For anyone listening to this and struggling, I want to share a little bit of a story with you. When i got into 6th grade, I had some serious mental health issues. I was depressed, suicidal and self harming. In 6th grade, i had my first suicide attempt. I tried to suffocate myself which did not work. I used to listen to this song all the time. I felt like nothing would get better. 3/4 of the way through the school year, i had had enough. I went to the counselors office, where i told her about how i was feeling. She called my parents in. Their reaction was... less than optimal. My dad asked me “why did you skip a class” and didnt even mention my suicidal thoughts. He called me embarrassing, which caused me to repress my feelings more. They did however, send me to therapy, which i am grateful for. However, it was only at the end of the school year, and i would not be in the area to go to therapy over the summer. I only attended 4 sessions before it was summer. I was depressed but it wasnt horrible. I’d feel a little depressed here and there. I thought it was over. Boy was i wrong. In 7th grade, my depression got worse, i was being bullied, i had severe gender dysphoria, people called me an “it”. They told me to kill myself. I wasnt happy. I was cutting a lot more. Eventually, my sadness turned into anger and numbness. Anger at myself and anger at other people. I wanted to kill myself and everyone around me. In may of that year, i tried to hang myself. It didnt work because i did it with a shoelace. I just felt so numb after that. I wasnt really feeling anything. Not sad, not happy, just empty. I resorted to drug use. I felt physically terribleall the time because of it. In june, i tried again with a shoelace. It was before school. I even wrote a note, which i still have. I was so low i didnt care if i hurt my body. I just wanted it to be over. Summer was terrible. I had tons of online drama, i was running back and forth all summer to actually do therapy this time. But i didnt want to help myself. I was cutting and my grandma caught me. She forced me to wear short sleeves in public. I hated myself. I felt like no one cared. I was still on drugs but it wasnt even helping anymore. I was so numb. I can barely remember what happened. I tried to kill myself again, this time, i took about 8 pills, which did nothing but make me sick. I went back to school and i was so depressed. Yeah i liked cross country, yeah i liked my friends. But none of it mattered. I started getting panic attacks and had horrible anxiety. And then it hit me. I had to help myself. Therapy wouldnt do anything if i didnt try to help myself. This time, i actually worked hard. I got a bit better. I wasnt suicidal anymore. I wasnt cutting anymore. I wasnt sad 24/7. Im still depressed, or i wouldnt be listening to this, i still get panic attacks. But i’m not depressed all the time anymore. It’s a bit lighter and i know how to deal with it now. If youre ever depressed, theres a hard lesson you need to learn. Try to help yourself. I know you dont have the energy to do much but get up and do something. I know you think everyone hates you but they dont. Ask for help. It will help you. Stay strong. If i made it this far, you can too.
@Alaster Nikkal (this is Thomas don’t mind my dead name) I’m happy you commented this homie. You will never fail to make my day or another persons day, we’ll all get over this soon. :-)
Hey I obviously don’t know what’s wrong but not everyone hates you. I don’t hate you. And I’m sure there’s a lot of people who don’t either. You have a lot of reasons to exist, even if I don’t know you. Do you wanna talk? I have discord, insta. I’m here! Don’t give up!
You are incorrect! I will miss you! Even if you're a stranger please don't suicide! Suicide is never the answer! I hope everything is ok with you! Have a amazing day/night/afternoon/evening! -Angel
To be fair, I'm fighting my own battles. But I have a loving family who cares and two cats. I love them all and am so happy to have them in my life. God, that sounded so self centered.. I hate it.. Anyways, to any sad bean who's reading this: I don't know you but I wuv you wit all my heart and hope you get a thousand hugs and cuddles. If you have haphephobia, then I hope y'all get a thousand of your favorite food, drink, or anything else you might like! Your battle might not be over but there are people who'll help you win them! Please don't die on me, I'll be sad and so will others.. So to the haphephobic beans have your favorite food, drink, or whatever you like. And to the beans get cuddles and hugs! I wuv you if you're reading this. With much love, a confused, pansexual sad bean helping other sad beans!
I’ve been having su!c!dal thoughts. It’s more than usual. Been crying more than usual. Been more sad and mad. I always think I’m too rude or too much of a failure to help. Not allowed to cut, so I’ve been scratching myself instead. Edit: its almost been a year since I commented this, and I’m doing way better. I still have those cloudy thoughts every now and then, but I’m doing WAY better now! Thanks for the support yall! Love ya too💖
Hey, I am sorry that you have to go through that and I truly hope that you are better! If you need someone to talk to I am here for you. I truly believe that you are a beautiful person, otherwise you probably wouldn't even have the feeling that you are rude or such, since you wouldn't care, but you do, so you already are way more caring than many people.
anyone wanna hear a joke? *knock knock* *who's there?* *you* *you who?* *YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, CAN'T YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*
@@krishellenberg5715 Same actually! I always thought that my face was ugly, but now I don't! Also you're looks don't make you look rude, its the personality that counts. I bet you have a amazing personality though!
