I've been dealing with psychosis lately. It's like you've got all of this chaos inside you and no one sees it. This song makes me feel less alone. Thanks guys.
You are 100% right, none of the songs ive listened to feel like im being misunderstood. I feel like im being called out AND ITS A WILD FEELING but at the same time it means that Citizen Solider actually understands what we go through, the battles we fight, and the wars waged. This band is the only one that understands, honestly (Favorite HAS to be never good enough and face to face)
i feel like itcomes a lot down to taste, but if you deny that these songs are true masterpieces, you are indeed denying the truth, even if you dont like them
@@YOYTClaw As someone who likes citizen soldier, its an incredibly bias'd opinion to say "if you don't agree with me you're denying truth". Its fine if you like the songs, love them even. But it takes more than a handful of peoples opinions on the internet to determine weather a band crafts masterpieces. To give out some of my own critic, the sentence structure in some of his verses, interferes with the flow of the song. making it sound more like he's singing a story from a book than crafting a song to tell a story.
“Nothing hurts more than feeling like everyone’s last priority” that description hit me in the heart. The part, however, where it goes “Wish I could see it in myself, why I’m impossible to love” hits me down to my soul
Yep feel like everyone's last priority as well maybe i am dumb but i feel like it is true cause when around with friends or stuff like this they always prefer to talk to my other friends first like i literally only have any meaningful normal conversations when i am alone with a single other person.
Y'know, whenever someone's hurting inside or has issues they usually come to me. They know they can count on me to keep their secret. But sometimes I get so occupied trying to help other people, that I forget sometimes I need help too. Sometimes I try too. Sometimes I actually share something with someone but it always, ALWAYS, backfires on me. The poster approach on how to deal with something is to tell someone. But life has shown me that the best way to do that is lock it up inside as much as you possibly can. Sometimes I feel like I don't have the right to complain. The people who come to me have issues so much worse than mine. But it's weird, the people on the internet make me feel like I belong more than anyone in real life ever has. I feel like it should be the other way around but, for me it's true. I definitely feel "like an afterthought no one cares to understand" but music, people on the internet make me feel like more than that. For that I thank everyone small soul who cared enough to at least try to help someone who's hurting. Whether that some person was me or someone else. Edit: I can’t ya’ll are so supportive 😭😭😭 I hope all of you feel better soon
You dont need to see the size of your problem. Big or small problem, it is your problem. Feeling what you feel is just being honest to yourself. And I understand how you feel. I let people say what they want and try to help, but anytime I tried to be helped, I got a lecture or a critic. Nothing that could make me better. So I closed myself to everyone. Even toy friends and family. The part of me I still show is very small.
I know the feeling, I've gotten to the point where I don't open up anymore because I know it will burden people around me. Instead, I focus on them. Always gonna be there for them even if they try to push me away and say “Why should I tell you my problems when you don't open up yourself?” and I always respond “because you're more important than I am.” they still open up in the end and im glad I can help them.
I know how you feel, people come to me and even my best friend who is my crush. I am trying my best to get over him and be a friend. We talk to each other and used to go deep into the conversation, I love helping people...people who know me, always have someone to go to. But I never have anyone to go to. And yes people have gone through worse than I have but I don't wanna seem like I'm steping all over them..
"I open up I get replaced like who I am is a mistake" Hit me so hard. As always I love this song so much accurately describes how i feel. Much love 💜🖤💜
We dont have to be down spiritually emotionally and depressed. We have God helper that is Jesus Christ who fixes every mental problem and spiritual. Tried qnd seen many things awake and in dream and he showed me that he is real. I had severe depression that lasted for 2 days could not talk, walk, eat, sleep and move so started to listen gospel preachers and the depression came off me like a veil on whole body. Had mental disorder ADHD and in the name of Jesus Christ i casted out the demons of fear and lies and im free of incurable disorder. Also lust, void and emptyness was fixed thats why he is the fountan of living water coz nothing in this world can fill it but him. The Lord is the greatest also witches attacked with all kinds of things but didn succeeded.
@@seven7upndown241 please don't fucking shove this down my fucking throat I fucking hate it when people say oh find god bitch god took away everything I ever loved and he left me on this earth god doesn't care and he never will shut the fuck up you think he will help your fucking deluded
"I'm just a hand me down" Funny, isn't it? Feeling like you are always the second option. Like no one cares or even notices you unless they need a favor. Replaced by countless people, only to get replaced again... I get that It hits. But trust me. You, yes you, reading this. You may feel like it's going to stay this way forever, you being "inferior" to others. But I can promise you, that it will get better. Through all of that handing down, you are bound to find the right people who deserve you and will stay at your side for as long as life allows it. Don't lose hope 💜💜 Oh and one last thing. I'm proud of you. Y'know that? Really, really proud. You've made it this far. Keep going. I believe in you :)
@@moonlitestudiosxx Don't. You are not alone. We are all in this together in some way or another. And yes, yes I mean it. Hope you feel better. I believe I'm you, beautiful/handsome stranger ^^
I’m shaking right now. I’m literally shaking. I’m trying so hard to keep myself together because I hear my parents in a nearby room and I’m scared they’ll hear me crying if I start. This is amazing, and now I’m struggling to put my thoughts into words, this is just amazing!
"But no matter where I go, i'm never home" - this single sentence actually broke me. I've been searching for my place in this world for so long, that i'm slowly just giving up. Much love ♥️
@@wendyedwards961 I'm sure that there is a place in the world for you, and there are certainly those who will try to understand you. A lot of people struggle like you and feel hopeless, but there really is a place for you. I'm not sure I can personally help, and its unfortunate that I can't just be everyone's friend, but I'm sure there are other people like me. And I'm not sure if you're open to this message, but I hope it makes you feel better; over two thousand years ago, God sent Jesus into the world and had him die for everyone's sins, including yours. So no matter what happens and what you do, I hope you'll know that he loves you. However, I know a lot of people aren't open to that, so I will say, there are also a lot of humans who are willing to love you
"I open up. I get replaced." Every... single... time... Once again, another song which resonates strongly with me. These lyrics describe near-perfectly how my life has been. I never can seem to find a point to do much outside of the digital world as everything feels like it's more-or less staying the same and going nowhere ("What good's survival? When everything feels final?"). These songs, from the sole band I listen to these days, are the one connection to the real world I have that, despite all my running on that lonely road, actually makes me feel like I have a home.
I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through that, and I completely understand. I hope that you can find meaning in the non-digital world, but you know, finding good in listening to Citizen Soldier is a good start. I'm glad it makes you feel like you do have a home, and I assure you that there is one
"It gets so hard to face the truth, when reality's a noose." Damn, dude, you never cease to amaze people with your lyrics, and you'd have to be stone cold to not feel the emotion behind your voice.
We dont have to be down spiritually emotionally and depressed. We have helper that is Jesus Christ who fixes every mental problem and spiritual. Tried qnd seen many things awake and in dream and he showed me that he is real. I had severe depression that lasted for 2 days could not talk, walk, eat, sleep and move so started to listen gospel preachers and the depression came off me like a veil on whole body. Had mental disorder ADHD and in the name of Jesus Christ i casted out the demons of fear and lies and im free of incurable disorder. Also lust, void and emptyness was fixed thats why he is the fountan of living water coz nothing in this world can fill it but him. The Lord is the greatest also witches attacked with all kinds of things but didn succeeded.
As someone who’s been bullied for 8 years for being “weird” this song speaks volumes, I’m 18 now and I’m not bullied anymore but my teenage years were wasted on wondering what was wrong with me, on why I wasn’t good enough. This song is very relatable
I have been there so I know exactly what you mean I was bullied 7 years straight which made me loose all basic emotions for months and I had to learn to feel them again which took years. This said know that you are not alone there are always people like you that will keep you up when all seems down😁
@@nasatheyeeterofbabies6693 thank you and yes I’m aware of this, I’ve only recently started to be more okay with myself and I’ve got a few friends, a big thing that really helped me accept myself was when I got diagnosed with autism, it has made my life so much easier to finally be able to understand things that I used to not know about myself. I’m healing slowly but surely ☺️
I feel for you man. I spent my education getting shit from people. Life is hard. I'm also 18 now man. And I know I am doing better than those wo bullied me and it is satisfying
@@DanTheBuska Yeah same those people that broke me all those years ago are now either in debt or doing drugs plus im kinda happy that I was able to take a bullet for the others sake
Ive been bullied in my life alot that theres times when i was in school that it came close where i felt like having to shoot up the school to take care of my bullies i even had to come to school with weapons thats how bad it was for me it kills me inside for what these few bullies did to me cause one of them won the stanley cup with tampa two yrs in a row then just signed a huge contract with the canucks that is why i hate that hockey team and im hated by alot because i dont like the canucks even know i live in bc and am hated because i cant wear a mask due to major problems due to bullying from ptsd that has been caused to me they were lucky i didnt do anything like that shooting up the school even know they should of
I was adopted 2 months before my second birthday by a mentally abusive family. 40+ years later still working on finding myself and my purpose in this world. Thank you for helping me through your music
It's beautiful when artists let pain be their muse . Many people think that sadness shouldn't get much attention , that you're strong only if you deal with it silently . Thanks to Citizen Soldier i feel less alone .
