Thank you for your service. Last December my dad passed from dementia, and he had been on hospice here at home. The nurses were always very kind and compassionate. And that is always such a light in the darkness 💜
I have been watching in the background. My heart breaks for you. There are no words that can ease your pain. Loss, grief is a beast and will manifest in different forms, as it moves through you, with you. Thank you for sharing the most impossible and difficult experience of your life. I know how painful it is. We, your garbage people, will always be her, Theresa -- no matter your schedule, no matter your content. Love and gentle, distant hugs- Deep, slow, breaths. And yes, one day at a time. One day at a time.
Your beautiful words touched me and I am sure many others. 100% grief has no end, I grieve my mum every day and it's been 20 years. I am still adjusting to 2 and a half years since my dad passed. Some people expect you "to be over it by now" but as you eloquently said, "it has no end". Thank you for everything you do.
My best friend of 20+ years passed 3 years ago from brain cancer and I still haven't fully processed it. The one quote that helps is, "grief is just love you can no longer give". I choose to make sure I am giving that love as much as I can to the ones I still have. Much love Theresa!
To quote one of the best Marvel lines of all time “What is grief if not love persevering?” It’s ok to not be ok right now, take the time you need to even scratch the surface of processing your loss. Sending you light 🤍
F*** cancer. I’m so sorry Theresa. I lost my lifelong best friend to cancer 9 years ago this month. She was 34. Sending so much love to you and Alex. ❤️🩹
Grief sucks. I lost my 30 year old daughter on 12/20/2018. I had no idea there was anything wrong. I’m a teacher with no money, and she passed away on my last day of school before Christmas break, so I went back after our two weeks off. It sucks to hold it all together. It’s hard. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this, and that your beloved Michael went through what he did. Take care of yourself. Do whatever you need to do. ❤
It’s normal to be a mess for a while. You’ll have a little voice in your head that will keep on saying, “your loved one wouldn’t want you to be sad, they would want you to be happy and thriving!” It’s hard to listen to that voice at first. But over time, you listen more and more to that voice. Because you know it’s correct. The pain of losing someone never really goes away, but you eventually manage it better. You manage the joy that you had that person with you for all the time that you did (🙌) with the grief that it wasn’t forever (😞). Sending you all the hugs!
"People think that grief slowly gets smaller with time. In reality, grief stays the same size. But slowly life begins to grow bigger around it." ~ Dr. Lois Tonkin I'm very sorry for your loss. A gut wrenching loss. I pray your life grows bigger to overshadow the grief.
I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is devastating. I lost my dad over 20 years ago. He was only 60 years old. I know he is always watching over me, my kids and now his great grandson.
It is very different losing someone your own age. When my friend died of Covid people kept saying “ I know , I lost my grandma “. I wanted to scream “it’s not the same!!!!!” I’m so sorry. I wish I could say it gets better. It really doesn’t. You just get to the point where you can’t wait to tell him something funny happens less frequently. If you need to talk to a professional about your grief, do it. ❤❤❤❤
My mom just passed Saturday and we had the funeral yesterday so I watched the beginning of your video and I can't finish it so I'll send my condolences but I do want you to know that watching your videos is something I look forward to and really enjoy. You bring a lot of laughter and joy to people
I know how much you loved him and how bonded you remain. I'm so glad you moved to FL to be near him at the end of his life. We love you Garbage Queen and you are under no obligation to us. I figured it was a parent or grandparent passing. We are here to support you when you're ready . Your hair is beautiful.
I cried for 5 years when my friend passed away. It’s going to be hard and so much is going to come back to your memory that will make you cry uncontrollably. Take as much time as you need. Know that he’s watching over you, he’ll show you. Keep your head up
Theresa, there's nothing I can add here more than what has already been said. We are all grateful for your sense of humor, your insight and your ability to help us all to find the silliness and joy in life. You were one of my comfort channels I watched after my mom died after a battle of cancer in March. I am saddest that I cannot do the same for you. I am glad you had a friend that meant so much to you, but I feel for you having that friend seemingly ripped away from you. Grief changes you and how you see the world when it's someone so close to you and it takes it's sweet fucking time to show the changes. I'm glad you recognize some of the tools for you to cope through this and the anticipated stress of the next months of your life. I know I'll still be here, and I'm sure I won't be alone.
Grief is something that never shrinks or diminishes, we grow around it so that we can carry it with us a little easier. The first 2 years is the hardest, it starts to feel a bit easier to carry after that but it will never leave you, and you wouldn't want it to.
I am crying with you. 😢 My father passed away a few weeks ago after a long struggle with cancer. My dad and I were a lot alike. We joked about inappropriate things to keep from crying and to make others feel better. It is hard. It is going to come in waves and you will probably never get over it. I haven't even fully accepted it yet. It seems easier to stay busy with work and prepare the kids for starting school instead of sitting at home sad. But we do need to take time to grieve and process it all. Many blessings and love your way! ❤ Take care of yourself and hubby. 😊
You didn't lose your best friend, you lost your brother of a lifetime. I'm very sorry, it's okay to not be okay and to take time, the pain won't go away but it will be manageable eventually. I wish you peace and calmness, I love you There💜
I lost my best friend of over 16 years in 2020 to cancer. There’s not a day I don’t think of him. Every time I’m driving in the car, I pretend he’s there with me, singing to songs like we used to. That might sound sad, but it was really comforting right after he passed, and still continues to be. There is still a huge hole in my heart and my life where he used to be. I completely understand how awful this all is. Take all the time you need.
