Unbelievable. I found someone who feels this way too. I actually feel like this video was made to try to get me to continue believing I'm not being watched. As I'm typing this, I feel like I'm being watched. It has destroyed my life. I cant accept help because I believe I'm being lied to. I cant escape this feeling. I cant even be naked in my own room without feeling it. I want to die so badly but I dont have the balls to do it. I literally teared up while watching you say exactly how I feel. I will sometimes feel comfort because I never feel alone which makes it worse. I would do anything to shake this feeling. My mind is literally arguing with itself all the time and it causes me to be depressed. I've tried to get help but no one seems to know how to fix this. It truly is a mental hell.
Have you gone to therapy? I had this before and it went away. I think smoking weed induced this with a derealization disorder. It went away a few months after I stopped smoking weed.
youre not in the truman show because the truman show would never be popular in real life, life is way too hardcore and sexual to have advertisements. Remember, TV only makes money through advertising. So they have to make something way more entertaining in order to get eyes on products.
How are you doing bro? I literally just read a 4 year old post of yours detailing your: "paranoid fantasties"(,and I use quotations to say IDK what your personal Truth is friend). How is your life? How is your: mind, social life, will to live, and thinking patterns? I suffer from a lot of mental disorders. Delusions are a big type; tho, for Mme, those delusions were basically grandfathered in with *Folie a Deux,* and a criminal family. I just saw your post as a cry for help, and I wanted to check up on you; cause I can fuckin' relate!
I read recently somewhere that allowing yourself to face the fear of change in order to grow is a form of self love. So you're already on track Jonny. You're not alone with those thoughts. Thank you for your videos.
I as well as all the others who follow you can relate to all of your struggles and trials as posted in this video. Your childhood memories are like mine so much. This illness SED is a cruel and tormenting illness and it can ruing ones life as it has mine. I so love to see your videos because it lets me know that I and so many others are going through similar issues with SED. I have delusions that are so strong at times that I am famous and that I am almost like a movie star or that I am famous for being wealthy although I have no money. IT is a strange illness and seeing this latest video lets me know I am not alone.
Hi I've had a history of severe mental illness but managed to get better and no longer take any medication, work part time 2 jobs and actually enjoy my life with my girlfriend and look forward to the future. If you'll like some ideas on how to get better here's a link to my short essay Link: media.yoism.org.s3.amazonaws.com/CakeTheory.pdf Also I've also done some videos on my channel explaining why psychiatry is fraud.
This does resonate with me, I too have synchronicities and have SZA depressive type. i think we need to value ourselves. i still struggle with being "insignificant" and trying to be liked and impress people and I'm 59 now! Thank you for your videos, they are honest and truthful and helpful to many people.
Thank you for posting this... this happened to me a lot... i just had an episode that lasted a year.... everyday was a nightmare for me..... i didn't know anyone else suffered as much as me...
With the higher technology, it is harder to resist with the algorithm and everything. Recently, I met someone new and with the thoughts back in my head 'would this guy be another actor', I tried to be opened about my struggle until when he made the joke, 'I read the script and...' I was very panicking and left the place couldn't even think where I was going, couldn't look at people straight and was in full of fear... I get your words 100%
You’re such a sweetheart I want to give you a hug! Thanks for sharing. People and life are complicated ey? But we’re all more similar than we think. Most of us are worried about ourselves and how we come across, but really humans love authenticity... not any set behaviour or ways of acting... but just simple authenticity... and that’s why we love your videos. On a side note... for all these things the mind spurs up... I like meditation and self compassion practises. And things that get me out of my head because there are unlimited stories and worlds that can emerge from my mind, which is beautiful, but I need to make sure I don’t hang out there too long or add fuel to the fire. So I try to return to my body. Nature also helps me ground. Peace out xoxo
It's funny how you say "I'm a nobody," but really you're known to a lot of people. Maybe not as an actor, but as a mental health campaigner. A vlogger. A writer. Someone deserving of an MBE, and just an all-around genuine guy (which I think is really what draws people to you).
