The first time I heard this song was a month after I got out of rehab . My second child , my son was born 2 days before I went in . All I could picture was this situation from my children's eyes if I had kept or went back to the lifestyle I had been living . Been clean for 6 years , it'll be 7 on June 8th
When I say I stayed sober initially for my son and to be the mother I wanted to be, many people don't understand. It's good to find someone who gets it. Keep going, just hit my 38th anniversary of sobriety in December. I'm so proud of you
@@suzonlommel3737 I understand what you mean. I think for people to truly understand they have to have lived it somehow themselves or through loved ones. Happy 38th!!! :) :) Keep going.
@@rosalieelliottofficial I listened to this hundreds of times and it still made me tearsed up ervery time. Great reaction - thanks! ♥ Greets from Germany
I applaud NF for his bravery. It takes courage to put yourself out there in such a REAL way. In one of his interviews he said the hardest thing he ever did was to record that song. Then it was even harder to record the video. I also applaud his close friend and producer, Tommee Profitt for making this song with him. I can only imagine that making this song, it became a Therapy Session and healing session all in one.
This is not just a song ° this is a soul deposid. ° True story: During the last part of the song Nate asked everyone to leave the studio. ° Although he says in the song that will he never forget her,as he has mentioned in the past ,now that he is a parent himself he has been in her place ,understood and forgive her. #REAL MUSIC MATTERS Touching reaction Dear Rosalie ❤ As a mother this hits in a different way. 💔🖤
@Hay BayBay You can download a symbol keyboard for your phone or specifically the degree symbol (°) can be accessed (on an iPhone; not positive about Androids) by long pressing the number 0 key, which pops up that specific symbol
I am 38 years old. I lost my brother to suicide 17 years ago. I absolutely love NF. For the raw emotion, and humility that he brings to his music. Every time that I listen to this song, I cannot help but to draw similarities to the pain and anguish that i felt when i lost my big brother. This song would have articulated everything that I attempted to relay at his funeral. Truly a one of a kind artist.
See and main stream hiphop and rap won't acknowledge this man of real music not the fake stuff pushed out by the music industry. He has a huge fan base and doesn't care if they do cause this man sends a message in every single song with( substance) . Loved the reaction as always
Fun fact: the ending of the song where he just talks (9:55), was completely real. He talked about it in an interview saying he told everybody to leave the studio but to keep the music playing cuz he just wanted to talk, just wants to talk on his own about what he’s feeling and he added it to the song which is crazy, he really does mean it when he says “Real Music” Here’s the interview: ua-cam.com/video/ngFRa-8Jj5E/v-deo.html
It sucks being an empath sometimes. He gets me in so many of his songs. He allows us to feel what he feels. I haven't heard a single other artist that lays it all out like him.
You have earned more respect from me than you could possibly imagine today. I agree with everything you just said. As a man who has a problem with showing his emotions when it comes to fear or sadness, it has always been very hard for me to listen to this song. It's the only song NF has made that makes me very uncomfortable when listening to it. It's a beautiful song. I do love it, it just makes me feel very uncomfortable. I can only imagine how uncomfortable it had to be for Nate to make. And unfathomable how uncomfortable it had to be to release it. NF, I have total and unlimited respect to you and I hope you find happiness. Whatever that is for you. I love you man. I will probably never really know you, or you I, but I have nothing but love for you man. To Rosalie, I love you as well. Keep up your good work.
This song was my first introduction to NF back in the days. Glad you made it to this song! Hell of a ride with him - but so much to get in terms of knowledge and experience.
You reaction absolutely broke me again. When I heard nf for the first time it was that song and it completely ripped me apart. His chorus was pure pain and I cannot fathom how much strength this song must have cost him. I love your content and reactions and explanations. I love to see you react so honest to the songs and just express what we probably all felt while hearing it. And yeh yet again at the moment you cried between 6:30-7:00 it broke me down again. It's just pure emotions. Thank you a lot.
Thank you for watching and taking the time to comment. It really hit hard. It was hard and weird to even share such a personal experience with others but I do hope exploring these songs together and using the pain and various elements can teach us all to heal and grow
REAL MUSIC TIL THE DAY WE DIE! ❤️❤️ also if anyone is gonna react to this or any song, watch the vid, and then look up the lyrics if you think you miss heard something. it hits harder
It's ok to cry especially when listening to this song or watching the music video as I did it the first and the last time I heard this song. Such raw emotion and sadness as you can hear it in his voice and when he cries. I wouldn't know how to make this song if I was NF, he was so brave and strong #RealMusic Happy New Year to you and everyone here
I’ve been waiting for you to get to this one. I cried right there with you. To me this song touched me in ways no other song has touched me and i can’t listen without feeling the depth of his pain. You are a gem and I’m so glad I came across you on UA-cam. Thanks for your perspective, your heart and your realism. I just love you!!! Happy New Year. May 2023 bring you all the blessings you deserve.
I have never once made it through this song without crying. The reason it doesn’t have more views is because we don’t listen often. Even is NF reaction junkies only watch when special reactors watch. I watched with you. I cried with you.
Amen, every time this song plays on my playlist I skip it. Not because I don't like it but because, I cannot make it through this song without crying. I only watched this to see Rosalie's reaction.
Rosalie, WOW!!. NF Started Crying, then You Started Crying, Then I started Crying and I couldn't stop. I have been so Numb for so Long, that I thought I would never cry again, It felt so GOOD to just let go of all these pent up emotions inside me and cry like there was no tomorrow. Your reaction videos lately have provided me with MUCH Healing, First, Ren's "Hi Ren", Then Ren's ""Sick Boi" now NF, which brought a River of HEALING TEARS to Me. I just can't thank you enough. Your Reaction Videos are so much better than Professional Therapy, because you truly care about and understand the human condition, good or bad. THANK YOU!!!
Thank you so much for taking the time to share this with me. It’s comments like these that are so encouraging to me. To see that what I do matters and brings value. And that we all have something to offer. I’m so so glad you could cry too. It’s healing to let it out.
@@rosalieelliottofficial Yes, Rivers of healing tears was just what I needed. If I would have listened to this NF reaction video before your Ren Reaction videos, it would not have had the same effect on me, and I would have certainly missed out on some much needed inner healing. So I just go with how these videos are presented to me, sometimes I just go with “my gut” without any thought and it ends up being just the right order that I needed. I hope this makes sense. Anyway, you are making a difference, I am 62 and would never listen to music like this had it not been for you. You were the catalyst, at least for me, that sparked my journey of inner healing through meaningful music, but it is much more than just music, it is art in its purest form. Thanks again Rosalie.
