"Fourth of July”, is a reflection on the night his mother died. Sufjan quietly cries and croons his love for the woman who bore him, the woman who weaved in and out of his life until her death. The words feel close, **like a private conversation occurring with the listener eavesdropping. He calls her many tender names: “dragonfly”, “star in the sky”, “my little Versailles”. These words are weighted, full of nostalgia and regret; realizations of how small we are in death. “Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook Burn? or the Fourth of July?” He poses a question without answer. Life is utter destruction and infinite joy. (this paragraph is not mine)
this song reminds me of my history teacher this year because, he always sings quietly to himself, everyone dislikes him because he has a ADHD and dyslexia.. honestly this teacher is what I call my home he is so sweet and calm, he never yells and he saved me from being taken advantage of.. I want to tell him that I love him (NOT THAT WAY OF LOVE) but it's so difficult to.. he is why I'm still here.
@@catowner3788 he was talking about his mental health, and said there is not ready a way to help him, he admitted to being depressed and all I wanted was to run up and hug him
I’m nothing without my music. I just wouldn’t be here. edit: hey guys, please leave religion out of this, and respect everyone in the replies. not everyone wants to hear about God. And yes I am Christian, catholic in fact.
My lover, my bestfriend, my….future wife, she sadly passed away exactly 1 year ago today (17th feb 2021), she committed…..and there hasn’t been a day where I haven’t thought of her. This song is such a great example of how I feel because it too is written based on loss of a loved one…. *”Did you get enough love my little dove”* reminds me of when I used to beg her to reach out because of a unloving family….little nicknames; dove, sugar, love etc were always a big thing in our time together….I miss you so much Jennifer my life isn’t the same without you….. Edit: I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, I was bawling at the time and english isn't my first language, to the person reading this I'm sorry for your loss....I know it hurts but I promise you it will get better, of course they'll be days you want nothing more to hear them again, see them and hear them laugh and smile but it'll be okay. 💖
I’m sorry you lost her. I’m sure you were the best thing that ever happened to her. The only time she felt true happiness must’ve been the times she was with you. As someone that understands her pain… she didn’t want to leave you like that, she just wanted the pain to stop. Wherever she is now, there hasn’t been a day where she hasn’t thought of you either. Make the most of your life now, find any happiness and peace that you can, knowing that’s all she would want for you 💜
@@thea7740 Thank you for trying to do something nice for someone you don't know. I'm writing this because i know everyone is going through something ( maybe you to) and you still wanted to help them. People like you helped me to recover from my brother's death. So thank you for doing this!
i have anxiety and paranoia. One Lunar eclipse night I gathered the courage to put both headphones on, and go outside of my apartment building. My family was asleep. 3 AM. This song played as I stared at one of the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. I had never felt so alive. Even fearless. And I didn’t allow anything to distract me for a solid 3 minutes. it seems so insignificant ….. but to me, a whole galaxy of pure bliss. What a strange existence.
Your authentic personality suffering and ask for peace. This happening was a multi pass key of talking with it without words just feelings. And it has much more spectrum and power than words. Releasing whole trauma will be very hard and painful it was a littls sign.
i’ll forever cherish the memories we made together and all the ones we’ll never get to make. the little things everyone takes for granted in this lifetime. listening to this just breaks my heart all over again. it’s impossible to ever exist in a world without you, and yet i have to wake up everyday and try.
When my grandfather died, i couldn't cry. I had to not cry because i had to stay strong, a few days after his burial i dreamt of him laughing and having fun. He looked younger and really happy, he was in his favorite chair and asked me who he was and i said you're amma (which was the name i called him) and then he laughed. I saw white and woke up with tears .
To Atsushi, Dazai is like a father. Every time he is in trouble e always says Dazai can fix this, like when he was stuck in Lucy's room and he was panicking and was ready to run out of the room to get Dazai.
i lost my best friend 3 months ago ; when i listen to this i imagine him hearing the same words. Asking him why he chose to leave me here. The sadness creeps in, but being in this dark place of grief- i find solace in the idea of keeping him alive in my thoughts. Although my thoughts are a horrible place atm. thank you for listening to this art with me.
I had a friend, a best friend. Whenever I felt sad, I talked to her, she was always there for me. We were best friends in 10 years. But sadly, she passed away. 7th Dec 2020. 1 year without her and Im still not over her. People tell me to get over her and try to move on. Im trying, but it's hard without her. She was my everything and she's still my everything. I really loved her. I know she's with me, always. But I cant see her and that makes it so much worse. I just wish I could see her 1 time again, just to say goodbye. You wanna know why? Its because she died when I was in school, so I couldnt say goodbye. I just want a hug from her, and I know she wants a hug from me. Shes finally happy, and im so proud of her. She always bring light to people when they doesnt feel good. Shes my light, my saviour. Shes the most beautiful and kindness girl I have ever seen. Shes the sun and im the moon. She will always be the sun in my life, even if she's gone. I still remember the day when I come home and my mom told me she was gone. I cried so much. I layed in bed and my mom come in to my room, she gave me a big hug and layed her body next to me. She taked her arms around my stomach and huged me hard. I dont think I will ever feel that love again. I also remember that after 10-20 mins, I eated a sandwich and cried so much lol. It took me almost 15 mins to eat 1 sandwich. At the same day, on the night, I couldnt sleep, I was so destroyed. My heart was so empty, my eyes were full of tears. I still cant get over her and I dont think I want that. I dont want to feel the pain, but I also wants to feel it because it reminds me of how much we loved eachother, how much fun we had and how much we went trought together. I really really miss her. And I hope that no one of you guys that are reading this, feel the pain after loosing a bestfriend or just someone you love. I wish we all were ghosts or angels so we all could live forever and never die. So to you that are reading this, please, for me, go to your loved ones and tell them how much you love them, because one day you're gonna lose them and never see them again. Go to your mom, sister, brother, whoever it is, and give them a big hug. Please, for me? Have a great day and remember we all love you.
" I wish we all were ghosts or angels so we all could live forever and never die."...that hit my heart. im sorry for ur loss, it's beautiful that you have someone who's loved you so much and who you love too
I personally don't see this sound as everyone else sees it, as a reflection of their mother or sister or friend dying. But when it states "why do you cry" It makes me feel as someone is asking me the question why do you cry. Like someone is finally asking what is wrong but in a beautiful way. "We're all gonna die" hurts me because it's true some may be sooner or later, some may cheat the system and go sooner like I wish I could but this song and music save me in a way people cannot but this specific song creates a feeling of comfort for the depression that stirs inside and I will forever be grateful for sufjan
My family told me that I'm so weird cause I'm listening this song while laying down in my bed. But they don't even know this masterpiece always cure my soul
My dad was fighting against cancer for 2 years. Lot of churgeries, chimio, radiotherapy... On Octobre 1, he passed away. He was in an establishment for people dying. It was very beautiful, calm and nurses were so nice. We visited him everyday. This day, we received a call to tell us that the night was very long and painful for him... She told us that he's not going to pass now, but maybe in few days. But two hours later we visited him, he passed away 5 mins before we saw him. I feel like he knows that we were here. He knows that It was time to go in dignity, like "ok you are here I know it, you came to see me, that's all I got to know. I want you to be here when my soule left my body. Now I've got to go in peace, the pain was hard for you and myself, time so stop". He will leave till I leave.
