My Old Prayer Journals & Views on Religion
Вставка
- Опубліковано 19 лют 2024
- Podcast channel - / @relaxwithcolleenander...
Instagram - / colleen
TikTok - / colleen
Main Channel - / psychosoprano
PO Box 55995
Sherman Oaks, CA 91413
Colleen Ballinger is dedicated to creating a safe, inclusive, positive space online and bullying will not be tolerated. Thank you! - Розваги
Hi Colleen--simple, childlike prayers are the most beautiful and also the most powerful. We should all pray with the faith of a child. 💞
Yes! When my son grew out of his clothes it was so hard. Even my husband would get choked up. We were only able to have one child and were lucky/blessed to have him. He is 32yo now. I love that guy. We are so increadably blessed to have a son like him.
Same, mama! We only have one child, she’s 9. So many firsts and lasts over in the blink of an eye. The clothes, oh, how they get me in all the feels ❤
We moved recently and I found a bin of the baby clothes I saved from my four children. One of the items was a pajama dinosaur costume and when my son now married and has two kids saw it he said, “oh I want my kids to wear that for Halloween”. I never ever thought that one day the baby clothes I kept would be worn by my grandchildren. What is especially crazy is I was never supposed to have children let alone grandchildren. I had two high risk pregnancies (both girls) and we ended up adopting 2 (boys). You just never know what is in store. I never pictured myself a grandma to 6. I’m your mom Gwen’s age and I love your channel. You went to high school with my niece and nephew so I remember some of the shows you were in. (Especially LesMiz) You’re still as talented as ever. Keep sharing your talent.
Colleen you have three kids. Trust me you will have tiny kids again, they are called grandchildren! And you will love them just as fiercely.
:)) yes true
Just an idea... you could make a memory blanket and throw pillows for their beds or make them together for you as a throw blanket for when you read stories to them or just for the cuddle times. 😊
What a GREAT idea! I hope she sees your comment. That would be such a way of remembering all the moments she had the twins wearing those clothes. Great idea!!
I cried with every clothing clean out. My youngest just got rid of all her toys and stuffed animals, as she’s entering her teenage years. That was hard, cried myself to sleep that night, silently saying goodbye to my babies.
My Daisy theory: she‘s worried about you talking to yourself when you’re talking to us lol She has no concept of the internet or the fact you’re famous, so she tries to distract you and make you happy so you stop talking to yourself 😂
yes yes yes! we want to hear it! i grew up very religious, by my own choice not through my family. i kept journals through that time too. i have since left the church and don’t have my people to relate to with that part of my life. i would love to hear your stories, any that u want to share!
I 100% relate with you! I had somewhat of a negative experience with religion and still on my journey to recovery and healing. Just know, you aren’t alone. ❤️
yesss Iagree!! I love to hear people’s experiences in religion because it’s so comforting to hear other people sharing similar stories ❤️ hope we’re all healing
This vlog reminded me of a couple years ago when you did a video where you and Erik sang and danced around to your favorite musical theatre songs, PLEASE give us more of that! I love watching you sing and enjoy musical theatre sooooo much ❤
I second this!!!
I feel the exact same way Colleen ALL the time and I’m a stay at home mom too! 🥹 it’s so hard realizing our kids are growing up & there’s no rewind button. Gotta soak them all in while they’re tiny❤️
Ttq: do you have any type of religious things u teach and do with the kids? Do u guys still have some form of religion in ur household bc of ur upbringing or do u avoid it for the same reason?
I get so excited when I see your notification that you've posted❤
Me too!!!!!
The emotional attachment to your babies clothes!! That’s me too! It literally breaks my heart because I visualize all the things they did in the clothes and all the moments. ❤❤❤❤❤
I’ve been so curious about your faith background I know it is personal but thank you for sharing more about it I love that you are always seeking listening to debates, etc.. My question for you is have you watched any of the series called The Chosen? If yes, what do you think of it? If no, I think it will be very thought-provoking for you and I would love to know your thoughts.❤
First-time commenter here - hi Colleen! I found your vlogs after I found out I was pregnant with twins a couple years ago and already had a 3-year-old son at the time (my twin girls were born March 2022, so similar ages to Flynn, Wes and Maisy over here!). Anyway, your vlogs have saved my sanity as a mom of 3 young kids. I love how you show how to make just ordinary play SO fun for your kids. Helps me want to be more of a “fun” mom too :)
Anywayyyy - TTQ: How do you and Erik figure out splitting kid and home duties? Like who wakes up with the kids at night and in the morning, managing their daily routines, adult stuff like paying bills, grocery shopping, making meals, etc.?