I lost my brother when I was only 16. I'm 30+ and I still feel the anger, the deep and raw PAIN and grief and nostalgia. I turned my head with a 'hi!' thinking that I heard him entering the room, just to feel my heart drop when I realized he is gone. The loss of somebody you love is impossible to describe. I am hugging you through the screen Theresa. I hope you will heal with your times.
I feel your pain. My best friend of 25 years passed away 3 years ago. She was the sister I chose. We expect our older relatives to pass before us but the shock of our friends who are really the family we chose, is just incredibly hard. When she died I felt like I was walking around without an arm or with only one lung working. It took 2 years to feel sort of normal again but I still miss her every day. I am so sorry for the pain you’re feeling the pain you’ll keep feeling.
I lost my mom to cancer in 2018 after her being diagnosed 15 years prior. I had years to prepare....I wasn't ready when it happened and 5 years later, I'm still not. Grief is not linear and there is no timetable. Sending you, Alex and all your friends who knew him all my love. "Grief is love with no where to go."....this always stuck with me and it makes me sad but also gives me hope that I'll find a place for the grief to go someday that will make her proud. I hope you can do the same.
My best friend is almost 4.5 years into a terminal diagnosis where less than 5% survive 5 years. We have been best friends for 30 years. I cannot imagine life without her. I understand what you are going through, and I’m sending you love, for whatever it’s worth. ❤
I felt this video so strongly... I also lost my brother and best friend 4 years ago, and it just feels so unfair. I won't say things get better, but remember to give yourself a lot of love, patience, and most importantly... time to process and grieve. Much love to you, Theresa. We'll be here waiting whenever you need us.
My best friend passed due to a gas leak in his apartment when he was 23 and I was 22. I went blonde the next week and kept it until I finally processed losing him years later. Do what you need to do, I cut people off for not being there for me in my grief and I helped more than I would have expected. If anyone wants to tell you that you're grieving wrong point me at them and I'll hoof them in the front butt. It never really goes away, I think of him every time I hear stupid "Jesus Take the Wheel" by Carrie Underwood because he would yell that anytime something went wrong. I think of him and bawl like a baby. At some point you'll go a day without thinking about it and you won't even realize it. That hurts if you notice it later but it's a good sign that doesn't feel like it at all. Please take care of yourself if whatever way you need to. (I spent a year at the bottle of a Jack Daniel's bottle, they're smaller than they look and it's kinda crowded in there so maybe don't do that.)
I can relate to many of the things you've touched on, and I sincerely respect your honesty and vulnerability here. I've found many of the platitudes around grief and loss that well-meaning people have told me over the years infuriating- but I've found some solace in the idea that loss doesn't get easier, it just becomes...different. Familiar. "You realize that grief is perhaps the last and final translation of love...I think this is the last act of loving someone. And you realize that it will never end. You get to do this to translate this last act of love for the rest of your life."
You don’t know me, this video came up randomly, but I was intrigued by the shelves in your background and clicked. I am so sorry for your loss, truly. It’s so difficult to navigate. You seem like a lovely person and as a fellow creative, I know how it feels when you stop creating. I get extremely sad if I am not creating. Stay strong.
I lost a dear friend of over 30 years a year ago completely unexpectedly. I still haven’t been able to process it and I miss him every day. Take care of yourself and give yourself lots of time. Sending lots of love and hugs x
I’m so sorry for your loss, Theresa. I just lost my mom a couple months ago, and you talking about your grief is how I feel too. I don’t want to be forced to talk about it, but people care and want to be there. I get it. I really do. You deserve time, so take it. You’re a gem on this platform, and we’ll be here. Sending love from NY.
I know that raw, burning, overwhelming and painful grief. I still feel it now, sometimes, 15 years later. I'm sorry that you have to feel it too. He did, without a doubt, know how much you loved him ❤
You are so loved Theresa xxx and you are never dealing with this alone xxx I'm 35 and I lost my partner two years ago, your content has been a refuge. So I'm going to tell you something. This is going to be like a full thickness burn on your arm. It hurts like hell until you realize you are numb because your nerve endings have died. You go through this period of sleepwalking through life. You run the risk of infection and progress is slow. But over time, the skin heals and you think about it a little less and banging the limb takes the wind out of you a bit less too. Over time, things become less painful but the skin is new and sensitive and needs to be protected from sun exposure and extreme temperature which means you modify the way you do things, sometimes there are things you just can't bring yourself to do anymore. Then as the nerves slowly regenerate, you get this tingling as a reminder of all that has happened and you find a way to be grateful for all that was and all that still can be possible, but you will always have that scar and discolouration to remind you of the loss and you take that forward as you start doing things that were once your normal. You dont just come out the other side. It just hurts less, and the reminders are frequent but less gut wrenching, but you never forget. Give yourself time Theresa, we are here when you are ready xxxx
I am so, so sorry, Theresa. I hope you have all the support you need. Take your time and take good care of yourself, and do what you want and need to do as you grieve. May his memory be a blessing to you.
