You weren't sent home from your mission. You were merely transferred. You will continue to serve the Lord for the rest of your life and you'll continue to be a great missionary. Sharing your experience is a strong indication of your love for the Lord and desire to serve Him and those around you.
I served 15 and a half months, it was 15 years ago and it did affected me for many years, you did not failed, you tried and did your best, and that's what God expect from us.
You served an honorable mission. Getting sent home early was not a failure. I admire your bravery in sharing your experience. You will inspire so many people that experience something similar.
Every member is a missionary and sharing the gospel its not confined to a full time mission. Sister your are very brave and wish you the best. Thank you for sharing.
You are definitely not alone. One thing that is definite, is that everyone has their mountains to climb. They are just different mountains in different locations. Because you are, who you are, you discovered your mountain on your mission. Never give up. There is no shame in the path you took coming home. Sometimes, people don't realize just how difficult a mission can be. It is a rewarding experience. You can hold your head up for the willingness and desire you had to do the right thing for you and the Lord. And you will have many years to serve and receive joy from your service! You have shown that you possess an incredible amount of courage! I echo the many other voices that say thank you for sharing your story. I wish you a life of healing and finding joy in your heart for your righteous desires.
This video is helping me so much. I have been home 4 days after serving 14 months for the Lord. I had a very similar experience, and it has been pretty difficult and it is so hard to keep Satan away from bringing thoughts of failure into my head. I have so much respect for this sister and I know she served an honorable mission.
I have aspergers and I had to give up my career as a teacher because the information overload of all those kids, just caused me to shut down: a completely blank head. I felt like a failure too. I had to take menial paid jobs to avoid the stress. I will never be rich, but I enjoy my work as I fight to stay in control. You just have to find your own coping level to find out how to stay happy. There is life an abundant coping with anxiety. Good luck.
First of all, Thank you for sharing something so personal. I know God loves you, I'm so glad you know that God loves you. I love you, and I know those who watch this love you also. I would be so proud to call you my daughter, or daughter in law. You are an amazing woman! God continue to bless you always. Hold your head high, you are one of God's favorites!! ♥️
Broke my heart :( I have a desire to serve and have had the same fears and counseled "Not to take Counsel from my fears" but I am so scared :( so glad she's doing better
thank you so much for sharing this, I'm in the final section of my papers and I've struggled with mental illness my whole life and it's really helpful to hear your story. thank you.
We all have our limitations, Sister! Limitations doesn't mean that we have failed the people we love or serve. It takes a lot of courage to admit that we have hit our limits. Sister, you did not fail! You have nothing to be ashamed of. You should be proud of yourself for willing to sacrifice a part of your life to serve. Thank You for Serving! The people you served and shared your life with will be forever GRATEFUL! I hope you have found peace...remember to those you served you did not FAIL! God Bless You Always!
That moment when you heard that voice: Beautiful. That was a very special personal revelation. My LDS mission in the 70s was emotionally difficult on so many levels. I ended up with 16 companions in the 24 months I was out. But I know I was difficult and immature. I've been living with: If-I-knew-then-what-I-know-now syndrome....I would have been a great missionary.
A mission is still a mission. Some are shorter than others.. but all are blessings. Ìt will problem be one of the hardest things in your life but remember the times you. We're lifted by the spirit.. we are all different and I have enjoyed listening to your story .. for many years I have been sad I never served a mission.. but listening to your story I realised that I have learned in other ways .. Your comments there are other options... rings so true.. in so many life situations. . GOD LOVES A TRYER..
I wish I could reach out to her and talk to her because I went through the same thing but with the Marines. I'm still struggling with the emotions of feeling like I'm an embaressment and a failure. I've been out since Febuary 2016. I'm a member of the church and when I came home 2 months later, missionaries came over my house to talk with me and give me lessons and it's really helped me to get over it and keep pushing forward. I became closer to my Heavenly Father and im reading the scriptures everyday. I've explained what happened to me when I was in the military and they say they have noticed a huge change in me. I mainly want to talk with Jocie because I feel like no one else understands how I feel.
