Tatum and Harley go out for drinks, and Tatum becomes distracted by his past. Written and Starring Carter Ray. Instagram @Carter_rayy Produced by Rachel Powell
Being a mom of a transgender son, I can’t imagine how a parent could turn their back on their own child! Thank you Carter for sharing this beautiful short film with the world! 💜
@@avastars3393 It is so sad that your parents feel the need to abuse you, rather than love you whether they approve or not. God bless you and give you the strength to endure until you can move out and away from their abuse. :)
At 7:05..so relatable. A few years ago I was loosely involved with a woman my age (22) but never really crossed any boundaries. I just liked the feeling of being "normal" and never told her anything about me being trans. This lead to a gigantic chunk of my life never being shared, even though I knew so much about her. I eventually told her before anything got serious and I immediately stopped talking to her for maybe 6 months. I hated the idea of her no longer seeing me as a regular guy, so much that I unintentionally put that onto her. For unrelated reasons things didn't work out in the end, but I walked away with some extremely valuable lessons and insight. I came to terms with what I wanted with my body and started to seriously make plans for bottom surgery (something I simply hadn't thought too much about of up until that point). I also made my decision based on what I wanted and needed for my lifestyle. Not on what society expects. This was a major milestone. I am still pre op, but okay with myself. I still haven't dated anyone yet and I am completely stealth to this day, but even though the thought of coming out and the fear of being rejected for my genitals is still there (and VERY intense), I just keep reminding myself that the person who will love me will be fine with what I have or don't have. There are so many options these days. We can figure it out. I hope everyone who can relate to this finds a healthy relationship one day, especially with themselves. And congrats to Carter, last I heard he was engaged to a woman who loved him for being him.
This made my hurt in the happiest way I ever have. Nothing is easy about being Trans. But I choose to believe that there are people out there that accept despite all the hate.
So….I’m trying to understand. Isn’t it self hate that leads a girl or boy to attempt to change (although impossible) their natural sex/gender to begin with? What really is sad is that we amplify the self hate by convincing these people that they are in the wrong body…..instead of telling them it’s okay to be more feminine, more masculine, or even homosexual. Trans ideology seems to only exist because of societies conventional norms. Convincing somebody to make artificial, often irreversible/damaging change to feel better is the opposite of empathy. It’s destructive and an abandonment of reality….all for the sake of being supportive. You’re perfect, now change, is modern society’s new shallow anthem.
@@historyrepeated4239 You have a deep misunderstanding of what of its like to be trans. Woman ≠ female, man ≠ male, however most trans people choose to got through medical transitioning but most only go through social as thats whats most accesible. Its not self hate, dysphoria is the sense that you are being treated as a gender you are not, imagine people forcing you to be something you're not, a lot of trans people are forced to pretend to be cis and that is so distressing.
Every man and woman has estrogen and testosterone. Some have more than others and this is 100% fine. But to conflate male or female gender/sex seems counterproductive. You cannot change your genetics. Why lie or pretend otherwise? Be as feminine or masculine as you like. If society has an issue with it, that’s their loss. However, if you are transitioning to superficially change your gender/sex, you are subscribing to the very construct you are trying to say is a spectrum.
My names Jordan Robinson i loved this film because it showed so much of what i had to go through just to hide it away for my parents and so i dont get bullied. When i got older i figured out i dont wanna live in misery. I'm trangender Ftm and it's hard to grow up when everyone expects you to be normal and i loved every min of this film. Thank you so much.
Really beautiful narrative. It hit some of the core pains in many FTMs lives. The film also highlighted the beauty that some FTMs may experience with CisWomen who can see the beauty we hold and the Men we are.💯Thanks for sharing your art with us!
I seen a trailer for this on tiktok. I thought it was going to be a full length movie so I was surprised when I seen it was a short film. It was amazing! I would love to see a full length film with your story. My partner recently told me he was trans. I'll admit it was hard at first but I couldn't imagine my life with any other person. This did truly hit home for me. Thank you for sharing your story. Much love!
