THIS BLEW TWIGGAS MIND - Ren - Hi Ren (REACTION)

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  • Опубліковано 27 січ 2023
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  • @JohnMarshallProductions
    @JohnMarshallProductions  Рік тому +111

    THIS NEEDS TO BE SHARED EVERYWHERE...........YALL HELP SHARE IT FOR ME PLEASE

    • @chipsthedog1
      @chipsthedog1 Рік тому +2

      Subbed. For an amazing story told over 3 tracks please react to Rapman Shiro's story, probably the best story telling rap I've ever heard.

    • @chipsthedog1
      @chipsthedog1 Рік тому +1

      Link to Shiro's story part 1
      ua-cam.com/video/H_6ZJrg-E3Q/v-deo.html

    • @lbow09
      @lbow09 Рік тому +5

      I have shared it every day since I found it 4 days ago! What an awesome piece of art!!

    • @danstone5555
      @danstone5555 Рік тому

      Fresh art is priceless

    • @nolacrenshaw6978
      @nolacrenshaw6978 Рік тому

      YES!!!! I LOVE YOUR REACTION!

  • @cliftonlloyd8395
    @cliftonlloyd8395 Рік тому +38

    I've been watching this video since friday...it brought real tears to my face. I'm a grown man and I'm not ashamed of those tears. This is the realist shit I've ever heard

    • @dumbcat
      @dumbcat Рік тому +1

      me too man. me too

    • @robeck170
      @robeck170 Місяць тому

      I'm a 47 year old grown ass man. And 3 of his songs hit me every single time

  • @firstbornunicorn1545
    @firstbornunicorn1545 Рік тому +42

    Please do Ren's The Tale of Jenny and Screech (full) next. It is 3 tales (Jenny, Screech and violet) all put together in one video. It is absolutely incredible! Will take you on a ride.

  • @danstone5555
    @danstone5555 Рік тому +4

    Why Ren talkin to our subconscious like that twigga

  • @JensRandolff
    @JensRandolff Рік тому +8

    Great reaction. I loved your thoughtful comments. "Hi Ren" is the song that put Ren on everyone's radar since December; it went viral and has garnered more than 4 million views since its debut, but he has been creating great music for more than ten years. Ren’s songs are generally recorded live in a single take. His latest release, "Sick Boi," is almost another chapter to "Hi Ren." I am 57 y/o, and I only recently learned about Ren and have gone down this rabbit hole ever since. Many of his songs resonate with me because he addresses struggles that I myself face every day.
    He plays multiple instruments, has impressive vocals, is an excellent storyteller, and is quite the philosopher and poet. Check out the trilogy "The Tale of Jenny/Screech/Violet." It is haunting and has an unforeseen conclusion; WATCH THEM IN THE STATED ORDER, as this is the flow of the storyline, or just watch “The Tale of Jenny & Screech (Full),” which includes “Violet’s Tale at the end. It is another example of Ren’s genius and a master’s class in storytelling. It has been likened to a Shakespearean tragedy.
    Ren’s collaborations with Chinchilla (“Chalk Outlines,” “How to Be Me”) are beautiful and showcase his singing voice while addressing mental health. I would watch the official live music videos. "Chalk Outlines" is one of my favorite songs right now. Ren's personal reflections are threaded through many of his songs; "Insomnia," "Depression," “Diazepam," “Penitence,” “Dear God,” “Heretic,” “Dominos,” his "Freckled Angels" album, just to name a few, all deserve a listen. His song "Money Game" (Part I & II) is another recommendation.
    His performances with Sam Tompkins (“Blind Eyed,” “Earned it /Mans World / Falling,” “Walking on the Moon), Eden Nash (“Humble,” “Ocean”), Bibi (“Crutch,” “Ahiahiaoha”), Molly McKinna (“Penitence”), his former bandmate, Romain Axisa (“French Song”) are all great. Ren's performances as a member of the band "The Big Push" (which unfortunately broke up) are awesome and well worth checking out, both the busking (street performances) and their live recordings. Ren's covers of "I Shot the Sheriff," "Wade in the Water," "An Englishman in New York," the songs "Oh My Woman," “Swan Song,” and so many others are equally impressive and really give you a sample of his vocal ability.
    Ren just released his latest single, “Sick Boi.” In anticipation of his stay in Canada for more treatments, Ren prepared some music ahead of time to be released over the next six months that he expects to be gone. "Sick Boi" is almost another chapter to "Hi Ren."

