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  • Опубліковано 25 гру 2024

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  • @VerdantVanille
    @VerdantVanille  Місяць тому +19

    Dear Tribe, thank you so much for watching ♡ If you're curious about my work, here are some ways to connect: zaap.bio/verdantvanille

    • @Alifeofglory
      @Alifeofglory Місяць тому

      Bonjour Vanille cette vidéo a très belle audio et vidéo. Avez-vous eu un nouveau microphone et une nouvelle caméra? Si oui, pouvez-vous me dire les marques. Vous utilisez également un ingénieur audio? J'ai besoin d'améliorer mes vidéos et j'apprécierais les conseils à ce sujet ❤

    • @carissajohns4102
      @carissajohns4102 18 днів тому

      Love your dress ❤

  • @krystleneves796
    @krystleneves796 Місяць тому +20

    Thank you so much beautiful soul sister. You always inspire me with your amazing videos. I’m at a point where I’m lost, stuck in an expensive state Colorado, no money, at a job I hate, and see no light at the end of the tunnel. The lists of what I need is growing with no way to make it happen. I have no friends or family, a few acquaintances, but I’m stuck in my misery and can’t really find a will to want to go on in this life. I’ll be 40 in March and come from a lot of trauma. Thank you for giving me little bits of inspiration and joy watching your videos. Hopefully I can shift for the better. Sending love to you and all who reads this 💜✨🕊️🪬🌀🧚🏼🔮💎📿🕯️🪽🐦‍🔥

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Місяць тому +14

      I know sometimes you have to dig really deep to find that tiny spark inside of you. The one that will set things in motion and keep saving you time and time again. But my darling I can tell you, you have it in you too, it’s right there. You have the power to feed that fire, I promise you you do. 🤍✨🔥

    • @Gio_Typha
      @Gio_Typha Місяць тому +1

      I wish you all the courage and the positive energy to find a way out🙏❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 I think about you

  • @teresaedwards4175
    @teresaedwards4175 Місяць тому +4

    I want to run wild in the hills, spin in circles on grassy banks, sleep in daisy filled fields, sigh the deepest sigh…..connect with this Beautiful planet…my heart yearns for this. 🙏 Thank you for this video, SO inspiring 😊

  • @Mirko_2842
    @Mirko_2842 Місяць тому +10

    Thanks, Verdant! Your videos are always very inspiring! Much Love 💙💙💙

  • @tyronevanleyen9880
    @tyronevanleyen9880 Місяць тому +8

    Verdant, You speak some real truths about procrastination and the battles we all have with finding our way. These are tough realities. You seem to embrace it, and are still able to find joy. You give out advice and wisdom in a delightful and inspiring way. You're a real pro film maker. Thanks Verdant!

  • @newfiebullet1984
    @newfiebullet1984 Місяць тому +2

    One of THE best channels on the planet. Your attitude, depth of thought, energy, and values are impeccable.

  • @olgaplickova9519
    @olgaplickova9519 Місяць тому +1

    I like to think of myself as a eternal beginner - because there is always more to learn. It saves me from the paralysis of perfectionism. Thank you for another beautiful video… let´s keep finding light in the shadows ❤

  • @lulaslabyrinth13
    @lulaslabyrinth13 Місяць тому +6

    By far...
    Hands DOWN...
    My FAVORITE episode of yours ever and I have seen most. Thank you seems inadequate for what was just BLESSED UPON US because you just "flipped a switch" in me! 🐲 This year has been a kick in the pants and I needed THIS kick in the pants to help me heal amd muscle through and see it beautifully to the end. WOW. Seriously, this episode was just so, so POWERFULLLL! Wishing you so much ABUNDANCE 🎉 JOY 😊 and LOVE ❤ dearest, BADASS, soul sister..deepest GRATITUDE 🙏🏻💫😇🙌💕🧙‍♀️🦄🕯🌟✌❣

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Місяць тому

      That means more than you know. I am honored ♥️🌟

  • @kiwioffgrid2437
    @kiwioffgrid2437 2 дні тому

    I spent 10 years living offgrid self sufficient life.
    Once the cabins built, the garden's producing, the seed bank full, the water catchment done, the fireplace finished then life takes on an easier pace.
    I loved it.