I think of myself when I listen to this song but when someone asks why are you sad?? *You have nothing to say* But truly inside you can’t take it. *Is it just me?*
I feel you, and I am truly sorry that you have to endure that. But if you do want to talk just hit me up, I am here and I will listen, even if it is just vent, I know it can be helpful to just have someone listen to all the things that are bottled up inside. Stay safe hun
Hey, you probably go through a tough time right now, so I can understand that you feel that way, but please don't hurt yourself. You would be missed. If you need someone to talk to I am here for you. Stay safe please
Thanks for taking the time to read my worthless words. Hey I'm apart of the LGBTQ and I'm in 7th grade. Growing up I never really opened up, never had anyone to talk to. Along with being that 'Asian kid', I'm not Asian. My mother was a teen and drank a lot. Which lead to me going to foster homes a few times. When I was born my mother, since she was a teenager she called me a mistake until I was three. She stopped paying attention to me when I was four to five. I taught myself how to read, I was playing with my uncle a lot and I cut my hand really badly which lead to a scar on my hand. In 1st to 2nd grade I started wondering if I was really meant to be here. Many adults said I was to mature for a kid my age and I should've stuck to dolls and girly things.. Wish I listened. In 3rd 4th grade I was very self conscious and felt like that whole world was watching my every move. That's also around the time my mother finally realized to start caring for me. It was nice for a while but she didn't educate me on the LGBTQ when she could've. Every now and then she would drink. 5th 6th grade I was having suicidal thoughts, anxiety and stress. I tried to tell my parents about it but they just replied with a 'Your just a kid, what do you know about being gay and having stress?' God if they at least saw what I saw. And now. I'm trying to get help but again my parents think I'm just following a trend and not really gay. My friends aren't much help either. They said if I'm not cutting or seriously self harming I'm not really depressed, I don't wanna be depressed.. I'm on the urge of cutting but one thing holding me back is my partner. The only one who listened and hasn't given up on telling me not to end it all.. almost everyone did and I know everyone will eventually. Everyone does. I mentally break myself down and I attempted by swallowing a whole bottle of steroids. I torture myself to a point where it should be self harm, I scratched myself with a pencil too hard a couple of days ago.. Well it's getting a bit late. I'll probably talk more soon but for now. Thanks so much stranger. I wish you best on the long road. :).
I was once a cheerful happy kid now that I’m older I notice how cruel the world can be my mom told me her two kids in the future will always be better then me that affected me a lot I have nobody to talk to my little brother is 3 I have no other siblings it’s like I’m the oldest but the youngest got the adults I don’t know who to talk to. And I can’t trust no friends after all of my friends were fake to me and I was left alone for elementary school now im in middle school I still have no friends due to coronavirus now I’m anti social my dad cares for me but he’s just not the dad to talk to about depression my mom never listens I told her but she said your fine it’s just a phase people say you will get over it but there’s no cure
I can understand how you feel, and you know what I feel the same way! My parents never listen to me, they call me useless, bossy, and fat, so does my brother which is 2 years younger than me, and I am also the oldest and it is really hard because my parents say that I am not responsible at all and they also say that I never help which I actually do! I care for my parents but they don't seem like they will ever care about me! I tried telling my mom about this and she says that it is quite natural, but is self harming natural? Ever since last school year I self harmed myself and I thought that it would help me, and also get suicidal thoughts, I still get suicidal thoughts now but I stopped self harming myself only because people might know, but last year I used a razor not anything sharp but I would just rub it on my skin because I felt worthless and I wanted to die! Also my teacher this year told a person I think was from child helpline or something, and I was pretty terrified because I did not wanted to get hit, because back then my brother told his teacher that he was getting hit, and then after my mom said "if we did that again then we would get hit" and I never felt safe in my household. I still feel unsafe in my household now, and I wish that everything is okay with you because nobody deserves to be treated like that! I hope you have a safe and happy day/night/afternoon/evening! -Angel
even if life get's worse, you still have your family on your side, your friends and all. Leave all these negative and keep being positive. Ending all of this very soon won't help anything. Just so you know you're good enough already. Don't let the other's let you down easily stay strong everyone. Just so you know, we're all here to support you. 💕💕
Not everyone has families and especially family's that care. And I just lost all my friends and support system so if I go off the deep end there's no one to blame but myself right?
I’m actually depressed because of 3 things, well mostly.. my BFF kiaracoole has been offline for 2 years, I think she’s dead. I got depression from that. I think the day before she went offline my Nan died. I don’t want to be here, my “bff” vl0stlia keeps leaving me. My parents called the doctors for help and nothing they said helped. Every since I played ddlc I thought “I wish I hung so I could fly like sayori” My fake friend told me to say this to my parents “CAN I FLYY?” From upstairs and when they walk in I’ll be hanging. He actually stole my stuff because I trusted him so much, if any of you know how to help, please help me.. - Cammixbayy on the 8th 2020 December
I’ll be your friend I know how that feels I lost my self pleasing everybody else when all they did was treat me like shit and blamed me for shit everyone just cares about your mistakes not the good things you do fuck life but I learned the hard way out yourself before anyone expect for god
Hey, I hope you’re still here. I wanted to let you know that you are worth it, you are enough, and you deserve to be happy, loved, and you deserve to live. The world is a much better place with you in it, and you will get through this. I’m proud of you no matter what. You might not be perfect, but no one is, and you’re you. Being you is more than enough, and there’s only one of you in this whole entire world. Losing you would be losing something incredibly special. Suicide might seem like your only option, and though it might get rid of your pain, all it does is pass it on to the people who love and care about you. (It might be hard to feel this way but people do love and care about you, I know we haven’t met but I love and care about you.) And this is hard to see, but you have so so much to live for. You’re going to have so many good opportunities in the future and I know one day you’ll be able to look back on this and think: “I’m glad I never gave up.” You are strong. You are beautiful. You deserve everything good in life. I believe in you with all my heart, and hope that one day you’ll be able to say and believe I’m proud of myself, because you deserve it.