  • @CasperLD
    @CasperLD Рік тому +6

    Genius level art.

  • @garyturnbull2336
    @garyturnbull2336 Рік тому +4

    He has been suffering from Lyme disease which was undiagnosed and caused brain damage and has side effects of psychosis, and the struggles of chronic illness

  • @Graptang
    @Graptang Рік тому +11

    You just said it all man🥰
    The strongest soldiers get picked for the hardest challenges

  • @dalemurray1318
    @dalemurray1318 Рік тому +11

    SO much strength, that he can go through what he has and still have strength to share. It brings tears of joy to me every time I listen.

  • @cosmicdebris5260
    @cosmicdebris5260 Рік тому +4

    It seems his shadow and his ego were having a conversation and at the end they kind of melt together with their best qualities to make a better human being? This guy is beyond genius! Modern-day storytelling musical Minstrel!🌿💔

  • @shawnhenry4100
    @shawnhenry4100 Рік тому +14

    Love ya, for always keeping it 100%!!!! This is one of those, once in a lifetime experiences With music. Crazy, How he can surgically penetrate your soul. It felt as if you were, Being thrust in front of a mirror and your eyes propped open. Never Experienced anything quite like it. Top ten of all time!!!!

  • @eloerch7
    @eloerch7 Рік тому +3

    I call it your "shadow" we all have one and you must find peace with that part of yourself. Great reaction.

  • @themadcadder4847
    @themadcadder4847 11 місяців тому +1

    I know I'm late on this, but I gotta say. I love you! Thank you for this awesome positive reaction. Made me so happy!

  • @jukeboxdave6026
    @jukeboxdave6026 Рік тому +1

    Many thanks love and respect from the UK 👍👍👍👍👍👍🌟😀😀 amazing 👍

  • @who8thecat306
    @who8thecat306 9 місяців тому

    As soon as he says the key trigger words, therapist , making progress , coping skills . Boom everybody relates

  • @moonbubbles3046
    @moonbubbles3046 Рік тому +6

    One of the best reactions to this song. 👊🏻

    • @janakumer
      @janakumer Рік тому

      But he talked over the whole time. I think its better to pause and say what you have to say and then go on, otherwise its hard to focus on the song. IMO

  • @waywest8138
    @waywest8138 Рік тому +5

    Nice reaction, man. I would also recommend Genesis and Power

    • @mistyramsey1840
      @mistyramsey1840 Рік тому +1

      Power is nice, that song has a great sound 🥰

  • @geralynsteppe5974
    @geralynsteppe5974 11 місяців тому +1

    Going through your Ren reactions since I'm a new subscriber. You and Ren think alike on a lot of things; I really think you would appreciate Money Game Parts 1 & 2. Since you liked his guitar playing, The Tales of Jenny and Screech (full 13 minute version) would blow you away, not even mentioning that it is a story telling masterpiece.

  • @velvetindigonight
    @velvetindigonight Рік тому +4

    I've watched a few reaction vids because of Ren and I'm heartened by our shared humanity whatever those at the top of the food chain try and tell us....................... Thanks for sharing.
    PS I suggest you take a look at the yt channel of the band The Big Push that Ren used to be part of? The covers they do are better than most of the originals!
    Enjoy All

  • @chrisparti
    @chrisparti Рік тому

    "This is some genius ass shit" (John Marshall Productions 2023)... best quote so far, I love it

  • @janacabenson8503
    @janacabenson8503 Рік тому +1

    I've watched many of these first time listens. You are the best!!!!! Much love to you and Ren.

  • @leejones1319
    @leejones1319 Рік тому +3

    Great reaction. What a song. A true artist. Not many of these around. Let's listen to this guy! Wow

  • @shazza175
    @shazza175 Рік тому +2

    Love it! Looking forward to more of your Ren reactions!