@@stephenivers And this movie is LGBT propoganda bullshit. Do you ever ask yourself what the consequences are after you take cross sex hormones. These stupid actors getting payed to act the fool on camera, nothing will happen to their bodies, they wont end up in the hospital.
I hope you realize the gift you've given so many. I cried throughout the entire film. I have always hated my body even with more exceptance than I could imagine. Yet, I just wanna love myself as more than just an exception. Thank you for such an incredible film. Such emotion that just pours out with every scene. Well done. Truly life changing.
Wow! So deep... I'm ftm too and still fighting for acceptance and also fighting to survive because my mental health is kinda bad right now. I just can't imagine a future and it really hurts feeling so empty and hopeless. This helps a lot regaining some hope. Thanks!
🥰🥰🥰😍😍😍 what an amazing short film, this is deffinately something the world needs to see and I hope that it does. The work you done to make this film it shows the real passion you have. To share this story so others can see and not feel so alone in different way is remarkable. Proud of you man! Peace love unity respect !!
Idk how to say this... my life is relatable to this short film.... unfortunately my story is brought up through violence... why am I saying this... its because I see you've covered the key elements to what FTM individuals go through and I appreciate that... for any one wondering.... I was able to find that beautiful queen who accepts me for who I am, along with my dark past. The ending to this short film is real... the heart of women is gold. Thanks for covering that. Bless you Carter
As a lesbian trans woman ive had so many rejections from me telling im trans Note i tell every one right away Edit man i felt for the dude losing his childhood
So sad to see what he as a teenaged girl had to go thru, but very nice to see how his girlfriend has understanding for the transition to a man, and loves him for a human been he is. I hope more stories are like this in real life. I can only imagine how much different and harder for a person is to feel trapped in a a body of another gender in comparison tp just being gay or lesbian.
What tuff and cruel way to grow up I could never discard my children for wanting to be at peace .denying my children of peace and happiness over ego. I feel 0ain extreme pain rt now.
My heart broke when he start crying I feel so sorry for the trans community especially with y'all parents parents are not the first people to hurt and damage you
thank you for making this heart wrenching film. My ex husband is transgender, I have known him 32 years and loved him unconditionally through all his/her pain and struggles.
Being transgender goes both ways I'm I've been just about totally rejected by my own children but my brother and sister my nieces and nephews don't have a problem.
a short film better at capturing the real truth of a individual struggles in the trans community. But movies that will end in cinema's ,boxsets ect will not. & will not only do that they will make it purely on out of date information that was wrong decades ago. Plus: I liked the camera work well done
He lost me when he got romantically involved with ol grl without telling her. The film should shown her telling everybody cuz, on average, that's what happens. Might as well take control of the situation from the beginning. But this narrative happens too. Good quality film and acting and i appreciate the contribution.
This as touch me a lot even though Im mtf i have to go through the same with my father n family they hate how I act talk dress n walk they force me to do what makes me unhappy I just hate it a lot 😔but at least I have friends who understand me a lot ❤
Almost tell a person " Oh by the way im Trans and I don't get surgery ". before they reach down to your crotch area. Or oh by the way I'm Trans and I did get surgery just incase you're wondering why I have scars " I always always always tell people I'm pansexual/vegan / whatever/before I date them / kiss them / sleep with them. Just be honest. If someone rejects you then move on/ next person!
I feel bad for all the kids that live in fear of getting rejected or kicked out by their families because they came out as trans or are questioning their gender identity. People like you do not speak for trans youth or anyone in the trans community.
Being a mom of a transgender son, I can’t imagine how a parent could turn their back on their own child! Thank you Carter for sharing this beautiful short film with the world! 💜
Please be my mom . I am a transgender guy . I am currently 16 and I had to face child abuse from both my parents for being transgender 😵
@@avastars3393 I am so very sorry that your parents have been so cruel. If I could adopt all of you that have mean parents I so would!!!
