My interpretation of this song: It's about a man giving ironic answers. People like to say "rough and strict parents raise amazing children" and sometimes this "rough and strict" means abusive. So he is saying "yeah, my father that tried to kill me made me cure cancer", ironically.
I had a conversation with my mother about how I felt like she wasn’t treating me/my family right and to summarise, her response was: “Actually, it’s normal for someone your age to hate your parents, and I know I’m bad sometimes but I just need to do this because if I didn’t then you and your siblings wouldn’t have succeded at what you did in life and I put up with you so you should be grateful, I’m sorry I traumatised you (she literally said that), I’m not perfect, no one is, and I was born in a not so great situation so that’s just who I am, so no, I’m not going to change, also your father instead is a bad parent because he’s too good (he isn’t, he acts like he needs to, not too strict but not too nice, and he seems to care about us way more than my mother ever did).”
I think the song is an ironic take of how, when you talk about parental abuse, people will often try and say something like “well at least it made you stronger” or “it must’ve all worked out though, look where you are now!” implying that, because now you are happy and/or successful, you somehow deserved or needed the trauma and abuse in your life, and you should be glad for it. when the singer says “i’m glad my daddy didn’t love me” I feel it really puts the nail in the coffin. it’s impossible to be happy that your parents don’t love you. you can never be happy for abuse and trauma in your life. you can grow, you can move on, you can get past it, but no one should ever feel like they deserved it or needed it to get to where they are. no one’s father should try to kill them. everyone deserves a father who loves them, whether they’ve cured cancer or not. your success in life is not a justification for the abuse others have dealt you.
It’s like when people say “trauma made you grow and be a better person” No trauma didn’t do that and neither did my abuser. It was myself who made me better.
I always liked when people told me "your abuse made you stronger" because they're right. I'm an extremely strong person. They're not saying that I deserved it, they're just trying to be positive, although the way they put it into words sounds questionable. I think people tend to take things too personally. People who don't understand will try to be positive but may come across as rude or inconsiderate because of their ignorance on what you've been through or who you are. But yeah, they can't continue saying that to others because not everyone will feel the same as I do about comments like that. They need to understand that they're romanticizing abuse and trauma by saying stuff like "kids who've been abused will grow up to be famous" and such.
Yelling and hitting kids just because “you’re trying to make them stronger” or “my childhood was harder than theirs!” Isn’t a valid excuse. You don’t truly care about the child if you aren’t stopping the abuse cycle.
Normalize telling your parents “your trauma is not mine to handle” because I’m fucking tired of my mother holding the fact her dad hit her over my head.
My father is mentally abusive. He’s an alcoholic, narcissist, chain smoker. It hurts. Like, a lot. So, to all the people who are going through the same thing, or worse, or just don’t feel loved by their father, you’re great and strong. Hang in there buddy, it gets better.
This is from a year ago but it will get better, it always does. I know how scary it is and I know I'm just a stranger on the internet but I'm proud of you and I hope things have gotten better for you.
I think that the part where he says that his dad was going to die from old age, 'going on ninety', was a lie his mother told him because he was actually going to be executed .
The way that his voice cracks whenever he's singing it just provokes a primitive emotion in me, like he's desperate for something. It's very well done.
I take the meaning of this song in three interpretations: 1) none of these things happened to him, but the abuse, neglect and trauma made him think it did. Lines like "by the time that I was nine my daddy life was going to end/he was going on 90" could mean that his father was dead and distant to him, going on into the rest of his "achievements" that are really just from his insanity. 2) a commentary on how we boast children from bad situations. It's all over our media, pop or otherwise. Every story is about the average highschooler who had (x) happen to them and suddenly they're a hero. We see it in the news when children who starved all their lives invent ways to feed millions. It's almost like we're feeding kids to want to be the underdog because if you aren't your accomplishments are meaningingless And 3) the plot of every bad fan fiction ever.
Probably 2.) considering he’s never met his father and a lot of his stories about him are fictional. www.punknews.org/amp/38094/interviews-sean-bonnette-andrew-jackson-jihad lewisandhisblog.tumblr.com/post/10488345711/interview-andrew-jackson-jihad-92011
I love the second interpretation, I feel like that’s a huge issues we have with what kids today are taught. Fuck no you don’t want my problems you little idiots.
...i tried to kill my mom.... After she tried kill me... Then it turns out she be a rapist so thats why im here which is digusting but its fine with me because now I'm here and i can fix her mess so.... Its actually kinda hilarious!
@Rosemary Mask I am nearly 15, and my story is very similar to yours. My mother moved away from my father to another province before she even knew she was pregnant with me, and I am not allowed to see my father until i am of legal age and can go and meet him on my own. I have been told that he is a bad person, he has done bad things and has addictions and issues even with the family he has now. I have never met him, not once. I only just learned his name recently. My mother has told me that he knows I exist, but has never tried to see me. Sometimes I wonder if its because he knows it wont do anyone any good, or if he just doesnt care. In my case however, I do not love him. I do not miss him, and as curious as I am I want nothing to do with him. He is a stranger, nothing more and nothing else. Fortunately my mother met my stepfather, who raised me and the kids they had together up until i was about 7, then they parted. Despite that he is a wonderful parent. He tries so hard to spend as much time as he can his 3 kids, even me. (We all live with my mother, as my stepdad has another family of his own now, and they have 5 kids - it would most likely be too stressful.) He is the absolute best, and im so damn glad my biological father never cared, otherwise I wouldnt have my brother and sisters, and I wouldnt be the person I am today. Respect your mothers decisions, even if you do not agree. At a young age its hard to understand the reasoning behind the actions of others. I promise you, good things will come. Beleive so, and be happy. Enjoy every day to your best ability.
I wish my mother loved me more ;-; This song kinda does depict how she thinks, she thinks being strict and pushing me to my limit to the point that just talking to her can cause me to break down crying will make me grow a successful or at least efficient person, talking about how it worked with my brothers- And yeah, it worked, kinda (one of my bros got pretty well, the other one is still not totally okay) but by the wrong means. In this case it matters more how you do it than what you do. We’re also all a little autistic (not my dad tho) aand I think what she does isn’t really a good method for neurodivergent people like us either- My dad’s pretty chill actually, just a little absent (can’t blame him tho, with my mother at home-) or too intrusive (just for me tho, a normal person would like affection from dad, I’m just easily annoyed and physical touch with my family bothers me)
ive seen a lot of people talking about it being a sarcastic argument against parental abuse but i think there is also another part to this song. when i listen to it i feel a level of longing from the narrator as he still wants his father to love him even after all of the shit he did. this leads him to try and shift all of the awful things his dad did in a positive light so that he can hold onto the idea of a good father even though its in his head
I think that's an element a lot of people miss. "And I can't help but miss him / even though he hit me every day / and he tried to hang me with a belt once" Because that's how it is with abusive parents. They're fucking horrible to you, but it's just. It's so fucking hard to hate them. You still fucking miss them and love them, even though they were *horrible* to you. And sometimes you even understand the way they are and can empathize with them, because they went through shit no one should have to go through but they still *hit* you and they *beat* you and they left scars that you'll never be able to fully leave behind no matter how much you grow or how long they've been dead and it HURTS, it HURTS, it just fucking *HURTS,* and none of it makes any fucking sense.