The book called “me” was already soo Miranda 😂 I love it!
TTQ: Colleen do you listen to ABBA? They sing Dancing Queen! When you mentioned the song Gimme Gimme it reminded me of their song Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! I get so emotional listening to their music. Winner takes it all, Knowing me, Knowing you. Our last Summer, I’ve been waiting for you…etc
Colleen, I went to a church from age 9 until 17 where they spoke in tongues and “shouted”. I was terrified at first but then got used to it. I remember bringing my high school boyfriend to church one time and he freaked out. He never came back.
Crying while packing your baby's clothes is perfectly normal!❤ I'd love to see you do some framed seaglass artwork!
Tortilla talk: Does Erik have any fun projects coming up? Loved seeing him in Good Trouble. Is he still acting?
that before and after picture of the rocks is crazy to me!! i love seeing the colors - a fellow rock nerd
My mom used to talk in tongues splashing holy water room to room in my house. Sometimes she’s come up behind me and put her hand on my shoulder and talk in tongues. I hated it, it creeped me out.
My Mom did the same. I remember feeling so scared and unsettled when she was loudly speaking in tongues. It feels like trauma to me.
TORTILLA TALK QUESTION: Colleen, I'm curious exactly what you look up on your phone when you're playing songs on the piano? I've played the piano for 13 years but I always just play piano/vocal/guitar sheet music. Could you show what you read when you're playing the piano?
I just did this, my son is about the same age as your twins. He was born August of 21. I cried about it, it’s the knowing I’ll never tuck those pajamas in ever again. The knowing I’ll never see these clothes stretched across his little belly or gain another unremovable stain or help cover another scrapped knee. It’s incredibly heart wrenching.
I drove up and down one of the best Trick or Treat streets in our town one Halloween night, seeing all the children out having fun, and crying because all my kids were older and no longer trick or treated. I made all their Halloween costumes and we still have Halloween parties every year with fun games and trivia, and grandkids are dressed up!
I LOVE the movie Thoroughly Modern Millie and maybe no one else I know would get this except for you.. my husband has a laundry basket on wheels and every time he wheels it back to the bedroom it squeaks and it reminds me of the laundry basket in the movie where the evil Mrs. Meers would put the unconscious girls and I said to him one day when he was squeaking to the bedroom, Okay Mrs. Meers, but he didn't get it. Love the channel and love that you are back amongst us and hope that you continue to heal. By the way, I am an old lady, which is why I am so familiar with the movie. Oh and PS: Why not a surrogate? I know adoption is so hard.. heck, all of it is hard and I am sure that you have thought of all possibilities. Despite what the haters say, I think you are a fabulous mom. Watching Wesley watch you juggle said it all...he was MESMERIZED and the look on his face was pure love! You have so much love to give... just sayin. I know it is none of our business but my heart hurts for you.
You talk about your childhood in so many different ways awkward, homeschooled, religious, poor, but the overarching theme is LOVE ❤
love ur whole vibe omg. im wondering if daisy pops up everytime u vlog cuz she associates the camera with pets and being picked up and snuggled cuz u always gotta move her outta the way?? 😆 love ur parenting style, thank u for showing me theres loving and caring parents out there ❤❤
My daughters and I are rewatching Haters back off! I hate there are only 2 seasons. It is comedic genius. I also realized Chris is in the magic episode. I wasn’t familiar with him when I watched the first time. I miss Miranda!
my cat remi loves daisy! she runs to my phone every time she hears daisy meow 😂😂
I hope at some point you’re able to publish the book you were writing ❤
My virgo self LOVED that you put the rocks in the same order 😂
There are places that takes your old baby clothes, and turn them into teddy bears! Could be a nice way to keep the baby memory visible instead of storing it in a box in the attic. The day my baby girl (almost 5) stops taking a stuffed animal everywhere she goes my heart will break into a million pieces. I 100% understand
i came to your show in June. it was the Chicago one, and i was so exited because it was my first one ever. At the show, you picked up your vlog camera and (I think) recorded something. Do you have any footage at your old shows! We'd love to see ❤❤❤
I was at that show too! She showed a bit of it in a previous vlog. Like maybe 10 seconds or less.