Carol Pilbasian you're right about everything except when you said that he is genuine and that draws people to him implying that it is important to have people like you. that thought is a disease. No one is more significant than the other. therefore it doesn't make you better if 20 people like you vs 0 people. If you don't first love yourself then it doesn't matter if you are famous and loved by everyone. You are not better than those who love you and they aren't better than you. You are equally as insignificant as those who love you, even if you are famous and worshipped by people that you have never and will never meet. We are all people and need to stop being so hard on each other. Love yourself. The people that you are typically "drawn to" don't give a fuck what people think about them because they are secure with themselves. That is what makes them have seemingly better lives and experiences. It's because their ego has been destroyed in the best way possible.
Man, yes, you are in a big Truman Show, but here everything happens by you not to you. You are the actor, the crew and the film director. You are great, you are awesome, a hero...Own it! And just one advice, to find peace of mind around other I focus deeply in my body, the more focused, grounded and centered in my body I am, less energy is left for the stupid narrative in my head to on and on. Much love!
You never have been and never will be a nobody. You are one of the few authentic people on social media. You do the videos to raise awareness and help people. You do the videos because maybe it helps you. You are truly beautiful inside and out and I wish you could believe that and believe that who you are is just fine and more than good enough. Love you xxx
When you learn to love yourself that's when others can learn to love you. It's hard I know I'm still working on it ten years later. But the reality is you don't have to be liked in order to have a happy life. Just be you, your a beautiful gentleman
Jonny, you are not alone and you are very well liked by your community. I thoroughly enjoy watching your videos because I can heavily relate to you and you make me feel less alone in this big scary world. What you described about kind of predicting things and them happening is something I struggle with on a daily basis. It freaks me out but I must remain calm because I know in the end that it mustn't be real, right? I am inspired by your strength to tell your stories and I appreciate you and your existence. You are a really swell person :)
Hi 've had a history of severe mental illness but managed to get better and no longer take any medication, work part time 2 jobs and actually enjoy my life with my girlfriend and look forward to the future. If you'll like some ideas on how to get better here's a link to my short essay Link: media.yoism.org.s3.amazonaws.com/CakeTheory.pdf Also I've also done some videos on my channel explaining why psychiatry is fraud.
I totally know what you're going through... it's always there. I try my best to just ignore it but it's so hard to do it. The substance use and how it left the damage on my brain, it is taking so much longer to recover from it than I expected. It's like when you look back the memories and the people came into your life and how they helped you to grow, it should just feel like to the extent of 'natural' but I tended to put so much more meaning, as if I'm being looked after, like that there is a script in my life that people are trying to make me follow... that part of my brain is damaged and it is really hard to control that part of my brain from the substance use. Now I'm well on my recover over 2 years but I really want to go back to the days when I don't put so much meaning into things. The description of what I feels like having that syndrome is... hard... like, no one will ever understand unless they felt them. Every relapse gets me that world that feels like the Truman show, telling me and hearing things and seeing things all the little things that I'm doing wrong. like EVERYTHING...
I'm sorry. That sounds tough. But well done on being in recovery for over 2 years. That's a huge achievement. I hope you feel proud of yourself for that. Keep working on yourself. I am. It gets better
In the end who cares what people think about you. As long as you have a good heart, good intentions, won't hurt yourself/others. People are scared of what they don't understand. You're not alone man. Have a good support group and always listen to yourself/be yourself.
Thank you for this. I tried meth a couple times, and had no one to tell me that this was a thing. I'm just now (7 mos later) realizing it wasn't true. Don't do drugs, kids.
i used to have this thought a lot when i was a kid. i felt like i was an alien that was captured or something, or that everyone else was mundane and i was just so much more interesting then them that they were secretly filming me. i had never seen the truman show, im not even sure it was out at that point, but that feeling wasnt uncommon when i was little. as i got older it just sort of stopped popping up. thank you for posting this, id always wondered if anyone else had that thought.
I want to hug you so tight I've gone through so much of the same stuff you have and you're just amazing You're a sign for me at least that I'm going to survive and it will eventually be okay Thank you so much you're amazing
Thank you for sharing your thoughts in such an open way. It struck me that you spoke about your "true self" being relaxed and uninhibited which I found fascinating because most of us strive to achieve this, often without success. You feel that you are not liked or respected but I can assure you that a vast number of people, more than you realise, both like and respect you. As you have become more famous, with your massively deserved MBE inevitably there are some ignorant and insecure people who will be jealous of the respect and admiration that you have earned. It's a type of bullying and as we know from the work by ditch the label we realise that they are the people with the problem, not you. Look after yourself, feel the love for you and I hope one day to meet you and give you a big hug for all of the incredible work you do to support so many other people. :)
I read most of the comments, how they all said they related to you in someway or another and I guess I'm just another one of those comments. The way you act, the way you perceive things, the way you feel and your thoughts and actions are so similar. I suffer from psychotic episodes and extreme paranoid delusions. I cannot relate specifically to the truman delusion you are experiencing but I know how it feels to wholly and solely believe in something, so much that it is your reality. Its 2019 now, so I am a bit late, but I hope you're doing well now.