  • @slantz49
    @slantz49 Рік тому +2

    I appreciate ALL of the reactors I watch sadly rn my anxiety has me in it's grip I wish I had the balls to make content ... It is a goal to work towards ...much appreciated and you DEFINITELY earned this follow !

  • @coinmastercash
    @coinmastercash 4 місяці тому

    I’ve watched Soo many reactions and I think your is one of the best I’ve watched. Thanks for the reaction video. God bless

  • @bc2297
    @bc2297 Рік тому

    I’ve been watching reactions to this song.
    Yours is one of, if not, the best.

  • @joannalewis5279
    @joannalewis5279 Рік тому +2

    Beautiful reaction

  • @tanya41277
    @tanya41277 Рік тому +3

    Love!

  • @DavidSmith-cc5hk
    @DavidSmith-cc5hk Рік тому +1

    So glad I subscribed during your first Ren reaction. You have such a beautiful and positive soul. Keep your chin up, brother!

  • @davidfiedler7803
    @davidfiedler7803 Рік тому +2

    Your channel is so chill.. I get frustrated with life and it's little obstacles.. thank you for the good vibes !!

  • @oceanlover650
    @oceanlover650 Рік тому +1

    I loved your insightful comments. It's nice to hear positive and uplifting things about getting through whatever life throws at us. You're right, the world is a beautiful place and I believe most people are beautiful, as well. It's important to keep that perspective when the trolls (online and IRL) seem like they're just waiting for us to take a breath just so they can knock us down. Subscribed!

  • @patrickretsel7048
    @patrickretsel7048 Рік тому +2

    Love your positivity brother thank you for sharing….piece

  • @kimzwolinski9919
    @kimzwolinski9919 Рік тому +1

    Awesome reaction 😊 I have watched this many times and every time he says it’s been before I just want to tell him yes it’s been done before but not like this. This is something truly special 😊❤

  • @donnaewe3692
    @donnaewe3692 Рік тому +1

    New sub. Beautiful reaction to such an inspiring, amazing talent! With ❤️ from TN

  • @darkyoda1217
    @darkyoda1217 Рік тому +2

    Great reaction! 😜👍🔥

  • @donnabennett8546
    @donnabennett8546 7 місяців тому

    Fantastic Reaction!

  • @derkhart6019
    @derkhart6019 Рік тому

    Wow what a fantastic reaction,I watched so many reactions,because so many people see so much more,an we see the bigger pitcher.

  • @Sara-tl6gu
    @Sara-tl6gu Рік тому

    I loved your reaction.

  • @tan5taafl
    @tan5taafl 8 місяців тому

    We all we got. Until we realize that we will struggle. Nothing will save us but ourselves.

  • @underfakelights
    @underfakelights Рік тому

    I’m privileged to share this reaction with you today. Thanks for your honesty and authenticity. Insightful and philosophical truth bro. 🙏☯️🙏

  • @bc2297
    @bc2297 Рік тому

    Great reaction.

  • @stevecoronado1103
    @stevecoronado1103 Рік тому +2

    Just came across your channel and great reaction bro! This guy is ridiculously good! Not sure how much you're into him but he's currently in Canada undergoing treatment for his autoimmune issues. Hopefully he comes out on the other side better. Enjoyed this reaction buddy 🤘🔥

  • @weezy8029
    @weezy8029 Рік тому +2

    Good one Twigga👍🏼

  • @mahatmasloth6543
    @mahatmasloth6543 Рік тому +1

    best reaction. subbed

  • @LocaButt
    @LocaButt 7 місяців тому

    Another reactor drinking water to stop from crying, love it.

  • @leiselmower1529
    @leiselmower1529 Рік тому

    Loved your reaction! New Subscriber...you're awesome!

  • @GreenGoblin30
    @GreenGoblin30 Рік тому

    I hear the song as a number of transitions between characters:
    - Ren (beginning of the song)
    - "Evil" Ren (lights flickering)
    - "Good" Ren (no lights flickering)
    - The Demon/Evil (or Doubt) - The Dark
    - The Angel/Good (or Hope) - The Light
    - The combined/actual Ren - both the light and the dark... both an Angel and a Demon... and both Good and Evil (lights are flickering again)
    - Ren - "The Human Being" (Speech at the end)
    That is how I mapped it out in my head. Plus... the fact that this for all appearances appeared to be live... is more impressive.