I was there too!! I sobbed when I saw her for the first time😭❤️
Coleeen, I went to your show in SF that you were talking about, and yes! I do remember seeing Flynn there. I did not see the twins but maybe they were there? Also, I went to the Jan 21 show in Thousand Oaks last year and you brought Flynn, again not seeing the twins. Btw, I did go onstage with you at the show in Thousand Oaks! I’m Amman from the biggest fan section. I have a video lmk if you want it!
Colleen, a song that i think was almost made for your voice is: nevermind me by maria mena, I would love to hear you sing it! You can translate so much feeling through your voice, and let’s face it ‘nevermind me’ is something a lot of us out here have felt at hard times in our lives…
You are not weird for crying over the clothes at all!! My girl just turned 1 and to make space and earn some money I just started going through and selling some of her clothes. I have been an emotional wreck about it! It’s like each piece of clothing has memories and sentiments attached to them and it is so hard to let those go.
Hey Colleen :) Really appreciated hearing your perspective on the religious stuff, would love to hear more!
Holy moly, watching you play the piano and sing might actually be my new favourite thing. I love passionate people
Hi
Colleen, my son is the same age as the twins. I’ll never forget that you and I actually had the same due date! I cry every time I go through my son’s clothing. I did keep almost everything from his first year, and found a company that makes keepsake blankets out of the pieces! Now I just keep the pieces that are sentimental, which lets be honest is basically everything🤣 love these babies!
Yesss Colleen!!! Bring back the prayer journal readings!!! I grew up watching you and these were always a hysterical glimpse into your past! I love your journals, they inspired me to write my own during my highschool days and granted mine aren’t as funny as yours but they are a laugh for sure! Love you!
❤Take care all.
OMG…my kids are mostly grown…a 10 and 14yr old but the others over 20. I still cry. I put away a PE Uniform I know we will never use again just last week. Tears…so many tears.
In the picture of Colleen and Rachel at Knoxberry farms, Colleen looks like Bailey! Is it just me?? 18:32
Donating clothes is such a great deed. But also, if you wanted to keep some and make two baby blankets with patches of their clothes and when they get older and decide they want kids, you will have a great gift to give.
Colleen, I have a 3 year old girl, 2 year old boy and am 20 weeks pregnant with di/di twin girls! We went for three kids and are getting four 😅 most days I feel like I’m drowning in just two but that’s the magic of parenthood right? We just figure it out. This is my last pregnancy and I completely understand how you feel going through your babies clothes. I saved EVERYTHING from my first two and now I know I will have to say goodbye to so many memories as these babies grow and I cry every time. So just wanted to say right there with you ❤ Also send me twin mama good luck lol 😂
Definitely sang “Gimme Gimme” for the Queen pageant I was in the summer before my senior year 😂 good times…
Daisy looks adorable in her new dress.💕
Getting rid of most of my daughter's clothes as she grew out of the; however, some favorites I've saved, others have been made into a memory quilt.
Colleen, I have kept SO many bins of my kids old clothes!! Some may say I have a problem or it’s silly or too much but! To me their instant memories. I can see them little when they wore them, where they wore them, the emotions with them… EVERYTHING!! I’ve cried so many tears putting them away and now knowing more babies are most likely not in my future I can’t even look at them. But I’ll keep them til I’m ready ❤️ So yes!! Anything my girls wore I’ve cried putting them away. Glad I’m not alone crying over clothes 😂🫶🏼
I totally get it! We just had our third child. Our only girl. She is now 18mo and I’m already buying her 24/2t bc she’s outgrowing everything. Every time I go through her clothes and even my 4year olds I cry!! Like you said - we will never have a baby smaller than our youngest again! Omg mom tears!! 😢❤ We just have to wait many years to finally have tiny grandbabies 🎉
It's so hard to put away outgrown clothes - especially for the last child - absolutely!
Colleen. I did a reading on your chart. Not sure how you read this or not. But youre currently going through the phase of mahadasha of ketu.