@@RazielTheArchangel I'm very glad to hear that and honored to be of use. We're all rippling into the lives of others, ideally bringing joy and healing and blessings. i am honored if I can bring value. thank you for doing the same by being real and vulnerable and encouraging me back
this i the one that will break anyone a truely sad but beautiful song the pain his voice when he sings/raps reaches another level with this one a true piece of art that i think will stick with us for awhile
Rosalie, thank you for such a beautiful insightful reaction. Many of us grew up with parents who were in the grip of addiction or depression. Or who have other family members and friends who we love, miss and or worry about. By God's grace and with our own work we can find healing. YES there is hope!! 🥰
You made it through! Now it's all happy and positive music from here on out lol. I'm joking. Great reaction as always! Love how you can feel his emotion and it touched you. Thank you for opening up to us. 🖤💚
As a kid that has been in foster care for nearly 15 years I can safely say I can relate to this song a lot my mother is on drugs and has been for years and I don’t think she’ll ever say no to them
Thank you Rosalie for such a heartfelt reaction. ♥️ Nate and I are the same age and I lost my dad to meth in a very similar fashion. This song will always cut deep. 😞 It's been 7 years since his passing and it's still hard to think about. I try so hard not to be angry with him for not being there, but he's my dad and I'll always love him despite everything else. I hate how much it's affected me as a person, but Nate is helping me learn to accept the pain and grow from it. Wishing you and the family all the best. Thank you.
I’m so sorry Kevin! I understand what you mean. Somehow we always love our parents no matter what. Wish you and yours a happy new what too filled with hope and healing!
I love that: “we should focus more on the nouns and verbs to talk about us and humanity.” Like are you kind and compassionate are you creating etc. well said. Incredibly articulated. Love your reactions xoxo
Thank you so very much for such a real, raw, and compassionate review. Thank you so very much for sharing your story and for no doubt helping many others in similar situations in the process. Your concern, compassion, and understanding for those struggling with mental illness/suicidal thoughts is absolutely a blessing.
My best friend showed this to me a few years ago. We both grew up with both our parents as addicts. My mom didn't pass, but I felt alone my whole childhood. She was angry and deep in addiction my whole childhood. There's something horrible about wanting your mom when you can't have her, something you never fully get past. I related to this song in a deep way, and I'm happy my mother didn't loose to the addiction, but I still lost her, I lost the relationship we should have had, that every child needs and this song brings it all back in such a powerful way. Great reaction
NF has saved my life on numerous occasions his music is so down to earth and it just helped me during my darkest times I love him I wanna meet him so bad
This song really hits home. I lost one brother when i was 15, then another brother a sister from an OD a couple years ago. My brother was a big influencer on me and raised me up until he passed and ive struggled for many years, i love hearing people relay it through their songs bc it helps me get through my lows bc i see other people dealing with similar or worse things and it makes me feel a little less lonely.
NF is what i would like to call a true artist.... not like all these other fakes.. favorite line ( i thought it would get better as time passes) but never does.
#NFRealMusic I love him so much. He's changed so so so many lives, including mine and my daughters life. Love your authentic reactions to NF. Keep it up! We saw him in NC in 2017 for the TS Tour and he broke down crying performing this song... The outpouring of love & support from us (his fans) was phenomenal....
this song hits me every time was on youtube being in my own feelings and i found your video, seeing you recat the way i did made me feel that im not silly for crying to myself. since i lost both my parents he has always been a rock in my world of music that keeps me sane ! thank you rosalie for making this :)
I know. i was thinking about that too. sharing such a song on New Years Eve, but I think it's ok to deal with heavy stuff cause we need to keep healing and doing the hard work, any day of the year, maybe and especially when we reflect on the past year and prepare for a new one. at the end of the day, the calendar and time is an illusion. all we have is here and now and i hope you know here and now, that you matter and theres hope.
@@rosalieelliottofficial YOu should check out Gareth Emery & Standerwick - Saving Light (feat. HALIENE) , exposing some of the worst problems we got in society now a days for the youth
*hugs* "Real music" gets real reactions. I must've heard this song 100 times, and just barely got over the point of crying to finally teary-eyed when hearing this after the several times of listening to this... watching your reaction and break-down brought all those feelings back again. Both him AND you are relatable. Always enjoy your vids.
@@rosalieelliottofficial you're welcome! That was quite the emotional uppercut NF delivered. I'm sure he's aware of the impact he's made... but know that you, also, are delivering impacts to people around the world with your reactional reviews. Keep up the fantastic work!
Very good reaction to a very deep song. This is a hard one to have to do. There is a lot of emotion that he put into it. Thank you for taking the time to do this for us. It was remarkable. Stay strong ❤️
NF is the goat. Incredible artist. Incredible. I’ve seen him twice. Should have been more but bloody covid stopped that 😢. Thank you for the great review.
i listened this song many many times and even these days when i proper listen to it, i just start to cry..I never went through anything like that (losing a parent, or drug related) but man..the way he expresses himself in every song of his..hits so hard
I posted a comment on your Paralyzed reaction about how I felt when I lost my son. I became an opioid addict after losing him. I was an addict for 9 yrs. I do also have a daughter and I know during my addiction I did damage to her. She needed me after.losing her brother but I wasn't there for as I was so consumed with my own grief. I have many regrets for that. Thankfully I have been sober for 5yrs now and I know the damage I caused my daughter can't be undone but I work each day to be better. My daughter has her own children now and I'm SOOO proud of her. She has been a better mom than I was.
thank you for your honesty and vulnerability, Sarah. I am glad you are here to share your story and am proud of you for fighting to recover. I am very sorry for your loss. You are forgiven. You are now doing the right thing. stay strong. keep going.
I love your emotion. It's hard for me to find people that are truly moved by music the way i am. In particular when you can see, and better yet, hear the pain from people like nf and Ren and em and so many others. I'm often times moved to tears as I watch or listen to an artist speak to me personally through the shared experiences of complete strangers. What's more is when I find myself moved to tears hearing an artist describe something I never even remotely went through. When just his or her pain and their description of it puts you right there next to them. NF. one of the very best storytellers we've ever been blessed with. Even if u don't like his music, that's an undeniable fact. Love. Best reaction channel on the tube and I've only known about you for like 2 hours
I’m so proud of you for doing it. For embracing it. Those 20 years and everything that happened are a part of your story and you are a legend! A miracle. Honored to have you here in this community and in the comment section, fellow human.