  • @MikeLyons2011
    @MikeLyons2011 Рік тому

    The Evil is in ALL of us. We are wonderfully made by our creator with free will to choose which wolf we feed.

  • @darinblomquist422
    @darinblomquist422 Рік тому

    Right On!

  • @carissamarple
    @carissamarple Рік тому +3

    You mentioned money. You should react to Money Game. Part 1 and 2. You might be surprised at how much you were on point with his messages from those songs. And obviously, like everyone else said, Jenny and Screech and Violets Tale. It's absolutely brilliant. And it will blow your mind.

  • @johnraygun9868
    @johnraygun9868 Рік тому +3

    Hey brother, hope you and the fam are well!❤

  • @theunion6024
    @theunion6024 Рік тому

    One must be embraced by the devil before ever flying with angels

  • @matthewzimmer7473
    @matthewzimmer7473 Рік тому +1

    I'm 39 and my sun hasn't risen yet. I hope I do get a sunrise for my daughters sake. Maybe it's me that's the sun rises for her...I'm still battling with the system and people. I don't have 1 person in my life but myself And her. I've been through even tried to escape life but death wouldn't even except me. Some day I would like my art to get out there to share the world the damage they are doing.
    I feel and hope that this is the generation where the people will rise and the people that are blinded by money and greed will see and hear us. Thank you ren. At least someone had the ability to use technology in a positive way ..and not a escape. We will be the teachers.

  • @jessewaye4028
    @jessewaye4028 Рік тому +1

    Peace friend!
    💪🤘✌️

  • @hokage0092
    @hokage0092 Рік тому

    1 luv brotha

  • @aimperoli67
    @aimperoli67 3 місяці тому

    You’re inspiring

  • @austinflake3938
    @austinflake3938 8 місяців тому

    Boy went super saiyan 10:23

  • @Codex7777
    @Codex7777 5 місяців тому

    As Ren himself has said and as the closing monologue makes clear, this isn't a song about chronic illness or mental illness. It's about the human condition generally. He references his health, mental AND physical, a few times but he references a lot of other things to. It's about realising that darkness is part of life and part of us. It can't be banished and helps shape who we are. Once this simple but painful fact is accepted, life becomes that little bit easier and the dark becomes easier to deal with too. :)

  • @TheJlmills
    @TheJlmills Рік тому +1

    yo Pills are a deadend.........................

  • @aaronb4493
    @aaronb4493 Рік тому +1

    👌🏻

  • @dpotter4963
    @dpotter4963 Рік тому +1

    ✌️

  • @ranneff7119
    @ranneff7119 Рік тому

    😅💞u: yes we do❣️
    😅2nd THAT man 1000%
    BTY: it's ' point blank period'😜😅
    🙏liked your reaction so much!!! Said alot of similar when I heard cuz this young man has kept me stronger each day for 7 yrs through his music.
    HUMBLE 💃🏼 has a diff feel
    Chalk Outlines -too beautiful 😥

  • @tiimmmberrr
    @tiimmmberrr Рік тому +1

    Depression and people who get you to that point are shit. I like the reaction

  • @samaahammam3126
    @samaahammam3126 Рік тому

    Have you reacted to Tyson James beware one "Bodies", hope I didn't miss it, love your reactions

  • @AliCatzRR
    @AliCatzRR Рік тому +1

    Have you done Sick boi by Ren because if you have not then you should. Im sure you will love it !

  • @MrBurnout22
    @MrBurnout22 Рік тому +1

    New Subscriber here that was a dope reaction you are right this life is a privilege and every single one of us take it all for granted! I needed to hear that and now hopefully I can work on fixing that. Now lets get you those views and subs you deserve! Check out the Trilogy by Ren. Jennys Tale Screetch"s Tale and Violets Tale... But make sure you pick the full version video that has all 3 of those songs in it and in that exact order. Youll understand why after you see it I promise! Im sure you have others requesting this the same way! Its the way Ren intended it to be. Its about 13 min video but it doesnt seem like it just like this one which is over 9 mins long but only feels like 3 mins even after 1000 listens

  • @humming_screams1629
    @humming_screams1629 Рік тому +2

    Split Personality

  • @BonniePerryMeyers23
    @BonniePerryMeyers23 Рік тому +1

    Definitely see similarities with this song and Tom MacDonalds Best Rapper Ever song. Number one thing that stands out for me, Tom MacDonalds gives me goosebumps… this one not so much.