During this time of 7 year of his dasha. There lot of major things that happen in your life. And it affect strongly on your family side. Especially when it comes to health. I advice you to take things easy. This is the time where things grow slowly. And lot of struggles of course. But eventually you will come out as a winner. I wish i can share you more of my insight with you. Either way. Hope you doing well.
Omggggg Maisy's little pink dress is THE CUTEST EVER I CAN'T
I’m honestly struggling so bad… I lost my mom at 17 she was a single mother and when I tried to reach out to my birth dad he didn’t seem to care about me but did my older siblings and before I was even able to really have a real conversation he passed in 2016… my moms abusive boyfriend ended up really helping me when she passed and I found out he might’ve actually been my biological dad… it’s a loooong story but I took care of him when he got sick of cancer in the same house I lost my mom and sister in .. he passed in 2021 and my only other close family member was my uncle who also passed now….. I’m pregnant and an emotional mess I already feel so alone but even more alone now knowing I really have no one in my family to go through this with that cares at least…. Idk where I was going with all of this but your videos have always brought me joy and made me feel less alone.. so thank you so much 💖
Watching you freestyle on your piano and belt out a song like it was nothing was cool! 😎 I appreciate that you included that in your vlog today because it’s a powerful part of you and it is lovely to share it with everyone!
I know how you feel Colleen! Those items hold memories and are so sentimental to you 🥹 time does fly by too quickly. Sending love your way xo
Colleen, I'm lame too!! I still find myself in tears when it's time to part with my kids' clothing, and they are 14 and 10 years old! It's bittersweet. I'm so proud of my kids and how much they have grown, but I miss those baby days! Sending hugs and uplifting prayers your way! ❤
I just love you ❤ Thank you for keeping me sane during nursing school lols
About daisy loving the camera, I had a cat who had a similar trait, except it was when anyone laid on the ground. This would take a lot of backstory, but my family used to do situps and abs often when we were watching TV and somehow my cat always knew when our butts hit the ground and was always ready to come lay right underneath our back as we were trying to do situps. The cat’s name was Jake and he was one of my favorite cats I have ever had. Thank you for unabashedly, loving cats as much as I always have.❤️
You may have already said this but one of my favorite memories is going through my baby clothes with my mom as an adult! It’s okay to keep your favs for your babies’ babies!
Also it’s not lame to be emotional!!
Hi Colleen. I believe our casseroles are what Brits would call a “bake.” Like a pasta bake.
TTQ: in Rachel‘s video where she tested dollar store, she talks about a childhood smell from a car freshener. She couldn’t figure out what this smell was I was wondering if you knew.?
i LOVE ur jumper so much oml where did u get it from ??? you're on your own kid is probably my favourite taylor song cause it just means so much to me
I’ve had to go through my 3m old’s clothes several times now bc she’s growing like a weed. Already in 6-9m and I want to cry 😢
tortilla talk question: can we pleaseee get a video of just you playing the piano 🥹
Hi Colleen! That self portrait in the cover of your journal, just looks like Miranda😂
where does gus hang out
What is the sweetest thing? Watch Wesley when Colleen is juggling. He doesn't watch the balls at all. He watches colleens face , the entire time, with the biggest smile♥️ He loves his mama♥️
We wanna hear about your full thoughts on religion and your mission trip prayer journal
The sad music 9:12 that’s hilarious 😂nice touch !!!
so fun hearing you play and sing gimme gimme ! keep it coming, so amazing!
TTQ: As a mom I find myself occasionally doing this and curious if you do too, I call my mom and will say "remember that time when I was 7 and I did this? Well I am SO SORRY because it really is annoying and I see that now" "remember when I was 13 and I did this? SO SORRY that was so disrespectful and I get it now".....my kids are older than yours so idk maybe if you don't do it you will later on LOL
Tortilla talk question: to start off how are you? Genuinely how are you doing? Do you ever think you will go on tour again? I was lucky enough to meet you in Feb of 2023 and I’ve grown into the person I am watching you since you first started UA-cam, so to meet you was a dream come true. Hoping I get to do it again some day! Love you and hope you are well. ❤
Not me having the same exact Lisa frank journal with that lock. I feel weirdly close to u right now. 😂
TTQ: before you took a break I think you were in the process of designing more merch. Are there some "vault" merch items coming soon or ones we could see?
