mood after the heartbreak I experienced from reading "if he had been with me"

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  • this book broke my heart💔 don’t get me started on chapter 84…
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  • @Books_for_breakfast
    @Books_for_breakfast 10 місяців тому +112

    “finny?” “oh autumn.” that line broke me

    • @its.line_Arnesson
      @its.line_Arnesson 13 днів тому +1

      My stomach clenched even though I already know what would happen, and know about the book, I couldn't stop crying

    • @Books_for_breakfast
      @Books_for_breakfast 13 днів тому

      @ 100% relatable, this book broke me, and then i read the next one and my heart shattered even further 😭🤍

  • @dorthymehta6922
    @dorthymehta6922 Рік тому +224

    I just finished it, I was on chapter 82 two days ago and i figured out the ending so i couldn't read it, but then I couldn't not read it as well and now I can't stop crying, this book was so good but also so sad, which is why it was so good

    • @hafsagulizar7286
      @hafsagulizar7286 Рік тому +2

      Omg same😭😭😭

    • @dddeeee9222
      @dddeeee9222 Рік тому +1

      Why didn't it make me feel anything can you explain last 10 mins

    • @dorthymehta6922
      @dorthymehta6922 Рік тому +8

      @@dddeeee9222 it was because finn and autumn had loved each other all this time and they used to think that it was one sided love but then they were finally together and finn had to break up with his gf to officially be together with autumn and that's what he was doing on that night but he had an accident and then when autumn thinks " If he had been with me" He would not have died because he could have been saved because he got out of the car but then he went back to help the girl he was with and then he died, what makes it more emotional was that autumn was so depressed at that point of the book and just needed some happiness in her life but then he died

    • @Vivvyyyyyyyy
      @Vivvyyyyyyyy 3 місяці тому

      The ending made me cry as well🥹I read the book months ago and I’m still not over it

    • @Lynns.library-q2g
      @Lynns.library-q2g 13 днів тому

      I didn't see it coming somehow 😭 It was also late at night so I was tired but it BROKE ME

  • @minasbujo387
    @minasbujo387 Рік тому +77

    i started it today and i finished it today and there’s something about it that makes it so unrecoverable and sad. it’s like a heartbreak that you can’t describe. like i’m experiencing this extreme level of sadness and heartbreak through fictional characters but it feels like this real tangible thing. i don’t even know if this makes sense but i can already feel my self suppressing the book so i can’t be emotional about it anymore 💀

    • @Carrideswithmercedes
      @Carrideswithmercedes Рік тому +6

      Same I just need a therapist

    • @hayleygreen132
      @hayleygreen132 Рік тому +6

      I FINISHED IT TODAY AND IT FEELS TO REAL LIKE I FEEL GRIEF FOR THEM AND THE ENDING WAS SUCH A PLOT TWIST

    • @naomifazecas
      @naomifazecas 6 місяців тому +1

      they only had one night😭😭😭😭😭😔 i legit cried so hard…still am

    • @lilpopism
      @lilpopism 4 місяці тому

      I binged it in a day and now it feels I’m grieving an actual person. It’s just a book.

  • @_.s1lly..hUsKy._
    @_.s1lly..hUsKy._ 11 місяців тому +17

    the way i was so happy that autumn was happy with finny. than i remembered that he was about to die. i was dreading it. (i read the whole book in 1 week)

    • @Mo0sty.w1ngz
      @Mo0sty.w1ngz Місяць тому

      I read it in 2 days bro😭 I finished it at 4:33 am and I feel like crying but I can't get the tears out😭😭

    • @gazing_stars
      @gazing_stars 2 дні тому +1

      i finished within one day... finished at 3:03 am... now... i cant stop my tears god... ToT

  • @AnnaJohnson27
    @AnnaJohnson27 Рік тому +31

    This is too relatable… this book owes me a box of tissues and some therapy sessions