I’ve always told myself “the strong identify, feel, and understand their emotions” Because if you can’t identify them, you can snap at someone you love and not realize it. If you don’t feel them, you’re doomed to repeat harm. And if you don’t understand them, someone can manipulate you easier. Because 9/10, your feelings of “sadness” or “anger” is actually something else entirely (you can feel “sad” or “angry" when your friends leave you out, but you’re more “hurt” that they didn’t want to play/hang out for one example). No one else seemed to understand that though. Artists are so important for the populace's MH, because they understand. They've been tormented, and they have this gift of expression that we as an audience can connect to. It's a gift to be able for us to connect to them too; so they know they're loved and appreciated! A beautiful relationship.
Loved this song. Made me cry though. Especially the line that says " just an afterthought that no one cares to understand. Wish I could see it in myself why I'm impossible to love why I'm not enough." Have felt this way since my dad walked out when I was 5 (I'm 45 now). Been abandoned and replaced so many times that these thought have been constant throughout my life. And just when I think I'm getting a handle on them I get 'reminded' somehow that im never enough. This song really hit me hard. But it's a great song as always. Well done guys.
@Jose F03 I KNOW RIGHT, all of Citizen Soldier’s songs are relatable but “I’m not okay” and this new one (really sorry, I kind of didn’t look at the name before pressing on it) is definitely my favourite ones, no offence to Citizen Soldier, all of their songs are indescribably amazing and relatable, really sorry if that didn’t make sense, also sorry if that was offensive
@Jose F03 thank you for saying that, also thank you for replying, I never actually thought that anyone would reply so thank you, really sorry if that didn’t make sense, also sorry if that was offensive
@Jose F03 I’ve heard three of them but I’ve never heard of hallelujah, am I a bad fan for not knowing that song, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if that was offensive
Tonight I was feeling exactly like this. I got into a fight with my best friend because I told them I felt like a stepping stone in everyone's life. They went to bed angry at me and now I don't know if they're my friend anymore. They're the only person I could confide in and I don't want to lose them but I fear I pushed them away with the thoughts in my mind. This song is word for word how I feel and I can't stop listening to it. Thank you Citizen Soldier for yet another amazing song. 💜
I don't know what your relationship with your friend looks like or what you said, but I hope that they don't leave you because you spoke your mind about your fears. Friends should understand what their friends are worried about. I dearly hope that everything's going well now. And just so you know, you don't deserve to be a stepping stone in people's lives! You are your own beautiful person of infinite worth, and sometimes people don't see that. I hope that you can find many people who love you unconditionally
Miriam Thank you so much for your kind words. We are currently not talking to each other but according to one of our mutual friends, they're wanting that to change soon. I try my hardest to not feel like a stepping stone in people's lives but some days are harder to fight than others. Again thank you so much for the kind words, and I will definitely take them to heart. 💜
@@jeremybrack8836 I'm glad that I could help! I'm also happy to hear that things are going better now ^^ looking forward to when you and your friend can talk to each other again!
I feel like this song is talking about my feelings because been feeling low…I cry because this song explain about how people actually feels and how I feel…….I love the song… I almost forgot…. Whoever did the animation they did a great job on doing it I love it so much…💜💜💜
"I open up i get replaced like who i am is a mistake" Yeah that hit me so hard thanks for another amazing song this makes me feel not alone much love Citizen Soldier 🙇♂️🙏
I tried to end my life in 2001 when I was 10. Thank you for being an inspiration to me. I start my schooling this year to become a therapist like you Jake. I want to help people not feel as alone as I felt
"Wish I could see in myself" "Why I'm impossible to love " "Why I'm not enough" - this... this is too spot on. I don't know what to say. This song hits right where it hurts the most. Thank you 🙏
It's amazing how just connecting to songs like this can help people. Just an acknowledgement that you're not the only one going through these thoughts is a comfort.
"What good's survival? When everything feels final?" Oof. That hit a nerve. As someone that struggles with depression mostly due to her Fibromyalgia, which makes anyone's life a living Hell by itself, this song makes me feel a lot less alone. Keep doing what you do.
This hits hard…hard as hell. Imagine…seen so much people in the street, every single face..hides something, pain, suffering, depression, etc. And find this song and feel that..relieve that someone understands your pain and suffering in some way.
This is exactly how I feel. In primary I had no friends and was just alone all the time. people pretended to be my friend and care even though I knew they don't. Now I'm in highschool and I'm getting constantly mocked and bullied for something I like. This song is literally the same words going on in my head. I do have suicidal thoughts and my family doesnt know. My mum will just say "You don't have depression." She doesnt know what I'm feeling. I feel worthless and a burden all the time. All the time I think: Would anyone care about me if they knew what was going on in my head? Would anyone notice if I just disappeared tomorrow? I only have 6 friends and 9 online friends. But music is my top number 1 friend. Its just comforting. I was introduced to your music with the song Would Anyone Care. Your music is basically my life. Thank you. Thank you so much. I feel alone all the time, even when I'm not. My mood has changed from happy to just a lonely soul trying to find their way back home. Thank you Citizen Soldier for your hard work. Thank you.
I know what I'm listening to for the next 24h. This song feels so tender and fragile, perfectly captures the emotion of being alone. I love it so much. Thank you for all you guys do!
I won't lie. Tonight I happened to be just sitting here awake and this song just gets uploaded. Tears fill my eyes just watching this video and listening to the lyrics. What pains me is not only knowing someone else is feeling the same pain as so many of us, but knowing one of the people in this beautiful band had these feelings to have written these powerful lyrics. Please don't forget to keep your heads up. Everyone from the band to the souls listening to this beautiful song. Remember we all have bad times, but there is always a light coming your way, to guide you through the darkness.
On my teens I went through a depression, cause I decided to hate myself, as a consequence of the bullying I was going through. That's why I must thank you guys: your songs are able to save our broken hearts, cause we feel understood. 😞👍
"I've been running on this lonely road, but no matter where I go I'm never home" its funny how some words can hit harder than a trained boxer... I love this song.
"Why I'm impossible to love, why I'm not enough." Put a knife in my heart. I hate that it's what makes me feel. The pain and choked up sensation. But hey. Means we're alive.
@Nel , My abusive ex messed me up and this is one of the many lyrics from this song i related to 💔😞 But a guy from work im hanging out with has given me slight hope that i can feel what home feels like again Even though i struggle to fully open up and be me 🥺
@@deflepardfan09 I hope that you can find comfort and solace. The world might be awful, but some of us have lights in us that won't go out. And we're willing to share it with those who need it most.
Honestly the amount of help I get by listening to Citizen Soldier’s music is phenomenal. These songs make me understand that I’m not alone in my struggles and that there is always someone there to help! I love you! 💜
You know just how to get everyone else's thoughts and feelings into music. Every song just hits the spot! Every thought, every feeling is in all of your music and it means so much just to hear your amazingly soothing voice say these words! Please never change. 🖤🖤
God's I'm crying, this song is so damn accurate to what I feel inside every day. I have opened up to people genuinely, sincerely about how I feel & they just leave me all alone even though I don't say anything that would make people hate me. I just tell them how much I want to be loved, to be wanted & cared for & I lose everyone I get close to like I did something wrong. Thank you for making this song, it makes me feel so much better.
Yes, we all do! We all have our own stories to tell! We all felt so lost within! And it's sometimes so hard! Even tho you think u finally know it, but deep inside u still have your doubts about it. Cause right now, I have a mentall break down.. I don't know, how... but I am soo fcking confused, sometimes I just laugh, but behind my smile is a lot of pain going on. And sometimes I just wanna cry! But thanks to your songs I feel always so much better🤍 Thankyou for this amazing message and for always being there om om right time!🤍✨
Listening to this song in particular has me in my thoughts of my current situation and it really does feel like that no matter how hard you try it just doesn't feel like it's enough but here I am still standing and I really do appreciate this song the most because not everyone knows what road your on till they have experienced what you have gone through
The most heart breaking moment is when you realize your entire existence could relate to a song. Like some people say I’m strong, I have a heart of gold, a caring soul, always smiling and well put together.. it’s because I’ve fought every battle alone, depression does convince me it’s better to give up but being a military brat I just keep pushing forward and with every step it seems I can hardly breathe I’m so tired I’m bound to collapse insomnia, crying is weakness so I cry alone. I just smile in front of people is cause it’s easier then draining what little energy I have and I have a heart of “gold” with a caring soul is cause I know what it means to go to bed wishing to never wake and fighting what feels like an impossible fight alone.
"there is nothing quite like this abuse, of feeling that I have no use" I was only useful to others as long as they could use me. The moment I was no longer useful, I got tossed like like I didn't exist. So now even the most minor of mistakes makes me feel that my usefulness is gone, that I'm going to get replaced and tossed aside again.
I hope that you'll always know that you aren't useless, and I'm very sorry that the people in your life keep being selfish. Its unfortunately very human for people to think about themselves and hurt others. But, there are people out there who won't just use you. I hope you find them
"I've been running on this lonely road, but no matter where I go, I'm never home." 😭😭😭💖💖💖 That's very sad and I love it and this song so much!! 😍😍😍 Congratulations on yet another outstandingly well-written song tonight, Citizen Soldier! 💜💜💜 Now I want to sing it...! 😊💖
I’ve really gotten into your music in the past year, and I really like the direction you’re taking with new songs. Y’all continue to improve with every new song, so keep it up!
I'm fighting against depression and anxiety since 2018. Your songs are like a mirror where I see myself. Everything you sing I feel. But please, all the people who are like this: DON'T STOP FIGHTING. DON'T SURRENDER Even you know you will fall again, STAND UP. For me life is a cruel game where simply I don't know how to play. I see how people make big progress and I'm at the beginning. Stucked. Waiting a day for the night and a night for the day. Feeling nothing for me has sense anymore. But I'm still here.
