living alone diaries: for the girl tired of running from herself and starting over
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- Опубліковано 9 лют 2025
- hi. to move to denver, colorado or to stay still in NYC? it honestly was a tough decision to make, but the choice became a lot clearer when I sat with myself and started asking honest questions. what are you running from? what do you need between now and the next six months? what are your core values? and, do you believe you have the power to change your life?
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I love that you have the freedom to move, change your mind, start, finish, and restart. I love this for you. This is what being young and free is all about-exploring, finding yourself, and designing a life well lived.
Yes!!! ❤ well said.
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Super jealous but happy for you. I m living my dreams as well just in a different way. You live for us and that's good enough for me
Love how you do life as a young black woman❤❤
awww, thank you so so so much! i appreciate you 🥹♥
Im so glad you made the choice to stay a little longer, my mother use to say it doesn't matter where you go, you have to take yourself with you, so you are growing and im so proud of you.💪🏽🙏🏽❤️☺️
and mamma was right okay!! i'm honestly very proud of myself for making this choice and do not at all regret it.
Congrats on the new pad, and the new decisions sweet pea! I am 42, and i love to see more young ladies who are doing their big one. Y'all remind me of myself. Always been a go getter since I was young. Love this.
54:37 The fact that im gaining so much from this vlog alone. You in such a realistic way showing us how to identify and navigate through physical and internal shifts is so powerful. 💞💞
aww, this warms my heart!! just here to document my journey and all the nuances of being a Black girl in her 20s figuring out life. 🥹♥ thank you for being here along the journey!
Love seeing my fav UA-camrs supporting each other!! 😍😍😍💕
Baby, it sounds like you're looking for happiness and peace. You've lived in 4 states? This is my 1st time watching, but listening to u, it's not the places you are living, it's you. Like u said. I don't mean it to sound harsh at all. U need to find a nice apartment and settle down in one state. Love your energy and personality. You're doing great for yourself at your age. Very proud of you and i love your new apartment. I'm Ole School, just giving a little grandmotherly advice. ❤
I’m glad your friends encouraged you to remain in your current city. It’s good to see that you’re willing to work on self.
I felt the same way regarding your friends comments that you were jumping all over the place and the “issues” never left
Once you are settled in your new home, I recommend you consider going abroad for 30 or 60 days to explore beautiful countries to fill your inner self.
It doesn’t mean you need to live there permanently. Simply get a visa for the respective country such as Italy, Portugal, France, and especially South Africa.
I plan to spend 15 to 30 days in Capetown South Africa.
Then I plan to spend 15 to 30 days in Johannesburg, South Africa.
Take advantage of that beautiful career that you have to travel the world while still maintaining your digital career.
Wishing you the best❤❤❤
I’m not going to lie watching your vlogs really feels like we are catching up and really apart of your life. Thank you for sharing.
This my little cousin. 😂 i feel u.
You’re are literally the definition of black girl luxury and I really love that for you 🤎 such a queen ‼️
the feeling I get when I watch your videos >>>> aesthetic and vibes are a 10/10
sometimes in the midst of chaos, just be still.
Amani, I don’t know you outside of these videos but I see you and I appreciate you. These vlogs (including the soothing music!?) it is so refreshing. But let me add, I know folks have been pressuring you to be consistent with uploading content, as someone who has been watching you for years and also personally struggles with making time for myself, please ignore these impatient folks lol. I always tell myself rest was my ancestors’ wildest dream and if you need time for yourself and you need a break from uploading, please don’t feel bad for it. You are human just like us. You need a moment to unplug too, to refill your empty cup. The ones who have been here with you for years will always be here for you when you come back. I didn’t follow you for the quantity of your posts; I followed you for the quality of your posts. You showed up as you, transparently, every single time. That’s all I need. Now with that being said, thank you for being wholeheartedly you, boo and congrats on the new apartment ❤
I don’t typically leave comments on the videos that I watch, even if I’m subscribed (which I am lol). However, I feel compelled to let you know that I sincerely appreciate your content and how vulnerable you are with sharing your journey with us. Your determination to unapologetically do what makes you happy is truly inspiring and I’m glad you’ve decided to bring us along for the ride. Kudos to you!