I know some time passed already since you posted this, but I just wanted to tell you that I truly hope you are fine. Please don't hurt yourself. You probably think noone cares, but I know what it means when you come to listen to this song, and I care and want you to stay safe
...I like it-Im also depressed- but I war different bright color to be happy :D I try to cheer people up but you guys are just gonna be to depressed like always- well some :/
I have something to tell. My mom, she said that I can’t see my dad and my stepmom even though I only feel safe with them. She said I had nothing to be stressed about, she said that I had nothing to be depressed about, she said I had nothing to be suicidal about.. I hate her I hate her I hate her I hate her she puts all this weight on me and expects me to hold it all up on my first try, I’m trying I swear but I can’t pick it up.. this weight is to heavy for me but I’m trying to get stronger.. I’m trying, but she just thinks that I’m lazy because I give myself breaks. She doesn’t give me a break. I don’t eat dinner because I’m tired and I need sleep. But I can’t sleep. I cry all night because I have so much things to do. That’s it.. I don’t want to go back but I’m only 12 so I don’t have a choice.. I also almost got r@ped at the age of nine! And now I’m 12 and have a lot of stress on me that no one sees and never tries to help me with the weight I’m holding because I’m “too young” or whatever. So I almost took my life multiple times but I failed.. I still want to drop out of school because it causes me so much stress that I can’t handle but you know just whatever “deal with it”.. it what they say so I guess I’ll get back to my shitty life. Bye.. sincerely, Max G.
I am so sorry for what happened to you Izzy! I am serious! You don't deserve to go through that shit! You don't deserve to be with that monster! Here is some advice! If you have contact with you're dad or step-mom then I suggest telling them of what happened! You deserve to live a happy life! You're mom doesn't deserve you're love! You are a AMAZING and STRONG person and I am proud of you for that! I hope you have an amazing day/night/afternoon/evening! -Angel
@@DreamSky-v2k well, my dad and my step-mom broke up and she took almost everything from his house, he has a gf now and my mom is doing a little better, and i go by max 😅 and thank you!
I wanted to let you know that you are worth it, you are enough, and you deserve to be happy, loved, and you deserve to live. The world is a much better place with you in it, and you will get through this. I’m proud of you no matter what. You might not be perfect, but no one is, and you’re you. Being you is more than enough, and there’s only one of you in this whole entire world. Losing you would be losing something incredibly special. Suicide might seem like your only option, and though it might get rid of your pain, all it does is pass it on to the people who love and care about you. (It might be hard to feel this way but people do love and care about you, I know we haven’t met but I love and care about you.) And this is hard to see, but you have so so much to live for. You’re going to have so many good opportunities in the future and I know one day you’ll be able to look back on this and think: “I’m glad I never gave up.” You are strong. You are beautiful. You deserve everything good in life. I believe in you with all my heart, and hope that one day you’ll be able to say and believe I’m proud of myself, because you deserve it.
Please don't, you have so much worth. I know that you are struggling, I'm in the same place, but I see a bright future for the both of us, if you're still alive and reading this, stay strong warrior. You are powerful, no one can take that away from you. ✌
...everyone hates me even my own *mom* she knew I cut but she yelled at me still saying I'm a disappointment when I get something wrong on my homework even tho I do it without permission...I feel like this song is about me...since I've been depressed since age *7*...I used to be happy now I'm thinking about my life and cutting my arms with a blade till I cut a vein to take my life...but other wise that........*im fine : )*
heyy i know things are tough but hey i don't hate you, you will get through this. I'm not telling you that it will all be okay, because i know many other people might have said the exact same thing but nothing happened. Just so you know, i am sure there are people who cares about you, don't be afraid to seek help. I am in the same situation as you and i am not planning on giving up. I used to cut myself every day, as the days go by the deeper the cuts become, but i managed to be clean for a month now, i believe if i can do it, you can too. Keep your head up high alright?
Vent: I miss my brothers. Yes, they were "fiction" but they ment more to me then I ever have to myself. I can't fix their death, it hurts so much though. I can't bear it. please, if you see this, give me at least SOME encouragement to keep going. Cause mine is gone.
You will. I promise. I know it might seem hopeless or you feel lost (believe me I'm there rn) but good thing will come your way and if you need someone to talk to, I'm a wonderful listener 💜
God is love, and he has a plan for everyone! Don’t listen to this music video. Go to Christian groups. And who ever is suffering, right now. tell it to God. if you guys aren’t Christians sneak out and go to church groups. This video must be put down, it didn’t help me when I was 14, will it help it for you? Those who are listening for fun Okay, but those who are hearing this song because of suffering is Not Good, i was born premature. And i can’t explain how God change my life, I even when to a boarding school to be emotionally stable in my mind or brain, if you guys are broken take God seriously and he’ll take you seriously, I also lost some friends because of this song, in the past I mean I didn’t loose them but one of my mom’s friend said, I am sorry but I need your daughter to leave my daughter alone. Thank you. God made a huge impact in my life, by him. talking to me. he’s going to impact on you guys life. he’s worthy of your love.
Been depressed and suicidal for years. Nothing will get better like they said it would. I want to cut again. It hurts but I have nobody. It hurts. I’m setting up a plan. Soon. It hurts so bad. I want this to be over as I’ve said for years. I’m only 13.
so my freshman year of high school, i wrote out the whole suicide note for what i said at the time was for a story but truthfully i think i was getting ready to end it all. i listened to this song maybe like 1,000 times (idk the actual number) and got in trouble at school and was called to the principal's and i was so embarrassed and denied needing help, it's been 5 years and i am getting help. not perfect yet but im still going. all this to say as soon as i hear the beginning part of this song (slowed or not) i get chills down my spine
I am sorry to hear that, if you feel lile noone cares- I do. I want you to be safe! You are truly strong for enduring so much pain, please don't make yourself go through even more hurtful things. I know it's hard, but if you need someone to talk to I am here. Stay safe
I'm starting to lose my grip, I don't think I can keep this up anymore, I can feel the final wave coming my way. I have so many people that care, but still, I feel so alone. I have everything put together, but I'm scared I'll fail.
