I’m audhd with C-PTSD, and I have been wondering for the longest time if you are neurodivergent too. You have such a deep introspection and deep sensitivity to the universe that I thought you must be. It’s funny how similar our stories are (with some slight differences). I’m an artist as well (writer, sculptor) and I’m American and fell in love with a German musician. I’m currently living in Germany with him. I’m currently in the phase of life similar to when you left your pharmacy job. I’m just coming to terms with the fact that I’m disabled, and I’m looking for a job right now and I’m so exhausted and overwhelmed even thinking about holding down a traditional job. I’ve burnt out many times since I was 17 and it’s a constant battle to heal and get my strength and skills back. All of this is to say that you are absolutely not alone, and I have always resonated with your sharing and your insights and your story deeply. You are not an alien. Your experience and life is so human and so beautiful. I’ve also had partners who would get upset at my staying home and being low energy and my enjoying just being in nature, and they didn’t understand that. Just know you aren’t weird. You aren’t broken. You’re such a wonderful person and you’ve brought many people peace over the years, including myself. Sending you love❤
It looks like you were right! Camp ND! I hear you, the struggles are challenging. And I am learning to be more compassionate towards myself. Wonder where in Germany you are.
Thank you so much for sharing. Your words are always such a comfort to me. I have listened to your story twice now, and keep marvelling at how brave you are. I actually received my formal diagnosis today. I cried with relief afterwards... to finally feel 'seen' and acknowledged after 43 years of struggling alone. Thank you again, I love every one of your videos.
Wow that is a big day for you then! Being validaten and seen, I am glad for you! Still working my way through my process. Glad you found this video inspiring.
Hi Carolin. When the UA-cam algorithm showed me one of your videos ( this was a while ago) I subscribed and then purchased two songs from your album Inner Journey. In my imagination I created a story about who you were because I thought your music is so incredibly beautiful and you’re so multi talented. But like tonight and over time your videos have shared who you really as you share your inner journey. You shed the layers and it’s brave and graceful to me. It’s so generous of you to share this way, because you may be helping someone very deeply with your life story. I feel like I listened to a friend and I send a virtual hug. 🩵
yeees i felt the same, like listen to a friend. that's really incredible that she is not trying to pretend the perfect life but being absolutely honest with the roughest parts of her life, such a courage.
Yes I hope that someone else will find some nuggets of wisdom or inspiration in this. It also normalizes that YT creators are just people with a backstory, and not just some angelic perfect beings.
Beautifully authentic. It’s amazing how you’ve been able to do all the things you’ve done. Most so called “normal” people haven’t. Your sensitivity is your strength and it’s where your hidden blessings come from as far as I can tell. Only we know for ourselves and trusting our own inner guidance is our saving Grace so to speak. You are on the right path. Thank you for sharing. I admire your courage and authenticity. We are all imperfectly perfect in our utter uniqueness. Lots of love 🩵☀️🦋
You are the only person I follow through quite some time. You inspired many of my musical adventures and you give me strenght by being very true to yourself. Thank you.
Ich finde es unglaublich mutig was du uns hier erzählt hast. Eine Scheidung ist nicht leicht, besonders, wenn sich die Lebensumstände damit komplett verändern (leider eigene Erfahrung) Du hast mir mit deiner Musik durch eine schwierige Lebensphase geholfen- dafür bin ich dir unendlich dankbar. Alles hat sich zum Guten gewendet und das verdanke ich auch dir. "Wir haben viel zusammen gesungen " -selbst unter der Dusche 😂und ich halte mein Glück nun an der Hand. Mir wurde mal gesagt Gedanken lenken Gefühle .... und Gefühle haben direkten Einfluss auf die Gesundheit -kurz gesagt, du tust gut -sicher nicht nur mir. ❤
What a gorgeous & precious sharing!! I can relate to never wanting to go out to loud clubs or concerts and wanting to stay home in quiet. I love that you are following your guidance and being your true, authentic self. You are such an incredible speaker. I feel the power behind your story and the sharing of it. 🔥🔥👏👏👹👹
I started following you a long while back when I found your video on the koshi chimes and I noticed your name is the same as mine only spelled a bit different ( I’m Carolyn) and have always found your posts beautiful, heartfelt, honest and thought provoking. My son and both my grandchildren are autistic so I have some experience of neurodiversity albeit not me personally ... thank you for sharing such an intimate and detailed story with us, you truly are a wonderful lady and you are inspiring and very much loved by your community. 🙏🏻💛
Hi Carolyn - glad to hear you enjoy my posts. And that you have some experience with autism, though it is a spectrum and can show up very differently from person to person. I appreciate your kind words.
