idk if we have something similar but closest thing we've got is an alter who at times takes the form of chara from undertale, but then again they're a very glitchy and incoherent fictive that cant really keep a consistent form for any length of time.
Glad to hear you're embracing plurality; if your system is anything like ours, you're strongest together! Trust your feelings and communicate with them so you can all find health and happiness! One thing I often remind myself and feel you all can do the same: people who are faking something KNOW they're faking it, so if you're ever worried you might be, that in and of itself is a good sign you're not!
i mean... you can also be wrong when attributing symptoms to a broader psychological label. it doesn't mean the symptoms are incorrect, since their existence proves themselves, but they may be interpreted as something they're not. i say this from dissociative experience myself. *this isn't directed towards patricia, it's directed towards other commenters
and yes, I hope ya'll make huge progress off this. Plurality heals. mousie and I take care of each other and the amount more we've been able to just emotionally regulate and function after working out the optimal ways we support one another is crazy
Yeah so of note on the subject of your selves being just 'emotions' There's a model of internal dynamics that I've found useful to conceptualize this with; the self is an emotion that contextualizes the various algorithms/habits/memories/experiences that make up an individual personality. So yes, all of your selves can easily just be emotions that recombine your experiences and habits into a new configuration of you, for use in new situations. But more than that, they're often also more than just the sum of their parts. Because it isn't what you're made of, it's how you operate that matters. This is why some people will just generate dozens of headmates, associating every single new interaction with a new emotion/sense of self
personally our plurality operates just as much on an identity level as a personality one, and i think recognizing that either can be a vector for multiplicity is important
The way you phrase the way your alters work makes me think of the Dog ending from Silent Hill 2 but with all your alters fussing over the buttons and levers while James is awkwardly shuffling backwards out the room muttering "oh uh sorry wrong door"
2:48 this is so relatable, it's really easy to fall for "what if I'm just in a really different mood?" because that's the most obvious thing, more so than the subtler stuff like thoughts and identity
Congrats on the self-discovery! May your plural journey be a good one. ^-^ Also, "I have to ask if I'm attributing too much to what is essentially just a mood" is a big giant mood for me. That's a thought I've been struggling with since I learned I was plural a few years back.
We're so happy you're getting all this sorted out! We're also kind of a blended system, so we get how that can feel disorienting for the first while. We hope you can all find balance with each other and live together happily.
Neuroidvergence is a blessing and a curse. Your genius musical output seems to be the positive ability stemming out of you, but then there are the things you have to deal with and talk to therapists about. And gradual altering/memory gaps seem to be a similar experience to my boy/girl "alters" that I experience where my focus shifts between a male and a female persona, where I feel both exist at the same time but one takes control at a time. People experience things in ways that are unqiue to them and are hard to explain to others, alas they get those weird looks from people. You opening up to us is a bold move and it gives us a peek into your experience.
Glad to know I’m not alone in suddenly realizing a LOT about my own plurality 😭 currently going through a bit of a crisis and this actually helps like a lot
I am incredibly happy for you, all of you, and also… perturbed at the degree to which this mirrors some of my own experiences while being not at all surprised. Good luck out there.
While this is outside of my own experiences, I have some friends both past and present who were in the same (often quite tightly packed :V) boat, and I'm glad to hear things are improving for you!
Oh hey, congrats! Glad you’re learning to understand and love yourselves. 💕 We take a less medical and more spiritual approach to our plurality, but either way, the different ways this stuff presents are always fun to learn. Ours is a thing where the original and host, me, Quinn, is always present, and the others emerge from and slide back into me as needed or desired. No memory loss as far as we can tell.