You are one of the best reactors out there, and I’ve been watching content like this for a long time now and just came across your channel. Keep up the awesome work! :)
My world turned blurry. What an honest reaction. All of you out there, there is only one mother for all of us. Make sure to take care of her sometimes. Even a call could make everyone happy.
As a grandparent of 3 who has taken care of them for years while their mom is out doing whatever she is doing it absolutely breaks my heart because I can not fix the pain she's causing the boys. She calls tells them she's coming but never shows up the oldest is 16 youngest is 9 the 16 year old is going through so much anger and hatred I understand but I can't blame him at all. The youngest still believes her when she says she's coming and watching him wait when I know she won't show breaks me every time. I try to take his mind off waiting but he gets mad at me when I try so I do my best to support him when she doesn't show up. The middle one is 13 he doesn't believe anything she says he loves her but has never put faith in her like the other 2 have. My son their dad has never let them down he has custody and is doing his best but he isn't mom and you can see the pain in all 3 boys and there is nothing we can do to fill the spot where their mom should be.
I know I'm late to the party. But your emotional connection is an inspiration. At 35 yo I'm finally connected with thoose emotions after a LOT of work. I love you
Your response to this artwork has me in awe! I have a hard time truly listening to others because it seems they do not think like I do as far as truly loving all life and being sympathetic, but watching your explanation and so truly empathetic, I heard single word you spoke and I completely understood. The world is a very unfamiliar place to me and I do not see much empathy anymore but seeing people like yourself renews my hope in this world, God is definitely working through you and blessing you!
Such a good reaction honestly I’ve been avoiding listening to this song for a while just because I knew it was really emotional and I didn’t want to even think of the perspective of losing my mother to drugs because in my younger years my mother was in the same situation but she was able to beat that situation and become sober but just to think that could have been the same outcome but when I seen you post this I knew it was time thanks for a reaction worth watching
I am a huge empath. I hate hearing or seeing people cry. I have had so much loss in the last 3 years. Nothing to drugs, but 3 of the 4 deaths were unexpected and sudden. My 30 year-old daughter died in prison in Jan. 2020. My favorite aunt who was only 6 years older than me died from terminal COPD in July 2021. My grandma died from a stroke in Jan, 2022 and now my mom died from a fall and bled out, just 5 months ago. So much loss and grief. I can relate to NF as in how grief can be so hard and life changing. The first time that I heard this song was the month that my daughter died. That is when I found Nate's music. This song BROKE me hard. I STILL cry every time I hear it, and I've probably heard it 100 times. I loved this reaction, Rosalie. You are such an amazing and genuinely loving person. It is crazy how I can feel that through the screen. Your channel is one of my favorites to watch. I knew this song would ABSOLUTELY break you. When you said early on, " maybe I won't cry" I said out loud, " oh, you're going to cry, lol Much love and Happy New Year, Rosalie. God bless!! ❣️✌️
Great reaction, I could see the emotion you felt listening to this. I've subscribed and I'd like to recommend 360 Tiny Angel, that song along with this one are the two most emotional songs I've ever heard.
I watched “Hi Ren” first here and was wrecked until the end when redemption came. But still, it stayed on my mind. This song destroyed me. Days later…I can’t listen to the whole thing. His voice is so beautiful.Hauntingly so in this song. In our community and In communities all around the world, we have entire families of children that lost both parents to overdoses. Sometimes from the same batch of bad drugs on the same day. From the first responder side of things, , looking at the living left behind, especially when it was little ones, it’s awful. Seeing and hearing the end result from his side, validates all of the faces I will never forget. I can’t think about that song without crying. There’s no other way to feel than “wrecked” after this masterpiece.
Damn it, your emotion is contagious. Its hard enough to get through this song without feeling your emotion as well. Your reaction is outstanding. And the more i watch your channel the more i like you. Thank you.
A close friend offered the suggestion of taking my own NF journey years ago as I was finding a pathway to navigate out of the anguish of mourning my mother's suicide. I wasn't ready then. Today was the day. Catharsis comes in many forms. Music is amazing in that regard. I subscribed. Can't wait to see the progression, growth, and evolution of your creativity and empathetic perspective as you discover some of the emotionally transparent artists that have been my own dysfunctional private therapy.
I don't normally put this kind of comment on a platform like this, but their is a time and a place for it. Rosalie, this really touched my soul, and I definitely felt the pain inside of you. Father God, I want to take this moment to pray for all the ones who are in deep pain in one shape or form. I pray for Rosalie that whatever is happening concerning a loved one that they find peace and give it all to you. I pray that she finds love and kindness to know that you are a wonderful counselor, loving God, healer, and there when you need him most. No matter what life has dealt you, know that their is light at the end of that tunnel and that light is true and forever. I pray this in Jesus' Name. Amen 🙏 NF is authentic in his art and one of the most honest and thought giving ones out in today's music world. This one was definitely hard to listen to because I have been surrounded by people I knew with addiction, and yes, some have passed on, and it hurts deep inside. However, we need to know that we're a mustard seed here in this place. One last thing is not to worry what happened in the past. Their nothing we can do to change that. Don't worry about your everyday life, and especially don't worry what tomorrow may bring. I hope everyone has an Amazing Happy New Year 2023. Much Love to all ❤️❤️❤️
This song get's me everytime! ❣️ Was crying along with u esp when you started crying more Can really feel his hurt & pain 💔 Happy Hogmanay from Scotland 💙❣️
Hallo Rosalie, als ich das Video zum ersten Mal gesehen hatte, habe ich Wasserfälle geweint und ich bin ein gestandender Mann von 51 Jahren. Was ich an NF liebe ist, das er den Mut hat, seine Traumatas seiner Kindheit mit uns allen zu teilen. Dieses Video hat mich genauso hart getroffen und mich so stark getriggert.
NF is someone I can relate to very much, I walked in similar shoes, saw similar things, but these events made me build a wall around my heart that is inpenetrable. Sometimes tears get through the cracks and then I sit there ugky crying and I don't know why. I cannot feel why. I feel detached, dead. I feel like I am the version of me that protects the child behind these walls.