@@CarolinNobles yes ND (including AS/ADHD etc ) is huge …it spreads and arcs like a rainbow… I believe we are all on this spectrum somewhere.. I am an older person now and yet I am continually learning about myself my friends and family and the ‘human’ condition in general and although I’ve never considered myself as ND, but listening to the beautiful stories of those who have been diagnosed makes me think I am also… I resonate strongly with your sensitivity, sensory overload, the need to be in nature, the inward thinking and questioning etc.. I am so very thankful to have connected with you and this community 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻thank you thank you thank you
Thanks for being so real. I also struggle with oversensitivity and not fitting in. I can do the academic thing, and I love learning and creativity, but social stuff deeply overwhelms me. I'm happiest in nature or at home with my plants and the neighborhood birds. I'm only able to work part-time because of my issues and my partner partially supports me. I wish I was capable of more, but this is the only way I've ever been able to feel emotional stability. Anyways, all this is just to say that your video was super relatable, and I'm glad to know I'm not alone! I always thought I was just an HSP, but recently I'm also wondering about autism too. I'd love to hear more about your journey with that.
I am glad you can relate! And it seems like many people are wondering if they are HSP or maybe autistic even. It could be a potential new topic for a video!
My dear, Carolin, thank you so much for your “life reflection” video ❤ I’ve been following you here for awhile, I’ve got your songs, your print and I like to hear your intuitive singing and your art! Your life story is 85% is resonating with mine, and at Soul level mine can see you and feel you. Please accept me as a friend if you need one 😊 I will never judge or criticize you. I’ve learned a lot from my life experience, and I found my truth and wisdom. We can chat and express our true-selves and our perceptions. Most of all I want to make you smile and laugh, you got to live this lifetime here on Earth, that you’ve volunteered to arrive to Do and to Be as a human being 😊 🥰 I have your email address, I’ll be just waiting for your call. If not , it’s fine, you have a free will, my dear ♥️🤩✨🪶
Hello, just discovered you today:) Very interesting video and I as highly educated neurodivergent highly sensitive person who is also trying to live as professional performer can so relate to your struggles to fit financially and emotionally into mainstream societal working collectives and just in general life.... I am now 44 and also after having been in many different places and trying different life paths stuck back with my parents in my native country in Europe since 2018...life just continues to be struggle after struggle, so yeah do not have any solutions (obviously) that could magically improve our lives but I am trying to understand what is real in my life and what are my resources and go from there..Good luck on your future path, fellow sensitive traveler:)
Nice to have you here! I hear you, it can be challenging but sometimes also super rewarding to be true to yourself. I am curious how life will go with some new knowledge about myself, and just the maturing process that happens with life experience and getting older.
I’m so glad that you decided to share more of your story. I knew bits and pieces of it from having watched your videos over the years, but this more cohesive overview is really such a gift that you’ve chosen to offer here. It is somewhat comforting too, to hear the similarities in our stories- though our lives are wildly different from one another, I relate deeply to the kind of path your life has taken, and the emotions which have accompanied you along your particular journey.
Thank you! Quite a task to tell the life story and not get into every detail for hours. I might expand on certain aspects in a new video. Glad you can relate.
Nice to meet you. My name is also Carolyn. It's spelled differently and I go by Carol. I'm trying to get to know a woman who's neurodivergent she says she has ADHD and I've been learning about the spectrum and how people live with it. It doesn't define a person.
I have told you my story too. But at the moment I’m not writing so much but just speaking out loud. I know you can’t hear me, but in a way I think it will come through. I can relate to the very sensitive child, that is still very overwhelmed easily and hurt. And she deserves all the love and safety in the world. Thank you for your sharing.