@@venessadadams263 awwwwwwwwww thanks 🥺🥺🥺
@@avastars3393 It is so sad that your parents feel the need to abuse you, rather than love you whether they approve or not. God bless you and give you the strength to endure until you can move out and away from their abuse. :)
@@emilytrott thanks. I really needed to hear that🥺🥺🥺😭
At 7:05..so relatable.
A few years ago I was loosely involved with a woman my age (22) but never really crossed any boundaries. I just liked the feeling of being "normal" and never told her anything about me being trans. This lead to a gigantic chunk of my life never being shared, even though I knew so much about her.
I eventually told her before anything got serious and I immediately stopped talking to her for maybe 6 months. I hated the idea of her no longer seeing me as a regular guy, so much that I unintentionally put that onto her. For unrelated reasons things didn't work out in the end, but I walked away with some extremely valuable lessons and insight.
I came to terms with what I wanted with my body and started to seriously make plans for bottom surgery (something I simply hadn't thought too much about of up until that point). I also made my decision based on what I wanted and needed for my lifestyle. Not on what society expects. This was a major milestone. I am still pre op, but okay with myself.
I still haven't dated anyone yet and I am completely stealth to this day, but even though the thought of coming out and the fear of being rejected for my genitals is still there (and VERY intense), I just keep reminding myself that the person who will love me will be fine with what I have or don't have. There are so many options these days. We can figure it out.
I hope everyone who can relate to this finds a healthy relationship one day, especially with themselves. And congrats to Carter, last I heard he was engaged to a woman who loved him for being him.
This made my hurt in the happiest way I ever have. Nothing is easy about being Trans. But I choose to believe that there are people out there that accept despite all the hate.
So….I’m trying to understand. Isn’t it self hate that leads a girl or boy to attempt to change (although impossible) their natural sex/gender to begin with? What really is sad is that we amplify the self hate by convincing these people that they are in the wrong body…..instead of telling them it’s okay to be more feminine, more masculine, or even homosexual. Trans ideology seems to only exist because of societies conventional norms. Convincing somebody to make artificial, often irreversible/damaging change to feel better is the opposite of empathy. It’s destructive and an abandonment of reality….all for the sake of being supportive. You’re perfect, now change, is modern society’s new shallow anthem.
@@historyrepeated4239
You have a deep misunderstanding of what of its like to be trans.
Woman ≠ female, man ≠ male, however most trans people choose to got through medical transitioning but most only go through social as thats whats most accesible.
Its not self hate, dysphoria is the sense that you are being treated as a gender you are not, imagine people forcing you to be something you're not, a lot of trans people are forced to pretend to be cis and that is so distressing.
Every man and woman has estrogen and testosterone. Some have more than others and this is 100% fine. But to conflate male or female gender/sex seems counterproductive. You cannot change your genetics. Why lie or pretend otherwise?
Be as feminine or masculine as you like. If society has an issue with it, that’s their loss. However, if you are transitioning to superficially change your gender/sex, you are subscribing to the very construct you are trying to say is a spectrum.
My names Jordan Robinson i loved this film because it showed so much of what i had to go through just to hide it away for my parents and so i dont get bullied. When i got older i figured out i dont wanna live in misery. I'm trangender Ftm and it's hard to grow up when everyone expects you to be normal and i loved every min of this film. Thank you so much.
hope you’re doing good jordan :)
Really beautiful narrative. It hit some of the core pains in many FTMs lives. The film also highlighted the beauty that some FTMs may experience with CisWomen who can see the beauty we hold and the Men we are.💯Thanks for sharing your art with us!
I seen a trailer for this on tiktok. I thought it was going to be a full length movie so I was surprised when I seen it was a short film. It was amazing! I would love to see a full length film with your story. My partner recently told me he was trans. I'll admit it was hard at first but I couldn't imagine my life with any other person. This did truly hit home for me. Thank you for sharing your story. Much love!
I didn’t want it to end this is amazing and so inspiring.I am 13 and trans ftm
I thought the same thing! Literally just said “THATS IT!?” Lol
No yr not, your just going through a phase.