I've been going through a rough patch with work and school lately and the lyrics of this song really hit me close to home because it expressed the loneliness I have been feeling recently almost to a tee. Hearing this music makes me feel less alone and at least helps me acknowledge that I am not the only person going through this in life. Thank you for this!
This song reminds me of someone I was introduced only a handful of months ago. She's a good person, but very troubled and locked in her own mind and past trauma, and honestly, all I can think of, is how I can help her see that she is worth being cared about, and that she's not always alone, or always going to be betrayed and hurt by the people she opens up to. I shared this song with her while listening to it, because hopefully something as profound as your music can reach her and help her see more value in herself. Love the music as always. So heartfelt and sincere, and it shows from the support and love both given and received. Keep up the great work guys =)
Your friend reminds me of myself because I do have a hard time opening due to someone shutting my feelings of depression down and at the time my youngest sister was going through cancer treatment and of course the "friend" is like oh you're overreacting be a big girl and deal with it. Like huh? My sister was dying and that's what you think I should do. After that I tend to lie about how I feel to people face to face but online I can open up better. But yeah I went on a bit of a tangent sorry about that I tend to do that a lot.
@@ARC-0606 It's no worries =) I'm glad you have some medium in which you can open up and still feel safe and secure in yourself, even if there is some kind of anonymity associated with it, it is still a form of coping, and it's helped me a lot too. =)
@Daryl whittle plus another medium is my poetry everyone says my poetry is god-tier but I don't think so then again I'm very insecure about it because it's my outlook like someone's getting a look into my soul
Don't tell yourself that you are not enough or that you cannot face what comes to you. Always try. Even if you fail. You will succeed one day. Remember that everything is impossible until someone does it. You have everything you need to do that. You are enough. Your past does not define who you are, but your present determines your future. Live your life and do not give in to pain. God does not give you something that you cannot face. You just have to find the right way to start to get the satisfactory end. God bless you all
I feel this way when I let people near and then they find out about my mental health battles with bipolar spectrum disorder. No one I've met (besides my psychiatrist) knows how to handle it and they all end up walking away, disappearing, like being diagnosed with bipolar is committing a major crime. Thank you for your songs which help me vent and release. Blessings, Dot
I’m sorry you felt that. I myself had someone close to me who was bipolar and I ended up not judging and let them stay close to me. They ended up being one of the most hurtful people in my life at the time and absolutely wrecked me and made me feel like trash. I don’t think bipolar people are bad, but perhaps the people who turned away from you had bad experiences from bipolar people. I know I did. That person caused me tons of pain.
Thank you for always saying out loud the feelings I can't describe. When I feel numb with all emotions, your songs pull me out like someone hugs me and says 'i am here. I know your pain. I know you've been hurt. I know it's selfish, But please stay alive.' Maybe you guys are soldiers from God to help people who are at war with Mental Health to go through it. Thank you so much Citizen Soldier. :)
It's been almost 8 months that I lost my mom,I don't get any support from my dad or from my relatives. I am by my own dealing with panic attack,anixety etc. feels like I'll lose this fight but whenever I listen to these beautiful songs,I don't feel alone. Feels like,you guys read my mind and feeling what I feel these days... it's a shame that,dad isn't supporting me he's busy with his new "wife" and I am here trying to survive for my mom. Believe me,if you guys weren't here I would be already dead. Thanks for these beautiful songs... all of them makes me feel like I am not alone and I can keep going on.
"there's nothing quite like this abuse of feeling like I have no use" was the line that stood out to me for this song. You guys hit it home once again. Thank you for the beautiful music you provide, and being there for those who need it 💜
I got introduced to Citizen Soldier through the song Would anyone care? Ever since then I've loved every single one of their songs. This song hits different every time I listen to it
I should be happy, should'nt I ? I have an open family, never been abused, can eat as much I need. My parents love me, I even had a school scolarship ! Why can't I just be as happy as I should ?? Why can't I just stop hating myself as much that I'd like to end my life ? Why can't I just clean up the mess that is there in my head every day ?? Why can't I just stop exist...?
"I've been running on this lonely road but no matter where I go I'm never home" is the line that speaks to me the most. Every song you guys record, speaks to the hearts of your fans and our hearts listen ❤️
This song definitely hits differently when you haven't been okay for a long time. I always felt like a dumping ground for people to tell me their issues, but when it came to mine, they'd leave. I hope everyone who reads this is doing well, and is now in a good state of mind.
Somehow, your songs always speak to us folks down here in the comments. And for that, I feel the greatest gratitude--even if I can't show that on my face.
I had the comment section open for about a half hour before I could actually get my fingers to write. This song resonated a bit too much with how my entire family and all but 2 of my friends growing up until now. The main lyric that hit the most was "There's nothing quite like this abuse, of feeling like I have no use." I am diagnosed with autism (since 3) and had a dad who made it a point to tell me I was worthless unless I could outperform everybody else combined. My mother and her family supported it until I was 16 and needed to go to therapy after getting talked away from turning out the light. Here I am at 21 and I've used your songs to explain how I've felt at certain points of my life because they're so accurate. I hope you keep up this amazing music for those who need to hear these words and need these songs in order to realize they're not alone. Thank you
"So many nights I lie awake wondering why nobody stays. I'm just a hand me down." was the part that related to me the most, because whenever someone knows what I'm going through eventually leaves me.
As a sufferer of D.I.D. this song really helps....not knowing who you are, not knowing what's real anymore and blacking out. Making friendships and relationships nigh on impossible.
Lyric Have you ever felt so lost within? Like you don't even belong in your own skin Like you're the broken puzzle piece That doesn't fit in anywhere 'Cause no-one cares So many nights I lie awake Wondering why nobody stays I'm just a hand me down I'm just a hand me down I open up, I get replaced Like who I am is a mistake I'm just a hand me down I'm just a hand me down I've been running on this lonely road But no matter where I go I'm never home Some days I'd rather be anyone but who I am Just an afterthought that no-one cares to understand Wish I could see it in myself Why I'm impossible to love Why I'm not enough So many nights I lie awake Wondering why nobody stays I'm just a hand me down I'm just a hand me down I open up, I get replaced Like who I am is a mistake I'm just a hand me down I'm just a hand me down I've been running on this lonely road But no matter where I go Do I choose denial? Embrace this downward spiral? It gets so hard to face the truth When your reality's a noose What good's survival When everything feels final? There's nothing quite like this abuse Of feeling like I have no use Stuck in a life no-one would choose So many nights I lie awake Wondering why nobody stays I'm just a hand me down I'm just a hand me down I open up, I get replaced Like who I am is a mistake I'm just a hand me down I'm just a hand me down I've been running on this lonely road But no matter where I go I'm never home
This is phenomenal!! I love the lyrics, the message, just everything about this song!! I can’t wait to see what your creative brain comes up with next!!
Holy shit. I've waited 37 years to find my song. "I'm just a hand me down." spoke to my being adopted. I've been silently screaming for help but even my closest friends and family like/love my posts. Please know how to help yourself when there's no one else. You matter!!!
This song hits very close to home. The lyrics, the calm, somber feeling elicited by the rhythm. It is truly amazing. It is sad to see how many people relate to this, but also comforting to know we're not alone in these feelings. Thank you Citizen Soldier
Every word, every line, rings true inside me. "Do I choose denial? Embrace this downward spiral?" Hit especially hard. As always, absolutely incredible work. I never miss a chance to spread these songs to those around me, in the hopes that I may just help someone else. Thank you for the incredible song, I know I'll be listening to it on repeat for a while!
I found you guys via TikTok and I’m so glad, otherwise I could have gone forever without discovering you. Tiktok gave me some great previews of songs and I loved them. Listening to the full songs on here and Spotify are another level and they blow me away, whether they are the softer songs or the heavier ones. My struggles may not be the worst but they are hard and your songs make me tear up because it’s like you guys understand or they help me unleash the pent up frustration by allowing me to just let out a scream. Thank you guys, you are absolutely incredible.
Love listening to the songs by you guys theyve helped me so much and resonate with me massively like they do with so many people here. I didnt find you guys until a couple of months ago when i needed it the most, your song would anyone care is basically the thoughts that go in my head often, my favourite lyric from this song though ( hand me down ) is "like youre the broken puzzle piece that doesnt fit in anywhere, cause no one cares" as i feel i dont fit in anywhere at all and never have fitted in anywhere my whole life
Claire I feel like I'm in the same boat as yourself. What song that got me into Citizen Solder was would anyone care because I want sure if anyone actually would. At the end I know two people at least would but then with I hear "hand me down" I knew this song came into my life for a reason. The lyrics "Wish I could see it in myself. Why I'm impossible to love? Why I'm not enough?" resonate with me the most unfortunately for the wrong reasons. I'm sure you'll find that you fit in somewhere someday. Take care Claire.