To me this song feels like the empty hollow fear you get in your heart when you realize that one day you WILL be old and one day you WILL genuinely die. And no one knows what comes next. What does it feel like? Why do I feel sick whenever I think about it.
This is the first time I’ve genuinely sobbed in months. My German Shepard, Faith, was barely 4 years old when she was diagnosed with an incurable cancer crushing her internal organs. She was the most devoted dog I’ve ever met. She followed me every step I took, lied by my side, comforted me with any negative emotion I experienced, looked into my eyes with so much loyalty. She loved me so much that she fought the pain of the tumor to exist with me as long as possible. Eventually, I had to call the vets to put her down in my home. It was too much to see her in so much pain. Even then, she still fought the drugs as they attempted to shut her body down. She wanted to see why I was sobbing so harshly, if I was safe. After she passed I could still feel her presence the next morning, a ghostly weight of her body pressing against my legs while I lied in bed. I will never be able to find a living angel like her ever again. She was my one and only best friend, and I’ll never forget her presence. This song reminds me so much of the grief I went through and still go through. It’s been 3 years now, but I’ll never stop mourning her absence.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I also lost my German Shepherd, Nuba. He passed this year on July 1st. And it was 3 days later a friend shared this song and I could not stop crying as I listened. All I could think about was my sweet boy and how badly I wished I could’ve been there when he passed. He was almost 10, I’m 21. I spent almost half of my life with him and now he’s gone. Dogs truly are a blessing and their absence is.. so tangible. Losing him is the worst grief I’ve ever felt. But reading your comment and knowing I’m not alone in that grief is incredibly comforting. Thank you for sharing and may we both heal with time 🥺❤
I miss you Mom how do I even go on without you? My highschool graduation, dying my hair, getting married. I’m so glad your not in pain. I hated seeing you so hurt and I was so mean. I hope you loved me till the last breath ❤️ it’s been 6 months already
I sit and look at the plain of the sky in front of me, thinking of small stars and deep black holes. I know I have to go when the time comes. I know when the time comes, the bells will ring and my heart will be silent forever. When the time comes, I will cut my roots from life. And I know that when I go, one thing with me will leave this world, I know one thing will be buried with me and will be reunited, and that is love. It's eyes of my beloved
To anyone having/went through a difficult time, you are so loved and cared about. I am very proud of you for continuing to push forward and being alive. Keep on going bubba muffin, no emotion is forever and you shall get through any obstacle that may be presented your way. You are so so strong, brave, important, enough, intelligent, gorgeous, talented, and you matter ♡ You got this, and you can do it! Set your heart ablaze, I believe in you and am here by your side encouraging you to continue living life 🤲 It can get hard, but there are so many moments in life that can be wonderful. You can accomplish many incredible things and meet so many extraordinary people. Find healthy ways to cope with stress and get comfort. 🌱 Sending a ton of love, positivity, comfort, support, care, happiness, good luck, best wishes, wellness, amazing thoughts, kindness, and may you all be surrounded by wonderful bubbas who care for you, love you, and treat you generously 🤲 Please please take very good care of yourself, take breaks, take things slow and at your own pace, stay safe, stay hydrated (drink at least seven cups of water a day), eat food (at least two meals, get in those nutrients, vitamins, proteins, etc.), get rest (at least eight hours at night), and do not overwork/overwhelm yourself 💕 May you only have spectacular days to come, hun 🧚♀️
The evil it spread like a fever ahead It was night when you died, my firefly What could I have said to raise you from the dead? Oh could I be the sky on the Fourth of July? Well you do enough talk My little hawk, why do you cry? Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We're all gonna die Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head Was it all a disguise, like Junior High Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction Now, where am I? My fading supply Did you get enough love, my little dove Why do you cry? And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best Though it never felt right My little Versailles The hospital asked should the body be cast Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth Do you find it all right, my dragonfly? Shall we look at the moon, my little loon Why do you cry? Make the most of your life, while it is rife While it is light Well you do enough talk My little hawk, why do you cry? Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die
i imagine myself sitting on a rooftop looking out at a city while the sunsets and people start doing fire works, im sitting with them. they don’t love me irl but in this moment they do. 🙂
I lost my dad last year on 18th May...because of COVID And before leaving us.. He appeared in my dreams on 17th night... Spend some time with me but never came back home with me... It was a message from him... He again appeared in my sister's dreams where he said that he left mom behind so that I can have a guardian and after I get independent enough then he will take her with him... Everytime I listen to "Did you get enough love my little dove? Why do you cry? And I am sorry I left, was for the best Thought it never felt right" makes me feel like he will say this to be when I get to meet him afterlife.
I’ve lost so many people in my life that’s I’ve cared about and I listen to this song so that I can sing it to them even if they can’t hear me. I loved them all so much and I’ve have been in a dark place for a while but I know I have the support from family and my boyfriends family. I wish they were all still here but there’s nothing I can do to bring them back. If you have ever lost someone who you cared about or loved, keep those memories alive and if your alone talk to them as if they’re with you even if they’re not there physically.( I know I might sound delusional) I do it and it comforts me. I always update them about friends and family.
my grandpa loved birds. he collected statues of them, and i have about 10 of them around my room. when i was younger, i had a clear blue one my grandma and him named blue birdy. i haven’t seen it in years. he died a year ago today. that night i shuffled my playlist and listened to this song. at the mention of all the birds i broke down. i miss him. this song will always remind me of him.
i listen to this constantly thinking about my farther figure. for an explanation my farther was a violent and sometimes abusive person. but he had a bestfriend called billy. my mother and farther have been spilt since my little brother was born (2011) . so me and my little brother would have to visits my farther. most of the time billy would be there. when he was mad he would take me and my little brother away. he looked after my family so well, even though my dad was a horrible person. when he became homeless he took him in. when my mother couldn’t afford dinner, he would pay for it. but 2 years ago he passed away. in 2022 it will be 3 years. i miss him so much. i still see my dad. he’s kind of a better person thanks to billy. i miss him so much.
My dad passed away when I was 7. He died in the middle of the night, with no warning (a heart failure), and the only likely reason being over-exhaustion. It's been over 10 years and I can barely remember him anymore, but there's still this ache in my heart whenever I'm reminded of his sudden absence.This song always reminds me of him, I don't really understand why. Maybe I relate to Sufjan's pain of losing a parent so dear to my heart, maybe I enjoy imagining that it's my dad calling me a little hawk or dove, or maybe it's because I wish I could become the sky on the Fourth of July, just to see him once more.
This song has such a strong folklore - evermore essence. It has such a soft melody yet the words really crush your heart. "I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain would be forevermore": this fits so much with the pain Sufjan is talking about.
I sit here on the floor of my bedroom with my frightened dog listening to this song. My mother is drunk, she yelled at him for no reason. I’m scared. I hate it when she’s drunk. I hate all people when they’re drunk. They’re scary and there’s nothing good that comes out of drinking. I’m promising myself here and now, I’ll never touch alcohol for as long as I live, I’ll never be the monsters these drunk adults have become.
I remember the days I'd spend hiding in my room blaring music into my ears so I wouldn't have to listen to my mom and dad get drunk and start arguing. You will get through this, I promise. It wont last forever. Eventually it will get better for you.