Oh Theresa, I'm so sorry for your loss. You spoke of Michael often and with a lot of love. Take all the time you need to grieve his loss, you don't owe anybody an explanation or excuses. May his memory be a blessing. Sending hugs, love & lots of healing light. Take your time. 💜💜💜💜💜
I went through this just last year. He was my best friend, first kiss, and we were so connected. He passed from lung cancer. I know this is probably a trigger for you, however. 45 yrs or 30 yrs of a person in your life is suddenly gone. I broke down at my pain clinic. Full melt down. Grieve the way you feel and it's ok to be emotional with us. I love you and hate you going through this. ❤
I'm so sorry, Theresa❤ The loss you're experiencing is so deep, so sad, and I just wish I could give you a huge hug❤ I know how much Michael meant to you & Alex. Sending you both my love and prayers. I'm here for you if you need to chat❤ XOXO
No words…..but sending so much love, strength, peace and my utmost sympathies to all who loved Michael. Take all the time you need to do what’s best for YOU….we will always love you and we will wait. YOU ARE NUMBER 1.😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
TAKE CARE OF YOUUUUU..... your emotions, mental and personal health come first my Theresa Marie.....❤ The ones who love you WILL be here for you when you're ready and the ones who are not! Well, they won't matter. They can move on. TRUST, it will get better, NEVER the same with this great loss you've had, however, with time, you will learn how to love, appreciate, and connect with your friend in a different way. So for now GET MAD, GET ANGRY, CRY, FEEL SAD, FEEL REGRET, OR "GUILTY" for what ever reason. It's a life changing experience that will mold you to who you will become. You will look at life in a different way. Mourning and grief takes time, every individual is different, so there is no time "set" for you to be over it. We love you and support you Theresa Marie. Blessings to you ❤️ 🍒
Oh Theresa, sending so much love your way. I’ve been a subscriber for a few years now, but am not one to comment. You have brought so much joy and comfort to me during what was a really dark period. Any content you choose to create is appreciated more than you know but I hope you’re able to take time for yourself to grieve and recenter ❤️
This came up on my page . My best friend just passed last night from cancer as well. I know your pain and It sucks! Still can't believe this is happening . My friend Kirk fought for two years and finally he was able to rest last night. I hate this but I know that he is finally able to have peace. Im sorry for your loss
Omg! I'm so sorry for your loss! I remember all your little cute stories about him sprinkled throughout your videos over the years. I was just thinking yesterday that I haven't seen you post in a while and was hoping you were okay. I'm so sorry.
Thank you for sharing such a raw and personal pain with us. Saying "you are so strong" sounds shallow and perhaps untrue when you are in the depths of grief (it certainly did when I lost my mom), but it is not the strength of an ox, able to barrel through anything, but rather the strength of a baby deer, teetering and tottering but somehow still managing to walk for the first time. It is trembling and fragile, but eventually you will be able to walk without trembling again. Take all of the time you need, and know that the strength of your grief is just a testament to the love that you and your best friend share.
Oh Theresa, I’m so very sorry for your loss. I lost my best friend 9 years ago and sometimes it is still not easy but the waves of grief do get more manageable. PLEASE take all the time you need, we’ll still be here. Btw, LOVE the blonde and your makeup looks beautiful.
Massive, massive love to you, Alex and Michaels Family & friends. Cancer is a c*** I lost my bestie Michael to a 1 in 1 million Cancer 19 years ago and I lost my amazing Nan to an agressive Brain Tumor nearly 13 years ago whilst I was pregnant with my first baby & her first Great Grandbaby. I saw a number plate her in Victoria Australia that was WOMM and I immediately thought of you ❤
I know I can't speak as if I know you, Theresa. But I love you. Know you have my love. I'm sending you so much comfort and strength as you navigate this grief the way that YOU need to. We're here for you however you need, whenever you need, and will be here when YOU'RE ready to be back. Take care of yourself as best as you can. For yourself. And for your loved ones, here and departed. They're never truly gone, hon. They're just on a new journey we haven't begun yet. 🕊️🕯️💜
I’m so sorry. I’m a mess right now too. You can talk when you are ready. My mom…..she went to the hospital June 28th . They found a mass in her right ovary. They postponed her surgery. She finally got it out on August 12th. It’s been a whole ordeal. They found two tumors. The other one was on her bowel. She is 67 and we don’t have “this” in our family history at all. The specialist who operated on her, said she thinks it is Stage 3 Ovarian Cancer. The test results haven’t came back yet. It was supposed to be a week and a half. If it is…. I will have to be tested too. She still doesn’t feel good. She is confused at times. It is just really hard. Everything went downhill so fast, while we are sitting here thinking….”what happened?” She wasn’t hurting and then one day she was and couldn’t take it anymore. We can all just cry together. 😭
Sending you so much love, Theresa! You are amazing and I know you know this, but PLEASE put YOU first, whatever that looks like for YOU! Give yourself permission to be all about you for now. You can think about other people another time. Biggest of giant hugs from across the miles.
I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost a friend of mine a few years ago to suicide and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Definitely take all the time you need and it's okay to not be okay. Acknowledge the pain as much as you need.
Theresa, this is one of the best videos I ever seen of anyone giving such a personal and powerful update of a loved one passing. I am crying with you because I have been there and it is so hard. Love you so much and please take your time.
Awe Theresa I’m so sorry about the grief and heartache you’re experiencing. I’m praying for you and Alex. Take the time you need to grieve. We love you and will be here when you’re ready.
