s also freaking funny af :)
Loving yourself in a world that profits off of every way it can make you hate yourself, is the bravest thing you can do.
this is such good advice, i might have to adopt it as a motto!
thats such a pretty quote thanks for that
💯❤️
Preach
Do you love yourself more or less after all of the plastic surgery you’ve gotten?
Drew is genuinely so smart when it comes to saying things most people cant put into words.
your profile pic makes me nostalgic
Thank you for existing. My daughter has had crippling anxiety since she was 9 yrs old. We have watched you on UA-cam for a long time. When you talk about your struggles with mental health it gives her hope. It makes her feel not alone.
This made my heart so full. So happy she can have that and give her hope.
holy shit i missed you so much
Pizza Queen is here 😭❤️💞
Same
yes fr 😭
Honestly!!
HI ANNAMARIE!
Loving yourself is so hard! It feels fake and egotistical at times, but you’re so right, it’s a matter of survival. Glad to see this update from you, and please let me touch a stingray at the aquarium.
I’m so glad he’s back! 🥺
illy I LOVE YOU
Omg hi illy! XD nice to see you here!
Love that we have the same taste in content because I respect both you and drew so much 🥰
I’m the real aquarium guy, you can touch the stingrays we can’t stop you but you might get kicked out
“i will die if i don’t at least make an attempt to love myself”
i’m literally at that point right now, thank you so much for sharing so honestly drew. we missed you ❤️
This x ✌️❤️
this^^
Same. 🥺🤙🏻
i think im at that point too. I've been so fucking mean to myself for years, and this is not working anymore.
Same here 🖤
“I will die if I don’t say I love you.” This line hit so deep. I’m writing this comment in bed after one of the worst depression slumps ever and cried from watching you verbalize everything I was thinking so beautifully, yet again. You are a consistent inspiration. I hope one day you can appreciate yourself as much as we appreciate and cherish you.
i missed you so much . avoiding the wrath of st paul
I appreciate how little sense this comment made to me until I actually watched the video
woahhh i remember when u had 50k subs
Omg my lesbian icon is here
You’re literally the most effortlessly funny person on the internet. This video showed how much i missed listening to you. I think about you all the time and always wish you well. Love you!!
Yes! He is hilarious
YES
I have lol’d at a yt video in a bit
The “I got a haircut” video will always kill me in the first two minutes 😂
He's existence gives me so much nostalgia
I've literally been retyping this comment in for like 5 minutes because I cannot form sentences to save my life. But this video was the silver lining the universe threw me today and I hope this comment helps you see how your light shines on others. Seriously, can't explain how much I needed to hear these words tonight. Thank you for being genuine and beautiful.
exactly this!!!
seconding this
+
Same. Drew’s videos do add a random pop of Seenness into my life. This one was really unexpected and kinda jus really made me feel good. It also further confirmed my theory that I am, in fact, Drew Monson.
The things that seem easiest to feel I've found are the hardest to put into words - but this... yep.
Drew is like the nice uncle you never really see often but always hope the best for him and wish you’d see him more.
“my wife is sleeping… and my husband”… “I’d suggest you be nice to me”
THIS. THIS humor is what we’ve missed Drew! You’re one of the most effortlessly funny people that made me laugh when I was growing up and now still never fails to make me laugh. You are so genuine and I hope you are feeling the happiness you deserve ❤️
“What’s wrong with a little bit of numbness? Don’t I deserve that?” I’m absolutely taking that up with my therapist this week.
Not if the numbness hurts you or separates you from your life. I don't think it'd hurt
I feel like this relates to a couple principles of Buddhism
drew is an underrated speaker like even his flow/stream of consciousness & rambles are always clear, relatable & make perfect sense to me
yea hes a poet at heart. I feel bad he was suicidal. sounds like he had a suicide attempt
this video gives me so much comfort, and i feel a little guilty for that because i know this video comes from a place that was so dark
When we say we “miss you” THIS exact vibe is what most of us mean. Just you and the camera and your unique stream of consciousness. That Stream of conscious has grown and evolved over the years but at its core it’s still YOU. And that’s what we love. 🥰❤️ Great to see you old friend.
This comment is genuinely why I love this man
LITERALLY!!!
YES
“Unique stream of consciousness” I like that a lot. We’re lucky to experience it
exactly! he is just raw and a genuinely good person
I remember saying to my friend “I know myself the most therefore, I hate myself.” And then they responded with a quirky “right? Normalize hating yourself.”
