"Binge watching sermons and podcast having knowledge from another person's relationship and not building a relationship with God"..this got me cause I fall in that trap alot ...Lord help me
Sister or brother, you are in a relationship with God. That you are not conscious of it it's something else. Who do you think put those thoughts in your head? Just keep going and sooner than later you will have a conscious relationship with the Lord that's going to be wonderful and amazing and you will never ever want to let go. It happened to me and it's wonderful, I literally have no words to express my gratitude and sense of love and respect for our Lord and Savior.
That’s amazing. Do you know her full name? Its never mentioned in the video cause they only mention her first name. It’s also not written in the description.
I quit for 7 months an a bunch of stress hit me an I’m struggling again. Lord please release me from this addiction an overwhelming sadness in my heart.
Brother you can definitely be freed. I want to pray for you. Giving God all the Glory. The Lord has freed me from that so I know and believe you can. God bless you and stay strong. Keep fighting. Lust isn’t easy to deal with or yearning for love. I learned the only Love that ever satiated me was from Jesus. Glory be to God. Again I pray for you and all those who need deliverance. God bless you 🙏🏿💜. I need a savior
@BAD BEATS I have accountability, I just moved to a whole new country alone where I'm by the beach (where I'm happiest an most emotionally regulated) an I finally have my own place where I can get rest without all the stressors of not having your own space an having to absorb all the toxic energies of other people while I’m hanging on by a thread. An because I’m by the ocean an regulated an can rest I can tackle my addictions an stressors. I am currently in a court battle with my narcissistic witchcraft using child's mother who does every thing she possibly can to get me to lose my mind just because she can’t manipulate me into a low vibrational life with her, an has gone as far as expressing through text she “wishes I would die”. I am trying to quit Goodys powder (over the counter pain killers) I took everyday multiple times a day for years (which have added to my immense stomach pain), as well as quitting playing video games every day all day, an a food addiction, all things I used to cope an survive. Not only that even though I know I have to take this journey alone I miss my son, I miss my friends an family an my body is in tons of pain specially the crushed nerves in my spine in multiple places through a life of trauma including childhood abuse an Iraq war as an Army Infantry Mortarman. So I've regressed back into my porn addiction a little an I’m not going to be to hard on myself because for one God has told me not to because he understands what kinda fire I’m in right now an he will pull me out, two i know imma gonna come out where I need to be while going through so many overwhelming an uncomfortable changes because God is merciful, gracious, an faithful. An three it’s scientifically proven that quitting addictions can cause people to regress back into other addictions while they learn to balance out again.
@@DanielRichardKiy God will pull me out the fire thanks for the comment brother. Read my prior post above this to get a better understanding of my situation God bless you.
@@DanielRichardKiy I believe in you. I'm proud of you. You are a beautiful somebody. You are worthy, enough an abundant. God is gracious a merciful. Keep up the good fight. ✊🏼
As a young follower of Christ, I found myself being addicted to Porn and Masturbation myself. When I was young I got sexually assaulted by my older brother, and that led on to me being stuck onto that sin for years. It got to the point where I didnt know where the sin was coming from, how i didn't control it and why i felt so dirty and shameful after doing it. it also got to the point where I started experimenting with girls, and even my cousins and that day foreward when I got sexually assaulted from my brother, it became a lifestyle. It chained onto my so bad that eventually my parents and sister knew. And that day on, it changed my whole perspective. I was touched, and glorified that day when I decided to get baptized. I then went through trials and tribulations, and now I have been clean for at least 3 months, I was called to do ministry, praying for people, preaching.. and now as a young follower I am now set free and the Devil doesn't have a hold on me no more. I am saved through Christ! Now no matter what we dealth with, just remember God will use our brokedness into something more beautiful which will Glorify HIS name! Amen...
It’s literally like I could’ve written your comment myself.. almost identical.. sexually abused as a child by more than one family member… by 3 at least.. all men.. and I grew up not being able to say no- not feeling the strength to say no even when I wasn’t interested.. I had a porn addiction and pushed this onto my friends.. I would even mess around sexually with my friends- girls and guys.. would sleep with men 10+ years older than me for most of my life so far.. wasn’t attracted to younger guys.. found myself watching girl on girl porn and watching it a lot.. So many other things.. I questioned if I was gay for many years.. sometimes I still do which makes me feel so awful
Always be in fervent prayer, and make sure Jesus' words are fresh in your mind. You can be reading or listening to the Gospel books in particular (Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John). That will keep you grounded and receptive to God's guidance. God be with you! Psalm 90:17 And let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon us, And establish the work of our hands for us; Yes, establish the work of our hands.
@@Kevin4M3 good morning my friend. I think to have the wisdom that Jesus is our saviour and that he died for you and me I can't say my life has been great since I was saved but I knoe that God is there with me now which is something that I never had prior to this. I've had some amazing moments being in God's presence, while reading the word. It can be quite scary at times, I find myself trying to control situations alot but when I am able to let go and remember that Jesus did it for us already it's a truly beautiful moment
@@marcclaydon857 amen to that, cause rn I’m struggling to know my purpose and I’ve prayed about and got frustrated and that made me backslide, like how do you move on when you feel like nothing is working
You always deserve it. Love life. God is life. Love yourself. Then you will see a change in your life. Life is a mirror. What you put out comes back to you.
@@maryazaelledevy Hello Mary sis I read your comment up there, me here struck in the hell I wanted to become good person but I failed so many time like Thomas Edison but this time I am different so can I get some inspiring words from you like I never been talked any girls since so many years, and Do girls also watch porn like we do?
@@franklucas3963 Yes girls do watch pornographie. My inspiring words for you: Satan will temp you to despair, he won't stop. Remember that whenever you are praying for forgiveness, he will be the first one to remind you of your sin and make you feel guilty. You would never listen to someone who puts you in danger, leaves you there and makes you feel guilty about it. If you can remember these words, it will help you to always chose God over temporary pleasure.
"Jesus came and took me out of the box, looked me in the face and said: 'You are not alone, you were never alone, and you will never be alone'." How true that is... You've always been there... Even when I didn't want you to be there. Your faithfulness and love have always covered me.
Please pray for me. I pray every day for strength. I been a porn addict since I was 11 years old and now I'm 38. And I got tired of feeling dirty, mad and hate towards myself after watching porn. I was spending more and more time watching porn then spending it with my family. It was consuming my life. I prayed a repented all my anger, sadness, hated, and for gave those who hurt me as a kid, even though they didn't ask me for forgiveness. Thank you for making this video. And i will pray for you and everyone who is battling this addiction! May God Bless you all!
I believe in you. I’m proud of you. You are a beautiful somebody. You are worthy, enough an abundant. God is gracious an merciful. Keep up the good fight. ✊🏼
@@GrayMattr Thank you very for your words of encouragement! I'm also battling with my addiction to alcohol, and marijuana! I been clean for a month and two weeks. It hard to break my habits that i would do every day. I seaked out counseling and it has helped out tremendously! I have a sponsor that helped me a lot to. I know change takes time and I'm just starting my journey. But I know i will be clean from every addiction with God's help and love! May you have a wonderful and Blessed day!
May the lord bless you and help you get delivered from that. One thing I can say is if you challenge yourself not to watch it and see where you can put it towards something productive like talking to God or even whatever God has blessed you with using that to Glorify Him. It’s easier said than done but I know with God it’s possible. Glory be to God and keep on fighting. 🙏🏿💜
I can relate to this testimony. I confess that I've been lusting after male celebrities, addicted to porn and sex songs, and masturbating. It was killing me to the point of feeling shameful. So I turned to God to seek healing because I don't want my sexual sins to not only destroy my faith, but also affect my relationships.
hmm be honest what p0rn got that men don't? I just want an honest answer. Why do women and men suffer with these burdens when they could just marry and satisfy each-other?
@@phillipbenoit5179 Porn is very painful, but it can be triggered by abuse. I don't know how, but it happened to me. I was molested by a family friend when I was around eight, which triggered a lot of masturbating and watching sexual stuff. It was really painful. God knows that sexual stuff is painful. So, you need to save anything intimate for someone you love after you're married.
Sexual sin is Satan's easy way to destroy our lives. I know with my dopamine shortage due to adhd- stress, anxiety and fear would bring me down- only dopamine would straighten my mind. Satan used that against me, and tried to destroy my life. But God woke me up to it. Theres no reason to lust, and I no longer act like an animal and then feel shame. Always repent imediately- don't fool yourself about God. Get right straight away no matter what. I'm Jake in Australia & I drifted backwards out of Heaven from between two huge Angels into a black void and spent around 45 minutes in there. (Hear me about this eternal black void!) It starts here. I found myself standing on a ledge, as wide as a footpath or sidewalk. Behind me was a pitch dark abyss in all directions- I twisted around and looked behind me down into the black darkness and was afraid to fall off the ledge. I looked outward and my eyes could not perceive what I was looking at because it is a physical place, with nothing in it. In front of me to my left and right, were two huge Angels- they were about 10 foot tall, and very solid build- (if they were in your house their heads would be through the inner ceiling.) I was closest to the one on my left- and his calf muscle alone was up to my hip. He had curly hair. They did not talk to me, and were not aggressive but I could sense everything/ didnt need to talk. They did have a stance as though they were guarding. They each were standing in front of a large pillar, facing into Heaven. I didn't see any gates. I did not know it was Heaven I was viewing at first- but I felt this amazing contentment & peace, because I was viewing a quaint township. In front of me was a street- no cars, but it did have a footpath along the side. Then there were these quaint double story houses like what you see in inner cities- terraced buildings/ town houses, with little front garden, front fence and a front gate. I could see two people greeting each other with big smiles and an embrace in an entrance doorway- we visit each other like friends in Heaven. The street went to my right, and became a little town centre- quite narrow but very inviting- as though we can hang out together there. Off to the left of that street, a street went up a steep hill- it had a large tree half way up on the right and next to that was some kind of large town hall style building. That street went up to a crest and from my view the crest silhouetted into a blue sky. I sensed that over that hill was adventure, wilderness as though we can day trip as we do here. So I was standing there smiling, and I thought to myself " this is all I've ever wanted" - the peaceful existence, the happiness with life. Just so relaxed and content And then I began sensing what others could feel there. People there are glad about being there for so many reasons. You can feel eternity there/ you sense time is headed toward eternity. I could sense time because of my flow of thoughts, i was exactly me with my memories, and I even had my body but it was a spiritual or heavenly body. I was me. I sensed people are so glad because Heaven is all there is- it's the only place where life is. People were also just so glad because it's a beautiful place, and life is amazing there. Most of all though, I could sense Gods presence there- you can feel Gods love very strongly there- as though it's the air we breath there. I could see there was a gentle breeze through the parkland. It was like a gorgeous spring morning. So I was standing there buzzing, wowed, just observing this amazing place, and realising it was Heaven. I was awestruck and ultra excited- It feels like you have always belonged there now you see it. I was not yet even thinking of anything except just amazement, I couldn't stop smiling. But then it occured to me- what if I'm not going to enter? What if I was not to be allowed in? At that exact time- that thought turned into a heavy weight on my conscience, and I knew I was infact being judged- and might not enter. So by now I was desperately attached to the love and peace infront of me, this amazing existence in Gods presence. I wanted to enter and be there forever with those people, and those huge Angels. So as I wondered if I had lived a good enough life- or if I deserved to be in Heaven, deep down I really didn't know if I could enter. I could sense that by not entering I probably was going to drift backwards into the dark void. I noticed I was not actually standing on that ledge but floating 4 inches above it. We feel like we are standing in Heaven but we are floating just above the ground. It's an awesome feeling. I then slowly began drifting.. backwards at walking pace. Drifting backwards off that ledge, I could see under the ledge as I floated in the darkness- I could see the ledge now right in front of me was made of white light. The Angels stood guard exactly where they were, and that street and houses, and parkland, the light of the spring day warmth and fragrances, the township buzzing, Gods presence, all just started to drift away- at walking pace, I floated backwards into the darkest place- where there is nothing. Over 25 minutes- of my consciousness, Heaven became a small cube of colourful light. I was still not yet scared, because I was still looking at that cube of light, Heaven, and could still see the quaint township & trees. I was still BUZZING and smiling, from being in there for just 10 minutes. But the cube of light got smaller to a pin head dot of light, yet I still knew what was in there- Heaven, and an incredible life. Then it was gone. It was just me, and my thoughts... I floated there, thinking about what I had just experienced. I turned my attention to this dark place. It was so weird initially- floating in darkness alone, but you accept it initially, and just float there observing the thick blackness and thinking randomly. You can sense it's universal in size, this place of nothing. I then wanted to comfort myself from the immediate isolation and began to sing. I could only remember the lyrics to two full songs. And then singing felt intimidating because I suddenly realised that I could sense eternity, as I sang. So contrasted with eternity, it was actually really frightening to sing. I began to think about me, my life. My memories. I was bored of my memories in about 5 minutes, and quickly came back to the now, the dark void- where I could feel eternity. So I remembered me some more, so that I didn't have to think of eternity in darkness, but you run out of thoughts fast- because they are contrasted with eternity. So I was back in the now, in the void every time I tried to remember my life. There was no joy in it. You need new experiences to experience new joy. New gratitude, and so on. Before long, I started thinking about what might have been the memories I had which cost me my place in eternity with God. - those memories i had bought with my soul. I was focussed on my memories of sin- they were so stupid and meant nothing to me even here on earth, let alone in the eternal void. Stupid decisions- things I'd stolen, filthy pornography, basic trashy sins, had been what I had bought with my soul. I then was really upset with myself that I had been so pathetic to have chosen to not live a riteous life of any type- just continues gratification, like a pizza eating sloth, always chasing the next distraction from my thoughts. Well- in the void- you become your own Hell, because all you can remember, is the dumbass things you bought with your soul. It's all you can remember because you are angry at yourself. You don't find any peace thinking about the beautiful experiences, so I just found i was so sad about my poor choices/ now contrasted with eternity where there is no life. It's continuous consciousness there, no sleep, no death to look forward to, all you can do is think. No belongings. Nothing to even see. Nothing to hear. I could not pick up my guitar and play music. And then there is the most painful feeling I felt- being separated from God. Knowing what I had seen and felt in Heaven, and knowing I had just eternal me and barely any thoughts worth having. It was so so bad, because I was truely stuck there- and had this heavy dread, knowing it is eternal and im not going to see any more life. There are no words to describe all the things you feel, as well as the physical sensation of being in that terrifying place. Until you feel it for yourself, do not underestimate just how terrible it is to be in hell. I woke up with a loud shout at 2 am, next to my wife in bed. My heart was banging hard- bang bang bang bang, I was covered in sweat & I was rappid breathing, with that heart beat thumping so hard it was physically banging. My wife woke up startled at my shout. She asked what was wrong? and I told her I just dreamed I was in Hell. I tried to describe the fear I had just been in, and I could not talk but actually cried. I'm not a crier but I was a mess after that. I could not think of any words that made me feel better, when I described it. In the end, I just said it was " horrific ". About 6 months after this dream, I began searching about black voids. I found this video of a guy who died in a plane crash. Check out the exact word he uses to describe the black void!! It was real mate. It was so real. I have prayed for dreams ever since, and God has given me other incredible Heaven and Hell dreams that add more AMAZING perspective to what I saw. Please view this video to confirm the guys description of the void. God Bless mate, Jake in Australia. (The dream happened 10 years ago for me). Ps- Every thought you have, every decision you make now, every single action, becomes what you bought with your soul. Genuinely. You NEED Heaven, you want life, you want God. Do not missout. ua-cam.com/video/NhK4jwBmUX4/v-deo.html
I never knew that I was making Christianity my idol when I'm watching pastors and testimonies for my "devotion" instead of reading the word for myself. Wow, thank you for this.