You stated what you want and need yourself: "I have to love myself." There are many people who love you, most of them from afar, who only wish that they had the chance to be close to you. Believe this: YOU ARE ENOUGH! You are already worthy of love. Say it to yourself every day with arms raised.
Thanks for the posting Johnny. I also did enjoy the Truman Show delusion, and other films as well as for example Matrix. Films that keep you thinking about people and our reality. In any case :) I am sure that people like you not because you are famous but because how you are, your true self, although as you comment, there is no not need to get other people validation, just be yourself. Best regards, and looking forward for your next post.
My brother it's like you're speaking through me word for word I literally cannot thank you enough...damn man like let's fkn grab a beer sometime lol would definitely like to talk more about this I thank you for this peace you've brought me. Much love from Colombia
Hey Jonny, been following you for a few years now...just watched you on The One Show 👏👏👏👍👍 Great job, Your Awsome, well done getting across the message we all want to shout out- just because its invisible its still there, We are ill but we WILL get through it x
I had the Truman delusion in high school as well. I guess it made things a little easier. I still have them sometimes usually when I go out. Now a days though I fully know it is not true while it’s happening.
The signs are the hardest thing to ignore . Even if I tell myself that they are the delusional thoughts there is the other voice that says” mmm but are you sure?”
I also have the Truman Show delusion. I've been in treatment for sometime now. And it never seems to matter how well my symptoms are managed, it never really goes away. The synchronicities certainly don't help. It is very confusing. It's hard to compartmentalize.
I never had the Truman show delusion, nor am I schizoaffective but I completely relate to that feeling of wanting people to know the real me and the frustration of not being able to convey that socially.
Sometimes i think about what if im a reality star, and think about what if everyone is watching me. But its not often i thunk about it. It just crosses my mind. I wander how it would be if i thought about it day and night. That would be stressful
Hi Jonny. I'm not sure what advice I can offer you but I just wanted to comment to offer my support and to say thank you for the video - I'm sure lots of people can relate to this. Much love, Elizabeth xxx
To twine own self be true....such a little statement, but oh so hard to do. Stay strong, you help so many people. I hope that you can find peace. You are enough.
I never sought any fame or anything like that but I too once temporarily suffered from "the Truman show syndrome" Fortunately it was only precipitated by substance use, however it was still very unusual for someone to become as delusional as I was. It only lasted a few hours but it wasn't pleasant, I haven't believed it that strongly ever since but once in a while I wonder about it... It's unfortunate (for you) that you actually WANT to be on the Truman show, because it's harder to rid yourself of a delusion that you want to believe. I myself am afraid of the idea of being the center of the worlds attention, I'm afraid that people wouldn't accept me, that I'd be too different. So if I were told that I'm not on it, it would be a relief.
I think I suffer from it too, like in high school I'll just look up into a corner of the room and talk to myself. I somewhat enjoy it, is that strange?
I know you posted this ages ago but I find it strange that I find so many similarities between our thinking, yet I'm not diagnosed as schizoaffective. I've only really been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but do have delusions and paranoia. I've experienced this greatly, in the past. You link everything up, all the 'signs', all of the intricate details and make a story, believe that they HAVE to mean something, they DO mean something. How could they NOT? You think it's preposterous for yourself, or another, to believe otherwise. And you wonder, how can 'so and so' not have recognised this, or seen it, or put the pieces together. You obsess over it constantly and it drives you to pure irritation. I never understood why other people never got 'fixed' on the same things I was fixed on. I know that you have symptoms of depression and anxiety, so I suppose it makes sense for me to find deep similarities, but I wonder if there's something I haven't been diagnosed with. Hope you are doing well J x
For some people it is but for others it might just be an 'episode'. I think it will be a lifetime battle for me. But things like therapy have been and continue to be extremely helpful!