  • @Idekjustyeah
    @Idekjustyeah Рік тому +8

    To be completely honest, I love slowburn books and got this book because it was known as a super sad book and I ADORE sad books. But if I’m being honest, I found the characters really dull and never connected to the character like usual. The character development just could have been better. I couldn’t tolerate any of the characters other than Finn. ESPECIALLY AUTUMNNNN oh my lord. The entire book when she was with Jamie she was constantly saying “don’t leave me, love me forever” while mentally cheating on him. And I hated Jamie, he’s so controlling (not allowing her to follow her dream or wear boy clothes because he likes her feminine) and I saw the twist where SPOILERRRRRR Jamie cheats with Sasha like more than 100 pages in advance. I just don’t really feel connected and don’t understand how this book is really that heartbreaking. Sorry people

  • @elllaaaaaa7
    @elllaaaaaa7 10 місяців тому +3

    STOP I JS GOT THIS BOOK AND NOW IM SCARED TO READ IT CAUSE PEOPLE R SAYING IT LEFT THEM HEARTBROKEN.

  • @anna.bananas
    @anna.bananas Рік тому +64

    i was in the middle and read the last 3 chapters. ruined my life. i wish i could take it back.

  • @thisbookworm-tv9nk
    @thisbookworm-tv9nk 8 місяців тому +3

    LITERALLY ME. i finished it saturday and just can't stop thinking about it so i had to start the second one

  • @zainabfalaq6858
    @zainabfalaq6858 11 місяців тому +6

    I didn't cry but i was feeling awful i can't believe it's such a bad ending i really hoped finny didn't died

  • @wise_girl_forever
    @wise_girl_forever Рік тому +9

    I finished it last night and I was sobbing, cuz I felt emotionally connected to them and the ending was so sad and I’m not sure I can bring myself to read the sequel when it comes out cuz I don’t know if I can take the heartbreak again

  • @rebekahsimpson9184
    @rebekahsimpson9184 Рік тому +26

    Ok, I literally just finished it. And at first I didn’t understand the hype. And until I was passed page 300 I wasn’t feeling any sadness… but the ENDING got me 😔

    • @maresreyes579
      @maresreyes579 Рік тому +3

      I feel like the book was overhyped, I didn't quite like the book, the ending was a bit rushed

    • @rebekahsimpson9184
      @rebekahsimpson9184 Рік тому +2

      @@maresreyes579 I completely agree. I didn’t ball my eyes out or anything just got teary and then went on with my night 🤷‍♀️
      - I have notifications on that’s why I responded quickly 😂

    • @victoriyuhh
      @victoriyuhh Рік тому

      ​@@rebekahsimpson9184fr it wasn't as sad as I expected

  • @Rice_cakes_
    @Rice_cakes_ Рік тому +160

    Was it just me or did anyone else not cry while reading the book, I felt like the ending came by too fast

    • @peyton.1110
      @peyton.1110 Рік тому +35

      Yeah same here I just finished it. I felt a little numb but I was just upset that they didn't get the happy ending everyone was expecting

    • @Bookw_ormx
      @Bookw_ormx Рік тому +10

      Same i finished the book and the only feeling I felt was being numb maybe it was cuz it didn’t have enough details

    • @etoileolivas
      @etoileolivas Рік тому +15

      i liked it i just tried to make myself cry i couldn’t

    • @victoriyuhh
      @victoriyuhh Рік тому +8

      I really loved it icl but it just wasn't as sad as I expected after watching all those booktok reviews that said it made them sob then there's me who didn't even shed a tear

    • @luv.bellbellbean
      @luv.bellbellbean Рік тому +6

      i know i am honestly sad that finny died but it came so quick that i just have not processed it yet

  • @Nooooooo61781
    @Nooooooo61781 5 місяців тому +1

    Dude I’m too scared to take this off my shelf 😭 I can’t handle another heartbreak rn

  • @hariniganesan8357
    @hariniganesan8357 Рік тому +5

    omg this book literally made me so sad for like so long

  • @Josieeeeeee22
    @Josieeeeeee22 9 місяців тому +5

    Now read if only I had had told her (it’s 5 times sadder 😭)