I enjoyed your video. Yes we gotta do what we came here to do. But how do you get the energy to share? I hope to be able to do so some day. But I'm old and the energy, mentally and emotionally continues to dissipate. Keep on, Carolin, while you can.
For me, I just share because I love it. If I was old and had less and less energy, I might just do the tiniest bit that I can do that is doable for me and let that be enough. Much love.
Thank you Carolin. Your honesty is much appreciated . I relate to many similar aspects of your story. With my aspe diagnosis age 50. Although I suspect many aspects were also as a result of 10 years of school bullying trauma. So my sense 8s their tick boxes don't think so laterally. However my nature art films are for reducing sensory overload and for seeing how much is right there if we just be with and explore a different way of witnessing without all the the other distractions. Look forward to hearing if there is some minimalist inspired harp that fits a nature film? I am working on local scenes Aoteraoa currently. Where do I subscibe to hear those creations. I cant find your email from when we shared about one of your musical inspirations.
Thank you for all these videos. I am also a neurodiver, an adult autistic who would be a high intellectual potential, a graphic designer and a contemplator of the born worlds * and at birth. My thoughts of bees and stamens * from the northeast of France.
Hey Carolin, really nice video ! I was wondering if I could help you with Best Quality Editing in your videos better than your Editor with good pricing and also make a highly engaging Thumbnail which will help your videos to reach to a wider audience ? Pls let me know what do you think ?
I’m audhd with C-PTSD, and I have been wondering for the longest time if you are neurodivergent too. You have such a deep introspection and deep sensitivity to the universe that I thought you must be. It’s funny how similar our stories are (with some slight differences). I’m an artist as well (writer, sculptor) and I’m American and fell in love with a German musician. I’m currently living in Germany with him. I’m currently in the phase of life similar to when you left your pharmacy job. I’m just coming to terms with the fact that I’m disabled, and I’m looking for a job right now and I’m so exhausted and overwhelmed even thinking about holding down a traditional job. I’ve burnt out many times since I was 17 and it’s a constant battle to heal and get my strength and skills back.
All of this is to say that you are absolutely not alone, and I have always resonated with your sharing and your insights and your story deeply. You are not an alien. Your experience and life is so human and so beautiful. I’ve also had partners who would get upset at my staying home and being low energy and my enjoying just being in nature, and they didn’t understand that. Just know you aren’t weird. You aren’t broken. You’re such a wonderful person and you’ve brought many people peace over the years, including myself. Sending you love❤
It looks like you were right! Camp ND! I hear you, the struggles are challenging. And I am learning to be more compassionate towards myself. Wonder where in Germany you are.
@@CarolinNobles Berlin!
Thank you for your sharing. You are special and loved.
Thank you so much!
Thank you so much for sharing. Your words are always such a comfort to me. I have listened to your story twice now, and keep marvelling at how brave you are. I actually received my formal diagnosis today. I cried with relief afterwards... to finally feel 'seen' and acknowledged after 43 years of struggling alone. Thank you again, I love every one of your videos.
Wow that is a big day for you then! Being validaten and seen, I am glad for you! Still working my way through my process. Glad you found this video inspiring.
Hi Carolin. When the UA-cam algorithm showed me one of your videos ( this was a while ago) I subscribed and then purchased two songs from your album Inner Journey. In my imagination I created a story about who you were because I thought your music is so incredibly beautiful and you’re so multi talented. But like tonight and over time your videos have shared who you really as you share your inner journey. You shed the layers and it’s brave and graceful to me. It’s so generous of you to share this way, because you may be helping someone very deeply with your life story. I feel like I listened to a friend and I send a virtual hug. 🩵
yeees i felt the same, like listen to a friend. that's really incredible that she is not trying to pretend the perfect life but being absolutely honest with the roughest parts of her life, such a courage.
Yes I hope that someone else will find some nuggets of wisdom or inspiration in this. It also normalizes that YT creators are just people with a backstory, and not just some angelic perfect beings.
Thank you! It was quite scary to share all of this but there was the nudge to do so.