Jonny, In time you will come to love yourself, like others love you. Your videos are vital to the wider community and around the world to educated people on such a complex subject. People love you for this.You do more than an actors do. How many actors have portrayed people with bipolar, schizophrenia etc well? They mislead the wider community on these subject. You are still trying to sort life out. It comes out like the truman show and maybe for others the matrix, as people like you think on a higher level. Sometimes we just need to stop and smell the roses, not analyse them. You have a calling in life. Sorry it not an easy one. Maybe the only person ever to be honest enough to educated people so well on a very complex subject. Big things are istall for you, a different kind of fame.
Is it really a delusion? I have the same problem but it doesn't make sense for it to be a delusion. I'm not schizophrenic or bi polar so how could I be experiencing delusions? Am I in a tv show or what?
could just be under government surveillance like i am. ALL of us are being watched though....even those watching you! Gangstalking....organized stalking....dont mind the mindless sheeple...some people simply ALWAYS do what they're told....no backbone, no heart, no integrity....slave to this world....could be something else too...TRUST YOURSELF ONLY
Fuck me, this is what I have. Still believe it right now. I think your video is a trick just to make me think its not real lol Always in two minds about it. i;veonly ever told about 3 people and they sort of just laughed and went "yea" not really getting it. What do I do?
Brother it is something real! We are in some type of play, simulation we are actors. I am a clairvoyant and medium miguel zalaquett, it is real it is no coincidence I am here writing you this message your not alone it is a spiritual awakening and your third eye open on parallel realities, you are connected outside of the third dimension
thanks for making this video, its really interesting. however i guess the fact that your alive is proof that your not too famous, because the really famous have no shortage of crazy people who would like to kill them. humans are so fucked up sometimes..... judging by how you are in this video, you make a great host for this YT channel though. :D
LMAO u were a ti who fell for the meme, weak perception but honestly in a sense it is worth for u I suppose if u got into a relationship, got a job, friends etc, but for me I’m gonna end it 🗿
I'm not sure what you mean by end it but i hope you are ok. Remember there is love and healing out there. It's a cold, cruel world but there are good people in it who can help us through the most difficult parts of life.
@@mrjonnybenjamin if u personally believe there is no trueman esque system in place and u personally feel u have a better life then u should continue what u are doing but in the end there is indeed a type of system in place with the same undertones that the movie was trying to portray. I’m not going to convince you otherwise.
Rush: limelight. I go thru same everyday. I can feel the eyes on me. But I was told by a narcissist thats because I'm a narcissist. All signs seem to point that we all are in reality TV show. Way too many coincidences
What if you're not delusional, what if it's not an illusion? Have you heard of targeted individuals? If you've felt this way for quite some time, it's possible likely even that you may be one of the millions of people targeted around the globe. You might consider educating yourself on the subject (targeted individuals & gangstalking) it might Enlighten you. It's a VERY REAL thing. GBY 💜
I can send you the videos I've taken. And how the doctors/people/family in this town have been treating me. AND YOU TELL ME THAT WHAT I AM FUCKING EXPERIENCING IS A FUCKING DELUSION
You're not just liked you're LOVED. 'For God so loved the world, as to give his only begotten Son; that whosoever believeth in him, may not perish, but may have life everlasting.' When you discover who you are in Christ and what he went through just so you could be a part of His kingdom.. everyone else's opinion goes out the window. You're a blood bought child of God. All you need to do is accept the offer of eternal life. Praying for you :)
Unbelievable. I found someone who feels this way too. I actually feel like this video was made to try to get me to continue believing I'm not being watched. As I'm typing this, I feel like I'm being watched. It has destroyed my life. I cant accept help because I believe I'm being lied to. I cant escape this feeling. I cant even be naked in my own room without feeling it. I want to die so badly but I dont have the balls to do it. I literally teared up while watching you say exactly how I feel. I will sometimes feel comfort because I never feel alone which makes it worse. I would do anything to shake this feeling. My mind is literally arguing with itself all the time and it causes me to be depressed. I've tried to get help but no one seems to know how to fix this. It truly is a mental hell.
Have you gone to therapy? I had this before and it went away. I think smoking weed induced this with a derealization disorder. It went away a few months after I stopped smoking weed.
I hope you got help. This is a treatable condition that you can recover from. Don’t kill yourself.