I'm glad you're able to see a therapist who's helping you out about all this! watching this made me think about my own system situation but more importantly "someone duct taped a dog to the controls" makes me laugh to think about
ty for being so honest and kind to yourself. it's always so cool hearing people share their experiences and all y'all's shared and diverging experiences are real and meaningful!
im really happy that you've found a good therapist and that you're making progress! we understand how overwhelming plural stuff can be and we're wishing you the best in future breakthroughs and recovery ^_^
I really appreciate you talking about this, there's a lot of this that feels very familiar to me, but not exactly so; I am working on said things as well, but I feel a distinct difficulty in picking out parts clearly. Presently I'm considering myself a median system; the only memory gaps I have are from a long time ago and all seem to be shared; no old memories have really surfaced when I work on any of this. I have different facets, but I'm always me and sometimes certain facets are more present than others, and some are obscured, but we're all always here, as far as I can tell so far. Maybe things will change, maybe things will get a bit clearer, but I feel closer to the three-body problem than a Rubiks Cube if that makes any sense.
so happy to see that you're all trying to work together on this! interesting to me (mitzi) to hear avery's take on being host vs a splintered alter, especially being the host of my own system (while also being therian and trans so mayyybe i should look into things that might mean) on the note of rambley and having fictives appear, we know that instinctual pulling towards a specific person or appearance very well, have to say that it doesn't really ever stop being intense when it happens, but it feels like a major release of pressure when something clicks into place it's important to leave room for people to figure themselves out! best of luck from us!
Im so glad you are going to therapy!!! And its amazing that you are being able to communicate with them, thats great!!! Good luck patty, i hope you make lots of progress in therapy
I feel this video so hard, I also blend a lot and it can be very disorientating, but it has been so good to finally get a grasp on all of my parts from before what only felt like a dis-coherent self. I hope y'all keep learning and finding ways of working together and finding happiness ^^
It's awesome to hear that y'all are figuring yourselves out!! It's a difficult process but it's so worth it!! Wishing you all the self love in the world 🧡🧡🧡🧡
I can't fucking believe that you ended up with Rambley in your head like we were all joking about. Anyway, I don't know what it's like to go through this but it sounds very stressful, so I'm glad you're seeing a therapist to help you work through it. From what I've read about, these kinds of alters often do come about as a way to cope with and isolate trauma from the rest of your life, so the way that different ones are the ones hurt by or affected by things while others aren't does speak to that. Regardless it sounds like you're working toward a better understanding of yourself and a happier life. Learning to live with yourself and how your brain works is a lot healthier than trying to deny and bury things, so keep at it. Happy holidays by the way!
I have no real context to understand this plural stuff. I find that the way you describe it to be facinating and legitimate. I wish you luck on figuring this stuff out.
can relate to the thing of headmates not knowing they are in front; for us we’ve temporarily given up constantly figuring out whos in front, until we’ve got our constant depersonalization shit figured out in therapy its like we have multiple plates, but we dropped all of them, and now theres thousands of pieces on the floor. also, the room is completely dark and we cant find the lightswitch
oh congrats on the discovery progress y'all! our system doesn't really work the same way (like we share memories, our plurality isn't really particularly "disordered" and we don't exactly form or function on a dissociative trauma basis) but the "helping" thing you're describing sounds a lot like what we like to call "copiloting", it's interesting how very different brain arrangements can end up with some surprisingly coherent similarities at times. ...also we have a Rambley too. his situation is probably pretty different than yours but you might've indirectly given our brain the idea to introject him a while ago lol, oops. uh, hopefully that's not oversharing haha anyway best of luck figuring yourselves out y'all! we do not know each other but it's cool to see more cool music nerds and up being openly plural
It's great to see that you're in therapy and you're all working to try to communicate better! My system has been working on that ourselves and it's slow going but even just a bit of communication can help a lot in the right moments, especially with gender stuff. The Helping term you talked about is great, a lot of my alters never properly front but will instead Help like that a lot, which tends to color certain interactions in sometimes uncomfortable ways lol One thing we've been working on to help detect when people are fronting or helping is establishing an emotional signature of sorts that each alter has that becomes unconscious enough that we can recognize their presence without them having to establish themselves. It's slow going but it's had some effectiveness. Some of the alters are more emotional and volatile so they're already mostly there. I struggle a lot with keeping myself from thinking I'm faking, too. It's so easy to just go "is this just a story I'm telling myself?" But I've tried to stamp that out as much as possible. People have seen the changes, my partner knows when I've switched front, I've got amnesia walls, there is evidence of this and accepting it is only gonna make me happier. Thankfulky I've had people in my life to encourage this acceptance, including my best friend who is also a system and called me out for being one lol. I'm glad you're starting to accept yourself too ^^
