My antidepressants didn't really work then I found out I was bipolar.. Type 2, that is. I gained weight and I had a really bad relapse after I stopped taking them. Later on was diagnosed with BDD, and anorexia (recovered).
Keep going! I made a vlog about my depression story and I would love for everyone to check it out on my channel! It would mean so much to help as many people as I can who struggle with mental illness! Thanks!
Im not afraid to die -I realy want to-I want a friend and I even have one-but that’s not enough I don’t have energy to go to school and then wait in the afternoon to go to school again-I hate school so much and all every body says „you have such good grades what’s the problem“ but I don’t want good grades for what? I don’t want a good job I don’t want anything -I’m always alone as long as I can think and besides my grandpa and that one friend I don’t realy like anyone or atleast I try to like no one because no one will ever like me back-i can’t sleep i don’t have anyone to play video games with my grandpa gave away his farm because he hit 80 and NO ONE is willing to help him and I’m not allowed to because a teenager apparently can’t decide what he wants-we’ll the farm is gone and my grandpa will be soon as well and all I have left in live is listening to sia music ,being the best at school and pretending I care even a little bit-i sit in class and constantly tell myself to jump out of the window-I lay in bed right now trying to sleep for 6 hours but I haven’t slept in days-I have nothing I want to achieve or want to do an do don’t even have any sexual drive anymore and I’m 16 year old male XD if we had guns in Germany I’d be dead for probably 4 years it’s just so hopeless I don’t get how other people keep going and keep fighting-I bought a motorbike but it didn’t work for 2 years now and no one can fix it I just left it in the woods after I was able to drive for the first time and it broke down-just today I tried to rip my own I out because I thought if I’m blind suicide would be easier for me to get myself to do it-I’m so down with everything and I don’t want to life but there is nothing next to life that I could do- life is all I have and I always tell myself it gets better but it doesn’t everyday gets worst and worst and I don’t care about anything- no farming no video games no anime’s no jerking off no interests no hopes no dreams and the best thing I did in a long time was writing this comment - I don’t know if I will be here anymore when you read this- but I want you to know that you are not alone and that I’m also not happy- that mind sound wierd but it helps me a little bit that others share my misery even a little bit- so I PERSONALLY want you to be happy and do what you dream of - I might only be 16 but my life is already over yours not and even if it is and your 80 or sick in the hospital- remember death is nothing to be afraid of because the pain just stops
I have depression too (I'm 15) and I've been struggling with it since I was 12 or earlier (not a 100% sure when it started.) I only have one friend who also suffers from depression and I try to help her as much as possible but because of that I usually forget about myself.... I don't really care anyway. I have many hobbies but it is sometimes really hard to keep doing them. So I usually every day I just stay in my bed and go to UA-cam. I've tried so hard to find friends from the internet and real life but even my mother has said to me I'm a selfish and a difficult person to be friends with.
@@ellaross3132 That can't be true about what your mother has said. I'm sure you're not a mean person. Perhaps find a hobby or pursue an interest. And if you make a daily habit of it, it'll be easier and you'll look forward to it. Hope you are well friend.
Hey King. I saw this comment just now, 3 years after you wrote it and I felt everything you said about your hopeless feelings. I googled “what’s it like to be on antidepressants because I’m scared they will make me worst. I found this video from that search and I felt the need to tell you you are stronger than you know! I’m living proof of that. I hope you are still around and pushing through. Life is hard, but it’s beautiful too. I’ve learned from my own personal grief and I believe others can too. I wish it was easier to see it sometimes, or describe it, like I’m trying to do now. I can’t say it gets easier but it can get better. When I’m feeling really low I look at nature and how it persists no matter what, a flower grows in the darkest of places. Please fight to be that flower. There is love in the world waiting for you, you just have to hang on.
It sounds like she made a series of bad decisions. Perspective and talk therapy can help this. She is one person. Just one. Many are helped by these drugs. Trial and error are key to figuring out what works. I'm guessing this woman is very obstinate, and therefore wouldn't listen to anyone telling her that she souldn't do some of these things. That's on her, not the medicine.
This is deeply terrifying.
My antidepressants didn't really work then I found out I was bipolar.. Type 2, that is. I gained weight and I had a really bad relapse after I stopped taking them. Later on was diagnosed with BDD, and anorexia (recovered).
How u recovered
I hate taking my anti depressants I def feel better but all the side effects aren’t worth it.
Shame on me for EVER being ungrateful and thankful for the life I have. Shame on me for complaining about anything. I care.