🎀I can relate to you So much!! I remember when I was so addicted to porn I started doing it as a "job" , I was heavy into drinking and drugs....I rejected God All the time and made a mockery of Christians.... There was So many times people tried sharing the gospel with me and I rejected them time and time again, I had so much anger, so much darkness within me, I was a slave to the enemy and I didn't even know it, I thought I was living "free".... Long story short , it took me to be at my Lowest when I was more suicidal then ever before, I was crying out to my dad on the phone and he begged me to pray, I was angry at his response and hung up....moments letter I fell to my knees and was So desperate and cried out to God.....not even knowing if I was being heard or not.....SO much poured out of my spirit, I don't even remember half of what I said....all I know is after that moment, something hit me, I felt something I never felt before....I was Never the same again, I felt God....I didn't even know what that meant, but now I know it was fully God, I felt a sense of peace and like I wasn't alone ... I felt in my heart that God was really true....he was really....Real....I couldn't explain it, but from that day forward I have Never been the same, over time I gave up all of my addictions and repented for all of my ways ... I now have been completely sober for 3 years and stopped doing / watching porn for over 5....God IS TRUE he IS, the GOD OF MIRACLES!!!!!!!!! If he could change me from the wicked woman I once was...I'm telling you, he can do a mighty work in ANYONE!!!!! I thank the Lord everyday that I'm Not who I used to be, ALL GLORY TO GOD!!!!!🙏💜
then JESUS SAID : Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. - Matthew 11:28-29
Don't forget when people give up, HE NEVER WILL as illustrated by the following prayer using caps as emphasis to communicate GOD KNOWS HOW AND WHEN TO MEND a broken heart TO REASSURE someone based on faith alone in JESUS CHRIST. On a balcony of space STEPPED A PURE AND HOLY GOD. IN AWESOME SOLITUDE YOU STOOD ALONE. Not one faint star to give YOU light; just endless darkness, it was blackest night. But somehow in the darkness YOU COULD SEE. YOU SAW mountains high and lofty, YOU SAW valleys lush and green. YOU SAW babbling brooks, and wildflowers grow, YOU EVEN HEARD a robin sing. Then through YOUR COMPASSION STANDING OUT THERE IN YOUR TOMORROW, YOU SAW forum's visitors, their families and friends. 🥰 YOU SAW them as sinners (missing the mark resulting in their weaknesses prevailing causing guilt of wrong doing) because there is no intrinsic righteousness in any of us due to Adam’s sin. YOU SAW them as they grew from a baby into adulthood due to YOUR HANDS OF MERCY. 🥰 YOU SAW them pursuing a career path for the purpose of obtaining the gains of the world not realizing that it is a loss compared to what YOU DID on the cross. YOU SAW them working long and laboring hard to receive the grace by justification even though YOU stated, "This is the work of God, that ye believe on him whom he hath sent."(John 6:29 KJV) YOU SAW the unwillingness to accept YOUR PLAN OF SALVATION THROUGH YOUR SON JESUS CHRIST. YOU SAW them living with the guilt of committing crimes to the heart. YOU SAW them enduring personal crisis. YOU SAW the weight of the burden on their hearts with each tribulation. YOU SAW them seeking comfort from the above mentioned topography, ONE OF THE MANY MARVELS YOUR PERFECT HANDS HAVE MADE. 👏👏👏 YOU SAW their worries about tomorrow. If their hearts were a window that they could look through, oh the pains and scars they would see. What a cruel fate the skin gives as a mask to the inward pain. But the skin couldn’t cover THE SUFFERING YOUR ONE AND ONLY SON BORED on the cross as PAYMENT for all our sins because HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS ALONE HAD THE MERIT TO MEET THE REQUIREMENTS OF YOUR HOLINESS. Indeed, ONLY HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS IS SUFFICIENT TO SAVE us from this present evil world as evidenced by Mary's song of praise. "And Mary said, My soul doth magnify the Lord, And my spirit hath rejoiced in God my Saviour." (Luke 1:46-47 KJV) Awesome thanks to YOUR GREAT PARDON for being easy on the heart. 🥰 They have seen a lot of crazy things done in YOUR NAME. For example, the father of lies futile attempts to make crooked the right ways of the LORD to turn people away from faith in the WORKS OF JESUS CHRIST ALONE. How can anyone bear the thought of his or her life story detracting from the GLORY AND HONOR KNOWN TO BELONG TO CHRIST ALONE? As a consequence, YOU ARE A MYSTERY OF GREAT MYSTERY to them. Despite this conviction, YOU ARE MINDFUL of them as evidenced by the fact that YOUR JUDGEMENT is not speedy, allowing them to pursue the desires of the flesh. They are aware of hypocrisy in religious assemblies that like to be seen and heard. In addition, secular education teaches that there is no right and wrong, if GOD exists there is no way of relating to HIM, and moral standards shift according to the whims of fashion. Therefore, their minds are conditioned to question everything this world has to offer including “THY POWER THROUGHOUT THE UNIVERSE DISPLAYED.” They have accepted the heavy burden of dealing with the troubles of this life and seek to know another way, YOU THE GREAT COMFORTER TO ALL who did receive YOU as their personal SAVIOR. Still, YOU have shown them NEW MERCY every day with each thought they make and each breath they take. Unfortunately, like the prodigal son, we are all guilty of wandering far from YOU LORD because the negative experiences of our lives tend to build roadblocks to the TRUTH. As time marches on, JESUS CHRIST HELP them to identify the way, truth, and eternal life (that is YOU). Since to know and follow your SPIRIT is more exciting than any 007 movies, and YOU DELIGHT MAKING the ordinary into extraordinary. As time marches on, JESUS CHRIST MAKE them understand that there is no way around YOUR TRUTH, and that there is something about YOUR NAME. As time marches on, JESUS CHRIST HELP them defeat in their minds what is false in YOUR EYES. LORD GUIDE their thoughts to know that the path of sin is hard on their hearts for the purpose of crying out to YOU to know the joy, peace of having the heavy burden LIFTED by THE GOD OF PEACE I AM, and ANCHOR their souls in THE HAVEN OF REST. In other words, LORD use the storms in their lives to get a hold of them to trust YOU and believe. In truth, YOU ARE THE JOY that seekest them through pain. LORD HELP their fainting hearts to believe that YOU, who was slain on the cross over 2000 years ago has the POWER TO CHANGE lives today through the INSTANTANEOUS GREAT FAVOR from GOD to the house of Israel made known in believers by YOU to make YOUR NAME EVERLASTING. 🥰 For as the statue liberates the citizens so the cross liberates the soul. ONLY YOU can calm the trouble waters of the mind when one admits to wanting salvation from one’s sinful nature, JESUS IS LORD, and believes in the heart that GOD RAISED HIM from the dead TO LIFT the heavy burden of sin's guilt away from the heart in accordance to YOUR WORD found in Psalm 51:1-10 KJV. 👏👏👏👏👏👏 O, the wonder of it all to experience within the flesh the feeling of a tree being cut back/pruned in order for it to grow stronger and more beautiful after meditating on the words of said Psalm. 🥰🙌 LORD MAKE them know that ONLY YOUR HOLY SPIRIT, through the experience of a new birth within believers, can prevent the family circle from being broken because THE HOPE OF ETERNAL LIFE YOU HAVE GRANTED means a chapter of their lives is decided. Creation sings the rebirth song for them yearly, through YOUR PROMISE of springtime, giving rise to the idea that by the mention of YOUR NAME flowers grow, and the desert blooms again. 🥰 LORD GUIDE their understanding of words to use to come into YOUR PRESENCE with an honest reverence of WHO YOU ARE to experience the beauty that time can't erase YOUR WISDOM resting on their faces. LORD STRENGTHEN their determination to never waiver in efforts to search for YOU because the wages of sin is too high for anyone to pay. Additionally, THE KING OF KINGS is needed in their hearts to learn how to expand their capacity to love for YOU are LOVE in any language. 🥰 Once they learn to speak it with boldness through YOUR WONDERFUL COUNSELING all the world will hear, and know that LOVE is the language of their hearts. So LORD, KEEP KNOCKING on their door until they let YOU in to know hardships and struggles will end with a GREAT CELEBRATION WITH YOU. 🥰🙌 If one believes faith cannot be forced, YOU WILL GIVE that individual over to the stubborn heart to follow own counsel which will surely fail him or her to the extent that the punishment will last forever found in Psalms 81 NIV. Given this, I pray that YOU WILL MAKE that person see that this feeling is wasted for a world in which we become strangers as we age, gives us thrills instead of peace, aims to solve a problem but creates another, and unrest surges with each passing generation. Shed some light into their broken hearts for YOU ARE THE GREAT JEHOVAH, THE GOD THAT HEALETH thee. Lastly, LORD when they call on YOU in earnest prayer to come into their hearts to be born again (repentance manifesting itself in a changed life), I pray that YOU WILL GIVE them the blessed assurance of their salvation because nothing breaks YOUR HEART, or tears YOU apart like when they cry from the trials of the devil who comes to slander, falsely accuse, steal, kill & destroy. Only by drawing nearer to YOU LORD will put them on a path to a glorious one way trip winding upward to YOU where pain is not welcome because the heart will never break anymore. For ONLY YOU UNDERSTANDS our tears since YOU LOOK at the heart, while humans look at the flesh. O LOVE that will not let them go. When they don't have the strength to try, and have cried all they can cry hear their hearts that need YOU more today than yesterday. Many thanks LORD for speaking TRUTH in our lives TO BLESS those who are not offended by THEE. LET YOUR WILL BE DONE because YOUR LOVE ALONE CONQUERS everything by WAITING for them to cease struggling, and finally surrender to YOUR EMBRACE to learn about YOUR LOVE AND PROMISE TO TAKE CARE of your children exquisitely. 🥰 Since... "at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore"... (Psalms 16:11 KJV), and the nail print for them to know YOU by answering the following question. How did CHRIST LOVE people into a relationship with HIM? 🥰
This is interesting because it's so real. So many people now grow up with overstimulation and pornography accessible at all times. It's really easy to get caught up in destructive behavior. I love that today's newest generation of Christians are so much less judgmental. It seems like people understand that young people are born into an entirely different world and that they're depressed because they long for a relationship with God. It's so inspirational to hear someone admit the struggles they have in modern life and how they never gave up on finding a meaningful happiness through connecting to God.
What a magnificent testimony. So encouraging. I can say that porn is the single most destructive force toward societies. It's power for addiction is unparalleled because the brain chemicals of dopamine and norepinephrine are triggered by porn in ways that foreign substances such as drugs and alcohol. I'm a mental health professional who has worked with juvenile sex offenders and victims. Great kids, all of them, but harmed deeply by abuse. I'd say that out of 140 kids in our program, at least 90% of them have pornography in their past and present. Think about it. Yet out leaders do not ever talk about this. It's not politically correct.
I don't watch many sermons or do many group bible study. But I've spent lots of time talking to God and reading bible, not fitting into the mold. It makes me so happy everyday.
I was introduced to porn by one of my friends, I was 17. I started to get attached to it. It did not take me too long to realize that I was getting addicted to it, right before it happened I prayed to God and he cast it out (took me months to overcome it), now I'm free because ''who the son sets free, is free indeed''. Whoever is in this situation, the best way to feel better, is to tell it to someone you trust that can help you pray, don't keep it a secret if you really want to be free. Thank you for sharing my sister. May God bless you all.
Yes I was headed toward destruction/ losing everything I care about via porn & sin. I used to struggle too, but God gave me a wakeup call, and after that I can easily look the other way if there's temptation. I'm Jake in Australia & I drifted backwards out of Heaven from between two huge Angels into a black void and spent around 45 minutes in there. (Hear me about this eternal black void!) It starts here. I found myself standing on a ledge, as wide as a footpath or sidewalk. Behind me was a pitch dark abyss in all directions- I twisted around and looked behind me down into the black darkness and was afraid to fall off the ledge. I looked outward and my eyes could not perceive what I was looking at because it is a physical place, with nothing in it. In front of me to my left and right, were two huge Angels- they were about 10 foot tall, and very solid build- (if they were in your house their heads would be through the inner ceiling.) I was closest to the one on my left- and his calf muscle alone was up to my hip. He had curly hair. They did not talk to me, and were not aggressive but I could sense everything/ didnt need to talk. They did have a stance as though they were guarding. They each were standing in front of a large pillar, facing into Heaven. I didn't see any gates. I did not know it was Heaven I was viewing at first- but I felt this amazing contentment & peace, because I was viewing a quaint township. In front of me was a street- no cars, but it did have a footpath along the side. Then there were these quaint double story houses like what you see in inner cities- terraced buildings/ town houses, with little front garden, front fence and a front gate. I could see two people greeting each other with big smiles and an embrace in an entrance doorway- we visit each other like friends in Heaven. The street went to my right, and became a little town centre- quite narrow but very inviting- as though we can hang out together there. Off to the left of that street, a street went up a steep hill- it had a large tree half way up on the right and next to that was some kind of large town hall style building. That street went up to a crest and from my view the crest silhouetted into a blue sky. I sensed that over that hill was adventure, wilderness as though we can day trip as we do here. So I was standing there smiling, and I thought to myself " this is all I've ever wanted" - the peaceful existence, the happiness with life. Just so relaxed and content And then I began sensing what others could feel there. People there are glad about being there for so many reasons. You can feel eternity there/ you sense time is headed toward eternity. I could sense time because of my flow of thoughts, i was exactly me with my memories, and I even had my body but it was a spiritual or heavenly body. I was me. I sensed people are so glad because Heaven is all there is- it's the only place where life is. People were also just so glad because it's a beautiful place, and life is amazing there. Most of all though, I could sense Gods presence there- you can feel Gods love very strongly there- as though it's the air we breath there. I could see there was a gentle breeze through the parkland. It was like a gorgeous spring morning. So I was standing there buzzing, wowed, just observing this amazing place, and realising it was Heaven. I was awestruck and ultra excited- It feels like you have always belonged there now you see it. I was not yet even thinking of anything except just amazement, I couldn't stop smiling. But then it occured to me- what if I'm not going to enter? What if I was not to be allowed in? At that exact time- that thought turned into a heavy weight on my conscience, and I knew I was infact being judged- and might not enter. So by now I was desperately attached to the love and peace infront of me, this amazing existence in Gods presence. I wanted to enter and be there forever with those people, and those huge Angels. So as I wondered if I had lived a good enough life- or if I deserved to be in Heaven, deep down I really didn't know if I could enter. I could sense that by not entering I probably was going to drift backwards into the dark void. I noticed I was not actually standing on that ledge but floating 4 inches above it. We feel like we are standing in Heaven but we are floating just above the ground. It's an awesome feeling. I then slowly began drifting.. backwards at walking pace. Drifting backwards off that ledge, I could see under the ledge as I floated in the darkness- I could see the ledge now right in front of me was made of white light. The Angels stood guard exactly where they were, and that street and houses, and parkland, the light of the spring day warmth and fragrances, the township buzzing, Gods presence, all just started to drift away- at walking pace, I floated backwards into the darkest place- where there is nothing. Over 25 minutes- of my consciousness, Heaven became a small cube of colourful light. I was still not yet scared, because I was still looking at that cube of light, Heaven, and could still see the quaint township & trees. I was still BUZZING and smiling, from being in there for just 10 minutes. But the cube of light got smaller to a pin head dot of light, yet I still knew what was in there- Heaven, and an incredible life. Then it was gone. It was just me, and my thoughts... I floated there, thinking about what I had just experienced. I turned my attention to this dark place. It was so weird initially- floating in darkness alone, but you accept it initially, and just float there observing the thick blackness and thinking randomly. You can sense it's universal in size, this place of nothing. I then wanted to comfort myself from the immediate isolation and began to sing. I could only remember the lyrics to two full songs. And then singing felt intimidating because I suddenly realised that I could sense eternity, as I sang. So contrasted with eternity, it was actually really frightening to sing. I began to think about me, my life. My memories. I was bored of my memories in about 5 minutes, and quickly came back to the now, the dark void- where I could feel eternity. So I remembered me some more, so that I didn't have to think of eternity in darkness, but you run out of thoughts fast- because they are contrasted with eternity. So I was back in the now, in the void every time I tried to remember my life. There was no joy in it. You need new experiences to experience new joy. New gratitude, and so on. Before long, I started thinking about what might have been the memories I had which cost me my place in eternity with God. - those memories i had bought with my soul. I was focussed on my memories of sin- they were so stupid and meant nothing to me even here on earth, let alone in the eternal void. Stupid decisions- things I'd stolen, filthy pornography, basic trashy sins, had been what I had bought with my soul. I then was really upset with myself that I had been so pathetic to have chosen to not live a riteous life of any type- just continues gratification, like a pizza eating sloth, always chasing the next distraction from my thoughts. Well- in the void- you become your own Hell, because all you can remember, is the dumbass things you bought with your soul. It's all you can remember because you are angry at yourself. You don't find any peace thinking about the beautiful experiences, so I just found i was so sad about my poor choices/ now contrasted with eternity where there is no life. It's continuous consciousness there, no sleep, no death to look forward to, all you can do is think. No belongings. Nothing to even see. Nothing to hear. I could not pick up my guitar and play music. And then there is the most painful feeling I felt- being separated from God. Knowing what I had seen and felt in Heaven, and knowing I had just eternal me and barely any thoughts worth having. It was so so bad, because I was truely stuck there- and had this heavy dread, knowing it is eternal and im not going to see any more life. There are no words to describe all the things you feel, as well as the physical sensation of being in that terrifying place. Until you feel it for yourself, do not underestimate just how terrible it is to be in hell. I woke up with a loud shout at 2 am, next to my wife in bed. My heart was banging hard- bang bang bang bang, I was covered in sweat & I was rappid breathing, with that heart beat thumping so hard it was physically banging. My wife woke up startled at my shout. She asked what was wrong? and I told her I just dreamed I was in Hell. I tried to describe the fear I had just been in, and I could not talk but actually cried. I'm not a crier but I was a mess after that. I could not think of any words that made me feel better, when I described it. In the end, I just said it was " horrific ". About 6 months after this dream, I began searching about black voids. I found this video of a guy who died in a plane crash. Check out the exact word he uses to describe the black void!! It was real mate. It was so real. I have prayed for dreams ever since, and God has given me other incredible Heaven and Hell dreams that add more AMAZING perspective to what I saw. Please view this video to confirm the guys description of the void. God Bless mate, Jake in Australia. (The dream happened 10 years ago for me). Ps- Every thought you have, every decision you make now, every single action, becomes what you bought with your soul. Genuinely. You NEED Heaven, you want life, you want God. Do not miss out. ua-cam.com/video/NhK4jwBmUX4/v-deo.html
@@ren808_ I knew they were bad and I couldn't stop myself from watching them. I constantly wanted to see images or videos almost everyday and I couldn't help it. Also I felt that my mind was dirty all the time.That's how I knew.
@@UserRandJ That is amazing!! I had goosebumps reading your testimony.God uses many different ways to warn people about their living life. I'm so glad you understood and changed your ways before it was too late (before death). Thank you for sharing.