Seek Jesus and he will comfort you
youre not in the truman show because the truman show would never be popular in real life, life is way too hardcore and sexual to have advertisements. Remember, TV only makes money through advertising. So they have to make something way more entertaining in order to get eyes on products.
How are you doing bro? I literally just read a 4 year old post of yours detailing your: "paranoid fantasties"(,and I use quotations to say IDK what your personal Truth is friend). How is your life? How is your: mind, social life, will to live, and thinking patterns?
I suffer from a lot of mental disorders. Delusions are a big type; tho, for Mme, those delusions were basically grandfathered in with *Folie a Deux,* and a criminal family. I just saw your post as a cry for help, and I wanted to check up on you; cause I can fuckin' relate!
I love how authentic you are Jonny and how you articulate things so clearly. Stay strong we all love you.
I read recently somewhere that allowing yourself to face the fear of change in order to grow is a form of self love. So you're already on track Jonny.
You're not alone with those thoughts. Thank you for your videos.
I as well as all the others who follow you can relate to all of your struggles and trials as posted in this video. Your childhood memories are like mine so much. This illness SED is a cruel and tormenting illness and it can ruing ones life as it has mine. I so love to see your videos because it lets me know that I and so many others are going through similar issues with SED. I have delusions that are so strong at times that I am famous and that I am almost like a movie star or that I am famous for being wealthy although I have no money. IT is a strange illness and seeing this latest video lets me know I am not alone.
Hi I've had a history of severe mental illness but managed to get better and no longer take any medication, work part time 2 jobs and actually enjoy my life with my girlfriend and look forward to the future. If you'll like some ideas on how to get better here's a link to my short essay Link: media.yoism.org.s3.amazonaws.com/CakeTheory.pdf Also I've also done some videos on my channel explaining why psychiatry is fraud.
This does resonate with me, I too have synchronicities and have SZA depressive type. i think we need to value ourselves. i still struggle with being "insignificant" and trying to be liked and impress people and I'm 59 now! Thank you for your videos, they are honest and truthful and helpful to many people.
Thank you for posting this... this happened to me a lot... i just had an episode that lasted a year.... everyday was a nightmare for me..... i didn't know anyone else suffered as much as me...
How did you get over it? Im scared
With the higher technology, it is harder to resist with the algorithm and everything. Recently, I met someone new and with the thoughts back in my head 'would this guy be another actor', I tried to be opened about my struggle until when he made the joke, 'I read the script and...' I was very panicking and left the place couldn't even think where I was going, couldn't look at people straight and was in full of fear... I get your words 100%
You’re such a sweetheart I want to give you a hug! Thanks for sharing. People and life are complicated ey? But we’re all more similar than we think. Most of us are worried about ourselves and how we come across, but really humans love authenticity... not any set behaviour or ways of acting... but just simple authenticity... and that’s why we love your videos. On a side note... for all these things the mind spurs up... I like meditation and self compassion practises. And things that get me out of my head because there are unlimited stories and worlds that can emerge from my mind, which is beautiful, but I need to make sure I don’t hang out there too long or add fuel to the fire. So I try to return to my body. Nature also helps me ground. Peace out xoxo
It's funny how you say "I'm a nobody," but really you're known to a lot of people. Maybe not as an actor, but as a mental health campaigner. A vlogger. A writer. Someone deserving of an MBE, and just an all-around genuine guy (which I think is really what draws people to you).
Carol Pilbasian you're right about everything except when you said that he is genuine and that draws people to him implying that it is important to have people like you. that thought is a disease. No one is more significant than the other. therefore it doesn't make you better if 20 people like you vs 0 people. If you don't first love yourself then it doesn't matter if you are famous and loved by everyone. You are not better than those who love you and they aren't better than you. You are equally as insignificant as those who love you, even if you are famous and worshipped by people that you have never and will never meet. We are all people and need to stop being so hard on each other. Love yourself. The people that you are typically "drawn to" don't give a fuck what people think about them because they are secure with themselves. That is what makes them have seemingly better lives and experiences. It's because their ego has been destroyed in the best way possible.
Man, yes, you are in a big Truman Show, but here everything happens by you not to you. You are the actor, the crew and the film director. You are great, you are awesome, a hero...Own it! And just one advice, to find peace of mind around other I focus deeply in my body, the more focused, grounded and centered in my body I am, less energy is left for the stupid narrative in my head to on and on. Much love!