Oh my god this song is really piercing through my heart! Especially the lyrics part at the start 'Have you ever felt lost within? Like you don't belong in your own skin' really resonates with me. I've felt like this almost my whole life and no matter to whom I opened up to, telling them I felt this way... no one understood. They said I'm not normal and I shouldn't feel like this. I think it's now almost two years ago that I found you guys and started listening to your songs. They comforted me when I felt bad and made me feel less weird, they gave me the strength to continue fighting and helped me through some really bad depressive phases and they gave me hope. One year ago I found some amazing friends that treat me like I'm a precious gem and genuinely care about me. I'm so grateful that you guys make this kind of songs and that you help people like me to get better when there is no one else that does. Your songs gave me enough courage and hope to continue approaching people and to fight my fears instead of letting them take control of me. Thanks so much, with your help I was able to make take a few steps forward and trough that I was able to meet my precious friends ❤ please continue making your amazing music, I love you guys ❤
"so many night I lie awake, wondering why nobody stays" This one specific line hits hard. The song is really good though (citizen solider never disappoints)
I seriously love this song- I put it on whenever I don't feel the greatest about myself. It always gets me to sing along, somewhat dance. It just opens my soul and draws out the emotions I have bottled up. Definitely my favorite band, you guys help me feel less alone and actually cared for. Love you guys, keep making amazing music💕💕💕
Listen to this music at 3:30am because my thoughts dont let me steep .... the song fits very well again. Thx again to Citizen soldier for a new masterpiece
"like who I am is a mistake." As an autistic person, this line hit home. I only found out that I was autistic a couple of years ago. People already thought I was odd. I thought having an explanation would help people understand, so I didn't hold back from telling them about being autistic. Now I really am treated like a mistake, like I don't belong in the human race. Friends bailed on me and some even down right shun me. I am a hand me down, something to unload on someone else because I'm not wanted. This is the theme song for my life. Thank Citizen Soldier. Your songs have helped me to hang on.
Hey I have autism too. And your not a mistake and you are wanted 🥺 just because some people can't see you as a person or being human doesn't mean you don't belong or don't deserve to be here. Your an amazing person and you have alot of potential in life and you have alot ahead of you learn from the bad grow from it and stay the opposite of how people treat you and embrace the good and love the good and live the good and be the change you want to see in this world. You have a purpose and I'm really glad your here in the world this world needs you 🥺🥰💎💟🤗
@@meadowfawn937 thank you. I know I'm not a mistake. But when that's how I get treated all the time, it does wear on me. I know it's because of the double empathy problem. People have no idea how wrong they are about me or how much they hurt me with their constant misinterpretation of me. Most of my problems in life come from people thinking they know me when they really don't. And I'm not even talking about autistic masking. People's theory of mind is the problem. It's what causes them to misinterpret my words and actions, assigning bad motives and intent. So for example, my attempts to be helpful might be seen as manipulative or insulting. So everything I do becomes a mistake. When no one can recognize the good in me, what's the point? People don't want anything to do with me. And they can't recognize the problems I face because of their inability to empathize. This song portrays my life pretty well. But I do appreciate your kind words. It's hard not to be cynical. Thank you for a dose of optimism.
You guys are criminally underrated, you save lives with your lyrics. You unite people from all over the world. From the bottom of my heart, thank you Citizen Soldier!
"I open up I get replaced like who I am is a mistake" This song goes through my heart. I felt like a mistake my whole youth, cause people in my school excluded me. They said to me that what I say has no sense. Now I have really good friends fortunally and I'm really happy that this horrible time is over. Thank you for this amazing song ^^
Oh wow, being part of a DID system (multiple personalities)... those opening lines... And looking at our trauma... wow... this song... You guys are amazing. Thank you so much for all you do with these songs...
Sometimes I wish that my existence was a mistake. Everywhere I go, I'm just a substitute for someone else, and there are so many alternatives for me. I spend many sleepless nights and go about my work as if it were inertia. I try to keep my emotions in check so that I won't be told, "I don't need you anymore". Who needs me? I don't have a safe place for my heart to go. But ...... maybe other people besides me are having the same lonely night?
Citizen Soldier never let's me down. They are so precious people in real I watch their lives sometimes. They are talented and helped me more than most of the people. I relate most of the songs they help me to cope. This is what a real artists do. They aren't just musicians they are artists. My favorite musicians. Thank you for your songs, I'll be a fan forever. ❤️
This is probably the one song out of millions and millions that actually hit the nail on the head. I do exactly everything in this song. I think every day and night, why am I not good enough or think about being someone else. Thank you for all your songs you guys make and thank you for helping everyone get through their hard times! You’re my favorite like no one else
the lyrics "like who I am is a mistake" , "no matter where I go, I'm never home" and "some days I'd rather be anyone than who I am" carry a different kind of weight as a lgbtq+ teen in an unsupported environment. I love how much yalls music is up for interpretation. Those that can relate all have their different circumstances and reasons but regardless they find comfort in knowing someone actually knows them.
To follow the analogy, I just wanted to give a small reminder. There are those of us who only shop in second hand stores. It took me until I was 18 to find barely 2 such people. I found the 3rd at the age of 29... and precisely 3 others since. I'm 38 now, and I still relate to parts of this song. But the best of the hand me downs found me, dusted me off, and I now have the best, albeit small, support system. I am still looking for a place that feels like home, but I have FINALLY found the people that feel like home. Don't give up... even when it seems we are as rare of unicorns, we do exist. ♡
“What goods survival when everything feels final?” It’s like no matter what I do this feeling of emptiness won’t go away. And what’s the point of survival if living will always feel like this?
I don't know if anyone will see this or reply. But that's fine if no one does, I just wanted to thank you Citizen Soldier. I'm sure I'm not the only one you've guys have helped through some difficult times. Your music has helped me from doing things a lot and I've related to a lot of the lyrics. But anyway thank you guys, I recently got the "Your Story isn't over" shirt and I love it so much you've guys have saved so many people. Much love to all of you guys. 💜 Also I did covers on Bedroom Ceiling and Hand Me Down recently while recovering from covid so if anyone wants to check it out that'd be nice. :)
"Like you're the broken puzzle piece that doesn't fit in anywhere cause no one cares." This resonates so much with me. As someone who lives with autism as well as ADHD/Bipolar I really struggle with finding where I belong in society. I'm considered to be "high functioning" so a lot of my struggles are overlooked and invalidated even by my own family on a regular basis. It feels like I'm a burden to people a lot of times and so many of your songs resonate with me. "Just be happy", "buried alive", "always december", all things that describe my struggles and how I feel on a regular basis. Words I could never explain and have my family even begin to understand without just putting me away thinking a psych ward will just "fix" me. While I would never wish these struggles on anyone else, your songs help me to not feel so alone. I'm glad someone is able to put it into words about the invisible demons that exist in which others who don't experience them can't or refuse to see and be a voice for those who don't have the strength or support to speak up. Too many suffer from things that go unnoticed and I thank you for being a voice.
It got published when I was in school. Almost started crying there when I had the time to listen to it. I've been so low the last few weeks and this song just spoke out what I wasn't able to. Thank you guys again. Whoever reads this. You are amazing. Remember that💜
I've been dealing with psychosis lately. It's like you've got all of this chaos inside you and no one sees it. This song makes me feel less alone. Thanks guys.
You're not alone friend. Glad to hear the music helps 💜 Appreciate you
Me to
Your not brother trust me
Not alone 🤞
Talks to you joverb
"Like you're the broken puzzle piece that doesn't fit in anywhere" is my favourite lyric.. but seriously this song just speaks to my soul so much.. 😭💜
Appreciate you Heather! 💜 You're always here for us on release night :)
@@CitizenSoldier of course, you guys are my absolute favourite band so I always got to be here for release day and show my support💜
También es mi parte favorita de la letra
@@CitizenSoldier you the Best
Facts
The only Band with not a Single Bad Song
Every Single Song is a masterpiece.
You are 100% right, none of the songs ive listened to feel like im being misunderstood.
I feel like im being called out AND ITS A WILD FEELING
but at the same time
it means that Citizen Solider actually understands what we go through, the battles we fight, and the wars waged. This band is the only one that understands, honestly (Favorite HAS to be never good enough and face to face)
Starset says otherwise
I get they aren't for everyone, but 5 finger death punch is also a band of this caliber. I don't think I've ever not liked one of their songs.
i feel like itcomes a lot down to taste, but if you deny that these songs are true masterpieces, you are indeed denying the truth, even if you dont like them
@@YOYTClaw As someone who likes citizen soldier, its an incredibly bias'd opinion to say "if you don't agree with me you're denying truth". Its fine if you like the songs, love them even. But it takes more than a handful of peoples opinions on the internet to determine weather a band crafts masterpieces. To give out some of my own critic, the sentence structure in some of his verses, interferes with the flow of the song.
making it sound more like he's singing a story from a book than crafting a song to tell a story.
“Nothing hurts more than feeling like everyone’s last priority” that description hit me in the heart. The part, however, where it goes “Wish I could see it in myself, why I’m impossible to love” hits me down to my soul
I've felt like that means whole existence 💔
The Afters - "I will Fear No More." You matter!
😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔🥺🥺🥺
Yep feel like everyone's last priority as well maybe i am dumb but i feel like it is true cause when around with friends or stuff like this they always prefer to talk to my other friends first like i literally only have any meaningful normal conversations when i am alone with a single other person.
I feel this too
Y'know, whenever someone's hurting inside or has issues they usually come to me. They know they can count on me to keep their secret. But sometimes I get so occupied trying to help other people, that I forget sometimes I need help too. Sometimes I try too. Sometimes I actually share something with someone but it always, ALWAYS, backfires on me. The poster approach on how to deal with something is to tell someone. But life has shown me that the best way to do that is lock it up inside as much as you possibly can. Sometimes I feel like I don't have the right to complain. The people who come to me have issues so much worse than mine. But it's weird, the people on the internet make me feel like I belong more than anyone in real life ever has. I feel like it should be the other way around but, for me it's true. I definitely feel "like an afterthought no one cares to understand" but music, people on the internet make me feel like more than that. For that I thank everyone small soul who cared enough to at least try to help someone who's hurting. Whether that some person was me or someone else.