Beautifully authentic. It’s amazing how you’ve been able to do all the things you’ve done. Most so called “normal” people haven’t. Your sensitivity is your strength and it’s where your hidden blessings come from as far as I can tell. Only we know for ourselves and trusting our own inner guidance is our saving Grace so to speak. You are on the right path. Thank you for sharing. I admire your courage and authenticity. We are all imperfectly perfect in our utter uniqueness. Lots of love 🩵☀️🦋
Thank you so much! I look forward to what will unfold from here. More videos to come!
You are the only person I follow through quite some time. You inspired many of my musical adventures and you give me strenght by being very true to yourself. Thank you.
Happy to hear that! Thanl you 🙏
Ich finde es unglaublich mutig was du uns hier erzählt hast. Eine Scheidung ist nicht leicht, besonders, wenn sich die Lebensumstände damit komplett verändern (leider eigene Erfahrung)
Du hast mir mit deiner Musik durch eine schwierige Lebensphase geholfen- dafür bin ich dir unendlich dankbar. Alles hat sich zum Guten gewendet und das verdanke ich auch dir. "Wir haben viel zusammen gesungen " -selbst unter der Dusche 😂und ich halte mein Glück nun an der Hand. Mir wurde mal gesagt Gedanken lenken Gefühle .... und Gefühle haben direkten Einfluss auf die Gesundheit -kurz gesagt, du tust gut -sicher nicht nur mir. ❤
Danke dir für deinen lieben Kommentar! Gut zu hören! Wir haben unter der Dusche gesungen, ich musste lachen darüber! Alles liebe dir!
Thank you so much. This is the first time that I've related so much to someones life story. We love you Carolin
Thank you! I am glad you can relate. You must have had an intense life too!
What a gorgeous & precious sharing!! I can relate to never wanting to go out to loud clubs or concerts and wanting to stay home in quiet. I love that you are following your guidance and being your true, authentic self. You are such an incredible speaker. I feel the power behind your story and the sharing of it. 🔥🔥👏👏👹👹
Thank you so much for your support! Love speaking casually like this.
I started following you a long while back when I found your video on the koshi chimes and I noticed your name is the same as mine only spelled a bit different ( I’m Carolyn) and have always found your posts beautiful, heartfelt, honest and thought provoking. My son and both my grandchildren are autistic so I have some experience of neurodiversity albeit not me personally ... thank you for sharing such an intimate and detailed story with us, you truly are a wonderful lady and you are inspiring and very much loved by your community. 🙏🏻💛
Hi Carolyn - glad to hear you enjoy my posts. And that you have some experience with autism, though it is a spectrum and can show up very differently from person to person. I appreciate your kind words.
@@CarolinNobles yes ND (including AS/ADHD etc ) is huge …it spreads and arcs like a rainbow… I believe we are all on this spectrum somewhere.. I am an older person now and yet I am continually learning about myself my friends and family and the ‘human’ condition in general and although I’ve never considered myself as ND, but listening to the beautiful stories of those who have been diagnosed makes me think I am also… I resonate strongly with your sensitivity, sensory overload, the need to be in nature, the inward thinking and questioning etc.. I am so very thankful to have connected with you and this community 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻thank you thank you thank you
Thanks for being so real. I also struggle with oversensitivity and not fitting in. I can do the academic thing, and I love learning and creativity, but social stuff deeply overwhelms me. I'm happiest in nature or at home with my plants and the neighborhood birds. I'm only able to work part-time because of my issues and my partner partially supports me. I wish I was capable of more, but this is the only way I've ever been able to feel emotional stability. Anyways, all this is just to say that your video was super relatable, and I'm glad to know I'm not alone! I always thought I was just an HSP, but recently I'm also wondering about autism too. I'd love to hear more about your journey with that.
I am glad you can relate! And it seems like many people are wondering if they are HSP or maybe autistic even. It could be a potential new topic for a video!