We shouldn’t normalize it, like drew said, we shouldn’t be the people who roll their eyes when someone says they love themselves, or proud of themselves.
Anyway, I am glad your doing okay drew.
got me quakin'
you're right though (not about hating urself, about the other thing) it's so easy to make up reasons to try and degrade ourselves, when building ourselves up will help us succeed and inspire others to do the same.
I got this comment to 420 likes & im PROUD OF IT
THIS! 🔝
Drew is so effortlessly funny I could listen to him talk about random shit for hours and be completely entertained
I concur! He’d be a dope comedian! 🦄
I cried hearing him say “I love you” to himself. i’ve been watching for years and I always hoped he could reach that point and from a person who has tried really hard to love themselves for the same reason of “I will die if I don’t”, it made me so proud to see the growth. progress not perfection. 💖
12:25 “Everyone’s holding a secret in their heart about how bad they felt last year.” Drew, YES, I am.
“I feel like people are so worried about the cringe around them, but what about the cringe within?” might actually have to be my senior quote omg
Do ittt
Honestly better than whatever angsty sentence I can come up with, might do that too…and I just started watching Drew lol
Do it
im also going to say, do it.
Do it
The “movie of you in your head” thing about being your own being friend was incredible.
honestly.. I think hearing that might be a turning point for me 😗 I'm going through like the worst time in my life and I pretty much only have myself rn.. and maybe it's an opportunity to rly bond with myself? I've always wanted a twin that knew everything about me n had the same experiences n opinions as me but I LITERALLY DO. ITS ME. amazing.
@@naomi-art-stuff same here girl... but i'll be your bestie if you need anything babes!!!
@@emmajolene98 🥺🥺🥺 ur too sweet
Honestly same! I genuinely thought I was the only one who felt that way and it's so refreshing to hear it from someone else's mouth.
I’ll say it again, Drew- myself and the rest of the community would binge watch said 45 minute video over and over again, we love you so much.
Sending love from Australia 🇦🇺
You were spot on with how everyone right now is holding the secret of how bad/weird the past year and a half was/is. Each person experienced something unique but pretty much all of us did experience something bad/weird and it’s hard to explain.. I’m so glad you’re back for now, it’s like a breath of fresh air on UA-cam
My
The "I will die if I don't say I love you" ripped my heart in half. You've been dearly missed, Drew.
I think people will watch no matter what. We love your creativity and comedy style.
No cap
yea absolutely. he’s a special guy
not in a short bus kinda way either
I love the song at the end drew
@@WhoCares-ty7jo lmfaooo
Hearing you talk about this… it actually really helped me in a way. To not feel as alone. I have been going through similar stuff, especially the needing to love myself more. And when you talk about the urgency of needing to work on that for your own sake, I relate to that. I have been distancing myself and doing a lot of self sabotaging behaviors. Wish you luck on this path to self acceptance. It’s frickin rough but so important to give your all.
When we say we miss you, I think I speak for most of us when I say that THIS is the you we miss. I miss your honesty, life stories, songs and your exquisitely unique perspective on things. You don’t have to feel like you’ve “grown out” of your audience so to speak just because you’ve grown as a person. 99% of us love you for the CORE of who you and we’re happy to grow as people alongside you. It’s good to have you back my friend
You said it perfectly
yes!! this!!
LITRALLY LUVVVV LITRALLLYT
I agree with this, I’m just glad he’s well
Yes!
I love that he gave no updates or anything, it was just Drew sharing his thoughts and feelings and honestly, it's not cringey at all that he's trying to love himself. It can be sooo hard to achieve self love but you are great and I'm sure you'll get the hang of it. Go Drew!
Man, I missed this humor. There is literally nobody else I know that has this humor. Drew, you are seriously special. And I commend you on recognizing how important it is to talk kindly to ourselves. I have a lot of faith in you 💜
he's so effortlessly hilarious
He is a rare gem thats for sure. 💛
Glad you’re taking better care of yourself. You really are still the funny guy in the room without really trying. And with age you get more poignant and thought-provoking. Glad you’re back. The internet with Drew Monson is so much more interesting than the internet without Drew Monson.
Best to your dad.
I watched one of your videos years ago and now once every few years I get recommended a new video from you and I'm totally hear for it! I recently read a book called "Digital Minimalism" which helped me rethink my relationship with tech and the platforms I post content on it. I highly recommend it after hearing your thoughts about the Internet. I feel happier than ever after analyzing my own behavior through that book!
here* dagnabbit
I didn't know you guys liked drew thats so awesome
one of my favourite youtubers supporting one of my favourite youtubers, what a world :)
Oh my god! Seeing SBSK comment on Drew's video? Does this get any better? Two amazing souls.