I had that addiction as well but God set me free after regular prayer and fasting, Engage in prayer and fasting I believe God will set you free remember Jesus said some demons only leave through prayer and fasting. And with your own strength you cannot beat an addiction you need the power of the holy spirit. So please engage in Fasting, seek God and ask him to baptize you with the holy spirit and disconect you from everything of darkness in your life.❤❤
Listen your ability to articulate this testimony is straight from God - you spoke to me almost like we have lived the same life 😞 - Father i know of you , now let me know you - let me shine like Moses did coming off the mountain from spending time with you …
I am struggling with porn addiction now and have been since I was in my teens. The process is exactly as you say, in and out of depression as I didn't feel worthy and was ashamed of who I was but could not stop. There were times I thought I had beat it and won but I still go back there to this day. The negative thoughts are a big one. All of a sudden I can be thinking life is pointless I think too long about my life, future, the spouse, where is she, where is God in this? Before you know it I don't want to live and become angry and rebellious to just go back to fulfilling myself then deflated having no pursuit to look after myself in subtle ways. I have refused to find a partner over the years, sometimes deeming myself not worthy or stable enough to support her or be the good Christian. Truth is she would deserve better that often comes to my mind. My dad was not towards my mom and I have anxiety that I will be the same and this holds me back to commiting to someone. Instead wanting to fix all my issues and lukewarm Christian tendencies and habits. How could I and can I bring all this into a relationship without hurting her. So I must walk alone and suffer until I defeat myself and inner battles. I am like you were too distracted to build my relationship with God Maturely because of screen time(gaming and movies/series. I admit I often am not ready to give them up and like recently have question if I am a Christian and had doubts I measure up. I have grown tired of it all. Your testimony hit it on the head for me as there's so much relevance to my life and past it is not a coincidence I came across this. Thankyou and bless you for sharing, you are amazing and glad you found freedom from those things!
Hey mate. Sin separates us from God- instantly. So repent every single time, immediately. Also- try looking the other way when ever there is a temptation- if you achieve that- your soul heals. Another thing- Keep asking God for help. God woke me up real good if you read my story. Jake I used to struggle too, but God gave me a wakeup call, and after that I can easily look the other way if there's temptation. I I'm Jake in Australia & I drifted backwards out of Heaven from between two huge Angels into a black void and spent around 45 minutes in there. (Hear me about this eternal black void!) It starts here. I found myself standing on a ledge, as wide as a footpath or sidewalk. Behind me was a pitch dark abyss in all directions- I twisted around and looked behind me down into the black darkness and was afraid to fall off the ledge. I looked outward and my eyes could not perceive what I was looking at because it is a physical place, with nothing in it- a pitch black place. In front of me to my left and right were two huge Angels- they were about 10 foot tall, and very solid build- (if they were in your house their heads would be through the inner ceiling.) I was closest to the one on my left- and his calf muscle alone was up to my hip. Huge arms. He had curly hair. They did not talk to me, and were not aggressive but I could sense everything/ we didnt need to talk. They did have a stance as though they were guarding. They each were standing in front of a large pillar, facing into Heaven. I didn't see any gates. I did not know it was Heaven I was viewing at first- but I felt this amazing contentment & peace, because I was viewing a quaint township. In front of me was a street- no cars, but it did have a footpath along the side. Then there were these quaint double story houses like what you see in inner cities- terraced buildings/ town houses, with little front garden, front fence and a front gate. I could see two people greeting each other with big smiles and an embrace in an entrance doorway- we can visit each other like friends in Heaven. The street went to my right, and became a little town centre- narrow but very inviting- as though we can hang out together there. Off to the left of that street, a street went up a steep hill- it had a large tree half way up on the right and next to that was some kind of large town hall style building. That street went up to a crest and from my view the crest silhouetted into a blue sky. I sensed that over that hill was adventure, wilderness as though we can day trip as we do here. So I was standing there smiling, and I thought to myself " this is all I've ever wanted" - the peaceful existence, the happiness with life. So relaxed and content. And then I began sensing what others could feel there. People there are glad about being there for so many reasons- they know/ feel it is eternal there. I sensed people are so glad too being in heaven because heaven is all there is- it's the only place where life exists. People were also just so glad because it's a beautiful place, and life is amazing in heaven. Most of all though, I could sense Gods presence there- you can feel Gods love very strongly there- as though it's the air we breath there. I could see there was a gentle breeze through the parkland. It was like a gorgeous spring morning. So I was standing there buzzing, wowed, just observing this amazing place, and realising it was heaven. I was awestruck and ultra excited- It feels like you have always belonged there now you see it. I was not yet even thinking of anything except just amazement, I couldn't stop smiling. But then it occured to me- what if I'm not going to enter? What if I was not to be allowed in? At that time my thoughts turned into a realisation that something was amiss/ not all was well with my soul and I knew I was infact being judged- and might not enter. So by now I was desperately attached to the love and peace infront of me, this amazing existence in Gods presence. I wanted to enter and be there forever with those people, and those huge Angels. So as I wondered if I had lived a good enough life or if I deserved to be in heaven, deep down I really didn't know if I could enter. I also sensed that by not entering I probably was going to drift backwards into the dark void. So I was there observing this beautiful real eternal life in front of me, but knowing I was maybe not going to enter. I noticed I was not actually standing on that ledge but floating 4 inches above it. We feel like we are standing in Heaven but we are floating just above the ground. I then slowly began drifting.. backwards at walking pace. Drifting backwards off that ledge, I could see under the ledge as I floated in the darkness- I could see the ledge now right in front of me was made of white light. The Angels stood guard exactly where they were, and that street and houses, and parkland, the light of the spring day warmth and fragrances, the township buzzing, Gods presence, all just started to drift away- at walking pace, I floated backwards into the darkest place- where there is nothing. Over 25 minutes- of my consciousness, Heaven became a small cube of colourful light. I was still not yet scared, because I was still looking at that cube of light, Heaven, and could still see the quaint township & trees. I was still BUZZING and smiling, from being in there for just 10 minutes. But the cube of light got smaller to a pin head dot of light, yet I still knew what was in there- Heaven, and an incredible life. Then it was gone. It was just me, and my thoughts... I floated there, thinking about what I had just experienced. I turned my attention to this dark place. It was so weird initially- floating in darkness alone, but you accept it initially, and just float there observing the thick blackness and thinking randomly. You can sense it's universal in size, this place of nothing. I then wanted to comfort myself from the immediate isolation and began to sing. I could only remember the lyrics to two full songs. And then singing felt intimidating because I suddenly realised that I could sense eternity, as I sang. So contrasted with eternity, it was actually really frightening to sing. I began to think about me, my life. My memories. I was bored of my memories in about 5 minutes, and quickly came back to the now, the dark void- where I could feel eternity. So I remembered me some more, so that I didn't have to think of eternity in darkness, but you run out of thoughts fast- because they are contrasted with eternity. So I was back in the now, in the void every time I tried to remember my life. There was no joy in it. You need new experiences to experience new joy. New gratitude, and so on. Before long, I started thinking about what might have been the memories I had which cost me my place in eternity with God. - those memories i had bought with my soul. I was focussed on my memories of sin- they were so stupid and meant nothing to me even here on earth, let alone in the eternal void. Stupid decisions- things I'd stolen, filthy pornography, basic trashy sins, had been what I had bought with my soul. I then was really upset with myself that I had been so pathetic to have chosen to not live a riteous life of any type- just continuous gratification, like a pizza eating sloth, always chasing the next distraction from my thoughts. Well- in the void- I became my own hell, because all I could think of is the stupid things I bought with my soul/ sin. It's all you can remember because you are angry at yourself. You don't find any peace thinking about the beautiful experiences, so I just found i was so sad about my poor choices, now contrasted with eternity where there is no life. It's continuous consciousness there, no sleep, no death to look forward to, all you can do is think. No belongings. Nothing to even see. Nothing to hear. I could not pick up my guitar and play music. And then there is the most painful feeling I felt- being separated from God. Knowing what I had seen and felt in Heaven, and knowing I had just eternal me and barely any thoughts worth having. It was so so bad, because I was truely stuck there- and had this heavy dread, knowing it is eternal and im not going to see any more life. There are no words to describe all the things you feel, as well as the physical sensation of being in that terrifying place. Until you feel it for yourself, do not underestimate just how terrible it is to be in hell. I woke up with a loud shout at 2 am, next to my wife in bed. My heart was banging hard- bang bang bang bang, I was covered in sweat & I was rappid breathing, with that heart beat thumping so hard it was physically banging. My wife woke up startled at my shout. She asked what was wrong? and I told her I just dreamed I was in Hell. I tried to describe the fear I had just been in, and I could not talk but actually cried. I'm not a crier. I could not think of any words that made me feel better, when I described it. In the end, I just said it was " horrific ". I also wonder if my heart had actually stopped, because it was more real than a dream. About 6 months after this dream, I began searching about black voids. I found this video of a guy who died in a plane crash. Check out the exact word he uses to describe the black void!! It was real mate. It was so real. I have prayed for dreams ever since, and God has given me other incredible Heaven and Hell dreams that add more AMAZING perspective to what I saw. Please view this video to confirm the guys description of the void. God Bless mate, Jake in Australia. (The dream happened 10 years ago for me). Ps- Every thought you have, every decision you make now, every single action, becomes what you bought with your soul. Genuinely. You NEED Heaven, you want life, you want God. Do not miss out. ua-cam.com/video/NhK4jwBmUX4/v-deo.html
God bless you Joe! Im not sure if you are a church goer but maybe find a good one and go. We all know the stigma but what I learned is its not about simply going to a church and that be the solution but finding the one that truly represents what it was intended to be, a true community of sinners just loving Jesus and being a part of it. The reason I'm even talking about this is because I started going back to church an met some truly wonderful people who brought me and my family in day 1. Fast forward a year, I run the soundboard on Wednesday nights for rehearsals and for Sundays worship and will be going to Bible study soon on Mondays. I relate all of this to King David on the roof top seeing Bathsheba and we all know how that goes down... the fact of the matter, King David SHOULD have been with his army and not at home. Had he been where he should have been, none of that would have happened. So.... all of that said and hopefully you stuck with me... I try to fill my time helping advance Gods Kingdom or learning about Him so that I dont have time for the fleshly desires... I've put a decent password required porn blocker on my phone so screen time is safer to an extent so if an urge comes along, its inhibited. Truth is, prayer is the MOST effective thing, we can't do anything without Jesus. Thanks for reading and hopefully it helps you. Good luck on the journey and I'll see you in paradise.
I love this testimony, it reminds me of my past and because of your testimony I have more clarity of what I experienced until I officially gave my life to Christ.
Totally relate to her. I was sexually and physically abused by my older sisters as a child. I was bullied at school as well. Messed me up big time. Keep climbing that mountain girl!
Knowing you and seen the change rejoice my heart. Your boldness and courage to do a video like this is priceless. You are not alone. Our testimonies are for others. To help others heal and to know that they are not alone. Thank you . May the Lord continue working in you with you. You have been set free. Love you. ❤
Wow. This was an extremely powerful testimony. I thank God I came across this. Her words triggered so many feeling and emotions that I’m experiencing. I could relate to the binge watching of TV, obsessively watching porn, and being lost in a virtual reality. I never equated to a depression, but I’m feeling that’s what it might be. I do feel alone even within the friendships and relationships I’ve built with friends and family. I do feel that because I’m not working I’m not doing anything and I’m falling behind in life. I do thank God for helping me though my cancer journey. It’s been 6 months from my transplant , and I’m still recovering. All has been well 😃Please anyone who my come across and read this, pray for me. 🤲🏾🤲🏾🤲🏾
This story was so relatable! Starting from baptism and believing some big change will happen but it happens gradually. Mine happened 5 years after my baptism. Where I fell into a depression and half of my family was gone. I see it now God wanted me to distance so that I can connect with the Holy Spirit. Sometimes it takes moments of pain to finally surrender to Gods life and purpose for you. I love how you mentioned you tried to fill in the void when you could only fill it in with God. I am in the same path right now. Not prioritizing my relationship with him but am listening to worship music, attending church, and listening to sermons as well. But I need to make that relationship with God my priority. I fasted for a few hours just now and I asked HIM to reveal whatever was not dead but dormant in my life. This video shared that revelation for me. Thank you so much.
Personally; I disagree. Discovering who you are via porn can be a fulfilling experience not only with yourself but with your Individual Maker/God/Goddess. Enjoy your body. Experience your animal passions through others. Be real with yourself and those around you. Thank you for letting me share 🤗.
@BigYumps It's Satan; with a capital S. You do you and let others discover the bliss of their own bodies on an individual level and with many others. Sex is natural and fun, especially when sex is two on one 🤗‼️
This video was the most real, relatable, heart breaking yet completely restoring video I've seen. I love testimonies and I was truly blessed watching this. It randomly popped up on my page as I was sitting outside telling God I need something right now as I've been feeling alone. Thank You for creating this channel. It will touch many. And thank you Ava for releasing your testimony. I Pray God continues to show Himself to you, and continue to make you whole. Your life brings hope. But the Bible brings transformation and to everyone reading He has done it before and He will do it again. He is Love. God Bless you all.
I’m so grateful the editing for these videos has changed. I get more drawn into testimonies when the speaker is the only voice speaking. I’m not big on hearing the producer ask questions. The editing out of these questions make the video flow better imo. ty!!
The editing must be amazing bc this is the first video I have ever watched from this channel and I didn’t even realize anything was missing. The story flowed so nicely I thought she was talking to the camera without anyone else in the room for 25 minutes. Was wondering how she spoke so eloquently and purposefully for so long
Amen!! This testimony spoke to me so much. One thing that really stood out to me is “I knew about Him, but I didn’t know Him.” Wow I didn’t even realize that was a problem for me. I too immerse myself in other peoples stories, the Bible app but I never stop to have time w God. Thank you!!
You put the biggest smile on my face when talking about how you jumped from one thing to the next to fill your time. I have been doing the same. Time to look at more direct contact time with my Lord. Thank you for your wonderful, honest testimony!
For what ever reason it never occurred to me that just listening to sermons all day wasn't good enough. I, too, have struggled with a porn addiction. I replaced it with college, now when I go to bed at midnight to one in the morning it is because of studying, not hiding in the bathroom watching porn. There are things I've done in the past that I should never be forgiven for, and yet my wife and God have both forgiven me and love me dearly. Even now there are times when I am studying that I think about looking at it, but then I turn my thoughts away and focus even more on my studying; it has been hard at times. Thank you for this video it opened my eyes to see I need to seek God in my own way and not just listen to other peoples findings in the bible.
I had that addiction as well but God set me free after regular prayer and fasting, Engage in prayer and fasting I believe God will set you free remember Jesus said some demons only leave through prayer and fasting. And with your own strength you cannot beat an addiction you need the power of the holy spirit. So please engage in Fasting, seek God and ask him to baptize you with the holy spirit and disconect you from everything of darkness in your life.❤❤❤
“A lot of things that helped me build knowledge but not wisdom because I almost never could apply it to my life and if I did apply some things and gain wisdom it could only take me but so far because I never truly built a relationship with Jesus” Wow. 🥺😩
Praying that God breaks me from this addiction, it’s not bad but catch myself watching this poison when I know I shouldn’t . Can go days and months but out of nowhere I start watching it again. I know one day I’m going to break the cycle
Don’t worry, if you’ve accepted Christ your sin is payed for in full… God calls us to turn to him, he knows you’re going to sin but he wants you to seek forgiveness and obedience and Gods grace handles the rest. Peace to you
Putting tv/movies/entertainment or even Christian content over Jesus is sooo real. I needed to hear that. I know that I haven’t put God first in my life and let these things distract me.
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset. You must submit to God. That is essential: James 4:7-8 7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. That's what your attitude needs to be when you are going through the process of *repentance* and committing to be obedient to God for the rest of your life (that's the kind of "change of mind" God wants to see). You must sincerely regret having sinned against God, and come to the point of hearing and agreeing 100% with Jesus' message saying, "I do not condemn you, now go and don't sin anymore" (John 8:11). Your obedience as you choose to follow God's ways is key--that's how you show your faith to God (John 3:36, Luke 6:46, Hebrews 3:17-18). That opens the door to receiving his *forgiveness* for your past sins (2 Peter 1:9), *healing* (Luke 5:31-32), *freedom from sin/addictions* (John 8:34-36), and the gift of *a new life* that you will live for God and no longer for sin and the passing things of the world (Romans 6:4, 2 Corinthians 5:17, Galatians 6:15). That is the salvation you must make sure you have experienced: freedom from sin (John 8:36, Romans 8:1-2) versus bondage to sin (John 8:34, Romans 7:23). Approaching God in genuine repentance will lead to you receiving the Holy Spirit to lead you to "walk by the Spirit" (Acts 2:38, Galatians 5:16)--with a pure heart and self-control, which is a fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23). Any habit that controls you reveals idolatry in your heart. You have to choose to be done with that and it will be part of your past. That's one thing that will come out of your commitment to be obedient to God for the rest of your life. Please see 1 Peter 4:1-3 and 1 Thessalonians 1:9. James 1:21-22 21 Therefore, putting away all filthiness and overflowing of wickedness, receive with humility the implanted word, which is able to save your souls [that's repentance]. 22 But be doers of the word [that's faith, which implies obedience], and not only hearers, deluding your own selves. Hebrews 5:9 And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of 👉 *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].* Please stay in the word and obey it (James 1:21-22). The word of God is fuel for your faith. To live as a follower of Jesus you must go out of your way to put the word of God in your heart and keep it there, rejecting all distractions. It's a fight and that's how you need to stand to not fall down. The truth will set you free from all sin (John 8:31-32, 36).
I’m a recovering alcoholic addict and porn addict I’m still struggling with this is my truth I’m coming up 3 years sober and clean I’ve been baptised but porn is still one the enemy uses but it’s getting less and less ❤️🙏✝️
Pray for the Holy Spirit to work within you. Jesus can set you free from it. Just don't give up! He will Never, Ever give up on you. He loves you too much!! I've been through that road too and My Lord And Savior Jesus, helped me through it.
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset. You must submit to God. That is essential: James 4:7-8 7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. If you do what Jesus says, that will lead you to your deliverance. You must obey God. Hebrews 5:9 And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].* Luke 6:46 Why do you call me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do the things I say? Luke 9:23 And he [Jesus] said to all, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and 👉 follow me." John 8:31-36 31 Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples. 32 *And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”* 33 They answered Him, “We are Abraham’s descendants, and have never been in bondage to anyone. How can You say, ‘You will be made free’?” 34 Jesus answered them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, *whoever commits sin is a slave of sin.* 35 And a slave does not abide in the house forever, but a son abides forever. 36 Therefore *if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.*
God bless you, and this interview, I can’t put into words, what this interview is done for me. One thing I recognize, is that you’re not alone, I struggled with that for so many years, lost relationships with great people great women, lost so many friendships. Because I was in this box. Thank you for sharing.. so much. it’s meant a lot to me. I need help, and one thing after giving my life over to Jesus Christ, unfortunately admitting to slipping, I can feel, when things just aren’t right. Because he is letting me know that you have slipped off track. I’m going through a hard time. And anyone that reads this just know that you’re not alone you can always reach out to Jesus Christ.