Edit: I can’t ya’ll are so supportive 😭😭😭 I hope all of you feel better soon
You dont need to see the size of your problem. Big or small problem, it is your problem. Feeling what you feel is just being honest to yourself. And I understand how you feel. I let people say what they want and try to help, but anytime I tried to be helped, I got a lecture or a critic. Nothing that could make me better. So I closed myself to everyone. Even toy friends and family. The part of me I still show is very small.
I know the feeling
I know the feeling, I've gotten to the point where I don't open up anymore because I know it will burden people around me. Instead, I focus on them. Always gonna be there for them even if they try to push me away and say “Why should I tell you my problems when you don't open up yourself?” and I always respond “because you're more important than I am.” they still open up in the end and im glad I can help them.
i get it completely especially the "other people's problems are so much bigger than mine" but your problems are valid too k? don't forget that
I know how you feel, people come to me and even my best friend who is my crush. I am trying my best to get over him and be a friend. We talk to each other and used to go deep into the conversation, I love helping people...people who know me, always have someone to go to. But I never have anyone to go to. And yes people have gone through worse than I have but I don't wanna seem like I'm steping all over them..
"I open up I get replaced like who I am is a mistake"
Hit me so hard. As always I love this song so much accurately describes how i feel. Much love 💜🖤💜
Much love back to you 💜
I know how you feel
I k know how you feel i feel the same as of late 🥺
We dont have to be down spiritually emotionally and depressed. We have God helper that is Jesus Christ who fixes every mental problem and spiritual. Tried qnd seen many things awake and in dream and he showed me that he is real. I had severe depression that lasted for 2 days could not talk, walk, eat, sleep and move so started to listen gospel preachers and the depression came off me like a veil on whole body. Had mental disorder ADHD and in the name of Jesus Christ i casted out the demons of fear and lies and im free of incurable disorder. Also lust, void and emptyness was fixed thats why he is the fountan of living water coz nothing in this world can fill it but him. The Lord is the greatest also witches attacked with all kinds of things but didn succeeded.
@@seven7upndown241 please don't fucking shove this down my fucking throat I fucking hate it when people say oh find god bitch god took away everything I ever loved and he left me on this earth god doesn't care and he never will shut the fuck up you think he will help your fucking deluded
"I'm just a hand me down"
Funny, isn't it?
Feeling like you are always the second option. Like no one cares or even notices you unless they need a favor. Replaced by countless people, only to get replaced again...
I get that
It hits. But trust me. You, yes you, reading this. You may feel like it's going to stay this way forever, you being "inferior" to others. But I can promise you, that it will get better. Through all of that handing down, you are bound to find the right people who deserve you and will stay at your side for as long as life allows it. Don't lose hope 💜💜
Oh and one last thing.
I'm proud of you. Y'know that? Really, really proud. You've made it this far. Keep going. I believe in you :)
💜
Do you mean that..? I feel so alone...
@@moonlitestudiosxx Don't. You are not alone. We are all in this together in some way or another. And yes, yes I mean it. Hope you feel better. I believe I'm you, beautiful/handsome stranger ^^
Thank you so much I need to hear that and again thank you
@@shotgun9324 No problem. I'm happy I can help
I’m shaking right now. I’m literally shaking. I’m trying so hard to keep myself together because I hear my parents in a nearby room and I’m scared they’ll hear me crying if I start. This is amazing, and now I’m struggling to put my thoughts into words, this is just amazing!
Much love to you Celeste 💜 You're not alone friend.
Hugs 💜
"But no matter where I go, i'm never home" - this single sentence actually broke me. I've been searching for my place in this world for so long, that i'm slowly just giving up. Much love ♥️
Same...I've searched for years , I don't think I have a place on this world or anyone that will try to understand me ❤️
I'm so sorry that you feel that way! I hope that you find your place in the world, I'm sure it's out there
@@wendyedwards961 I'm sure that there is a place in the world for you, and there are certainly those who will try to understand you. A lot of people struggle like you and feel hopeless, but there really is a place for you. I'm not sure I can personally help, and its unfortunate that I can't just be everyone's friend, but I'm sure there are other people like me.
And I'm not sure if you're open to this message, but I hope it makes you feel better; over two thousand years ago, God sent Jesus into the world and had him die for everyone's sins, including yours. So no matter what happens and what you do, I hope you'll know that he loves you. However, I know a lot of people aren't open to that, so I will say, there are also a lot of humans who are willing to love you
I know that feeling I've been searching for years too and now I'm lost and I'm so very close to giving up I don't see a point to my existence
You belong to Jesus. You fit in in Heaven.
"I open up. I get replaced."
Every... single... time...
Once again, another song which resonates strongly with me. These lyrics describe near-perfectly how my life has been. I never can seem to find a point to do much outside of the digital world as everything feels like it's more-or less staying the same and going nowhere ("What good's survival? When everything feels final?"). These songs, from the sole band I listen to these days, are the one connection to the real world I have that, despite all my running on that lonely road, actually makes me feel like I have a home.
I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through that, and I completely understand. I hope that you can find meaning in the non-digital world, but you know, finding good in listening to Citizen Soldier is a good start. I'm glad it makes you feel like you do have a home, and I assure you that there is one
I can totally feel you!!
But I hope one day I'll not be just a hand me down!
@@fariharahman1143 I hope that you do, too! There are people out there who won't treat you like a hand-me-down
60 likes… sixty people want to let you know you’re not alone 🤗 Don’t give up! 💪
"It gets so hard to face the truth, when reality's a noose." Damn, dude, you never cease to amaze people with your lyrics, and you'd have to be stone cold to not feel the emotion behind your voice.
Thanks Zachary 💜
We dont have to be down spiritually emotionally and depressed. We have helper that is Jesus Christ who fixes every mental problem and spiritual. Tried qnd seen many things awake and in dream and he showed me that he is real. I had severe depression that lasted for 2 days could not talk, walk, eat, sleep and move so started to listen gospel preachers and the depression came off me like a veil on whole body. Had mental disorder ADHD and in the name of Jesus Christ i casted out the demons of fear and lies and im free of incurable disorder. Also lust, void and emptyness was fixed thats why he is the fountan of living water coz nothing in this world can fill it but him. The Lord is the greatest also witches attacked with all kinds of things but didn succeeded.
As someone who’s been bullied for 8 years for being “weird” this song speaks volumes, I’m 18 now and I’m not bullied anymore but my teenage years were wasted on wondering what was wrong with me, on why I wasn’t good enough. This song is very relatable
I have been there so I know exactly what you mean I was bullied 7 years straight which made me loose all basic emotions for months and I had to learn to feel them again which took years. This said know that you are not alone there are always people like you that will keep you up when all seems down😁
@@nasatheyeeterofbabies6693 thank you and yes I’m aware of this, I’ve only recently started to be more okay with myself and I’ve got a few friends, a big thing that really helped me accept myself was when I got diagnosed with autism, it has made my life so much easier to finally be able to understand things that I used to not know about myself. I’m healing slowly but surely ☺️
I feel for you man. I spent my education getting shit from people. Life is hard. I'm also 18 now man. And I know I am doing better than those wo bullied me and it is satisfying
@@DanTheBuska Yeah same those people that broke me all those years ago are now either in debt or doing drugs plus im kinda happy that I was able to take a bullet for the others sake
Ive been bullied in my life alot that theres times when i was in school that it came close where i felt like having to shoot up the school to take care of my bullies i even had to come to school with weapons thats how bad it was for me it kills me inside for what these few bullies did to me cause one of them won the stanley cup with tampa two yrs in a row then just signed a huge contract with the canucks that is why i hate that hockey team and im hated by alot because i dont like the canucks even know i live in bc and am hated because i cant wear a mask due to major problems due to bullying from ptsd that has been caused to me they were lucky i didnt do anything like that shooting up the school even know they should of
As the years go by, I feel this more and more. Its been getting a bit better lately, but it still hurts. Thank you for this beautiful song.
Thanks for listening 💜
I was adopted 2 months before my second birthday by a mentally abusive family. 40+ years later still working on finding myself and my purpose in this world. Thank you for helping me through your music
Keep fighting 🫶 you are not alone
❤
It's beautiful when artists let pain be their muse . Many people think that sadness shouldn't get much attention , that you're strong only if you deal with it silently . Thanks to Citizen Soldier i feel less alone .
I’ve always told myself “the strong identify, feel, and understand their emotions” Because if you can’t identify them, you can snap at someone you love and not realize it. If you don’t feel them, you’re doomed to repeat harm. And if you don’t understand them, someone can manipulate you easier.
Because 9/10, your feelings of “sadness” or “anger” is actually something else entirely (you can feel “sad” or “angry" when your friends leave you out, but you’re more “hurt” that they didn’t want to play/hang out for one example).
No one else seemed to understand that though.
Artists are so important for the populace's MH, because they understand. They've been tormented, and they have this gift of expression that we as an audience can connect to. It's a gift to be able for us to connect to them too; so they know they're loved and appreciated! A beautiful relationship.
Loved this song. Made me cry though. Especially the line that says " just an afterthought that no one cares to understand. Wish I could see it in myself why I'm impossible to love why I'm not enough." Have felt this way since my dad walked out when I was 5 (I'm 45 now). Been abandoned and replaced so many times that these thought have been constant throughout my life. And just when I think I'm getting a handle on them I get 'reminded' somehow that im never enough. This song really hit me hard. But it's a great song as always. Well done guys.