being plural is weird (i should go to therapy) but also i know there are 3 people in here, me included, and one of them holds religious trauma but i dont feel like ive had any religious trauma???? its weird i also have a weird creature that loves apple juice and wants to make effigies from mud and sticks
@@puppyhelictriangle Oh. We misunderstood. Thought the image on screen was an "8 inch telescope", like a mini version. Oops, that's on us ^^; No the whole thing is like 5ft tall. Which we now understand seems to be the norm
Maybe I'm misunderstanding, but it all sounds pretty normal to me, i dont think people have a coherent singular self. People use terms like "inner child" (Nix) "super ego" (Amber), "ego" (Avery) to describe parts of themselves. Like these are just names for much more abstract, parts of a big emotional soup we call our conscious. Somedays it's clear and coherent , somedays it's a chaotic mess. It seems strange to rush to call it a disorder; but if being aware of them is causing suffering then i can understand that. Personally, i call my aspects Jimmy (child), James(self), and Dog (impulse/instinct). Funny that you say they communicate in feelings and hunches, that resonates with me. Like James can speak to the others, but others can only communicate in feelings (dog in horny and fear) (Jimmy in joy and sorrow). And there on feel like more atomic aspects, but they're more elusive. In short it sounds like you're just developing greater awareness of your semi and unconscious mind; i don't see where the disorder part is.
Hey pup. I wanted to assure you that having an alter emerge from a fictional character is normal. I have an alter, his name is Vince, and he at first emerged from Sans, even though he technically existed longer. You just recognized "yourself" or a part of you in Rambley and it kinda awoke the alter that was already there. So I know that Vincent is Vincent even though he spawned from Sans. Maybe you have something similiar.
You should look into the VRChat Trans Academy. It's a fantastic community that could support you on this journey. Azeal has a great video explaining more about it.
Not me relating too damn hard about this (Sprite kinda wants to introduce the squad as we know them to our friends on social media, I’m not sure this is such a good idea) (I think some of them, the cool ones, would be chill about it -Sprite) One thing that I find to be an interesting perspective on discussing plurality, for me, is in the context of otherkin. I’ve been reading animorphs (which is a wildly therianthropic children’s book series by the way, like, it makes intense narrative focus on the physical and emotional aspects of what it is to be another animal) for the first time and discussing it every week with a friend of mine Said friend is the only other otherkin that I know- he’s an andalite (the blue aliens from the books), and I (Sprite) am a dragon. We sometimes talk about existence as our true selves, and the weird incongruence and dysphoria (we’re trans, we can say that) of inhabiting a human body. Last week he mentioned having “morphs”, like, other creatures that he turns into. I… didn’t know that that was something other people could do. I’d also kinda been referring to our other strange headfellows as morphs. I said that there’s me (Sprite), my human (dev) (dev and I have been a team together for many years now), our rat, our monitor lizard (I named him “Monty” after the fnaf character), and what I believe to be a werewolf (I just call it the creature). I think I kind of like referring to them as morphs, because we still kinda remember all the same things, but we have different sets of emotions and instincts and interact differently with our human form and the world around us (sort of like how morphing works in the books) It also sort of helps with my/our imposter syndrome about referring to them as “alters,” because we haven’t talked to a professional about this and I’m afraid to take a word that isn’t mine. But also it feels wrong, too, because referring to it that way also discounts our individuality, or how scary it can feel when one of us leaves for a long time. (Idk if this is for anyone or helpful to anyone or makes sense at all, but I guess I sure wanted to say it, so here it is :3)
I guess I’m kinda relating to how you talk about this in context of being a furry and therian I am all three (furry, therian, otherkin), and also like to perceive my plurality in that context
I was trying to catch up on your tumblr and there's a lot going on, what's up with you/others saying your therapist is suggesting you explore incestous thoughts? I had a hard time understanding that whole discourse.
therapists do not apropos of nothing suggest you sexualize your trauma but if you find joy in that you will never find a therapist that actively dissuades you from it, and I never have.