11:31 I love your phone case. Where did you get that at? I love the colors. Is that a galaxy pattern on it? I love it.
You are grieving the past. Feeling sad and letting it go is grieving! It’s so healthy to do in the moment. You aren’t the only one to cry over moments past you’ll never have again. Grieve all you want. But keep going forward as life is in front of you, not behind you. We can’t do it all but enjoy what we can and live out of those really great memories!
I would like to see a "Colleen's Crystals" where you interview a local geologist and ask questions about the Colleens Crystals that you have collected. TTQ Can you make this happen please?
Yes to the mission memories! I find that stuff interesting and especially your experience of it with music and religion too
TTQ: What do you do with all your rocks? I think it would be cool to have a little polished rock garden in your yard. I bet the kids would love it. My baby Derek ( 6 days younger than your twins) is fascinated with anything I touch! My older child Kyle is 11 so his interest in me and my stuff is hit or miss these days, lol, but Flynn is still young enough to idolize you guys.
TTQ: Could you update us on your vocal chord recovery? Was concerned for you, but glad you're singing in your vlogs again!
Do you still keep a journal? I wrote in one for about 20 years. I really should start that up again
Tortilla talk question Do you plan on getting a rock journal to keep track of all rocks you finished and etc? 😊
I fully appreciated you putting the rocks in the exact same spot!!!
TTQ: Hello, this is kinda random but I'm 23 and about to move far from my family for the first time (like states away). I'm excited but also really nervous a the same time, I was hoping for some moving advice... I have a cat and I'm not sure what to expect when it comes to flying with a pet. Honestly just any moving advice would be appreciated I'm having a lot of anxiety about the whole situation
TTQ: Hi Colleen! Sorry if you've already answered this question before, but I was wondering what you thought of the new Mean Girls movie? Or if you haven't seen it, have you listened to the soundtrack? What did you think of it?
Thank you for all you do, love your videos :)
I saw you in Anaheim in 2022 and I remember Flynn was there (he didn't come out you just said he was behind the curtain with Erik) The show was AMAZING. My boyfriend who doesn't watch your videos was even laughing and said it was a good show. I remember Jojo was there and she performed with you and even Avery was there. Anyways I hope you do another show in Anaheim someday, I'd love to see you again. Also I just got my hair cut and it looks just like yours now and I love it.
I know how you mean it, but whenever I hear people say “I love music” it makes me laugh. It’s like saying “I really enjoy oxygen”.
I love that your parents are so kind, caring, understanding and supportive… I know many parents get so mad when we change our beliefs!
I went to a wellness shop and bought some rocks and it made me think of you. I got a kabamby ocean jasper which helps with ease anxiety, depression and irrational fears. I got a green moss agate which helps with grounding and centering yourself specifically for earth signs (hi im a taurus). I got some rose quartz for me and my mom. I also got my mom some selenite, which is supposed to be spiritually cleansing.
I think I speak for all moms when I say we ALL cry when we go through clothes
I absolutely love all 3 kid's laughter
TTQ - hi Colleen I bought one of your friendship braclets from vinted! It’s new and I was wondering how you put them on? I can’t figure out how to tie them 😅 I’m sorry if this sounds a little stupid 💗 if you could show how to tie it, it has the Purple Heart, lipstick and pink shades charm it’s beautiful I love it so much and can’t wait to wear if and fill it up with memories 🥹💛
Loved hearing the Thoroughly Modern Millie song! Do you like the show or movie better? I feel like you’ve mentioned this before. I just really enjoy the movie because of Tapioca and Carol Channing.
My child turned 2 last week. I felt so grateful she was growing up happy and healthy but so sad at the same time for the same reasons as you. Its hard. We just gotta snuggle them as much as possible and soak up every moment. Love the comment from
donnabrown1495...grandchildren ❤
question what is your favorite Taylor swift song and your favorite album?
TTQ: How is your mental health these days?
6:50 I'll have you know, my boys are 7 & 11 & I **still** get emotional when I go thru their clothes. Especially now that my 11yr-old & I can share shirts now 😢🙈😭
I cry every time! And the more he wore them. , the harder it is! It does get a little easier as he gets older . I still cry, but I actually donate them! I still have quite a few of his little baby/toddler things that I haven’t been able to part with!😳