  • @alinakozlova7867
    @alinakozlova7867 Місяць тому +1

    What I like most about you vlogs is your ability to make a reflection in a creative and emotional way! "Change your focus if your progress is stagnated" - as simply as magically. Thank you and a hug from one lazy urban cat who is laying and watching lazily your hard trening😀

  • @rwoliver2
    @rwoliver2 Місяць тому +1

    Someone wise once told me that wisdom is knowledge in motion. I try to remember this every day!

  • @paddythefly
    @paddythefly Місяць тому +4

    I really feel this! Thank you for sharing your progress and learnings with us!

  • @bk-il3md
    @bk-il3md Місяць тому +5

    I so much resonate to what you say! You're inspirational, thank you.

  • @romemancer7905
    @romemancer7905 Місяць тому +3

    you are such a beautiful Soul i wish you peace and love to your life..

  • @AtHomeWithJenn
    @AtHomeWithJenn Місяць тому +4

    Beautiful video as always 😊

  • @paparay163
    @paparay163 Місяць тому +1

    Thanks! Hi Miss Vanille, happy to see this one today somehow I missed the previous one. I so look forward to your wonderful videos my friend. Blessed to know you. ❤️🤗🙏

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Місяць тому +1

      It's always a wonderful feeling to receive your energy Ray, in all its form. Thank you with all my heart.

  • @JohnFiocchi
    @JohnFiocchi Місяць тому

    I was lived this way when I was young. It was a retreat house in the woods with my hermitage for a year to escape the music business or road. I felt so free and connected to nature which inspired me to compose...but I was unable to ever feel free like that again. Instead I fell into a trap where people all around me kept telling me that I was living in a fantasy world. Then my peace was shattered. I have come into being like the shadows and phantoms of the night...

  • @ReubenClarke
    @ReubenClarke Місяць тому +2

    I love how over the years you seem to have become more resilient and full of life force. Proud to witness your journey :)

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Місяць тому

      That means a lot to me Reuben.
      Thank you for being here on Earth.🤍🌟

  • @martindurkin8837
    @martindurkin8837 Місяць тому +1

    I cannot believe it has been two years already. I'm one of those older members of the tribe who sits off in the distance nearly out of sight but I am always here. Happy to see you mon cher.

  • @jules7723
    @jules7723 Місяць тому +4

    It is easy to get stuck in routines, particularly for those of us that are working 9-5 office jobs. It can be a challenge to reenergize or reinvent yourself and break out of those ruts considering the time spent on activities of daily living. But it can be something as simple as getting out in nature more often, taking up a new hobby, or pausing to have gratitude of the things that you take for granted. What small thing can you change today?

  • @CanadianDayTrader
    @CanadianDayTrader Місяць тому +2

    Such a beautiful and inspiring video, Vani! Much love ❤️

  • @themysteriousdomainmoviepalace
    @themysteriousdomainmoviepalace Місяць тому +2

    Nice wardrobe! Such a beautiful place. I hope you don't move away from there any time soon.

  • @konstantinavalentina3850
    @konstantinavalentina3850 Місяць тому +4

    One of my happy places are the days you post a video. :)

  • @thenakedsingularity
    @thenakedsingularity Місяць тому +1

    It's really good to listen to someone else struggling with the same issues as you do.

  • @thelostivy
    @thelostivy 20 днів тому

    So glad UA-cam suggested your channel! I've recently started a similar style channel and dreaming of reaching as many people as you one day 🤎 You're so inspiring and talented, sending my best wishes from the UK and looking forward to seeing more and supporting you! 🤗

  • @freedom2012inworld
    @freedom2012inworld Місяць тому

    It was nice to see you again. I still love your homemade saw! You are precious, be well my friend.

