It has been 7 months since our last talk. When I joined college, I lived abroad, left my family and friends and went alone due corona lockdown. Seeing my friends for the last time was unexpected. After my first test in Uni, i chatted her, got to know her, and our friendship started then. I was not kind of guy you want to be friends with, and it took almost two years to get back to on-campus life and get to know other people. But for years in med school, never have I knew anyone with her soul, spirit and thought. You used talk on everything; study together, life, experience, family, books, fears, traumas, pitfalls and always held each other up. One day, I had a really bad panic attack. I started my clinical year, got into internal med rotation and got horribly disappointed with how corrupt the system is. I started reconsidering my decisions and plans and i seemed hopless. I chatted and went talking for hours to calm me down. That day i knew i just dont care about her, I love her. Actually, maybe loved her the whole time and i didnt know. But, that was her grad year in few months, And I didnt want to be a pain in the back, didnt want to corrupt everything we had, she probably will start her life early and i will be still in the study-era. I didnt want even the possibility of her liking me back, because it will hold us back both. A week later, i dailed her and talked it out, to put an end for it. We said goodbye, and I deleted the whole chat. Most people say if you love something, you must fight for the last breath for it. But i knew that day, letting someone be can be one of the hardest, but most honest forms of love. She was not the most beautiful of women, most intelligent nor delightful to dream of, but loved how authentic she is, how one of a kind she is. Just the sense that you cant or wont be with her under the pressure of yoyr circumstances is annoying. Been 7 months and I have been moving on lately, but everytime i hear this dialog, a tear gets held in my throat. The voice extremely matches hers. Cant get her out of my head n' Kept always of hoping to see her face or hearing her voice, even by a chance or from far. I just do not want to be with anyone else, not a replacement for what I had to her.
You can’t give up on your life you might not have a future now but you will have one if you just keep trying don’t look bad and see your mistakes look forward and see how you can learn from those mistakes
I have no future nothing to lose nothing to gain string of one night stands with no girl that cares or cared no ged shitty dead end job no real friends dad that abandoned me and won't talk to me I'm honestly just loss and I hate my self idk why but I do
To all my friends Don't give up buddy..we have a future we need to focus on ourselves and our life don't fall in love in wrong time but think before love someone may Allah guide us♥️
Hey please just please never think about taking your life There are good moments and also bad moments in life that is unfortunately so but trust me everything will be better again Your life is something special and you should appreciate that :)
@@Tim0n-bl1zs bro today is my birthday and life sucks so much I I must have an addiction to a girl I'm in love with that makes me feel really bad, the fact that she has a boyfriend hurts me a lot, the only thing I have is the gym and family, because I've never been loved by any girl in these 15 years
Yo, don't worry. Your time will come when a relationship is right for you. If not now it will be one day. I can relate to your situation so please know that you are not alone Don't waste time catching butterflies. Instead, build a garden, they'll come to that garden. And if they don't come you'll still have a beautiful garden :)
I want to see the world from the sky to maybe prove that I don't always think about you, but I know even at a height like that, I'd look for you in every piece of land. This isn't my home, I hate it here, I wanna leave.
She broke up with me today she said( I don’t feel comfortable expressing my emotions with you and it feels like I’m taking to a brick wall I like you but I no longer love you) 1 year down the drain bro😔
Real. (Send help, each day is getting worse and worse and i cannot handle the pain and suffering it comes with. Im struggling to get by and it comes harder and harder to put up with this bullshit and im going insane i can only find comfort in confessing on these videos in comments since its the only place where i can confess and have no judgement and know that the people i tell wont go and use it against me or make fun of me for it.)
Yo my brother you can’t do that to yourself because of something we all have pain you just got to learn how to laugh at it and embrace that pain do. Or do anything there are many things to live for
Everyone has a future, don’t give up guys life is worth it. You matter to me.
real
but we don´t know how is that future ...