So what made you come out of your room after 6 months?
Keep going! I made a vlog about my depression story and I would love for everyone to check it out on my channel! It would mean so much to help as many people as I can who struggle with mental illness! Thanks!
Im not afraid to die -I realy want to-I want a friend and I even have one-but that’s not enough I don’t have energy to go to school and then wait in the afternoon to go to school again-I hate school so much and all every body says „you have such good grades what’s the problem“ but I don’t want good grades for what? I don’t want a good job I don’t want anything -I’m always alone as long as I can think and besides my grandpa and that one friend I don’t realy like anyone or atleast I try to like no one because no one will ever like me back-i can’t sleep i don’t have anyone to play video games with my grandpa gave away his farm because he hit 80 and NO ONE is willing to help him and I’m not allowed to because a teenager apparently can’t decide what he wants-we’ll the farm is gone and my grandpa will be soon as well and all I have left in live is listening to sia music ,being the best at school and pretending I care even a little bit-i sit in class and constantly tell myself to jump out of the window-I lay in bed right now trying to sleep for 6 hours but I haven’t slept in days-I have nothing I want to achieve or want to do an do don’t even have any sexual drive anymore and I’m 16 year old male XD if we had guns in Germany I’d be dead for probably 4 years it’s just so hopeless I don’t get how other people keep going and keep fighting-I bought a motorbike but it didn’t work for 2 years now and no one can fix it I just left it in the woods after I was able to drive for the first time and it broke down-just today I tried to rip my own I out because I thought if I’m blind suicide would be easier for me to get myself to do it-I’m so down with everything and I don’t want to life but there is nothing next to life that I could do- life is all I have and I always tell myself it gets better but it doesn’t everyday gets worst and worst and I don’t care about anything- no farming no video games no anime’s no jerking off no interests no hopes no dreams and the best thing I did in a long time was writing this comment - I don’t know if I will be here anymore when you read this- but I want you to know that you are not alone and that I’m also not happy- that mind sound wierd but it helps me a little bit that others share my misery even a little bit- so I PERSONALLY want you to be happy and do what you dream of - I might only be 16 but my life is already over yours not and even if it is and your 80 or sick in the hospital- remember death is nothing to be afraid of because the pain just stops
I dont know why half of that post is crossed out but that’s just how life treats me- sorry if you wanted to read it
I have depression too (I'm 15) and I've been struggling with it since I was 12 or earlier (not a 100% sure when it started.) I only have one friend who also suffers from depression and I try to help her as much as possible but because of that I usually forget about myself.... I don't really care anyway. I have many hobbies but it is sometimes really hard to keep doing them. So I usually every day I just stay in my bed and go to UA-cam. I've tried so hard to find friends from the internet and real life but even my mother has said to me I'm a selfish and a difficult person to be friends with.
@@ellaross3132 That can't be true about what your mother has said. I'm sure you're not a mean person. Perhaps find a hobby or pursue an interest. And if you make a daily habit of it, it'll be easier and you'll look forward to it. Hope you are well friend.
Hey King. I saw this comment just now, 3 years after you wrote it and I felt everything you said about your hopeless feelings. I googled “what’s it like to be on antidepressants because I’m scared they will make me worst. I found this video from that search and I felt the need to tell you you are stronger than you know! I’m living proof of that. I hope you are still around and pushing through. Life is hard, but it’s beautiful too. I’ve learned from my own personal grief and I believe others can too. I wish it was easier to see it sometimes, or describe it, like I’m trying to do now. I can’t say it gets easier but it can get better. When I’m feeling really low I look at nature and how it persists no matter what, a flower grows in the darkest of places. Please fight to be that flower. There is love in the world waiting for you, you just have to hang on.
it seemed mostly like a commercial video to promote psychiatric drugs.
Nipple of cream lolol
This is why i no longer take prescription meds for mental health
well good for you! :D /s
Same
Late 1990's , early 2000's . No social media , so there was no attention seeking .
I kept full time jobs . I had the credit cards American Express , Visa , Mastercard , and Dillard's , making payments on time . But I felt troubled .
Movie?
It sounds like she made a series of bad decisions. Perspective and talk therapy can help this. She is one person. Just one. Many are helped by these drugs. Trial and error are key to figuring out what works. I'm guessing this woman is very obstinate, and therefore wouldn't listen to anyone telling her that she souldn't do some of these things. That's on her, not the medicine.
I loved the positive ending