I hope you continue to fight this fight and just stick in there cus although the battle isn’t over yet, it’s already won. I have seen many of these interviews and this one aligned most closely with myself. I am praying for Gods help to be a woman of God, because Lord knows I cannot do this on my own.
You are set free by the authority of Y'e'shua Christ Jesus of Nazareth and no weapon formed against you shall prosper. The enemy is defeated, bound and rebuked in Christ Jesus' Holy name. You are healed by the blood of Christ Jesus and given a new mind, new spirit and your glorified new body awaits you for the day of resurrection . I shall meet you in the kingdom of heaven after Christ returns. Amen. You are set free by His blood shed on the cross at Calvary.
@Veronica Elizondo I respectfully suggest that you appreciate the body God gave you and enjoy what it is that turns you on. There is nothing wrong with being human. The beauty about the tests God gives us is that there actually tests about our individual connection with God; not in a guilt filled way but in an honest way. For example; if girl on girl turns you on then be honest & tell God then ask why. It is much better than attempting to hide your true feelings about it. God made you as you & God dosen't make mistakes so if the movie "Debbie Does Dallas 2" turns you on; it is because it is supposed to. Enjoy your body. Blessed Be-🌟
JOY. The joy only He can give. God is everything. I pray for those that don't know God and those that decide not to seek Him. How much our hearts needs Him.
Eva, thank you for sharing this . Like myself i'm sure there is so many people out there listening that really needed to hear this. Thank you Jesus, for guiding this child of God. Thank you Jesus, for restoring her soul.
I did same thing at age 14 - 25 I feel lost my soul and faith. I was guilty myself. I pray GOD to forgive me for my all mistakes and I don’t want to die. I was addicted to porn addiction and masturbation a lot of 12 years ago. I struggled with depression and anxiety for horrible things that I did
I felt like this comment section is a safe place. So, I struggled the same stupid addiction. from growin up in a Christian home, leading worship and youth groups to no longer going to church or even pray for the last 6 years and it just about 3 months now since I decided to go back to church and accepted Jesus again in my heart and is slowly trying to accept and believe that Jesus still loves me despite the filthiness, studpidity I think about myself from what I did. From being molested as a minor, to being addicted to porn to going out with men Im not n a relationship with to drinking to partying. Nobody from my past church back in the province knows what Ive been through and I have no long time Christian friends here where I live now but I met new ones from this new church community i decided to be a part of from now on. I am so desperate to giving and serving my life back to the Lord and now its going well so far by Gods Grace. I'm in a discipleship small group right now and my leader asked me if theres still anything that Im struggling with. she wants me to tell her even tho I already confessed my sins to the Lord. I only knew her for almost 3 months and from what I know she had no experience like mine. I opened up already about my drinking my partying and stuff, the not going to church or praying but this porn and masturbating addiction ive been thru I havent told her.( which by the way i last did it last month 🥲) Do you guys think thats okay and really necessary to share? I knew I needed help but I really not comftble even tho I believe she can be trusted. She has a very strong intimidating kind of personality but really sweet the same time lol. Hellllpp.
We ultimately have nothing but God's mercy and grace. Jesus, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking on our flesh, and then sacrificing Yourself on the cross for us. Then, You arose from death, conquering all, making us your brothers and sisters. You are our dearest friend. You bear all our burdens, if we will only surrender them to You. I have life now because of You. Thanks for your testimony.
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset. You must submit to God. That is essential: James 4:7-8 7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. If you do what Jesus says, that will lead you to your deliverance. You must obey God. Hebrews 5:9 And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].* Luke 6:46 Why do you call me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do the things I say? Luke 9:23 And he [Jesus] said to all, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and 👉 follow me." John 8:31-36 31 Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples. 32 *And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”* 33 They answered Him, “We are Abraham’s descendants, and have never been in bondage to anyone. How can You say, ‘You will be made free’?” 34 Jesus answered them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, *whoever commits sin is a slave of sin.* 35 And a slave does not abide in the house forever, but a son abides forever. 36 Therefore *if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.*
Digging into one's emotions and speaking to God is key. David in the psalms poured out his heart to the Lord. Writing poetry expressing your heart to Jesus. Dealing with abandonment, self rejection and fear. The God who sees me.
Ms. Eva. Thank you for sharing your very intimate details and early struggles. It is so amazing that from the horrific abuse you experienced and the first unthinkable porn images you were exposed to, you have turned to Jesus and found salvation. A salvation that has not only brought you out of those dark places, but is now enabling you to publicly share your testimony. It takes a very brave, healed, God-loving person to be able to do this. @7:46 The Holy Spirit was already strong in you. So awesome. If only I listened to the Holy Spirit speaking to me in times of temptation and the subsequent sins, I wouldn't be in the mess I'm in right now!! It is so true that Jesus saves us. He is now using you as a disciple to lead others to Jesus. And to help the healing process to those of us suffering from these same issues of porn addiction to come out of the darkness and into the light. Amen Ms. Eva, Amen 🙏🏽🌹
God is a God of salvation, not condemnation. He calls us to repent which doesn’t mean we don’t sin, it means we turn from loving sin to loving God. It means we trust him to remove our sin and to rely on his grace and not the law to justify and sanctify us. Praise Jesus, amen 🙏
This is the without doubt one of the most powerful testimonies I've ever heard and applies 100% to my life. If I told you how I got here … sex.alcohol.Job... wow.I thank God for your AMAZING HONESTY!! WOW!!! Thank you, Thank you you, even though I'm smashed on alcohol and have been a Christian for many years,I''m completely challenged ,please Jesus change me.. God bless you
😢I feel the pain of all of this testimony but thanks be to God who kept my mind while I grew out of these phases...and the covering of the Lord Jesus Christ
I loved her testimony I struggled a lot in my life and I'm sorry you was abused and hurt back in the days my heart goes out to you but you're right Jesus will never leave you or forsake you he's always been there no matter what the devil says he can never separate you from the love of God nothing not the world no body, God bless you and I pray for this lady you are a woman who has a lot of courage I give that to you
I was held down by that same sin for so long. But it was like God kept blocking it from progressing. My feelings would turn to guilt in the moment and I couldn’t go on with it.
How careful we must be with children, what many do not understand is that they are the next generation… am sad to hear , see these things .. broken homes, imagine living with friends etc etc…thank God for Yeshua… what are we with out Him.. He makes all things beautiful! Beautiful testimony…
I'm glad you found your way. There is so much deception out there and so many people live in darkness. Jesus Christ is the true light of men. Thanx for your testimony
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset. You must submit to God. That is essential: James 4:7-8 7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. That's what your attitude needs to be when you are going through the process of *repentance* and committing to be obedient to God for the rest of your life (that's the kind of "change of mind" God wants to see). You must sincerely regret having sinned against God, and come to the point of hearing and agreeing 100% with Jesus' message saying, "I do not condemn you, now go and don't sin anymore" (John 8:11). Your obedience as you choose to follow God's ways is key--that's how you show your faith to God (John 3:36, Luke 6:46, Hebrews 3:17-18). That opens the door to receiving his *forgiveness* for your past sins (2 Peter 1:9), *healing* (Luke 5:31-32), *freedom from sin/addictions* (John 8:34-36), and the gift of *a new life* that you will live for God and no longer for sin and the passing things of the world (Romans 6:4, 2 Corinthians 5:17, Galatians 6:15). That is the salvation you must make sure you have experienced: freedom from sin (John 8:36, Romans 8:1-2) versus bondage to sin (John 8:34, Romans 7:23). Approaching God in genuine repentance will lead to you receiving the Holy Spirit to lead you to "walk by the Spirit" (Acts 2:38, Galatians 5:16)--with a pure heart and self-control, which is a fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23). Any habit that controls you reveals idolatry in your heart. You have to choose to be done with that and it will be part of your past. That's one thing that will come out of your commitment to be obedient to God for the rest of your life. Please see 1 Peter 4:1-3 and 1 Thessalonians 1:9. James 1:21-22 21 Therefore, putting away all filthiness and overflowing of wickedness, receive with humility the implanted word, which is able to save your souls [that's repentance]. 22 But be doers of the word [that's faith, which implies obedience], and not only hearers, deluding your own selves. Hebrews 5:9 And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of 👉 *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].* Please stay in the word and obey it (James 1:21-22). The word of God is fuel for your faith. To live as a follower of Jesus you must go out of your way to put the word of God in your heart and keep it there, rejecting all distractions. It's a fight and that's how you need to stand to not fall down. The truth will set you free from all sin (John 8:31-32, 36).
Wow I needed to hear this! I think this was for me! I’m addicted to my phone! I need you all to pray for me pls! I’m in tears! Thank you for sharing this!
In Jesus name, I pray against the spirit of addiction that is afflicting Dal B, I break the phone addiction over this persons life, Thank you God for delivering this person and giving them peace beyond all understanding.
Such a beautiful testimony. So many layers to your story but if anything it teaches us that this life is a journey and we have to walk it with Christ. When we fall down we gotta run to Him.
Thank you so much for telling us about your struggles with porn. While your addiction was very different from my own, the similarities that I've noticed are heart wrenching for me. It was only around a month ago when I was given an epiphany about God that I genuinely started to believe that I could actually leave all of this perverted stuff behind, but I was falling into that trap of obsessing over everyone else's relationship with God rather than focusing on my own. Thank you so very much, and God bless you.
I’ve never had a porn problem, until last night, I caved in and watch it maybe 10 minutes, I became so SICK inside, I began to cry out to GOD I’m a recovering alcoholic and addict, so porn is just another soul sickness,
I had that addiction as well but God set me free after regular prayer and fasting, Engage in prayer and fasting I believe God will set you free remember Jesus said some demons only leave through prayer and fasting. And with your own strength you cannot beat an addiction you need the power of the holy spirit. So please engage in Fasting, seek God and ask him to baptize you with the holy spirit and disconect you from everything of darkness in your life.🎉🎉🎉
This helped me soo much. I feel so alone, but her words really encouraged me to know that I'm not. It's hard to even get up and I long for marriage so much, but I realize that none of that will really satisfy me the way God does. Jesus is Lord. God please help me.
I was a Hindu and i am currently going through a process where Jesus Christ is guiding me and helps me. I never been to church and or meet a pastor in real life Jesus Christ is guiding me via internet and recently he helped me buy a study Bible of Dr Charles swindoll.
I'm so grateful for the honest testimonies from people. The traps of this world are real and not many people would understand the spiritual dangers unless a regular real person can tell their honest story. The road to finding Yahuah can take a long time and much pain before we finally see we really do need Him. Thank you so much for sharing. 💜🌹💜
God bless you my sister in Christ!!! This is a very powerful testimony. I’ve been dealing with lust on and off for a long time, lately it’s taken a role on my mental health. I repented earlier tonight and then came across this video. God works in amazing ways and He has a purpose for each and every one of us. God bless you all!!!
John 8;36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. 🙏🙏🙏 This generation needs this kind of Testimony may the Lord free all who are addicted to porn and other bad things
I'm struggling with porn but Jesus Christ is helping me you are a brave woman .alot of people would never do this. God is making me stronger 💪 God bless you 🙏
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset. You must submit to God. That is essential: James 4:7-8 7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. That's what your attitude needs to be when you are going through the process of *repentance* and committing to be obedient to God for the rest of your life (that's the kind of "change of mind" God wants to see). You must sincerely regret having sinned against God, and come to the point of hearing and agreeing 100% with Jesus' message saying, "I do not condemn you, now go and don't sin anymore" (John 8:11). Your obedience as you choose to follow God's ways is key--that's how you show your faith to God (John 3:36, Luke 6:46, Hebrews 3:17-18). That opens the door to receiving his *forgiveness* for your past sins (2 Peter 1:9), *healing* (Luke 5:31-32), *freedom from sin/addictions* (John 8:34-36), and the gift of *a new life* that you will live for God and no longer for sin and the passing things of the world (Romans 6:4, 2 Corinthians 5:17, Galatians 6:15). That is the salvation you must make sure you have experienced: freedom from sin (John 8:36, Romans 8:1-2) versus bondage to sin (John 8:34, Romans 7:23). Approaching God in genuine repentance will lead to you receiving the Holy Spirit to lead you to "walk by the Spirit" (Acts 2:38, Galatians 5:16)--with a pure heart and self-control, which is a fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23). Any habit that controls you reveals idolatry in your heart. You have to choose to be done with that and it will be part of your past. That's one thing that will come out of your commitment to be obedient to God for the rest of your life. Please see 1 Peter 4:1-3 and 1 Thessalonians 1:9. James 1:21-22 21 Therefore, putting away all filthiness and overflowing of wickedness, receive with humility the implanted word, which is able to save your souls [that's repentance]. 22 But be doers of the word [that's faith, which implies obedience], and not only hearers, deluding your own selves. Hebrews 5:9 And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of 👉 *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].* Please stay in the word and obey it (James 1:21-22). The word of God is fuel for your faith. To live as a follower of Jesus you must go out of your way to put the word of God in your heart and keep it there, rejecting all distractions. It's a fight and that's how you need to stand to not fall down. The truth will set you free from all sin (John 8:31-32, 36).
Beautifully honest and genuine testimony from this Sister, whom God will use powerfully to lead souls closer to Him.🙏 Blessings, upon those hearing and responding to this message of love! 💗
Wow EVERYTHING you talked about was me and is me sometimes but I am a 49 year old black male. It's so good to hear you talk because now I see things from a different perspective. Sometimes you can't see you're on faults. I asked God to please show me things I am doing wrong as I do a 30 day Pray of Jabez Fast. He sent me you. THANK YOU for being brave and saying what we, I and they needed to hear and see. I will add you and your family and ministry if you have one to my prayer list for the remaining fast. God bless🙏🛐✝
"Binge watching sermons and podcast having knowledge from another person's relationship and not building a relationship with God"..this got me cause I fall in that trap alot ...Lord help me
So good
Me!
Sister or brother, you are in a relationship with God. That you are not conscious of it it's something else. Who do you think put those thoughts in your head? Just keep going and sooner than later you will have a conscious relationship with the Lord that's going to be wonderful and amazing and you will never ever want to let go. It happened to me and it's wonderful, I literally have no words to express my gratitude and sense of love and respect for our Lord and Savior.
This is also me right now and i never even realised until she said that.
This got me too!!!
God is awesome I struggled with pornography for 25 plus yrs..almost 3yrs clean praise God for deliverance
THATS AMAZING🔥🔥🔥Praise be to god!!!!
Hail Satan
We are not alone
It weird how when women open about porn addiction, people are all supportive, but when men open about it, men got condemned
You have some stats. to back this up? @@nani_bow3489
I went to high school with Eva! It is so BEAUTIFUL to hear her testimony! Congratulations to you Eva. The lord is going to use you mightily. -Ryan
That’s amazing. Do you know her full name? Its never mentioned in the video cause they only mention her first name. It’s also not written in the description.
@@ybebinchilin2421 why do you need her full name so you can stalk her hahahaha get outta here
No...within the first 2 minutes of the video they display her first and last name.
Lol
Nah fr lol. Like for what?
I quit for 7 months an a bunch of stress hit me an I’m struggling again. Lord please release me from this addiction an overwhelming sadness in my heart.
Brother you can definitely be freed. I want to pray for you. Giving God all the Glory. The Lord has freed me from that so I know and believe you can. God bless you and stay strong. Keep fighting. Lust isn’t easy to deal with or yearning for love. I learned the only Love that ever satiated me was from Jesus. Glory be to God. Again I pray for you and all those who need deliverance. God bless you 🙏🏿💜. I need a savior
@BAD BEATS I have accountability, I just moved to a whole new country alone where I'm by the beach (where I'm happiest an most emotionally regulated) an I finally have my own place where I can get rest without all the stressors of not having your own space an having to absorb all the toxic energies of other people while I’m hanging on by a thread. An because I’m by the ocean an regulated an can rest I can tackle my addictions an stressors. I am currently in a court battle with my narcissistic witchcraft using child's mother who does every thing she possibly can to get me to lose my mind just because she can’t manipulate me into a low vibrational life with her, an has gone as far as expressing through text she “wishes I would die”. I am trying to quit Goodys powder (over the counter pain killers) I took everyday multiple times a day for years (which have added to my immense stomach pain), as well as quitting playing video games every day all day, an a food addiction, all things I used to cope an survive. Not only that even though I know I have to take this journey alone I miss my son, I miss my friends an family an my body is in tons of pain specially the crushed nerves in my spine in multiple places through a life of trauma including childhood abuse an Iraq war as an Army Infantry Mortarman. So I've regressed back into my porn addiction a little an I’m not going to be to hard on myself because for one God has told me not to because he understands what kinda fire I’m in right now an he will pull me out, two i know imma gonna come out where I need to be while going through so many overwhelming an uncomfortable changes because God is merciful, gracious, an faithful. An three it’s scientifically proven that quitting addictions can cause people to regress back into other addictions while they learn to balance out again.
@@DanielRichardKiy God will pull me out the fire thanks for the comment brother. Read my prior post above this to get a better understanding of my situation God bless you.
@@GrayMattr Will do, and thank you for your service.