I think he's trying to reason with himself that the trauma he suffered in the past was necessary for him to achieve larger goals and become a hero (think of the karma you see in most underdog movies) When it doesn't actually change anything in the present, and he's just using the "good things are coming my way" thing as a coping method
it's amazing how a song with such simplistic lyrics can actually be so complex and have so many different meanings that all vary from interpretation to interpretation
The song makes sense. It’s talking about how people always say “the bad things happened to you for a reason.” It’s saying that that’s not always true. Sometimes there is nothing that makes up for all the fucked up shit that happens to you.
I feel that, dude. I couldn’t really hear what he said in that part, but I heard when he said “I’m glad he took those pictures of me” later on and going by the tone of the song, I instantly got a feeling of dread and anxiety.
a couple of things when he says his father was pushing 90, he meant his father was pushing 90 years in prison it was mentioned earlier that he was "doing time", therefore in prison he died in prison and when he mentions how he does all these huge things at a young age, I feel that he's suggesting he lost his own mind, and convinces himself that he did all these things to cope with schizophrenia he mentioned earlier in the song that his father was looking down on him from heaven, and it's clear his father was very critical of him, therefore he convinces himself he did such amazing things at a young age to cope with the schizophrenia he suffers with by believing his father is watching him and expecting him to do great things at a young age and he's glad his father didn't love him because believing he's happy with that helps him cope with the trauma his father put him through, and putting that with his false belief he's done great things ties in that he's schizophrenic and thinks that his father never loving him helped him to achieve great things that's just how I perceived this
Soft Kitty or it's just sarcastic to depict how society "romanticises" abuse into something that makes you a better person and gives you motivation in life when really it's just an awful thing that we need to stop
That's a valid theory, I choose to believe it was depicting how none of those things happened and he ultimately did nothing with the trauma and Criticism his father put him through.
I think thats because us people are so selfish. Ajj helped me out too, probably because I thought my life sucked and I was just idk horrible. But after listening to this I thought at least my daddy didnt took nude pics of my body but there is that one guy who actually get through that and he is still living, he is making music and if even that person can do it who am I to give up without half of his excuses to give up
if you don't mind me asking, what did you do about it? i'm going through that right now (abusive mom) and it's really fucking me up and i'm honestly losing hope.
I live in a stable home(s) with loving parents, even if they’re divorced, but just know that if you are or were suffering through a broken home, please know that I love you. Although I don’t know you, I still adore you; your flaws, your highlights, your appearance, and your overall presence for being on this wretched planet. You are so strong for going through what’s going on. Thank you for being here. Please, get that through your mind. You are so loved, even by complete strangers over the internet. This goes for anybody, even if you’re not living through the trauma of an abusive home.
Every time I hear this song again it reminds of the first time I listened to it. How the lyrics aided me in the realisation that the trauma I had to go through isn’t what made me strong or brave. That was me, that was my hard work, and my strength should never be attributed to an abuser. What I survived didn’t give me anything except CPTSD and a shitty childhood. There is no silver lining to it. I know we all love an underdog story with a happy ending, but its just not widely realistic. If anything, this expectation just puts unwarranted pressure on the survivor. I know it did me, whether I knew it at the time or not. I felt like I had to do something big & impressive, just to give back what was already taken from me. I wanted a reason for why it happened, to make up for it so I could be ‘worthy’ again. I know I wasn’t alone in this fucked mindset, but I’ve healed and am healing. lets just say EMDR therapy is very much worth it ;] sorry for the ramble i think its time for bed goodnight *TLDR: whatever doesn’t kill you doesn’t make you stronger, it just gives you trauma lol*
I relate to this song so much, having an abusive father and a mother that wasn't always there for me. When I was younger my dad, being 6'3 and me, at the time, far shorter, choked me with a belt, putting it around my neck and slinging the belt over his shoulder, aswell as having beat me several times. And even now that he is far gone out of my life I can't stop myself from missing him. I've always felt like I was done dirty or given a bad hand of cards in life, and I still find myself struggling to overcome the physchological trauma. I just really wish he had wanted me.
My father tried to choke me once as well and he's beaten me several times for negligible things like not picking up the phone or coming home 15-20 minutes late. He still beats me and I don't know, but I can literally see the hatred for me in his eyes. I don't know what I've done to deserve such hatred. But I know he's a major asshole because he could never be a good father or even a husband. He threatens to leave home if my mother ever takes my side and at regular intervals tells us that we're living our lives on his money and we don't deserve to have an opinion. It's horrible.
@@luna8613 I can't believe I commented this a year ago! Crazy how time flies. But I'm sixteen now and I've been taking more time to better help myself in terms of mental health. Even now I find that there are many setbacks that I face, such as the stresses of school and the other kids that attend it, as well as the stress of trying to find something I'm truly passionate about. But I can also say with complete confidence that things have and will get better, and I hope that they are able to get better for you as well! If you ever want someone to talk to or just an open ear feel free to talk to me any time!
@@Jovanist It's good to know that things have gotten better for you! I hope some day it gets easier for me too. I'm planning to move out of my house soon, really want it to work. Thank you so much for being such a sweetheart!
I'm really sorry for that. I don't have to deal with any of that since I have an amazing mom and dad that love me a lot and never hurt me and support me an insane amount. I wish other people like you were able to feel as much love as I do from my parents. It makes me feel guilty for having good parents and others don't have as good parents that live them. I wish you were able to have a good childhood as I had
a lot of people think that you'll end up successful because of your trauma, but in truth people end up succeeding *despite* their trauma, not because of it.
I'm seeing a lot of theories about the meaning of this song so I'll throw my own out there: None of the things he is saying are true. The words are meant to parody the inspirational stories we hear so often about people and their tragic backstories. Why? Perhaps he is saying that people who tell their stories benefit greatly with regards to media attention, sponsorships, and opportunities. Maybe he is saying he wishes something terrible would have happened to him because 1) he thinks it would give him an advantage in life OR 2) He would be able to relate to these people, instead of just feeling sorry for them.
the lines about how he's glad his dad didn't love him, hurt him, etc hits especially hard into the meaning. how the people who have built their careers and popularity off of their childhood trauma are ultimately glad for their experience but only because they became someone. but at the end of the day he didn't become anyone and he's still traumatized.