Omg Drew Monson and SBSK, two of my faves ❤️❤️
this was overwhelming refreshing and validating. welcome back drew.
Yes!!
“It’s like an ex from high school being like ‘I miss you’ and you’re like ‘Do you??? Cause I’m not him!’” I don’t know why but that line really struck me. Feeling completely disconnected to your old self due to experiences & changes over the years that seeing people from the past is disorienting.
Edit: after the whole video, the ending turned out surprisingly hopeful and beautiful and honestly I feel like this is a video that everyone needs to see right now.
that last part about having a relationship with yourself really awakened feelings i didnt even know i had. youre a wizard with words drew
This was the most comforting thing I've ever watched. It's weird knowing a complete stranger has the exact same thoughts as you.
100%
I agree 👍
Yes!
Makes me realize we all have more in common than we think, yeah?
I don't know how to explain this but I feel like Drew is one of those people that you meet at a party and end up chatting the night away with because he's so easy to connect with. This was so incredibly refreshing and weirdly validating, thank you for making this Drew. Glad to have you back
Yessss I really really get what you mean! One of those people you feel so lucky to have come across and just knowing they exist makes you happier lol
@@bums009 yes 100%! They make you want to know more about them and / or life in general
It’s crazy how Drew reached right into my mind and spoke my deepest thoughts. I hope he decides to keep uploading content. I missed his humor and banter, but happiness and mental health come first.
I think this is the first time I've left a UA-cam comment. This was so wonderful to hear. I didn't realize I was the same age as you. I also started the pandemic as a 24 year old and am now 26. You describing the Windows upgrade and not liking the new gray button was incredible. All of this was incredible. Every single word from start to finish resonated with me. Thank you. I hope your journey to loving yourself is even MORE successful than the amount of love you are getting in these comments :)
That thing about “the worst thing a doctor can say to you when you’re obviously in pain is ‘all your tests are normal” oh MAN I can relate!!!!!
Yes 🙌🏻
My mom has small blood vessel disease and no one had any clue how to find it or treat it for years. People in our community told her that her symptoms were all in her head for 30 YEARS 😩
Ugh YES. I’ve had multiple doctors and specialists say they think I have an autoimmune disease for various reasons and then all eight million blood tests at the rheumatologist showed nothing conclusive so they’re like 🤷♀️🤷♀️like just enough is ABNORMAL to be concerning but nothing that has a conclusive answer 😤
@@lizalove91 I really think that this is common with women- as a 19 almost 20 year old girl- the only thing that let my doctors know something was very wrong is the fact that I had severe arthritis in my foot that needed surgery.
Lots of women seem to complain about joint pain, fatigue, etc
DO NOT stop looking for a good doctor and an answer. I recommend women doctors- men tended to just brush me off.
I’ve learned that if I don’t feel Ok (in pain or sick), and the doctor says everything looks Ok, I’ll be really persistent to find a solution lol I’ll get a second or third opinion if I have to.
I have Lyme disease and it took them YEARS to figure it out bc the tests came back negative. I was sooo sick but docs said everything is fine! Smdh
This is one of the best, most genuine “youtube comeback” videos I’ve ever seen. This is the perfect example of using your time away from the internet to introspect and grow as a person. I hope Drew can keep doing whatever makes him happiest, with or without an audience
!!!!
yeah i miss watching people with that authenticity
this hits
The doctor thing was sooooo relatable. A lot definitely does change from 24 to 26. Same with the mental stuff, loving myself has been a down hill battle so far.
Having someone else actually talk openly and in depth about how horribly traumatising last year was (especially for those with any kind of preexisting trauma) really helped me a lot.
I’m glad you came by. Stay safe.
@@pterodactylbull What a shitty, uncompassionate take. The fact that there’s people who’ve lost everything from this pandemic, and your response is “it could be worse”? Maybe it wasn’t for you, but try to realize that you have no idea what everyone else has gone through.
@@pterodactylbull I agree to some extent, however if I’ve understood you correctly I feel as though perhaps you’re seeing the issue from a particular perspective without addressing the perspectives of others.
I guess my thoughts on it are that the issue I’m seeing is that there are already people in this world who were experiencing those extremes before the pandemic hit. The world isn’t one size fits all.