@@DanielRichardKiy I believe in you. I'm proud of you. You are a beautiful somebody. You are worthy, enough an abundant. God is gracious a merciful. Keep up the good fight. ✊🏼
As a young follower of Christ, I found myself being addicted to Porn and Masturbation myself. When I was young I got sexually assaulted by my older brother, and that led on to me being stuck onto that sin for years. It got to the point where I didnt know where the sin was coming from, how i didn't control it and why i felt so dirty and shameful after doing it. it also got to the point where I started experimenting with girls, and even my cousins and that day foreward when I got sexually assaulted from my brother, it became a lifestyle. It chained onto my so bad that eventually my parents and sister knew. And that day on, it changed my whole perspective. I was touched, and glorified that day when I decided to get baptized. I then went through trials and tribulations, and now I have been clean for at least 3 months, I was called to do ministry, praying for people, preaching.. and now as a young follower I am now set free and the Devil doesn't have a hold on me no more. I am saved through Christ! Now no matter what we dealth with, just remember God will use our brokedness into something more beautiful which will Glorify HIS name! Amen...
Wow, thank you so much for sharing🙌🏽. But God!!! 🙏🏽🙏🏽
Good for you ❤️❤️🙏🏿🙏🏿🌹
Please pray for me! I'm struggling
@@-bitzy- I pray that you follow the prince of peace 🕊️ and He have everlasting love and mercy on you 💙
It’s literally like I could’ve written your comment myself.. almost identical.. sexually abused as a child by more than one family member… by 3 at least.. all men.. and I grew up not being able to say no- not feeling the strength to say no even when I wasn’t interested.. I had a porn addiction and pushed this onto my friends.. I would even mess around sexually with my friends- girls and guys.. would sleep with men 10+ years older than me for most of my life so far.. wasn’t attracted to younger guys.. found myself watching girl on girl porn and watching it a lot..
So many other things.. I questioned if I was gay for many years.. sometimes I still do which makes me feel so awful
Jesus is real, he came and saved me when I didn't deserve it. I'm still trying to find my purpose but I will be forever grateful. Praise the lord
Always be in fervent prayer, and make sure Jesus' words are fresh in your mind. You can be reading or listening to the Gospel books in particular (Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John). That will keep you grounded and receptive to God's guidance. God be with you!
Psalm 90:17
And let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon us,
And establish the work of our hands for us;
Yes, establish the work of our hands.
Yo did you find your purpose yet?
@@Kevin4M3 good morning my friend. I think to have the wisdom that Jesus is our saviour and that he died for you and me I can't say my life has been great since I was saved but I knoe that God is there with me now which is something that I never had prior to this. I've had some amazing moments being in God's presence, while reading the word. It can be quite scary at times, I find myself trying to control situations alot but when I am able to let go and remember that Jesus did it for us already it's a truly beautiful moment
@@marcclaydon857 amen to that, cause rn I’m struggling to know my purpose and I’ve prayed about and got frustrated and that made me backslide, like how do you move on when you feel like nothing is working
You always deserve it. Love life. God is life. Love yourself. Then you will see a change in your life. Life is a mirror. What you put out comes back to you.
Y'all have No idea how much this testimony healed me. no idea.
NO MORE WATCHING HORSES FOR YOU HUN? 🐎🍆
The disappointment that comes after porn\masturbation is no joke
Yeah, it's what led to depression.
But God is good all the time.
It’s officially called Post Nut Clarity in male circles.
From a male standpoint, releasing semen is like releasing internal spiritual energy.
@@maryazaelledevy
Hello Mary sis I read your comment up there, me here struck in the hell I wanted to become good person but I failed so many time like Thomas Edison but this time I am different so can I get some inspiring words from you like I never been talked any girls since so many years, and
Do girls also watch porn like we do?
@@franklucas3963
Yes girls do watch pornographie.
My inspiring words for you: Satan will temp you to despair, he won't stop. Remember that whenever you are praying for forgiveness, he will be the first one to remind you of your sin and make you feel guilty. You would never listen to someone who puts you in danger, leaves you there and makes you feel guilty about it.
If you can remember these words, it will help you to always chose God over temporary pleasure.
"Jesus came and took me out of the box, looked me in the face and said: 'You are not alone, you were never alone, and you will never be alone'."
How true that is... You've always been there... Even when I didn't want you to be there. Your faithfulness and love have always covered me.
Please pray for me. I pray every day for strength. I been a porn addict since I was 11 years old and now I'm 38. And I got tired of feeling dirty, mad and hate towards myself after watching porn. I was spending more and more time watching porn then spending it with my family. It was consuming my life. I prayed a repented all my anger, sadness, hated, and for gave those who hurt me as a kid, even though they didn't ask me for forgiveness. Thank you for making this video. And i will pray for you and everyone who is battling this addiction! May God Bless you all!
I believe in you. I’m proud of you. You are a beautiful somebody. You are worthy, enough an abundant. God is gracious an merciful. Keep up the good fight. ✊🏼
@@GrayMattr Thank you very for your words of encouragement! I'm also battling with my addiction to alcohol, and marijuana! I been clean for a month and two weeks. It hard to break my habits that i would do every day. I seaked out counseling and it has helped out tremendously! I have a sponsor that helped me a lot to. I know change takes time and I'm just starting my journey. But I know i will be clean from every addiction with God's help and love! May you have a wonderful and Blessed day!
May the lord bless you and help you get delivered from that. One thing I can say is if you challenge yourself not to watch it and see where you can put it towards something productive like talking to God or even whatever God has blessed you with using that to Glorify Him. It’s easier said than done but I know with God it’s possible. Glory be to God and keep on fighting. 🙏🏿💜
You have been given authority in the Mighty Name of Jesus to trample on the heads of serpents and scorpions!!!! JESUS HEAL OUR LAND
@@librathegod8399 amazing, an np. God bless. 🛐💟✝️
I can relate to this testimony. I confess that I've been lusting after male celebrities, addicted to porn and sex songs, and masturbating. It was killing me to the point of feeling shameful. So I turned to God to seek healing because I don't want my sexual sins to not only destroy my faith, but also affect my relationships.
hmm be honest what p0rn got that men don't? I just want an honest answer. Why do women and men suffer with these burdens when they could just marry and satisfy each-other?
@@phillipbenoit5179 Porn is very painful, but it can be triggered by abuse. I don't know how, but it happened to me. I was molested by a family friend when I was around eight, which triggered a lot of masturbating and watching sexual stuff. It was really painful. God knows that sexual stuff is painful. So, you need to save anything intimate for someone you love after you're married.
Sexual sin is Satan's easy way to destroy our lives. I know with my dopamine shortage due to adhd- stress, anxiety and fear would bring me down- only dopamine would straighten my mind. Satan used that against me, and tried to destroy my life. But God woke me up to it. Theres no reason to lust, and I no longer act like an animal and then feel shame. Always repent imediately- don't fool yourself about God. Get right straight away no matter what.
I'm Jake in Australia & I drifted backwards out of Heaven from between two huge Angels into a black void and spent around 45 minutes in there. (Hear me about this eternal black void!)
It starts here. I found myself standing on a ledge, as wide as a footpath or sidewalk. Behind me was a pitch dark abyss in all directions- I twisted around and looked behind me down into the black darkness and was afraid to fall off the ledge. I looked outward and my eyes could not perceive what I was looking at because it is a physical place, with nothing in it.
In front of me to my left and right, were two huge Angels- they were about 10 foot tall, and very solid build- (if they were in your house their heads would be through the inner ceiling.) I was closest to the one on my left- and his calf muscle alone was up to my hip. He had curly hair. They did not talk to me, and were not aggressive but I could sense everything/ didnt need to talk. They did have a stance as though they were guarding. They each were standing in front of a large pillar, facing into Heaven. I didn't see any gates.
I did not know it was Heaven I was viewing at first- but I felt this amazing contentment & peace, because I was viewing a quaint township. In front of me was a street- no cars, but it did have a footpath along the side. Then there were these quaint double story houses like what you see in inner cities- terraced buildings/ town houses, with little front garden, front fence and a front gate. I could see two people greeting each other with big smiles and an embrace in an entrance doorway- we visit each other like friends in Heaven.
The street went to my right, and became a little town centre- quite narrow but very inviting- as though we can hang out together there. Off to the left of that street, a street went up a steep hill- it had a large tree half way up on the right and next to that was some kind of large town hall style building. That street went up to a crest and from my view the crest silhouetted into a blue sky. I sensed that over that hill was adventure, wilderness as though we can day trip as we do here.
So I was standing there smiling, and I thought to myself " this is all I've ever wanted" - the peaceful existence, the happiness with life. Just so relaxed and content And then I began sensing what others could feel there. People there are glad about being there for so many reasons. You can feel eternity there/ you sense time is headed toward eternity. I could sense time because of my flow of thoughts, i was exactly me with my memories, and I even had my body but it was a spiritual or heavenly body. I was me.
I sensed people are so glad because Heaven is all there is- it's the only place where life is. People were also just so glad because it's a beautiful place, and life is amazing there. Most of all though, I could sense Gods presence there- you can feel Gods love very strongly there- as though it's the air we breath there. I could see there was a gentle breeze through the parkland. It was like a gorgeous spring morning.
So I was standing there buzzing, wowed, just observing this amazing place, and realising it was Heaven. I was awestruck and ultra excited- It feels like you have always belonged there now you see it. I was not yet even thinking of anything except just amazement, I couldn't stop smiling.
But then it occured to me- what if I'm not going to enter? What if I was not to be allowed in? At that exact time- that thought turned into a heavy weight on my conscience, and I knew I was infact being judged- and might not enter. So by now I was desperately attached to the love and peace infront of me, this amazing existence in Gods presence. I wanted to enter and be there forever with those people, and those huge Angels. So as I wondered if I had lived a good enough life- or if I deserved to be in Heaven, deep down I really didn't know if I could enter. I could sense that by not entering I probably was going to drift backwards into the dark void. I noticed I was not actually standing on that ledge but floating 4 inches above it. We feel like we are standing in Heaven but we are floating just above the ground. It's an awesome feeling. I then slowly began drifting.. backwards at walking pace. Drifting backwards off that ledge, I could see under the ledge as I floated in the darkness- I could see the ledge now right in front of me was made of white light.
The Angels stood guard exactly where they were, and that street and houses, and parkland, the light of the spring day warmth and fragrances, the township buzzing, Gods presence, all just started to drift away- at walking pace,
I floated backwards into the darkest place- where there is nothing. Over 25 minutes- of my consciousness, Heaven became a small cube of colourful light. I was still not yet scared, because I was still looking at that cube of light, Heaven, and could still see the quaint township & trees. I was still BUZZING and smiling, from being in there for just 10 minutes. But the cube of light got smaller to a pin head dot of light, yet I still knew what was in there- Heaven, and an incredible life. Then it was gone. It was just me, and my thoughts...
I floated there, thinking about what I had just experienced. I turned my attention to this dark place. It was so weird initially- floating in darkness alone, but you accept it initially, and just float there observing the thick blackness and thinking randomly. You can sense it's universal in size, this place of nothing. I then wanted to comfort myself from the immediate isolation and began to sing. I could only remember the lyrics to two full songs. And then singing felt intimidating because I suddenly realised that I could sense eternity, as I sang. So contrasted with eternity, it was actually really frightening to sing. I began to think about me, my life. My memories.
I was bored of my memories in about 5 minutes, and quickly came back to the now, the dark void- where I could feel eternity. So I remembered me some more, so that I didn't have to think of eternity in darkness, but you run out of thoughts fast- because they are contrasted with eternity. So I was back in the now, in the void every time I tried to remember my life. There was no joy in it. You need new experiences to experience new joy. New gratitude, and so on.
Before long, I started thinking about what might have been the memories I had which cost me my place in eternity with God. - those memories i had bought with my soul. I was focussed on my memories of sin- they were so stupid and meant nothing to me even here on earth, let alone in the eternal void. Stupid decisions- things I'd stolen, filthy pornography, basic trashy sins, had been what I had bought with my soul.
I then was really upset with myself that I had been so pathetic to have chosen to not live a riteous life of any type- just continues gratification, like a pizza eating sloth, always chasing the next distraction from my thoughts.
Well- in the void- you become your own Hell, because all you can remember, is the dumbass things you bought with your soul. It's all you can remember because you are angry at yourself. You don't find any peace thinking about the beautiful experiences, so I just found i was so sad about my poor choices/ now contrasted with eternity where there is no life. It's continuous consciousness there, no sleep, no death to look forward to, all you can do is think. No belongings. Nothing to even see. Nothing to hear. I could not pick up my guitar and play music. And then there is the most painful feeling I felt- being separated from God. Knowing what I had seen and felt in Heaven, and knowing I had just eternal me and barely any thoughts worth having. It was so so bad, because I was truely stuck there- and had this heavy dread, knowing it is eternal and im not going to see any more life. There are no words to describe all the things you feel, as well as the physical sensation of being in that terrifying place. Until you feel it for yourself, do not underestimate just how terrible it is to be in hell.
I woke up with a loud shout at 2 am, next to my wife in bed. My heart was banging hard- bang bang bang bang, I was covered in sweat & I was rappid breathing, with that heart beat thumping so hard it was physically banging. My wife woke up startled at my shout. She asked what was wrong? and I told her I just dreamed I was in Hell. I tried to describe the fear I had just been in, and I could not talk but actually cried. I'm not a crier but I was a mess after that. I could not think of any words that made me feel better, when I described it. In the end, I just said it was " horrific ".
About 6 months after this dream, I began searching about black voids. I found this video of a guy who died in a plane crash. Check out the exact word he uses to describe the black void!! It was real mate. It was so real. I have prayed for dreams ever since, and God has given me other incredible Heaven and Hell dreams that add more AMAZING perspective to what I saw. Please view this video to confirm the guys description of the void. God Bless mate, Jake in Australia. (The dream happened 10 years ago for me).
Ps- Every thought you have, every decision you make now, every single action, becomes what you bought with your soul. Genuinely. You NEED Heaven, you want life, you want God. Do not missout. ua-cam.com/video/NhK4jwBmUX4/v-deo.html
powerful!!
Lusting? That is not Lust. Women cannot Lust. Only Men and Gays lust
I never knew that I was making Christianity my idol when I'm watching pastors and testimonies for my "devotion" instead of reading the word for myself. Wow, thank you for this.
Same! I thought that by me spending time listening to sermons was my time with God!
🎀I can relate to you So much!! I remember when I was so addicted to porn I started doing it as a "job" , I was heavy into drinking and drugs....I rejected God All the time and made a mockery of Christians.... There was So many times people tried sharing the gospel with me and I rejected them time and time again, I had so much anger, so much darkness within me, I was a slave to the enemy and I didn't even know it, I thought I was living "free".... Long story short , it took me to be at my Lowest when I was more suicidal then ever before, I was crying out to my dad on the phone and he begged me to pray, I was angry at his response and hung up....moments letter I fell to my knees and was So desperate and cried out to God.....not even knowing if I was being heard or not.....SO much poured out of my spirit, I don't even remember half of what I said....all I know is after that moment, something hit me, I felt something I never felt before....I was Never the same again, I felt God....I didn't even know what that meant, but now I know it was fully God, I felt a sense of peace and like I wasn't alone ... I felt in my heart that God was really true....he was really....Real....I couldn't explain it, but from that day forward I have Never been the same, over time I gave up all of my addictions and repented for all of my ways ... I now have been completely sober for 3 years and stopped doing / watching porn for over 5....God IS TRUE he IS, the GOD OF MIRACLES!!!!!!!!! If he could change me from the wicked woman I once was...I'm telling you, he can do a mighty work in ANYONE!!!!! I thank the Lord everyday that I'm Not who I used to be, ALL GLORY TO GOD!!!!!🙏💜
Thanks for the testimony. 🛐💟✝️
Amen! God bless you!!
❤️ that's awesome!
then JESUS SAID : Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
- Matthew 11:28-29
Don't forget when people give up, HE NEVER WILL as illustrated by the following prayer using caps as emphasis to communicate GOD KNOWS HOW AND WHEN TO MEND a broken heart TO REASSURE someone based on faith alone in JESUS CHRIST.
On a balcony of space STEPPED A PURE AND HOLY GOD. IN AWESOME SOLITUDE YOU STOOD ALONE. Not one faint star to give YOU light; just endless darkness, it was blackest night. But somehow in the darkness YOU COULD SEE.
YOU SAW mountains high and lofty, YOU SAW valleys lush and green. YOU SAW babbling brooks, and wildflowers grow, YOU EVEN HEARD a robin sing. Then through YOUR COMPASSION STANDING OUT THERE IN YOUR TOMORROW, YOU SAW forum's visitors, their families and friends. 🥰
YOU SAW them as sinners (missing the mark resulting in their weaknesses prevailing causing guilt of wrong doing) because there is no intrinsic righteousness in any of us due to Adam’s sin. YOU SAW them as they grew from a baby into adulthood due to YOUR HANDS OF MERCY. 🥰 YOU SAW them pursuing a career path for the purpose of obtaining the gains of the world not realizing that it is a loss compared to what YOU DID on the cross. YOU SAW them working long and laboring hard to receive the grace by justification even though YOU stated, "This is the work of God, that ye believe on him whom he hath sent."(John 6:29 KJV) YOU SAW the unwillingness to accept YOUR PLAN OF SALVATION THROUGH YOUR SON JESUS CHRIST. YOU SAW them living with the guilt of committing crimes to the heart. YOU SAW them enduring personal crisis. YOU SAW the weight of the burden on their hearts with each tribulation. YOU SAW them seeking comfort from the above mentioned topography, ONE OF THE MANY MARVELS YOUR PERFECT HANDS HAVE MADE. 👏👏👏 YOU SAW their worries about tomorrow.