I feel you, I have an alcoholic father and whenever I see someone with any sort of alcohol I freeze up. I’ve promised myself I will never ever drink as an adult. I just don’t think I can bring myself to . seeing how alcohol can destroy a person just breaks my heart. I wish you all the best love 🤍
currently sobbing on my bed to my cat, I haven’t cried in awhile, I’ve kinda been bottling it up, in December my nana passed away, I didn’t tell anyone except one of my closest friends, my grades went down and teachers mentioned it at parent teacher meetings but they never knew what was going on in my life, no one did, I miss her so much it hits me randomly, I forget she isn’t across the road as she usually is, I haven’t been to her house since she was alive, I couldn’t handle going over there and it’s being put on sale soon, it hurts me so much knowing she won’t be there like always, someone else will be to make new memories and people will forget her, I never will. I loved her so much and I still do, I forget she’s gone and when it hits me it hurts so so bad. I’m so scared for when I loose anymore of my family or pets, it’s the worst feeling and this song gives me so much sadness and comfort, I was listening to this on repeat while stressing and doing my maths project and I broke, for the first time in a while. I came into my bedroom and just started balling after I closed the door, I just miss her so much and the lyrics match her story so well. have a nice day or night everyone ❤️
i understand u. my nana died 10 days after her birthday, may 28th, 2018. i miss her so much and the things that we did. her old house is next to my moms and her newer one was next to my dads. we are moving away and i just wish to relive those moments in those houses one last time. i still miss her 5 years later. im sorry for ur loss and want to let u know u arent alone stay safe out there and rest in peace nana
I dedicate this song to my beloved grandma. My grandma died from a stroke on 3rd of March 2022. She was the kindest person known to man. Even though she was treated horribly. She always had a smile on her face, even when she cried. She always shared kindness and love to the world. She didn't care how bad it was. She had the most beautiful smile. God, I can't ever forget the way she smiled when she saw me, while she was laying paralyzed on her bed, not able to talk. I refused to see her like that. After her stroke, she lived without being able to walk, talk and had 0 memory. She only knew my name. She only knew to say "I love you, Mila". But I couldn't bare to see her in pain. I was crying nigth after nigth, knewing I'll never get her back. My angel, my everything. She died in her sleep. The way she wanted to. It was 10pm, my parents didn't allow me to go with them to her house. My dad was calling the hospital the day she had the stroke (she died at 10pm,not had the stroke). If the hospital jsut fucking listened when we said it was urgent. Goddamn it I could still see her. I couldn't see her. I couldn't tell her I loved her for one last time, to see her smile, to hug her, tell her she's everything and more this world deserved. To anyone who's reading this, make sure you spend time with your loved ones while you can. Because even the kindest people leave this planet in the way or time we can't predict. Love you grandma, I'll live this damn life just to see you happy.
I always thought the lyrics were “did you get enough love? my little girl, why do you cry?” so i would cry every time i listen to this song because it feels like what my mom might felt when i went through depression and she had to see how broken i was which broke her heart too.
Omg..seeing this on the 4th of July on my recommended. 11 Months later.. this song still makes me so emotional. Im missing that special someone right now..
“and i’m sorry i left, but it was for the best, though it never felt right” reminds me of when my dad passed in the hospital and i didn’t want to leave his body, it just didn’t feel right, so i held him even though he was so cold
I used to work for a small home cleaning company, and I would go to the same old lady’s house once a week every week help her keep her home clean. She was a widow, her husband had passed just a couple years prior. I found a pillow in her bedroom with one of her husband’s button up shirts sewn to it as a pillowcase. In the top right corner there was a small note pinned to it and it said “The angels came and set me free, so hug this shirt and think of me”. I had to stand there and silently sob for 15 minutes. So sweet but so heartbreaking. 💔
This is GORGEOUS and so chilling and all I can think about is the fact that the cassette effect noise at the beginning sounds EXACTLY like the one in the Magnus Archives. I love this though oh my GODS
Realizing that your own mother will die too someday rips my heart apart. Mother's have the biggest place in your heart. The person that brought you into this world will not be there anymore and she will not be by your side ever again. In her eyes you will always be her baby, no matter how old you are. So I'm always thinking "Make your momma proud, she deserved at least this bit in exchange to the love she gave you your whole life. Make her proud before she leaves this world and also before you leave this world". And please be kind to your parents, especially when they're old. Their old, they don't have as much time as you left for them. They just want to see their kids being happy and achieving something..
my grandfather passed away in march of 2020, my grandmother followed him a few months later. she passed away on july 6th. i had never felt so much grief in my life. i didn’t know how to live with what i felt. they were people who meant so much to me, and they were suddenly gone. i’ve lost two more people since then, and i still am not any better at handling my grief. this song is always my safe refuge in that time of sorrow. sufjan is a writer of beautiful music, and i am forever grateful.
What I feel while listening this? I feel nothing, empty. It’s nothing special. Life is boring and sometimes I wanna end it. But one think is holding me, maybe it’s my friend or my family. I don’t know. Im just sorry to be like this.
I was there too, I have some sense of that feeling of disconnection. Don't be sorry, do something about it. Be brave and be willing to get hurt. Be courageous and honest. Experience life. Think and then aim for something and march. As you grow that aim will change course but at least your still moving. Life is confusing, hard and not fair, but I believe in you because I believed in myself and that was the hardest truth to bear. You should believe in yourself too, in spite of the scars.
this song is one of the most beautiful pieces of music I know , it reminds me of my family, my grandparents how much i love them and how much i’m going to miss them , I hope I give them as much love I possibly can before they go, it makes me sad that life is short and all we can do is love everyone we can as much as we can including ourselves while we still can , kinda corny but this song is truly an amazing song in its own unique way
I sit and look at the plain of the sky in front of me, thinking of small stars and deep black holes. I know I have to go when the time comes. I know when the time comes, the bells will ring and my heart will be silent forever. When the time comes, I will cut my roots from life. And I know that when I go, one thing with me will leave this world, I know one thing will be buried with me and will be reunited, and that is love. It's eyes of my beloved
For me This song sounds like a sunset where in the sky there are colors like yellow, violet, dark pink. with a calm wind and the sun hitting your face in the midst of the beauty of Switzerland. i feel like this song belongs to switzerland… manages to heal me of my wounds.
I sit and look at the plain of the sky in front of me, thinking of small stars and deep black holes. I know I have to go when the time comes. I know when the time comes, the bells will ring and my heart will be silent forever. When the time comes, I will cut my roots from life. And I know that when I go, one thing with me will leave this world, I know one thing will be buried with me and will be reunited, and that is love. It's eyes of my beloved.