Thank you for showing us what grief really looks like. My mother passed away, your videos helped me through that difficult period. You’re 100% right about oh yeah my friend passed here look at this blush while crying. I’m sending you prayers and love during your journey of healing ❤
I'm so sorry, so so sorry. After I lost my brother, people said I'd find a new normal, and I hated hearing that because nothing about the situation was f-ing normal. I finally settled into "moving forward" instead of "moving on." I'll keep supporting your channel in whatever time and schedule you choose, and sending you good energy as you decide what to do next.
I’m very sorry for your loss. My best friend passed from stomach cancer 5 years ago leaving 2 school aged children. I didn’t have enough vacation time to attend the funeral since I started a new job.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Please give yourself grace. Grief is not linear so some days or moments you will feel like it’s going to be okay, that you are handling it. The next day or moment the loss is completely crushing. I lost my sister in June and it has been up and down and completely heart breaking. I do know that there are and will be moments of joy and I appreciate them. You will too.
I couldn't watch the whole thing because I'm doing my makeup and started to cry, I've been away from social media for a few months but you've always been my absolute favorite makeuptuber and the first one I came back too now, I hope you can smile again soon as you've made me smile and laugh when no one else could ❤
Cancer is so cruel. I am so sorry Theresa… I’m so very sorry. I lost my childhood best friend to cancer after a 10 year battle at 19. She was in remission for a couple years and finally started getting her life back, then bam. 4 months that seemed like a blink & she was gone. It destroyed me. I was so numb for so long… We understand & respect your need for privacy & space. Grief does not have a timeline & we will be here in your corner whenever you feel up to it. I think I speak for everyone here when i say we adore you & what you have always brought to the UA-cam table. You just have so much on your plate rn & we will be here to support you whenever you are ready. Zero pressure, just take care of yourself. Hugs from Guam ❤
Theresa, I lost my best friend in 2012. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I felt like the wind was knocked out of me and I couldn’t stand up. I would never wish this kind of pain on anything, and I can understand where you’re coming from. I still think about her all the time and there’s always going to be an empty hole in my heart. as the days turned into night and eventually weeks, months, and years, the pain in my heart became more manageable. Some days I’m crying and some I’m laughing. And I know that’s what she’d want from me…to keep smiling ☺️
I’m so sorry Theresa. Loss is a roller coaster and it surprises the hell out of you, you might be fine one moment and then on the ground in grief the next. Take care of yourself and Alex 💞💞 hugs.
Aww Theresa crying with you, 30 years is a long time💔. Sending you and Alex strength 💕. Take all the time you need, and low effort vids are ok! We’re here for you!
I’m so very sorry for your loss. When I lost my best friend of 28 years I didn’t think I would ever stop crying. It was 9 years ago and there are times I think of her and still cry. Most of the time I think of her and no longer cry but it took a seriously long time for me. Take all the time you need to heal. Your hair does look amazing.
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Thank you for your service. Last December my dad passed from dementia, and he had been on hospice here at home. The nurses were always very kind and compassionate. And that is always such a light in the darkness 💜
I have been watching in the background.
My heart breaks for you.
There are no words that can ease your pain.
Loss, grief is a beast and will manifest in different forms, as it moves through you, with you.
Thank you for sharing the most impossible and difficult experience of your life.
I know how painful it is.
We, your garbage people, will always be her, Theresa -- no matter your schedule, no matter your content.
Love and gentle, distant hugs-
Deep, slow, breaths.
And yes, one day at a time.
One day at a time.
Your beautiful words touched me and I am sure many others. 100% grief has no end, I grieve my mum every day and it's been 20 years. I am still adjusting to 2 and a half years since my dad passed. Some people expect you "to be over it by now" but as you eloquently said, "it has no end". Thank you for everything you do.
This is beautiful. I've never had someone describe grief like that, but it's accurate
Thank you for what you do. My dad passed away last year, and the Hospice nurses were so amazing through it all. ❤
My best friend of 20+ years passed 3 years ago from brain cancer and I still haven't fully processed it. The one quote that helps is, "grief is just love you can no longer give". I choose to make sure I am giving that love as much as I can to the ones I still have. Much love Theresa!
i like: grief is just love with no place to go ❤
What a perfect quote -thanx
"I'm so sorry" can't even begin to cover it Theresa. We love you so much, please take all the time you need💗💗
I lost my 15 year old son on 8/4. I've never really gone through grief before like this. My heart is with you dear ❤ during this time.
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I am so, so sorry for your loss
@k.a.236 Thank you so much
There is no "acceptable timeline" or playbook for grief. Take care of yourself, dear girl.
To quote one of the best Marvel lines of all time “What is grief if not love persevering?” It’s ok to not be ok right now, take the time you need to even scratch the surface of processing your loss. Sending you light 🤍
F*** cancer. I’m so sorry Theresa. I lost my lifelong best friend to cancer 9 years ago this month. She was 34. Sending so much love to you and Alex. ❤️🩹
:( I'm so sorry for your loss as well. Damn that damned disease!
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Grief sucks. I lost my 30 year old daughter on 12/20/2018. I had no idea there was anything wrong. I’m a teacher with no money, and she passed away on my last day of school before Christmas break, so I went back after our two weeks off. It sucks to hold it all together. It’s hard. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this, and that your beloved Michael went through what he did. Take care of yourself. Do whatever you need to do. ❤
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I’m so sorry for loss. I lost my 23 yo son in 2016 right before Mother’s Day. It’s so unnatural to outlive your child no matter their age. Big hugs.