You never have been and never will be a nobody. You are one of the few authentic people on social media. You do the videos to raise awareness and help people. You do the videos because maybe it helps you. You are truly beautiful inside and out and I wish you could believe that and believe that who you are is just fine and more than good enough. Love you xxx
When you learn to love yourself that's when others can learn to love you. It's hard I know I'm still working on it ten years later. But the reality is you don't have to be liked in order to have a happy life. Just be you, your a beautiful gentleman
Jonny, you are not alone and you are very well liked by your community. I thoroughly enjoy watching your videos because I can heavily relate to you and you make me feel less alone in this big scary world. What you described about kind of predicting things and them happening is something I struggle with on a daily basis. It freaks me out but I must remain calm because I know in the end that it mustn't be real, right? I am inspired by your strength to tell your stories and I appreciate you and your existence. You are a really swell person :)
I can relate to what you are going through. I've been struggling with schizzoaffectitive disorder for a decade.. keep doing what your doing.
I struggle so mush just like you, but with time and experience everything got better.
Stay strong, there's always hope.
All the love.
Hi 've had a history of severe mental illness but managed to get better and no longer take any medication, work part time 2 jobs and actually enjoy my life with my girlfriend and look forward to the future. If you'll like some ideas on how to get better here's a link to my short essay Link: media.yoism.org.s3.amazonaws.com/CakeTheory.pdf Also I've also done some videos on my channel explaining why psychiatry is fraud.
You are liked AND respected !
I totally know what you're going through... it's always there. I try my best to just ignore it but it's so hard to do it. The substance use and how it left the damage on my brain, it is taking so much longer to recover from it than I expected. It's like when you look back the memories and the people came into your life and how they helped you to grow, it should just feel like to the extent of 'natural' but I tended to put so much more meaning, as if I'm being looked after, like that there is a script in my life that people are trying to make me follow... that part of my brain is damaged and it is really hard to control that part of my brain from the substance use. Now I'm well on my recover over 2 years but I really want to go back to the days when I don't put so much meaning into things. The description of what I feels like having that syndrome is... hard... like, no one will ever understand unless they felt them. Every relapse gets me that world that feels like the Truman show, telling me and hearing things and seeing things all the little things that I'm doing wrong. like EVERYTHING...
I'm sorry. That sounds tough. But well done on being in recovery for over 2 years. That's a huge achievement. I hope you feel proud of yourself for that. Keep working on yourself. I am. It gets better
Be proud of yourself. I can relate so much to this
In the end who cares what people think about you. As long as you have a good heart, good intentions, won't hurt yourself/others. People are scared of what they don't understand. You're not alone man. Have a good support group and always listen to yourself/be yourself.
Thank you for this. I tried meth a couple times, and had no one to tell me that this was a thing. I'm just now (7 mos later) realizing it wasn't true. Don't do drugs, kids.
i used to have this thought a lot when i was a kid. i felt like i was an alien that was captured or something, or that everyone else was mundane and i was just so much more interesting then them that they were secretly filming me. i had never seen the truman show, im not even sure it was out at that point, but that feeling wasnt uncommon when i was little. as i got older it just sort of stopped popping up. thank you for posting this, id always wondered if anyone else had that thought.
I want to hug you so tight I've gone through so much of the same stuff you have and you're just amazing You're a sign for me at least that I'm going to survive and it will eventually be okay Thank you so much you're amazing
Thank you for sharing your thoughts in such an open way. It struck me that you spoke about your "true self" being relaxed and uninhibited which I found fascinating because most of us strive to achieve this, often without success. You feel that you are not liked or respected but I can assure you that a vast number of people, more than you realise, both like and respect you. As you have become more famous, with your massively deserved MBE inevitably there are some ignorant and insecure people who will be jealous of the respect and admiration that you have earned. It's a type of bullying and as we know from the work by ditch the label we realise that they are the people with the problem, not you. Look after yourself, feel the love for you and I hope one day to meet you and give you a big hug for all of the incredible work you do to support so many other people. :)
I read most of the comments, how they all said they related to you in someway or another and I guess I'm just another one of those comments. The way you act, the way you perceive things, the way you feel and your thoughts and actions are so similar. I suffer from psychotic episodes and extreme paranoid delusions. I cannot relate specifically to the truman delusion you are experiencing but I know how it feels to wholly and solely believe in something, so much that it is your reality. Its 2019 now, so I am a bit late, but I hope you're doing well now.