  • @Brooklyn_Connor
    @Brooklyn_Connor Рік тому +11

    IM STILL CRYING IT WAS SO SAD

  • @Madi-kj1nn
    @Madi-kj1nn Рік тому +3

    I literally just finished it and I’m bawling my eyes out 😭

  • @Aakriti119
    @Aakriti119 Рік тому +2

    I finished it yesterday and I think the emphasis was more on how they were apart and loved each other and couldn't say it but when we move towards the ending the happiness and death of finny just went by so quick we couldn't process it

  • @benji_fan_4_life
    @benji_fan_4_life 6 місяців тому

    REALLLLLL I AM SO SAD EVERY SINGLE TIME I THINK ABT IT BRUUUU😭😭😭😭

  • @BookHoarder824
    @BookHoarder824 Рік тому +3

    Fr tho. I was sitting in my room thinking about it like a month after finishing it and just started crying. Idk if thats just me or the book but I totally recommend reading it.❤😂

  • @Addie32.1
    @Addie32.1 Рік тому +1

    i pre-ordered the second one with fins perspective and it’s coming in febuaryyyy🤭🤭🤭

  • @vallywally_pookiewookie
    @vallywally_pookiewookie 10 місяців тому

    I started and finished it today, and let me tell you, it is the first time I have EVER cried over a book.

  • @alliesawesomeworld440
    @alliesawesomeworld440 10 місяців тому +1

    I forgot about the fact that it gave away that he died and there are marks in the pages from where my tears fell I cried so hard

  • @EvanCook2388
    @EvanCook2388 Місяць тому

    I finished it in 24 hrs and I cried. I cried my eyes out of my head this book is beautiful but terrifying and I hate it but love it

  • @ChloeMartin-o4x
    @ChloeMartin-o4x 4 місяці тому

    Broo that book is so good

  • @MipeOfficial
    @MipeOfficial Рік тому

    Dude the ending was so sad… I read it and cried myself to sleep, two friend…. More like lovers ❤

  • @JessDauses
    @JessDauses Рік тому

    Yess literally balling my eyes out rn

  • @lilpopism
    @lilpopism 4 місяці тому

    Why does it feel like I’m grieving an actual person.

  • @sammietommy
    @sammietommy 2 місяці тому

    I literally just finished reading it and it’s safe to say that I bawled my eyes out..WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE

  • @Mack_Gurley
    @Mack_Gurley 11 місяців тому

    I was reading this in my third period ( my reading period) and I Kidd you not, I was sitting there in a puddle of tears! And my friends thought I was not ok

  • @adelekonter
    @adelekonter Рік тому

    I have just finished this book and i am crying so much💔💔

  • @maxmayfield_7934
    @maxmayfield_7934 Рік тому

    im actually bawling

  • @dorafarkas2451
    @dorafarkas2451 Рік тому

    I… I just… I just need a hug

  • @chrissjaminha
    @chrissjaminha 9 місяців тому

    my heart is literally broken

  • @lifes_weird
    @lifes_weird 11 місяців тому

    I'm like halfway through and I'm so scared for what's gna happen bc I hear so many ppl cry at the end 😭

  • @KotlcFan_Blink
    @KotlcFan_Blink Місяць тому

    I just finished this and…I am shocked…I can’t even cry…I am tramatized…whoever told me to read this….i hate them…I am literally shaking….

  • @carmenkaulitz
    @carmenkaulitz 10 місяців тому

    literally don't know how to feel rn 😭

  • @ella_jchan
    @ella_jchan Рік тому +2

    the last 5 chapters.

  • @micheledunbar5593
    @micheledunbar5593 27 днів тому

    SAME! i’m in mourning

  • @nayaritter7571
    @nayaritter7571 Рік тому

    ACTUALLY 😢

  • @dalylabitsilly
    @dalylabitsilly 11 місяців тому +1

    I need some therapy sessions, I feel numb after reading both books, what do I feel I don’t know how to feel

  • @Unveranosinmi
    @Unveranosinmi Рік тому +1

    Maybe i didn't like it bc i listened to it as an audiobook. I didn't hate it either tho. I was just expecting it to be more sad. 7/10 I'll give it.