I'm so sorry for your loss. No one should have to lose a child. HUGS
@@susanstetson3435 So sorry for your loss too HUGS
I am so very very sorry
Grief is so freaking personal and everyone processes it differently. Whatever you need, please give to yourself💔
It’s normal to be a mess for a while. You’ll have a little voice in your head that will keep on saying, “your loved one wouldn’t want you to be sad, they would want you to be happy and thriving!” It’s hard to listen to that voice at first.
But over time, you listen more and more to that voice. Because you know it’s correct.
The pain of losing someone never really goes away, but you eventually manage it better. You manage the joy that you had that person with you for all the time that you did (🙌) with the grief that it wasn’t forever (😞).
Sending you all the hugs!
"People think that grief slowly gets smaller with time. In reality, grief stays the same size. But slowly life begins to grow bigger around it." ~ Dr. Lois Tonkin
I'm very sorry for your loss. A gut wrenching loss. I pray your life grows bigger to overshadow the grief.
I lost my younger brother (and only sibling) very suddenly about a week before Michael passed, so I'm right there with you. I'm so sorry, Theresa. ❤
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Sorry for your loss too. Definitely not a club anyone wants to join. RIP to your brother and sending healing prayers to you. 🙏🏻🫶🏻
I lost my mom this week..it really stinks that we all have to go through death so many times in life. Thinking of you
I am sorry from the bottom of my heart.
I lost my mom 2 years ago❤
I am so very sorry. It's hard to loose your mum, I feel your pain.
@@christinalichtenwalner5102 , so sorry for your loss. I lost mine 20 years go this year and my dad 2 and a half years ago.
I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is devastating. I lost my dad over 20 years ago. He was only 60 years old. I know he is always watching over me, my kids and now his great grandson.
It is very different losing someone your own age.
When my friend died of Covid people kept saying “ I know , I lost my grandma “.
I wanted to scream “it’s not the same!!!!!”
I’m so sorry. I wish I could say it gets better. It really doesn’t. You just get to the point where you can’t wait to tell him something funny happens less frequently.
If you need to talk to a professional about your grief, do it. ❤❤❤❤
My mom just passed Saturday and we had the funeral yesterday so I watched the beginning of your video and I can't finish it so I'll send my condolences but I do want you to know that watching your videos is something I look forward to and really enjoy. You bring a lot of laughter and joy to people
I’m really sorry for your loss Amber 💜
So sorry ❤
I'm so so sorry. xo from NYC
I'm so sorry for your loss. {{{Hugs}]]
I’m so sorry for the loss of your mom.🙏🏻❤️
I know how much you loved him and how bonded you remain. I'm so glad you moved to FL to be near him at the end of his life. We love you Garbage Queen and you are under no obligation to us. I figured it was a parent or grandparent passing. We are here to support you when you're ready . Your hair is beautiful.
I cried for 5 years when my friend passed away. It’s going to be hard and so much is going to come back to your memory that will make you cry uncontrollably. Take as much time as you need. Know that he’s watching over you, he’ll show you. Keep your head up
Theresa, there's nothing I can add here more than what has already been said. We are all grateful for your sense of humor, your insight and your ability to help us all to find the silliness and joy in life. You were one of my comfort channels I watched after my mom died after a battle of cancer in March. I am saddest that I cannot do the same for you. I am glad you had a friend that meant so much to you, but I feel for you having that friend seemingly ripped away from you. Grief changes you and how you see the world when it's someone so close to you and it takes it's sweet fucking time to show the changes.
I'm glad you recognize some of the tools for you to cope through this and the anticipated stress of the next months of your life. I know I'll still be here, and I'm sure I won't be alone.
Grief is something that never shrinks or diminishes, we grow around it so that we can carry it with us a little easier. The first 2 years is the hardest, it starts to feel a bit easier to carry after that but it will never leave you, and you wouldn't want it to.
I am crying with you. 😢 My father passed away a few weeks ago after a long struggle with cancer. My dad and I were a lot alike. We joked about inappropriate things to keep from crying and to make others feel better. It is hard. It is going to come in waves and you will probably never get over it. I haven't even fully accepted it yet. It seems easier to stay busy with work and prepare the kids for starting school instead of sitting at home sad. But we do need to take time to grieve and process it all. Many blessings and love your way! ❤ Take care of yourself and hubby. 😊
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You didn't lose your best friend, you lost your brother of a lifetime. I'm very sorry, it's okay to not be okay and to take time, the pain won't go away but it will be manageable eventually. I wish you peace and calmness, I love you There💜
I lost my best friend of over 16 years in 2020 to cancer. There’s not a day I don’t think of him. Every time I’m driving in the car, I pretend he’s there with me, singing to songs like we used to. That might sound sad, but it was really comforting right after he passed, and still continues to be. There is still a huge hole in my heart and my life where he used to be. I completely understand how awful this all is. Take all the time you need.
I do this too. I imagine holding hands and singing our hearts out while driving around.
You post, I click! Don't feel any kind of way about a fuc*ing schedule or bingo or makeup nonsense. Whatever you create, we'll be here! ❤
I lost my brother when I was only 16. I'm 30+ and I still feel the anger, the deep and raw PAIN and grief and nostalgia. I turned my head with a 'hi!' thinking that I heard him entering the room, just to feel my heart drop when I realized he is gone.
The loss of somebody you love is impossible to describe. I am hugging you through the screen Theresa. I hope you will heal with your times.