You stated what you want and need yourself: "I have to love myself." There are many people who love you, most of them from afar, who only wish that they had the chance to be close to you. Believe this: YOU ARE ENOUGH! You are already worthy of love. Say it to yourself every day with arms raised.
Thanks for the posting Johnny. I also did enjoy the Truman Show delusion, and other films as well as for example Matrix. Films that keep you thinking about people and our reality. In any case :) I am sure that people like you not because you are famous but because how you are, your true self, although as you comment, there is no not need to get other people validation, just be yourself. Best regards, and looking forward for your next post.
Is it an ambiguous yet obvious sign I am supposed to read it off of these situations, from people? It's tiring and exhausting.
Have suffered with this delusion too.
My brother it's like you're speaking through me word for word I literally cannot thank you enough...damn man like let's fkn grab a beer sometime lol would definitely like to talk more about this
I thank you for this peace you've brought me.
Much love from Colombia
Hey Jonny, been following you for a few years now...just watched you on The One Show 👏👏👏👍👍 Great job, Your Awsome, well done getting across the message we all want to shout out- just because its invisible its still there, We are ill but we WILL get through it x
I had the Truman delusion in high school as well. I guess it made things a little easier. I still have them sometimes usually when I go out. Now a days though I fully know it is not true while it’s happening.
The signs are the hardest thing to ignore . Even if I tell myself that they are the delusional thoughts there is the other voice that says” mmm but are you sure?”
I also have the Truman Show delusion. I've been in treatment for sometime now. And it never seems to matter how well my symptoms are managed, it never really goes away. The synchronicities certainly don't help. It is very confusing. It's hard to compartmentalize.
I hear you! You are not alone for sure :)
I never had the Truman show delusion, nor am I schizoaffective but I completely relate to that feeling of wanting people to know the real me and the frustration of not being able to convey that socially.
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Sometimes i think about what if im a reality star, and think about what if everyone is watching me. But its not often i thunk about it. It just crosses my mind. I wander how it would be if i thought about it day and night. That would be stressful
I'm wondering if the invention of screens (tv shows, movies, etc) start this delsion in some of us?
Hi Jonny. I'm not sure what advice I can offer you but I just wanted to comment to offer my support and to say thank you for the video - I'm sure lots of people can relate to this. Much love, Elizabeth xxx
You're amazingly brave
To twine own self be true....such a little statement, but oh so hard to do. Stay strong, you help so many people. I hope that you can find peace. You are enough.
If the Gods are truly watching....shouldn't we give them a show-Thousand eyes from Marco Polo the show
I have experienced this to and still do
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I had this delusion as well. It's difficult.
I never sought any fame or anything like that but I too once temporarily suffered from "the Truman show syndrome"
Fortunately it was only precipitated by substance use, however it was still very unusual for someone to become as delusional as I was. It only lasted a few hours but it wasn't pleasant, I haven't believed it that strongly ever since but once in a while I wonder about it...
It's unfortunate (for you) that you actually WANT to be on the Truman show, because it's harder to rid yourself of a delusion that you want to believe. I myself am afraid of the idea of being the center of the worlds attention, I'm afraid that people wouldn't accept me, that I'd be too different. So if I were told that I'm not on it, it would be a relief.
I think I suffer from it too, like in high school I'll just look up into a corner of the room and talk to myself. I somewhat enjoy it, is that strange?
I know you posted this ages ago but I find it strange that I find so many similarities between our thinking, yet I'm not diagnosed as schizoaffective. I've only really been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but do have delusions and paranoia. I've experienced this greatly, in the past. You link everything up, all the 'signs', all of the intricate details and make a story, believe that they HAVE to mean something, they DO mean something. How could they NOT? You think it's preposterous for yourself, or another, to believe otherwise. And you wonder, how can 'so and so' not have recognised this, or seen it, or put the pieces together. You obsess over it constantly and it drives you to pure irritation. I never understood why other people never got 'fixed' on the same things I was fixed on.
I know that you have symptoms of depression and anxiety, so I suppose it makes sense for me to find deep similarities, but I wonder if there's something I haven't been diagnosed with.