Me, a Floridian, thinking the other R word was racism😭 I jumped out my skin when you said rats lmao but congrats baby girl! This apartment is peak Amani, praying you continue to evolve and unfold exactly where you’re planted🫶🏽
Lmao saaaaaame
I live in Jacksonville, and I definitely thought racism as well
Me too! I thought she meant racism.
@@meshiawriterWell hey there Duval! ❤❤❤
I'm in Miami....thebfact that she's in NY....I knew it was rats. Yeah....time to go!
This. Vlog. Oh my word. It had EVERYTHING. Full story arch. Powerful reflection and lesson. The music. The architectural digest tours. Full circle ending. You deserve it all and it’s a privilege watching you experience this abundance ✨
Your energy is contagious. Wonderful video!! ❤
Leaving LA was the best thing I could ever do for myself and after bouncing around I landed in Denver and been here for 10 years. This place is amazing and where I needed to be. I hope to see you around Denver.
Do it all Boo. I'm 45.. ot came SO fast! The only things I didn't do in my 20/30s was travel and move about the country. Keep going Boo, you're doing wonderfully 🎉. I'm living it with you!
Self discovery is a spiritual journey it's internal. No amount of relocating physically is going to be enough to get you right within. You cannot run from yourself.
Amen…self-care and self-love is the key.
Gal I’m so proud of you! 🎉
Oof, yes indeed I’m realizing this at 29
Any tips for self discovery ladies? ❤
@@Brwniee95 I believe self discovery is a life long process as we are constantly changing, but the thing that has really been helpful for me in recent times is learning how to be still and silent (at least for 20 minutes a day). There's so much to distract us and keep us occupied that we sometime loose who we are trying to keep up. Learning to be still (in nature really amplifies the experience), gives us time just to breath, connect with a higher power and rediscover ourselves. xx
I cannot express how happy I am that you finally got to a place where you are willing to stay somewhere for a little while. I have always felt that Amani has been on a journey for something that you can only find within. No matter where you are located you are the joy, you find within that place.
Was too emotional when you was thanking us. Remember we all are still figuring things out. thank you for being an awesome 👏🏾 . I pray god continue to bless you in every area of your life. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
This vlog was excellent- I watched the entire thing and I’ve never desired to visit Denver but now I’m like wait 😭 adding it to my list! So glad I found your channel, it’s so relatable and your quality is sooo good!
J'adore votre douceur et le mood qui se dégage de vos vlogs.
You did that!! Peace and all the blessings to you, young, beautiful black woman!! I’m in my fifties, but you inspire and bring me so much joy.
I literally love and missed your content. From the editing to the personality to the vulnerability. I love that you listen to your intuition and aren't afraid to follow where it leads you. Such a wonderful example! Your smile is soo bright.
I was having a “mood” and your content just put a HUGE smile on my face🥰 WE LOVE YOU AMANI🫶🏾
The song starting at 19:21 is seriously 🔥. You took your time with this vlog, we appreciate it. This vlog is so good, really told a story! Shout out to you Amani 😊 looking forward to more. Thanks for always sharing your life with us
As a musician I love her choice throughout the video
You just made my Sunday so much better!! CONSISTENCY
aaaahhh! so so happy to hear! enjoy beautiful! ❤❤❤
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You will find your settle place one day! but right now just enjoy being young and free without anything holding you down … live your life ❤❤
🇿🇦Love how genuine and real you are, I’m also 28 and life is a roller coaster. Allow yourself to go through the motions. You are not crazy for feeling the way you feel/felt that’s what our 20s are for💐
You honestly make me wait to re-live my 20s and romanticize it they way I saw when I was young lol. I love this so much for you! Those apartments are absolutely gorgeous!
I hope you find home....physically and emotionally!
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and that's the main goal this year!! i'm on it! 💗
Amani, your story telling and vulnerability is so inspiring. I'm glad you found the light by the end of the video, BUT I also really want to appalled you for your bravery. Not many people can live and survive in four different states by the age of 28. I'm glad you're planting roots, but also really proud to watch your journey and how your unapologetically discovering and accepting self ❤
You are so pretty. I love your glasses and lipgloss 💄
Hi Amani, I truly love watching your videos, I'm 66 years of age and am enjoying your journey...You got this !!!
Amani I've been Living Alone for about nine Months. About two Months ago, I did a search on Living Alone, and you Popped up.