I feel your pain. My best friend of 25 years passed away 3 years ago. She was the sister I chose. We expect our older relatives to pass before us but the shock of our friends who are really the family we chose, is just incredibly hard. When she died I felt like I was walking around without an arm or with only one lung working. It took 2 years to feel sort of normal again but I still miss her every day. I am so sorry for the pain you’re feeling the pain you’ll keep feeling.
I lost my mom to cancer in 2018 after her being diagnosed 15 years prior. I had years to prepare....I wasn't ready when it happened and 5 years later, I'm still not. Grief is not linear and there is no timetable. Sending you, Alex and all your friends who knew him all my love. "Grief is love with no where to go."....this always stuck with me and it makes me sad but also gives me hope that I'll find a place for the grief to go someday that will make her proud. I hope you can do the same.
1.) I’m so sorry for your profound loss.
2.) Your “Full Florida” hair looks fantastic!
3.) Do whatever you need to do. We’ll be here for you. ❤️
My best friend is almost 4.5 years into a terminal diagnosis where less than 5% survive 5 years. We have been best friends for 30 years. I cannot imagine life without her. I understand what you are going through, and I’m sending you love, for whatever it’s worth. ❤
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My best friend of 40 years passed 15 years ago...I understand completely it's life changing. Hugs and love to you❤
I felt this video so strongly... I also lost my brother and best friend 4 years ago, and it just feels so unfair. I won't say things get better, but remember to give yourself a lot of love, patience, and most importantly... time to process and grieve. Much love to you, Theresa. We'll be here waiting whenever you need us.
I know how loss feels and take all the time you need. There is no timeline for dealing with loss.
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I cannot even imagine this kind of pain. Sending so much love to you, Alex, and Michael's family.
My best friend passed due to a gas leak in his apartment when he was 23 and I was 22. I went blonde the next week and kept it until I finally processed losing him years later. Do what you need to do, I cut people off for not being there for me in my grief and I helped more than I would have expected. If anyone wants to tell you that you're grieving wrong point me at them and I'll hoof them in the front butt. It never really goes away, I think of him every time I hear stupid "Jesus Take the Wheel" by Carrie Underwood because he would yell that anytime something went wrong. I think of him and bawl like a baby. At some point you'll go a day without thinking about it and you won't even realize it. That hurts if you notice it later but it's a good sign that doesn't feel like it at all. Please take care of yourself if whatever way you need to. (I spent a year at the bottle of a Jack Daniel's bottle, they're smaller than they look and it's kinda crowded in there so maybe don't do that.)
I can relate to many of the things you've touched on, and I sincerely respect your honesty and vulnerability here. I've found many of the platitudes around grief and loss that well-meaning people have told me over the years infuriating- but I've found some solace in the idea that loss doesn't get easier, it just becomes...different. Familiar.
"You realize that grief is perhaps the last and final translation of love...I think this is the last act of loving someone. And you realize that it will never end. You get to do this to translate this last act of love for the rest of your life."
I lost my daughter and mom this year. Wow I needed to see this today ty ❤
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss Theresa 💔
You don’t know me, this video came up randomly, but I was intrigued by the shelves in your background and clicked. I am so sorry for your loss, truly. It’s so difficult to navigate. You seem like a lovely person and as a fellow creative, I know how it feels when you stop creating. I get extremely sad if I am not creating. Stay strong.
I'm so sorry about micheal he sounded hella cool. Don't need to explain yourself. Grief is hard and not easy to process. Take care of yourself.
I lost a dear friend of over 30 years a year ago completely unexpectedly. I still haven’t been able to process it and I miss him every day. Take care of yourself and give yourself lots of time. Sending lots of love and hugs x
Sending you and Alex all the support in the world ❤ #theresaisloved
Oh god, I am so incredibly sorry for you, Alex and all of Michael's loved ones. It's tragic and so bloody hard. Sending love and strength. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
We love you, Theresa. And our hearts break for you and Alex dealing with this loss.
I’m so sorry for your loss, Theresa. I just lost my mom a couple months ago, and you talking about your grief is how I feel too. I don’t want to be forced to talk about it, but people care and want to be there. I get it. I really do. You deserve time, so take it. You’re a gem on this platform, and we’ll be here. Sending love from NY.
I know that raw, burning, overwhelming and painful grief. I still feel it now, sometimes, 15 years later. I'm sorry that you have to feel it too. He did, without a doubt, know how much you loved him ❤
You are so loved Theresa xxx and you are never dealing with this alone xxx
I'm 35 and I lost my partner two years ago, your content has been a refuge. So I'm going to tell you something.
This is going to be like a full thickness burn on your arm. It hurts like hell until you realize you are numb because your nerve endings have died. You go through this period of sleepwalking through life. You run the risk of infection and progress is slow. But over time, the skin heals and you think about it a little less and banging the limb takes the wind out of you a bit less too. Over time, things become less painful but the skin is new and sensitive and needs to be protected from sun exposure and extreme temperature which means you modify the way you do things, sometimes there are things you just can't bring yourself to do anymore.
Then as the nerves slowly regenerate, you get this tingling as a reminder of all that has happened and you find a way to be grateful for all that was and all that still can be possible, but you will always have that scar and discolouration to remind you of the loss and you take that forward as you start doing things that were once your normal.
You dont just come out the other side. It just hurts less, and the reminders are frequent but less gut wrenching, but you never forget.