Clearly she was in deep distress bless her ❤️ heart.An answer that could have worked would have been to have her stay with the sister missionary president for a week to chill out.One other thought comes to mind is asking newbees if they wear raw emotions that could become an issue.Her ❤️ bonded with her companion so deep it became an 👼 issue.Love has no boundaries bless her ❤️ heart.Your a diamond in the rough!
It appears to me that you tried your hardest and your heart was in the right place; What more could you have done than that? You are not a failure you still served an honorable mission. Thank you for sharing this experience.
Anxiety is very common for all of us. We experience different levels of it. Reid Wilson channel has excellent short clips on how it works and how you can manage it with great success.
you know what, this woman, who is really beautiful, is also a heroine. She has the courage to admit that things weren't working out and I guarantee Christ and Father won't look down upon her. All have so many struggles that we cannot understand. Christ knows all things!
It's late to see this video but this is reminding me that it's not only me thinks I'm a failure when I was sent home for medical reason, on my tenth month in the mission. Until now, I'm still convincing myself the Lord has an ultimate plan of happiness and contentment for me. There are days and nights that I cried because I always think I'm a failure. Because I went to the mission not so prepared. I wasn't able to attend seminary class and institute. I have finished reading the book of Mormon when I was about to go on a mission. I didn't have lots of chances to work with the missionaries. I don't have any idea about anything during my training. It was my ultimate struggle. My heart tells me, be patient- you'll learn things little by little. But my mind is telling me,you aren't an effective missionary. You don't know how to teach, you don't even have a convert. I wanted to give up, but I didn't. Until I got sicked and I have to tell my mission President, I need to rest. That was the hardest decision ever. Until now,I still felt worthless
Don't feel bad Gia and be hard on yourself. The fact that you did the initiative and went there yourself is a big thing and that means submission and dedication, that's the thing that matters the most. You might be feeling worthless but God knows what your heart's content and with that you should be happy and thankful that you had the opportunity of serving God the best way you can. Feeling worthless is may be because you have not had a chance of accepting yourself and contemplate what's really inside you. May God's grace be with you Gia.
I know exactly how you feel. I was horrible at finding, and teaching! I couldnt find the strength to teach. I couldnt feel the spirit when i taught. The words that came out didnt make sense. I wanted to work hard and keep trying. i got up each day, did the studies, did the prayers, planning, etc I had a hard companion who was a wonderful missionary though but i was in emotional stress the whole time and i couldnt get out of it... the best thing for me was to come home... and that was ultimately the best decision for me all along. Some people arent meant for a mission but that just means our purpose might be different than those that do finish missions keep keepin on girl! God is thankful for your desires to serve Him and he loves you, sometimes he gives missions to us for a short time but even with that comes tremendous strength
This was so hard to listen to cos I am going out soon for a mini mission and really wish i could go out on a full 1 and a 1/2 years but i don't see how with the way my mental health and how often that it cracks. I love missionary work so much. I just don't feel like it is enough for just a mini mission.
You did your best don't blame yourself. It's easy to blame ourselves for things but we make mistakes sometimes. All of us do, we are just humans. And its because we are humans that people like yourself will preach to us to help us. But sometimes we forget that we have the same vulnerabilities as the people that we teach. It's why we gotta try to be kind to ourselves and leave it in Gods hands
If we can turn back the time my advise to you is that ,don't be so serious in doing it perfectly let the spirit guide you day by day gently ,and empty those thoughts of to make progress fast .
You weren't sent home from your mission. You were merely transferred. You will continue to serve the Lord for the rest of your life and you'll continue to be a great missionary. Sharing your experience is a strong indication of your love for the Lord and desire to serve Him and those around you.
I'm not LDS but the supportive comments here are inspiring
I served 15 and a half months, it was 15 years ago and it did affected me for many years, you did not failed, you tried and did your best, and that's what God expect from us.
You served an honorable mission. Getting sent home early was not a failure.
I admire your bravery in sharing your experience. You will inspire so many people that experience something similar.
This girl is a real human being.
Every member is a missionary and sharing the gospel its not confined to a full time mission. Sister your are very brave and wish you the best. Thank you for sharing.