  • @abbasdourasse1975
    @abbasdourasse1975 Місяць тому +1

    Hello Miss Vanille !
    It's always a pleasure and a blessing to receive your sweat, fresh and invigorating energy !
    🔥🔥🔥 Yes, stagnation is often rampant during this time of the year ( more cold, less light) but, as human beings, we have so much tools to shake it off ! Moving our bodies, especially when we are not motivated to do so, is a miracle for our nervous system 💪💪💪
    Bravo pour ton yoga sur la table ! 🙌🙌🙌
    Comme d'habitude, merci pour tous ces moments tellement inspirants que tu partages régulièrement avec nous 🙏🙏🙏
    Greetings from Québec ! Have fun being yourself again and again ♥️♥️♥️
    You are making the World a better place, zero doubt about it 🙂🙂🙂

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Місяць тому

      It’s always such a pleasure to read you Abbas 🤍

  • @TheKeystoneChannel
    @TheKeystoneChannel Місяць тому

    This is the theme I am encountering exactly!! Stagnation, and changing mind set again, falling back in procrastination and perfection, only to stagnate more. Thank you for making this inspiring video journaling for all of us. We are all in the same boat at this moment. Yet is it more clear than ever betfore to see it all ♥ A Soul Sister in Europe!

  • @rmariacarlson
    @rmariacarlson Місяць тому +1

    Thank you. This is just the reminder I needed to hear at that deep soul level (of self acceptance) for sharing more of myself and my gifts. You're amazing and this is awesome.

  • @oggy4418
    @oggy4418 Місяць тому +3

    You just made my day, thanks!❤ I like the music at the end 🙂

  • @bloodynorahvan2203
    @bloodynorahvan2203 Місяць тому

    🧡 We are aligned completely. The last quarter for me has involved re-starting running, learning Spanish from scratch and the thoughts of clothes choices. I would add to this about the colour seen in the changing of the leaves in their colours to those of autumn: green, yellows, firey reds and rich burnt oranges - it is the finest show before the great clearout and reset, before the stillness. Music, at least for me, tunnels straight through my reasoning brain, to be absorbed and work it's natural magic to my soul. Especially for depression, it transends right through this, for which I am eternally grateful. Replenish through your strongest season, winter my precious, enlightened one - much love, one love 🧡

  • @felt_expirience
    @felt_expirience 26 днів тому

    I like how you point out that it is not stillness vs action, but rather constant stagnation vs balanced dynamics. You overwork - you need to be still. If you are still too much, you become salky and you need to push your body and do the work. Too much is as bad as too little. I had the same problem as you, but from opposite angle - too relaxed bastard 🦭, now I push my lazy ass more
    I saw people arguing about the word "patriarchy" and put blame on masculine energy, but I think folk just missing the point that you talk about balance between energies. Nothing wrong with Yang. Unbalanced Yin is as dangerous as unbalanced Yang. I agree with you on patriarchy point 100%, because patriarchy is the idea that masculine should dominate feminine, thus it promotes dissbalance and violence.
    And of course, this is just fantastically beautiful cinematic video. So much love put into it!

  • @liannblack2427
    @liannblack2427 11 днів тому

    The winter is for reflection and inner peace. So more rest and doing more things indoors. And hobbies that pace the winter. Winter is the esoteric mind.

  • @fjallsken
    @fjallsken Місяць тому

    Thank you so much, me dear 💜🙏 You made my day ☺

  • @Verenaaschulz
    @Verenaaschulz Місяць тому +1

    I really enjoyed your video.
    Thank you for sharing ☺🌸

  • @WhiteAvatarLivingSoul
    @WhiteAvatarLivingSoul Місяць тому

    Thank you for making this unique piece of art for us, and sharing your thoughts🙏🏼❤️

  • @KxNOxUTA
    @KxNOxUTA Місяць тому

    It is so relatable! That feeling of being disturbed by the presence of others, regardless of how much I love them. I've got a wonderful neurodiverse brain (ADHD type) and it is absolutely vital to be more time in retreat than with others or in the richness of new sensory input. It's good for me to have sparingly. The dream of a life in nature, is not a dream of romanticised "all is pretty and wholesome" but rather a dream of retreat and having a space where reducing or increasing my sensory input is a choice!
    I am very very glad that you could stablish this life for yourself and also have support. That you can really tap into the way of life that puts archaic feminine and masculine principles into a balance and also opens up, in a sense - archaic non-binary spectrums in the middle of it all.
    P.S: it sure is a time of shift and change. As it so happens, your video comes at a time, shortly after I've made a bigger decision to leave something behind and walk on without it. I'm setting myself up for a different new year.