I was recently reminded that there are different types of tears. Maybe the tears that are trying to break through with you are trying to let the healing in. Your body telling you it’s time… release. Forgive. Love yourself. Parent and nurture and love on the child within you. Fight for that child the way you wanted to be fought for. Love yourself. You are enough! More than enough.
The one part of this song that hits the hardest is when he says I have a picture of my mom but I don't need picture of my mom I need the real thing. All I've ever had was pictures and stories. I have no memories of my mom and im almost 28 she passed away in 2001 so I was about 5 or 6. He brought how I felt to the surface after so many years of not knowing how to express it
The song broke me the first time I heard it. My mother died from drug overdose in 2005 when I was twenty-five years old and then I got into drugs and put my kids through hell. Thankfully I overcame my demons and I've been clean for a while now and my kids are getting the mother they deserve but I still feel shame for what I did and I still feel pain from what my mother did. I'm no longer trying to play the victim though but it's still a battle internally. I don't think the song has ever affected me emotionally like this has. I wanted to edit my comment and tell you that you haven't even started the song yet and you just said that this is personal for you so before the song even starts I want to thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable with us because it shows that we're not alone
hey beautiful Sara (hope it's ok I address you like that. Assuming that's your name based on the user name). Let me just say: I am proud of you! :) I also believe you are forgiven. and I am sorry for your loss. I am proud of you for doing the hard work, being honest and real and fighting to get better for your kids and yourself. you are worth it.
@@rosalieelliottofficial Miss lovely Rosalie thank you so much for this amazing comment. Yes my name is Sara I was actually named after the song Sara smiles by my father. Both my mother and father passed away due to their drug and alcohol issues and it was within two years of each other and rather than dealing with it I'd mask my pain with pain medication and it numbed me and paralyzed me to the point where I didn't even feel like I was existing. I have three young boys who depended on me and I was just a shell of a person for many years. But through God I found healing and forgiveness. I still have my burdens that I have to overcome through God's healing and Grace but at least I'm headed toward the light and not the dark anymore. I've actually been using my UA-cam to reach people through losing weight on Weight Watchers and singing. I've lost 86 lb over the last 77 weeks. 😊 And it's been amazing to actually take care of myself mentally and physically but like I said before the struggles are still there and I just have to pray and give it to God everyday. Thank you so much for responding and I hope you have an amazing weekend
@@sarasweightlossjourney1432 keep going. I hope you have or can find a community that encourages you when the going gets tough. So glad you’ve found things to put yourself and your creativity into :) that’s wonderful. Keep going
This is one of those songs that I don't listen to very often as it's so sad and it makes me an emotional mess. But it's also real and beautiful 💖 I love NF and love how you're not afraid to show true emotions. It's important and just healthy
First of all, thanks to NF and of course also thanks to you for sharing emotions, memories, pain and empathy. Since I can think, alcohol was part of my family. I lost my parents to that stuff. I consume it myself, too. And I'm always afraid, I could end up like them. They are not dead, but it changed them to people, I do not recognize anymore and I dont't want to be part of my life anymore. I'm on my own since I was 16 because I couldn't take the beating and fighting anymore. I'm a grown man of 38 years now and in the sense of NFs song Mansion: I don't fix things, I just repaint. And sometimes, these rooms open and I don't have a good time. They will always be a part of me. I have never been to professional therapy. My therapy is to talk openly about it. Share my thoughts, share my feelings. I know, this isn't the real deal, but it helps me to deal, let people get close to me. This is not only for self-therapeutic reasons, though. It is also to show the people around me that there are others. Everyone has to carry their package. You never know what it might be...
The first time I heard this song was a month after I got out of rehab . My second child , my son was born 2 days before I went in . All I could picture was this situation from my children's eyes if I had kept or went back to the lifestyle I had been living . Been clean for 6 years , it'll be 7 on June 8th
I am SO proud of you!!!
Keep moving forward. You’re an amazing father!!!
When I say I stayed sober initially for my son and to be the mother I wanted to be, many people don't understand. It's good to find someone who gets it. Keep going, just hit my 38th anniversary of sobriety in December. I'm so proud of you
@@suzonlommel3737 I understand what you mean. I think for people to truly understand they have to have lived it somehow themselves or through loved ones. Happy 38th!!! :) :) Keep going.
yo..massive respect, for real! God Bless you and your family!!
The best song that you'll never want to hear again.
Well said! For real. This one is one that I can’t listen to on repeat.
Meanwhile, I'm casually re-listening to it via watching reaction channels.
@@elivile.crying each time
Yep. First time i heard someone besides Ren cry. Im sure NF was first but still. So good. Not just a smooth it all over crap..,
@@rosalieelliottofficial I listened to this hundreds of times and it still made me tearsed up ervery time. Great reaction - thanks! ♥ Greets from Germany
I applaud NF for his bravery. It takes courage to put yourself out there in such a REAL way. In one of his interviews he said the hardest thing he ever did was to record that song. Then it was even harder to record the video. I also applaud his close friend and producer, Tommee Profitt for making this song with him. I can only imagine that making this song, it became a Therapy Session and healing session all in one.
As a person in recovery, it's rare you hear somebody say I'm proud of you and to hear you say that today meant a lot
I meant it!! I am proud of you!
This is not just a song ° this is a soul deposid.
° True story: During the last part of the song Nate asked everyone to leave the studio.
° Although he says in the song that will he never forget her,as he has mentioned in the past ,now that he is a parent himself he has been in her place ,understood and forgive her.
#REAL MUSIC MATTERS
Touching reaction Dear Rosalie ❤
As a mother this hits in a different way. 💔🖤
it really does! so true. Thank you for the info you shared.
@Hay BayBay
You can download a symbol keyboard for your phone or specifically the degree symbol (°) can be accessed (on an iPhone; not positive about Androids) by long pressing the number 0 key, which pops up that specific symbol
In his new single Hope he also says "mama I forgive you". Also the new album has a track titled "mama". It's gonna be heavy.
@@rosalieelliottofficial please react to Mama by NF
I am 38 years old. I lost my brother to suicide 17 years ago. I absolutely love NF. For the raw emotion, and humility that he brings to his music. Every time that I listen to this song, I cannot help but to draw similarities to the pain and anguish that i felt when i lost my big brother. This song would have articulated everything that I attempted to relay at his funeral. Truly a one of a kind artist.