Give yourself time Theresa, we are here when you are ready xxxx
Anything you put out on UA-cam is a gift for us. You take care of yourself and your family. Also loving the blonde ❤
I am so, so sorry, Theresa. I hope you have all the support you need. Take your time and take good care of yourself, and do what you want and need to do as you grieve. May his memory be a blessing to you.
Seeing you like this is just breaking my heart! I wish you healing and peace. Sending much love!💕
Oh Theresa, I'm so sorry for your loss. You spoke of Michael often and with a lot of love. Take all the time you need to grieve his loss, you don't owe anybody an explanation or excuses. May his memory be a blessing. Sending hugs, love & lots of healing light. Take your time. 💜💜💜💜💜
There is no rule book or timeline on grief. Show yourself grace. Please be good to yourself and be kind to yourself. ❤
You thank us for sticking with you.. You couldn't get rid of us if you tried
I went through this just last year. He was my best friend, first kiss, and we were so connected. He passed from lung cancer. I know this is probably a trigger for you, however. 45 yrs or 30 yrs of a person in your life is suddenly gone. I broke down at my pain clinic. Full melt down. Grieve the way you feel and it's ok to be emotional with us. I love you and hate you going through this. ❤
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Loss and grief are so hard. I just wanted to hold your hand through it all. So there is much care and support from this household.
I lost my brother to prostate cancer. The grief I feel is immeasurable and it takes time. Please take care of yourself!
Teresa, I am so sorry for your loss. Please take all the time you need to heal. 💛
I'm so sorry, Theresa❤ The loss you're experiencing is so deep, so sad, and I just wish I could give you a huge hug❤ I know how much Michael meant to you & Alex. Sending you both my love and prayers. I'm here for you if you need to chat❤ XOXO
No words…..but sending so much love, strength, peace and my utmost sympathies to all who loved Michael. Take all the time you need to do what’s best for YOU….we will always love you and we will wait. YOU ARE NUMBER 1.😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
Oh, Theresa, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you. Sending love and light.
TAKE CARE OF YOUUUUU..... your emotions, mental and personal health come first my Theresa Marie.....❤
The ones who love you WILL be here for you when you're ready and the ones who are not! Well, they won't matter. They can move on. TRUST, it will get better, NEVER the same with this great loss you've had, however, with time, you will learn how to love, appreciate, and connect with your friend in a different way. So for now GET MAD, GET ANGRY, CRY, FEEL SAD, FEEL REGRET, OR "GUILTY" for what ever reason. It's a life changing experience that will mold you to who you will become. You will look at life in a different way.
Mourning and grief takes time, every individual is different, so there is no time "set" for you to be over it. We love you and support you Theresa Marie. Blessings to you ❤️ 🍒
Oh Theresa, sending so much love your way. I’ve been a subscriber for a few years now, but am not one to comment. You have brought so much joy and comfort to me during what was a really dark period. Any content you choose to create is appreciated more than you know but I hope you’re able to take time for yourself to grieve and recenter ❤️
This came up on my page . My best friend just passed last night from cancer as well. I know your pain and It sucks! Still can't believe this is happening . My friend Kirk fought for two years and finally he was able to rest last night. I hate this but I know that he is finally able to have peace. Im sorry for your loss
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Omg! I'm so sorry for your loss! I remember all your little cute stories about him sprinkled throughout your videos over the years. I was just thinking yesterday that I haven't seen you post in a while and was hoping you were okay. I'm so sorry.
Thank you for sharing such a raw and personal pain with us. Saying "you are so strong" sounds shallow and perhaps untrue when you are in the depths of grief (it certainly did when I lost my mom), but it is not the strength of an ox, able to barrel through anything, but rather the strength of a baby deer, teetering and tottering but somehow still managing to walk for the first time. It is trembling and fragile, but eventually you will be able to walk without trembling again. Take all of the time you need, and know that the strength of your grief is just a testament to the love that you and your best friend share.
Thank you for the update. We’ve all been thinking about you and Alex.
So sorry for your loss.
There's no words to skip the pain. Be together and close both of you and get the time you need.
Oh Theresa, I’m so very sorry for your loss. I lost my best friend 9 years ago and sometimes it is still not easy but the waves of grief do get more manageable. PLEASE take all the time you need, we’ll still be here. Btw, LOVE the blonde and your makeup looks beautiful.
When I lost my dad, I watched your videos because you made me laugh. I’m truly so sorry for your loss and your pain.
I lost my best friend on July 27th to cancer. I understand how you feel. Take as much time as you need.
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Massive, massive love to you, Alex and Michaels Family & friends. Cancer is a c*** I lost my bestie Michael to a 1 in 1 million Cancer 19 years ago and I lost my amazing Nan to an agressive Brain Tumor nearly 13 years ago whilst I was pregnant with my first baby & her first Great Grandbaby.
I saw a number plate her in Victoria Australia that was WOMM and I immediately thought of you ❤
I know I can't speak as if I know you, Theresa. But I love you. Know you have my love. I'm sending you so much comfort and strength as you navigate this grief the way that YOU need to. We're here for you however you need, whenever you need, and will be here when YOU'RE ready to be back.