  • @Ms.cosmiquesun
    @Ms.cosmiquesun Місяць тому

    I love these videos, they to me are like having a wonderful conversation with a good friend. I enjoy hearing your mind and find more and more similarities in the ways we experience reality. So watching you for me is always a good reminder, a clear mirror to perceive myself deeper. And an inspiration.
    Your visuals and narrative style are deeply penetrating. I got huge doses of good feelings chemicals listening and watching you.
    Ao beautiful over there. We are getting our first dusts of snow over here in middle finland already. Oo how lovely to glimpse the autumnal colours. Although i am ready for snow and the promise of magical winter land ahead.
    Thank you for sharing beauty with us.❤

  • @mirandaandrea8215
    @mirandaandrea8215 Місяць тому +1

    So true , all the videos present an ‘illusion’ , a perfect off grid life in exquisite settings, as you say it can’t be perfect!! ! Do you present an illusion of your life to??????

  • @ayanmitra8592
    @ayanmitra8592 Місяць тому +1

    Just one word - Incredible

  • @TheMennomilist
    @TheMennomilist Місяць тому

    Go French rap! Working out with that view must give you lots of energy. It is amazing!! Always love your videos. Keep creating, enjoying goodness around you, and always find your drive.

  • @NehaBlooms
    @NehaBlooms Місяць тому

    Vanille, Thank you so much for this beautiful reminder :)

  • @angelspills11
    @angelspills11 Місяць тому

    wow your filmmaking skills are getting better and better each video.. awesome

  • @JoePolcari9464
    @JoePolcari9464 6 днів тому

    Hope your smileing and have a Merry christmss Miss verdant❤

  • @NamasteSoof
    @NamasteSoof Місяць тому +1

    wow amazing video! thanks

  • @davidmickles5012
    @davidmickles5012 Місяць тому +2

    This is a very good exposition of the Tantra path ❤🙏 Thank you

  • @iamFracture
    @iamFracture 8 днів тому

    “We are human-beings not human-doings”. I love that. 🥲

  • @roxana.dreamteller
    @roxana.dreamteller 24 дні тому

    I enjoy so much watching your videos and aknowledging he need to move. I'm also looking forward to ride the bike in the morning, let's see when I'll start and I'll share some pics on social media

  • @FFrrEEddRRiiKK1
    @FFrrEEddRRiiKK1 Місяць тому +3

    Inspiring video in a world which right now seems hopeless.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Місяць тому +2

      The shift is here, even behind the clouds. 🤍✨

    • @platonkarataev550
      @platonkarataev550 Місяць тому +1

      Even the word hopeless has the hope in it . Whatever is happening, it too will pass.

  • @breathofglori
    @breathofglori Місяць тому

    Beautiful video! I loved the journaling questions, they’re so powerful! ♥️

  • @jtaylorb88
    @jtaylorb88 Місяць тому

    You definitely can be huge on here your videos and messages are amazing and definitely one of the best parts of UA-cam.

  • @donaldcordner1936
    @donaldcordner1936 Місяць тому

    Way to go Verdi! A moving target, is hard to hit!! Keep on movin'!

  • @victorhyman268
    @victorhyman268 Місяць тому

    There’s a clarity with word and action.🙏

  • @jameshotchkiss9957
    @jameshotchkiss9957 Місяць тому

    As always, your content leaves me with a lot to think about. Thank you for your perspective!

  • @rosagelborange
    @rosagelborange Місяць тому

    Thank you so much for this motivational video. I needed it so much.