Thanks Mary 💜
@Jose F03 I KNOW RIGHT, all of Citizen Soldier’s songs are relatable but “I’m not okay” and this new one (really sorry, I kind of didn’t look at the name before pressing on it) is definitely my favourite ones, no offence to Citizen Soldier, all of their songs are indescribably amazing and relatable, really sorry if that didn’t make sense, also sorry if that was offensive
@Jose F03 thank you for saying that, also thank you for replying, I never actually thought that anyone would reply so thank you, really sorry if that didn’t make sense, also sorry if that was offensive
@Jose F03 I’ve heard three of them but I’ve never heard of hallelujah, am I a bad fan for not knowing that song, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if that was offensive
@Jose F03 thank you for saying that🙂, I’m always scared I’m saying the wrong thing
Tonight I was feeling exactly like this. I got into a fight with my best friend because I told them I felt like a stepping stone in everyone's life. They went to bed angry at me and now I don't know if they're my friend anymore. They're the only person I could confide in and I don't want to lose them but I fear I pushed them away with the thoughts in my mind. This song is word for word how I feel and I can't stop listening to it. Thank you Citizen Soldier for yet another amazing song. 💜
Stay strong Jeremy 💜 You're not alone
I don't know what your relationship with your friend looks like or what you said, but I hope that they don't leave you because you spoke your mind about your fears. Friends should understand what their friends are worried about. I dearly hope that everything's going well now.
And just so you know, you don't deserve to be a stepping stone in people's lives! You are your own beautiful person of infinite worth, and sometimes people don't see that. I hope that you can find many people who love you unconditionally
Miriam Thank you so much for your kind words. We are currently not talking to each other but according to one of our mutual friends, they're wanting that to change soon. I try my hardest to not feel like a stepping stone in people's lives but some days are harder to fight than others.
Again thank you so much for the kind words, and I will definitely take them to heart. 💜
@@jeremybrack8836 I'm glad that I could help! I'm also happy to hear that things are going better now ^^ looking forward to when you and your friend can talk to each other again!
I feel like this song is talking about my feelings because been feeling low…I cry because this song explain about how people actually feels and how I feel…….I love the song… I almost forgot…. Whoever did the animation they did a great job on doing it I love it so much…💜💜💜
Appreciate you Mary 💜 You're not alone
Indeed. You aren't alone
You're never alone 💜
"I open up i get replaced like who i am is a mistake"
Yeah that hit me so hard thanks for another amazing song this makes me feel not alone much love Citizen Soldier 🙇♂️🙏
I feel this way with my relationships. I am friends with someone for a while but if I start getting the feeling of wanting more they walk away
I tried to end my life in 2001 when I was 10. Thank you for being an inspiration to me. I start my schooling this year to become a therapist like you Jake. I want to help people not feel as alone as I felt
"Wish I could see in myself"
"Why I'm impossible to love
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"Why I'm not enough"
- this... this is too spot on. I don't know what to say. This song hits right where it hurts the most. Thank you 🙏
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It's amazing how just connecting to songs like this can help people. Just an acknowledgement that you're not the only one going through these thoughts is a comfort.
Agree 100% Nathan 💜
"What good's survival? When everything feels final?"
Oof. That hit a nerve. As someone that struggles with depression mostly due to her Fibromyalgia, which makes anyone's life a living Hell by itself, this song makes me feel a lot less alone. Keep doing what you do.
This hits hard…hard as hell.
Imagine…seen so much people in the street, every single face..hides something, pain, suffering, depression, etc. And find this song and feel that..relieve that someone understands your pain and suffering in some way.
This is exactly how I feel. In primary I had no friends and was just alone all the time. people pretended to be my friend and care even though I knew they don't. Now I'm in highschool and I'm getting constantly mocked and bullied for something I like. This song is literally the same words going on in my head. I do have suicidal thoughts and my family doesnt know. My mum will just say "You don't have depression." She doesnt know what I'm feeling. I feel worthless and a burden all the time. All the time I think: Would anyone care about me if they knew what was going on in my head? Would anyone notice if I just disappeared tomorrow? I only have 6 friends and 9 online friends. But music is my top number 1 friend. Its just comforting. I was introduced to your music with the song Would Anyone Care. Your music is basically my life. Thank you. Thank you so much. I feel alone all the time, even when I'm not. My mood has changed from happy to just a lonely soul trying to find their way back home. Thank you Citizen Soldier for your hard work. Thank you.
I know what I'm listening to for the next 24h. This song feels so tender and fragile, perfectly captures the emotion of being alone. I love it so much. Thank you for all you guys do!
Glad to hear that 💜
I won't lie. Tonight I happened to be just sitting here awake and this song just gets uploaded. Tears fill my eyes just watching this video and listening to the lyrics. What pains me is not only knowing someone else is feeling the same pain as so many of us, but knowing one of the people in this beautiful band had these feelings to have written these powerful lyrics. Please don't forget to keep your heads up. Everyone from the band to the souls listening to this beautiful song. Remember we all have bad times, but there is always a light coming your way, to guide you through the darkness.
You're not alone Allie 💜
Every song you guys write is just so amazing!!!
Glad to hear that Tyler 💜
This song is how i feel all the time. Some days are a little better than other.
On my teens I went through a depression, cause I decided to hate myself, as a consequence of the bullying I was going through. That's why I must thank you guys: your songs are able to save our broken hearts, cause we feel understood. 😞👍
It breaks my heart how many people can relate to this masterpiece
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"I've been running on this lonely road, but no matter where I go I'm never home" its funny how some words can hit harder than a trained boxer... I love this song.
"Why I'm impossible to love, why I'm not enough." Put a knife in my heart. I hate that it's what makes me feel. The pain and choked up sensation. But hey. Means we're alive.
@@NyctoNel It was a good game. Worth a profile picture.
@Nel , My abusive ex messed me up and this is one of the many lyrics from this song i related to 💔😞
But a guy from work im hanging out with has given me slight hope that i can feel what home feels like again
Even though i struggle to fully open up and be me 🥺
@@deflepardfan09 I hope that you can find comfort and solace. The world might be awful, but some of us have lights in us that won't go out. And we're willing to share it with those who need it most.
@@NyctoNel thank you ❤
Honestly the amount of help I get by listening to Citizen Soldier’s music is phenomenal. These songs make me understand that I’m not alone in my struggles and that there is always someone there to help! I love you! 💜
“So many nights I lie awake wondering why nobody stays “hit super hard
You know just how to get everyone else's thoughts and feelings into music. Every song just hits the spot! Every thought, every feeling is in all of your music and it means so much just to hear your amazingly soothing voice say these words! Please never change. 🖤🖤
God's I'm crying, this song is so damn accurate to what I feel inside every day. I have opened up to people genuinely, sincerely about how I feel & they just leave me all alone even though I don't say anything that would make people hate me. I just tell them how much I want to be loved, to be wanted & cared for & I lose everyone I get close to like I did something wrong. Thank you for making this song, it makes me feel so much better.
Girl/boy, I don't know you, but I love you and sending virtual hugs 🤗🤗💖💖
It's like every one runs away and turn their back in a second
Just know you are loved. Forgetting that can lead you down a dark path
Yes, we all do! We all have our own stories to tell! We all felt so lost within! And it's sometimes so hard! Even tho you think u finally know it, but deep inside u still have your doubts about it. Cause right now, I have a mentall break down.. I don't know, how... but I am soo fcking confused, sometimes I just laugh, but behind my smile is a lot of pain going on. And sometimes I just wanna cry! But thanks to your songs I feel always so much better🤍
Thankyou for this amazing message and for always being there om om right time!🤍✨
We hear you friend 💜 You're not alone
@@CitizenSoldier Thank You🥺🤍✨
Listening to this song in particular has me in my thoughts of my current situation and it really does feel like that no matter how hard you try it just doesn't feel like it's enough but here I am still standing and I really do appreciate this song the most because not everyone knows what road your on till they have experienced what you have gone through
Appreciate those words Andrew 💜
"I open up i get replaced" you don't know how true that is
The most heart breaking moment is when you realize your entire existence could relate to a song. Like some people say I’m strong, I have a heart of gold, a caring soul, always smiling and well put together.. it’s because I’ve fought every battle alone, depression does convince me it’s better to give up but being a military brat I just keep pushing forward and with every step it seems I can hardly breathe I’m so tired I’m bound to collapse insomnia, crying is weakness so I cry alone. I just smile in front of people is cause it’s easier then draining what little energy I have and I have a heart of “gold” with a caring soul is cause I know what it means to go to bed wishing to never wake and fighting what feels like an impossible fight alone.
You just wrote how i feel every day. Thank you. Are you doing okay?
"there is nothing quite like this abuse, of feeling that I have no use"
I was only useful to others as long as they could use me. The moment I was no longer useful, I got tossed like like I didn't exist. So now even the most minor of mistakes makes me feel that my usefulness is gone, that I'm going to get replaced and tossed aside again.
We hear you 💜
I hope that you'll always know that you aren't useless, and I'm very sorry that the people in your life keep being selfish. Its unfortunately very human for people to think about themselves and hurt others. But, there are people out there who won't just use you. I hope you find them
"I've been running on this lonely road, but no matter where I go, I'm never home." 😭😭😭💖💖💖
That's very sad and I love it and this song so much!! 😍😍😍
Congratulations on yet another outstandingly well-written song tonight, Citizen Soldier! 💜💜💜
Now I want to sing it...! 😊💖
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@Sarafina Summers Same! My earbuds suck, so I'm getting better ones! 😁💖
I’ve really gotten into your music in the past year, and I really like the direction you’re taking with new songs. Y’all continue to improve with every new song, so keep it up!