Oh god- AJJ will always be one of my favorite artists. He controls his voice so well, and sides voice cracks in such a beautiful way. Not just that, but he handles such horrible topics in a great way, he doesn’t try to be optimistic, And doesn’t feel like he should have to censor his songs from bad things, bad things happen. :)
I have a friend who is only 12 and he was in almost the same situation with him. His dad got deported and my friend has made multiple suicide attempt s, with his mother not doing much to try and stop him. He recently told me that he likes me and i don't know what i should do.... I am scared for him.
Sorry for my english, is not my mother-language Try to say him that he's not alone. Life can be beautiful. Just try to make him laugh and smile. Suicide is not a solution. I tried too to kill myself. It's not okay. Just try to understand him. Maybe it sounds weird, but try to pray for him. I believe God exists. Just try.
if he ever comes with you wanting to talk about it, try not to give him "solutions." Sometimes you just need someone to talk to. Just support him and show him he's not alone.
Fuck sorry, if u like him go for it, make him feel like hes the best in the world. BUT if u dont and only as a friend, dont pretend to love him romanticly it will only hurt him more in the aftermath’s
I'm gonna put my two sense into this finally lol My interpretation is that he was obviously abused by is parent physically and probably verbally too. Once the kid grows up he "achieves" greatness, solving big problems and making up for the love and attention he never got when he was younger. He knows in the back of his mind that his trauma didn't help fix world wide problems, but its better to believe that something bad in his life was finally made up by adoration from the public. He goes back to saying he's glad his daddy didn't love him, but deep down he's probably still waiting for exceptence. This song almost replicates the media, and how they talk about celebrities bad past when they were younger acting like that's why they are famous now. Trying to push this narrative that you have to go through this breakdown or trauma to really make it. When in reality people usually don't get this outcome, they live out their lives with no luck redemption. Living with their problems, walking eating sleeping without ever feeling like the accomplished anything. The media romanticize mental illnesses and trauma, thinking your cool and quirky for having problems. In reality mental illness and trauma stops kids or adults for experiencing a lot of things, its not this cool personality trait you want. People live with struggles and others either romanticize it, call bullshit on it or make it sound like it makes you better than other people. Moral of the story, don't try to make our trauma and illness something that makes us better, because it doesn't.
Y’all, the song’s about how he actually achieved shit after he was free from the struggling grasp of his traumatic childhood caused by his father. The things didn’t happen, of course, it’s truly just exaggeration to show more emotion. It’s just that he started to succeed with that burden and that he grew from knowing the knowledge of what hell feels like. (From experience) Also stop demonizing schizophrenia in the comment section, that ain’t how it work. (Also experience)
Trauma forever keeps you thinking everyone is gonna do what they did. You can never truly trust people, you can never truly let your guard down, you can be happy and have so many friends that love you. But you will always wonder why the people that made you, couldn't.
Man this song is sad...if it is what I think it's about...a boy taking drugs and hallucinating (thinking he can do a bunch of outlandish things), because of an abusive father.
muquesko Toksis idk but my interpretation was that all those things like making his first million and being champion of the world was him recovering and coming to terms with his father, and growing, not really hallucinating
no its him saying that he didnt change the world, he didnt cured cancer, nothing made up for the things his father had done to him, he learned to live with it
My interpretation of this song is that he misses his dad so much he thinks of him differently, for instance saying hes glad for him being abused because it got him places and that his dad was doing it for him, like hes so desperate for a father figure he misconjoins his fathers personality with a caring man. Saying his dad did it to make him better is easier then facing the fact he was like that. Him saying he cured cancer and all may be small actual accomplishments in his life like cooking or drawing but the weight on his shoulders makes him feel like they are huge tasks just lingering over him, as well as his innocence as a child-there is a huge weight he carrys with him
This song hits different, especially when I’m in my usual funk like tonight. Sometimes I wonder if my father ever loved me at all; why would he disown me when I was clearly struggling with depression? Why did he never reach out to me during those days, to see if I was okay or even alive? The confusion and pain still comes back sometimes, wondering if I wasn’t good enough or useful enough to be loved. I know better these days, that my value isn’t tied to those things and all I can do is keep living and telling myself that I didn’t deserve the treatment I received, even if it feels like a lie during these depressive episodes. I hope we all eventually overcome these awful physical, mental, and/or emotional scars our parents left on us, because there’s always hope for a better future.
This song makes me so emotional but happy for some reason. It's like you could let your shitty past hold you down or you could use it as motivation to be stronger.
I'm sorry to be "that" person but the song is depicting the opposite of what you think. The person singing is saying what media thinks happens if you go through trauma but really he just has to deal with it and never really makes anything good out of it. This can be seen because he says when he was 13 he was president but that's impossible just like everything else he said.
yeah its sarcastic. im so glad daddy didnt love me cuz it helped me become thr president of the world at age 14. the message i get is that he may have liked a little more parental love?
My father was abused by his mother, who was a drug addict, and she kicked him out in his teen years. Sometime in his life he met my mother and well... I happened. He stabbed two people before i was born and is now in prison until age 50-51. I wish i knew him even though i know he probably would've abused me, And i have felt an empty feeling in my life everyday of my life.
Liz well maybe you can meet him when you get older (if he is still in prison) or maybe he regrets for the things he did or his father side would make him more soft to you. Even tho he is not there is still a change.
I never got to meet my father, he just suddenly dissappeared when I was 1, he's left me with all sorts of identity problems and I hate when people tell me I look just like him. I don't want to look like him. I'm pretty sure he would have neglected me or abused me as he didn't truly love me, he liked getting attention off women when I was around him. And I'm pretty sure he didn't go mising, I think he ran off with another woman.
if i could listen to any song for the first time again, this would be that song. nothing will every recreate the whiplash and awe i felt the first time i heard this
If you're like me and tried to listen to this on spotify but couldn't find it, it's because on spotify it's just called "daddy" and not "daddy didn't love me". I might be the only one who struggled with this problem lol
i both hate and love this song. this song makes me recognize all of my traumas and i hate it because i want it to get out of my head. tired of people saying that im stronger now since ive been through those. nothing changed, im not stronger, im still sensitive even if i dont seem like it. i want to wipe the memories away and i just want everyone to shut up. but i love the song for the beat and how the meaning behind it can be interpreted from different angles. trying to solve the meaning makes me distracted from actual problems i have which makes me so happy. i know ignoring those problems dont help, but i have nothing else to do to help. so i listen to music like these, it mentally smacks me in the head with big bold words. *im not going through this alone* and i have others who are willing to help and i willing to help them. im happy to have met such amazing people that help me go through all my trauma.
I blared this song at an elementary school once...because kids wondered what I listened to (we all shared music when I tutored them, for a project). No one appreciated the "AND HE TOOK NUDE PHOTOS OF MY BODY!" part. So worth it.