  • @XYZG769
    @XYZG769 Місяць тому

    Awaiting a breakthrough now! Thanks for your words and motivation ❤

  • @camf53
    @camf53 Місяць тому

    Thank you! I needed this advice today!❤

  • @mariagunhildsdotter
    @mariagunhildsdotter Місяць тому

    Love your videos and thank you for the questions, I will save them to journal on 🙏

  • @vandoodev
    @vandoodev 12 днів тому

    You are inspiration. God bless

  • @liberatedlioness6478
    @liberatedlioness6478 Місяць тому

    Great video with important life lessons. Very inspiring. Thank you.

  • @the1andonly
    @the1andonly Місяць тому

    Your videos are amazing. Really enjoyed this one!

  • @lulaslabyrinth13
    @lulaslabyrinth13 Місяць тому +1

    Your SMILE on the cover though...❤😊❤

  • @mtnshelby7059
    @mtnshelby7059 Місяць тому

    You're a brave soul. ❤

  • @lucgermain8758
    @lucgermain8758 Місяць тому

    Wow, thank you I needed to see and listen to this video.

  • @JB-mb1qf
    @JB-mb1qf Місяць тому

    Amazing! Love you! Thank you!

  • @janpaulgarde8639
    @janpaulgarde8639 Місяць тому +2

    You look lively sister ❤

  • @Sadaf-v4c
    @Sadaf-v4c Місяць тому

    This is one of my favorites😊❤

  • @Bhagirathisway
    @Bhagirathisway 14 днів тому

    Beautiful and Brave 🦋💮

  • @janeriksrensen3662
    @janeriksrensen3662 Місяць тому +2

    Thank you

  • @UlvOgNatt
    @UlvOgNatt Місяць тому

    Beautiful video, thank you!

  • @kseniyasbooknook4172
    @kseniyasbooknook4172 Місяць тому

    your videos always warm my soul, thank you!!

  • @HappinessTheBrand
    @HappinessTheBrand Місяць тому +1

    Congratulations ma ❤

  • @arricawright8194
    @arricawright8194 Місяць тому

    Thank you 🙌

  • @tiogoala7654
    @tiogoala7654 Місяць тому

    Strong! ❣

  • @the-comments-poet
    @the-comments-poet Місяць тому +1

    Let it all fall down
    Don’t look
    There in the valley of white
    Stands a village
    Pretty houses in time
    Chimney and smoke and mist
    And over there the tall mountain
    Ancient and strong
    Keeper of the forest
    Protector of all secrets
    All the beauty of the world
    The roads far and wide
    Passing me by
    Laid before me, for me
    Don’t touch
    Busied my days
    Building fortress and castle
    Strong and safe
    Do not wander, do not wonder
    I didn’t look, I didn’t touch
    Today I bury my failed life-
    Here lies he who never complained
    Never seen
    Never heard
    Today I bury my safety
    Today I fail on purpose
    And I will not don’t run and don’t fall
    And I will not don’t speak
    I will touch and I will look and I will laugh
    Today I trade consent
    For coincidences
    Today I shovel clouds in my window
    And forget about the snow
    Let it all fall down

  • @juliel4891
    @juliel4891 Місяць тому

    ❤❤❤ thank you 🙏

  • @hihoware-s6j
    @hihoware-s6j Місяць тому +1

    some sanity at last😁

  • @joaquinlopezramos2711
    @joaquinlopezramos2711 Місяць тому

    When you are training with the ax you could hit a log instead of hitting the air. You can also include maceball type exercises, they are great

  • @-Atmos1
    @-Atmos1 Місяць тому

    Like your Bio-geometric pendant ,

  • @Esraamsterdam
    @Esraamsterdam Місяць тому

    I imagine that you live there without any neighbours even not a dog. You must be very brave.

  • @PatrickMuta-m2p
    @PatrickMuta-m2p Місяць тому

    So inspiring video,

  • @snorkle5041
    @snorkle5041 Місяць тому

    The videos I love watching most on UA-cam ❤
    Please can you share where you get your pinafore dress from?