I Feel Like I Did Something Wrong...All Of My Friends Haven't Messaged Me For 5 Days...Even My BFF Hasn't...I Cant Do This Anymore...I Always Mess Stuff Up...I Basically Listen To This Song Almost Everyday...Good bye..
Hi there. I know it’s a hard year but you have to learn to ask if you did something wrong. Talk to your friends if they won’t talk to you first. Everyone messes things up, just remember that it’s all fine. Everyone leaves eventually, just don’t go out the cowards way. The song is enjoyable and has a lot of meaning but think about the people that surround you in life, don’t think they wouldn’t miss you.
(Mike Len) I have a partner. I loved them dearly. Our relationship was accidental, my cousin let it slip that I liked them. Anyways, I haven’t talked to them in over two months because they ghosted me. School is plenty stressful and I continue to go into worse condition everyday, do I drop my optimism? No, I don’t. I won’t drop my optimism because I know that others need it. My Mother has depression, and that same cousin I mentioned is practically being used as a slave by her family. All I’m saying is keep pushing on. There’s always someone out there that enjoys your presence. I love sending people some happiness, even if it had to lower mine. Just don’t give up on life. Ask your gf why she isn’t talking to you! If she gives a negative comment then she is for the streets. If you don’t have courage. Ask if you want to spend time together or something. You can always find new friends as well. We live on a planet populated by billions. Surely there is someone online or IRL who wouldn’t mind having someone to talk to. ^^ Have a wonderful day/night!!
This song is perfect for me , this is exactly how I feel, I want the pain to go away but it won’t I’m only a kid I shouldn’t feel like this nor should anyone else, most of the time I think “nobody loves me the world would be better without me” I’ve tried to stab myself before but couldn’t and I tried to suffocate myself that didn’t work either I tried to strangle myself and starve but I can’t it just won’t work I’ve tried to hang my self too, I really can’t handle it but I don’t want to make anybody sad, but I can’t handle the pain, I have therapy but it won’t help I don’t tell anybody how I feel other then my friend but then again what if their not actually my friend? What if their just faking it, I’ve wanted to cut myself but I just cant do it I scratch myself instead of cutting,I listen to this song almost everyday in hopes of finally achieving my goals, people tell me I have a future to live for but nobody would want someone like me, I’m really insecure about my weight and looks sometimes I wish I had the body of some of my classmates and then be treated with respect like them, my parents argue everyday and my best friend got taken away,I try to be happy but I’m dying on the inside, I have break downs in the middle of class and nobody gives af the teacher asks if I’m ok which makes me cry more,I have a crush but I know he doesn’t like me back I wish I didn’t have anxiety, depression and anger isssues I physically and mentally abuse myself and others around but I don’t try too.. I’m only 12 I always wanted to grow up but now I wanna be a kid again, my life is hell, if there’s anybody that sees this just know that no matter how loved you feel I love you I might not know you but I care about you there’s always one person that cares for you, just don’t end up like me and be suicidal. love yourself for who you are something I could never do never give up there’s hope for you and I hope you find it :) I gave up ages ago but that doesn’t mean you get to give up I know your going threw hard times and we all do but it’ll be ok trust me I’ve been there if you have any hobbies I suggest doing them to get your mind off things that’s what I do, if you bite your nails, cheek, toungue etc I suggest getting gum or not worrying so much, I know I’m only a stranger but I’m here for you, now I can’t say I can stay on this earth but I try my best too never give up
@@Lisa.V13 heh ever tried the broken peice of mirror after you broke it with a punch while looking at it because you just fkin hate the reflection, that really hits different.
For anyone listening to this and struggling, I want to share a little bit of a story with you.
When i got into 6th grade, I had some serious mental health issues. I was depressed, suicidal and self harming. In 6th grade, i had my first suicide attempt. I tried to suffocate myself which did not work. I used to listen to this song all the time. I felt like nothing would get better. 3/4 of the way through the school year, i had had enough. I went to the counselors office, where i told her about how i was feeling. She called my parents in. Their reaction was... less than optimal. My dad asked me “why did you skip a class” and didnt even mention my suicidal thoughts. He called me embarrassing, which caused me to repress my feelings more.
They did however, send me to therapy, which i am grateful for. However, it was only at the end of the school year, and i would not be in the area to go to therapy over the summer. I only attended 4 sessions before it was summer. I was depressed but it wasnt horrible. I’d feel a little depressed here and there. I thought it was over.
Boy was i wrong.
In 7th grade, my depression got worse, i was being bullied, i had severe gender dysphoria, people called me an “it”. They told me to kill myself. I wasnt happy. I was cutting a lot more. Eventually, my sadness turned into anger and numbness. Anger at myself and anger at other people. I wanted to kill myself and everyone around me. In may of that year, i tried to hang myself. It didnt work because i did it with a shoelace. I just felt so numb after that. I wasnt really feeling anything. Not sad, not happy, just empty. I resorted to drug use. I felt physically terribleall the time because of it. In june, i tried again with a shoelace. It was before school. I even wrote a note, which i still have. I was so low i didnt care if i hurt my body. I just wanted it to be over.