The first two verses... literally me.. but my dad loves me... he’s just schizophrenic and use to get beat by his dad and also emotionally abused... he raised me on his own since my mom left me when I was a few weeks old. She left me in the crib home alone and dad got home from work.. he did his best. I stopped the beatings at age 17 and told him if he ever laid his hands on me again I’ll break his wrists. Lmao we are good now though 🤘🏻
When people say "everything bad that's happened has led you to where you are, so be thankful for it" I just think of this song and how fucked that logic is
bro , this hits too close to home. Literally at age 8 he was serving time. Age 10 he was about to die (from a fire and old age) Age 11 my father passed away. He did bad things but I really can’t help but miss him.
I have never experienced anything like this but this song gave me the chills because you can hear how damaged the experience made him. I'm sorry to everyone who had to go through stuff like this and truly hope your lives get better.
the whole song, his word seemed strained and hollow, laced with sarcasm. He didn't do any of those great things, and even if it did, it's highly unlikely it wasnt because of that trauma.
I don't know why, but I imagine at the end when he's talking about his accomplishments, it's actually him playing pretend and boasting on the internet, and at the guitar solo he's actually like playing a guitar in front of a camp fire and a boy sits next to him and they hold hands :) Also I don't live with a father who doesn't love me, but sometimes it feels like it because aside from bringing me to his place for his birthday last month, he hasn't visited since he moved out. And sometimes, I wish he treated me the way he treats my brother, just so my brother wouldn't feel neglected. My father does abuse my brother, and he's too stubborn to realize it when called out. So they just don't talk anymore. My brother is thirteen going on fourteen.
Hello to all the people with any sort of parent or family issues I love you and I’m your new parent now 💕💕💕
Roofooof Alllaaa hello parent😀😀😀
Roofooof Alllaaa thank u love u
unicornlocogirl :D hello!!
robotrowan you’re very welcome I love you too remember to eat your veggies
💞 tyyy
I love how he sounds on the verge of tears thee whole time.
Thats like every song he does tbh XD
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@d b me too
Ikr, it just got me chills everytime I listen to this song
It's amazing
The font is a good choice. It feels like a kid is scribbling all this down in his notebook with pen during class
that's totally what i was going for omg thank u
I doodle song lyrics in my notebooks everyday wtf?
I do that, and then erase it so no one sees it. It really helps tho
The kid just handing this to the teacher i think the teacher might have called ppa
omg- I visualize the idea! Ikr it's genius
I, er, don't think his dad's going to Heaven
But if his dad doesn’t go to hell when he dies he might go to heaven
Chahut Maenad Hes done some Bad Bad Things
Curiousbox hmm these are chill references
Its quite nice down here in hell... Thanks for being so offensive *looks offended*
***satire***
Chahut Maenad thanks captain obvious
My interpretation of this song:
It's about a man giving ironic answers. People like to say "rough and strict parents raise amazing children" and sometimes this "rough and strict" means abusive. So he is saying "yeah, my father that tried to kill me made me cure cancer", ironically.
i know this is a year ols but i dont think ironically is the word youre looking for,,, sarcastically?
Hal Pal saracasm is a form of irony, so while it might feel worded incorrectly, it's still technically correct
@@isaacisis5876 ah, ok! learn something new everyday! haha
I had a conversation with my mother about how I felt like she wasn’t treating me/my family right and to summarise, her response was: “Actually, it’s normal for someone your age to hate your parents, and I know I’m bad sometimes but I just need to do this because if I didn’t then you and your siblings wouldn’t have succeded at what you did in life and I put up with you so you should be grateful, I’m sorry I traumatised you (she literally said that), I’m not perfect, no one is, and I was born in a not so great situation so that’s just who I am, so no, I’m not going to change, also your father instead is a bad parent because he’s too good (he isn’t, he acts like he needs to, not too strict but not too nice, and he seems to care about us way more than my mother ever did).”
@@isaacisis5876 i know its five months later but thanks for "rewording" it for me, english is not actually my first language. :)
I think the song is an ironic take of how, when you talk about parental abuse, people will often try and say something like “well at least it made you stronger”
or “it must’ve all worked out though, look where you are now!” implying that, because now you are happy and/or successful, you somehow deserved or needed the trauma and abuse in your life, and you should be glad for it.
when the singer says “i’m glad my daddy didn’t love me” I feel it really puts the nail in the coffin. it’s impossible to be happy that your parents don’t love you. you can never be happy for abuse and trauma in your life. you can grow, you can move on, you can get past it, but no one should ever feel like they deserved it or needed it to get to where they are. no one’s father should try to kill them.
everyone deserves a father who loves them, whether they’ve cured cancer or not.
your success in life is not a justification for the abuse others have dealt you.
tired beautiful analysis. I agree
I love u
U r the nicest person on this planet
It prolly doesn't mean much
But
I love u
Ur awesome
Ur a great human being
It’s like when people say “trauma made you grow and be a better person”
No trauma didn’t do that and neither did my abuser. It was myself who made me better.
I always liked when people told me "your abuse made you stronger" because they're right. I'm an extremely strong person. They're not saying that I deserved it, they're just trying to be positive, although the way they put it into words sounds questionable. I think people tend to take things too personally. People who don't understand will try to be positive but may come across as rude or inconsiderate because of their ignorance on what you've been through or who you are. But yeah, they can't continue saying that to others because not everyone will feel the same as I do about comments like that. They need to understand that they're romanticizing abuse and trauma by saying stuff like "kids who've been abused will grow up to be famous" and such.
I don't think that's what people mean when they say that
“Everything was going great, until my father, he tried to *kill me* “
*top 10 anime plot twist
Nah not really
Its more of a *well that took a dark turn*
Nope
That’s Actually What Happened But It Was My Fault.
This is such a fucking rollercoaster I have no idea what's going on I love it
Recommending Back When I Was 4, by Jeffrey Lewis. Just as odd tbh.
It really feels like a rollercoaster, the beginning is the chain lift and then when it gets fast is the big drop.
Yelling and hitting kids just because “you’re trying to make them stronger” or “my childhood was harder than theirs!” Isn’t a valid excuse. You don’t truly care about the child if you aren’t stopping the abuse cycle.
Normalize telling your parents “your trauma is not mine to handle” because I’m fucking tired of my mother holding the fact her dad hit her over my head.
Yea! It's not like its our fault thing could have been or should have been for them. What about what will happen for us?
Grow thicker skin yobbo
@@ghoskoe duly noted yobbo
Easier said than done champ
“You’re very talented.” Thanks, it’s the trauma
L E THANK YOUFOR UNDERSTANDING I LOVE YOU BEAUTIFUL PERSON!!!
"You're so considerate!!"
Thanks it's the emotional trauma
‘you’re so mature’
thanks it’s the trauma
You're so calm and independent!
Thanks to my trauma
"Thank you for the tragedy. I need it for my art." -Kurt Cobain
My father is mentally abusive.