  • @Daytona2
    @Daytona2 Місяць тому +2

    I'm a perfectionist too, Vanille 🙁

  • @watchingthehorizon7799
    @watchingthehorizon7799 10 днів тому

    I find myself stuck for a few years now at a point of transition that I've been unable to understand so that I could move forward. This video essay has brought me more understanding and clarification in 10 minutes than I have been able to get speaking to therapists or family.
    I find myself needing to rebuild my life painstakingly, one small brick at a time and I've chosen to focus on my movement. But it all seems so overwhelming.
    This may seem insignificant to you but, how did you determine your workout routine? I don't mean to ask what your fitness routine is. I'm trying to ask how you determined what exercises or routine you would follow.

  • @Roufbhatt
    @Roufbhatt Місяць тому +4

    First comment ❤

  • @kastenolsen9577
    @kastenolsen9577 Місяць тому +2

    You live in a barn, being stationary. I live in a truck, always moving. Soon I will build a monastery.

  • @nileshsahu6023
    @nileshsahu6023 Місяць тому

    I welcome the loving presence of God in my life 🙏 🌸
    जय बजरंगबली महाराज 🙏 🌸
    Thank you God for everything you blessed me with 🙏 🌸

  • @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN
    @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN 23 дні тому

    Using a proverbial rubber mallet against men in general who actually are our heroes and have created truly WONDERFUL things for our society many 'people' are willfully turning their back on.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  23 дні тому

      @@BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN i don’t understand why people believe I’m criticizing or disliking Men. I’m talking about the minorities governing the majorities. And most of them are ruled by men. I mean, even Wikipedia - the most corrupted source information out there clearly states « patriarchy - a society governed by a man. It is still the most common form of society at this point on Earth. »
      Im not a feminist. I believe Feminism fights the wrong fight for the most part.
      But well, it’s so much easier to believe in black and white than in shades of grey.

    • @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN
      @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN 23 дні тому

      @@VerdantVanille And yet, the REAL world is NOT 'black' or 'white'. It consists of 'shades of grey' as you so well put it. That's WHY we don't say, "all women this... all men that..." etc.
      Using words like "patriarchy" is typically inflammatory and paints an inaccurate picture of the world. "All men" aren't bad (in fact, MOST men I know are just incredible) and women are certainly NOT all "sugar and spice". I speak from my own experience.
      Let's just try to keep things more on the positive, clean and healthy, shall we??

    • @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN
      @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN 23 дні тому

      @@VerdantVanille And yet, the REAL world is NOT 'black' or 'white'. It consists of 'shades of grey' as you so well put it. That's WHY we don't say, "all women this... all men that..." etc.

    • @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN
      @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN 23 дні тому

      @@VerdantVanille Using words like "patriarchy" is typically inflammatory and paints an inaccurate picture of the world.

    • @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN
      @BarbaraA.MertzRN-CCRN 23 дні тому

      @@VerdantVanille "All men" aren't bad (in fact, MOST men I know are just incredible) and women are certainly NOT all "sugar and spice". I speak from my own experience.

  • @madissiimkull
    @madissiimkull Місяць тому +1

    I believe that unfortunately we live in a sociopathic society, where exploiting each other for the sake of success is normal.

  • @JohnCash001
    @JohnCash001 26 днів тому

    I want to live this life.. but to live in rural place by myself would be really boring..

  • @RodrigoHernandez.562
    @RodrigoHernandez.562 Місяць тому +1

    If by any chance you find your self in front of me, I’ll give you a kiss of inspiration

  • @thomasmaldonado8387
    @thomasmaldonado8387 Місяць тому +3

    🤩

  • @Herbalalchemist
    @Herbalalchemist Місяць тому +1

    🙌🏻💜💜💜

  • @Incaensio
    @Incaensio 13 днів тому

    You're stunning

  • @rayhunt3244
    @rayhunt3244 Місяць тому

    That waiting phase or stillness is referred to as the sabbath day in the bible.

  • @biancaroseliaroos
    @biancaroseliaroos Місяць тому

    🌸🌸🌸

  • @peters9943
    @peters9943 Місяць тому +1

    happy ending is just a story that didn't finish yet...

  • @williamkauffman-j9i
    @williamkauffman-j9i 5 днів тому

    🙏

  • @JoePolcari9464
    @JoePolcari9464 Місяць тому +1

    💙

  • @sarahalruna2686
    @sarahalruna2686 Місяць тому

    💚