You are definitely not alone. One thing that is definite, is that everyone has their mountains to climb. They are just different mountains in different locations. Because you are, who you are, you discovered your mountain on your mission. Never give up. There is no shame in the path you took coming home. Sometimes, people don't realize just how difficult a mission can be. It is a rewarding experience. You can hold your head up for the willingness and desire you had to do the right thing for you and the Lord. And you will have many years to serve and receive joy from your service! You have shown that you possess an incredible amount of courage! I echo the many other voices that say thank you for sharing your story. I wish you a life of healing and finding joy in your heart for your righteous desires.
You did your absolute best had the most honorable desire and that’s the only thing that matters. God Bless Sister.
Absolutely moving. She looked like a angel while sharing this very personal experience. Amazing women indeed.
This video is helping me so much. I have been home 4 days after serving 14 months for the Lord. I had a very similar experience, and it has been pretty difficult and it is so hard to keep Satan away from bringing thoughts of failure into my head. I have so much respect for this sister and I know she served an honorable mission.
I have aspergers and I had to give up my career as a teacher because the information overload of all those kids, just caused me to shut down: a completely blank head. I felt like a failure too. I had to take menial paid jobs to avoid the stress. I will never be rich, but I enjoy my work as I fight to stay in control. You just have to find your own coping level to find out how to stay happy. There is life an abundant coping with anxiety. Good luck.
You did OK Sister!!..hope you are well now and living your life !!!!!!!!
First of all, Thank you for sharing something so personal. I know God loves you, I'm so glad you know that God loves you. I love you, and I know those who watch this love you also. I would be so proud to call you my daughter, or daughter in law. You are an amazing woman! God continue to bless you always. Hold your head high, you are one of God's favorites!! ♥️
Bless you for sharing your story! So beautiful and raw and honest.
I do NOT think you failed, honestly. Thanks for being so brave to share your experience, that shows you are a great woman.
Broke my heart :( I have a desire to serve and have had the same fears and counseled "Not to take Counsel from my fears" but I am so scared :( so glad she's doing better
thank you so much for sharing this, I'm in the final section of my papers and I've struggled with mental illness my whole life and it's really helpful to hear your story. thank you.
So touched by your testimony. ❤️
Getting sent home early and returning early are two totally different things. Well done sister! Your service was honorable!!! Thank you for serving!!!
We all have our limitations, Sister! Limitations doesn't mean that we have failed the people we love or serve. It takes a lot of courage to admit that we have hit our limits. Sister, you did not fail! You have nothing to be ashamed of. You should be proud of yourself for willing to sacrifice a part of your life to serve. Thank You for Serving! The people you served and shared your life with will be forever GRATEFUL! I hope you have found peace...remember to those you served you did not FAIL! God Bless You Always!
That moment when you heard that voice: Beautiful. That was a very special personal revelation. My LDS mission in the 70s was emotionally difficult on so many levels. I ended up with 16 companions in the 24 months I was out. But I know I was difficult and immature. I've been living with: If-I-knew-then-what-I-know-now syndrome....I would have been a great missionary.
A mission is still a mission. Some are shorter than others.. but all are blessings. Ìt will problem be one of the hardest things in your life but remember the times you. We're lifted by the spirit.. we are all different and I have enjoyed listening to your story .. for many years I have been sad I never served a mission.. but listening to your story I realised that I have learned in other ways ..
Your comments there are other options... rings so true.. in so many life situations.
. GOD LOVES A TRYER..
I wish I could reach out to her and talk to her because I went through the same thing but with the Marines. I'm still struggling with the emotions of feeling like I'm an embaressment and a failure. I've been out since Febuary 2016. I'm a member of the church and when I came home 2 months later, missionaries came over my house to talk with me and give me lessons and it's really helped me to get over it and keep pushing forward. I became closer to my Heavenly Father and im reading the scriptures everyday. I've explained what happened to me when I was in the military and they say they have noticed a huge change in me. I mainly want to talk with Jocie because I feel like no one else understands how I feel.
why not reach out through her UA-cam channel or by messages on here
Clearly she was in deep distress bless her ❤️ heart.An answer that could have worked would have been to have her stay with the sister missionary president for a week to chill out.One other thought comes to mind is asking newbees if they wear raw emotions that could become an issue.Her ❤️ bonded with her companion so deep it became an 👼 issue.Love has no boundaries bless her ❤️ heart.Your a diamond in the rough!
You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your story.