"system update" is a banger pun
INTROJECT/ALTERS THAT EXISTED BEFOREHAND BUT THEN LATCH ON TO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS MENTION 🔥🔥🔥🔥
idk if we have something similar but closest thing we've got is an alter who at times takes the form of chara from undertale, but then again they're a very glitchy and incoherent fictive that cant really keep a consistent form for any length of time.
one of the first headmates we got after our system's initial formation was like that haha
"Someone just ductaped a puppy to the controls" I'm cackling
Also, god, "Everyone's gotten good at masking as each other" is such a mood.
Glad to hear you're embracing plurality; if your system is anything like ours, you're strongest together! Trust your feelings and communicate with them so you can all find health and happiness! One thing I often remind myself and feel you all can do the same: people who are faking something KNOW they're faking it, so if you're ever worried you might be, that in and of itself is a good sign you're not!
i mean... you can also be wrong when attributing symptoms to a broader psychological label. it doesn't mean the symptoms are incorrect, since their existence proves themselves, but they may be interpreted as something they're not. i say this from dissociative experience myself.
*this isn't directed towards patricia, it's directed towards other commenters
*reply is specifically towards the "faking it" segment omg im tired
‘Strongest together’
so true ❤
So happy for you getting a good therapist 💜
yep, plurality happens like this sometimes. enjoy discovering yourself.
also "someone just duct taped a puppy to the controls" made me snortlaugh
The original headmate being the only one that's a therian is so real. A poor little kitty dreamt us up to help it, poor thing
Dream blunt roation
when the personalities are plentiful
Olive is likely the one holding most of the trauma 😞
plushie mouse+weird dog robot here, oh boy so you've speedrun becoming a furpile since the egg crack huh
and yes, I hope ya'll make huge progress off this. Plurality heals. mousie and I take care of each other and the amount more we've been able to just emotionally regulate and function after working out the optimal ways we support one another is crazy
btw, a common word I heard for headmates that are pulled from fiction like Rambley in your case is "fictives"
@@Saltine3022speaking as a system consisting mostly of fictives: can confirm
furpile is an AWESOME name for that,,
Slightly disappointed that the mario bar does not say meow even once
Maybe you could even hide an "among us" in there. Im not sure why but. You could
Okay but ARE you getting Nix the telescope for his birthday?? He deserves it
littles deserve to have birthday parties if they want them i think
I mean yeah but sometimes the hobbies are too expensive... we've been trying to get people to play instruments but thats also expensive
it was Rambley tuesday all along
Yeah so of note on the subject of your selves being just 'emotions'
There's a model of internal dynamics that I've found useful to conceptualize this with; the self is an emotion that contextualizes the various algorithms/habits/memories/experiences that make up an individual personality.
So yes, all of your selves can easily just be emotions that recombine your experiences and habits into a new configuration of you, for use in new situations.
But more than that, they're often also more than just the sum of their parts. Because it isn't what you're made of, it's how you operate that matters.
This is why some people will just generate dozens of headmates, associating every single new interaction with a new emotion/sense of self
yeah!! this is a useful way of looking at it for sure
personally our plurality operates just as much on an identity level as a personality one, and i think recognizing that either can be a vector for multiplicity is important
The way you phrase the way your alters work makes me think of the Dog ending from Silent Hill 2 but with all your alters fussing over the buttons and levers while James is awkwardly shuffling backwards out the room muttering "oh uh sorry wrong door"
2:48 this is so relatable, it's really easy to fall for "what if I'm just in a really different mood?" because that's the most obvious thing, more so than the subtler stuff like thoughts and identity
"Someone just duct-taped a puppy to the controls"
Rambley appears in a form u can comprehend to start
I highly appreciate these videos you make on this channel, the sudden cut off at the end still gets me.
Congrats on the self-discovery! May your plural journey be a good one. ^-^
Also, "I have to ask if I'm attributing too much to what is essentially just a mood" is a big giant mood for me. That's a thought I've been struggling with since I learned I was plural a few years back.
2:27 I genuinely need to know what every headmate wants for their birthday now
We don't even have birthdays how would we figure that out? The day we appeared? Thats gonna take a bit to figure out-
We're so happy you're getting all this sorted out! We're also kind of a blended system, so we get how that can feel disorienting for the first while. We hope you can all find balance with each other and live together happily.
it's okay. colin the computer advises me regularly.
it gets easier, i promise.