Summer was terrible. I had tons of online drama, i was running back and forth all summer to actually do therapy this time. But i didnt want to help myself. I was cutting and my grandma caught me. She forced me to wear short sleeves in public. I hated myself. I felt like no one cared. I was still on drugs but it wasnt even helping anymore. I was so numb. I can barely remember what happened. I tried to kill myself again, this time, i took about 8 pills, which did nothing but make me sick. I went back to school and i was so depressed. Yeah i liked cross country, yeah i liked my friends. But none of it mattered. I started getting panic attacks and had horrible anxiety.
And then it hit me. I had to help myself. Therapy wouldnt do anything if i didnt try to help myself. This time, i actually worked hard. I got a bit better. I wasnt suicidal anymore. I wasnt cutting anymore. I wasnt sad 24/7.
Im still depressed, or i wouldnt be listening to this, i still get panic attacks. But i’m not depressed all the time anymore. It’s a bit lighter and i know how to deal with it now. If youre ever depressed, theres a hard lesson you need to learn. Try to help yourself. I know you dont have the energy to do much but get up and do something. I know you think everyone hates you but they dont. Ask for help. It will help you. Stay strong. If i made it this far, you can too.
@Alaster Nikkal (this is Thomas don’t mind my dead name) I’m happy you commented this homie. You will never fail to make my day or another persons day, we’ll all get over this soon. :-)
@@bigmeatyclaws28 thank you homie.
Uff- come here come here, lemmi give ya a huggg
@Dipti Priya Yus
Alaster Nikkal this is the same for me, except I’m still in 6th grade and I haven’t attempted suicide. I want to though
Me too I'm always fine, even if I got tears in my eyes :')
Yes. Fine. Allllllll the fine.
I like it that in the comments we all feel the same and I like it bc we all understand each other
what's the point on existing if everyone hates me, i mean no one would miss me anyways
Hey I obviously don’t know what’s wrong but not everyone hates you. I don’t hate you. And I’m sure there’s a lot of people who don’t either. You have a lot of reasons to exist, even if I don’t know you. Do you wanna talk? I have discord, insta. I’m here! Don’t give up!
I love you 🥺❤️
i will miss you,i love you
I would miss ya, even if I don't know ya..
You are incorrect! I will miss you! Even if you're a stranger please don't suicide! Suicide is never the answer! I hope everything is ok with you! Have a amazing day/night/afternoon/evening!
-Angel
Heh..I wish.
i haven't heard this song in years
To the people who are down.. you’re going to get through this, everything has a silver lining. There will be someone who loves you
To be fair, I'm fighting my own battles. But I have a loving family who cares and two cats. I love them all and am so happy to have them in my life.
God, that sounded so self centered.. I hate it..
Anyways, to any sad bean who's reading this:
I don't know you but I wuv you wit all my heart and hope you get a thousand hugs and cuddles. If you have haphephobia, then I hope y'all get a thousand of your favorite food, drink, or anything else you might like! Your battle might not be over but there are people who'll help you win them! Please don't die on me, I'll be sad and so will others.. So to the haphephobic beans have your favorite food, drink, or whatever you like. And to the beans get cuddles and hugs!
I wuv you if you're reading this.
With much love, a confused, pansexual sad bean helping other sad beans!
im a pansexual sad bean who wuvs you bacc:]
"When your time has come just look at the moon"
The mom when she dies at like 1pm: 💀👄💀
I’ve been having su!c!dal thoughts. It’s more than usual. Been crying more than usual. Been more sad and mad. I always think I’m too rude or too much of a failure to help. Not allowed to cut, so I’ve been scratching myself instead.
Edit: its almost been a year since I commented this, and I’m doing way better. I still have those cloudy thoughts every now and then, but I’m doing WAY better now! Thanks for the support yall! Love ya too💖
I been cutting with scissors knifes pencils and scratching
Hey, I am sorry that you have to go through that and I truly hope that you are better! If you need someone to talk to I am here for you. I truly believe that you are a beautiful person, otherwise you probably wouldn't even have the feeling that you are rude or such, since you wouldn't care, but you do, so you already are way more caring than many people.
anyone wanna hear a joke?
*knock knock*
*who's there?*
*you*
*you who?*
*YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, CAN'T YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*
@@DreamSky-v2k thanks!
I was actually upset about me being beautiful back then, I thought it made me rude :(
I’m doing way better now
@@krishellenberg5715 Same actually!
I always thought that my face was ugly, but now I don't!
Also you're looks don't make you look rude, its the personality that counts.
I bet you have a amazing personality though!
I think of myself when I listen to this song but when someone asks why are you sad?? *You have nothing to say*
But truly inside you can’t take it. *Is it just me?*
I feel you, and I am truly sorry that you have to endure that. But if you do want to talk just hit me up, I am here and I will listen, even if it is just vent, I know it can be helpful to just have someone listen to all the things that are bottled up inside. Stay safe hun
@@kuro_vince6113 oh thank you!
I don't want to end my life, I just want to end my pain. and I think I will
Hey, you probably go through a tough time right now, so I can understand that you feel that way, but please don't hurt yourself. You would be missed. If you need someone to talk to I am here for you. Stay safe please
Thanks for taking the time to read my worthless words.
Hey I'm apart of the LGBTQ and I'm in 7th grade. Growing up I never really opened up, never had anyone to talk to. Along with being that 'Asian kid', I'm not Asian. My mother was a teen and drank a lot. Which lead to me going to foster homes a few times.