It has been 7 months since our last talk. When I joined college, I lived abroad, left my family and friends and went alone due corona lockdown. Seeing my friends for the last time was unexpected. After my first test in Uni, i chatted her, got to know her, and our friendship started then. I was not kind of guy you want to be friends with, and it took almost two years to get back to on-campus life and get to know other people. But for years in med school, never have I knew anyone with her soul, spirit and thought. You used talk on everything; study together, life, experience, family, books, fears, traumas, pitfalls and always held each other up. One day, I had a really bad panic attack. I started my clinical year, got into internal med rotation and got horribly disappointed with how corrupt the system is. I started reconsidering my decisions and plans and i seemed hopless. I chatted and went talking for hours to calm me down. That day i knew i just dont care about her, I love her. Actually, maybe loved her the whole time and i didnt know. But, that was her grad year in few months, And I didnt want to be a pain in the back, didnt want to corrupt everything we had, she probably will start her life early and i will be still in the study-era. I didnt want even the possibility of her liking me back, because it will hold us back both. A week later, i dailed her and talked it out, to put an end for it. We said goodbye, and I deleted the whole chat. Most people say if you love something, you must fight for the last breath for it. But i knew that day, letting someone be can be one of the hardest, but most honest forms of love. She was not the most beautiful of women, most intelligent nor delightful to dream of, but loved how authentic she is, how one of a kind she is. Just the sense that you cant or wont be with her under the pressure of yoyr circumstances is annoying. Been 7 months and I have been moving on lately, but everytime i hear this dialog, a tear gets held in my throat. The voice extremely matches hers. Cant get her out of my head n' Kept always of hoping to see her face or hearing her voice, even by a chance or from far. I just do not want to be with anyone else, not a replacement for what I had to her.
Wanted to cry but can't cry.
In the end, you gotta do it for you.
real (I’m just sitting in front of the monitor with a stone face and I understand that I will have no future)
You will have a future my brother
You can’t give up on your life you might not have a future now but you will have one if you just keep trying don’t look bad and see your mistakes look forward and see how you can learn from those mistakes
@@Himtheman62Thank you bro, you lifted my mood, all the best to you too, never give up brother
real
I have no future nothing to lose nothing to gain string of one night stands with no girl that cares or cared no ged shitty dead end job no real friends dad that abandoned me and won't talk to me I'm honestly just loss and I hate my self idk why but I do
Thank you
🖤
To all my friends
Don't give up buddy..we have a future we need to focus on ourselves and our life don't fall in love in wrong time but think before love someone may Allah guide us♥️
love??? Man, the problem is much bigger.
If i lose her it's over for me.
I lost her.
@@LeZxppo stay strong brother.
@@aboveallsorrow5648trying
This happens all the time, but do not be sad, brother, perhaps this is to your advantage
Jesus is with you no matter what happens. Have faith.
Real( now i gonna kms)
Hey please just please never think about taking your life
There are good moments and also bad moments in life that is unfortunately so but trust me everything will be better again Your life is something special and you should appreciate that :)
I suggest you go out to the fresh air for a little walk or do some sporting activities because that might help your mood
@@Tim0n-bl1zs bro today is my birthday and life sucks so much
I I must have an addiction to a girl I'm in love with that makes me feel really bad, the fact that she has a boyfriend hurts me a lot, the only thing I have is the gym and family, because I've never been loved by any girl in these 15 years
@@Tim0n-bl1zs thanks for care about me
Yo, don't worry. Your time will come when a relationship is right for you. If not now it will be one day. I can relate to your situation so please know that you are not alone
Don't waste time catching butterflies. Instead, build a garden, they'll come to that garden. And if they don't come you'll still have a beautiful garden :)
I want to see the world from the sky to maybe prove that I don't always think about you, but I know even at a height like that, I'd look for you in every piece of land. This isn't my home, I hate it here, I wanna leave.
She broke up with me today she said( I don’t feel comfortable expressing my emotions with you and it feels like I’m taking to a brick wall I like you but I no longer love you) 1 year down the drain bro😔
me too bro, she already found another guy
@@bxltics3787 so did mine🤦♂️
Real they always leave for the dumbest reasons
Love is lost in this world all we can do is cry about it
Gonna edit this if yk what happens
Real. (Send help, each day is getting worse and worse and i cannot handle the pain and suffering it comes with. Im struggling to get by and it comes harder and harder to put up with this bullshit and im going insane i can only find comfort in confessing on these videos in comments since its the only place where i can confess and have no judgement and know that the people i tell wont go and use it against me or make fun of me for it.)
Brother im like u i cant fw anything no more i want help
I want help but know I can't be helped
I can’t take this no more I’m not okay I’m ending it
Don't do it, Brother. It's not worth it, please. I don't know what you're going through right now, but just know that I'm here if you want to talk.
i want to end it all. (im ending it all in 10 days.)
Let god guide you, whatever your going through, jesus loves you, i love you. Do not waste your life over a problem. No storm lasts forever.
You okay, brother?
Please don't
@@lieutenantzastava8162 im not okay.
Yo my brother you can’t do that to yourself because of something we all have pain you just got to learn how to laugh at it and embrace that pain do. Or do anything there are many things to live for
THIS NOT REAL, ITS JUST A DREAM…. PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP….💔🥀