Neuroidvergence is a blessing and a curse. Your genius musical output seems to be the positive ability stemming out of you, but then there are the things you have to deal with and talk to therapists about. And gradual altering/memory gaps seem to be a similar experience to my boy/girl "alters" that I experience where my focus shifts between a male and a female persona, where I feel both exist at the same time but one takes control at a time. People experience things in ways that are unqiue to them and are hard to explain to others, alas they get those weird looks from people. You opening up to us is a bold move and it gives us a peek into your experience.
Congrats on Therapy!!! Also congrats on one of your alters being a fictokin in the actual sense!
Glad to know I’m not alone in suddenly realizing a LOT about my own plurality 😭 currently going through a bit of a crisis and this actually helps like a lot
Since each of us was several,
there was already quite a crowd
I am incredibly happy for you, all of you, and also… perturbed at the degree to which this mirrors some of my own experiences while being not at all surprised. Good luck out there.
Introject moment
that is an incredible title, just wanted to put that out there
While this is outside of my own experiences, I have some friends both past and present who were in the same (often quite tightly packed :V) boat, and I'm glad to hear things are improving for you!
Oh hey, congrats! Glad you’re learning to understand and love yourselves. 💕
We take a less medical and more spiritual approach to our plurality, but either way, the different ways this stuff presents are always fun to learn.
Ours is a thing where the original and host, me, Quinn, is always present, and the others emerge from and slide back into me as needed or desired. No memory loss as far as we can tell.
Once again wishing y'all the best, from one system to another
Really hope you’re all doing good 💜
Happy things are going better!!!!
I'm glad you're able to see a therapist who's helping you out about all this! watching this made me think about my own system situation but more importantly "someone duct taped a dog to the controls" makes me laugh to think about
ty for being so honest and kind to yourself. it's always so cool hearing people share their experiences and all y'all's shared and diverging experiences are real and meaningful!
im really happy that you've found a good therapist and that you're making progress! we understand how overwhelming plural stuff can be and we're wishing you the best in future breakthroughs and recovery ^_^
so proud of all of you for taking this journey together
I really appreciate you talking about this, there's a lot of this that feels very familiar to me, but not exactly so; I am working on said things as well, but I feel a distinct difficulty in picking out parts clearly. Presently I'm considering myself a median system; the only memory gaps I have are from a long time ago and all seem to be shared; no old memories have really surfaced when I work on any of this. I have different facets, but I'm always me and sometimes certain facets are more present than others, and some are obscured, but we're all always here, as far as I can tell so far. Maybe things will change, maybe things will get a bit clearer, but I feel closer to the three-body problem than a Rubiks Cube if that makes any sense.
This felt all too relatable, I wish you the best with therapy and the future
so happy to see that you're all trying to work together on this! interesting to me (mitzi) to hear avery's take on being host vs a splintered alter, especially being the host of my own system (while also being therian and trans so mayyybe i should look into things that might mean)
on the note of rambley and having fictives appear, we know that instinctual pulling towards a specific person or appearance very well, have to say that it doesn't really ever stop being intense when it happens, but it feels like a major release of pressure when something clicks into place
it's important to leave room for people to figure themselves out!
best of luck from us!
Im so glad you are going to therapy!!! And its amazing that you are being able to communicate with them, thats great!!! Good luck patty, i hope you make lots of progress in therapy
Eeee! Congrats
Who let the dogs out?
I feel this video so hard, I also blend a lot and it can be very disorientating, but it has been so good to finally get a grasp on all of my parts from before what only felt like a dis-coherent self. I hope y'all keep learning and finding ways of working together and finding happiness ^^
It's awesome to hear that y'all are figuring yourselves out!! It's a difficult process but it's so worth it!! Wishing you all the self love in the world 🧡🧡🧡🧡
hope you all have a nice and easy time figuring out plurality, im also recently discovering that im plural so ur not alone
Happy that y'all managed to find someone to work through this with, and I'm rooting for all of you!
I can't fucking believe that you ended up with Rambley in your head like we were all joking about.