If their hearts were a window that they could look through, oh the pains and scars they would see. What a cruel fate the skin gives as a mask to the inward pain. But the skin couldn’t cover THE SUFFERING YOUR ONE AND ONLY SON BORED on the cross as PAYMENT for all our sins because HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS ALONE HAD THE MERIT TO MEET THE REQUIREMENTS OF YOUR HOLINESS. Indeed, ONLY HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS IS SUFFICIENT TO SAVE us from this present evil world as evidenced by Mary's song of praise. "And Mary said, My soul doth magnify the Lord, And my spirit hath rejoiced in God my Saviour." (Luke 1:46-47 KJV) Awesome thanks to YOUR GREAT PARDON for being easy on the heart. 🥰
They have seen a lot of crazy things done in YOUR NAME. For example, the father of lies futile attempts to make crooked the right ways of the LORD to turn people away from faith in the WORKS OF JESUS CHRIST ALONE. How can anyone bear the thought of his or her life story detracting from the GLORY AND HONOR KNOWN TO BELONG TO CHRIST ALONE? As a consequence, YOU ARE A MYSTERY OF GREAT MYSTERY to them. Despite this conviction, YOU ARE MINDFUL of them as evidenced by the fact that YOUR JUDGEMENT is not speedy, allowing them to pursue the desires of the flesh.
They are aware of hypocrisy in religious assemblies that like to be seen and heard. In addition, secular education teaches that there is no right and wrong, if GOD exists there is no way of relating to HIM, and moral standards shift according to the whims of fashion. Therefore, their minds are conditioned to question everything this world has to offer including “THY POWER THROUGHOUT THE UNIVERSE DISPLAYED.” They have accepted the heavy burden of dealing with the troubles of this life and seek to know another way, YOU THE GREAT COMFORTER TO ALL who did receive YOU as their personal SAVIOR. Still, YOU have shown them NEW MERCY every day with each thought they make and each breath they take.
Unfortunately, like the prodigal son, we are all guilty of wandering far from YOU LORD because the negative experiences of our lives tend to build roadblocks to the TRUTH. As time marches on, JESUS CHRIST HELP them to identify the way, truth, and eternal life (that is YOU). Since to know and follow your SPIRIT is more exciting than any 007 movies, and YOU DELIGHT MAKING the ordinary into extraordinary. As time marches on, JESUS CHRIST MAKE them understand that there is no way around YOUR TRUTH, and that there is something about YOUR NAME. As time marches on, JESUS CHRIST HELP them defeat in their minds what is false in YOUR EYES.
LORD GUIDE their thoughts to know that the path of sin is hard on their hearts for the purpose of crying out to YOU to know the joy, peace of having the heavy burden LIFTED by THE GOD OF PEACE I AM, and ANCHOR their souls in THE HAVEN OF REST. In other words, LORD use the storms in their lives to get a hold of them to trust YOU and believe. In truth, YOU ARE THE JOY that seekest them through pain.
LORD HELP their fainting hearts to believe that YOU, who was slain on the cross over 2000 years ago has the POWER TO CHANGE lives today through the INSTANTANEOUS GREAT FAVOR from GOD to the house of Israel made known in believers by YOU to make YOUR NAME EVERLASTING. 🥰 For as the statue liberates the citizens so the cross liberates the soul. ONLY YOU can calm the trouble waters of the mind when one admits to wanting salvation from one’s sinful nature, JESUS IS LORD, and believes in the heart that GOD RAISED HIM from the dead TO LIFT the heavy burden of sin's guilt away from the heart in accordance to YOUR WORD found in Psalm 51:1-10 KJV. 👏👏👏👏👏👏 O, the wonder of it all to experience within the flesh the feeling of a tree being cut back/pruned in order for it to grow stronger and more beautiful after meditating on the words of said Psalm. 🥰🙌
LORD MAKE them know that ONLY YOUR HOLY SPIRIT, through the experience of a new birth within believers, can prevent the family circle from being broken because THE HOPE OF ETERNAL LIFE YOU HAVE GRANTED means a chapter of their lives is decided. Creation sings the rebirth song for them yearly, through YOUR PROMISE of springtime, giving rise to the idea that by the mention of YOUR NAME flowers grow, and the desert blooms again. 🥰
LORD GUIDE their understanding of words to use to come into YOUR PRESENCE with an honest reverence of WHO YOU ARE to experience the beauty that time can't erase YOUR WISDOM resting on their faces. LORD STRENGTHEN their determination to never waiver in efforts to search for YOU because the wages of sin is too high for anyone to pay. Additionally, THE KING OF KINGS is needed in their hearts to learn how to expand their capacity to love for YOU are LOVE in any language. 🥰 Once they learn to speak it with boldness through YOUR WONDERFUL COUNSELING all the world will hear, and know that LOVE is the language of their hearts. So LORD, KEEP KNOCKING on their door until they let YOU in to know hardships and struggles will end with a GREAT CELEBRATION WITH YOU. 🥰🙌
If one believes faith cannot be forced, YOU WILL GIVE that individual over to the stubborn heart to follow own counsel which will surely fail him or her to the extent that the punishment will last forever found in Psalms 81 NIV. Given this, I pray that YOU WILL MAKE that person see that this feeling is wasted for a world in which we become strangers as we age, gives us thrills instead of peace, aims to solve a problem but creates another, and unrest surges with each passing generation. Shed some light into their broken hearts for YOU ARE THE GREAT JEHOVAH, THE GOD THAT HEALETH thee.
Lastly, LORD when they call on YOU in earnest prayer to come into their hearts to be born again (repentance manifesting itself in a changed life), I pray that YOU WILL GIVE them the blessed assurance of their salvation because nothing breaks YOUR HEART, or tears YOU apart like when they cry from the trials of the devil who comes to slander, falsely accuse, steal, kill & destroy. Only by drawing nearer to YOU LORD will put them on a path to a glorious one way trip winding upward to YOU where pain is not welcome because the heart will never break anymore. For ONLY YOU UNDERSTANDS our tears since YOU LOOK at the heart, while humans look at the flesh.
O LOVE that will not let them go. When they don't have the strength to try, and have cried all they can cry hear their hearts that need YOU more today than yesterday. Many thanks LORD for speaking TRUTH in our lives TO BLESS those who are not offended by THEE. LET YOUR WILL BE DONE because YOUR LOVE ALONE CONQUERS everything by WAITING for them to cease struggling, and finally surrender to YOUR EMBRACE to learn about YOUR LOVE AND PROMISE TO TAKE CARE of your children exquisitely. 🥰 Since... "at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore"... (Psalms 16:11 KJV), and the nail print for them to know YOU by answering the following question. How did CHRIST LOVE people into a relationship with HIM? 🥰
Jesus can fix, restore and heal anything ... All we have to do is place it all in his hands and have true faith🌼🌈
This is interesting because it's so real. So many people now grow up with overstimulation and pornography accessible at all times. It's really easy to get caught up in destructive behavior. I love that today's newest generation of Christians are so much less judgmental. It seems like people understand that young people are born into an entirely different world and that they're depressed because they long for a relationship with God. It's so inspirational to hear someone admit the struggles they have in modern life and how they never gave up on finding a meaningful happiness through connecting to God.
I pray everyone would have a great day/evening/night. 🙏
Stand firm in the Lord sister. We love you, and thank you for sharing your testimony. Pray for me too as I go through my journey with Jesus Christ.
Thank you Jesus for saving us from our sins😊❤
What a magnificent testimony. So encouraging. I can say that porn is the single most destructive force toward societies. It's power for addiction is unparalleled because the brain chemicals of dopamine and norepinephrine are triggered by porn in ways that foreign substances such as drugs and alcohol. I'm a mental health professional who has worked with juvenile sex offenders and victims. Great kids, all of them, but harmed deeply by abuse. I'd say that out of 140 kids in our program, at least 90% of them have pornography in their past and present. Think about it. Yet out leaders do not ever talk about this. It's not politically correct.
hallelujah thank u Yah for saving me from pornography and I pray he breaks others free to amen
I don't watch many sermons or do many group bible study. But I've spent lots of time talking to God and reading bible, not fitting into the mold. It makes me so happy everyday.
I also learned that the only thing that fills the void is a relationship with God/Christ. None of the worldly stuff could do it, long term.
I was introduced to porn by one of my friends, I was 17. I started to get attached to it. It did not take me too long to realize that I was getting addicted to it, right before it happened I prayed to God and he cast it out (took me months to overcome it), now I'm free because ''who the son sets free, is free indeed''. Whoever is in this situation, the best way to feel better, is to tell it to someone you trust that can help you pray, don't keep it a secret if you really want to be free. Thank you for sharing my sister. May God bless you all.
How did you know that you were getting addicted?
Yes I was headed toward destruction/ losing everything I care about via porn & sin. I used to struggle too, but God gave me a wakeup call, and after that I can easily look the other way if there's temptation. I'm Jake in Australia & I drifted backwards out of Heaven from between two huge Angels into a black void and spent around 45 minutes in there. (Hear me about this eternal black void!)
It starts here. I found myself standing on a ledge, as wide as a footpath or sidewalk. Behind me was a pitch dark abyss in all directions- I twisted around and looked behind me down into the black darkness and was afraid to fall off the ledge. I looked outward and my eyes could not perceive what I was looking at because it is a physical place, with nothing in it.
In front of me to my left and right, were two huge Angels- they were about 10 foot tall, and very solid build- (if they were in your house their heads would be through the inner ceiling.) I was closest to the one on my left- and his calf muscle alone was up to my hip. He had curly hair. They did not talk to me, and were not aggressive but I could sense everything/ didnt need to talk. They did have a stance as though they were guarding. They each were standing in front of a large pillar, facing into Heaven. I didn't see any gates.
I did not know it was Heaven I was viewing at first- but I felt this amazing contentment & peace, because I was viewing a quaint township. In front of me was a street- no cars, but it did have a footpath along the side. Then there were these quaint double story houses like what you see in inner cities- terraced buildings/ town houses, with little front garden, front fence and a front gate. I could see two people greeting each other with big smiles and an embrace in an entrance doorway- we visit each other like friends in Heaven.
The street went to my right, and became a little town centre- quite narrow but very inviting- as though we can hang out together there. Off to the left of that street, a street went up a steep hill- it had a large tree half way up on the right and next to that was some kind of large town hall style building. That street went up to a crest and from my view the crest silhouetted into a blue sky. I sensed that over that hill was adventure, wilderness as though we can day trip as we do here.
So I was standing there smiling, and I thought to myself " this is all I've ever wanted" - the peaceful existence, the happiness with life. Just so relaxed and content And then I began sensing what others could feel there. People there are glad about being there for so many reasons. You can feel eternity there/ you sense time is headed toward eternity. I could sense time because of my flow of thoughts, i was exactly me with my memories, and I even had my body but it was a spiritual or heavenly body. I was me.
I sensed people are so glad because Heaven is all there is- it's the only place where life is. People were also just so glad because it's a beautiful place, and life is amazing there. Most of all though, I could sense Gods presence there- you can feel Gods love very strongly there- as though it's the air we breath there. I could see there was a gentle breeze through the parkland. It was like a gorgeous spring morning.
So I was standing there buzzing, wowed, just observing this amazing place, and realising it was Heaven. I was awestruck and ultra excited- It feels like you have always belonged there now you see it. I was not yet even thinking of anything except just amazement, I couldn't stop smiling.
But then it occured to me- what if I'm not going to enter? What if I was not to be allowed in? At that exact time- that thought turned into a heavy weight on my conscience, and I knew I was infact being judged- and might not enter. So by now I was desperately attached to the love and peace infront of me, this amazing existence in Gods presence. I wanted to enter and be there forever with those people, and those huge Angels. So as I wondered if I had lived a good enough life- or if I deserved to be in Heaven, deep down I really didn't know if I could enter. I could sense that by not entering I probably was going to drift backwards into the dark void. I noticed I was not actually standing on that ledge but floating 4 inches above it. We feel like we are standing in Heaven but we are floating just above the ground. It's an awesome feeling. I then slowly began drifting.. backwards at walking pace. Drifting backwards off that ledge, I could see under the ledge as I floated in the darkness- I could see the ledge now right in front of me was made of white light.
The Angels stood guard exactly where they were, and that street and houses, and parkland, the light of the spring day warmth and fragrances, the township buzzing, Gods presence, all just started to drift away- at walking pace,
I floated backwards into the darkest place- where there is nothing. Over 25 minutes- of my consciousness, Heaven became a small cube of colourful light. I was still not yet scared, because I was still looking at that cube of light, Heaven, and could still see the quaint township & trees. I was still BUZZING and smiling, from being in there for just 10 minutes. But the cube of light got smaller to a pin head dot of light, yet I still knew what was in there- Heaven, and an incredible life. Then it was gone. It was just me, and my thoughts...
I floated there, thinking about what I had just experienced. I turned my attention to this dark place. It was so weird initially- floating in darkness alone, but you accept it initially, and just float there observing the thick blackness and thinking randomly. You can sense it's universal in size, this place of nothing. I then wanted to comfort myself from the immediate isolation and began to sing. I could only remember the lyrics to two full songs. And then singing felt intimidating because I suddenly realised that I could sense eternity, as I sang. So contrasted with eternity, it was actually really frightening to sing. I began to think about me, my life. My memories.
I was bored of my memories in about 5 minutes, and quickly came back to the now, the dark void- where I could feel eternity. So I remembered me some more, so that I didn't have to think of eternity in darkness, but you run out of thoughts fast- because they are contrasted with eternity. So I was back in the now, in the void every time I tried to remember my life. There was no joy in it. You need new experiences to experience new joy. New gratitude, and so on.
Before long, I started thinking about what might have been the memories I had which cost me my place in eternity with God. - those memories i had bought with my soul. I was focussed on my memories of sin- they were so stupid and meant nothing to me even here on earth, let alone in the eternal void. Stupid decisions- things I'd stolen, filthy pornography, basic trashy sins, had been what I had bought with my soul.
I then was really upset with myself that I had been so pathetic to have chosen to not live a riteous life of any type- just continues gratification, like a pizza eating sloth, always chasing the next distraction from my thoughts.
Well- in the void- you become your own Hell, because all you can remember, is the dumbass things you bought with your soul. It's all you can remember because you are angry at yourself. You don't find any peace thinking about the beautiful experiences, so I just found i was so sad about my poor choices/ now contrasted with eternity where there is no life. It's continuous consciousness there, no sleep, no death to look forward to, all you can do is think. No belongings. Nothing to even see. Nothing to hear. I could not pick up my guitar and play music. And then there is the most painful feeling I felt- being separated from God. Knowing what I had seen and felt in Heaven, and knowing I had just eternal me and barely any thoughts worth having. It was so so bad, because I was truely stuck there- and had this heavy dread, knowing it is eternal and im not going to see any more life. There are no words to describe all the things you feel, as well as the physical sensation of being in that terrifying place. Until you feel it for yourself, do not underestimate just how terrible it is to be in hell.
I woke up with a loud shout at 2 am, next to my wife in bed. My heart was banging hard- bang bang bang bang, I was covered in sweat & I was rappid breathing, with that heart beat thumping so hard it was physically banging. My wife woke up startled at my shout. She asked what was wrong? and I told her I just dreamed I was in Hell. I tried to describe the fear I had just been in, and I could not talk but actually cried. I'm not a crier but I was a mess after that. I could not think of any words that made me feel better, when I described it. In the end, I just said it was " horrific ".
About 6 months after this dream, I began searching about black voids. I found this video of a guy who died in a plane crash. Check out the exact word he uses to describe the black void!! It was real mate. It was so real. I have prayed for dreams ever since, and God has given me other incredible Heaven and Hell dreams that add more AMAZING perspective to what I saw. Please view this video to confirm the guys description of the void. God Bless mate, Jake in Australia. (The dream happened 10 years ago for me).
Ps- Every thought you have, every decision you make now, every single action, becomes what you bought with your soul. Genuinely. You NEED Heaven, you want life, you want God. Do not miss out. ua-cam.com/video/NhK4jwBmUX4/v-deo.html
@@ren808_ I knew they were bad and I couldn't stop myself from watching them. I constantly wanted to see images or videos almost everyday and I couldn't help it. Also I felt that my mind was dirty all the time.That's how I knew.
@@UserRandJ That is amazing!! I had goosebumps reading your testimony.God uses many different ways to warn people about their living life. I'm so glad you understood and changed your ways before it was too late (before death).
Thank you for sharing.
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I had that addiction as well but God set me free after regular prayer and fasting, Engage in prayer and fasting I believe God will set you free remember Jesus said some demons only leave through prayer and fasting. And with your own strength you cannot beat an addiction you need the power of the holy spirit. So please engage in Fasting, seek God and ask him to baptize you with the holy spirit and disconect you from everything of darkness in your life.❤❤
Absolutely 😊❤
What a beautiful ,articulate,christian lady she has become with a mission to help. This story is uplifting! God's blessing to Eva is blessing us.
Listen your ability to articulate this testimony is straight from God - you spoke to me almost like we have lived the same life 😞 - Father i know of you , now let me know you - let me shine like Moses did coming off the mountain from spending time with you …
Lord hear His cry for help, His cry for You for more of You!💖 I ask in Jesus name💕 Amen 💕
@@leahhamer3708 amen
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Praise God for this woman, her husband and all those who made this video possible. Just proud to witness such joy.
I am struggling with porn addiction now and have been since I was in my teens. The process is exactly as you say, in and out of depression as I didn't feel worthy and was ashamed of who I was but could not stop. There were times I thought I had beat it and won but I still go back there to this day. The negative thoughts are a big one. All of a sudden I can be thinking life is pointless I think too long about my life, future, the spouse, where is she, where is God in this? Before you know it I don't want to live and become angry and rebellious to just go back to fulfilling myself then deflated having no pursuit to look after myself in subtle ways. I have refused to find a partner over the years, sometimes deeming myself not worthy or stable enough to support her or be the good Christian. Truth is she would deserve better that often comes to my mind. My dad was not towards my mom and I have anxiety that I will be the same and this holds me back to commiting to someone. Instead wanting to fix all my issues and lukewarm Christian tendencies and habits. How could I and can I bring all this into a relationship without hurting her. So I must walk alone and suffer until I defeat myself and inner battles. I am like you were too distracted to build my relationship with God Maturely because of screen time(gaming and movies/series. I admit I often am not ready to give them up and like recently have question if I am a Christian and had doubts I measure up. I have grown tired of it all.