I’ve recently reached a point in my life where I don’t even feel the pain or the hopelessness I should feel through my body I’ve become numb to all of that, I know there’s no hope of finding true friends, succeeding in studies, having a boyfriend, being happy in the real world, living those moments I would love to experience, doing all those things regular people get to do I know life will never be good for me, I’m just part of these people, who will never get to have the life they wish they had, who will always fight to have nothing in the end But I think I’ve accepted that, I’ve become used to having no happy future I just want to live in my virtual world now, and give up on life, just have the bare minimum to experience love, happiness and success in video games, books, films/series, and with my imagination I wish I could just live in my own little world, because I wasn’t made for the real world, and I’m only really happy in my virtual world
my dad died October 2, 2020 due to cancer. he used to call me his dragonfly boy, seeing as how I light up a dark sorrow room and how I lot up his life. I miss him every single day. yesterday marked 2 years since he's been gone. I didn't get enough time with him. I'm 15 now and I don't even know how I've come this far. when it happened I wanted to die. I never thought I'd make it this far without him. I didn't just lose a parent that day... I lost one of my best friends. I lost the person I first came out too. I lost my Dad. I miss you...
This song reminds me of my grandfather. I used to visit him every summer and he would always have a different treat for us. Sometimes he has Italian ice or ice popsicles. I hanged out by his community pool. I still remember the day my mom broke into tears in the kitchen when me and my sister were playing a video game. My grandfather had died is his sleep. I was 5 and never really experienced death like that, I didn’t know how to react. I didn’t cry that day or at his funeral but whenever I think of him and the memories I had with him, I cry until I can’t breathe. In fact it was hard to write this comment without crying.
This is the saddest song i have ever known and will probably ever know. The utter sadness and the sense of great loss is what makes this song so beautiful to me. Every time I listen to it i remember my grandma who passed away 7 years ago. She was one of the most important persons in my life and this song brings back the painful feelings i experienced after her death.
When i listen to this i remember when my mom told me "you are a waste of 9 months" "you are a failure" "**** is better than you anywas." .... This song will forever hit hard.
I can honestly say that I’ve had lots of loss in my life so far and yet I never shed a tear due to me just bottling up all my emotions. I did that because my original mother left me at a young age and years later died so I could never see her again and thanks to an abusive stepmother I just stopped showing emotion all together. But I was at school when I first heard this song and for the first time in a long time I completely broke down and let all my bottled up emotions just flow out. It’s amazing how this song felt so gentle but was so soul crushing, I’m so glad I found this song before I lost all hope.
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"did you get enough love my little dove" is utterly the most beautiful and utterly soul crushing thing I have ever heard
Why do you cry?
BELIEVE IN JESUS CHRIST AND REPENT FOR SINS MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN CHRIST JESUS LOVES YOU IN JESUS NAME AMEN✝❤
@@nemanjaceperkovic3676not the right time bro
@@nemanjaceperkovic3676amen
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listening to this while hearing muffled fireworks in the background is one of the most life-reflecting moments i've ever had
Damn I wish I was there
@@AngelDust97 you can recreate the feeling by playing this video at half volume! ua-cam.com/video/CjfnP1Sds8o/v-deo.html
@@tingybong OH MY GOSH
@@tingybong thank you so much
literally did this now with another tab open playing firework sounds and I can confirm it is the best thing I've ever listened to
i played this on repeat while doing my homework, ended up bawling my eyes out.
i cant stop crying
@@leilab1467 same
same lmao
@@leilab1467 same
me too
This is what pain sounds like
Are you better? Please tell me your better. Please?
True this puts me to sleep
Need Christ my friend
Ya……
I think I’m getting depressed again.
"Fourth of July”, is a reflection on the night his mother died. Sufjan quietly cries and croons his love for the woman who bore him, the woman who weaved in and out of his life until her death. The words feel close, **like a private conversation occurring with the listener eavesdropping. He calls her many tender names: “dragonfly”, “star in the sky”, “my little Versailles”. These words are weighted, full of nostalgia and regret; realizations of how small we are in death. “Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook Burn? or the Fourth of July?” He poses a question without answer. Life is utter destruction and infinite joy.
(this paragraph is not mine)
@@dacoolguy2108 🤷🏻♀️
@@dacoolguy2108 no you
@@ihatemenv no.... you
Interesting. I was trying to figure out the meaning of the lyrics
Omg this paragraph is so beautiful
this song reminds me of my history teacher this year because, he always sings quietly to himself, everyone dislikes him because he has a ADHD and dyslexia.. honestly this teacher is what I call my home he is so sweet and calm, he never yells and he saved me from being taken advantage of.. I want to tell him that I love him (NOT THAT WAY OF LOVE) but it's so difficult to.. he is why I'm still here.
Definitely tell him, even if it’s hard (awkward) because everyone needs that and maybe you’re gonna be his reason to stay for longer(?).
@@catowner3788 he was talking about his mental health, and said there is not ready a way to help him, he admitted to being depressed and all I wanted was to run up and hug him
@@catowner3788 really*
You should tell him that it would probably mean the world for him.
@@mnii_ you know. I will
I love the fact that you posted on July 4th and basically that’s what the song is called, stay safe
that’s literally the name
I feel sad 😢
@@ikacitasuraj2 Me too. 😭
@@blackbeauty2005 z z
@@ashtonvn they’re talking about them posting this song on the 4th of July which matches with the song title.
This song just hits different. My anxiety just keeps ruining my life and I feel so alone... I just wish I could go back in time and be a kid again...
i relate to what you feel, it’s very hard but i’m sure it’ll get better.
@@justncs I am really sorry that you feel this way... It's good to know that I'm not alone tho, I hope u get better as well
@@yxngh0st of course you’re not :), but thank you i really appreciate
I think you described me everyday hahaha 🙃 but don't worry we'll both eventually find some sort of peace
@@maymunaibnat3486 sorry to hear that, you'll both get better :)
My favorite cousin died not so long ago and she had this playing on her funeral. It was her last wish :(
Im so sorry for your loss
i’m sorry for your loss :( may he/she rest in peace.
im so sorry.
Rip, also cocos_lilac you can save time by using 'they' rather than she/he
i'm so sorry for your loss :(
this is what real depression feels like. nothingness, numbness, overwhelming sadness yet peace all at the same time.
real
fr
I’m nothing without my music. I just wouldn’t be here.
edit: hey guys, please leave religion out of this, and respect everyone in the replies. not everyone wants to hear about God. And yes I am Christian, catholic in fact.
same here friend
the music is my bestfriend.
same
Same. That’s why I chose to include it in my career path. Now I know it will be apart of me, always. And to those students who I share it with 🥰
If music want here I would not live anymore
Anyone who listens to sufjan Stevens is automatically my friend.
Edit: Oh thank you guys, now I have 300 friends❤️.
@@lainros3 oh hey, i hope you're doing well
Hello bestiee
@@azumieckart2390 heyyyyyyy sending you a virtual hug
Heyy friend with taste
@@pickledcucumber8693 hello friend
if i don't make it through this year, i want everyone to know that this song comforted me more than anyone ever did
hey, you’ve gone so far ! if u ever need to talk to someone i am here. just a stranger but i’ll listen :)
@@xlbed0hey!! thanku so much, this made me smile :)) i hope u have a nice day
@@clynejenlarcx thank you
i hope you’re still here and doing better :)
Pls make it.. ❤️🙏🏻 I wish you nothing but best and more so that you'll find help .. 🫂
My lover, my bestfriend, my….future wife, she sadly passed away exactly 1 year ago today (17th feb 2021), she committed…..and there hasn’t been a day where I haven’t thought of her. This song is such a great example of how I feel because it too is written based on loss of a loved one….