Anyway, I don't know what it's like to go through this but it sounds very stressful, so I'm glad you're seeing a therapist to help you work through it. From what I've read about, these kinds of alters often do come about as a way to cope with and isolate trauma from the rest of your life, so the way that different ones are the ones hurt by or affected by things while others aren't does speak to that.
Regardless it sounds like you're working toward a better understanding of yourself and a happier life. Learning to live with yourself and how your brain works is a lot healthier than trying to deny and bury things, so keep at it.
Happy holidays by the way!
I have no real context to understand this plural stuff. I find that the way you describe it to be facinating and legitimate. I wish you luck on figuring this stuff out.
this is such a good description of my own plural experiences too. thanks:-)
I'm happy you guys have managed to get a good therapist who's been able to hear yous out and take you seriously.
this has motivated me to finally start figuring out my own plurality instead of pushing it off n shit
can relate to the thing of headmates not knowing they are in front; for us we’ve temporarily given up constantly figuring out whos in front, until we’ve got our constant depersonalization shit figured out in therapy
its like we have multiple plates, but we dropped all of them, and now theres thousands of pieces on the floor. also, the room is completely dark and we cant find the lightswitch
if i had the money, id give you a potato cannon. why? idk spud.
So what do we call you? Like collectively, I'm assuming Patricia, but I don't know
oh congrats on the discovery progress y'all! our system doesn't really work the same way (like we share memories, our plurality isn't really particularly "disordered" and we don't exactly form or function on a dissociative trauma basis) but the "helping" thing you're describing sounds a lot like what we like to call "copiloting", it's interesting how very different brain arrangements can end up with some surprisingly coherent similarities at times.
...also we have a Rambley too. his situation is probably pretty different than yours but you might've indirectly given our brain the idea to introject him a while ago lol, oops. uh, hopefully that's not oversharing haha
anyway best of luck figuring yourselves out y'all! we do not know each other but it's cool to see more cool music nerds and up being openly plural
That explains the picture of train-enjoyer Rambley in the corner, but not Captain Disillusion or Mario getting clobbered by a plastic fire bar.
mario
Congrats on your introjection!
best of luck to all of you!
It's great to see that you're in therapy and you're all working to try to communicate better! My system has been working on that ourselves and it's slow going but even just a bit of communication can help a lot in the right moments, especially with gender stuff.
The Helping term you talked about is great, a lot of my alters never properly front but will instead Help like that a lot, which tends to color certain interactions in sometimes uncomfortable ways lol
One thing we've been working on to help detect when people are fronting or helping is establishing an emotional signature of sorts that each alter has that becomes unconscious enough that we can recognize their presence without them having to establish themselves. It's slow going but it's had some effectiveness. Some of the alters are more emotional and volatile so they're already mostly there.
I struggle a lot with keeping myself from thinking I'm faking, too. It's so easy to just go "is this just a story I'm telling myself?" But I've tried to stamp that out as much as possible. People have seen the changes, my partner knows when I've switched front, I've got amnesia walls, there is evidence of this and accepting it is only gonna make me happier. Thankfulky I've had people in my life to encourage this acceptance, including my best friend who is also a system and called me out for being one lol. I'm glad you're starting to accept yourself too ^^
we love to see it!
I’m so happy for you! I wish you the best of luck with therapy.
Just realized there's text by Mario always changing
Yay, you're back :3
I called it…
mario mario wario wario
being plural is weird (i should go to therapy) but also i know there are 3 people in here, me included, and one of them holds religious trauma but i dont feel like ive had any religious trauma???? its weird i also have a weird creature that loves apple juice and wants to make effigies from mud and sticks
❤🧡💛💚💙💜
Great video title.
lol i wish i was as quick to the punch as you were
2:29 Our partner has one of those! :D (Just waaaaaaay bigger than 8 inches, closer to 5 feet)
your partner owns a telescope with five feet of aperture???