He’s an alcoholic, narcissist, chain smoker.
It hurts. Like, a lot.
So, to all the people who are going through the same thing, or worse, or just don’t feel loved by their father, you’re great and strong. Hang in there buddy, it gets better.
me too! hope you're okay and get better!
You poor sweet human
i relate, but with my mother. my father is just neglectful n a smoking addict lmao
are you sure? it doesnt seem like it will any time soon
This is from a year ago but it will get better, it always does. I know how scary it is and I know I'm just a stranger on the internet but I'm proud of you and I hope things have gotten better for you.
Jeez, leave some life accomplishments for the rest of us lmao.
I was in the middle of crying and then I read this and I burst out laughing
Thanks for that, seriously
I think that the part where he says that his dad was going to die from old age, 'going on ninety', was a lie his mother told him because he was actually going to be executed .
Nova I believe they didnt mean he was going on ninety as in age but as in jail sentences
I thought they ment it as in 90mph
I thought it was a word for doing drugs or something
Daddy issues anthem
I know right. #sameshame
Tbh there's also a song literally called daddy issues
I don’t even know how to respond to this comment?
Let's all stand
No we already have that this is EXTREME daddy issues anthem.
The way that his voice cracks whenever he's singing it just provokes a primitive emotion in me, like he's desperate for something. It's very well done.
I take the meaning of this song in three interpretations:
1) none of these things happened to him, but the abuse, neglect and trauma made him think it did. Lines like "by the time that I was nine my daddy life was going to end/he was going on 90" could mean that his father was dead and distant to him, going on into the rest of his "achievements" that are really just from his insanity.
2) a commentary on how we boast children from bad situations. It's all over our media, pop or otherwise. Every story is about the average highschooler who had (x) happen to them and suddenly they're a hero. We see it in the news when children who starved all their lives invent ways to feed millions. It's almost like we're feeding kids to want to be the underdog because if you aren't your accomplishments are meaningingless
And 3) the plot of every bad fan fiction ever.
Anisten Dunsmore lmaoo 3 had me dead
Anisten Dunsmore i definitely do agree with the second one... like all those Instagram videos about celebs that had rough pasts...
Probably 2.) considering he’s never met his father and a lot of his stories about him are fictional.
www.punknews.org/amp/38094/interviews-sean-bonnette-andrew-jackson-jihad
lewisandhisblog.tumblr.com/post/10488345711/interview-andrew-jackson-jihad-92011
I love the second interpretation, I feel like that’s a huge issues we have with what kids today are taught. Fuck no you don’t want my problems you little idiots.
I think it's 3.
Yo whats up. buncha damaged people all gathering together to listen to some good music. My dad tried to kill me too.
Much love to all of you
Jesus Christ I'm just curious why everyone thinks you're coming back? I mean, we nailed you to a cross not a boomerang.
Your died literally made you to die. For all of his other kids..
Oh shoot hello
...i tried to kill my mom.... After she tried kill me...
Then it turns out she be a rapist so thats why im here which is digusting but its fine with me because now I'm here and i can fix her mess so....
Its actually kinda hilarious!
@Rosemary Mask
I am nearly 15, and my story is very similar to yours.
My mother moved away from my father to another province before she even knew she was pregnant with me, and I am not allowed to see my father until i am of legal age and can go and meet him on my own.
I have been told that he is a bad person, he has done bad things and has addictions and issues even with the family he has now.
I have never met him, not once. I only just learned his name recently.
My mother has told me that he knows I exist, but has never tried to see me. Sometimes I wonder if its because he knows it wont do anyone any good, or if he just doesnt care.
In my case however, I do not love him. I do not miss him, and as curious as I am I want nothing to do with him. He is a stranger, nothing more and nothing else.
Fortunately my mother met my stepfather, who raised me and the kids they had together up until i was about 7, then they parted.
Despite that he is a wonderful parent. He tries so hard to spend as much time as he can his 3 kids, even me. (We all live with my mother, as my stepdad has another family of his own now, and they have 5 kids - it would most likely be too stressful.) He is the absolute best, and im so damn glad my biological father never cared, otherwise I wouldnt have my brother and sisters, and I wouldnt be the person I am today.
Respect your mothers decisions, even if you do not agree. At a young age its hard to understand the reasoning behind the actions of others.
I promise you, good things will come. Beleive so, and be happy. Enjoy every day to your best ability.
“I wish my father loved me more” lmao honey don’t we all
*I Spilt My Tea-*
*No not really I have a step father now, and thats good enough for me 👌*
Oh mine was good! He even went to go get me some milk! But 13 years is a long time to get milk....
I wish my mother loved me more ;-;
This song kinda does depict how she thinks, she thinks being strict and pushing me to my limit to the point that just talking to her can cause me to break down crying will make me grow a successful or at least efficient person, talking about how it worked with my brothers-
And yeah, it worked, kinda (one of my bros got pretty well, the other one is still not totally okay) but by the wrong means. In this case it matters more how you do it than what you do.
We’re also all a little autistic (not my dad tho) aand I think what she does isn’t really a good method for neurodivergent people like us either-
My dad’s pretty chill actually, just a little absent (can’t blame him tho, with my mother at home-) or too intrusive (just for me tho, a normal person would like affection from dad, I’m just easily annoyed and physical touch with my family bothers me)
this comment feels so damn condescending. 'honey'??? really???
What a weird response to a song about child abuse
ive seen a lot of people talking about it being a sarcastic argument against parental abuse but i think there is also another part to this song. when i listen to it i feel a level of longing from the narrator as he still wants his father to love him even after all of the shit he did. this leads him to try and shift all of the awful things his dad did in a positive light so that he can hold onto the idea of a good father even though its in his head
I think that's an element a lot of people miss.
"And I can't help but miss him / even though he hit me every day / and he tried to hang me with a belt once"
Because that's how it is with abusive parents. They're fucking horrible to you, but it's just. It's so fucking hard to hate them. You still fucking miss them and love them, even though they were *horrible* to you. And sometimes you even understand the way they are and can empathize with them, because they went through shit no one should have to go through but they still *hit* you and they *beat* you and they left scars that you'll never be able to fully leave behind no matter how much you grow or how long they've been dead and it HURTS, it HURTS, it just fucking *HURTS,* and none of it makes any fucking sense.
I think he's trying to reason with himself that the trauma he suffered in the past was necessary for him to achieve larger goals and become a hero (think of the karma you see in most underdog movies)
When it doesn't actually change anything in the present, and he's just using the "good things are coming my way" thing as a coping method
it's amazing how a song with such simplistic lyrics can actually be so complex and have so many different meanings that all vary from interpretation to interpretation
The song makes sense. It’s talking about how people always say “the bad things happened to you for a reason.” It’s saying that that’s not always true. Sometimes there is nothing that makes up for all the fucked up shit that happens to you.