*”Did you get enough love my little dove”* reminds me of when I used to beg her to reach out because of a unloving family….little nicknames; dove, sugar, love etc were always a big thing in our time together….I miss you so much Jennifer my life isn’t the same without you…..
Edit: I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, I was bawling at the time and english isn't my first language, to the person reading this I'm sorry for your loss....I know it hurts but I promise you it will get better, of course they'll be days you want nothing more to hear them again, see them and hear them laugh and smile but it'll be okay. 💖
I am so sorry for your loss.. ❤️
That's super sad.sorry for your loss
I’m sorry you lost her. I’m sure you were the best thing that ever happened to her. The only time she felt true happiness must’ve been the times she was with you. As someone that understands her pain… she didn’t want to leave you like that, she just wanted the pain to stop. Wherever she is now, there hasn’t been a day where she hasn’t thought of you either. Make the most of your life now, find any happiness and peace that you can, knowing that’s all she would want for you 💜
@@thea7740 Thank you for trying to do something nice for someone you don't know. I'm writing this because i know everyone is going through something ( maybe you to) and you still wanted to help them. People like you helped me to recover from my brother's death. So thank you for doing this!
I feel so sad for you you are a warrior...
my comfort song im crying
Oh my your mental health should be not okay.. Same here
@@noexie u ok?
@@rawan8556 I'm so much worse
@@noexiethis probably won’t mean anything but sending you a hug 🫂
@@coffee_pigglet thank you
The "why do you cry" so strong i wanna cry myself
“It may get better, but it never goes away. The sadness is always there”
Facts
"it doesnt get better, you just get stronger."
Real, I would be happy for a little bit then im sad again
i have anxiety and paranoia. One Lunar eclipse night I gathered the courage to put both headphones on, and go outside of my apartment building. My family was asleep. 3 AM. This song played as I stared at one of the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. I had never felt so alive. Even fearless. And I didn’t allow anything to distract me for a solid 3 minutes. it seems so insignificant ….. but to me, a whole galaxy of pure bliss. What a strange existence.
i'm so proud of u
Your authentic personality suffering and ask for peace. This happening was a multi pass key of talking with it without words just feelings. And it has much more spectrum and power than words. Releasing whole trauma will be very hard and painful it was a littls sign.
i’ll forever cherish the memories we made together and all the ones we’ll never get to make. the little things everyone takes for granted in this lifetime. listening to this just breaks my heart all over again. it’s impossible to ever exist in a world without you, and yet i have to wake up everyday and try.
When my grandfather died, i couldn't cry. I had to not cry because i had to stay strong, a few days after his burial i dreamt of him laughing and having fun. He looked younger and really happy, he was in his favorite chair and asked me who he was and i said you're amma (which was the name i called him) and then he laughed. I saw white and woke up with tears .
I sorry for u, I'm sure he really did love you.
I cried of reading this
This literally happened to me but some parts are filled differently 😭
I think he laughed cause he realised what life was.. i think you really met him
I'm so sorry for your loss ❤️🩹
If UA-cam recommended you this, believe me you have an awesome taste in music!
“i’d like to go out just as beautifully.”
“I’d really prefer if you didn’t go at all.”
“Please don’t say that, not even as a joke.”
To Atsushi, Dazai is like a father. Every time he is in trouble e always says Dazai can fix this, like when he was stuck in Lucy's room and he was panicking and was ready to run out of the room to get Dazai.
@@maivylin7790what the fuck are you on about
When I die, I want you to put this song up for my funeral.
You not die
!!!
Of course man of course
Same
This song is so sad, it's basically about his mother dying and it's a dialogue between him and her if I remember correctly
Yeah it is:)
Indeed…
i lost my best friend 3 months ago ; when i listen to this i imagine him hearing the same words. Asking him why he chose to leave me here. The sadness creeps in, but being in this dark place of grief- i find solace in the idea of keeping him alive in my thoughts. Although my thoughts are a horrible place atm. thank you for listening to this art with me.
May his soul rest in peace, and in calm
@@alextremblay7198 may you be blessed loved one x
I'm very sorry
I had a friend, a best friend. Whenever I felt sad, I talked to her, she was always there for me. We were best friends in 10 years. But sadly, she passed away. 7th Dec 2020. 1 year without her and Im still not over her. People tell me to get over her and try to move on. Im trying, but it's hard without her. She was my everything and she's still my everything. I really loved her. I know she's with me, always. But I cant see her and that makes it so much worse. I just wish I could see her 1 time again, just to say goodbye. You wanna know why? Its because she died when I was in school, so I couldnt say goodbye. I just want a hug from her, and I know she wants a hug from me. Shes finally happy, and im so proud of her. She always bring light to people when they doesnt feel good. Shes my light, my saviour. Shes the most beautiful and kindness girl I have ever seen. Shes the sun and im the moon. She will always be the sun in my life, even if she's gone. I still remember the day when I come home and my mom told me she was gone. I cried so much. I layed in bed and my mom come in to my room, she gave me a big hug and layed her body next to me. She taked her arms around my stomach and huged me hard. I dont think I will ever feel that love again.
I also remember that after 10-20 mins, I eated a sandwich and cried so much lol. It took me almost 15 mins to eat 1 sandwich. At the same day, on the night, I couldnt sleep, I was so destroyed. My heart was so empty, my eyes were full of tears.
I still cant get over her and I dont think I want that. I dont want to feel the pain, but I also wants to feel it because it reminds me of how much we loved eachother, how much fun we had and how much we went trought together. I really really miss her. And I hope that no one of you guys that are reading this, feel the pain after loosing a bestfriend or just someone you love. I wish we all were ghosts or angels so we all could live forever and never die.
So to you that are reading this, please, for me, go to your loved ones and tell them how much you love them, because one day you're gonna lose them and never see them again. Go to your mom, sister, brother, whoever it is, and give them a big hug. Please, for me?
Have a great day and remember we all love you.
This is beautiful. I am so so sorry…
I'm so sorry for your loss... let's hope she's in a better place now 🤍
Have a good day ✨ *here's a hug*
@@pengxins shes ofc in a good place now. And thank you so much, means a lot for me.💕
@@benisha602 thank you and its okay
" I wish we all were ghosts or angels so we all could live forever and never die."...that hit my heart. im sorry for ur loss, it's beautiful that you have someone who's loved you so much and who you love too
this man is a complete masterpiece
my grandpa died yesterday and this song has been the only piece of music i've been willing to listen to. so sad but its very healing at the same time.
i know this is late but I hope you're doing well. losing someone we love is so hard. sending love!