Take care of yourself as best as you can. For yourself. And for your loved ones, here and departed. They're never truly gone, hon. They're just on a new journey we haven't begun yet. 🕊️🕯️💜
I'm so sorry, Theresa. I lost my best friend to a short battle with cancer 10 years ago. Fucking sucked then, and it sucks now. We all love you. ❤
Hugs to you Theresa.❤
I’m so sorry. I’m a mess right now too. You can talk when you are ready. My mom…..she went to the hospital June 28th . They found a mass in her right ovary. They postponed her surgery. She finally got it out on August 12th. It’s been a whole ordeal. They found two tumors. The other one was on her bowel. She is 67 and we don’t have “this” in our family history at all. The specialist who operated on her, said she thinks it is Stage 3 Ovarian Cancer. The test results haven’t came back yet. It was supposed to be a week and a half. If it is…. I will have to be tested too. She still doesn’t feel good. She is confused at times. It is just really hard. Everything went downhill so fast, while we are sitting here thinking….”what happened?” She wasn’t hurting and then one day she was and couldn’t take it anymore. We can all just cry together. 😭
I am so, so sorry Theresa. I wish I could give you a hug.
Sending you so much love, Theresa! You are amazing and I know you know this, but PLEASE put YOU first, whatever that looks like for YOU! Give yourself permission to be all about you for now. You can think about other people another time. Biggest of giant hugs from across the miles.
I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost a friend of mine a few years ago to suicide and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Definitely take all the time you need and it's okay to not be okay. Acknowledge the pain as much as you need.
Theresa, this is one of the best videos I ever seen of anyone giving such a personal and powerful update of a loved one passing. I am crying with you because I have been there and it is so hard. Love you so much and please take your time.
Take all the time you need! We understand. I'm sincerely very sorry for your profound loss of your bestie. 💐
Awe Theresa I’m so sorry about the grief and heartache you’re experiencing. I’m praying for you and Alex. Take the time you need to grieve. We love you and will be here when you’re ready.
Thank you for showing us what grief really looks like. My mother passed away, your videos helped me through that difficult period. You’re 100% right about oh yeah my friend passed here look at this blush while crying. I’m sending you prayers and love during your journey of healing ❤
This kind of grief is impossibly difficult. Please take as much time as you need. ❤ I'm so sorry.
Awwww Theresa, I’m so so sorry for your loss 🤍 You’re so brave!! Be kind to yourself, and give yourself time to heal xx
I’m so sorry you’re going through this, I’m sending you all the love and hugs ❤
I'm so sorry, so so sorry. After I lost my brother, people said I'd find a new normal, and I hated hearing that because nothing about the situation was f-ing normal. I finally settled into "moving forward" instead of "moving on." I'll keep supporting your channel in whatever time and schedule you choose, and sending you good energy as you decide what to do next.
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I'm sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need.
I’m very sorry for your loss. My best friend passed from stomach cancer 5 years ago leaving 2 school aged children. I didn’t have enough vacation time to attend the funeral since I started a new job.
Take ALL the time you need. Sending loving and healing energy your way.
I lost my Mom to cancer in 2012.
She was 56
I became suicidal.
I am so very sorry for your loss.
Sending love, hugs and prayers for strength.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Please give yourself grace. Grief is not linear so some days or moments you will feel like it’s going to be okay, that you are handling it. The next day or moment the loss is completely crushing. I lost my sister in June and it has been up and down and completely heart breaking. I do know that there are and will be moments of joy and I appreciate them. You will too.
Holding y'all in the light at this difficult time. On a lesser note, your hair is fabulous!
Keep being kind to yourself. You're doing the right thing for number 1 which is you. Love and peace fabulous queen.
I couldn't watch the whole thing because I'm doing my makeup and started to cry, I've been away from social media for a few months but you've always been my absolute favorite makeuptuber and the first one I came back too now, I hope you can smile again soon as you've made me smile and laugh when no one else could ❤
I’m so sorry. That’s such an immense loss ❤
Take care, sweet lady. I feel for you so so much.
Cancer is so cruel. I am so sorry Theresa… I’m so very sorry. I lost my childhood best friend to cancer after a 10 year battle at 19. She was in remission for a couple years and finally started getting her life back, then bam. 4 months that seemed like a blink & she was gone. It destroyed me. I was so numb for so long…
We understand & respect your need for privacy & space. Grief does not have a timeline & we will be here in your corner whenever you feel up to it. I think I speak for everyone here when i say we adore you & what you have always brought to the UA-cam table. You just have so much on your plate rn & we will be here to support you whenever you are ready. Zero pressure, just take care of yourself.
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I’m so very sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself and Alex. Take all the time you need. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love to you and Alex.
Theresa, I lost my best friend in 2012. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I felt like the wind was knocked out of me and I couldn’t stand up. I would never wish this kind of pain on anything, and I can understand where you’re coming from. I still think about her all the time and there’s always going to be an empty hole in my heart. as the days turned into night and eventually weeks, months, and years, the pain in my heart became more manageable. Some days I’m crying and some I’m laughing. And I know that’s what she’d want from me…to keep smiling ☺️
I’m so sorry Theresa. Loss is a roller coaster and it surprises the hell out of you, you might be fine one moment and then on the ground in grief the next. Take care of yourself and Alex 💞💞 hugs.
Aww Theresa crying with you, 30 years is a long time💔. Sending you and Alex strength 💕. Take all the time you need, and low effort vids are ok! We’re here for you!
I’m so sorry for your loss. Take your time girl. You are the only one that knows how to deal with this pain.
I’m so very sorry for your loss. When I lost my best friend of 28 years I didn’t think I would ever stop crying. It was 9 years ago and there are times I think of her and still cry. Most of the time I think of her and no longer cry but it took a seriously long time for me. Take all the time you need to heal. Your hair does look amazing.