I kinda was in class listening to this song for the first time and when i heard the nude pictures part i had a mini panic attack. Hard hit feels man.
I feel that, dude. I couldn’t really hear what he said in that part, but I heard when he said “I’m glad he took those pictures of me” later on and going by the tone of the song, I instantly got a feeling of dread and anxiety.
I feel like this is a cry for help
Homestuck pfp
Youre the only homestuck ive seen here i just wanna see if im the only one does this song give you dave strider at all like
@@limebloodedleviathan IT FR DOES
It's so dave strider core
@@Jermer10 IM GLAD MY BROTHER DIDNT LOVE ME
a couple of things
when he says his father was pushing 90, he meant his father was pushing 90 years in prison
it was mentioned earlier that he was "doing time", therefore in prison
he died in prison
and when he mentions how he does all these huge things at a young age,
I feel that he's suggesting he lost his own mind, and convinces himself that he did all these things to cope with schizophrenia
he mentioned earlier in the song that his father was looking down on him from heaven, and it's clear his father was very critical of him, therefore he convinces himself he did such amazing things at a young age to cope with the schizophrenia he suffers with by believing his father is watching him and expecting him to do great things at a young age
and he's glad his father didn't love him because believing he's happy with that helps him cope with the trauma his father put him through, and putting that with his false belief he's done great things ties in that he's schizophrenic and thinks that his father never loving him helped him to achieve great things
that's just how I perceived this
Read the pinned comment.
It will make more sense
Soft Kitty where did the schizophrenia part come from though
Soft Kitty or it's just sarcastic to depict how society "romanticises" abuse into something that makes you a better person and gives you motivation in life when really it's just an awful thing that we need to stop
Soft Kitty it's actually maladaptive daydreaming disorder not schizophrenia
That's a valid theory, I choose to believe it was depicting how none of those things happened and he ultimately did nothing with the trauma and Criticism his father put him through.
ok but why did this end my depression
Madison Odom miracles happen man
mines still here
Woah.
I think thats because us people are so selfish. Ajj helped me out too, probably because I thought my life sucked and I was just idk horrible. But after listening to this I thought at least my daddy didnt took nude pics of my body but there is that one guy who actually get through that and he is still living, he is making music and if even that person can do it who am I to give up without half of his excuses to give up
Why did I cause mine
I like to genderbend this song because my biological mom is and was abusive af.
SLuci Heh same
same,, i feel like people take abuse from mothers so much less seriously than abuse from fathers,, i really hope ur in a better place now
if you don't mind me asking, what did you do about it? i'm going through that right now (abusive mom) and it's really fucking me up and i'm honestly losing hope.
Maybe you’d like this?
m.ua-cam.com/video/dipjEqqANek/v-deo.html
Cr4ck3r YESS
"Daddy didn't love me" but every time that the singer says something ridiculous the musicians mess up
(Also. I love this song . Great job, AJJ!)
Irina
I'd love to see that. Lol
I live in a stable home(s) with loving parents, even if they’re divorced, but just know that if you are or were suffering through a broken home, please know that I love you. Although I don’t know you, I still adore you; your flaws, your highlights, your appearance, and your overall presence for being on this wretched planet. You are so strong for going through what’s going on.
Thank you for being here. Please, get that through your mind. You are so loved, even by complete strangers over the internet. This goes for anybody, even if you’re not living through the trauma of an abusive home.
Every time I hear this song again it reminds of the first time I listened to it. How the lyrics aided me in the realisation that the trauma I had to go through isn’t what made me strong or brave. That was me, that was my hard work, and my strength should never be attributed to an abuser.
What I survived didn’t give me anything except CPTSD and a shitty childhood. There is no silver lining to it.
I know we all love an underdog story with a happy ending, but its just not widely realistic. If anything, this expectation just puts unwarranted pressure on the survivor. I know it did me, whether I knew it at the time or not. I felt like I had to do something big & impressive, just to give back what was already taken from me. I wanted a reason for why it happened, to make up for it so I could be ‘worthy’ again.
I know I wasn’t alone in this fucked mindset, but I’ve healed and am healing. lets just say EMDR therapy is very much worth it ;] sorry for the ramble i think its time for bed goodnight
*TLDR: whatever doesn’t kill you doesn’t make you stronger, it just gives you trauma lol*
Everytime this gets me so emotional and sad,,
I relate to this song so much, having an abusive father and a mother that wasn't always there for me. When I was younger my dad, being 6'3 and me, at the time, far shorter, choked me with a belt, putting it around my neck and slinging the belt over his shoulder, aswell as having beat me several times. And even now that he is far gone out of my life I can't stop myself from missing him. I've always felt like I was done dirty or given a bad hand of cards in life, and I still find myself struggling to overcome the physchological trauma. I just really wish he had wanted me.
Have you try to talk to him? Because sometimes it’s better to leave them..asshole like that don’t Deserve love from a child
My father tried to choke me once as well and he's beaten me several times for negligible things like not picking up the phone or coming home 15-20 minutes late. He still beats me and I don't know, but I can literally see the hatred for me in his eyes. I don't know what I've done to deserve such hatred. But I know he's a major asshole because he could never be a good father or even a husband. He threatens to leave home if my mother ever takes my side and at regular intervals tells us that we're living our lives on his money and we don't deserve to have an opinion. It's horrible.
@@luna8613 I can't believe I commented this a year ago! Crazy how time flies. But I'm sixteen now and I've been taking more time to better help myself in terms of mental health. Even now I find that there are many setbacks that I face, such as the stresses of school and the other kids that attend it, as well as the stress of trying to find something I'm truly passionate about. But I can also say with complete confidence that things have and will get better, and I hope that they are able to get better for you as well! If you ever want someone to talk to or just an open ear feel free to talk to me any time!
@@Jovanist It's good to know that things have gotten better for you! I hope some day it gets easier for me too. I'm planning to move out of my house soon, really want it to work. Thank you so much for being such a sweetheart!
I'm really sorry for that. I don't have to deal with any of that since I have an amazing mom and dad that love me a lot and never hurt me and support me an insane amount. I wish other people like you were able to feel as much love as I do from my parents. It makes me feel guilty for having good parents and others don't have as good parents that live them. I wish you were able to have a good childhood as I had
a lot of people think that you'll end up successful because of your trauma, but in truth people end up succeeding *despite* their trauma, not because of it.
Happy father's day everyone
Imagine tik tok finding this and povs would be awfully terrifying
I'm seeing a lot of theories about the meaning of this song so I'll throw my own out there: None of the things he is saying are true. The words are meant to parody the inspirational stories we hear so often about people and their tragic backstories. Why? Perhaps he is saying that people who tell their stories benefit greatly with regards to media attention, sponsorships, and opportunities. Maybe he is saying he wishes something terrible would have happened to him because 1) he thinks it would give him an advantage in life OR 2) He would be able to relate to these people, instead of just feeling sorry for them.