  • @daddoudan
    @daddoudan Рік тому +2

    I love your Ren reactions but I sort of partly disagree with one of sentiments. Physical illness sometimes bring on mental illness and sometimes the mental illness needs medicines. The trick is to find doctors that truly research, track and help manage the medicines as much as the patients. The meds should be a means to an end, not the final goal. That is peace and happiness.

    • @supertuscans9512
      @supertuscans9512 Рік тому +1

      I don’t think anyone rational would disagree with that but in Ren’s case I believe his sense of embitterment comes from a misdiagnosis, which resulted in inappropriate treatment.
      To be fair to all those concerned Lymes disease is incredibly difficult to diagnose because it manifests itself differently in different people and produces symptoms frequently associated with other illnesses and the symptoms can take years to appear.
      Furthermore Lyme’s disease used to be very rare in the UK which made diagnosis even more problematic,( although it has become a lot more common over the last decade or so).
      None of this is however, if you happen to be an unfortunate individual who has been misdiagnosed for 5 years or more) is any consolation.

    • @AliCatzRR
      @AliCatzRR Рік тому

      ​@@supertuscans9512 Yup and he really is not the exception in the UK right now I'm in a very similar situation and I would not even go into my doctors and mention that they might do good to at least test me for Lymes because its just pointless no one listens.
      My journey with the docs for years has been like this
      In reflection I have had PTSD for at least 32 years and everything on my records would have pointed to that probability but I was ignored
      15 years ago I had a personal physical health issue which was being ignored that was stopping me from going out and even leaving the house or letting people in and I was ignored, and denied a solution because "at 34 I'm too young and might want another child despite making it very clear I don't I mean I swear if I had gone in and ask for my dick tubes to be tied they would have done it there was no excuse for them to refuse. and the circumstances were actually quite dire.
      Then other physical health issues accumulated until I could not stand for long and if I did I was in pain and my breathing laboured I was not being listened too. my body has been fighting something for years according to my white blood cell count that has been wholly ignored and then I got bedbound I can walk but the pain is so bad I pay for it by being bedbound again
      I have had eye lid droops and ticks and inflammation in my face my body the list goes on there is so much going on so I get loud about it in the doctors so this was four years ago nearly five
      All of a sudden I am sent for MH assessments and bobs ya uncle I am diagnosed with PTSD ADHD and ASD. so yeah phew ! I and others kinda suspected some of that anyway.
      So now can we get back to exploring why I am having all these physical issues? Nope that's not what happened and then I hit a 215 over 195 blood pressure so yes I got meds for that however Bet you my blood pressure will not have got that bad if I was not bed bound. So I continue slowly cause im in pain to go to docs occasionally asking can you please get to the bottom of my physical issues?
      and here I am still no sign of that on around 32 pills a day, no nearer with them getting to the bottom of what is causing me all the problems. I am having particularity the pain and inflammation the side effects of the meds are making me fatter and exacerbating my physical health issues and they lack of exploration of my physical issues is most definitely exacerbating my MH issues
      They have not even sent me to as much as a rheumatologist or in instance where my talus bone feels like its crumbing or something I have still not been sent for as much as an x-ray. before they advise me I can self refer to a physio which is pointless because it will make it way way worse and did.
      Of course all that time on my hands which I would far prefer to use having a life, has lead me to explore google/google scholar for many possibilities but if they cant even be bothered to send me to a pretty standard specialist to look at the inflammation/pain issues and at what also keeps leading me to have pneumonia etc, then I just know that it's pointless to go in and asked them to consider lymes or ME or anything else.
      I think this is the case for so many in the UK right now I am tired and I honestly think if my physical issues could be diagnosed and bought under control my mental wellbeing would be so much less of a problem than it is now
      So yeah @DaddouDan is right physical issues can indeed bring on or exacerbate MH issues but bearing in mind both mine and the experience of others it does almost seem like a bit of a cop out system I mean they ignored all them issues I had until I wa begging for them to explore my physical issues and well once you are diagnosed with MH issues, it does seem that no matter how you express yourself it is ignored and put down to your MH issues rather than them actually bothering with looking into anything else
      Rens song Sick boi vids really resonating with me at the moment Part of me feels like kicking off just like that because I am absolutely raging with frustration The process is actually traumatising me but of course that will be put squarely down to my past trauma and I will just be ignored