Hope you are doing well J x
Is this a life long battle? Because I don't see anyway to fix this
For some people it is but for others it might just be an 'episode'. I think it will be a lifetime battle for me. But things like therapy have been and continue to be extremely helpful!
i try to think its just coincidence. but now with big brother show, n secret marriage, bcoz my mum doesn't like my boyfreind
"Sometimes it snows as late as May but Summertime always comes eventually." DM @jassimps
My mum had saying im soon is famous in 3 years
Jonny, In time you will come to love yourself, like others love you. Your videos are vital to the wider community and around the world to educated people on such a complex subject. People love you for this.You do more than an actors do. How many actors have portrayed people with bipolar, schizophrenia etc well? They mislead the wider community on these subject. You are still trying to sort life out. It comes out like the truman show and maybe for others the matrix, as people like you think on a higher level. Sometimes we just need to stop and smell the roses, not analyse them. You have a calling in life. Sorry it not an easy one. Maybe the only person ever to be honest enough to educated people so well on a very complex subject. Big things are istall for you, a different kind of fame.
Is it really a delusion? I have the same problem but it doesn't make sense for it to be a delusion. I'm not schizophrenic or bi polar so how could I be experiencing delusions? Am I in a tv show or what?
could just be under government surveillance like i am. ALL of us are being watched though....even those watching you! Gangstalking....organized stalking....dont mind the mindless sheeple...some people simply ALWAYS do what they're told....no backbone, no heart, no integrity....slave to this world....could be something else too...TRUST YOURSELF ONLY
Google zersetzung.
The Truman show is just a great delusion.
google zersetzung.
Dude, I’m legit in the Truman show…..
I hear you. I really do. Have you spoken to anyone about it. I talk to my therapist about it and it helps so much
Fuck me, this is what I have. Still believe it right now. I think your video is a trick just to make me think its not real lol Always in two minds about it. i;veonly ever told about 3 people and they sort of just laughed and went "yea" not really getting it. What do I do?
Brother it is something real! We are in some type of play, simulation we are actors. I am a clairvoyant and medium miguel zalaquett, it is real it is no coincidence I am here writing you this message your not alone it is a spiritual awakening and your third eye open on parallel realities, you are connected outside of the third dimension
thanks for making this video, its really interesting.
however i guess the fact that your alive is proof that your not too famous, because the really famous have no shortage of crazy people who would like to kill them. humans are so fucked up sometimes.....
judging by how you are in this video, you make a great host for this YT channel though. :D
You guys need to fire those Spanish actors from when I went on holiday, they were very obviously looking and talking about me
Go see a psychiatrist
You are being watched. God is real bro. God is watching.
love cures everything. When you stop resisting yourself your suffering will leave
LMAO u were a ti who fell for the meme, weak perception but honestly in a sense it is worth for u I suppose if u got into a relationship, got a job, friends etc, but for me I’m gonna end it 🗿
I'm not sure what you mean by end it but i hope you are ok. Remember there is love and healing out there. It's a cold, cruel world but there are good people in it who can help us through the most difficult parts of life.
@@mrjonnybenjamin if u personally believe there is no trueman esque system in place and u personally feel u have a better life then u should continue what u are doing but in the end there is indeed a type of system in place with the same undertones that the movie was trying to portray. I’m not going to convince you otherwise.
Rush: limelight. I go thru same everyday. I can feel the eyes on me. But I was told by a narcissist thats because I'm a narcissist. All signs seem to point that we all are in reality TV show. Way too many coincidences
What if you're not delusional, what if it's not an illusion? Have you heard of targeted individuals? If you've felt this way for quite some time, it's possible likely even that you may be one of the millions of people targeted around the globe. You might consider educating yourself on the subject (targeted individuals & gangstalking) it might Enlighten you. It's a VERY REAL thing. GBY 💜
I dont think joining other delusional people will help him
I can send you the videos I've taken. And how the doctors/people/family in this town have been treating me. AND YOU TELL ME THAT WHAT I AM FUCKING EXPERIENCING IS A FUCKING DELUSION
Okay, but here's the thing: What if you're right?
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You're not just liked you're LOVED. 'For God so loved the world, as to give his only begotten Son; that whosoever believeth in him, may not perish, but may have life everlasting.' When you discover who you are in Christ and what he went through just so you could be a part of His kingdom.. everyone else's opinion goes out the window. You're a blood bought child of God. All you need to do is accept the offer of eternal life. Praying for you :)