This is too real and relatable
up until 0:55
scarily that's the most relatable part for me
wolfdoggo the oter OMG Im sorry
MishaAckles the pizza man it's a real thing that happens
Harley Quinn my half brother raped and beat the fuck out of me when I was 13 years old
wolfdoggo the oter Tell me when it gets better, please.
the lines about how he's glad his dad didn't love him, hurt him, etc hits especially hard into the meaning. how the people who have built their careers and popularity off of their childhood trauma are ultimately glad for their experience but only because they became someone. but at the end of the day he didn't become anyone and he's still traumatized.
It feels like he is singing this after running a lot and been crying for a while,his voice sounds so desperate and broken.It's perfect wow
Throughout the whole song, I love how the singer just sounds closer and closer to breaking down and crying
This may have been the most upbeat depressing song out there
Oh god-
AJJ will always be one of my favorite artists.
He controls his voice so well, and sides voice cracks in such a beautiful way.
Not just that, but he handles such horrible topics in a great way, he doesn’t try to be optimistic, And doesn’t feel like he should have to censor his songs from bad things, bad things happen.
:)
I have a weird feeling about this songs, like, I don't really like them, but I can't stop listening to them...
"You're so considerate!"
Thanks, it's from me growing up with the constant fear of upsetting people causing them to hate me!
I have a friend who is only 12 and he was in almost the same situation with him. His dad got deported and my friend has made multiple suicide attempt s, with his mother not doing much to try and stop him. He recently told me that he likes me and i don't know what i should do.... I am scared for him.
Sorry for my english, is not my mother-language
Try to say him that he's not alone. Life can be beautiful. Just try to make him laugh and smile. Suicide is not a solution. I tried too to kill myself. It's not okay. Just try to understand him.
Maybe it sounds weird, but try to pray for him. I believe God exists. Just try.
Why r u scared of him..?
Just out of curiosity.. so i can try to understand the situation better
Pineapple The weirdo , no more scared for him, i dunno
if he ever comes with you wanting to talk about it, try not to give him "solutions." Sometimes you just need someone to talk to. Just support him and show him he's not alone.
Fuck sorry, if u like him go for it, make him feel like hes the best in the world. BUT if u dont and only as a friend, dont pretend to love him romanticly it will only hurt him more in the aftermath’s
i literally have listened to this on repeat for the past hour im thriving
Same
Its a banger
this song is nice why am i crying
YOUR MUSUC TASTE IS PERFECT AAAA I LOVE THIS WHOLE CHANNEL
I'm gonna put my two sense into this finally lol
My interpretation is that he was obviously abused by is parent physically and probably verbally too. Once the kid grows up he "achieves" greatness, solving big problems and making up for the love and attention he never got when he was younger. He knows in the back of his mind that his trauma didn't help fix world wide problems, but its better to believe that something bad in his life was finally made up by adoration from the public. He goes back to saying he's glad his daddy didn't love him, but deep down he's probably still waiting for exceptence.
This song almost replicates the media, and how they talk about celebrities bad past when they were younger acting like that's why they are famous now. Trying to push this narrative that you have to go through this breakdown or trauma to really make it. When in reality people usually don't get this outcome, they live out their lives with no luck redemption. Living with their problems, walking eating sleeping without ever feeling like the accomplished anything.
The media romanticize mental illnesses and trauma, thinking your cool and quirky for having problems. In reality mental illness and trauma stops kids or adults for experiencing a lot of things, its not this cool personality trait you want. People live with struggles and others either romanticize it, call bullshit on it or make it sound like it makes you better than other people.
Moral of the story, don't try to make our trauma and illness something that makes us better, because it doesn't.
found it 10 min ago. Already on loop
Lmaoo happy fathers day
King BuggaBoo lmao cheers 🍻
Saved to my agressive trauma playlist
I subscribed to your aggressive trauma playlist
ajj always sounds so raw and genuine with so much emotion like damn-
ayo youtube reccomandations had no business reminding me of my daddy issues
Y’all, the song’s about how he actually achieved shit after he was free from the struggling grasp of his traumatic childhood caused by his father. The things didn’t happen, of course, it’s truly just exaggeration to show more emotion. It’s just that he started to succeed with that burden and that he grew from knowing the knowledge of what hell feels like. (From experience)
Also stop demonizing schizophrenia in the comment section, that ain’t how it work. (Also experience)
Oof yea
how are they demonising schizophrenia? i probably haven’t seen the same comments you have
@@Stephanie-lk5jf cant remember- betting the top comments were different a year ago or something
He sounds like he’s on the verge of a breakdown and singing to get rid of stress
I can't relate to this song but I love the beat and lyrics
emotionally unstable it's Okay, you don't want to relate to this song. It's a sad reality for those of us who do 😂
Raleigh Perko It Really Is 😂
Lol same bruh
Same
Me too. I can't really relate at all, but I feel bad for those who do. I don't have a say in this. I have a good life.
UA-cam putting this in my recommendations is a call out
i understand the fear and pain and anger in his voice with the music. I love it.
"Dad, I'm telling you, 8 is too late for an abortion. I don't care what Fox News says..."
I hate how people say trauma helps people become stronger or more compassionate. It literally does the opposite
Meh ? I hate how toxic that thought is..
giorno Giovanna speaking from experience buddy
Trauma forever keeps you thinking everyone is gonna do what they did. You can never truly trust people, you can never truly let your guard down, you can be happy and have so many friends that love you. But you will always wonder why the people that made you, couldn't.
Man this song is sad...if it is what I think it's about...a boy taking drugs and hallucinating (thinking he can do a bunch of outlandish things), because of an abusive father.
muquesko Toksis idk but my interpretation was that all those things like making his first million and being champion of the world was him recovering and coming to terms with his father, and growing, not really hallucinating
That could be, it could go both ways.
no its him saying that he didnt change the world, he didnt cured cancer, nothing made up for the things his father had done to him, he learned to live with it
This reminds of a TV show called Patrick Melrose. Definitely would recommend made me cry my heart out
He was sentenced to 90 years and probably applied for death row
I don't understand... How did I even get here...
I don't either.
Ahna Jenerou same XD
Same
Me and you both
Honestly-
"everything was going great, until my father, he tried to kill me"
*Well* *that* *took* *a* *dark* *turn*
The way he says world at 1:25 is so nice
Where the hell do you find these songs, space queen?
Kali. i have my ways 👀👀
space queen mysterious ways o.o
Maybe because Andrew Jackson Jihad are a very well known and amazing folk punk band 👀👀
they just find good songs.