When I was born my mother, since she was a teenager she called me a mistake until I was three. She stopped paying attention to me when I was four to five. I taught myself how to read, I was playing with my uncle a lot and I cut my hand really badly which lead to a scar on my hand.
In 1st to 2nd grade I started wondering if I was really meant to be here. Many adults said I was to mature for a kid my age and I should've stuck to dolls and girly things..
Wish I listened.
In 3rd 4th grade I was very self conscious and felt like that whole world was watching my every move. That's also around the time my mother finally realized to start caring for me. It was nice for a while but she didn't educate me on the LGBTQ when she could've. Every now and then she would drink.
5th 6th grade I was having suicidal thoughts, anxiety and stress. I tried to tell my parents about it but they just replied with a 'Your just a kid, what do you know about being gay and having stress?'
God if they at least saw what I saw.
And now. I'm trying to get help but again my parents think I'm just following a trend and not really gay. My friends aren't much help either. They said if I'm not cutting or seriously self harming I'm not really depressed, I don't wanna be depressed.. I'm on the urge of cutting but one thing holding me back is my partner. The only one who listened and hasn't given up on telling me not to end it all.. almost everyone did and I know everyone will eventually.
Everyone does.
I mentally break myself down and I attempted by swallowing a whole bottle of steroids. I torture myself to a point where it should be self harm, I scratched myself with a pencil too hard a couple of days ago.. Well it's getting a bit late. I'll probably talk more soon but for now.
Thanks so much stranger. I wish you best on the long road. :).
I was once a cheerful happy kid now that I’m older I notice how cruel the world can be my mom told me her two kids in the future will always be better then me that affected me a lot I have nobody to talk to my little brother is 3 I have no other siblings it’s like I’m the oldest but the youngest got the adults I don’t know who to talk to. And I can’t trust no friends after all of my friends were fake to me and I was left alone for elementary school now im in middle school I still have no friends due to coronavirus now I’m anti social my dad cares for me but he’s just not the dad to talk to about depression my mom never listens I told her but she said your fine it’s just a phase people say you will get over it but there’s no cure
I can understand how you feel, and you know what I feel the same way! My parents never listen to me, they call me useless, bossy, and fat, so does my brother which is 2 years younger than me, and I am also the oldest and it is really hard because my parents say that I am not responsible at all and they also say that I never help which I actually do! I care for my parents but they don't seem like they will ever care about me! I tried telling my mom about this and she says that it is quite natural, but is self harming natural? Ever since last school year I self harmed myself and I thought that it would help me, and also get suicidal thoughts, I still get suicidal thoughts now but I stopped self harming myself only because people might know, but last year I used a razor not anything sharp but I would just rub it on my skin because I felt worthless and I wanted to die! Also my teacher this year told a person I think was from child helpline or something, and I was pretty terrified because I did not wanted to get hit, because back then my brother told his teacher that he was getting hit, and then after my mom said "if we did that again then we would get hit" and I never felt safe in my household. I still feel unsafe in my household now, and I wish that everything is okay with you because nobody deserves to be treated like that! I hope you have a safe and happy day/night/afternoon/evening!
-Angel
even if life get's worse, you still have your family on your side, your friends and all. Leave all these negative and keep being positive. Ending all of this very soon won't help anything. Just so you know you're good enough already. Don't let the other's let you down easily stay strong everyone. Just so you know, we're all here to support you. 💕💕
God bless you. This made my day :')
But I Have No One. :)
“You still have your family on your side”
My family is filled with homophobic, transphobic assholes who hate me.
@@TheRosarySystem
*Same.* 🙄
Not everyone has families and especially family's that care. And I just lost all my friends and support system so if I go off the deep end there's no one to blame but myself right?
The more I listen to this the more I relate to it...
I’m actually depressed because of 3 things, well mostly.. my BFF kiaracoole has been offline for 2 years, I think she’s dead. I got depression from that. I think the day before she went offline my Nan died. I don’t want to be here, my “bff” vl0stlia keeps leaving me. My parents called the doctors for help and nothing they said helped. Every since I played ddlc I thought “I wish I hung so I could fly like sayori” My fake friend told me to say this to my parents “CAN I FLYY?” From upstairs and when they walk in I’ll be hanging. He actually stole my stuff because I trusted him so much, if any of you know how to help, please help me.. - Cammixbayy on the 8th 2020 December
I’ll be your friend I know how that feels I lost my self pleasing everybody else when all they did was treat me like shit and blamed me for shit everyone just cares about your mistakes not the good things you do fuck life but I learned the hard way out yourself before anyone expect for god
IDK what to say, just, Im depressed like you.
Hey, I hope you’re still here. I wanted to let you know that you are worth it, you are enough, and you deserve to be happy, loved, and you deserve to live. The world is a much better place with you in it, and you will get through this. I’m proud of you no matter what. You might not be perfect, but no one is, and you’re you. Being you is more than enough, and there’s only one of you in this whole entire world. Losing you would be losing something incredibly special. Suicide might seem like your only option, and though it might get rid of your pain, all it does is pass it on to the people who love and care about you. (It might be hard to feel this way but people do love and care about you, I know we haven’t met but I love and care about you.) And this is hard to see, but you have so so much to live for. You’re going to have so many good opportunities in the future and I know one day you’ll be able to look back on this and think: “I’m glad I never gave up.” You are strong. You are beautiful. You deserve everything good in life. I believe in you with all my heart, and hope that one day you’ll be able to say and believe I’m proud of myself, because you deserve it.
Its all over.