See and main stream hiphop and rap won't acknowledge this man of real music not the fake stuff pushed out by the music industry. He has a huge fan base and doesn't care if they do cause this man sends a message in every single song with( substance) . Loved the reaction as always
For real!! Well said. So very true
Mainstream is dead.
He is the BEST OUT THERE TODAY!!!!
And yes....in EVERY....SINGLE.....SONG
Fun fact: the ending of the song where he just talks (9:55), was completely real. He talked about it in an interview saying he told everybody to leave the studio but to keep the music playing cuz he just wanted to talk, just wants to talk on his own about what he’s feeling and he added it to the song which is crazy, he really does mean it when he says “Real Music”
Here’s the interview:
ua-cam.com/video/ngFRa-8Jj5E/v-deo.html
It sucks being an empath sometimes. He gets me in so many of his songs. He allows us to feel what he feels. I haven't heard a single other artist that lays it all out like him.
Dax and not all the songs but his interviews xxxtentcion can hit hard for me. Fellow empath here to.
I have heard this song 100's of times still brings me to tears.
'Music is the only place I can go to speak to you' ... that line cut deep
You have earned more respect from me than you could possibly imagine today. I agree with everything you just said.
As a man who has a problem with showing his emotions when it comes to fear or sadness, it has always been very hard for me to listen to this song. It's the only song NF has made that makes me very uncomfortable when listening to it.
It's a beautiful song. I do love it, it just makes me feel very uncomfortable. I can only imagine how uncomfortable it had to be for Nate to make. And unfathomable how uncomfortable it had to be to release it.
NF,
I have total and unlimited respect to you and I hope you find happiness. Whatever that is for you. I love you man. I will probably never really know you, or you I, but I have nothing but love for you man.
To Rosalie,
I love you as well. Keep up your good work.
This song was my first introduction to NF back in the days. Glad you made it to this song!
Hell of a ride with him - but so much to get in terms of knowledge and experience.
To be honest just the mention of this song puts it's all in my head. This song plugs you in to a truth about humanity we all avoid.
You reaction absolutely broke me again. When I heard nf for the first time it was that song and it completely ripped me apart. His chorus was pure pain and I cannot fathom how much strength this song must have cost him.
I love your content and reactions and explanations. I love to see you react so honest to the songs and just express what we probably all felt while hearing it.
And yeh yet again at the moment you cried between 6:30-7:00 it broke me down again. It's just pure emotions. Thank you a lot.
Thank you for watching and taking the time to comment. It really hit hard. It was hard and weird to even share such a personal experience with others but I do hope exploring these songs together and using the pain and various elements can teach us all to heal and grow
REAL MUSIC TIL THE DAY WE DIE! ❤️❤️ also if anyone is gonna react to this or any song, watch the vid, and then look up the lyrics if you think you miss heard something. it hits harder
It's ok to cry especially when listening to this song or watching the music video as I did it the first and the last time I heard this song. Such raw emotion and sadness as you can hear it in his voice and when he cries. I wouldn't know how to make this song if I was NF, he was so brave and strong #RealMusic
Happy New Year to you and everyone here
Im not crying, you’re crying
We all cry when we hear this song.
You're very vibrant in a real way. Reactions do not look forced. You speak clearly and with meaning. Happy to have found your channel!!
Thank you very much. Welcome :)
I’ve been waiting for you to get to this one. I cried right there with you. To me this song touched me in ways no other song has touched me and i can’t listen without feeling the depth of his pain. You are a gem and I’m so glad I came across you on UA-cam. Thanks for your perspective, your heart and your realism. I just love you!!! Happy New Year. May 2023 bring you all the blessings you deserve.
thanks so much!! I wish you the same.
5:46 I'm with you. In tears this is the first time you can hear what is part of the beat. Music empath ❤️
As a daughter to a drug addicted mom this song explains everything so well. The anger,confusion,sadness....it's perfect
I listen to it once a year and I can’t stop myself from crying. I understand him so well.
I have never once made it through this song without crying. The reason it doesn’t have more views is because we don’t listen often. Even is NF reaction junkies only watch when special reactors watch. I watched with you. I cried with you.
Thank you for watching and considering this channel a special one (if I understood correctly).
Amen, every time this song plays on my playlist I skip it. Not because I don't like it but because, I cannot make it through this song without crying. I only watched this to see Rosalie's reaction.
Rosalie, WOW!!. NF Started Crying, then You Started Crying, Then I started Crying and I couldn't stop. I have been so Numb for so Long, that I thought I would never cry again, It felt so GOOD to just let go of all these pent up emotions inside me and cry like there was no tomorrow. Your reaction videos lately have provided me with MUCH Healing, First, Ren's "Hi Ren", Then Ren's ""Sick Boi" now NF, which brought a River of HEALING TEARS to Me. I just can't thank you enough. Your Reaction Videos are so much better than Professional Therapy, because you truly care about and understand the human condition, good or bad. THANK YOU!!!
Thank you so much for taking the time to share this with me.
It’s comments like these that are so encouraging to me. To see that what I do matters and brings value. And that we all have something to offer.
I’m so so glad you could cry too. It’s healing to let it out.
@@rosalieelliottofficial Yes, Rivers of healing tears was just what I needed. If I would have listened to this NF reaction video before your Ren Reaction videos, it would not have had the same effect on me, and I would have certainly missed out on some much needed inner healing. So I just go with how these videos are presented to me, sometimes I just go with “my gut” without any thought and it ends up being just the right order that I needed. I hope this makes sense. Anyway, you are making a difference, I am 62 and would never listen to music like this had it not been for you. You were the catalyst, at least for me, that sparked my journey of inner healing through meaningful music, but it is much more than just music, it is art in its purest form. Thanks again Rosalie.
@@RazielTheArchangel I'm very glad to hear that and honored to be of use. We're all rippling into the lives of others, ideally bringing joy and healing and blessings. i am honored if I can bring value. thank you for doing the same by being real and vulnerable and encouraging me back
@@rosalieelliottofficial You’re Welcome.
this i the one that will break anyone a truely sad but beautiful song the pain his voice when he sings/raps reaches another level with this one a true piece of art that i think will stick with us for awhile
This is the song that turned me onto NF for the relationship i have with my mother. I cried for 2 hours, listening to this song on loop.