@@puppyhelictriangle Oh. We misunderstood. Thought the image on screen was an "8 inch telescope", like a mini version. Oops, that's on us ^^;
No the whole thing is like 5ft tall. Which we now understand seems to be the norm
A new video lets go ❤
Maybe I'm misunderstanding, but it all sounds pretty normal to me, i dont think people have a coherent singular self. People use terms like "inner child" (Nix) "super ego" (Amber), "ego" (Avery) to describe parts of themselves.
Like these are just names for much more abstract, parts of a big emotional soup we call our conscious. Somedays it's clear and coherent , somedays it's a chaotic mess. It seems strange to rush to call it a disorder; but if being aware of them is causing suffering then i can understand that.
Personally, i call my aspects Jimmy (child), James(self), and Dog (impulse/instinct). Funny that you say they communicate in feelings and hunches, that resonates with me. Like James can speak to the others, but others can only communicate in feelings (dog in horny and fear) (Jimmy in joy and sorrow). And there on feel like more atomic aspects, but they're more elusive.
In short it sounds like you're just developing greater awareness of your semi and unconscious mind; i don't see where the disorder part is.
Hey pup. I wanted to assure you that having an alter emerge from a fictional character is normal. I have an alter, his name is Vince, and he at first emerged from Sans, even though he technically existed longer. You just recognized "yourself" or a part of you in Rambley and it kinda awoke the alter that was already there. So I know that Vincent is Vincent even though he spawned from Sans. Maybe you have something similiar.
good luck to you all!
damn, all I can say is damn, there's more I could say but I don't think I should
You should look into the VRChat Trans Academy. It's a fantastic community that could support you on this journey. Azeal has a great video explaining more about it.
Good you're in therapy.
my littlealtar peed th bed
What would be and endgoal for you all ? In any case, take much care, glad to hear you found a therapist to help you out
Why does there need to be an "endgoal"? Headmates just exist.
Not me relating too damn hard about this
(Sprite kinda wants to introduce the squad as we know them to our friends on social media, I’m not sure this is such a good idea) (I think some of them, the cool ones, would be chill about it -Sprite)
One thing that I find to be an interesting perspective on discussing plurality, for me, is in the context of otherkin.
I’ve been reading animorphs (which is a wildly therianthropic children’s book series by the way, like, it makes intense narrative focus on the physical and emotional aspects of what it is to be another animal) for the first time and discussing it every week with a friend of mine
Said friend is the only other otherkin that I know- he’s an andalite (the blue aliens from the books), and I (Sprite) am a dragon. We sometimes talk about existence as our true selves, and the weird incongruence and dysphoria (we’re trans, we can say that) of inhabiting a human body. Last week he mentioned having “morphs”, like, other creatures that he turns into. I… didn’t know that that was something other people could do. I’d also kinda been referring to our other strange headfellows as morphs. I said that there’s me (Sprite), my human (dev) (dev and I have been a team together for many years now), our rat, our monitor lizard (I named him “Monty” after the fnaf character), and what I believe to be a werewolf (I just call it the creature).
I think I kind of like referring to them as morphs, because we still kinda remember all the same things, but we have different sets of emotions and instincts and interact differently with our human form and the world around us (sort of like how morphing works in the books)
It also sort of helps with my/our imposter syndrome about referring to them as “alters,” because we haven’t talked to a professional about this and I’m afraid to take a word that isn’t mine.
But also it feels wrong, too, because referring to it that way also discounts our individuality, or how scary it can feel when one of us leaves for a long time.
(Idk if this is for anyone or helpful to anyone or makes sense at all, but I guess I sure wanted to say it, so here it is :3)
I guess I’m kinda relating to how you talk about this in context of being a furry and therian
I am all three (furry, therian, otherkin), and also like to perceive my plurality in that context
I was trying to catch up on your tumblr and there's a lot going on, what's up with you/others saying your therapist is suggesting you explore incestous thoughts? I had a hard time understanding that whole discourse.
therapists do not apropos of nothing suggest you sexualize your trauma but if you find joy in that you will never find a therapist that actively dissuades you from it, and I never have.
♦the people _especially_ aren't ready for inter-system-sibling-dating discourse
You got a 6th dimensional demon attached to you. If invest in cystals to draw out the alters based on horoscope wavelength to minerals .
its just 90% of anime plots
We *_wish_* we got that kind of representation, are you kidding us?