I know some time passed already since you posted this, but I just wanted to tell you that I truly hope you are fine. Please don't hurt yourself. You probably think noone cares, but I know what it means when you come to listen to this song, and I care and want you to stay safe
...I like it-Im also depressed- but I war different bright color to be happy :D
I try to cheer people up but you guys are just gonna be to depressed like always- well some :/
I have something to tell. My mom, she said that I can’t see my dad and my stepmom even though I only feel safe with them. She said I had nothing to be stressed about, she said that I had nothing to be depressed about, she said I had nothing to be suicidal about.. I hate her I hate her I hate her I hate her she puts all this weight on me and expects me to hold it all up on my first try, I’m trying I swear but I can’t pick it up.. this weight is to heavy for me but I’m trying to get stronger.. I’m trying, but she just thinks that I’m lazy because I give myself breaks. She doesn’t give me a break. I don’t eat dinner because I’m tired and I need sleep. But I can’t sleep. I cry all night because I have so much things to do. That’s it.. I don’t want to go back but I’m only 12 so I don’t have a choice.. I also almost got r@ped at the age of nine! And now I’m 12 and have a lot of stress on me that no one sees and never tries to help me with the weight I’m holding because I’m “too young” or whatever. So I almost took my life multiple times but I failed.. I still want to drop out of school because it causes me so much stress that I can’t handle but you know just whatever “deal with it”.. it what they say so I guess I’ll get back to my shitty life. Bye.. sincerely, Max G.
I am so sorry for what happened to you Izzy! I am serious! You don't deserve to go through that shit! You don't deserve to be with that monster! Here is some advice! If you have contact with you're dad or step-mom then I suggest telling them of what happened! You deserve to live a happy life! You're mom doesn't deserve you're love! You are a AMAZING and STRONG person and I am proud of you for that! I hope you have an amazing day/night/afternoon/evening!
-Angel
@@DreamSky-v2k well, my dad and my step-mom broke up and she took almost everything from his house, he has a gf now and my mom is doing a little better, and i go by max 😅 and thank you!
@@s0-d4 Oh that is good! Also I am very sorry for not using the name that you go by now, I never knew!
I won’t though
gosh, i keep coming back dont i.
I just want to feel okay.
I'm back again from the darkness that I've tried so hard to get out off I'm tired.
i'm sorry bby stay strong you got this queen ! :)
I wanted to let you know that you are worth it, you are enough, and you deserve to be happy, loved, and you deserve to live. The world is a much better place with you in it, and you will get through this. I’m proud of you no matter what. You might not be perfect, but no one is, and you’re you. Being you is more than enough, and there’s only one of you in this whole entire world. Losing you would be losing something incredibly special. Suicide might seem like your only option, and though it might get rid of your pain, all it does is pass it on to the people who love and care about you. (It might be hard to feel this way but people do love and care about you, I know we haven’t met but I love and care about you.) And this is hard to see, but you have so so much to live for. You’re going to have so many good opportunities in the future and I know one day you’ll be able to look back on this and think: “I’m glad I never gave up.” You are strong. You are beautiful. You deserve everything good in life. I believe in you with all my heart, and hope that one day you’ll be able to say and believe I’m proud of myself, because you deserve it.
_Too late now..._
Please don't, you have so much worth. I know that you are struggling, I'm in the same place, but I see a bright future for the both of us, if you're still alive and reading this, stay strong warrior. You are powerful, no one can take that away from you. ✌
ɪᴛs ᴛᴏᴏ ʟᴀᴛᴇ ɴᴏᴡ...
Hey! People love you! Dont do it!
@@asahinafan They didn’t do it. And I’m glad.
...everyone hates me even my own *mom* she knew I cut but she yelled at me still saying I'm a disappointment when I get something wrong on my homework even tho I do it without permission...I feel like this song is about me...since I've been depressed since age *7*...I used to be happy now I'm thinking about my life and cutting my arms with a blade till I cut a vein to take my life...but other wise that........*im fine : )*
heyy i know things are tough but hey i don't hate you, you will get through this. I'm not telling you that it will all be okay, because i know many other people might have said the exact same thing but nothing happened. Just so you know, i am sure there are people who cares about you, don't be afraid to seek help. I am in the same situation as you and i am not planning on giving up. I used to cut myself every day, as the days go by the deeper the cuts become, but i managed to be clean for a month now, i believe if i can do it, you can too. Keep your head up high alright?
Max level of depression
Vent:
I miss my brothers. Yes, they were "fiction" but they ment more to me then I ever have to myself. I can't fix their death, it hurts so much though. I can't bear it. please, if you see this, give me at least SOME encouragement to keep going. Cause mine is gone.
I just don’t have rope...
S a m e
Same
Not me listening to this while my arm is bleeding 👍
can i hug you rn :(
Don't worry me too😃
@@starlightbea.xroblox6179 dw abt it im much better now
I gave myself 30 days to live now its 25 i want to find something which make me smile again :')
You will. I promise. I know it might seem hopeless or you feel lost (believe me I'm there rn) but good thing will come your way and if you need someone to talk to, I'm a wonderful listener 💜
@@lilangel8843 thank you so much
God is love, and he has a plan for everyone! Don’t listen to this music video. Go to Christian groups. And who ever is suffering, right now. tell it to God. if you guys aren’t Christians sneak out and go to church groups. This video must be put down, it didn’t help me when I was 14, will it help it for you? Those who are listening for fun Okay, but those who are hearing this song because of suffering is Not Good, i was born premature. And i can’t explain how God change my life, I even when to a boarding school to be emotionally stable in my mind or brain, if you guys are broken take God seriously and he’ll take you seriously, I also lost some friends because of this song, in the past I mean I didn’t loose them but one of my mom’s friend said, I am sorry but I need your daughter to leave my daughter alone. Thank you. God made a huge impact in my life, by him. talking to me. he’s going to impact on you guys life. he’s worthy of your love.