  • @RandomThingsEntertainment
    @RandomThingsEntertainment 11 місяців тому

    I think I’m gonna be in a bad mood for at least three days..I can’t stop thinking about this book. (Spoiler alert ahead)
    My favorite moments were when Finny was so protective of her when she was hurt or drunk, and when he taught her how to drive. The little moments where you can see them slowly falling for each other are SO CUTEEEEE!!!!

  • @kkidhatr
    @kkidhatr 6 місяців тому

    this book was genuinely one of the worst things to ever happen to me but i reread it so much

  • @SashaStars
    @SashaStars Рік тому

    Ahhhhh I'm halfway through it ❤

  • @love.j3xxica
    @love.j3xxica Рік тому +3

    This was the best book I’ve ever read. I love you. (Yes I am talking to a BOOK)

  • @marg_oh
    @marg_oh Рік тому

    Real shit 😔

  • @averiebrynn
    @averiebrynn 2 дні тому

    me cus i almost cried when sasha broke up with alex (in my head, alex was chauncey leopardi as mouth 😩😮‍💨 and i always thought of sasha as arianna greenblatt)

  • @localtheatregirl
    @localtheatregirl 29 днів тому

    “Finny?”
    “Oh autumn.”
    NO. THEY SHOULDVE BEEN ENDGAME

  • @Spawn-of-Hades
    @Spawn-of-Hades Рік тому

    No cuz I feel so bad for autumn-

  • @Swiftie_From_Aus
    @Swiftie_From_Aus Рік тому

    I tried talking to my mum about the heartbreak I’m feeling form the book and she just laughed 💔💔

  • @agamybear2801
    @agamybear2801 Рік тому +1

    i mentally perished after reading that book 😭

  • @complicatedme-pp6cf
    @complicatedme-pp6cf 9 місяців тому

    I listed to take me back to the night we met as was reading the last few chapeters I was not okay

  • @ranyaal3013
    @ranyaal3013 Рік тому +1

    Oh my god you are stunning!!!!

  • @Pengtinginnit
    @Pengtinginnit Рік тому

    I literally have no idea what the ending was I’m so confused

  • @Alexturnerismyhusband
    @Alexturnerismyhusband 7 місяців тому

    I can’t be the only one who thought that Jamie was kinda toxic

  • @Melanie_warren
    @Melanie_warren 8 місяців тому

    Fr

  • @Aubrey563
    @Aubrey563 Рік тому

    Frr

  • @zohaimran1375
    @zohaimran1375 Рік тому

    I need spoilersss!!!!

  • @denisemalouf6150
    @denisemalouf6150 Рік тому +1

    ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @alexusjohnson2610
    @alexusjohnson2610 8 місяців тому

    Is there a movie?

  • @Stellarr.22
    @Stellarr.22 Рік тому

    I dont have the book, what happens at the end

    • @HardinScott-p2n
      @HardinScott-p2n Рік тому

      U can download it from pdf and plz don't ask abt the spoilers once u read I'll get it .

  • @Namjooningthroughlife
    @Namjooningthroughlife 7 місяців тому

    I lowkey hated the book and don’t get the hype. I won’t judge people who like it I just don’t get it. Autumn was so annoying and the whole book was eh. The writing was like so mid. It felt like one of those books where people who don’t read like it.
    Someone explain the hype?

  • @umaimashahzad87
    @umaimashahzad87 Рік тому

    Is this book appropriate for a 13 Year old

    • @avalymburner1841
      @avalymburner1841 Рік тому +3

      I would say it depends… there is some bad language and lots of talk about sex and one sex scene. It wasn’t like a really inappropriate sex scene,the scene was really sweet. I’m 13 and I read it. Hope this helped:) it’s just depends on if you think so. But yes bad language and drinking and mental illnesses.

    • @sophia2474
      @sophia2474 Рік тому

      Yea

  • @edencarroll468
    @edencarroll468 Рік тому

    Spice level?

    • @MeganBurnsxxx
      @MeganBurnsxxx 6 місяців тому

      not much there is a bit of talking about it and one scene but that’s it

  • @HarryP.and.Descendants123lover
    @HarryP.and.Descendants123lover 6 місяців тому

    Fr