Rosalie, thank you for such a beautiful insightful reaction. Many of us grew up with parents who were in the grip of addiction or depression. Or who have other family members and friends who we love, miss and or worry about. By God's grace and with our own work we can find healing. YES there is hope!! 🥰
You made it through! Now it's all happy and positive music from here on out lol. I'm joking. Great reaction as always! Love how you can feel his emotion and it touched you. Thank you for opening up to us. 🖤💚
Don't ever apologize for your honest reaction that's what we are here for and N.F. is here to illicit that reaction that's why he's the GOAT
Thank you. I cried with you and I needed it.
As a kid that has been in foster care for nearly 15 years I can safely say I can relate to this song a lot my mother is on drugs and has been for years and I don’t think she’ll ever say no to them
I just needed to express myself in a song because of all the drama about my mom 😢😢😢😢
Thank you Rosalie for such a heartfelt reaction. ♥️ Nate and I are the same age and I lost my dad to meth in a very similar fashion. This song will always cut deep. 😞 It's been 7 years since his passing and it's still hard to think about. I try so hard not to be angry with him for not being there, but he's my dad and I'll always love him despite everything else. I hate how much it's affected me as a person, but Nate is helping me learn to accept the pain and grow from it. Wishing you and the family all the best. Thank you.
I’m so sorry Kevin! I understand what you mean. Somehow we always love our parents no matter what. Wish you and yours a happy new what too filled with hope and healing!
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he still crys everytime he performs this song its really sad bc every song he makes is something he actually goes through
I love that: “we should focus more on the nouns and verbs to talk about us and humanity.” Like are you kind and compassionate are you creating etc. well said. Incredibly articulated. Love your reactions xoxo
Thank you so very much for such a real, raw, and compassionate review. Thank you so very much for sharing your story and for no doubt helping many others in similar situations in the process. Your concern, compassion, and understanding for those struggling with mental illness/suicidal thoughts is absolutely a blessing.
My best friend showed this to me a few years ago. We both grew up with both our parents as addicts. My mom didn't pass, but I felt alone my whole childhood. She was angry and deep in addiction my whole childhood. There's something horrible about wanting your mom when you can't have her, something you never fully get past. I related to this song in a deep way, and I'm happy my mother didn't loose to the addiction, but I still lost her, I lost the relationship we should have had, that every child needs and this song brings it all back in such a powerful way. Great reaction
What a beautiful soul you have. Thanks for this video, thankyou for sharing.
NF has saved my life on numerous occasions his music is so down to earth and it just helped me during my darkest times I love him I wanna meet him so bad
I clicked on this video because NF is my favorite artist and you’re great and super real Im looking forward to more NF reactions!
Thank you. Appreciate it. Lots more NF reactions in my America playlist in case you’re interested
Every damn time. This song hits so hard that I can't help but tear up.
This song really hits home. I lost one brother when i was 15, then another brother a sister from an OD a couple years ago. My brother was a big influencer on me and raised me up until he passed and ive struggled for many years, i love hearing people relay it through their songs bc it helps me get through my lows bc i see other people dealing with similar or worse things and it makes me feel a little less lonely.
NF is what i would like to call a true artist.... not like all these other fakes.. favorite line ( i thought it would get better as time passes) but never does.
#NFRealMusic I love him so much. He's changed so so so many lives, including mine and my daughters life.
Love your authentic reactions to NF. Keep it up!
We saw him in NC in 2017 for the TS Tour and he broke down crying performing this song... The outpouring of love & support from us (his fans) was phenomenal....
this song hits me every time was on youtube being in my own feelings and i found your video, seeing you recat the way i did made me feel that im not silly for crying to myself. since i lost both my parents he has always been a rock in my world of music that keeps me sane ! thank you rosalie for making this :)
I’m so sorry for your loss :( thank you for watching and being real here.
This song..... on new year..... and i was on such a high, the pain in his voice....
I know. i was thinking about that too. sharing such a song on New Years Eve, but I think it's ok to deal with heavy stuff cause we need to keep healing and doing the hard work, any day of the year, maybe and especially when we reflect on the past year and prepare for a new one. at the end of the day, the calendar and time is an illusion. all we have is here and now and i hope you know here and now, that you matter and theres hope.
@@rosalieelliottofficial YOu should check out Gareth Emery & Standerwick - Saving Light (feat. HALIENE) , exposing some of the worst problems we got in society now a days for the youth
Yeah, this is a wonderful piece and I've seen it at least 30 times and still tear up every time. Great reaction as always.
I appreciate you, and I'm so glad I found you. I'm revisiting a lot of my favorite artists and songs through your reactions. Wonderful content. 🤗
*hugs*
"Real music" gets real reactions.
I must've heard this song 100 times, and just barely got over the point of crying to finally teary-eyed when hearing this after the several times of listening to this... watching your reaction and break-down brought all those feelings back again.
Both him AND you are relatable.
Always enjoy your vids.
Thank you very much! It hit me hard. Profound work and necessary healing
@@rosalieelliottofficial you're welcome! That was quite the emotional uppercut NF delivered. I'm sure he's aware of the impact he's made... but know that you, also, are delivering impacts to people around the world with your reactional reviews. Keep up the fantastic work!
@@comic102975 he sure did! thank you very much! that encourages me too
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I have been a NF fan since he has performed under his full name and this song still gets me to cry every time I watch the video
Cried right along with you the whole time. Much love ❤️
Very good reaction to a very deep song. This is a hard one to have to do. There is a lot of emotion that he put into it. Thank you for taking the time to do this for us. It was remarkable. Stay strong ❤️
NF is the goat. Incredible artist. Incredible. I’ve seen him twice. Should have been more but bloody covid stopped that 😢. Thank you for the great review.
This song makes me cry every time! It was even worse watching you cry! The pain is so deep.
i listened this song many many times and even these days when i proper listen to it, i just start to cry..I never went through anything like that (losing a parent, or drug related) but man..the way he expresses himself in every song of his..hits so hard
I posted a comment on your Paralyzed reaction about how I felt when I lost my son. I became an opioid addict after losing him. I was an addict for 9 yrs. I do also have a daughter and I know during my addiction I did damage to her. She needed me after.losing her brother but I wasn't there for as I was so consumed with my own grief. I have many regrets for that. Thankfully I have been sober for 5yrs now and I know the damage I caused my daughter can't be undone but I work each day to be better. My daughter has her own children now and I'm SOOO proud of her. She has been a better mom than I was.
thank you for your honesty and vulnerability, Sarah. I am glad you are here to share your story and am proud of you for fighting to recover. I am very sorry for your loss. You are forgiven. You are now doing the right thing. stay strong. keep going.