It appears to me that you tried your hardest and your heart was in the right place; What more could you have done than that? You are not a failure you still served an honorable mission. Thank you for sharing this experience.
Anxiety is very common for all of us. We experience different levels of it. Reid Wilson channel has excellent short clips on how it works and how you can manage it with great success.
you know what, this woman, who is really beautiful, is also a heroine. She has the courage to admit that things weren't working out and I guarantee Christ and Father won't look down upon her. All have so many struggles that we cannot understand. Christ knows all things!
It's late to see this video but this is reminding me that it's not only me thinks I'm a failure when I was sent home for medical reason, on my tenth month in the mission. Until now, I'm still convincing myself the Lord has an ultimate plan of happiness and contentment for me. There are days and nights that I cried because I always think I'm a failure. Because I went to the mission not so prepared. I wasn't able to attend seminary class and institute. I have finished reading the book of Mormon when I was about to go on a mission. I didn't have lots of chances to work with the missionaries. I don't have any idea about anything during my training. It was my ultimate struggle. My heart tells me, be patient- you'll learn things little by little. But my mind is telling me,you aren't an effective missionary. You don't know how to teach, you don't even have a convert. I wanted to give up, but I didn't. Until I got sicked and I have to tell my mission President, I need to rest. That was the hardest decision ever. Until now,I still felt worthless
Don't feel bad Gia and be hard on yourself. The fact that you did the initiative and went there yourself is a big thing and that means submission and dedication, that's the thing that matters the most. You might be feeling worthless but God knows what your heart's content and with that you should be happy and thankful that you had the opportunity of serving God the best way you can. Feeling worthless is may be because you have not had a chance of accepting yourself and contemplate what's really inside you. May God's grace be with you Gia.
Very brave and inspiring, thank you for sharing.
Doing mission work is spiritual thinking one hundred percent.
I know exactly how you feel. I was horrible at finding, and teaching! I couldnt find the strength to teach. I couldnt feel the spirit when i taught. The words that came out didnt make sense. I wanted to work hard and keep trying. i got up each day, did the studies, did the prayers, planning, etc I had a hard companion who was a wonderful missionary though but i was in emotional stress the whole time and i couldnt get out of it... the best thing for me was to come home... and that was ultimately the best decision for me all along. Some people arent meant for a mission but that just means our purpose might be different than those that do finish missions keep keepin on girl! God is thankful for your desires to serve Him and he loves you, sometimes he gives missions to us for a short time but even with that comes tremendous strength
Hi Sabrinawinkel can I have your permission to have nice Godly chats about my Saviour the Lord Jesus Christ?
Thanks for sharing Sister
this is amazing thank you for sharing your story
This was so hard to listen to cos I am going out soon for a mini mission and really wish i could go out on a full 1 and a 1/2 years but i don't see how with the way my mental health and how often that it cracks. I love missionary work so much. I just don't feel like it is enough for just a mini mission.
Thank you for sharing your story. ❤
I find this so touch and amazed
She has the most beautiful blue eyes!!!!!
You are not a failure! I went home early too. I did have the opportunity to go back out, but I understand that many people can’t. It’s very hard.
You did your best don't blame yourself.
It's easy to blame ourselves for things but we make mistakes sometimes.
All of us do, we are just humans.
And its because we are humans that people like yourself will preach to us to help us.
But sometimes we forget that we have the same vulnerabilities as the people that we teach.
It's why we gotta try to be kind to ourselves and leave it in Gods hands
If we can turn back the time my advise to you is that ,don't be so serious in doing it perfectly let the spirit guide you day by day gently ,and empty those thoughts of to make progress fast .
AWESOME WOMAN!!
Help begins at home
My husband was baptized 2 months after we got married 💗💗💗
god always at your side maam
My whole life is a mission. 🧡💛❤💜💙💚😁
Through Christ you can do all things
wow, amazing 😥🙏
Such a beautiful woman
Am, And am and am and I like it..
Jesus said, "Follow Me." Jesus is the good Shepherd. Jesus will never let you down.
John 10:27
What country were you sent on your mission?
There is no shame in being sent home early.
THOSE EYES 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
😭😭😭😭😿😿😿😿😿
She is beautiful but too dramatic.