7 Weeks without Nan...

7 Weeks without Nan...
There’s not a moment that goes by my Nan isn’t on my mind, my heart breaks, she’s everything to me, I struggle to sleep, I pray for God to hear me, and I believe he does but all I wish for is Nan to be by myside once more, to be healed and for my Nan to go back to how she once was, and if not with me but to be with the rest of our family in heaven. It actually, physically hurts in my chest where I miss my Nan so much, I truly see darkness all around without her, like the light has been snatched from my life. I see no way forward right now. I don’t won’t to move forward; I am so thankful for my Mum, my Nan’s daughter who’s the only reason life is bearable right now. She’s also broken from the loss of her Mum. My Mum and Nan are deeply rooted with a bond so strong yes Mother and Daughter but also as like sisters, best friends, a bond so magical and precious it was a blessing to even watch them natter, laugh and put the world to rights, to even be in their company. I am so very proud of them both, blessings from God to this life for me I'm sure. I see my Mum’s pain and it breaks me, I miss my Nan so much and all around me this world feels as though it’s lost it’s glory, it’s warmth and it’s meaning. Life is so tough right now, it stands still. All I feel is loss and I wish my Nan never had to go, but I know that’s selfish of me and it was her time to fly, her time to take the next step in this life. Sometimes I even wish I had walked with her. For now, this life has thrown me into complete stillness as it seems, into pitch black of the darkest skies and the only light to guide me is my Mum. I hope we find the way someday…
I miss you so much Nan. God bless you Nanny. I love you forever and always xxx

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This has nothing to do with this but I've died my hair red

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Hello Lacie, I know you have and it looks amazing bless you. Nanny Gwen would be smiling x