Human beings are very versatile. People survive unbearable things all the time. It’s not about whether you think you can or not, usually there’s just no other option.
Ignoring that we do experience trauma from global events that change our collective lives forever in my opinion makes us more susceptible to something down the line being what breaks us. We should be constantly finding ways to take care of our bodies and minds. If we don’t, we die.
The world will get worse. Pandemics will become more frequent. Things will get more fucked up. I’m in it for the long haul and addressing how an event made you weaker, having the words to describe your response to those events, finding support systems that will last long term and learning deeply about the events themselves is crucial to long term survival.
This stuff interests me and I value your opinion. Hope I haven’t misunderstood your comment.
@@pterodactylbull haha, many assumptions my guy. Have a nice day 😂
Apparently I'm psychic. I literally thought about you yesterday and double checked to see if you'd posted anything recently and realized it's been over a year. It's seriously so weird you posted today and I'm glad you did.
Me too!!! I thought about him last night
SAME!
Same. A couple nights ago, I watched the videos were Shane, Drew and Garrett do the scary challenges. I literally just decided to out of the blue, no reason to at all.
Me too I literally got a random tiktok about his music (never got anything drew related before) and then got a notification he had posted... so weird
I've been rewatching his old videos lately, he definitely felt us all thinking about him lol
"I will die if I don't say, 'I love you.'"
I felt every inch of this and I can't express how badly I needed to hear another human being say this. Thank you for sharing Drew. Thank you.
This is dramatic
exactly this comment. YES YES YES!!
@@whippitgod8821 LMAOO stoppppp
@@whippitgod8821 LMFAO
That's sweet. Glad it helped.
When you talk about everyone walking around with a secret in their heart, and how that secret is how painful and scary last year was…that makes me want to bust out in tears. My job recently announced that our office is closing, and literally the only thing getting me through quarantine was the idea that this was all temporary. But it’s not temporary, and now I’m faced with the reality that I need to adjust to a completely new lifestyle. It’s certainly possible to do, but it’s sad and overwhelming and I feel lost. This video helps me feel less alone; thank you💛
I spent Y E A R S hanging out with people who encouraged my self deprecating humor and constantly being hateful towards myself and one day they got bored and left and I barely survived. The reason I did survive is because I had a very similar conversation with myself that you just had on camera. You deserve love, especially your own!
This sounds similar to my friend Jade, she always puts herself down and me and my other friend would always try to reassure her or try to change her mindset but she just would keep on putting herself down, eventually when she left school (I did sixth form, she left after fifth) we just didn't talk as much but I still cared for her, now that so much time has passed tho not really speaking to her, I just don't feel the same care as I did before, I'm just not in the mindset to be friends with her right now. I wish her the best but it doesn't mean I have to be in her life.
I’ve missed you drew!
Drew is such a refreshing youtuber. He’s honest with us about how he feels and explains it in his own way. I see why you left and I’m glad you took your time and still are to collect yourself. We love you drew and all of us who support you honestly honestly do
Hey take as many public online breaks as you need, this video gave me such a deep comfort, you have such a gift for speaking from the heart. The past 2 years have been super fucking hard and it's kinda beautiful to feel listened to by someone who doesn't even know me from the internet. Keep being nice to yourself Drew, we like that guy
Drew just described things in a way I couldn’t myself, hitting every POINT
+que, ,
Yus! Absolutely
Thousands of people are always happy to see you. Your personality has had such an impact on us that we still think about you months/years after viewing your content. That’s something most people on this planet only dream of being able to achieve! You are special, and when your brain tries to disagree just remember we all want you to love yourself
💜💜💜💜💜
Legit was either in some UA-cam or TikTok comments and people were like "Im glad he's taking time for himself. Hope he's doing good. Love his videos." Like we do think about u!!!
That's beautiful and so true 💛
Lovely to hear from you and I agree with this post. Love yourself xo
i dont think i’ve ever related to a yt video so much. im glad ur here
Same here 💞💕
I cried because it felt like I wrote you a personal letter of what life has been like lately, and you vocalized it like an audiobook. Every breath every side glance when reminiscing of memories, fitting perfectly like the pieces to a lego characters puzzle set. You are the voice of those who have experienced the worst and are trying their best to heal from it all. You are so beautiful drew.
What?
What in the hell are you babbling about? Are you drinking or do you ever leave your room? Weird, very weird
this person is really excited to see drew upload again. don't shame dudes not cool.
