And no, you're not the only human being experiencing this. I can absolutely relate. And that knowing of you being exactly where you need to be, holds more power than the uncertainty of feeling like you're not doing something right. You're doing great!
Najah, I'm a recovering workaholic. I have been most of my adult life... 🙃 There have been several times over the years that I have attempted to break out of the rat race and commit myself to my artistic endeavors like art and music... but the world seems to pull me back into it's demands. I, like you don't like to hear that I 'can't' do something. Unlike you, organization isn't my strong suit. It isn't that I can't organize my life but that I never really felt the need to be so rigid. My life has taken some odd turns over the last couple of years and outside forces have literally sought to disrupt and destroy me. On a personal note 📝 I am learning to just be okay with not being okay and allowing things to flush themselves out. I don't like to make changes without knowing the facts. I am always mindful of what I am doing and why I am doing it, even if it appears that I'm doing nothing. People don't really seem to practice the concept of faith in it's fullest sense. Sure, everyone says 'Trust the Universe' but what does that really mean? If everything you took for granted is suddenly taken from you and your family and friends openly conspire against you, yet you have done nothing to deserve such treatment, is organization the answer? I suppose it could be... 🤔 At least in part. Oh but, Najah, these forces that seek control over my sovereignty just might start to think that they have tangible influence over me. Am I just being stubborn or am I standing up for my right to live my own life? If all I wanted was something so simple that even my detractors couldn't disagree with it on it's merit but had to go to obscene lengths to paint me as something that I am not now nor have I ever been, am I wrong for refusing to concede? I am strictly standing on the principle of my own sovereignty. They (whom ever they might be) chose to target me. I have done nothing more than call them out for what they have done and demand that restitution is made. They refuse to acknowledge the injuries that they are responsible for and live in a broken state of denial. If I were to cause you any harm, knowingly or by accident, I would hold myself accountable for the injustice done or my part in the wrong. I suppose they're just too busy to be bothered by it and would openly welcome me to join them if I just put up with their naughty antics? The issue is the principle of it all. When I became aware of the reality that I was literally killing myself for people who were miserable and didn't appreciate me, I was guided to take responsibility for my actions and intentions through the mindful practice of being authentically and honestly myself. I haven't told a lie in years. I've never been a good liar anyway so being honest wasn't a huge paradigm shift for me but as I focused my intentions on this, it became clear that almost everyone was being deceitful. I'm not everyone's cup of tea and I have always been fine with that. I just never thought that the people in my life were so duplicitous. Are there people in my circle who don't wish me harm? Of course there are but they still seem to have a desire to control me, even if only to label and compartmentalize me in a way that they find suitable to their interests/needs. Please forgive me if I'm missing the point of your video as I have clearly high jacked it and taken your thoughts hostage. I assure you that I mean you no harm and I'm only trying to express my opinion. If we desire to live in a free society (or as close to it as is possible) we must reject tyranny in any form and remove corruption from within the institutions that were created to serve us. I believe that these principles are true and I will not compromise on this. I would no sooner impose my will on you than I would allow you to impose your will upon me. This isn't being disagreeable. This is being accountable. If I choose to follow then I have submitted. If I choose to reason with you perhaps we will both gain enlightenment from the correspondence? If you are asleep and you awaken to find yourself being assaulted in the dark by multiple assailants whom you manage to injure in the fray of battle are you responsible for their injuries? Are they responsible for injuries caused to me? I think I'm done high jacking your thoughts, at least for the moment. I hope that you have a wonderful day. ❤️
hi from England! i love your videos. thank you for creating and sharing
I love this! Very thankful for your notes.
And no, you're not the only human being experiencing this. I can absolutely relate. And that knowing of you being exactly where you need to be, holds more power than the uncertainty of feeling like you're not doing something right. You're doing great!
Najah, I'm a recovering workaholic. I have been most of my adult life... 🙃 There have been several times over the years that I have attempted to break out of the rat race and commit myself to my artistic endeavors like art and music... but the world seems to pull me back into it's demands. I, like you don't like to hear that I 'can't' do something. Unlike you, organization isn't my strong suit. It isn't that I can't organize my life but that I never really felt the need to be so rigid. My life has taken some odd turns over the last couple of years and outside forces have literally sought to disrupt and destroy me. On a personal note 📝 I am learning to just be okay with not being okay and allowing things to flush themselves out. I don't like to make changes without knowing the facts. I am always mindful of what I am doing and why I am doing it, even if it appears that I'm doing nothing. People don't really seem to practice the concept of faith in it's fullest sense. Sure, everyone says 'Trust the Universe' but what does that really mean? If everything you took for granted is suddenly taken from you and your family and friends openly conspire against you, yet you have done nothing to deserve such treatment, is organization the answer? I suppose it could be... 🤔 At least in part. Oh but, Najah, these forces that seek control over my sovereignty just might start to think that they have tangible influence over me. Am I just being stubborn or am I standing up for my right to live my own life? If all I wanted was something so simple that even my detractors couldn't disagree with it on it's merit but had to go to obscene lengths to paint me as something that I am not now nor have I ever been, am I wrong for refusing to concede? I am strictly standing on the principle of my own sovereignty. They (whom ever they might be) chose to target me. I have done nothing more than call them out for what they have done and demand that restitution is made. They refuse to acknowledge the injuries that they are responsible for and live in a broken state of denial. If I were to cause you any harm, knowingly or by accident, I would hold myself accountable for the injustice done or my part in the wrong. I suppose they're just too busy to be bothered by it and would openly welcome me to join them if I just put up with their naughty antics? The issue is the principle of it all. When I became aware of the reality that I was literally killing myself for people who were miserable and didn't appreciate me, I was guided to take responsibility for my actions and intentions through the mindful practice of being authentically and honestly myself. I haven't told a lie in years. I've never been a good liar anyway so being honest wasn't a huge paradigm shift for me but as I focused my intentions on this, it became clear that almost everyone was being deceitful. I'm not everyone's cup of tea and I have always been fine with that. I just never thought that the people in my life were so duplicitous. Are there people in my circle who don't wish me harm? Of course there are but they still seem to have a desire to control me, even if only to label and compartmentalize me in a way that they find suitable to their interests/needs. Please forgive me if I'm missing the point of your video as I have clearly high jacked it and taken your thoughts hostage. I assure you that I mean you no harm and I'm only trying to express my opinion. If we desire to live in a free society (or as close to it as is possible) we must reject tyranny in any form and remove corruption from within the institutions that were created to serve us. I believe that these principles are true and I will not compromise on this. I would no sooner impose my will on you than I would allow you to impose your will upon me. This isn't being disagreeable. This is being accountable. If I choose to follow then I have submitted. If I choose to reason with you perhaps we will both gain enlightenment from the correspondence? If you are asleep and you awaken to find yourself being assaulted in the dark by multiple assailants whom you manage to injure in the fray of battle are you responsible for their injuries? Are they responsible for injuries caused to me? I think I'm done high jacking your thoughts, at least for the moment. I hope that you have a wonderful day. ❤️