2:40 _"and i'm sorry i left, but it was for the best, thought it never felt right. My little versailles"_
damn that hits home
Ts my mom probably gon say to me when she finally meets me irl after like 11 years
I miss my mom.. Edit: Thank you guys so much for all the love I’m doing better now and my heart goes out to anyone else who’s lost a loved one🕊️❤️🩹
❤️❤️
Same 💔
I'm So Sorry For You're Loss I Hope You Have An Easy Life 💔
I'm sorry, I hope you are better now 🖤
She's watching you,make her proud
I personally don't see this sound as everyone else sees it, as a reflection of their mother or sister or friend dying. But when it states
"why do you cry" It makes me feel as someone is asking me the question why do you cry. Like someone is finally asking what is wrong but in a beautiful way. "We're all gonna die" hurts me because it's true some may be sooner or later, some may cheat the system and go sooner like I wish I could but this song and music save me in a way people cannot but this specific song creates a feeling of comfort for the depression that stirs inside and I will forever be grateful for sufjan
this has to me one my favorite song to ever exist… the lyrics are just… so perfect
My family told me that I'm so weird cause I'm listening this song while laying down in my bed. But they don't even know this masterpiece always cure my soul
Why.. :( that's so sad. And mean of them :-:
my family thinks im weird too
@@illdottore279 actually its fine, they were just wondering haha
My dad was fighting against cancer for 2 years. Lot of churgeries, chimio, radiotherapy... On Octobre 1, he passed away. He was in an establishment for people dying. It was very beautiful, calm and nurses were so nice. We visited him everyday. This day, we received a call to tell us that the night was very long and painful for him... She told us that he's not going to pass now, but maybe in few days. But two hours later we visited him, he passed away 5 mins before we saw him. I feel like he knows that we were here. He knows that It was time to go in dignity, like "ok you are here I know it, you came to see me, that's all I got to know. I want you to be here when my soule left my body. Now I've got to go in peace, the pain was hard for you and myself, time so stop". He will leave till I leave.
Perfect for my mood, i need to chill right now
This song is so beautiful, it gives me some sort of emotions that I even can't explain
This is by far, one of the most hauntingly beautiful songs ever written.
"And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best Though it never felt right" hits me harder than anything ive ever felt.
To me this song feels like the empty hollow fear you get in your heart when you realize that one day you WILL be old and one day you WILL genuinely die. And no one knows what comes next. What does it feel like? Why do I feel sick whenever I think about it.
I get super stressed and i cry, and unfortunatelly i remember this every night.
Ive been struggling with thinking about this a lot too recently..
we do know what comes next, total oblivion, for example think back what your life was like in 1845, thats what being dead will be like
everything will be okay, i promise. try not to think about that stuff, because in the end everything will be at peace. you're going to be okay.
Being aware that I'm a living thing that will experience death one day makes me feel like this sometimes
This is the first time I’ve genuinely sobbed in months. My German Shepard, Faith, was barely 4 years old when she was diagnosed with an incurable cancer crushing her internal organs. She was the most devoted dog I’ve ever met. She followed me every step I took, lied by my side, comforted me with any negative emotion I experienced, looked into my eyes with so much loyalty. She loved me so much that she fought the pain of the tumor to exist with me as long as possible. Eventually, I had to call the vets to put her down in my home. It was too much to see her in so much pain. Even then, she still fought the drugs as they attempted to shut her body down. She wanted to see why I was sobbing so harshly, if I was safe. After she passed I could still feel her presence the next morning, a ghostly weight of her body pressing against my legs while I lied in bed. I will never be able to find a living angel like her ever again. She was my one and only best friend, and I’ll never forget her presence. This song reminds me so much of the grief I went through and still go through. It’s been 3 years now, but I’ll never stop mourning her absence.
Hey, just checking up hope you're well♡
I’m so sorry for your loss. I also lost my German Shepherd, Nuba. He passed this year on July 1st. And it was 3 days later a friend shared this song and I could not stop crying as I listened. All I could think about was my sweet boy and how badly I wished I could’ve been there when he passed. He was almost 10, I’m 21. I spent almost half of my life with him and now he’s gone.
Dogs truly are a blessing and their absence is.. so tangible. Losing him is the worst grief I’ve ever felt. But reading your comment and knowing I’m not alone in that grief is incredibly comforting. Thank you for sharing and may we both heal with time 🥺❤
I miss you Mom how do I even go on without you? My highschool graduation, dying my hair, getting married. I’m so glad your not in pain. I hated seeing you so hurt and I was so mean. I hope you loved me till the last breath ❤️ it’s been 6 months already
I sit and look at the plain of the sky in front of me, thinking of small stars and deep black holes. I know I have to go when the time comes. I know when the time comes, the bells will ring and my heart will be silent forever. When the time comes, I will cut my roots from life. And I know that when I go, one thing with me will leave this world, I know one thing will be buried with me and will be reunited, and that is love. It's eyes of my beloved
I really hope you’re doing better ❤️🩹 wishing you nothing but life full of happiness and joy ❤️🩹
To anyone having/went through a difficult time, you are so loved and cared about. I am very proud of you for continuing to push forward and being alive. Keep on going bubba muffin, no emotion is forever and you shall get through any obstacle that may be presented your way. You are so so strong, brave, important, enough, intelligent, gorgeous, talented, and you matter ♡ You got this, and you can do it! Set your heart ablaze, I believe in you and am here by your side encouraging you to continue living life 🤲 It can get hard, but there are so many moments in life that can be wonderful. You can accomplish many incredible things and meet so many extraordinary people. Find healthy ways to cope with stress and get comfort. 🌱 Sending a ton of love, positivity, comfort, support, care, happiness, good luck, best wishes, wellness, amazing thoughts, kindness, and may you all be surrounded by wonderful bubbas who care for you, love you, and treat you generously 🤲 Please please take very good care of yourself, take breaks, take things slow and at your own pace, stay safe, stay hydrated (drink at least seven cups of water a day), eat food (at least two meals, get in those nutrients, vitamins, proteins, etc.), get rest (at least eight hours at night), and do not overwork/overwhelm yourself 💕 May you only have spectacular days to come, hun 🧚♀️
Thank you, little angel. Love you❤️🩹
The evil it spread like a fever ahead
It was night when you died, my firefly
What could I have said to raise you from the dead?
Oh could I be the sky on the Fourth of July?
Well you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We're all gonna die
Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head
Was it all a disguise, like Junior High
Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction
Now, where am I?
My fading supply
Did you get enough love, my little dove
Why do you cry?
And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best
Though it never felt right
My little Versailles
The hospital asked should the body be cast
Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky
Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth
Do you find it all right, my dragonfly?
Shall we look at the moon, my little loon
Why do you cry?
Make the most of your life, while it is rife
While it is light
Well you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
thanks
i imagine myself sitting on a rooftop looking out at a city while the sunsets and people start doing fire works, im sitting with them. they don’t love me irl but in this moment they do. 🙂
I lost my dad last year on 18th May...because of COVID And before leaving us.. He appeared in my dreams on 17th night... Spend some time with me but never came back home with me... It was a message from him... He again appeared in my sister's dreams where he said that he left mom behind so that I can have a guardian and after I get independent enough then he will take her with him...
Everytime I listen to "Did you get enough love my little dove? Why do you cry? And I am sorry I left, was for the best Thought it never felt right" makes me feel like he will say this to be when I get to meet him afterlife.
This sounds so gentle and I love it so much
Now we can all cry on a holiday about how crappy this would has become :")
;(
yayyy :( I hate the 4th me and my dog don’t like the booms and I never get to spend time with my family like many others
i just cry on the 4th bc i have seen A Silent Voice (if ya know, ya know)
The world is reflection of your thoughts, focus on the good stuff and see what happens
I love this song, it hits so different
YESSSS HERE THE MINUTE THE NOTIFICATION CAME THROUGH. ALREADY KNOW I’M GONNA LOVEEE IT. TY ESSA. ❤️
It’s the Fourth of July and while everyone else is partying I’m listening to this work of art.