After watching that first Video, I immediately Subscribed, I absolutely love watching your Videos, I feel like I'm watching a Short Movie.
Although I'm older than you are, (much older 😁) Thank You for Teaching me how to Live My Best Life While Living Alone!
Im happy you decided to stay in NYC for now. Moving when youre trying to run away, with little time to plan is so much more stressful than taking your time and planning your move over a period of months. I will say NYC cant compare to Denver in terms of access to outdoors ansd mountains, rivers, lakes. I traded in my skyline views for more picturesque outdoors and I have never regretted it
Regular easy access to nature for mental/emotional wellness is a game changer 🌱 🌲 ⛰💚
I was so happy to see that you had uploaded a new video. I hurried up and took my shower and made my hot tea to get in the bed so I could watch your episode your latest episode lol! Many blessings to you this year in your new space and I just can’t wait For more to come from you!
I was born n raised in Denver and recently moved summer 2024 but I miss it soo much. I’m glad you love the city!
i love that place so so much! excited to spend so much more time there ♥
You’re so beautiful. I love to see fellow New Yorkers living their best life ❤🎉
Love the nails...the almond shape and that shade of red complimented your skin better. ♥
What's stopping me from changing the narrative - A WORD!!!! Watching your videos, I can't help but think that we are different in so many ways (age, location, getting settled). BUT, this stuck with me and will stay with me as I navigate this new season in my new space. I CAN change the narrative. Only thing stopping me is me.. Cheers love to all things joy!
Love love love your spirit… confidence and independence… good luck girl an inspiration to all young women …👍🏼
Honestly I would have charged also because you saw the length before it got to the polish. The color is beautiful!
I absolutely LOVE your vlogsssssss. It is nothing wrong with a fresh start. I love this for you. Congratulations on your new apartment. It has AN AMAZING VIEW!!!
aww thank you girly!! i absolutely love the new apartment and the views! i wake up feeling so inspired!!!
I’m 28 and a HEAVILY resonated with the speech towards the end about moving and looking at yourself in the mirror. Needed to hear that badly. ❤ thank youu
It gives me a vibe of dealing with "Monitoring Spirits", if I were you, I would plan it, keep it to myself, accomplish it and then speak about it. I''ve been there and am still dealing with it. Jesus even advised on praying in SECRET, fasting in SECRET, and giving in SECRET.
If you think about it, she kinda is doing it in secret because we get these videos 2 to 3 months later. By then she’s already made the choice and dealt with it. She’s just allowing us to live her life with her after the fact I think that’s great because there’s less than someone else can learn from this, but she’s already made this decision. She’s already to us in the future because we are watching her past.
@@LainiLivingtha k you for saying this case people just be spewing negativity in the name of Jesus when the girl is divinely protected and ten steps ahead smh.
The first apartment in Denver is everything ❤ and I’m so happy to see you relocate to Denver. That’s your happy place and I love that for you. ❤ I so thought you were moving to Denver when you moved to New York.
i truly love Denver so much!!
@@AmaniRakeiaI’m sure you’ll move there one day. When the time is right ❤
Hi Amani🌸 you remind me of myself in my 20’s. I used to job hop a lot, seeking the highs of the job but not willing to stay for the lows. I think I had 7 to 8 jobs not planting any roots anywhere. It was like I was looking to find joy outside of me because I didn’t want to stare at myself in the mirror long enough to see my brokenness and find joy within?!? Sounded like a lot of work. In the end the only way to slow me down was to have my son and he was my motivation to find meaning within me. I bought a house 4 years ago and I’m so glad I planted roots❤
I think it's my first time commenting on here however I'm just here to affirm your new era of consistency! Your vlogs are so worth it🩷🌻
Thank you for taking us along on your apartment tour😊
Watching I hr of your vlogs is my self care time love from Trinidad and Tobago 🇹🇹 I'm rooting for you❤🎉 happy Sunday
I'm so glad my videos can be your self-care time! 💖
Man I love how you just pack up and go
Aww. I hate the brownstone didn't work, it was a sex and the city vibe. This new apartment though 🥰 live your life gurl!
girrrrl, heart is shattered, but i am truly so much more at peace now in the new space!