@@taichihead42 you have no right to tell people what they are or are not
@@stephenivers And this movie is LGBT propoganda bullshit. Do you ever ask yourself what the consequences are after you take cross sex hormones. These stupid actors getting payed to act the fool on camera, nothing will happen to their bodies, they wont end up in the hospital.
You understand that for men life is harder?
i just wanted to jump into the film and give him a big hug.
this is an amazing short film and really touching, it made me cry.
I hope you realize the gift you've given so many. I cried throughout the entire film. I have always hated my body even with more exceptance than I could imagine. Yet, I just wanna love myself as more than just an exception. Thank you for such an incredible film. Such emotion that just pours out with every scene. Well done. Truly life changing.
Made me think of the romance novel I’m writing about a trans guy in a wheelchair. Trying to add people like me to a genre I love.
That’s awesome!!
That's really interesting I want to be notified
Wow! So deep... I'm ftm too and still fighting for acceptance and also fighting to survive because my mental health is kinda bad right now. I just can't imagine a future and it really hurts feeling so empty and hopeless. This helps a lot regaining some hope. Thanks!
carter. this is absolutely amazing. thank you for sharing a piece of you in such a beautiful way. proud of you 💕
🥰🥰🥰😍😍😍 what an amazing short film, this is deffinately something the world needs to see and I hope that it does. The work you done to make this film it shows the real passion you have. To share this story so others can see and not feel so alone in different way is remarkable. Proud of you man! Peace love unity respect !!
I see me! Thank you for including me in such an amazing film it turned out so good!
I love this so much. This is my new favorite short film. Thank you.
Its a fantasy
Woow, such a beautiful short film! Thank you so much for this, I love it! 💜✨
So proud of you my boy. I felt a lot of emotions watching this. Love you bro
Really enjoyed this! Great points raised, more films like this need to be made!! Good job 👍🏼
I’m so proud of you Carter. Gets me every time 🥺
This is a gorgeous film. Touched my heart and opened my mind. Thank you 🙏🏼
Awesome film Carter!! Very well done and beautiful performance!!!
Thank you for sharing such a truthful and heartfelt story, it means a lot to see my experiences represented.
Nice job Carter ! You’ve got what it takes 👍🏼 Let’s see a full length film along these same lines next ! 😁
This is beautiful and Raw I can feel the struggle.
Idk how to say this... my life is relatable to this short film.... unfortunately my story is brought up through violence... why am I saying this... its because I see you've covered the key elements to what FTM individuals go through and I appreciate that...
for any one wondering.... I was able to find that beautiful queen who accepts me for who I am, along with my dark past. The ending to this short film is real... the heart of women is gold. Thanks for covering that. Bless you Carter
I’m so proud of you Carter great job on this film
This is a well-made story. I was worried it would be generic or over-done, but, no.
& no, I’m not crying 😭
I have waited forever for this to be released! I’m so fucking proud! This is beautiful, every second of it! WAY TO GO CARTER!!
Great movie! I can feel the main actor! I'm crying. Btw, can anyone tell me the name of ending soundtrack, please!? It was amazing!
thank you for watching !!! the sound track was done by Joseph Trapanese!
Great job, Carter!! This was a beautiful film!
Beautiful and honest. Can't wait for the feature length version. Thank you for sharing.
Warm. Magical. Painful. Hopeful. Much love
Good short film man! I hope this will inspire more accurate films about the struggles we go through as FTM and MTF. Thanks.
The story, the acting, the camera work are all amazing. This is a very beautiful and touching short film, thank you for this!
Carter, what a great story. Thanks for sharing. You are in inspiration to others. ❤️
Omg!! I’m crying. Such a good movie. I wanted to see more. I can totally see this as a series.
This made my cry my dude. Good work.
Carter you did such a great job on this! Such a beautiful short film
A true labor of love. Popped up on my TikTok FYP. Thank you for sharing your story!
this is so incredibly good! made me cry
I loved this so much! I am transgender female to non binary and this makes me really happy.