My dear, Carolin, thank you so much for your “life reflection” video ❤ I’ve been following you here for awhile, I’ve got your songs, your print and I like to hear your intuitive singing and your art! Your life story is 85% is resonating with mine, and at Soul level mine can see you and feel you. Please accept me as a friend if you need one 😊 I will never judge or criticize you. I’ve learned a lot from my life experience, and I found my truth and wisdom. We can chat and express our true-selves and our perceptions. Most of all I want to make you smile and laugh, you got to live this lifetime here on Earth, that you’ve volunteered to arrive to Do and to Be as a human being 😊 🥰 I have your email address, I’ll be just waiting for your call. If not , it’s fine, you have a free will, my dear ♥️🤩✨🪶
Thank you for your kind words! We gotta do what we came here to do, yes!
Hello, just discovered you today:) Very interesting video and I as highly educated neurodivergent highly sensitive person who is also trying to live as professional performer can so relate to your struggles to fit financially and emotionally into mainstream societal working collectives and just in general life.... I am now 44 and also after having been in many different places and trying different life paths stuck back with my parents in my native country in Europe since 2018...life just continues to be struggle after struggle, so yeah do not have any solutions (obviously) that could magically improve our lives but I am trying to understand what is real in my life and what are my resources and go from there..Good luck on your future path, fellow sensitive traveler:)
Nice to have you here! I hear you, it can be challenging but sometimes also super rewarding to be true to yourself. I am curious how life will go with some new knowledge about myself, and just the maturing process that happens with life experience and getting older.
@@CarolinNobles thanks, same:)
I’m so glad that you decided to share more of your story. I knew bits and pieces of it from having watched your videos over the years, but this more cohesive overview is really such a gift that you’ve chosen to offer here.
It is somewhat comforting too, to hear the similarities in our stories- though our lives are wildly different from one another, I relate deeply to the kind of path your life has taken, and the emotions which have accompanied you along your particular journey.
Thank you! Quite a task to tell the life story and not get into every detail for hours. I might expand on certain aspects in a new video. Glad you can relate.
Nice to meet you. My name is also Carolyn. It's spelled differently and I go by Carol. I'm trying to get to know a woman who's neurodivergent she says she has ADHD and I've been learning about the spectrum and how people live with it. It doesn't define a person.
I have told you my story too. But at the moment I’m not writing so much but just speaking out loud. I know you can’t hear me, but in a way I think it will come through. I can relate to the very sensitive child, that is still very overwhelmed easily and hurt. And she deserves all the love and safety in the world. Thank you for your sharing.
Thank you 🙏
I enjoyed your video. Yes we gotta do what we came here to do. But how do you get the energy to share? I hope to be able to do so some day. But I'm old and the energy, mentally and emotionally continues to dissipate. Keep on, Carolin, while you can.
For me, I just share because I love it. If I was old and had less and less energy, I might just do the tiniest bit that I can do that is doable for me and let that be enough. Much love.
Thank you Carolin. Your honesty is much appreciated . I relate to many similar aspects of your story. With my aspe diagnosis age 50. Although I suspect many aspects were also as a result of 10 years of school bullying trauma. So my sense 8s their tick boxes don't think so laterally. However my nature art films are for reducing sensory overload and for seeing how much is right there if we just be with and explore a different way of witnessing without all the the other distractions. Look forward to hearing if there is some minimalist inspired harp that fits a nature film? I am working on local scenes Aoteraoa currently. Where do I subscibe to hear those creations. I cant find your email from when we shared about one of your musical inspirations.
You can contact me through my website www.carolinnobles.com
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Thank you for all these videos. I am also a neurodiver, an adult autistic who would be a high intellectual potential, a graphic designer and a contemplator of the born worlds * and at birth. My thoughts of bees and stamens * from the northeast of France.
Thank you 🙏
Satyam❤ Shivam ❤Sundaram ❤ ( Truth❤ beneficial ❤Beauty❤ : it's Sarasvati's mantra ❤)
Thank you 🧡🙏
Hey Carolin, really nice video ! I was wondering if I could help you with Best Quality Editing in your videos better than your Editor with good pricing and also make a highly engaging Thumbnail which will help your videos to reach to a wider audience ? Pls let me know what do you think ?
No thanks
Wish I could speak German so honestly as you speak in English. Go raibh maith agat (thank you in Irish )
Irish is so beautiful! Wish I could speak that!