So true 💗
i 100% agree with you. the people being dickheads are the types of people that Drew was talking about that try to tear others down. I hope you feel healed and keep your head up luv. I didn't know how to explain why this video hit me so hard but you explained it beautifully!
Legit THIS is exactly what I missed about you, you’re immensely relatable cause you’re just so honest. You come across as so authentic and real. I love how you word things and I’ve been on a very similar journey in self love. It’s also about survival at this point and it’s so hard but we have to try! So glad to see your face on the Internet again
Everything he says is what my overthinking brain sounds like, I love how relatable he is lol
When you looked at the camera and asked, “why are you here?”
I said, “because I miss you” and started tearing up. You are amazing, Drew. 💕
Are you okay
@@brittany2539 yes I am thank you! I’m just a sensitive person (:
I always find it interesting the connection and attachment someone can develop from watching clips of someone's life or little rants.
Everytime this guy talks its like he’s reaching into my head and saying everything I feel.
We missed you, Drew. We’re here for whatever content you make or don’t make. We’re here for you and your journey. And I hope we get videos of your new job at the aquarium.
🐬
“People can make their own Drew Monson story if I don’t tell it,” kinda amazed at how well you put that into words, so so happy to hear the Drew Monson story from Drew Monson:-)
You sir... Are the most earnest, respectable, and venerable UA-camr I've ever had the pleasure of combing across! Thank you so much for continuing your down-to-earth content and wiping the floor with all these synthetic "UA-cam moguls."
I need someone like you in my life. You just picked my brain apart. I hope things get better for you. You seem like such a nice person who is very self aware of themselves and others I want more Drew’s in the world.
Drew and Garrett Watts are the only people I instantly drop everything for to watch their videos. They radiate the best energy ✨
Yes!!
When I tell you I think about you and miss your content EVERY DAY.
people say they miss you because you're familiar. No matter how much you change or evolve or whatever content you make, seeing your face and hearing you talk is familiar and feels good. I'm glad you're back on meds, and you being away from the internet publicly is healthy, and im happy to see you here again, even if it's just temporary. thanks for posting with an update Drew
THIS
and yeah i'm glad no one on the internet had to see what i was going through either
my poor roommate gets stressed out enough like i'm not about to post anything lolol
i think the most comforting thing about this video is that it’s so relatable to so many people. i relate to it so heavily and so does every single other person who has commented. none of us are alone in feeling this way, even though it feels like such an isolating experience. i’m just starting my journey on trying to love myself and trying to find a place where i am not so miserable that i dread every day. it’s going to be long and hard and confusing, but this has reassured me that i’m not alone and that nows as good as time as any to stop letting my brain sabotage my own happiness
It literally clicked for me today. I might spiral again in ten minutes or two hours but I have a different understanding now. I don’t want to be the person I used to be (self hating, narcissistic), I want to be better and do better and learn to actually start loving myself (whoever that is)
It’s not the old you we missed, Drew. We all just missed YOU!! You’re so effortlessly funny and genuinely you. I’m SOO glad you’re back!!!!!!!!!!
the whole “idk what you miss” thing when someone says “I miss you” really hit me hard. I know how that feels. I think covid may have spiked derealization/depersonalization and dissociation episodes for a lot of us, even ppl without preexisting mental illnesses. thank you for making this. even if you may have dreaded it
Fosho
This might be the best video he's ever made. The raw honesty is something we all needed, thank you Drew. I really recognize parts of myself and my journey with self love in your words
this is one of the most genuine shit ive seen on the internet, its scary how much i could understand how you feel
Oh. Wow. That, "an ex from high school being like I miss you" and you being like, "do you? Cause I don't. I'm not him anymore." Wow that part hit me so hard. It's so true. So completely true. People need to change, and leave some things behind. And you have to change for your life to actually continue.
I don't even know him anymore.
You literally make me laugh out loud and then to go evaluating myself and how to make myself a better person
Hello drew! I’ve missed you, but I would much prefer you to be comfortable than to force yourself to update. No one expects you to have profound opinions on the world right now, as someone who also struggles with my mental health: it’s scary enough navigating normal life, never mind having to read about all the crazy stuff happening around us.
Glad to see you back! You’re one of the few UA-camrs I will always ALWAYS wait for! Love youuuuuuuuu! You have no idea how comforting your existence is to me
Thankyou so much for this I was trying to figure out what to say to this video but drew you are such a angel, your doing everything right❤️ love youuu
so true!