My interpretation of this song is that he misses his dad so much he thinks of him differently, for instance saying hes glad for him being abused because it got him places and that his dad was doing it for him, like hes so desperate for a father figure he misconjoins his fathers personality with a caring man. Saying his dad did it to make him better is easier then facing the fact he was like that. Him saying he cured cancer and all may be small actual accomplishments in his life like cooking or drawing but the weight on his shoulders makes him feel like they are huge tasks just lingering over him, as well as his innocence as a child-there is a huge weight he carrys with him
I couldn't remember the name of this song!I'm so happy that I found it!
This has so many emotions in it wow. I freaken love it.
“You’re pretty funny” thanks, it’s the unresolved childhood trauma 💅
Just by this comment i can already tell you're not funny
"By the time I was ten my dad's life was goin' to end because he was going on ninety." His father was 80 when he had him?
The Crazy Man Thing Nextdoor i think he meant 90 years in prison
Spooky Scary Skeletor Oh that makes sense thank ya
Spooky Scary Skeletor no because the song says his dad was in heaven by the time he was 11
I think he might have meant that he was 11 in his head. cause later he becomes president, and you have to be over 18 (i think) to be president,
Prehistoric Pasta he was exaggerating.
I'm also glad my daddy didn't love me
:.It's ok To die .: same
😢
This song hits different, especially when I’m in my usual funk like tonight. Sometimes I wonder if my father ever loved me at all; why would he disown me when I was clearly struggling with depression? Why did he never reach out to me during those days, to see if I was okay or even alive? The confusion and pain still comes back sometimes, wondering if I wasn’t good enough or useful enough to be loved. I know better these days, that my value isn’t tied to those things and all I can do is keep living and telling myself that I didn’t deserve the treatment I received, even if it feels like a lie during these depressive episodes.
I hope we all eventually overcome these awful physical, mental, and/or emotional scars our parents left on us, because there’s always hope for a better future.
It's nice to not be alone in this.
ahhhh i love it
My dad hurt me but I still miss him. Thank you for making this song.
so glad my dad is philza minecraft
i feel like its a bad time listening to this on father's day.... oh well.
This song makes me so emotional but happy for some reason. It's like you could let your shitty past hold you down or you could use it as motivation to be stronger.
I'm sorry to be "that" person but the song is depicting the opposite of what you think. The person singing is saying what media thinks happens if you go through trauma but really he just has to deal with it and never really makes anything good out of it. This can be seen because he says when he was 13 he was president but that's impossible just like everything else he said.
yeah its sarcastic. im so glad daddy didnt love me cuz it helped me become thr president of the world at age 14. the message i get is that he may have liked a little more parental love?
I love ajj
My father was abused by his mother, who was a drug addict, and she kicked him out in his teen years. Sometime in his life he met my mother and well... I happened. He stabbed two people before i was born and is now in prison until age 50-51. I wish i knew him even though i know he probably would've abused me, And i have felt an empty feeling in my life everyday of my life.
Liz well maybe you can meet him when you get older (if he is still in prison) or maybe he regrets for the things he did or his father side would make him more soft to you. Even tho he is not there is still a change.
Liz I wish you the best honey♡
I never got to meet my father, he just suddenly dissappeared when I was 1, he's left me with all sorts of identity problems and I hate when people tell me I look just like him. I don't want to look like him. I'm pretty sure he would have neglected me or abused me as he didn't truly love me, he liked getting attention off women when I was around him. And I'm pretty sure he didn't go mising, I think he ran off with another woman.
Your not the only one to grow up without a father and miss them even though you know they wouldn't have been good to you.
I hope you find him someday
if i could listen to any song for the first time again, this would be that song. nothing will every recreate the whiplash and awe i felt the first time i heard this
And that's fucking AJJ, isn't it? Fucking strikes you across the face and shoves your skull into a wall so hard all your traumas come rolling out.
what an ironic lovely song
happy father's day eve, daddy issues community ✨
If you're like me and tried to listen to this on spotify but couldn't find it, it's because on spotify it's just called "daddy" and not "daddy didn't love me". I might be the only one who struggled with this problem lol
I was not prepared for the feels trip.
i both hate and love this song. this song makes me recognize all of my traumas and i hate it because i want it to get out of my head. tired of people saying that im stronger now since ive been through those. nothing changed, im not stronger, im still sensitive even if i dont seem like it. i want to wipe the memories away and i just want everyone to shut up. but i love the song for the beat and how the meaning behind it can be interpreted from different angles. trying to solve the meaning makes me distracted from actual problems i have which makes me so happy. i know ignoring those problems dont help, but i have nothing else to do to help. so i listen to music like these, it mentally smacks me in the head with big bold words. *im not going through this alone* and i have others who are willing to help and i willing to help them. im happy to have met such amazing people that help me go through all my trauma.
I blared this song at an elementary school once...because kids wondered what I listened to (we all shared music when I tutored them, for a project). No one appreciated the "AND HE TOOK NUDE PHOTOS OF MY BODY!" part.
So worth it.
The first two verses... literally me.. but my dad loves me... he’s just schizophrenic and use to get beat by his dad and also emotionally abused... he raised me on his own since my mom left me when I was a few weeks old. She left me in the crib home alone and dad got home from work.. he did his best. I stopped the beatings at age 17 and told him if he ever laid his hands on me again I’ll break his wrists. Lmao we are good now though 🤘🏻
When people say "everything bad that's happened has led you to where you are, so be thankful for it" I just think of this song and how fucked that logic is
i think its about how some trauma doesnt go rewarded like in the movies and in books
I wish this was longer this just hits dudes
bro , this hits too close to home. Literally at age 8 he was serving time. Age 10 he was about to die (from a fire and old age) Age 11 my father passed away. He did bad things but I really can’t help but miss him.
I have never experienced anything like this but this song gave me the chills because you can hear how damaged the experience made him. I'm sorry to everyone who had to go through stuff like this and truly hope your lives get better.
THAT “i” HE SAID IS MAGICAL
Pretty sure daddy isn’t looking down from the clouds…
It sounds so desperate and frantic and heartbreaking omg
“ so I’m glad my daddy didn’t love me “ I relate to this more then I thought
the whole song, his word seemed strained and hollow, laced with sarcasm.
He didn't do any of those great things, and even if it did, it's highly unlikely it wasnt because of that trauma.
I don't know why, but I imagine at the end when he's talking about his accomplishments, it's actually him playing pretend and boasting on the internet, and at the guitar solo he's actually like playing a guitar in front of a camp fire and a boy sits next to him and they hold hands :)
Also I don't live with a father who doesn't love me, but sometimes it feels like it because aside from bringing me to his place for his birthday last month, he hasn't visited since he moved out. And sometimes, I wish he treated me the way he treats my brother, just so my brother wouldn't feel neglected. My father does abuse my brother, and he's too stubborn to realize it when called out. So they just don't talk anymore. My brother is thirteen going on fourteen.