I’ve lost so many people in my life that’s I’ve cared about and I listen to this song so that I can sing it to them even if they can’t hear me. I loved them all so much and I’ve have been in a dark place for a while but I know I have the support from family and my boyfriends family. I wish they were all still here but there’s nothing I can do to bring them back. If you have ever lost someone who you cared about or loved, keep those memories alive and if your alone talk to them as if they’re with you even if they’re not there physically.( I know I might sound delusional) I do it and it comforts me. I always update them about friends and family.
my grandpa loved birds. he collected statues of them, and i have about 10 of them around my room. when i was younger, i had a clear blue one my grandma and him named blue birdy. i haven’t seen it in years.
he died a year ago today. that night i shuffled my playlist and listened to this song. at the mention of all the birds i broke down. i miss him. this song will always remind me of him.
i know a lot of people like sped up songs now but please never stop posting your account means sm to me and ur vids are so comforting
i listen to this constantly thinking about my farther figure. for an explanation my farther was a violent and sometimes abusive person. but he had a bestfriend called billy. my mother and farther have been spilt since my little brother was born (2011) . so me and my little brother would have to visits my farther. most of the time billy would be there. when he was mad he would take me and my little brother away. he looked after my family so well, even though my dad was a horrible person. when he became homeless he took him in. when my mother couldn’t afford dinner, he would pay for it. but 2 years ago he passed away. in 2022 it will be 3 years. i miss him so much. i still see my dad. he’s kind of a better person thanks to billy. i miss him so much.
Very similar story 💗
My dad passed away when I was 7. He died in the middle of the night, with no warning (a heart failure), and the only likely reason being over-exhaustion. It's been over 10 years and I can barely remember him anymore, but there's still this ache in my heart whenever I'm reminded of his sudden absence.This song always reminds me of him, I don't really understand why. Maybe I relate to Sufjan's pain of losing a parent so dear to my heart, maybe I enjoy imagining that it's my dad calling me a little hawk or dove, or maybe it's because I wish I could become the sky on the Fourth of July, just to see him once more.
Rest in peace you’ll see him one day god is with u and he will heal u
This song reminds me sm of my papa who passed away last year, i never got to tell him how much i loved him.
This song has such a strong folklore - evermore essence. It has such a soft melody yet the words really crush your heart. "I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain would be forevermore": this fits so much with the pain Sufjan is talking about.
I sit here on the floor of my bedroom with my frightened dog listening to this song. My mother is drunk, she yelled at him for no reason. I’m scared. I hate it when she’s drunk. I hate all people when they’re drunk. They’re scary and there’s nothing good that comes out of drinking. I’m promising myself here and now, I’ll never touch alcohol for as long as I live, I’ll never be the monsters these drunk adults have become.
U good bro,
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That sound awful, you are so so strong stick to your words i too have seen what alcohol can do. I belive in you ❤❤
I remember the days I'd spend hiding in my room blaring music into my ears so I wouldn't have to listen to my mom and dad get drunk and start arguing. You will get through this, I promise. It wont last forever. Eventually it will get better for you.
I feel you, I have an alcoholic father and whenever I see someone with any sort of alcohol I freeze up. I’ve promised myself I will never ever drink as an adult. I just don’t think I can bring myself to . seeing how alcohol can destroy a person just breaks my heart. I wish you all the best love 🤍
I'm so glad this song gained popularity. I discovered it a long while ago before it was blown up.. I knew it would get somewhere :)) love you sufjan
currently sobbing on my bed to my cat, I haven’t cried in awhile, I’ve kinda been bottling it up, in December my nana passed away, I didn’t tell anyone except one of my closest friends, my grades went down and teachers mentioned it at parent teacher meetings but they never knew what was going on in my life, no one did, I miss her so much it hits me randomly, I forget she isn’t across the road as she usually is, I haven’t been to her house since she was alive, I couldn’t handle going over there and it’s being put on sale soon, it hurts me so much knowing she won’t be there like always, someone else will be to make new memories and people will forget her, I never will. I loved her so much and I still do, I forget she’s gone and when it hits me it hurts so so bad. I’m so scared for when I loose anymore of my family or pets, it’s the worst feeling and this song gives me so much sadness and comfort, I was listening to this on repeat while stressing and doing my maths project and I broke, for the first time in a while. I came into my bedroom and just started balling after I closed the door, I just miss her so much and the lyrics match her story so well.
have a nice day or night everyone ❤️
i understand u. my nana died 10 days after her birthday, may 28th, 2018. i miss her so much and the things that we did. her old house is next to my moms and her newer one was next to my dads. we are moving away and i just wish to relive those moments in those houses one last time. i still miss her 5 years later. im sorry for ur loss and want to let u know u arent alone
stay safe out there and rest in peace nana
@@skritbox You are so kind, I’m so sorry for your loss and understand you, you seem lovely and I wish you well 🤍
This is my new comfort song
I dedicate this song to my beloved grandma. My grandma died from a stroke on 3rd of March 2022. She was the kindest person known to man. Even though she was treated horribly. She always had a smile on her face, even when she cried. She always shared kindness and love to the world. She didn't care how bad it was. She had the most beautiful smile. God, I can't ever forget the way she smiled when she saw me, while she was laying paralyzed on her bed, not able to talk.
I refused to see her like that. After her stroke, she lived without being able to walk, talk and had 0 memory. She only knew my name. She only knew to say "I love you, Mila". But I couldn't bare to see her in pain. I was crying nigth after nigth, knewing I'll never get her back. My angel, my everything.
She died in her sleep. The way she wanted to. It was 10pm, my parents didn't allow me to go with them to her house. My dad was calling the hospital the day she had the stroke (she died at 10pm,not had the stroke). If the hospital jsut fucking listened when we said it was urgent. Goddamn it I could still see her. I couldn't see her. I couldn't tell her I loved her for one last time, to see her smile, to hug her, tell her she's everything and more this world deserved.
To anyone who's reading this, make sure you spend time with your loved ones while you can. Because even the kindest people leave this planet in the way or time we can't predict. Love you grandma, I'll live this damn life just to see you happy.
Walking through New York with this playing in my headphones. Makes me remember all the heartbreak, trauma, PTSD and betrayals.
This life is shit
I always thought the lyrics were “did you get enough love? my little girl, why do you cry?” so i would cry every time i listen to this song because it feels like what my mom might felt when i went through depression and she had to see how broken i was which broke her heart too.
Omg..seeing this on the 4th of July on my recommended. 11 Months later.. this song still makes me so emotional. Im missing that special someone right now..
summer 2022, u still not end yet. but i will never forget u, with this song, vibes, people, smiles and tears.
Bro music is my therapy.