This song is so important because its important that we adults get to hear/see it from the children's perspective
I love your emotion. It's hard for me to find people that are truly moved by music the way i am. In particular when you can see, and better yet, hear the pain from people like nf and Ren and em and so many others. I'm often times moved to tears as I watch or listen to an artist speak to me personally through the shared experiences of complete strangers. What's more is when I find myself moved to tears hearing an artist describe something I never even remotely went through. When just his or her pain and their description of it puts you right there next to them. NF. one of the very best storytellers we've ever been blessed with. Even if u don't like his music, that's an undeniable fact. Love. Best reaction channel on the tube and I've only known about you for like 2 hours
It took me 20 years of suffering after a car accident to TRULY embrace RAW emotions. I love you for this❤
I’m so proud of you for doing it. For embracing it. Those 20 years and everything that happened are a part of your story and you are a legend! A miracle. Honored to have you here in this community and in the comment section, fellow human.
Insightful and thoughtful commentary. Thank you for sharing.
You did it ! Thanks for it .
You've literally have NEVER disappointed in ANY reaction I've seen of yours. Your beautiful inside and out.
You have a beautiful soul Rosa :) It’s inspiring.
-maybe I wont cry.
Famous last words.
Gr8 work :)
You are one of the best reactors out there, and I’ve been watching content like this for a long time now and just came across your channel. Keep up the awesome work! :)
My world turned blurry.
What an honest reaction. All of you out there, there is only one mother for all of us. Make sure to take care of her sometimes. Even a call could make everyone happy.
As a grandparent of 3 who has taken care of them for years while their mom is out doing whatever she is doing it absolutely breaks my heart because I can not fix the pain she's causing the boys. She calls tells them she's coming but never shows up the oldest is 16 youngest is 9 the 16 year old is going through so much anger and hatred I understand but I can't blame him at all. The youngest still believes her when she says she's coming and watching him wait when I know she won't show breaks me every time. I try to take his mind off waiting but he gets mad at me when I try so I do my best to support him when she doesn't show up. The middle one is 13 he doesn't believe anything she says he loves her but has never put faith in her like the other 2 have. My son their dad has never let them down he has custody and is doing his best but he isn't mom and you can see the pain in all 3 boys and there is nothing we can do to fill the spot where their mom should be.
I know I'm late to the party. But your emotional connection is an inspiration. At 35 yo I'm finally connected with thoose emotions after a LOT of work. I love you
Your response to this artwork has me in awe!
I have a hard time truly listening to others because it seems they do not think like I do as far as truly loving all life and being sympathetic, but watching your explanation and so truly empathetic, I heard single word you spoke and I completely understood. The world is a very unfamiliar place to me and I do not see much empathy anymore but seeing people like yourself renews my hope in this world, God is definitely working through you and blessing you!
Such a good reaction honestly I’ve been avoiding listening to this song for a while just because I knew it was really emotional and I didn’t want to even think of the perspective of losing my mother to drugs because in my younger years my mother was in the same situation but she was able to beat that situation and become sober but just to think that could have been the same outcome but when I seen you post this I knew it was time thanks for a reaction worth watching
I understand what you mean, Brian. Very much. I am glad she is better!
A heartfelt reaction 💗 Ty for being real about such a painful TRUTH.🙏💗
I am a huge empath. I hate hearing or seeing people cry.
I have had so much loss in the last 3 years. Nothing to drugs, but 3 of the 4 deaths were unexpected and sudden. My 30 year-old daughter died in prison in Jan. 2020. My favorite aunt who was only 6 years older than me died from terminal COPD in July 2021. My grandma died from a stroke in Jan, 2022 and now my mom died from a fall and bled out, just 5 months ago. So much loss and grief. I can relate to NF as in how grief can be so hard and life changing. The first time that I heard this song was the month that my daughter died. That is when I found Nate's music. This song BROKE me hard. I STILL cry every time I hear it, and I've probably heard it 100 times.
I loved this reaction, Rosalie. You are such an amazing and genuinely loving person. It is crazy how I can feel that through the screen. Your channel is one of my favorites to watch. I knew this song would ABSOLUTELY break you. When you said early on, " maybe I won't cry" I said out loud, " oh, you're going to cry, lol
Much love and Happy New Year, Rosalie. God bless!! ❣️✌️
I am so so sorry for your loss butterfly mama
This is the first song that made me shed tears and no song has got me that emotional ever since
Great reaction, I could see the emotion you felt listening to this.
I've subscribed and I'd like to recommend 360 Tiny Angel, that song along with this one are the two most emotional songs I've ever heard.
I watched “Hi Ren” first here and was wrecked until the end when redemption came. But still, it stayed on my mind.
This song destroyed me. Days later…I can’t listen to the whole thing. His voice is so beautiful.Hauntingly so in this song. In our community and In communities all around the world, we have entire families of children that lost both parents to overdoses. Sometimes from the same batch of bad drugs on the same day. From the first responder side of things, , looking at the living left behind, especially when it was little ones, it’s awful.
Seeing and hearing the end result from his side, validates all of the faces I will never forget. I can’t think about that song without crying. There’s no other way to feel than “wrecked” after this masterpiece.
Listen to the words react to the hard parts, that's authentic and hard! People love pure honesty!
Damn it, your emotion is contagious. Its hard enough to get through this song without feeling your emotion as well. Your reaction is outstanding. And the more i watch your channel the more i like you. Thank you.
A close friend offered the suggestion of taking my own NF journey years ago as I was finding a pathway to navigate out of the anguish of mourning my mother's suicide.
I wasn't ready then. Today was the day.
Catharsis comes in many forms. Music is amazing in that regard.
I subscribed. Can't wait to see the progression, growth, and evolution of your creativity and empathetic perspective as you discover some of the emotionally transparent artists that have been my own dysfunctional private therapy.
I’m sorry for your loss and proud of you for taking steps to heal. I agree. It really is cathartic. I’m excited for what lies ahead too.
This song really touches the heart. they are among the best lyrics I've heard.
So proud to know you and walk alongside you, Rose. Your words and vulnerability here are a gift to many. Love you.
Wendiiii!!! Thank you!! I love you.