Your testimony hit it on the head for me as there's so much relevance to my life and past it is not a coincidence I came across this. Thankyou and bless you for sharing, you are amazing and glad you found freedom from those things!
May The True and Living God set you free from anything that is keeping you bound.
Hey mate. Sin separates us from God- instantly. So repent every single time, immediately. Also- try looking the other way when ever there is a temptation- if you achieve that- your soul heals.
Another thing- Keep asking God for help. God woke me up real good if you read my story. Jake
I used to struggle too, but God gave me a wakeup call, and after that I can easily look the other way if there's temptation. I
I'm Jake in Australia & I drifted backwards out of Heaven from between two huge Angels into a black void and spent around 45 minutes in there. (Hear me about this eternal black void!)
It starts here. I found myself standing on a ledge, as wide as a footpath or sidewalk. Behind me was a pitch dark abyss in all directions- I twisted around and looked behind me down into the black darkness and was afraid to fall off the ledge. I looked outward and my eyes could not perceive what I was looking at because it is a physical place, with nothing in it- a pitch black place.
In front of me to my left and right were two huge Angels- they were about 10 foot tall, and very solid build- (if they were in your house their heads would be through the inner ceiling.) I was closest to the one on my left- and his calf muscle alone was up to my hip. Huge arms. He had curly hair. They did not talk to me, and were not aggressive but I could sense everything/ we didnt need to talk. They did have a stance as though they were guarding. They each were standing in front of a large pillar, facing into Heaven. I didn't see any gates.
I did not know it was Heaven I was viewing at first- but I felt this amazing contentment & peace, because I was viewing a quaint township. In front of me was a street- no cars, but it did have a footpath along the side. Then there were these quaint double story houses like what you see in inner cities- terraced buildings/ town houses, with little front garden, front fence and a front gate. I could see two people greeting each other with big smiles and an embrace in an entrance doorway- we can visit each other like friends in Heaven.
The street went to my right, and became a little town centre- narrow but very inviting- as though we can hang out together there. Off to the left of that street, a street went up a steep hill- it had a large tree half way up on the right and next to that was some kind of large town hall style building. That street went up to a crest and from my view the crest silhouetted into a blue sky. I sensed that over that hill was adventure, wilderness as though we can day trip as we do here.
So I was standing there smiling, and I thought to myself " this is all I've ever wanted" - the peaceful existence, the happiness with life. So relaxed and content. And then I began sensing what others could feel there. People there are glad about being there for so many reasons- they know/ feel it is eternal there. I sensed people are so glad too being in heaven because heaven is all there is- it's the only place where life exists. People were also just so glad because it's a beautiful place, and life is amazing in heaven. Most of all though, I could sense Gods presence there- you can feel Gods love very strongly there- as though it's the air we breath there. I could see there was a gentle breeze through the parkland. It was like a gorgeous spring morning.
So I was standing there buzzing, wowed, just observing this amazing place, and realising it was heaven. I was awestruck and ultra excited- It feels like you have always belonged there now you see it. I was not yet even thinking of anything except just amazement, I couldn't stop smiling.
But then it occured to me- what if I'm not going to enter? What if I was not to be allowed in? At that time my thoughts turned into a realisation that something was amiss/ not all was well with my soul and I knew I was infact being judged- and might not enter. So by now I was desperately attached to the love and peace infront of me, this amazing existence in Gods presence. I wanted to enter and be there forever with those people, and those huge Angels. So as I wondered if I had lived a good enough life or if I deserved to be in heaven, deep down I really didn't know if I could enter. I also sensed that by not entering I probably was going to drift backwards into the dark void. So I was there observing this beautiful real eternal life in front of me, but knowing I was maybe not going to enter.
I noticed I was not actually standing on that ledge but floating 4 inches above it. We feel like we are standing in Heaven but we are floating just above the ground. I then slowly began drifting.. backwards at walking pace. Drifting backwards off that ledge, I could see under the ledge as I floated in the darkness- I could see the ledge now right in front of me was made of white light.
The Angels stood guard exactly where they were, and that street and houses, and parkland, the light of the spring day warmth and fragrances, the township buzzing, Gods presence, all just started to drift away- at walking pace,
I floated backwards into the darkest place- where there is nothing. Over 25 minutes- of my consciousness, Heaven became a small cube of colourful light. I was still not yet scared, because I was still looking at that cube of light, Heaven, and could still see the quaint township & trees. I was still BUZZING and smiling, from being in there for just 10 minutes. But the cube of light got smaller to a pin head dot of light, yet I still knew what was in there- Heaven, and an incredible life. Then it was gone. It was just me, and my thoughts...
I floated there, thinking about what I had just experienced. I turned my attention to this dark place. It was so weird initially- floating in darkness alone, but you accept it initially, and just float there observing the thick blackness and thinking randomly. You can sense it's universal in size, this place of nothing. I then wanted to comfort myself from the immediate isolation and began to sing. I could only remember the lyrics to two full songs. And then singing felt intimidating because I suddenly realised that I could sense eternity, as I sang. So contrasted with eternity, it was actually really frightening to sing. I began to think about me, my life. My memories.
I was bored of my memories in about 5 minutes, and quickly came back to the now, the dark void- where I could feel eternity. So I remembered me some more, so that I didn't have to think of eternity in darkness, but you run out of thoughts fast- because they are contrasted with eternity. So I was back in the now, in the void every time I tried to remember my life. There was no joy in it. You need new experiences to experience new joy. New gratitude, and so on.
Before long, I started thinking about what might have been the memories I had which cost me my place in eternity with God. - those memories i had bought with my soul. I was focussed on my memories of sin- they were so stupid and meant nothing to me even here on earth, let alone in the eternal void. Stupid decisions- things I'd stolen, filthy pornography, basic trashy sins, had been what I had bought with my soul.
I then was really upset with myself that I had been so pathetic to have chosen to not live a riteous life of any type- just continuous gratification, like a pizza eating sloth, always chasing the next distraction from my thoughts.
Well- in the void- I became my own hell, because all I could think of is the stupid things I bought with my soul/ sin. It's all you can remember because you are angry at yourself. You don't find any peace thinking about the beautiful experiences, so I just found i was so sad about my poor choices, now contrasted with eternity where there is no life. It's continuous consciousness there, no sleep, no death to look forward to, all you can do is think. No belongings. Nothing to even see. Nothing to hear. I could not pick up my guitar and play music. And then there is the most painful feeling I felt- being separated from God. Knowing what I had seen and felt in Heaven, and knowing I had just eternal me and barely any thoughts worth having. It was so so bad, because I was truely stuck there- and had this heavy dread, knowing it is eternal and im not going to see any more life. There are no words to describe all the things you feel, as well as the physical sensation of being in that terrifying place. Until you feel it for yourself, do not underestimate just how terrible it is to be in hell.
I woke up with a loud shout at 2 am, next to my wife in bed. My heart was banging hard- bang bang bang bang, I was covered in sweat & I was rappid breathing, with that heart beat thumping so hard it was physically banging. My wife woke up startled at my shout. She asked what was wrong? and I told her I just dreamed I was in Hell. I tried to describe the fear I had just been in, and I could not talk but actually cried. I'm not a crier. I could not think of any words that made me feel better, when I described it. In the end, I just said it was " horrific ". I also wonder if my heart had actually stopped, because it was more real than a dream.
About 6 months after this dream, I began searching about black voids. I found this video of a guy who died in a plane crash. Check out the exact word he uses to describe the black void!! It was real mate. It was so real. I have prayed for dreams ever since, and God has given me other incredible Heaven and Hell dreams that add more AMAZING perspective to what I saw. Please view this video to confirm the guys description of the void. God Bless mate, Jake in Australia. (The dream happened 10 years ago for me).
Ps- Every thought you have, every decision you make now, every single action, becomes what you bought with your soul. Genuinely. You NEED Heaven, you want life, you want God. Do not miss out. ua-cam.com/video/NhK4jwBmUX4/v-deo.html
God bless you Joe! Im not sure if you are a church goer but maybe find a good one and go. We all know the stigma but what I learned is its not about simply going to a church and that be the solution but finding the one that truly represents what it was intended to be, a true community of sinners just loving Jesus and being a part of it.
The reason I'm even talking about this is because I started going back to church an met some truly wonderful people who brought me and my family in day 1. Fast forward a year, I run the soundboard on Wednesday nights for rehearsals and for Sundays worship and will be going to Bible study soon on Mondays.
I relate all of this to King David on the roof top seeing Bathsheba and we all know how that goes down... the fact of the matter, King David SHOULD have been with his army and not at home. Had he been where he should have been, none of that would have happened.
So.... all of that said and hopefully you stuck with me... I try to fill my time helping advance Gods Kingdom or learning about Him so that I dont have time for the fleshly desires...
I've put a decent password required porn blocker on my phone so screen time is safer to an extent so if an urge comes along, its inhibited. Truth is, prayer is the MOST effective thing, we can't do anything without Jesus.
Thanks for reading and hopefully it helps you. Good luck on the journey and I'll see you in paradise.
Your are not alone.
Before going to bed read the word of God, audibly. And read more and more word of God (Bible). Spend time in worship.
I love this testimony, it reminds me of my past and because of your testimony I have more clarity of what I experienced until I officially gave my life to Christ.
I cry every time I watch these videos. Thank you for bring testimonies of brothers and sisters in Christ. I pray that her story will help someone.
“You never were alone”!
Hallelujah! Jesus Christ was there all along, even when we didn’t know it!
Praise God!
Totally relate to her. I was sexually and physically abused by my older sisters as a child. I was bullied at school as well. Messed me up big time. Keep climbing that mountain girl!
Lucky guy. Were your sisters hot?
Hi Ry, how have you been?
I Pray that your true identity in Jesus Christ may grow. Keep that mountain!
Knowing you and seen the change rejoice my heart. Your boldness and courage to do a video like this is priceless. You are not alone. Our testimonies are for others. To help others heal and to know that they are not alone. Thank you . May the Lord continue working in you with you. You have been set free. Love you. ❤
Thank you, I love you too ❤️
@@TheSiguilFamily 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾👏🏾👏🏾🙌🏾
Wow. This was an extremely powerful testimony. I thank God I came across this. Her words triggered so many feeling and emotions that I’m experiencing. I could relate to the binge watching of TV, obsessively watching porn, and being lost in a virtual reality. I never equated to a depression, but I’m feeling that’s what it might be. I do feel alone even within the friendships and relationships I’ve built with friends and family. I do feel that because I’m not working I’m not doing anything and I’m falling behind in life. I do thank God for helping me though my cancer journey. It’s been 6 months from my transplant , and I’m still recovering. All has been well 😃Please anyone who my come across and read this, pray for me. 🤲🏾🤲🏾🤲🏾
Praying for your recovery 😊 hoping that all is well
This story was so relatable! Starting from baptism and believing some big change will happen but it happens gradually. Mine happened 5 years after my baptism. Where I fell into a depression and half of my family was gone. I see it now God wanted me to distance so that I can connect with the Holy Spirit. Sometimes it takes moments of pain to finally surrender to Gods life and purpose for you. I love how you mentioned you tried to fill in the void when you could only fill it in with God. I am in the same path right now. Not prioritizing my relationship with him but am listening to worship music, attending church, and listening to sermons as well. But I need to make that relationship with God my priority. I fasted for a few hours just now and I asked HIM to reveal whatever was not dead but dormant in my life. This video shared that revelation for me. Thank you so much.
Just going by the title we can tell this testimony will help many…♥️
Personally; I disagree. Discovering who you are via porn can be a fulfilling experience not only with yourself but with your Individual Maker/God/Goddess. Enjoy your body. Experience your animal passions through others. Be real with yourself and those around you. Thank you for letting me share 🤗.
@@TBRRBT What you just said is like words from satan himself, please seek God, he is the only God of purity
@BigYumps It's Satan; with a capital S. You do you and let others discover the bliss of their own bodies on an individual level and with many others. Sex is natural and fun, especially when sex is two on one 🤗‼️
This video was the most real, relatable, heart breaking yet completely restoring video I've seen. I love testimonies and I was truly blessed watching this. It randomly popped up on my page as I was sitting outside telling God I need something right now as I've been feeling alone. Thank You for creating this channel. It will touch many. And thank you Ava for releasing your testimony. I Pray God continues to show Himself to you, and continue to make you whole. Your life brings hope. But the Bible brings transformation and to everyone reading He has done it before and He will do it again. He is Love. God Bless you all.
God bless you and thank you for you kind words
I’m so grateful the editing for these videos has changed. I get more drawn into testimonies when the speaker is the only voice speaking. I’m not big on hearing the producer ask questions. The editing out of these questions make the video flow better imo. ty!!
The editing must be amazing bc this is the first video I have ever watched from this channel and I didn’t even realize anything was missing. The story flowed so nicely I thought she was talking to the camera without anyone else in the room for 25 minutes. Was wondering how she spoke so eloquently and purposefully for so long
Amen!! This testimony spoke to me so much. One thing that really stood out to me is “I knew about Him, but I didn’t know Him.” Wow I didn’t even realize that was a problem for me. I too immerse myself in other peoples stories, the Bible app but I never stop to have time w God. Thank you!!
You put the biggest smile on my face when talking about how you jumped from one thing to the next to fill your time. I have been doing the same. Time to look at more direct contact time with my Lord. Thank you for your wonderful, honest testimony!
i cant believe how vulnerable she is - at such a young age -
For what ever reason it never occurred to me that just listening to sermons all day wasn't good enough. I, too, have struggled with a porn addiction. I replaced it with college, now when I go to bed at midnight to one in the morning it is because of studying, not hiding in the bathroom watching porn. There are things I've done in the past that I should never be forgiven for, and yet my wife and God have both forgiven me and love me dearly. Even now there are times when I am studying that I think about looking at it, but then I turn my thoughts away and focus even more on my studying; it has been hard at times.
Thank you for this video it opened my eyes to see I need to seek God in my own way and not just listen to other peoples findings in the bible.
Wow the “binge watching sermons “ 😩🙏🏼 Lord give us the desire to serve you in spirit and in truth
I relate too. Amen 🙏🏿
She is such a sweet young lady. I'm so thankful she truly accepted Jesus.
Man God really spoke to me through this testimony. Speaking directly into my circumstances
I had that addiction as well but God set me free after regular prayer and fasting, Engage in prayer and fasting I believe God will set you free remember Jesus said some demons only leave through prayer and fasting. And with your own strength you cannot beat an addiction you need the power of the holy spirit. So please engage in Fasting, seek God and ask him to baptize you with the holy spirit and disconect you from everything of darkness in your life.❤❤❤
“A lot of things that helped me build knowledge but not wisdom because I almost never could apply it to my life and if I did apply some things and gain wisdom it could only take me but so far because I never truly built a relationship with Jesus”
Wow. 🥺😩
god is good all times
Praying that God breaks me from this addiction, it’s not bad but catch myself watching this poison when I know I shouldn’t . Can go days and months but out of nowhere I start watching it again. I know one day I’m going to break the cycle
i been praying god takes my depression for last 35 years god takes nothing
Don’t worry, if you’ve accepted Christ your sin is payed for in full… God calls us to turn to him, he knows you’re going to sin but he wants you to seek forgiveness and obedience and Gods grace handles the rest. Peace to you
Putting tv/movies/entertainment or even Christian content over Jesus is sooo real. I needed to hear that. I know that I haven’t put God first in my life and let these things distract me.
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset.
You must submit to God. That is essential:
James 4:7-8
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
That's what your attitude needs to be when you are going through the process of *repentance* and committing to be obedient to God for the rest of your life (that's the kind of "change of mind" God wants to see). You must sincerely regret having sinned against God, and come to the point of hearing and agreeing 100% with Jesus' message saying, "I do not condemn you, now go and don't sin anymore" (John 8:11). Your obedience as you choose to follow God's ways is key--that's how you show your faith to God (John 3:36, Luke 6:46, Hebrews 3:17-18). That opens the door to receiving his *forgiveness* for your past sins (2 Peter 1:9), *healing* (Luke 5:31-32), *freedom from sin/addictions* (John 8:34-36), and the gift of *a new life* that you will live for God and no longer for sin and the passing things of the world (Romans 6:4, 2 Corinthians 5:17, Galatians 6:15). That is the salvation you must make sure you have experienced: freedom from sin (John 8:36, Romans 8:1-2) versus bondage to sin (John 8:34, Romans 7:23).
Approaching God in genuine repentance will lead to you receiving the Holy Spirit to lead you to "walk by the Spirit" (Acts 2:38, Galatians 5:16)--with a pure heart and self-control, which is a fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23). Any habit that controls you reveals idolatry in your heart. You have to choose to be done with that and it will be part of your past. That's one thing that will come out of your commitment to be obedient to God for the rest of your life. Please see 1 Peter 4:1-3 and 1 Thessalonians 1:9.
James 1:21-22
21 Therefore, putting away all filthiness and overflowing of wickedness, receive with humility the implanted word, which is able to save your souls [that's repentance]. 22 But be doers of the word [that's faith, which implies obedience], and not only hearers, deluding your own selves.
Hebrews 5:9
And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of 👉 *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].*
Please stay in the word and obey it (James 1:21-22). The word of God is fuel for your faith. To live as a follower of Jesus you must go out of your way to put the word of God in your heart and keep it there, rejecting all distractions. It's a fight and that's how you need to stand to not fall down. The truth will set you free from all sin (John 8:31-32, 36).