“and i’m sorry i left, but it was for the best, though it never felt right” reminds me of when my dad passed in the hospital and i didn’t want to leave his body, it just didn’t feel right, so i held him even though he was so cold
I used to work for a small home cleaning company, and I would go to the same old lady’s house once a week every week help her keep her home clean. She was a widow, her husband had passed just a couple years prior. I found a pillow in her bedroom with one of her husband’s button up shirts sewn to it as a pillowcase. In the top right corner there was a small note pinned to it and it said “The angels came and set me free, so hug this shirt and think of me”. I had to stand there and silently sob for 15 minutes. So sweet but so heartbreaking. 💔
I didn't just cry rn. I'm a very strong person that doesn't cry easily. I have to say, this helped me express my emotions truthfully
This is GORGEOUS and so chilling and all I can think about is the fact that the cassette effect noise at the beginning sounds EXACTLY like the one in the Magnus Archives. I love this though oh my GODS
Realizing that your own mother will die too someday rips my heart apart. Mother's have the biggest place in your heart. The person that brought you into this world will not be there anymore and she will not be by your side ever again. In her eyes you will always be her baby, no matter how old you are. So I'm always thinking "Make your momma proud, she deserved at least this bit in exchange to the love she gave you your whole life. Make her proud before she leaves this world and also before you leave this world". And please be kind to your parents, especially when they're old. Their old, they don't have as much time as you left for them. They just want to see their kids being happy and achieving something..
I don't even know what i'm feeling. I can't even describe it to myself. Nothing makes me happy. This is how depression sounds like ❤️🩹
i can't express how much this song has done for me i love it so much
my grandfather passed away in march of 2020, my grandmother followed him a few months later. she passed away on july 6th. i had never felt so much grief in my life. i didn’t know how to live with what i felt. they were people who meant so much to me, and they were suddenly gone. i’ve lost two more people since then, and i still am not any better at handling my grief. this song is always my safe refuge in that time of sorrow. sufjan is a writer of beautiful music, and i am forever grateful.
I'm so sorry stay strong I am with you!!
قد تتحسن الأمور، لكنها لا تختفي، الحزن موجود دائماً .
What I feel while listening this?
I feel nothing, empty. It’s nothing special.
Life is boring and sometimes I wanna end it. But one think is holding me, maybe it’s my friend or my family. I don’t know.
Im just sorry to be like this.
I was there too, I have some sense of that feeling of disconnection. Don't be sorry, do something about it. Be brave and be willing to get hurt. Be courageous and honest. Experience life. Think and then aim for something and march. As you grow that aim will change course but at least your still moving. Life is confusing, hard and not fair, but I believe in you because I believed in myself and that was the hardest truth to bear. You should believe in yourself too, in spite of the scars.
Arsaces V thank you.
Today is 4th July. I wish everyone reading this that things will go well and only get better.
Your journey isn’t over yet, struggler. Keep going ❤
this song is one of the most beautiful pieces of music I know , it reminds me of my family, my grandparents how much i love them and how much i’m going to miss them , I hope I give them as much love I possibly can before they go, it makes me sad that life is short and all we can do is love everyone we can as much as we can including ourselves while we still can , kinda corny but this song is truly an amazing song in its own unique way
I sit and look at the plain of the sky in front of me, thinking of small stars and deep black holes. I know I have to go when the time comes. I know when the time comes, the bells will ring and my heart will be silent forever. When the time comes, I will cut my roots from life. And I know that when I go, one thing with me will leave this world, I know one thing will be buried with me and will be reunited, and that is love. It's eyes of my beloved
For me This song sounds like a sunset where in the sky there are colors like yellow, violet, dark pink. with a calm wind and the sun hitting your face in the midst of the beauty of Switzerland. i feel like this song belongs to switzerland… manages to heal me of my wounds.
I sit and look at the plain of the sky in front of me, thinking of small stars and deep black holes. I know I have to go when the time comes. I know when the time comes, the bells will ring and my heart will be silent forever. When the time comes, I will cut my roots from life. And I know that when I go, one thing with me will leave this world, I know one thing will be buried with me and will be reunited, and that is love. It's eyes of my beloved.
hey lustry i really didn’t need this rn🙏🏽🙏🏽
Me neither bestie, me neither. 😭😭😭
lustry....I WAS WAITING FOR THIS
i love this sm
listening to this on 4th of July hits different
Hearing the words
𝖜𝖊'𝖗𝖊 𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖌𝖔𝖓𝖓𝖆 𝖉𝖎𝖊
in this tone of voice is enough to make anyone panic or cry
let alone 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖘𝖔𝖓𝖌
I’ve recently reached a point in my life where I don’t even feel the pain or the hopelessness I should feel through my body
I’ve become numb to all of that, I know there’s no hope of finding true friends, succeeding in studies, having a boyfriend, being happy in the real world, living those moments I would love to experience, doing all those things regular people get to do
I know life will never be good for me, I’m just part of these people, who will never get to have the life they wish they had, who will always fight to have nothing in the end
But I think I’ve accepted that, I’ve become used to having no happy future
I just want to live in my virtual world now, and give up on life, just have the bare minimum to experience love, happiness and success in video games, books, films/series, and with my imagination
I wish I could just live in my own little world, because I wasn’t made for the real world, and I’m only really happy in my virtual world
Same...yea...same... i understand
Hey sweetheart how are you today?
my dad died October 2, 2020 due to cancer. he used to call me his dragonfly boy, seeing as how I light up a dark sorrow room and how I lot up his life. I miss him every single day. yesterday marked 2 years since he's been gone. I didn't get enough time with him. I'm 15 now and I don't even know how I've come this far. when it happened I wanted to die. I never thought I'd make it this far without him. I didn't just lose a parent that day... I lost one of my best friends. I lost the person I first came out too. I lost my Dad. I miss you...
This song reminds me of my grandfather. I used to visit him every summer and he would always have a different treat for us. Sometimes he has Italian ice or ice popsicles. I hanged out by his community pool. I still remember the day my mom broke into tears in the kitchen when me and my sister were playing a video game. My grandfather had died is his sleep. I was 5 and never really experienced death like that, I didn’t know how to react. I didn’t cry that day or at his funeral but whenever I think of him and the memories I had with him, I cry until I can’t breathe. In fact it was hard to write this comment without crying.
Back here on the 4th of july.
This is the saddest song i have ever known and will probably ever know. The utter sadness and the sense of great loss is what makes this song so beautiful to me. Every time I listen to it i remember my grandma who passed away 7 years ago. She was one of the most important persons in my life and this song brings back the painful feelings i experienced after her death.
When i listen to this i remember when my mom told me "you are a waste of 9 months" "you are a failure" "**** is better than you anywas." .... This song will forever hit hard.
Everyone who listening to this masterpiece, i hope you all will be better soon
I'm literally in heaven ❤
I’m not crying, you are 🙂
We’re all gonna die so whatever you decide to do in life, don’t be afraid and do it for yourself
I can honestly say that I’ve had lots of loss in my life so far and yet I never shed a tear due to me just bottling up all my emotions. I did that because my original mother left me at a young age and years later died so I could never see her again and thanks to an abusive stepmother I just stopped showing emotion all together. But I was at school when I first heard this song and for the first time in a long time I completely broke down and let all my bottled up emotions just flow out. It’s amazing how this song felt so gentle but was so soul crushing, I’m so glad I found this song before I lost all hope.
The start of this song always makes me bawl my eyes out for some reason but I love the song sm♡
2:31 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦, 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘷𝘦? 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘳𝘺?
Love that
I don't get any love bc I always empty it on others, I cry cuz it's life 🤍
@@almas77 Im...sorry
@@almas77 🥺🔥
12 years of isolation from my parents. Didn't get a chance to experience full childhood now I have to make it up by being childish.
hits different on 4th of July