    • @mistyramsey1840
      @mistyramsey1840 Рік тому +2

      This song gives my crazy mind so much peace ❤️‍🔥 So I've become a bit obsessed with it and I've watched sooooo many reaction videos. It's crazy how so many different types of people all get brought to their knees with this song, people I could probably never sit and have a conversation with but for 9 minutes, we are locked together in awe and appreciation for the art.
      I think this song will bring people together and will make at least a few loosen the rope......

  • @johnnull8470
    @johnnull8470 Рік тому

    Love that song your speech at the end was just as motivating subscribe after hearing that let's just be good to each other😊

  • @verified.my2cents
    @verified.my2cents Рік тому +1

    Ren posted this update on his health on Friday, 27, January 2022: "I don't know why I find it so hard to share this information, I guess because I never wanted to make my health problems my identity, I feel like Ren the person is so much more than Ren the health victim, but if this journey I'm on can help anyone else going through the same thing, its worth swallowing my pride.
    A lot of people have been asking me for my treatment update, and ive been replying individually but then getting a lot of emails and messages which is quite overwhelming to try and respond to them all, especially during treatment, so I'd be super grateful if anyone sees comments on my videos/posts etc asking how treatments going if you could point them in the direction of this post.
    I've been treating here in canada for the past week and a half now.
    I sat down with the doctor and he explained last week that through all the extensive testing he did back in October, including lots of blood work ups, X-rays, samples etc. and MRI scans of my brain that the damage to my body from a having misdiagnosed Lyme disease and autoimmunity was quite extensive. There was significant damage to parts of my brain and many inflammatory markers in my body.
    The obvious markers of pathology were antibodies to the myelin in my brain, thyroid, adrenals, and bones and a condition called Mast Cell Activation Disorder which would explain my symptom picture quite well. To put it simply my immune cells have been attacking my own body. Because my immune systems been compromised by years of basically being at war by itself it has also held on to some long standing viral infections and not been able to detox things like mold/heavy metals/and toxins properly.
    Initially the plan was to be here for 3 months but because of the complexity of what's going on he's said i'll need to be here for 6 months minimum.
    It's a lot to wrap my head around having to be away from friends, family and a successful career and almost feels like a total juxtaposition to the fact that my music is blowing up right now and spreading to all corners of the world, but thats life, we take the good with the bad.
    The good news is because we now know what's wrong, we now have a road map for healing. I know its not going to be an easy path, but I know its one i'm determined to walk.
    I had to quit smoking cold turkey last week for obvious reasons while going through treatment which was one of my crutches for when I was stressed, so have felt the withdrawals messing with my mood a bit this week, but I've got a solid reason to quit, so I'm just bareknuckling it.
    I'm currently going into the clinic for IV's every Monday to Friday for an hour, firstly trying to build my body up by correcting all the nutritional deficiencies that were found due to being on a restricted diet for so long, and also implementing a lot of stress reduction techniques to get my body optimised for healing. Also found some low grade inflammation from some dental problems so will be going in for surgery to correct that in February to ensure there's nothing contributing to inflammation in my body. Once i'm in a stronger place to deal with it I'll start treating with antivirals and more aggressive treatments.
    The most positive thing, is I looked my doctor in the eye, who is used to treating countless very complex cases, and asked him, if there's a chance I can get back to being in a pain free body with the energy of a healthy person, and he said if I stick to this, there is a good chance I can either get my autoimmunity into remission and recover or at least make enough improvements to live a much more comfortable life.
    Want to thank everyone for supporting my music because that's been the best silver lining to this I could have asked for, reading through comments of support for Hi Ren and Sick Boi has really elevated my spirits, and having an exciting future to look forward too makes this process much easier, so thank you!
    Ren"