I don't normally put this kind of comment on a platform like this, but their is a time and a place for it. Rosalie, this really touched my soul, and I definitely felt the pain inside of you. Father God, I want to take this moment to pray for all the ones who are in deep pain in one shape or form. I pray for Rosalie that whatever is happening concerning a loved one that they find peace and give it all to you. I pray that she finds love and kindness to know that you are a wonderful counselor, loving God, healer, and there when you need him most. No matter what life has dealt you, know that their is light at the end of that tunnel and that light is true and forever. I pray this in Jesus' Name. Amen 🙏 NF is authentic in his art and one of the most honest and thought giving ones out in today's music world. This one was definitely hard to listen to because I have been surrounded by people I knew with addiction, and yes, some have passed on, and it hurts deep inside. However, we need to know that we're a mustard seed here in this place. One last thing is not to worry what happened in the past. Their nothing we can do to change that. Don't worry about your everyday life, and especially don't worry what tomorrow may bring. I hope everyone has an Amazing Happy New Year 2023. Much Love to all ❤️❤️❤️
😢 thank you so very much! Amen!
And yes to what you said. Grateful for NF’s music. Great things ahead. Happy New Year
Thanks for reacting to one of my fav again
Thank you sooo much for finally getting around to it Rosalie!!!!! Thank you thank you thank you
You're welcome. Hope you saw the shout out.
@@rosalieelliottofficial I did, you rock!
idk one person who can sit thru this reaction and not cry especially if you live it
Get chills every time I hear this song
This song get's me everytime! ❣️ Was crying along with u esp when you started crying more
Can really feel his hurt & pain 💔
Happy Hogmanay from Scotland 💙❣️
Hallo Rosalie, als ich das Video zum ersten Mal gesehen hatte, habe ich Wasserfälle geweint und ich bin ein gestandender Mann von 51 Jahren. Was ich an NF liebe ist, das er den Mut hat, seine Traumatas seiner Kindheit mit uns allen zu teilen. Dieses Video hat mich genauso hart getroffen und mich so stark getriggert.
Love your NF reactions
I'm right there with you. This was gut wrenching!
NF is someone I can relate to very much, I walked in similar shoes, saw similar things, but these events made me build a wall around my heart that is inpenetrable. Sometimes tears get through the cracks and then I sit there ugky crying and I don't know why. I cannot feel why. I feel detached, dead. I feel like I am the version of me that protects the child behind these walls.
I was recently reminded that there are different types of tears. Maybe the tears that are trying to break through with you are trying to let the healing in. Your body telling you it’s time… release. Forgive. Love yourself. Parent and nurture and love on the child within you. Fight for that child the way you wanted to be fought for. Love yourself. You are enough! More than enough.
The one part of this song that hits the hardest is when he says I have a picture of my mom but I don't need picture of my mom I need the real thing. All I've ever had was pictures and stories. I have no memories of my mom and im almost 28 she passed away in 2001 so I was about 5 or 6. He brought how I felt to the surface after so many years of not knowing how to express it
I truly appreciate everything you said in this video...inspiring words to say the least. Have a happy and blessed new year!
I've been waiting for this one, did not disappoint
I cry every time I hear this song, and watch people react to it... I don't know why I keep going back to watch people's reaction...
The song broke me the first time I heard it. My mother died from drug overdose in 2005 when I was twenty-five years old and then I got into drugs and put my kids through hell. Thankfully I overcame my demons and I've been clean for a while now and my kids are getting the mother they deserve but I still feel shame for what I did and I still feel pain from what my mother did. I'm no longer trying to play the victim though but it's still a battle internally. I don't think the song has ever affected me emotionally like this has.
I wanted to edit my comment and tell you that you haven't even started the song yet and you just said that this is personal for you so before the song even starts I want to thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable with us because it shows that we're not alone
hey beautiful Sara (hope it's ok I address you like that. Assuming that's your name based on the user name).
Let me just say: I am proud of you! :) I also believe you are forgiven. and I am sorry for your loss. I am proud of you for doing the hard work, being honest and real and fighting to get better for your kids and yourself. you are worth it.
@@rosalieelliottofficial Miss lovely Rosalie thank you so much for this amazing comment. Yes my name is Sara I was actually named after the song Sara smiles by my father. Both my mother and father passed away due to their drug and alcohol issues and it was within two years of each other and rather than dealing with it I'd mask my pain with pain medication and it numbed me and paralyzed me to the point where I didn't even feel like I was existing. I have three young boys who depended on me and I was just a shell of a person for many years. But through God I found healing and forgiveness. I still have my burdens that I have to overcome through God's healing and Grace but at least I'm headed toward the light and not the dark anymore. I've actually been using my UA-cam to reach people through losing weight on Weight Watchers and singing. I've lost 86 lb over the last 77 weeks. 😊 And it's been amazing to actually take care of myself mentally and physically but like I said before the struggles are still there and I just have to pray and give it to God everyday. Thank you so much for responding and I hope you have an amazing weekend
@@sarasweightlossjourney1432 keep going. I hope you have or can find a community that encourages you when the going gets tough. So glad you’ve found things to put yourself and your creativity into :) that’s wonderful. Keep going
Great reaction as always. This song breaks me every time I hear it.
Hugs from Sweden.
11:30 when mentioning your brothers, there appears to be an orb floating on the right hand side of the camera...
Holy shit brouh😦😧
This is one of the hardesr NF songs to listen to! He makes u feel his pain,
Saddest Song NF Ever did in My Opinion. 🥺❤️
This is one of those songs that I don't listen to very often as it's so sad and it makes me an emotional mess. But it's also real and beautiful 💖 I love NF and love how you're not afraid to show true emotions. It's important and just healthy
First of all, thanks to NF and of course also thanks to you for sharing emotions, memories, pain and empathy. Since I can think, alcohol was part of my family. I lost my parents to that stuff. I consume it myself, too. And I'm always afraid, I could end up like them. They are not dead, but it changed them to people, I do not recognize anymore and I dont't want to be part of my life anymore. I'm on my own since I was 16 because I couldn't take the beating and fighting anymore. I'm a grown man of 38 years now and in the sense of NFs song Mansion: I don't fix things, I just repaint. And sometimes, these rooms open and I don't have a good time. They will always be a part of me. I have never been to professional therapy. My therapy is to talk openly about it. Share my thoughts, share my feelings. I know, this isn't the real deal, but it helps me to deal, let people get close to me. This is not only for self-therapeutic reasons, though. It is also to show the people around me that there are others. Everyone has to carry their package. You never know what it might be...