I have been ignoring and carrying on with my own self-deprecating humour, believing it to be a mere coping mechanism while at the same time hurting myself before anyone else could. It felt really very good to hear you, someone I do not really know but respect so much regardless, be so frank about how harmful it really is. Thank you so much for sharing and making me think on a subject as insidiously toxic as this.
drew always has the best quotes, here are some of my favs, feel free to add
"my body is okay, but i'm not okay with it"
"its like we forgot depression is meant to be sad"
That second one hit me. Shit.
Look at the cringe within.
“Please don’t leave hate it’s bad for my mental disorders” v relatable
the world doesn't deserve such a raw expression of human thought and emotion. I'm glad your back Drew.
I was engaged for every second of this video. The intelligence, humor, and wisdom are off the charts. You know how to talk about the human experience and reach people so well. The song at the end really got me. Thank you for this video.
couldn't have said it better myself :,)
completely and utterly agree
i really liked your way of speaking about the necessity of changing your relationship with yourself to be more positive. the way that you said you HAVE TO learn to love yourself reminds me of the way i will sometimes tell myself things like i will get through this, because i HAVE TO. things will be okay, because they HAVE TO be. ive found that setting clear boundaries/goals with myself like really helps
"i'm good. i'm not, but like i didn't get hit by a truck. i'm just like having a panic attack in my bed all day." THE WAY THAT I FELT THIS.
you know that feeling when you're talking to a really close friend about something and you look into their eyes and you can FEEL that they are seeing you completely and fully and you realize you've never really felt SEEN like that before? I think this is as close to that feeling as I can get right now and I'm so very grateful for it
Drew, this is exactly what I needed today. :) Thank you.
Seriously… me too
Watching this again after his new video really gives a different perspective
loving yourself feels so much better than the 'comfort' hating yourself brings you. i used to be so scared to try to work on my issues, because i only knew what it was like to be depressed, and sad, and scared all the time. taking the first step was hard, but every step after felt like the sun was finally coming out to warm my spirit!
FELT THIS
You inspired me so much with this comment!
Comfort hating… a term I needed to hear! Thank you & much appreciated 💛
i don’t know you but i’m proud of you!! 💙
@@wisekimberly777 much love and best of luck on your life journey!
this video is going to help a lot of people come to terms with how they're feeling and feel less alone. we love you drew, you got this
Hands down the most authentic, personality packed human on yt who deserves an infinite amount of self love 🌻
I come back to this video like once a quarter, whenever I remember it, mainly for the last like 10 minutes. It’s inspirational in such a niche way. Relatable beyond belief. I also went off my meds in 2020 for no good reason, just being mentally ill and the mental illness being like “nah you don’t need meds actually” and it was also a terrible and dangerous idea for me. Glad we’re both on the way to doing a lot better. ❤
I searched you a few times during your absence and so glad you are back to check in!
I literally just searched him a few days ago and am so surprised he’s back now!!
@@fresko12 same!!! I was so bummed and worried about him. So glad to see him today
That's why D'Angelo Wallace is so refreshing to people, he's always hyping himself up
He says his opinions very confidently and everyone simps about him because of it
Meh I like different tubers personally but he does have hella good vibes
He feels both so judgemental, but so comforting, it's really hard to specify lol
very judgemental putting others down
Eh i really don’t like him. He grinds my gears for some reason.
I can’t even explain the ear to ear grin that came onto my face when I got this notification. We love you Drew, I love your humor and your honesty and your endearing awkwardness. I wish you continued luck in loving yourself and I can speak for everyone when I say we are here and happy for whatever glimpses you want to give us into your life and any context you want to create!
I was diagnosed with bpd & cptsd in the beginning of the pandemic in March, after getting out of a psychiatric hospital. I watched the shutdowns begin on the TVs in the rec room. It was an incredibly hard year but it feels like I am slowly crawling up & building a relationship with myself. We’ve all grown a lot! Seeing this makes me feel much less alone, & I am happy to see you smiling. I really recommend cats, they have been a good motivator for me lol.
I’m so glad you took your time off Drew. You truly mean a lot to me and I’m glad you aren’t pressuring yourself to post constantly. Thank you Drew.
When Drew mentioned that he has a relationship with himself, I relate to that SO MUCH! I talk to myself (not in a creepy way) all the time, it’s like I’m talking to my BFF or something lol.
Same!
Same... Sometimes u just have to say things out loud because hearing things audibly helps. Mostly when your working something out and to get out of my headd... I think and worry wayy too much. If u cant tell i ONLY have negative things or stuff to worry about and ZERO good or even slightly happy noise in my brains lol ugh