This was amazing. Perfection 😍
As a lesbian trans woman ive had so many rejections from me telling im trans
Note i tell every one right away
Edit man i felt for the dude losing his childhood
So sad to see what he as a teenaged girl had to go thru, but very nice to see how his girlfriend has understanding for the transition to a man, and loves him for a human been he is. I hope more stories are like this in real life. I can only imagine how much different and harder for a person is to feel trapped in a a body of another gender in comparison tp just being gay or lesbian.
So wholesome thank you so much for making this!!!!
Amazing piece.
This is so incredible Carter! I am so proud of you & your journey ♥️♥️
I listened to your episode on Why Won't You Date Me and it let me here. Absolutely love the movie.
It hasn’t been easy making the transition but I knew down inside that it was start living or die.
i wish my coming out was easy. it wasnt, my parents still say my deadname and say im a female
Omg same 🥺🥺🥺
@@avastars3393 hey, even tho I don’t know u I support u 100% and I’m so proud of u!! 🥺
😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
this is beautiful
Agreed
Awesome film
NOT ME SOBBING
I loved this, Carter. Amazing my guy.
So good 😢. It made me cry. Thank you for making this.
Loved this!! Very inspiring!!
Very moving film!
Great film, Carter!
I know the pain of a parent rejecting their child personally. I’m a transgender woman .
What tuff and cruel way to grow up I could never discard my children for wanting to be at peace .denying my children of peace and happiness over ego. I feel 0ain extreme pain rt now.
Thank you for your content. It's inspiring
My heart broke when he start crying I feel so sorry for the trans community especially with y'all parents parents are not the first people to hurt and damage you
So beautiful!!!!!
thank you for making this heart wrenching film. My ex husband is transgender, I have known him 32 years and loved him unconditionally through all his/her pain and struggles.
Be authentic, be true and most importantly - be you!
Being transgender goes both ways I'm I've been just about totally rejected by my own children but my brother and sister my nieces and nephews don't have a problem.
Amazing!!!
a short film better at capturing the real truth of a individual struggles in the trans community. But movies that will end in cinema's ,boxsets ect will not. & will not only do that they will make it purely on out of date information that was wrong decades ago.
Plus: I liked the camera work well done
What a sweet story. :)
Good movie, good acting. Carter is so hot!
it hit different when he said sorry to his father dude
Very good film
L'amore va oltre...
He lost me when he got romantically involved with ol grl without telling her. The film should shown her telling everybody cuz, on average, that's what happens. Might as well take control of the situation from the beginning. But this narrative happens too. Good quality film and acting and i appreciate the contribution.
This as touch me a lot even though Im mtf i have to go through the same with my father n family they hate how I act talk dress n walk they force me to do what makes me unhappy I just hate it a lot 😔but at least I have friends who understand me a lot ❤
Where Is the Oscar for this?
great movie
Sorry about your hair loss mate...
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No offense to the trans but is the guy transgender.
I am transgender
@@CarterRay 😱 Sorry if I offended you.
@@Disney65Fan none taken! Hope you enjoyed my film!
@@CarterRay really good
@@CarterRay this is beautiful and emotion wonderful film .keep good work
I am Trans, before i kiss a men i always tell them that i am trans. Bether for my and them, less pain.
Almost tell a person " Oh by the way im Trans and I don't get surgery ". before they reach down to your crotch area. Or oh by the way I'm Trans and I did get surgery just incase you're wondering why I have scars " I always always always tell people I'm pansexual/vegan / whatever/before I date them / kiss them / sleep with them. Just be honest. If someone rejects you then move on/ next person!
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This is a disaster. I do feel bad for all the kids that kill themselves after mutilation.
Yeah, but the one's who kill themselves cause they can't get care, you are okay with!
The ones who hurt themselves because they can't get care, you are okay with.
I feel bad for all the kids that live in fear of getting rejected or kicked out by their families because they came out as trans or are questioning their gender identity. People like you do not speak for trans youth or anyone in the trans community.
she lacks the inner lgbt rage to shout into the air