@@AmaniRakeia🥰
it’s so dope to see you navigating through life changes, you’re so relatable! wishing you the most nourishing & peaceful 2025 🌻💛 p.s - the happy dancing at 58:53 radiates so much joy 😍
I love this for you. Girl spoil yourself rotten and make sure you get exactly what you deserve. Happy New Year queen. Have a very prosperous new year and please be gentle and gracious with yourself.
Awww towards the end when you had your aha moment and decided to stay in New York. I love seeing you grow and evolve. ❤ always rooting for you. And I hope you find your joy ❤️
I’m incredibly proud of you for making the decision to move. All the best in Denver, it truly is stunning 😍
Sooooo happy 4 you, and I'm glad you paused for a moment and stayed in Ny, I love the views. Sorry the brownstone didn't work out. But you good now. So cheers to you boo🥂💜💜
thank you so much! yes, we are all gucci now mmkaaayy ♥ i'm excited for this fresh start!
1 hr again? you love us
i love and miss y'all BAAAAAD 🥹♥
She loves us and she OWES us!! Lol lol
I love how you just bop all around! 😂😂😂
Amani needs to live a little! Fill your cup baby girl!!!
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Definitely motivated by your energy…all around beautiful inside and out not to mention humbled
Be blessed my dear
I have been loving your vlogs so much. I was born and raised in Philly and still reside here. I have a 1 year old daughter and I'm not sure if moving out of state is something I want to do yet but I do want to own a home in my city. I intend on buying a townhome and I love how you stayed true to yourself throughout your moving process and did not settle. I'm on a journey to improve my credit but this is such a beautiful testimony. Congratulations on your new home!!!
This was so healing. Thanks for taking us along the road, not only is the documentary element to this video captivating but it’s so relatable. I feel like we’ve all gone through or will go through these transitional phases- I know I am, new city, newly wed, it all- and it’s nice to know I can practice grounding within my self- home is within in and again, I can always create that feeling within myself. That, and knowing my creator Jesus, is right there with me. Joshua 1:9. So good!!! Love how you closed that chapter with JOY and gratitude and much reflection. 🙏🏽 💕rooting for you!!
"Let this pony swing!" Yes! I totally agree with your friends. I did the same thing when I moved to Georgia. The first time. I was here 5 months and left. Gave it another try and I've been here 18 yrs. Good luck!
53:50 Amani Please 😭😭 the laugh I just laughed 😩 I love that you have friends with support, perspective, and encouragement ❤
Not a ‘90’s sitcom intro….i love it! And love your vlogs!!
loveeee me a 90s sitcom okaaaayyyy hahaha. thank you so much for watching! 🥹♥
Funny you commented this. I am a first time watcher, and was thinking that she looks like and gives the vibes of a mix of Toni (Jill Jones) and Maya (Golden Brooks) from the 90s sitcom "Girlfriends". She's absolutely gorgeous.
@ her content is great, stick around for while! I randomly also came across her videos a few months ago and binged watched her la and all vlogs. Love her transparency and relatability ❤️
@khadija_2124 I am already hooked, just off of the fact that Colorado is where I want to settle down in to live out the rest of my days. Lol. I've never been, but it started calling me maybe 7 years ago. Not sure why, but I intend to answer as well. All that was to say, yes, I see she's very relatable. Thank you for the 411!🤗
@ reallyyyy!!! Girl, me too! I’ve had Denver on my mind for the last couple of years to potentially relocate when I come back to the states. Glad you are enjoying her videos too ❤️
Miss mamas. Not you fucking it up 15 seconds into the intro?! 🔥🔥🔥 The feeling of nostalgia that hit me. It’s giving Love Jones. It’s giving sitcom quality. Wow 🤩
The natural light is amazing
👏🏾Amani…one thing for sure…You Will Be Alright and manifest the life you desire🙏🏾
Wooow what a journey! I started the video worried and disappointed about the change of city and ended up amazed at the gentle call outs from your community and the self-reflection! You inspired me to do the same. Alsoo congrats on the new apartment 🥳
When I say I love you and the way you live your life! I love your introspection and that you take the time to get the lesson and grow!! You are soooo very special and amazing!!! As a fellow Scorpio I see you Miss Incredible ❤ I’m 57 and I wish I had been more like you when I was 28! I am so very proud of you ❤
Ma’am, I have not started the video. But I wanted you to know, the cover image is stunning: glasses, the wine glass, the pose, etc. I’m giving you chefs kiss, now I’m ready to listen. First time viewer 🎉
The ambiance and music of your videos warms my heart
I’m so happy you decided to stay and give it another shot in a new space..congrats 😊
Yesssssssss sis! I’m so happy for you. You’re definitely encouraging me to push through this year and stay consistent with my goals. 🫶🏾
Absolutely loved this vlog!!! Thank you for sharing. I am in a similar situation and I am preparing my self to move again
I just want to touch on a comment that you said you said I feel so pretty and I just wanna say you should feel pretty because you are pretty. You are simply gorgeous.