Appreciate the feedback Logan 💜
WOW.. If I could have a Ghost writer for the story of my life... You are the writer.. Your music blows me away. THANK YOU
I'm fighting against depression and anxiety since 2018. Your songs are like a mirror where I see myself. Everything you sing I feel.
But please, all the people who are like this: DON'T STOP FIGHTING.
DON'T SURRENDER
Even you know you will fall again, STAND UP.
For me life is a cruel game where simply I don't know how to play. I see how people make big progress and I'm at the beginning. Stucked. Waiting a day for the night and a night for the day. Feeling nothing for me has sense anymore.
But I'm still here.
I've been going through a rough patch with work and school lately and the lyrics of this song really hit me close to home because it expressed the loneliness I have been feeling recently almost to a tee. Hearing this music makes me feel less alone and at least helps me acknowledge that I am not the only person going through this in life. Thank you for this!
Stay strong friend 💜 Glad the music helps
This song reminds me of someone I was introduced only a handful of months ago. She's a good person, but very troubled and locked in her own mind and past trauma, and honestly, all I can think of, is how I can help her see that she is worth being cared about, and that she's not always alone, or always going to be betrayed and hurt by the people she opens up to. I shared this song with her while listening to it, because hopefully something as profound as your music can reach her and help her see more value in herself.
Love the music as always. So heartfelt and sincere, and it shows from the support and love both given and received. Keep up the great work guys =)
Thanks for sharing Daryl 💜
Your friend reminds me of myself because I do have a hard time opening due to someone shutting my feelings of depression down and at the time my youngest sister was going through cancer treatment and of course the "friend" is like oh you're overreacting be a big girl and deal with it. Like huh? My sister was dying and that's what you think I should do. After that I tend to lie about how I feel to people face to face but online I can open up better. But yeah I went on a bit of a tangent sorry about that I tend to do that a lot.
@@ARC-0606 It's no worries =) I'm glad you have some medium in which you can open up and still feel safe and secure in yourself, even if there is some kind of anonymity associated with it, it is still a form of coping, and it's helped me a lot too. =)
@Daryl whittle
plus another medium is my poetry everyone says my poetry is god-tier but I don't think so then again I'm very insecure about it because it's my outlook like someone's getting a look into my soul
as a former foster kid, this hits hard. much love to everyone who is feeling this way- one day you'll find a home
Don't tell yourself that you are not enough or that you cannot face what comes to you. Always try. Even if you fail. You will succeed one day. Remember that everything is impossible until someone does it. You have everything you need to do that. You are enough. Your past does not define who you are, but your present determines your future. Live your life and do not give in to pain. God does not give you something that you cannot face. You just have to find the right way to start to get the satisfactory end. God bless you all
I feel this way when I let people near and then they find out about my mental health battles with bipolar spectrum disorder. No one I've met (besides my psychiatrist) knows how to handle it and they all end up walking away, disappearing, like being diagnosed with bipolar is committing a major crime. Thank you for your songs which help me vent and release. Blessings, Dot
Sorry for what you are going through … but be strong
I’m sorry you felt that. I myself had someone close to me who was bipolar and I ended up not judging and let them stay close to me. They ended up being one of the most hurtful people in my life at the time and absolutely wrecked me and made me feel like trash.
I don’t think bipolar people are bad, but perhaps the people who turned away from you had bad experiences from bipolar people. I know I did. That person caused me tons of pain.
Thank you for always saying out loud the feelings I can't describe. When I feel numb with all emotions, your songs pull me out like someone hugs me and says 'i am here. I know your pain. I know you've been hurt. I know it's selfish, But please stay alive.'
Maybe you guys are soldiers from God to help people who are at war with Mental Health to go through it. Thank you so much Citizen Soldier. :)
Much love to you 💜
Thanks for the help throughout the hard times
Glad our music helps 💜
@@CitizenSoldier Legends!
"I've been running on this lonely road, but no matter where I go, I'm never home" hits hard. Thanks for another masterpiece, Citizen Soldier
It's been almost 8 months that I lost my mom,I don't get any support from my dad or from my relatives. I am by my own dealing with panic attack,anixety etc. feels like I'll lose this fight but whenever I listen to these beautiful songs,I don't feel alone. Feels like,you guys read my mind and feeling what I feel these days... it's a shame that,dad isn't supporting me he's busy with his new "wife" and I am here trying to survive for my mom. Believe me,if you guys weren't here I would be already dead. Thanks for these beautiful songs... all of them makes me feel like I am not alone and I can keep going on.
I never feel I'm home anywhere. I'm always replaced. this is a great song.
This song gets me more than my own friends and family does I love y’all!!!!
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"there's nothing quite like this abuse of feeling like I have no use" was the line that stood out to me for this song. You guys hit it home once again. Thank you for the beautiful music you provide, and being there for those who need it 💜
"No matter where I go, I'm never home"
Been feeling this for awhile. Got a place to go back but felt like you're homeless.
I got introduced to Citizen Soldier through the song Would anyone care? Ever since then I've loved every single one of their songs. This song hits different every time I listen to it
I should be happy, should'nt I ?
I have an open family, never been abused, can eat as much I need. My parents love me, I even had a school scolarship !
Why can't I just be as happy as I should ??
Why can't I just stop hating myself as much that I'd like to end my life ? Why can't I just clean up the mess that is there in my head every day ??
Why can't I just stop exist...?
"I've been running on this lonely road but no matter where I go I'm never home" is the line that speaks to me the most. Every song you guys record, speaks to the hearts of your fans and our hearts listen ❤️
This song definitely hits differently when you haven't been okay for a long time. I always felt like a dumping ground for people to tell me their issues, but when it came to mine, they'd leave. I hope everyone who reads this is doing well, and is now in a good state of mind.
Somehow, your songs always speak to us folks down here in the comments.
And for that, I feel the greatest gratitude--even if I can't show that on my face.
Much love to you Frederica 💜
I had the comment section open for about a half hour before I could actually get my fingers to write. This song resonated a bit too much with how my entire family and all but 2 of my friends growing up until now.
The main lyric that hit the most was "There's nothing quite like this abuse, of feeling like I have no use." I am diagnosed with autism (since 3) and had a dad who made it a point to tell me I was worthless unless I could outperform everybody else combined. My mother and her family supported it until I was 16 and needed to go to therapy after getting talked away from turning out the light.
Here I am at 21 and I've used your songs to explain how I've felt at certain points of my life because they're so accurate. I hope you keep up this amazing music for those who need to hear these words and need these songs in order to realize they're not alone.
Thank you
"So many nights I lie awake wondering why nobody stays. I'm just a hand me down." was the part that related to me the most, because whenever someone knows what I'm going through eventually leaves me.
As a sufferer of D.I.D. this song really helps....not knowing who you are, not knowing what's real anymore and blacking out. Making friendships and relationships nigh on impossible.
Lyric
Have you ever felt so lost within?
Like you don't even belong in your own skin
Like you're the broken puzzle piece
That doesn't fit in anywhere
'Cause no-one cares
So many nights I lie awake
Wondering why nobody stays
I'm just a hand me down
I'm just a hand me down
I open up, I get replaced
Like who I am is a mistake
I'm just a hand me down
I'm just a hand me down
I've been running on this lonely road
But no matter where I go
I'm never home
Some days I'd rather be anyone but who I am
Just an afterthought that no-one cares to understand
Wish I could see it in myself
Why I'm impossible to love
Why I'm not enough
So many nights I lie awake
Wondering why nobody stays
I'm just a hand me down
I'm just a hand me down
I open up, I get replaced
Like who I am is a mistake
I'm just a hand me down
I'm just a hand me down
I've been running on this lonely road
But no matter where I go
Do I choose denial?
Embrace this downward spiral?
It gets so hard to face the truth
When your reality's a noose
What good's survival
When everything feels final?
There's nothing quite like this abuse
Of feeling like I have no use
Stuck in a life no-one would choose
So many nights I lie awake
Wondering why nobody stays
I'm just a hand me down
I'm just a hand me down
I open up, I get replaced
Like who I am is a mistake
I'm just a hand me down
I'm just a hand me down
I've been running on this lonely road
But no matter where I go
I'm never home
This is phenomenal!! I love the lyrics, the message, just everything about this song!! I can’t wait to see what your creative brain comes up with next!!
Appreciate that Kindra 💜 More music on the way
this song is all me, and what I feel all the time, Listen too it all night all the time as it makes me feel like me and happy
Holy shit. I've waited 37 years to find my song. "I'm just a hand me down." spoke to my being adopted. I've been silently screaming for help but even my closest friends and family like/love my posts. Please know how to help yourself when there's no one else. You matter!!!
This song hits very close to home. The lyrics, the calm, somber feeling elicited by the rhythm. It is truly amazing. It is sad to see how many people relate to this, but also comforting to know we're not alone in these feelings. Thank you Citizen Soldier
Every word, every line, rings true inside me.
"Do I choose denial? Embrace this downward spiral?" Hit especially hard.
As always, absolutely incredible work. I never miss a chance to spread these songs to those around me, in the hopes that I may just help someone else.
Thank you for the incredible song, I know I'll be listening to it on repeat for a while!