Been depressed and suicidal for years. Nothing will get better like they said it would. I want to cut again. It hurts but I have nobody. It hurts. I’m setting up a plan. Soon. It hurts so bad. I want this to be over as I’ve said for years. I’m only 13.
I'm tired. I cant handle it anymore.
Damn this it's pretty hard
This is way to accurate 😂
so my freshman year of high school, i wrote out the whole suicide note for what i said at the time was for a story but truthfully i think i was getting ready to end it all. i listened to this song maybe like 1,000 times (idk the actual number) and got in trouble at school and was called to the principal's and i was so embarrassed and denied needing help, it's been 5 years and i am getting help. not perfect yet but im still going. all this to say as soon as i hear the beginning part of this song (slowed or not) i get chills down my spine
my thigh is stinging.
I am sorry to hear that, if you feel lile noone cares- I do. I want you to be safe! You are truly strong for enduring so much pain, please don't make yourself go through even more hurtful things. I know it's hard, but if you need someone to talk to I am here.
Stay safe
I'm starting to lose my grip, I don't think I can keep this up anymore, I can feel the final wave coming my way. I have so many people that care, but still, I feel so alone. I have everything put together, but I'm scared I'll fail.
I Feel Like I Did Something Wrong...All Of My Friends Haven't Messaged Me For 5 Days...Even My BFF Hasn't...I Cant Do This Anymore...I Always Mess Stuff Up...I Basically Listen To This Song Almost Everyday...Good bye..
Hi there. I know it’s a hard year but you have to learn to ask if you did something wrong. Talk to your friends if they won’t talk to you first. Everyone messes things up, just remember that it’s all fine. Everyone leaves eventually, just don’t go out the cowards way. The song is enjoyable and has a lot of meaning but think about the people that surround you in life, don’t think they wouldn’t miss you.
Yeah your right
(Mike Len) I have a partner. I loved them dearly. Our relationship was accidental, my cousin let it slip that I liked them. Anyways, I haven’t talked to them in over two months because they ghosted me. School is plenty stressful and I continue to go into worse condition everyday, do I drop my optimism? No, I don’t. I won’t drop my optimism because I know that others need it. My Mother has depression, and that same cousin I mentioned is practically being used as a slave by her family.
All I’m saying is keep pushing on. There’s always someone out there that enjoys your presence. I love sending people some happiness, even if it had to lower mine. Just don’t give up on life.
Ask your gf why she isn’t talking to you! If she gives a negative comment then she is for the streets. If you don’t have courage. Ask if you want to spend time together or something. You can always find new friends as well. We live on a planet populated by billions. Surely there is someone online or IRL who wouldn’t mind having someone to talk to. ^^
Have a wonderful day/night!!
This song is perfect for me , this is exactly how I feel, I want the pain to go away but it won’t I’m only a kid I shouldn’t feel like this nor should anyone else, most of the time I think “nobody loves me the world would be better without me” I’ve tried to stab myself before but couldn’t and I tried to suffocate myself that didn’t work either I tried to strangle myself and starve but I can’t it just won’t work I’ve tried to hang my self too, I really can’t handle it but I don’t want to make anybody sad, but I can’t handle the pain, I have therapy but it won’t help I don’t tell anybody how I feel other then my friend but then again what if their not actually my friend? What if their just faking it, I’ve wanted to cut myself but I just cant do it I scratch myself instead of cutting,I listen to this song almost everyday in hopes of finally achieving my goals, people tell me I have a future to live for but nobody would want someone like me, I’m really insecure about my weight and looks sometimes I wish I had the body of some of my classmates and then be treated with respect like them, my parents argue everyday and my best friend got taken away,I try to be happy but I’m dying on the inside, I have break downs in the middle of class and nobody gives af the teacher asks if I’m ok which makes me cry more,I have a crush but I know he doesn’t like me back I wish I didn’t have anxiety, depression and anger isssues I physically and mentally abuse myself and others around but I don’t try too..
I’m only 12 I always wanted to grow up but now I wanna be a kid again, my life is hell, if there’s anybody that sees this just know that no matter how loved you feel I love you I might not know you but I care about you there’s always one person that cares for you, just don’t end up like me and be suicidal. love yourself for who you are something I could never do never give up there’s hope for you and I hope you find it :)
I gave up ages ago but that doesn’t mean you get to give up I know your going threw hard times and we all do but it’ll be ok trust me I’ve been there if you have any hobbies I suggest doing them to get your mind off things that’s what I do, if you bite your nails, cheek, toungue etc I suggest getting gum or not worrying so much, I know I’m only a stranger but I’m here for you, now I can’t say I can stay on this earth but I try my best too never give up
i don't have suicidal thoughts, but i feel like a dark room on a hot summers day.
I tried tto get out of tthis 'phase'as my "bff" says. Im back again bc of her. Fun:/
My wrist stings oof
Mine too I been doing it with scissors knifes pencils and scratching 👍
@@Lisa.V13 heh ever tried the broken peice of mirror after you broke it with a punch while looking at it because you just fkin hate the reflection, that really hits different.
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hey you, little person :), jesus loves you! remember for your life, he is here for you :)
Hi lol can someone just reply telling me its gonna be ok
it’s gonna be okay, you can do this. i believe in you
I cant do this anymore
Sincerely, a person
I'm back again from the darkness that I've tried so hard to get out off I'm tired.