RATS? Oh girl I had that experience in my last apartment and it’s what made me leave honestly. It traumatized me so much but you’re so blessed to be able to move!
Ik this may be far fetched but you may want to consider Chicago. It has numerous things to do, food is amazing and different parts of Chicago will give you so many different vibes from the Gold Coast area, to wicker park, to the art district and so many other places. It will really surprise you. It could just be a place to visit.
🎉 Love Love Love that you just keep living life no matter what obstacles arise. I absolutely adore you ❤ thank you for sharing, being so inspirational & just real. I’m also moving again this is my 5th move since 2017 but I’m looking for an environment that feels like home where I can grow & thrive. Anyways I appreciate you keep shining baby girl you are amazing 🙌🏽💕
I love your energy !!!!
near 32:40 yessss, apt. 4!
52:52 🌇🧋
53:53 ⏲🔄🫖🍵🧋
54:54 Oh my goodyness! that View alone! 🧋🌬🎐🪟
57:00 great affirmations... gratitude! 🍃 @ 28 you are in your first #SaturnReturn, as u know...very serious time in 1's life! 🪐looks like you're doing it well!
58:58 🤗🤗
1:00:19 Luv it! 🌆
Back to back to back??? I had to double check! ❤❤❤
you seeing it allll correctly babesss 🤭😉
I love your style of vlogging and editing, it’s very inspiring! The void you’re looking to fill will only be filled from Jesus. With love ❤️
I’m happy for you!!! Love your new place ❤
thank you so, so sooooo much!! 🥹♥
Your videos have been calming me and I love how relatable you are! 🥹❤
You can always start over and “run away from yourself” aka explore the world. Circumstances don’t matter.
This is my first time watching your vlogs and you give SZA. Such a fun intro to your channel!
love that I can get tf outta here if necessary energy.
hi amani, i just discovered your channel a few days ago and i'm obsessed with your content
Shoutout to your friends “clocking your tea”, they’re good folks. I hate to hear it sometimes but they be so right. Like “okayyyyyy, I heard you”. Hahahaha!
Happy Sunday Queen, I’m here from my bestie Natalie Stringfield’s channel!! She said don’t walk but 🏃🏾♀️💨 to subscribe to your channel and DID! Great to be here! Have a bless week Queen!💜💐
UA-cam showed me your video. Well done for having the courage to try different cities. I’m a Londoner and lived in NYC for many years, so I understand the push and pull you were experiencing. Have you ever had an AstroCartography reading? That may help pin point locations whenever you next feel called to move ❤
The Queen is back!! I’m so happy for you.❤❤❤
Congratulations to you and God bless the peace you have you deserve it 🎉🎉
I'm so happy for you and I'm glad you finally found an apartment that works for you and is beautiful I cannot wait to see it once you get everything together in Colorado is very beautiful but I'm very happy that you stay where you are in Brooklyn for now and you're starting to feel settled I didn't realize that the brownstone was that bad no wonder you wanted to get out of there girl and your hair is beautiful ❤️😍
I love it! The freedom and free will to be able to readjust, and realign is what living is all about. No one person gets it right the first time.
Not me looking at apartment four and going, “That’s the one. Baby the tour is over!” Lol.
im in love with this playlistttt❤❤
Girl welcome back …. Please buy some okra also known as lady’s fingers from any supermarket …chop at least five pieces put them in a bottle of water… so you have okra water to drink….. this will help you a lot with bowel movement and with Gut health…. Lots of love…👍🏼
It’s giving inspirational! 🥹🫶🏽🙌🏽