"no matter where I go I'm never home" hit hard.. your songs always makes me remember I'm not alone, thankyou for another beautiful song 🤍✨
"why im impossible to love, why im not enough"....that hits hard. The lyrics are saying what im thinking... "im just a hand me down"!
I found you guys via TikTok and I’m so glad, otherwise I could have gone forever without discovering you. Tiktok gave me some great previews of songs and I loved them.
Listening to the full songs on here and Spotify are another level and they blow me away, whether they are the softer songs or the heavier ones. My struggles may not be the worst but they are hard and your songs make me tear up because it’s like you guys understand or they help me unleash the pent up frustration by allowing me to just let out a scream.
Thank you guys, you are absolutely incredible.
Love listening to the songs by you guys theyve helped me so much and resonate with me massively like they do with so many people here.
I didnt find you guys until a couple of months ago when i needed it the most, your song would anyone care is basically the thoughts that go in my head often, my favourite lyric from this song though ( hand me down ) is "like youre the broken puzzle piece that doesnt fit in anywhere, cause no one cares" as i feel i dont fit in anywhere at all and never have fitted in anywhere my whole life
Glad you found us Claire 💜
Claire I feel like I'm in the same boat as yourself. What song that got me into Citizen Solder was would anyone care because I want sure if anyone actually would. At the end I know two people at least would but then with I hear "hand me down" I knew this song came into my life for a reason. The lyrics "Wish I could see it in myself. Why I'm impossible to love? Why I'm not enough?" resonate with me the most unfortunately for the wrong reasons. I'm sure you'll find that you fit in somewhere someday. Take care Claire.
Oh my god this song is really piercing through my heart! Especially the lyrics part at the start 'Have you ever felt lost within? Like you don't belong in your own skin' really resonates with me. I've felt like this almost my whole life and no matter to whom I opened up to, telling them I felt this way... no one understood. They said I'm not normal and I shouldn't feel like this. I think it's now almost two years ago that I found you guys and started listening to your songs. They comforted me when I felt bad and made me feel less weird, they gave me the strength to continue fighting and helped me through some really bad depressive phases and they gave me hope. One year ago I found some amazing friends that treat me like I'm a precious gem and genuinely care about me. I'm so grateful that you guys make this kind of songs and that you help people like me to get better when there is no one else that does. Your songs gave me enough courage and hope to continue approaching people and to fight my fears instead of letting them take control of me. Thanks so much, with your help I was able to make take a few steps forward and trough that I was able to meet my precious friends ❤ please continue making your amazing music, I love you guys ❤
Thanks for sharing friend 💜 Appreciate you
Another masterpiece that hits and says the words of my heart💔🖤
Glad it helps Elle 💜
"so many night I lie awake, wondering why nobody stays" This one specific line hits hard.
The song is really good though (citizen solider never disappoints)
I sobbed listening to this...this is how I felt for so damn long.
I seriously love this song- I put it on whenever I don't feel the greatest about myself. It always gets me to sing along, somewhat dance. It just opens my soul and draws out the emotions I have bottled up. Definitely my favorite band, you guys help me feel less alone and actually cared for. Love you guys, keep making amazing music💕💕💕
Liked and haven't even finished it yet! You guys are incredible!!! ❤💜❤ sending smiles and love to any one who feels like this. 💜💜💜
Glad to hear that 💜
Listen to this music at 3:30am because my thoughts dont let me steep .... the song fits very well again.
Thx again to Citizen soldier for a new masterpiece
"like who I am is a mistake." As an autistic person, this line hit home. I only found out that I was autistic a couple of years ago. People already thought I was odd. I thought having an explanation would help people understand, so I didn't hold back from telling them about being autistic. Now I really am treated like a mistake, like I don't belong in the human race. Friends bailed on me and some even down right shun me. I am a hand me down, something to unload on someone else because I'm not wanted. This is the theme song for my life. Thank Citizen Soldier. Your songs have helped me to hang on.
Hey I have autism too. And your not a mistake and you are wanted 🥺 just because some people can't see you as a person or being human doesn't mean you don't belong or don't deserve to be here. Your an amazing person and you have alot of potential in life and you have alot ahead of you learn from the bad grow from it and stay the opposite of how people treat you and embrace the good and love the good and live the good and be the change you want to see in this world. You have a purpose and I'm really glad your here in the world this world needs you 🥺🥰💎💟🤗
@@meadowfawn937 thank you. I know I'm not a mistake. But when that's how I get treated all the time, it does wear on me. I know it's because of the double empathy problem. People have no idea how wrong they are about me or how much they hurt me with their constant misinterpretation of me. Most of my problems in life come from people thinking they know me when they really don't. And I'm not even talking about autistic masking. People's theory of mind is the problem. It's what causes them to misinterpret my words and actions, assigning bad motives and intent. So for example, my attempts to be helpful might be seen as manipulative or insulting. So everything I do becomes a mistake. When no one can recognize the good in me, what's the point? People don't want anything to do with me. And they can't recognize the problems I face because of their inability to empathize. This song portrays my life pretty well. But I do appreciate your kind words. It's hard not to be cynical. Thank you for a dose of optimism.
You guys are criminally underrated, you save lives with your lyrics. You unite people from all over the world. From the bottom of my heart, thank you Citizen Soldier!
"I open up I get replaced like who I am is a mistake" This song goes through my heart. I felt like a mistake my whole youth, cause people in my school excluded me. They said to me that what I say has no sense. Now I have really good friends fortunally and I'm really happy that this horrible time is over. Thank you for this amazing song ^^
Oh wow, being part of a DID system (multiple personalities)... those opening lines... And looking at our trauma... wow... this song...
You guys are amazing. Thank you so much for all you do with these songs...
Same
Sometimes I wish that my existence was a mistake.
Everywhere I go, I'm just a substitute for someone else, and there are so many alternatives for me.
I spend many sleepless nights and go about my work as if it were inertia.
I try to keep my emotions in check so that I won't be told, "I don't need you anymore".
Who needs me?
I don't have a safe place for my heart to go.
But ...... maybe other people besides me are having the same lonely night?
We hear you 💜
Citizen Soldier never let's me down. They are so precious people in real I watch their lives sometimes. They are talented and helped me more than most of the people. I relate most of the songs they help me to cope. This is what a real artists do. They aren't just musicians they are artists. My favorite musicians. Thank you for your songs, I'll be a fan forever. ❤️
This is probably the one song out of millions and millions that actually hit the nail on the head. I do exactly everything in this song. I think every day and night, why am I not good enough or think about being someone else. Thank you for all your songs you guys make and thank you for helping everyone get through their hard times! You’re my favorite like no one else
the lyrics "like who I am is a mistake" , "no matter where I go, I'm never home" and "some days I'd rather be anyone than who I am" carry a different kind of weight as a lgbtq+ teen in an unsupported environment. I love how much yalls music is up for interpretation. Those that can relate all have their different circumstances and reasons but regardless they find comfort in knowing someone actually knows them.
Yooo I've waited for this like as soon as it dropped
Thanks for listening 💜
This is absolutely amazing! Can’t stop listening to this song since midnight. You’re amazing. 💜
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To follow the analogy, I just wanted to give a small reminder. There are those of us who only shop in second hand stores.
It took me until I was 18 to find barely 2 such people. I found the 3rd at the age of 29... and precisely 3 others since. I'm 38 now, and I still relate to parts of this song. But the best of the hand me downs found me, dusted me off, and I now have the best, albeit small, support system.
I am still looking for a place that feels like home, but I have FINALLY found the people that feel like home. Don't give up... even when it seems we are as rare of unicorns, we do exist. ♡
“What goods survival when everything feels final?”
It’s like no matter what I do this feeling of emptiness won’t go away. And what’s the point of survival if living will always feel like this?
I don't know if anyone will see this or reply. But that's fine if no one does, I just wanted to thank you Citizen Soldier. I'm sure I'm not the only one you've guys have helped through some difficult times. Your music has helped me from doing things a lot and I've related to a lot of the lyrics. But anyway thank you guys, I recently got the "Your Story isn't over" shirt and I love it so much you've guys have saved so many people. Much love to all of you guys. 💜
Also I did covers on Bedroom Ceiling and Hand Me Down recently while recovering from covid so if anyone wants to check it out that'd be nice. :)
Another song that reaches out to me, my brother says my music is depressing but I like to be understood, thanks for the song 😊👍
A masterpiece, as usual! Your songs are always so heartwrenching and beautiful.
I also like this video a lot
"Like you're the broken puzzle piece that doesn't fit in anywhere cause no one cares."
This resonates so much with me. As someone who lives with autism as well as ADHD/Bipolar I really struggle with finding where I belong in society. I'm considered to be "high functioning" so a lot of my struggles are overlooked and invalidated even by my own family on a regular basis. It feels like I'm a burden to people a lot of times and so many of your songs resonate with me. "Just be happy", "buried alive", "always december", all things that describe my struggles and how I feel on a regular basis. Words I could never explain and have my family even begin to understand without just putting me away thinking a psych ward will just "fix" me.
While I would never wish these struggles on anyone else, your songs help me to not feel so alone. I'm glad someone is able to put it into words about the invisible demons that exist in which others who don't experience them can't or refuse to see and be a voice for those who don't have the strength or support to speak up. Too many suffer from things that go unnoticed and I thank you for being a voice.
It got published when I was in school. Almost started crying there when I had the time to listen to it. I've been so low the last few weeks and this song just spoke out what I wasn't able to.
Thank you guys again.
Whoever reads this. You are amazing. Remember that💜