I like how she described being ALONE was like being stuck in a box and you can move
I’m a recovering alcoholic addict and porn addict I’m still struggling with this is my truth I’m coming up 3 years sober and clean I’ve been baptised but porn is still one the enemy uses but it’s getting less and less ❤️🙏✝️
Pray for the Holy Spirit to work within you. Jesus can set you free from it. Just don't give up! He will Never, Ever give up on you. He loves you too much!! I've been through that road too and My Lord And Savior Jesus, helped me through it.
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset.
You must submit to God. That is essential:
James 4:7-8
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
If you do what Jesus says, that will lead you to your deliverance. You must obey God.
Hebrews 5:9
And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].*
Luke 6:46
Why do you call me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do the things I say?
Luke 9:23
And he [Jesus] said to all, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and 👉 follow me."
John 8:31-36
31 Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples. 32 *And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”* 33 They answered Him, “We are Abraham’s descendants, and have never been in bondage to anyone. How can You say, ‘You will be made free’?” 34 Jesus answered them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, *whoever commits sin is a slave of sin.* 35 And a slave does not abide in the house forever, but a son abides forever. 36 Therefore *if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.*
God bless you, and this interview, I can’t put into words, what this interview is done for me. One thing I recognize, is that you’re not alone, I struggled with that for so many years, lost relationships with great people great women, lost so many friendships. Because I was in this box. Thank you for sharing.. so much. it’s meant a lot to me. I need help, and one thing after giving my life over to Jesus Christ, unfortunately admitting to slipping, I can feel, when things just aren’t right. Because he is letting me know that you have slipped off track. I’m going through a hard time. And anyone that reads this just know that you’re not alone you can always reach out to Jesus Christ.
I hope you continue to fight this fight and just stick in there cus although the battle isn’t over yet, it’s already won.
I have seen many of these interviews and this one aligned most closely with myself. I am praying for Gods help to be a woman of God, because Lord knows I cannot do this on my own.
You are set free by the authority of Y'e'shua Christ Jesus of Nazareth and no weapon formed against you shall prosper.
The enemy is defeated, bound and rebuked in Christ Jesus' Holy name.
You are healed by the blood of Christ Jesus and given a new mind, new spirit and your glorified new body awaits you for the day of resurrection .
I shall meet you in the kingdom of heaven after Christ returns. Amen.
You are set free by His blood shed on the cross at Calvary.
@Veronica Elizondo I respectfully suggest that you appreciate the body God gave you and enjoy what it is that turns you on. There is nothing wrong with being human. The beauty about the tests God gives us is that there actually tests about our individual connection with God; not in a guilt filled way but in an honest way. For example; if girl on girl turns you on then be honest & tell God then ask why. It is much better than attempting to hide your true feelings about it. God made you as you & God dosen't make mistakes so if the movie "Debbie Does Dallas 2" turns you on; it is because it is supposed to. Enjoy your body. Blessed Be-🌟
i can relate and admire her courage in giving her testimony which i lack at times
Great testimony sister!!! Praise God!
JOY. The joy only He can give. God is everything. I pray for those that don't know God and those that decide not to seek Him. How much our hearts needs Him.
Eva, thank you for sharing this . Like myself i'm sure there is so many people out there listening that really needed to hear this. Thank you Jesus, for guiding this child of God. Thank you Jesus, for restoring her soul.
I did same thing at age 14 - 25 I feel lost my soul and faith. I was guilty myself. I pray GOD to forgive me for my all mistakes and I don’t want to die. I was addicted to porn addiction and masturbation a lot of 12 years ago. I struggled with depression and anxiety for horrible things that I did
I felt like this comment section is a safe place. So, I struggled the same stupid addiction. from growin up in a Christian home, leading worship and youth groups to no longer going to church or even pray for the last 6 years and it just about 3 months now since I decided to go back to church and accepted Jesus again in my heart and is slowly trying to accept and believe that Jesus still loves me despite the filthiness, studpidity I think about myself from what I did. From being molested as a minor, to being addicted to porn to going out with men Im not n a relationship with to drinking to partying. Nobody from my past church back in the province knows what Ive been through and I have no long time Christian friends here where I live now but I met new ones from this new church community i decided to be a part of from now on. I am so desperate to giving and serving my life back to the Lord and now its going well so far by Gods Grace. I'm in a discipleship small group right now and my leader asked me if theres still anything that Im struggling with. she wants me to tell her even tho I already confessed my sins to the Lord. I only knew her for almost 3 months and from what I know she had no experience like mine. I opened up already about my drinking my partying and stuff, the not going to church or praying but this porn and masturbating addiction ive been thru I havent told her.( which by the way i last did it last month 🥲) Do you guys think thats okay and really necessary to share? I knew I needed help but I really not comftble even tho I believe she can be trusted. She has a very strong intimidating kind of personality but really sweet the same time lol. Hellllpp.
You should only share it if you feel comfortable. Could you talk with a Christian counselor?
@@WmofGd Thank you soooo much 😭😇
@@sonflowerday I will ! Thank youuu🥰😇
you don't gotta tell anybody anything you don't want to
@@traveler4043 I appreciate it 😊
My Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on us struggling with this demonic entity 🙏🏼 Lord Jesus Christ I trust in you guide us in your ways. ✝️
We ultimately have nothing but God's mercy and grace. Jesus, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking on our flesh, and then sacrificing Yourself on the cross for us. Then, You arose from death, conquering all, making us your brothers and sisters. You are our dearest friend. You bear all our burdens, if we will only surrender them to You. I have life now because of You. Thanks for your testimony.
Watching this has caused me to seek God further I have fallen into a depression and I want out I want to know true joy
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset.
You must submit to God. That is essential:
James 4:7-8
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
If you do what Jesus says, that will lead you to your deliverance. You must obey God.
Hebrews 5:9
And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].*
Luke 6:46
Why do you call me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do the things I say?
Luke 9:23
And he [Jesus] said to all, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and 👉 follow me."
John 8:31-36
31 Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples. 32 *And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”* 33 They answered Him, “We are Abraham’s descendants, and have never been in bondage to anyone. How can You say, ‘You will be made free’?” 34 Jesus answered them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, *whoever commits sin is a slave of sin.* 35 And a slave does not abide in the house forever, but a son abides forever. 36 Therefore *if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.*
Thank you for sharing this, God and the Holy Spirit talked to me through your testimony.
Hello pamela✋🏻
How are You doing?
Digging into one's emotions and speaking to God is key. David in the psalms poured out his heart to the Lord. Writing poetry expressing your heart to Jesus. Dealing with abandonment, self rejection and fear. The God who sees me.
Ms. Eva. Thank you for sharing your very intimate details and early struggles. It is so amazing that from the horrific abuse you experienced and the first unthinkable porn images you were exposed to, you have turned to Jesus and found salvation. A salvation that has not only brought you out of those dark places, but is now enabling you to publicly share your testimony. It takes a very brave, healed, God-loving person to be able to do this.
@7:46 The Holy Spirit was already strong in you. So awesome. If only I listened to the Holy Spirit speaking to me in times of temptation and the subsequent sins, I wouldn't be in the mess I'm in right now!!
It is so true that Jesus saves us. He is now using you as a disciple to lead others to Jesus. And to help the healing process to those of us suffering from these same issues of porn addiction to come out of the darkness and into the light. Amen Ms. Eva, Amen 🙏🏽🌹
God is a God of salvation, not condemnation. He calls us to repent which doesn’t mean we don’t sin, it means we turn from loving sin to loving God. It means we trust him to remove our sin and to rely on his grace and not the law to justify and sanctify us. Praise Jesus, amen 🙏
This is the without doubt one of the most powerful testimonies I've ever heard and applies 100% to my life. If I told you how I got here … sex.alcohol.Job... wow.I thank God for your AMAZING HONESTY!! WOW!!! Thank you, Thank you you, even though I'm smashed on alcohol and have been a Christian for many years,I''m completely challenged ,please Jesus change me.. God bless you
😢I feel the pain of all of this testimony but thanks be to God who kept my mind while I grew out of these phases...and the covering of the Lord Jesus Christ
I loved her testimony I struggled a lot in my life and I'm sorry you was abused and hurt back in the days my heart goes out to you but you're right Jesus will never leave you or forsake you he's always been there no matter what the devil says he can never separate you from the love of God nothing not the world no body, God bless you and I pray for this lady you are a woman who has a lot of courage I give that to you
But I’m finding these testimonies are giving me hope and the courage to rebuke the enemy so thank you so so much Johnny from London ✝️❤️🙏
Your testimony speaks for so many. God bless you and your family. He's been with you all your life and has been guiding you.
Awesome to see someone fight their fight. Warrior heart! God’s blessing will be renewed upon you every day.
I was held down by that same sin for so long. But it was like God kept blocking it from progressing. My feelings would turn to guilt in the moment and I couldn’t go on with it.
wow what a beautiful testimony and may God fullfill all of us in the name of Jesus christ 😇
How careful we must be with children, what many do not understand is that they are the next generation… am sad to hear , see these things .. broken homes, imagine living with friends etc etc…thank God for Yeshua… what are we with out Him.. He makes all things beautiful! Beautiful testimony…
True
I'm glad you found your way. There is so much deception out there and so many people live in darkness. Jesus Christ is the true light of men. Thanx for your testimony
This testimony spoke to my heart & soul!
Listening to this is helping me to regain the motivation to fight my porn addiction. God never gives up. Why should we.
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset.
You must submit to God. That is essential:
James 4:7-8
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
That's what your attitude needs to be when you are going through the process of *repentance* and committing to be obedient to God for the rest of your life (that's the kind of "change of mind" God wants to see). You must sincerely regret having sinned against God, and come to the point of hearing and agreeing 100% with Jesus' message saying, "I do not condemn you, now go and don't sin anymore" (John 8:11). Your obedience as you choose to follow God's ways is key--that's how you show your faith to God (John 3:36, Luke 6:46, Hebrews 3:17-18). That opens the door to receiving his *forgiveness* for your past sins (2 Peter 1:9), *healing* (Luke 5:31-32), *freedom from sin/addictions* (John 8:34-36), and the gift of *a new life* that you will live for God and no longer for sin and the passing things of the world (Romans 6:4, 2 Corinthians 5:17, Galatians 6:15). That is the salvation you must make sure you have experienced: freedom from sin (John 8:36, Romans 8:1-2) versus bondage to sin (John 8:34, Romans 7:23).
Approaching God in genuine repentance will lead to you receiving the Holy Spirit to lead you to "walk by the Spirit" (Acts 2:38, Galatians 5:16)--with a pure heart and self-control, which is a fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23). Any habit that controls you reveals idolatry in your heart. You have to choose to be done with that and it will be part of your past. That's one thing that will come out of your commitment to be obedient to God for the rest of your life. Please see 1 Peter 4:1-3 and 1 Thessalonians 1:9.
James 1:21-22
21 Therefore, putting away all filthiness and overflowing of wickedness, receive with humility the implanted word, which is able to save your souls [that's repentance]. 22 But be doers of the word [that's faith, which implies obedience], and not only hearers, deluding your own selves.
Hebrews 5:9
And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of 👉 *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].*
Please stay in the word and obey it (James 1:21-22). The word of God is fuel for your faith. To live as a follower of Jesus you must go out of your way to put the word of God in your heart and keep it there, rejecting all distractions. It's a fight and that's how you need to stand to not fall down. The truth will set you free from all sin (John 8:31-32, 36).
Wow I needed to hear this! I think this was for me! I’m addicted to my phone! I need you all to pray for me pls! I’m in tears! Thank you for sharing this!
In Jesus name, I pray against the spirit of addiction that is afflicting Dal B, I break the phone addiction over this persons life, Thank you God for delivering this person and giving them peace beyond all understanding.
Such a beautiful testimony. So many layers to your story but if anything it teaches us that this life is a journey and we have to walk it with Christ. When we fall down we gotta run to Him.
Thank you so much for telling us about your struggles with porn. While your addiction was very different from my own, the similarities that I've noticed are heart wrenching for me. It was only around a month ago when I was given an epiphany about God that I genuinely started to believe that I could actually leave all of this perverted stuff behind, but I was falling into that trap of obsessing over everyone else's relationship with God rather than focusing on my own. Thank you so very much, and God bless you.
Just know that we love you as children of God and Jesus and the holy spirit .
Thank you for such a brave testimony beautiful sister!!
I’ve never had a porn problem, until last night, I caved in and watch it maybe 10 minutes, I became so SICK inside, I began to cry out to GOD I’m a recovering alcoholic and addict, so porn is just another soul sickness,
I had that addiction as well but God set me free after regular prayer and fasting, Engage in prayer and fasting I believe God will set you free remember Jesus said some demons only leave through prayer and fasting. And with your own strength you cannot beat an addiction you need the power of the holy spirit. So please engage in Fasting, seek God and ask him to baptize you with the holy spirit and disconect you from everything of darkness in your life.🎉🎉🎉
This helped me soo much. I feel so alone, but her words really encouraged me to know that I'm not. It's hard to even get up and I long for marriage so much, but I realize that none of that will really satisfy me the way God does. Jesus is Lord. God please help me.
I AM JUST FLORRED I THOUGHT I WAS ALONE IN THIS BUT I THANK YOU AND IM LOOKING TO JESUS FOR HELP BUT I STILL FEEL UNWORTHY AND AT TIMES LOST.....
Praise Jesus!
Amen
She has such a sweet humility to her. This was so powerful
I was a Hindu and i am currently going through a process where Jesus Christ is guiding me and helps me. I never been to church and or meet a pastor in real life
Jesus Christ is guiding me via internet and recently he helped me buy a study Bible of Dr Charles swindoll.
Hello sir. How are you doing? I can help you out
@@brightukoafia5508 thanks my friend.
Jesus Christ is giving me all the help i need
God bless you
I pray that someday I'll share my testimony to help others. I have so much I want to say.
We are never alone 😭 Thank you Lord Yahshua Jesus❤
Very good etiquette. Your story, testimony, your 360°, inspirational. My life may not be drug or prison, but my issues need the same savior.
I'm so grateful for the honest testimonies from people. The traps of this world are real and not many people would understand the spiritual dangers unless a regular real person can tell their honest story. The road to finding Yahuah can take a long time and much pain before we finally see we really do need Him. Thank you so much for sharing. 💜🌹💜
Don't look back. Your past is over. God's word is a light to shine in this dark world
God bless you my sister in Christ!!! This is a very powerful testimony. I’ve been dealing with lust on and off for a long time, lately it’s taken a role on my mental health. I repented earlier tonight and then came across this video. God works in amazing ways and He has a purpose for each and every one of us. God bless you all!!!
Thank you so much for sharing your testimony! It is very powerful. Jesus is the only one who can fulfill it all!
John 8;36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. 🙏🙏🙏 This generation needs this kind of Testimony may the Lord free all who are addicted to porn and other bad things
Your testimony really moved me. Thank u for being so open, honest and brave enough to put your testimony out there for all of us to see.
Woah. Her testimony is strikingly similar to my life. God bless you girl. Thank you for sharing.
I'm struggling with porn but Jesus Christ is helping me you are a brave woman .alot of people would never do this. God is making me stronger 💪 God bless you 🙏
Please make sure you approach God the way He expects you to with the right mindset.
You must submit to God. That is essential:
James 4:7-8
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
That's what your attitude needs to be when you are going through the process of *repentance* and committing to be obedient to God for the rest of your life (that's the kind of "change of mind" God wants to see). You must sincerely regret having sinned against God, and come to the point of hearing and agreeing 100% with Jesus' message saying, "I do not condemn you, now go and don't sin anymore" (John 8:11). Your obedience as you choose to follow God's ways is key--that's how you show your faith to God (John 3:36, Luke 6:46, Hebrews 3:17-18). That opens the door to receiving his *forgiveness* for your past sins (2 Peter 1:9), *healing* (Luke 5:31-32), *freedom from sin/addictions* (John 8:34-36), and the gift of *a new life* that you will live for God and no longer for sin and the passing things of the world (Romans 6:4, 2 Corinthians 5:17, Galatians 6:15). That is the salvation you must make sure you have experienced: freedom from sin (John 8:36, Romans 8:1-2) versus bondage to sin (John 8:34, Romans 7:23).
Approaching God in genuine repentance will lead to you receiving the Holy Spirit to lead you to "walk by the Spirit" (Acts 2:38, Galatians 5:16)--with a pure heart and self-control, which is a fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23). Any habit that controls you reveals idolatry in your heart. You have to choose to be done with that and it will be part of your past. That's one thing that will come out of your commitment to be obedient to God for the rest of your life. Please see 1 Peter 4:1-3 and 1 Thessalonians 1:9.
James 1:21-22
21 Therefore, putting away all filthiness and overflowing of wickedness, receive with humility the implanted word, which is able to save your souls [that's repentance]. 22 But be doers of the word [that's faith, which implies obedience], and not only hearers, deluding your own selves.
Hebrews 5:9
And having been made perfect, He [Jesus] became the author of 👉 *eternal salvation to all those who obey Him [...].*
Please stay in the word and obey it (James 1:21-22). The word of God is fuel for your faith. To live as a follower of Jesus you must go out of your way to put the word of God in your heart and keep it there, rejecting all distractions. It's a fight and that's how you need to stand to not fall down. The truth will set you free from all sin (John 8:31-32, 36).
Beautifully honest and genuine testimony from this Sister, whom God will use powerfully to lead souls closer to Him.🙏 Blessings, upon those hearing and responding to this message of love! 💗
Wow EVERYTHING you talked about was me and is me sometimes but I am a 49 year old black male. It's so good to hear you talk because now I see things from a different perspective. Sometimes you can't see you're on faults. I asked God to please show me things I am doing wrong as I do a 30 day Pray of Jabez Fast. He sent me you. THANK YOU for being brave and saying what we, I and they needed to hear and see. I will add you and your family and ministry if you have one to my prayer list for the remaining fast. God bless🙏🛐✝
Go can and deliver just believe in his power Amen